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[bell rings]

[piano music]

- I wanna tell you about my best friend in the world.

That's a Canon C300.

It's being operated by Arseni, our first camera operator.

They concurrently are being shot

by Elvira Lind, our B camera operator.

[camera stand clicking]

[indistinct chatter]

I'm an actress.

I mean, I'm acting right now.

Normally, I'm a dancer and a choreographer.

I'm acting in this because given all

the dancing that's going to be happening,

we thought it'd be more viable for the dancers to pull off

the acting required, than vice versa.

I didn't write these words.

They were written by what we as species

commonly refer to as a man.

And the part I'll be playing, or playing a part of,

is also for purposes of identification, a man.

My name is Eden.

That's me on the bed.

And that

is Aviva.

Who wasn't aware all these cameras would be here

when we were introduced by our common friend, Nissan.

Nissan is a man about town in about a dozen different towns.

New York, London, Berlin, Barcelona, Paris.

He speaks seven or eight languages fluently

and each one of them with whatever

loosh affected accent is in that language.

He's flamboyant, though straight.

And at heart, kind of a Yenta

who's always looking to play match matchmaker.

He was living in Paris at the time and was friends

with Aviva, who was a native there.

- I'm a dancer, too.

Not exactly French, but an accent is an accent.

[upbeat music]

- Nissan tried to set Aviva up

with some of his friends there.

For whatever reason, nothing clicked.

Then he thought of me.

Living in New York,still reeling from a devastating breakup

to which my suicidal response had led me to understand

that I was dealing with a deep and abiding depression,

I had been carrying my entire life.

And there's nothing more depressing or lonely

than being alone in New York City.

Nissan told me about this amazing creature

I had to meet right away.

I was reluctant at first, but after some convincing,

I sent an email off into the ether.

It went like this.

Hey there Aviva across the ocean.

Eden here.

I'm a friend of Nissan's.

He told me I absolutely must email you,

which I'm very happy to do.

I'm not sure what to say, but Nissan,

I don't know what you did to him,

but it must've been something.

He was so emphatic that he almost got me to get on a plane

and come to Paris for some event,

or I don't know what, this weekend.

Unfortunately, I have to finish this project I'm working on.

I'm on a deadline, so I really can't do it right now.

However, one of these days I'll be out there.

Do you ever leave Paris?

What are you up to anyway?

What do you do?

Who are you actually?

I'm a poor 76-year-old Satmar Yeshiva student

with a dead wife and 14 children.

The oldest of which is already a grandfather.

I live in a shtetl in Krakow.

If you are interested in pursuing a correspondence,

please email me back, E.

And Aviva responded,

- [Aviva] Dear E.

Sounds good.

I'm a 60 years old virgin, blind as a bat

from a horrible accident I had last year

while cleaning my cat's claws.

I have 61 cats, one for every year of disappointment.

I have a voice of a bird, one great boob..

Lost the other one to cancer, and got two cats that year.

And an appetite for new experiences.

Nissan kindly offered his help in ending my curiosity.

And I guess you're his idea of a perfect man for this job.

Unfortunately, with every moment that passes,

my heart loses a little bit of innocence,

so I cannot offer you the love I had in me on Wednesday,

but I think I still be happy to meet you, and your children.

And who knows, maybe we'll fall in love

and learn that life is full of surprises.

Waiting to hear more about you, A.

♪ Oh

♪ Baby I am yours

♪ I said oh

♪ Baby I am yours

♪ Said oh

♪ Baby I am yours

♪ I said oh

♪ Baby I am yours

[upbeat music]

- We quickly recognized one another as kindred spirits

and our desire to explore and express our deepest selves.

At least in words.

And so, we created an imaginary space together.

A space outside of time and space, shared only by us.

Like two shipwrecked survivors on a desert Island.

An old-fashioned letter writing romance,

propelled into hyper-speed by the actuality of the internet.

After few months of correspondence,

we graduated to phone conversations.

These were somewhat more problematic,

as elements of our personalities that had been hidden

under the disguise provided by the written word,

were exposed by the demands of spoken communication.

Aviva's assertiveness and impatience took me aback,

and my pessimism and need to denigrate myself,

and relationships in general,

forced their way through my better judgment

and onto my tongue.

But for all that, our digital romance ran hot and strong,

and Aviva decided to pack a suitcase

and venture forth to visit me for a week.

And see what it would be like to connect in person.

- There you go, Eden.

There we go.

Good sweetie.

Aviva.

[speaking in a foreign language]

Hello, hi.

[speaking in a foreign language]

Yeah, baby.

Oh, that's it, yes, yes.

Come on, Eden.

Come on, you're a big boy.

You can do it, come on.

[urine dripping]

Come on.

Come on, give us a little pee pee.

You can do it.

[baby laughing]

Aviva.

[speaking in foreign language]

[man laughing]

[speaking in a foreign language]

- [indistinct] Whoa.

- Well, it's just frustrating.

Yeah, I'd like to.

- Aviva.

[children laughing]

[dramatic music]

[pencil scribbling]

[speaking in a foreign language]

[woman moaning]

- Oh my God, Eden is so cute.

[woman moaning]

[speaking foreign language]

[soft music]

- [Woman] Aviva.

[speaking in a foreign language]

- Close the door Ian, come on.

[soft music]

[woman panting]

[speaking in a foreign language]

[women panting]

[phone ringing]

[toilet flushing]

- [Aviva] Hello?

- [Eden] Hey, it's Eden.

- [Aviva] I know.

- [Eden] Well, hello.

- [Aviva] You sound so different.

- [Eden] Than what?

- [Aviva] Than I expected.

- [Eden] How so?

- [Aviva] You sound so American.

- [Eden] I am so American, what did you expect?

- [Aviva] I don't know.

Do I sound different?

- [Eden] You sound pretty much the way I expected.

- [Aviva] Is a good moment to talk now?

- [Eden] Always a good moment to talk to you.

- [Aviva] Yeah, the time differences is...

can you meet my father?

- [Eden] I never get along with fathers.

- [Aviva] You will love him.

He's the smartest and funniest man I have ever.

I'm a romanticist.

- [Eden] Yeah, until now.

I think I'm a realist,

I mean at least so far as I understand reality.

- [Aviva] Neither is a philosophy, just an emotional...

I don't think it's always smart to talk about everything,

especially love or past lovers.

- [Eden] Why is that off limits?

- [Aviva] It's just put it to start new things new.

- [Eden] I'm tired of talking, we need to meet.

- [Aviva] Yeah, so I'm coming.

I already bought the tickets.

- [Eden] You did?

- [Aviva] Yes, I did.

- [Eden] You're really coming?

- [Aviva] I'm coming.

I'm really coming.

[soft music]

- Sweet Aviva across the ocean.

I'm so excited to finally see you face to face,

though I admit to being equally afraid of it.

It's all fun and games, until I actually have to be there.

- Is this your usual place?

- I don't know.

- You don't know?

- If I say it is, and you're asking

because you don't like it, then I lose it points.

If you like it, and I say it isn't, I lose points.

If you like, I can I say yes, I gain points.

- You're overthinking this.

You know, I'm in town only for a few days.

And I know that we've known each other for a while,

well, from across the ocean anyway,

but I think it's best if we let the physical

take its own course.

Not to push things right away.

[soft music]

[both moaning]

Where are you?

Why won't you to look at me?

- I'm looking at you.

- You're not looking at me.

- I'm looking at you.

- At me, into my eyes.

- Your eyes?

- Can't you make an eye contact?

- Yeah.

Sure.

Can I blink?

- Forget it.

- What?

- I can't do it if you're going to make fun of me.

- I'm looking into your eyes,

that's what you asked me to do.

- Not like that.

- Not like what?

There's only one way to look right into someone's eyes.

- No, there's not.

You think I don't see what you're doing?

- What am I doing?

- I don't know.

Taking a little look at me here,

my shoulder, my neck, my foot, maybe.

Taking pictures of things that turns you on,

fit into some pre-programed sequence

of triggers you're used to responding to.

Making a pornographic movie in your head and playing it,

even when I'm right here with you.

- Hey, take it easy, okay?

This is that moment when I wonder

what really happened to you when you were a child.

- You know, everything there is to know about my childhood,

and it has nothing to do with this.

- We really shouldn't have written to each other

so much before meeting in person.

- You regret getting to know each other?

- I regret that all those words made us think

we know each other when we really don't.

- So, tell me I'm wrong.

- That's what I'm saying.

- No, look me in the eyes and tell me.

- Jesus, with the eyes, already.

- [Female Eden] Something I never told Aviva.

Once, when I was a child, maybe four years old,

my mother took me to play in the park.

And in those days, you know, the park was perfect.

A golden realm, suspended between innocence and knowledge.

A perfect place.

I met another kid there about my age.

- Why are you going this way?

- [Female Eden] We both had bikes, and we bonded instantly.

[children giggling]

We made a connection stronger than anything

I normally experience with someone I just met.

Our parents must have sensed this, because my mother,

who was usually in a rush, let us play together

for a long time.

[children chanting]

It was heaven.

But then, at some point,

I noticed something that struck me as strange.

[soft music]

- Your shoes are red.

- Yeah.

- Pretty weird for a boy.

- I'm not a boy, I'm a girl.

- [Female Eden] I was stunned, betrayed.

I felt like the bedrock of reality

had shifted under my feet.

And that was that.

Paradise lost.

- When will you be back?

- [Female Eden] I don't know, not too late.

- I don't understand why I can't come.

- It's not that you can't, it's just,

Aviva.

- I moved here three months ago.

when I flew back to Paris after my first visit,

I wasn't sure about things.

But as soon as the space between us opened up,

while our love put back in and fill it up.

So, I closed my apartment and moved to America, for love.

I feel the need to clarify that, because you know,

my friends at home and people here, they're like,

"If you make it work with Eden for three years,

you'll get a green card."

And I'm like, "I don't give a fuck

about the fucking green card.

I don't give a fuck about this disgusting country.

I don't give a fuck about becoming a fucking American.

I came here for only one reason."

- Aviva.

You know all my friends and they all think you're great.

I just need some time out with the guys sometimes.

Know what I mean?

- No.

- [Female Eden] What do you mean, no?

- I mean, what can you talk about with your friends alone

that you can not talk about with me there?

- You, for starters?

- What are you going to say about me?

- It's not like I have anything planned.

I just need some perspective sometimes.

- Who's going to be there?

- I don't know.

Mason for sure,

[upbeat music]

Dave Mazzola, Aaron Bud, Kieran, Tony Takata.

You know, Mason's usual gang.

- You just don't want me to come

because you're in love with Mason.

- I'm not in love with Mason.

He's my best friend, and sometimes,

I just need some alone time with him.

Is that okay with you?

- Go, have fun.

Be gay with Mason and your usual gang.

I'll stay home and watch something on TV.

- [Man] Eden. - [Man] He's on the loose.

- [Man] Where's Mason?

- [Man] Oh, fuck Mason.

- You think Eden was hanging [indistinct].

[indistinct chatter]

- [Man] Super powers.

[indistinct chatter]

- Mason.

- What's up?

- How are we tonight?

[glasses clinking]

[acoustic music begins]

[all laughing]

[acoustic music continues]

♪ I love you like chisel and stone ♪

♪ I love you like needle and bone ♪

♪ I love you like a god loves his son ♪

♪ And I love you like my hand on a gun ♪

♪ I go bang bang bang bang bang bang bang ♪

♪ I'm back back again

♪ Oh I love you

♪ Bang bang bang bang bang bang sha-bang ♪

♪ I'm back back again

♪ Ooh

♪ I can't think of anything

♪ Anything but you

♪ Ooh

♪ That's how I love love love love love love love ♪

[acoustic music]

[subway car rattling]

- Aviva.

I'm home.

[water splashing]

- Hey.

I was just about to go to sleep.

- Aviva I'm sorry.

You could have come, it was just the guys.

- It's all right.

I'm sorry too, I know you need to breath once in a while.

I actually got a lot done.

I made a lot of phone calls,

set up some things for this week.

I've been sitting on my ass too long,

waiting for things to happen.

- You've been adjusting.

- No, that's not it.

Eden, you never really saw me at home.

I'm always making things happen, almost too much.

Go, go, go all the time.

You know, my friends wouldn't even recognize me.

Something happened when I came here.

But enough is enough.

Now, I'm back.

[both moaning]

Hold me, like this, hard.

[both grunting]

I'm cumming.

[both panting]

[Eden chuckles]

- That was fast.

- Yeah.

That's how I am normally, when I'm happy.

- It's amazing.

- Come on.

- What?

- I want you to finish, too.

Come on.

- Okay.

- What are you doing?

- [Eden] Can I get on top again?

- Why?

- I just don't finish like this.

- [Male Aviva] Like what?

- When I'm on the bottom.

- You don't?

You can't or you don't want to?

- I just won't, okay?

- How do you know?

- Because I know myself?

- You know yourself?

- Yeah.

- Oh, it doesn't seem so to me.

- You know, or someone who just had a nice orgasm

in record time and expressed the desire to return the favor,

you have an odd way of showing it.

- I'm sorry, I'm sorry.

- No, you're not.

- I'm sorry, come here.

- Forget it.

- Come on, I'm sorry.

- Look, it's not gonna happen, okay?

Forget it.

- I had a perfect place once, too, and not so long ago.

It was a room, a white room.

Everything was white.

The walls, the bed.

The covering on the furniture,

The shades were white, and the light that came in

through the windows was white.

The reason it was perfect, though,

was that Phillipe was in it.

I met him in the [indistinct].

He was serving falafel at this place called Shahabe.

People stood in line for an hour.

He was so beautiful.

Black hair, black eyes.

He had just come from Morocco.

A Jew, like me.

I never thought he would be interested in me, but he was.

It's true we didn't have very much to talk about,

but we didn't need to talk.

[soft music]

He lived with his family, and I lived

with a few girlfriends in the 10th,

so I found us an apartment of our own.

Just a room, really.

But it was ours, our white room.

[soft music]

I had been hurting myself, cutting myself, for years,

and when he kissed me, the scars in my flesh remained,

but the wounds in my heart and soul were healed,

and I was filled with a light more pure and white

than the lights filling our perfect room.

We lived for each other, or at least, I lived for him.

I stopped almost everything,

I hardly saw my family, my friends.

I worked just enough to help us get by.

I cooked, I cleaned, I made sure our room was spotless.

I guess I lied when I said my friends

wouldn't recognize me here in New York.

They would recognize me very well.

How I am when I'm trying to-

- Trying to what?

- Experience love.

- You feel like you have to give up

who you are in order to love?

- In order to experience love in return, yeah.

- You think no one will love you if they know who you are?

- I don't know.

Do you love me?

- Aviva.

You okay?

- I should be asking you that.

- Me?

- You were angry.

- It's okay, everything back to normal.

- Sorry, I should open a window.

- What are you thinking about?

- Nothing, everything, you know.

I was thinking about Phillipe.

- What about him?

- Actually, I was thinking more about me with him,

why I'm always the same when I'm,

- When you're what?

- In a relationship.

- Everything's a relationship.

- With men.

- Glad to know I inspire generalized

Pavlovian reaction to an entire gender.

- And you think you're different with me

than you are with any other woman you attract?

- You never said why you and Philippe broke up.

- I told you.

- No, you said you were heartbroken,

you moved back with your parents,

that you couldn't get out of bed for more than a year,

but she never said why the relationship ended.

- It ended because he became religious.

- You're joking.

- And he wanted me to be the same.

And I tried, too.

I tried to learn all the laws and lit the candles

on Shabbat, and cooked only kosher food.

What?

- It's funny.

Did he grow peyos?

- Actually, he did.

- Was he sexy?

Did he look hot, naked, with his peyos?

- Better than you do without them.

I tried, but I couldn't.

I felt like a terrible person, a sinner.

I didn't eat, I didn't sleep.

I was thin like this, maybe 40 kilos.

Finally, my friends had to make an intervention,

and they told me I was going crazy, and I saw I was.

So I left him.

- [Eden] You left him?

- [Aviva] I packed my suitcase when he was at work,

and went back to my parents' house,

and I never saw our white room again.

- [Eden] Your white room?

- [Aviva] My own perfect place.

Like the park you never told me about.

You see, I lost paradise too.

[soft music]

- [Female Eden] And now you're here.

- [Male Aviva] Now I'm here.

- [Female Eden] But?

- [Male Aviva] I'm happy I'm here,

but I hate this apartment.

- [Female Eden] So?

We'll move.

- [Woman] This is a great space.

And it's in a great neighborhood.

- Is it?

- The best.

Where are you from?

- Paris.

- Paris, what a beautiful city.

- Have you been there?

- No, but I plan on visiting someday.

These windows have a rare view for this part of town,

which I'm sure your husband can tell you.

- Eden's not my husband,

we're together, but not married.

- [Woman] Not yet?

- [Aviva] Not yet.

You like this neighborhood, baby?

- Sure.

- This apartment is an absolute steal.

Now it's a little cozy, but the light is fantastic.

Southern exposure, which you're rarely get in a place

this cheap, especially in the bedroom.

- Did you see the bedrooms, baby?

- All the units in this building are brand new.

Central heat and air, all the appliances.

- It's a great size.

It doesn't have much character,

but Eden likes things simple, right baby?

- Whatever.

[fridge door thudding]

- Eden?

I'm sick of the way you were acting, you hear me?

- How am I acting?

- Like you wanna be anywhere but here.

- I didn't like the place,

what am I supposed to do?

Jump up and down and grin like a fool,

until we walk out of the door?

- You know what?

You stay home.

I'll do it alone.

I'll talk to the realtors, I'll make the appointments,

I'll go see all the places

until I find something amazing to show you.

Think that might work?

- Proud of yourself?

- You talking to me?

Well, I'm the only one here, you talking to me?

Bitch, you ain't in gay Paris.

Go grab a crepe in your Suzette.

Get your ass up, because it's about to get gritty.

I'm gonna remind you in case you forget,

this boy came up in New York City.

- Yeah, boy, you're in our house now.

So watch me be with my dawg, know what I'm sayin'?

- Mark Gold in the house.

Ran with this bad boy from when we were six till we were 13.

We dropped out of each other's lives, you know how it is.

But he's in my mind, and these streets are his.

[bell ringing]

- Hey yo guys, you left your shit in the lunchroom.

- Adam D.

[indistinct chatter]

- Adam D. the world's nerdiest kid.

- And that's sayin' a lot.

Go bust a move, kid, show 'em what you got.

[hip-hop music]

[all cheering]

I thought you moved somewhere uptown, to the country.

- Man, you can take the boy out of the city,

but you can't take the city out of the boy.

- That's what I'm sayin'

- That's what he's been sayin', yo.

- Shorty comes in my house.

- In your house, dawg?

- Starts throwin' her weight around, like I'm her bitch.

- Man, she don't know who she's fuckin' with, B.

- Been takin' the D to Coney with my crew

since I was, like, 10 years old, dawg.

- Been mugged on every corner on the Upper West Side

between Central Park West and Riverside Drive.

- Stole candy and comic books from every newsstand

in the hood since the day I started whackin' off.

[police siren blaring]

- [Mark] And she gonna tell you what to do?

- Man, show her how we do, dawg.

- Man, show her how we do.

- Let's go.

[hip-hop music]

- Oh, yeah, Mark, okay.

Get it Mark, get it, get it.

- Pass, my turn.

- Go, Adam.

[all cheering]

[police siren blaring]

- Coney Island, baby.

[hip-hop music]

♪ You know I got the step flow

♪ You know who have the step flow ♪

♪ You know I got the step flow

♪ You know who's got the step flow ♪

♪ You know I got the step flow

♪ You know who's got the step flow ♪

♪ You know I got the step flow

♪ You know who's got the step flow ♪

♪ You know I got the step flow

♪ Yeah, yeah, now

[hip-hop music]

♪ You know I got the step flow

♪ You know who's got the step flow ♪

♪ You know I got the step flow

♪ You know who's got the step flow ♪

♪ You know I got the step flow

♪ You know who's got the step flow ♪

♪ You know I got the step flow

[fireworks exploding]

[siren sounding]

- [Aviva] You won't regret it.

It's by far the best place in the entire city for the price.

- It's a done deal, Aviva, signed, sealed, and delivered.

- You're sure you'll be all right?

- I will be.

Things are just moving fast.

- I've been here for nearly half a year.

- I'll be fine.

I just need things to slow down for a bit.

- [Man] Marriage is your only option,

I mean if you wanna stay

in the country, legally of course.

- I thought it was only if I have to fly out

and back until I get my green card.

- New immigration laws are in place.

If you want to stay here legally and work here legally,

you need a special dispensation,

which takes months to file for

and it might take years to go through

with no guarantee of success.

- I can't do that.

- [Man] I can only present the options available to you.

- Six months ago, before I moved here,

Eden sent me an email that said,

- [Woman] My sweet Aviva across the ocean.

I can't believe this thing we're having between us.

Are you really leaving Paris to be with me?

I never, ever expected something like this to happen.

Not the way it has.

Not with someone like you.

I feel like a leaf in the wind,

like my life is a strange dream.

I'm the same actor that I've always been,

playing the same role, but there's no script anymore.

The play doesn't have a structure that I understand.

The way I fit into the totality of it

is a complete mystery to me.

And I'm lost, I'm totally lost.

I'm so grateful to you for feeling for me.

But I can't believe that you're willing

to anchor yourself to someone so lost

and blindly wandering through the fog.

If there's anything that scares me about our relationship,

is that I'm going to have to adjust

to being a real person again,

if that makes any sense at all.

I'm trying not to allow my fear to fuck up

the most incredible thing in my life, which is you.

You're amazing.

You're wise and challenging,

and open to adjusting and changing.

And you never fail to step up

when the situation calls for it.

I'm lucky to know you.

I want you in my life.

I'm on my knees, begging you to be in my life.

You are life.

- [Aviva] That's what he said then.

Now he's saying,

- I'm sorry.

- It's just papers Eden.

- [Eden] Yeah, it's papers, it's marriage and commitment.

It's marriage, Aviva.

- It's marriage so that we can see if we want to be married.

Are you saying that you don't wanna be with me?

- No, that's not what I'm saying.

- [Male Aviva] Then what are you saying?

- Just that I'm not ready to get married so fast.

- Are you ready to come to Paris to live with me there?

- You know I can't do that.

- You know I didn't know you were so fucking bourgeois

that you make such a big deal out of marriage.

It's a legal exercise, something that allows us

to be together so that we can explore our love.

I can't believe you would allow everything

to end over some bureaucratic bullshit, you know?

Fuck it.

[Male Aviva sobbing]

[horn honking]

- Hey, baby.

You're right.

Baby.

Let's do it.

Stop crying.

It's just papers, you're right.

Let's do it.

- Thank you, I love you so much.

- I love you, too.

- Thank you.

- [Eden] Of course.

It's a beautiful night in your city.

Wanna take a walk in it?

- Give me a moment to recompose myself.

- Of course.

[soft music]

Dear God, thank you.

Thank you for bringing Aviva into my life.

I know I've been so cut off, and how hard it's been for me

to connect to the gift of this life in the present moment.

Stop.

I've been cut off from myself for so long

that I've forgotten what it's like to make choices

based on a positive connections with this life.

Stop.

Aviva is so strong and alive and brave.

Please stop.

She's brave, and she's a fighter, and I thank you

for this opportunity so that I can move in the direction

that I wouldn't have been able to if I was on my...

Just stop it.

Aviva is an example of courage and spirit,

and I thank you for this opportunity to learn from her.

Thank you for presenting me with constant beauty,

when all I've done is cast a pall of my own making

over the shimmering beauty of creation.

Thank you for giving me a chance

so that I can have love and connection and growth and joy,

even when my every thought has been turned

against you in anger and in gratitude.

Thank you for bringing Aviva into my life.

Thank you for giving me a chance to say yes rather than no.

Thank you for someone who will actually fight for me,

someone who I can fight for, yes.

Thank you for someone who will fight for me.

Just stop it.

Thank you for someone who will fight me for being...

Just stop it already.

Fucking shit, just stop it.

For one goddam second, can you just sit still?

Put your fucking clothes on.

Please.

- [Aviva] You ready?

- Just go, you go.

[speaking in foreign language]

- [Aviva] Dear mom, we decided to have

a real New York city wedding.

We bought rings on 47th street.

Then took the Metro down to the City Hall.

Eden's friend, Mason, was our first witness,

and Nissan flew from Berlin to be our second,

because it was him who introduced us, after all.

The judge was a strange little woman,

who reminded me of Nana,

- I Eden.

- If Nana was insane.

- Take Aviva to be my wife.

- I, Eden, take a Viva to be my wife,

- [Aviva] But she seemed really happy for us.

She must do this 100 times a week, so maybe it's just

my fantasy, but when she married us,

I thought I saw tears in her eyes.

- And I promise my love to you.

- With this ring, I thee wed.

- [Woman] I, Aviva, take Eden to be my husband.

- I, Aviva, take Eden to be my husband.

- [Woman] To have and to hold.

- To have and to hold.

- [Woman] In sickness and in health.

- In sickness and in health.

- [Woman] For richer and for poorer.

- For richer and for poorer.

- [Woman] And I promise my love to you.

- [Aviva] And I promise my love to you.

- [Woman] With this ring, I thee wed.

- With this ring-

- [Woman] Just as two threads woven in opposite directions

can form a beautiful tapestry,

so can your two lives merged together

to form a beautiful marriage.

Love is the reason you are here, but it will take trust

to know in your hearts [indistinct].

And insomuch as you've promised your love for each other,

by these vows, I now declare you husband and wife.

You may kiss your bride.

- [Aviva] And that was that.

Afterward Mason organized a party for our friends

at the restaurant he owns.

And we talked and laughed all night.

It was beautiful.

[hands clapping]

[accordion music]

♪ La sha-la-la-la-la

♪ La la sha-la-la-la-la

♪ La-La-La-La sha-la-la-la-la

♪ Don't you think

♪ It's time you get over that

♪ Don't you think you had enough ♪

♪ I mean I know you had it rough ♪

♪ But that pansy-fancy way of looking grim ♪

♪ All through the day and night ♪

♪ Is something wrong my dear

♪ Have I said it way to clear

♪ Then let me whisper in your ear ♪

♪ All these words I know are wrong ♪

♪ But for the sake of writing a song ♪

♪ Here is what I guess you wanna hear ♪

♪ Somewhere up there

♪ The sky is blue for you

♪ Somewhere out there

♪ There's something new to do

♪ Somebody loves you

♪ Sha-La-La-La-La-La-La

♪ Somebody loves you

[accordion music]

♪ Tell me do you think you have some exclusivity ♪

♪ On every shadow of regret

♪ That's lurking in proximity

♪ To what you think your life should be ♪

♪ But if you close your eyes you'll see ♪

♪ There's nothing for you here

♪ Still the only words you wanna hear are ♪

♪ Somewhere up there

♪ The sky is blue for you

♪ Somewhere out there

♪ There's something new to do

♪ Somebody loves you

♪ Sha-La-La-La-La-La-La

♪ Somebody loves you

[jazz music]

♪ Somebody loves you

- Hey what's wrong?

- Nothing.

- Why aren't you dancing?

- Are you having a good time?

- I'm trying to.

- Then go and have fun and stop worrying about me, okay?

- No I can't, when I see you standing like this.

- Sure, you can.

- You know I can't.

- That's your choice.

If you wanna make my experience your experience,

that's your responsibility.

- I don't understand why you're doing this right now.

These are your friends, they're here for you.

They're happy for you.

- You're doing fine without me.

In fact, you're doing a lot better without me.

I'm just ruining your night, I'm gonna go.

- No, you're acting like a child.

- Hey, let's not fight, okay?

I'm sorry, I'm ruining your time.

You're better off without me here.

- I'll come with you.

- Are you crazy?

That'll be a disaster, it'll break Aviva's heart.

Just stay here and have fun, okay.

No one will notice a goddam thing when I'm gone.

The whole party will just liven up

and no one will even know why.

Somehow everything will have just gotten better.

Hey.

I'll see you later.

[upbeat music]

- Hey.

You okay?

Hey.

- No, it's just seeing everyone here for me, for us.

- I know.

I know, I know, I know.

I love you.

- I love you.

[crowd cheering]

[both panting]

I'm cumming.

- [Eden] Cum, cum.

[Male Aviva grunting]

- My love.

Sorry.

- No.

- I'm so fast.

- You're perfect, you're perfect.

- Come here, come here, come here.

- No.

- But I want you to.

- Come here, stop. - I want you to be-

- Keep doing what you're doing.

- Are you sure?

[both moaning]

- I was thinking of trying out a song at this juncture.

I know this isn't really a musical.

I love musicals.

I love it when people start to dance,

but I kind of hate it when people break out into song.

I mean, I thought it'd be fun to have the kids

bustin' the rap back there, even if it's way outside

the style of everything that we're doing here.

But I mean, fuck consistency and tone, we did it.

I'm talking about when some happy guy,

or some melancholy guy with his hands in his pockets,

suddenly gets that faraway look in his eye

and looks somewhere right about camera,

or down to the shoes, and it's like, it's coming to him.

This song that took 20 people months

to create, he's making it up right now.

He'll look up, and, well like I said, I hate it,

so I'm not gonna do it.

What I am gonna do is talk about what I've been

avoiding talking about, which is Isadora.

Neither Aviva or I have been here in a while,

but it's our space and ours alone.

I'm gonna talk about Isadora in it, which is way fucked up,

but life is fucked up that way.

I'll meet Isadora at party

which I'm never gonna show here, because there's some things

I don't feel I can show correctly.

It's a birthday party for Dave Nazzolla

that I attend solo during the brief period

when Aviva and I are back together.

Trying to work things out after our first breakup,

none of which has come to pass in linear time.

I'm solo because after everything we will have gone through,

Aviva is comfortable enough to generously allow me

some alone time with my friends without kicking up a fuss.

That's the impression I'm under, anyways.

I'm a little drunk, a little more forward than usual,

and Dave introduces me to his friend,

this young woman named Isadora.

It's like, electricity is an inadequate word.

When her eyes look into mine, it's like I can see myself

reflected back at me, only more open,

more curious, more alive, more everything.

Recognition.

During this brief chat that spans an eternity,

she mentioned she's going to Berlin to study for a semester.

So I tell her to call Nissan while she's there,

making up for all the times

that he's played matchmaker to me.

I'm with Aviva, so I feel proud for doing this.

I'm with Aviva, so I feel sick for doing this.

Just as I expect, Nissan falls are hard for her,

but she blows him off after a week.

I mean, he's not for her.

I'm for her.

She calls or texts me every few months, lets me know

that she's done with Berlin, she's moved to Los Angeles.

I always respond cordially without excess warmth, because

I know if I open this door, there is no turning back.

None of this has happened yet, but,

[phone ringing]

It will.

- [Zeke] Hey this is Zeke, you found me.

Express yourself.

- [Aviva] Hey there, Zeke.

your manager passed me your number.

My name is Aviva Le Grand.

I'm a video artist and director from Paris.

I love your music, especially your new song,

Love It or Leave It.

I think it's got magic.

I have an idea for a video for it

that could be something really special.

[soft music]

[rock music]

♪ Long are the days when you're turning away ♪

♪ From a reason so strong

♪ Long is the way when you're aching to say ♪

♪ But your teeth bite your tongue ♪

♪ Loud is the wind in your ears when you spin ♪

♪ As you look for the sun

♪ Loud are the skies as you thunder your cries ♪

♪ When your prayers are sung

♪ Hard is the floor as the waves ♪

- She's brilliant.

- Yeah.

- Why didn't you show me your work before?

Why hide it?

- [Eden] I wasn't hiding it.

I wanted to focus this thing on a relationship,

on who we are to each other first.

- Or maybe you're just intimidated by her.

I'm not.

I would be.

She's a genius.

- I'm not intimidated.

I'm inspired.

♪ My oh my it hurts sometimes

♪ Oh my oh my it hurts sometimes ♪

♪ I think I'm running out of time ♪

♪ Before I'm gonna lose my mind ♪

♪ My oh my it hurts sometimes

- I finished my first record.

- I'm surprised you found the time.

- Listen, man, I'd love for it to be something for me too.

♪ Before I'm gonna lose my mind ♪

- So ask her

- It's just, you know, I don't want your feelings--

- I'm fine.

Just ask her.

If she wants to do it, she'll do it.

[car engine roars]

- [Eden] So what are you thinking?

- [Male Aviva] I dunno.

It could be strange.

- [Female Eden] Do you like Mason's music?

- I do, I actually think it's very special.

- Then you should do it.

[rock music]

- What do you think of this edit?

- It's beautiful.

- [Male Aviva] Yeah, but I think this

angle is better for him, no?

- The other one's perfect, though.

Capture something grounded and spiritual at the same time.

- Jesus Christ, take it easy over there.

- [Female Eden] What are you talking about?

- Just it's just embarrassing, okay?

- What is?

- [Eden] You know what I'm talking about.

- [Female Eden] Spell it out for me.

- Aviva was right, it's pathetic how you are

about anything having to do with Mason.

- He proposed the idea, you could have said no.

- Right, like I was gonna be the bad guy.

Great position to put me in.

- What position?

Aviva doing something nice for your friend

after she moved her entire life here to be with you?

Is that so bad?

- Nope.

I did it, see.

I'm nice, Mr. Nice guy.

- [Female Eden] No, you've been an asshole ever since--

- Since what?

- You're gone even when you're here, which is hardly ever.

you're always off to the side, angry all the time.

- And when you do say something it's mean.

- [Eden] Maybe because you've acted

like a total jealous bitch since the moment

you saw me with Mason.

- That's what you like to think,

but you're the one who was being jealous.

- Me?

Maybe she is, I don't give a fuck.

- I'm not jealous of either of you.

You're the one who's always telling people

where they can go, when they shouldn't be there.

- It's true, you've been jealous and controlling

since the day I got here.

- If you had any sense of boundaries,

I wouldn't feel the need to control you.

- Maybe you should figure out your own boundaries

before you worry about how other people handle theirs.

- You stay the fuck out of this, okay?

No one asked you to be here in the first place.

- [Male Aviva] You want me to quote some of those emails

you sent me back to you?

- [Eden] I never wrote you a single fucking email.

- No?

- Where do we think all those emails

you fell so in love with were from?

- I was reading letters from her.

- You were reading letters from me, you idiot.

She barely has the patience

to put a coherent sentence together.

- Hey, you can go fuck yourself, too.

I don't need your fucking help

if you're going to help me like this.

You know, he didn't want anything to do with you,

and I don't blame him.

- [Male Aviva] So now you're on his side?

- I'm not on anybody's side. - You are taking his side.

- No.

- You are always taking side, and I'm fucking sick of it.

- Sick of it?

- Sick of it.

- We never even had a fight about these before.

- Don't act stupid.

These fight, other fights, there is another side available,

you'll take it, right?

- Hey, calm down.

- [Aviva] Don't fucking tell me to come down.

- Chill out, okay?

- I talk how I fucking I want to talk, all right?

Don't tell me what to do. I don't even know who I am anymore

in this stupid fucking country.

Acting like some kind of polite American all the time.

- This is you polite?

Jesus, I'd hate to see you in your native habitat.

- Fuck you.

This is who I am now.

If you don't like it,

I can go home.

- [Eden] Come on, don't say that.

- Do you even want me here?

- Of course I want you here.

- I'm not talking to you.

I'm talking to him.

Do you even want me here?

- Don't put your choices on me.

- Jesus.

- You're gonna fuck this up.

You're gonna fuck everything up.

You always do.

- Maybe if you didn't keep getting me into shit

that I don't want to be in,

I wouldn't have to fuck anything up.

- See, you don't want to be in this.

- Come on, man.

Don't say things you won't be able to take back.

- Aviva's here.

I'm here.

You're the one who needs to decide what he wants to do.

This is the best thing that's ever happened

to me in my life.

If you wanna take it away from me, go ahead.

I can't stop you, I never could.

I'm doing something wrong.

- You're not doing anything wrong.

- Yes I am.

[Female Eden sobbing]

- You brought us all together.

You're not doing anything wrong.

[metal creaking]

- I know I said earlier that there's nothing more lonely

or more depressing than being alone in New York city,

but that's not, empirically speaking, correct.

There's nothing more lonely than being alone in Los Angeles.

- It's a left, turn left.

- I got it.

[horn honking]

Dear Aviva.

- Dear?

Are you seriously letting go of sweet?

- Is that really what you want me

to be focusing on right now?

- I'll just write sweet.

- Dear Aviva.

Heard you were in the desert somewhere.

I remember I promised myself, or you,

that I would write to you at least something once a day

for all the time we would know each other.

I guess it took us breaking up for me to honor it again.

You're an amazing person.

You always surprise me,

even though I'm so jaded and often unengaged.

you told me I don't know how to live.

It's true.

I don't know how to make the most out of a simple day.

I don't know how to get the most out of breakfast,

to enjoy a simple walk, to get the most out of work

or creativity in anything other than sporadic bursts.

I don't know how to move through time and space

with a sense of accepting that I'm the vessel

doing the moving.

Even as I understand I'm doing myself and God

an injustice by directing such negativity

toward a life that I shouldn't be grateful for.

[acoustic music]

I imagine it's very confusing

being in a relationship with someone like me.

I get angry sometimes when I see how real you are,

how substantial, when I'm in this stupid,

ugly place, floating around like a ghost.

And then, I realize that I'd rather be this way,

or I wanna be here doing what I'm doing,

making one reality after another and then abandoning it

so that others can inhabit it without me.

I'm running.

I don't ever wanna get caught, but I'm tired of running.

Sorry I've been going on and on here,

but you wanted to know where I'm at, so here you have it.

I admire you and I love you, E.

- Dear E, it's both painful and moving to read your words.

Don't do that.

- What?

- That's stupid bobbing to the music

in the car, sort of thing.

It's cutesy and ingratiating, and I fucking hate it.

If you wanna dance, pull over, stop the car,

get out and make a proper fucking dance.

- Who's cut-off and mean now?

- I am, deal with it.

You want to hear the rest of it?

- Sure.

- It was so strange for me to be alone in the city.

Hard to go meet people for work and put myself out there.

[horns blaring]

So confusing meeting men in the world in general,

with the knowledge that we're separated.

[horn blaring]

So, I got myself out of there and headed

into the desert in New Mexico.

Spent a lot of time there by myself.

One day, I got kind of lost, it was scary,

a story for another day, and I met

these two people who really saved my ass.

They're this couple who travel to the most dangerous places

in the world and they dance together there.

[Eden giggling]

They're not the only ones.

It's a thing.

Gave me an idea to make a movie out of it.

I started filming them, and I'm putting together

a teaser to raise money for the rest of it.

I'm DJing for a Zeke's club shows,

and she's gonna do the music for it.

It's a trip.

I'm lonelier than I've ever been,

sadder and happier than I've ever been all at once.

I love you, and I have no regrets,

but I don't wanna go through something like this again.

I wanna be with somebody

who wants to be with me.

The way I am, not the way he wants me to be.

I have so much love and passion in me,

and I don't wanna feel guilty about it.

Still, I miss us, and I miss you, A.

Nicole just texted you.

- Nicole?

- Yeah, from high school.

- I know who she is.

I'm just surprised to hear from her.

- Well, she's here.

- [Eden] You mean in LA?

- No, I mean in this car, stashed in the trunk.

- I always liked her.

- [Female Eden] I have nothing to talk with her about.

- I do.

- We have no shared interests.

Nothing in common, nothing.

- Daredevil, that's my guy.

Smart and blind, just tell how I like my men.

- I don't know.

I was strictly Kirby-stuff.

Cosmic stuff, worlds beyond imagination,

shit that actually opens your mind,

Thor, FF, The Eternals, The New Gods.

- It was all straight-level, someone I could identify with,

Like, if I looked into an alley on the way to school,

I might just catch a glimpse in the shadows.

Punisher, Daredevil, Spider-Man.

- Spider-Man is street level?

- Compared to The New Gods, yes.

- Look, I like those guys well enough,

it's fine if I couldn't get my hands on anything else,

but where's the imagination, the aspiration?

- Sometimes putting your fist through some jerk's face,

is all the aspiration you need.

- Good to know.

- [Man] Can I refresh everybody's drink?

- You've already had three.

- One more and I'll be at maximum suggestibility.

- She'll have another one.

- [Nicole] What about you?

- [Female Eden] I still have work to do tonight.

- [Nicole] Really?

[Nicole and Eden panting]

- Are you okay?

- I'm great.

- I want you to, you know.

- You don't have to do anything, I'm great.

- I want you to be happy.

- I'm happy.

- I mean, really happy.

- I'm really happy.

- Jesus.

[upbeat music]

Come on, move over.

- Where are you going?

♪ I almost lost my mind

♪ That's why I had to do it

♪ The way you're moving your side ♪

♪ You know I had to do it

[Nicole moaning]

Do it hard.

You can do it harder.

- She said do it harder.

- Yes, yes, yes.

Oh, my God, yes.

[Nicole moaning]

- Oh, my gosh.

Unbelievable.

- I'm gonna go make me some coffee.

You guys want anything?

- No, thank you.

I'm good.

- Milk, two sugars.

[rock music]

♪ What I say when I say that I miss you ♪

♪ Is that I will always love me more ♪

♪ What I need when I bleed just to drown you ♪

♪ Is that some day you'll become ashore ♪

♪ It's my wave that will crave and will pull you ♪

♪ And another that will push you back ♪

♪ We will be just a sea they can sail through ♪

♪ They can split us but we never crack ♪

[rock music]

♪ On occasions our sea will swallow ♪

♪ 630 shades of sad

♪ And occasionally, we'll be just shallow ♪

♪ And all of them will see the things we had ♪

[rock music]

[all moaning]

♪ 20,000 different leagues of sorrow ♪

♪ That'll stop us while we let them drown ♪

♪ And the moon will lift our holy bodies ♪

♪ And we'll live as one

[phone ringing]

- Can you get it?

- Mm-hmm.

[phone ringing]

Hey.

- [Female Eden] Hey.

How are you?

- Good, I'm good.

- Are you?

- Yeah.

Better than I've been in a while, actually.

- [Female Eden] How are the shows going?

- They're going.

I'm signing with Rim Shot.

- [Eden] That's a great agency.

- Yeah.

They just got me the rest of the budget to make my feature.

- Jesus.

- [Female Aviva] Yeah.

- That's amazing.

Everyone I know is talking about your work.

You know, I'm here in town.

- [Male Aviva] You're here?

- [Female Eden] Yeah, it was a last minute thing.

I was going to tell you, but I wasn't sure I should call.

- Why wouldn't you call?

- I don't know.

I'm editing this thing, I have to screen it here

in a few days.

I was hoping you could check it out,

maybe do a few things to it?

But-

- [Aviva] I'll be there.

- If it's not a good time for you,

- [Aviva] No, I'll be there, I'll be there.

[footsteps thudding]

- This is not a workplace.

- It's our space.

- It was.

- I miss you.

- I missed you, too.

- We should get back together.

What?

- Your timing is just...

After so many sleepless nights, so many broken-hearted days,

finally I get myself to a place where I can...

And now?

I'm sorry.

- It's exactly what we needed.

To get to a better place that we couldn't get to

when we were still together, because of all the pressure,

of long distance, of constantly being rushed.

We can restart this the right way now.

- I don't think this is the right time.

- Please?

Please, come back.

I love you.

I don't wanna let you go.

Please, come back.

- I love you, too.

I'm here.

Let's do what we came here to do, okay?

- Is it just the three of us?

- She'll be back soon.

- Hey, come on.

- You do what you have to do.

I'm gonna to sit here and wait for her for a minute, okay?

[soft music]

- He waited.

He had done what I had asked him to do.

I have to give him that.

And he waited.

He waited for a lot more than a minute.

There was no reason to be in Los Angeles anymore,

so it was back to the New York apartment,

our old white room.

Only it wasn't so white anymore.

Aviva had decorated the hell out of it

in the time we were apart.

New furniture, everywhere, posters

and even paintings on the walls.

Bizarre tchotchkes on every shelf.

I hardly recognized it anymore.

[soft music]

But I was happy.

I mean, really happy, maybe for the first time in my life.

And he waited.

But she had found something he had never given her,

something that in her heart of hearts,

she didn't believe he ever would or could give her.

[upbeat music]

And once having found it, she was not about to easily

let it go, no matter how good everything else was.

And it was good.

As good as good can be.

[indistinct chatter]

[soft music]

And maybe she would've come back, eventually.

Maybe she did come back.

[door thudding]

I don't really know.

Because by then,

there was no one home.

- You can do it harder.

You can do it much harder.

- How much harder?

- As hard as you want to.

- We need a safe word.

- I don't need a safe word.

- Maybe I need a safe word?

- We don't have to do it if you don't want to.

- Do you want me to do it?

- I want you to want to do it.

[Nicole panting]

Come on.

[Nicole giggling]

[both moaning]

[Eden shouting]

- Did you?

- It was great.

- Yeah, but you didn't.

- There's always next time.

[indistinct chatter]

- Hey.

Give me two seconds, okay?

Hey, can I talk to you for a minute?

It can't wait, okay?

One camera please.

I just need a minute, okay?

I can't do this by myself.

- No one said you had to.

- I don't wanna have to rely on you anymore.

I have to be able to do this on my own.

- Do you have any idea how fucked up and wrong you are?

Do you?

- You don't know how it feels to have never been able

to make one woman happy for one single moment in your life.

- I like your jokes.

- Fuck you.

I'm only pretending to laugh to kill time until you show up.

I've never even given woman an orgasm,

not one single orgasm, not one, ever.

- I'm over this.

Over your fear, over your anger.

Go find someone who doesn't know any better

and take the credit for it.

- I can't, and I don't want to.

I want to be with someone who I want for once in my life.

Not who you want, who I want, and who wants me, not you, me.

- How the fuck is anyone supposed to want you

when you hate you so goddam much?

- I don't hate me, I hate you.

I've always hated you, ever since.

Every single problem, every issue I was having

with Aviva was a problem I was having with you.

I don't have a problem with Aviva.

It's you.

- So, are you gonna get back on your little bike

and ride away, or are you gonna do something about it?

- [Male Aviva] Some socks.

- [Eden] Thermal stuff is good.

- [Female Aviva] I have thermal stuff.

I know how to pack.

- [Female Eden] Did you order a taxi?

- I thought you were.

I'll order, I got it, I got it.

Give me that.

- Make sure you're with someone

who really knows what they're doing.

- I'll be fine.

- Right.

You're about to go follow a couple of lunatics

up the side of a mountain in Alaska.

- Look, I'm making a movie about couples

who inspire each other to go to the edge.

- Doesn't mean you have to go there with them.

- People are opening up their lives to me.

If they're going there, I gotta go there, too.

- You gonna back me up here,

or are you just gonna sit there staring at the door?

- [Eden] I'm not staring at the door.

I'm making flight plans.

[classical music]

- Flight plans?

- I'm going to LA for a week.

- This is news.

- [Eden] It's a last minute meeting.

- Before I go to Alaska?

- Next morning.

[horns honking]

- Door closes, down three flights.

Picks up bag, goes outside, look for a taxi.

Taxi, taxi, taxi.

Picks up bag.

To the airport please.

It's hot.

Gets money out, pays.

Kicks the door open, gets the bag.

Passport.

Security.

Computer.

Shoes.

Computer, bag, on the plane.

Looks for the seat.

32B.

Seat belt.

Looks out the window.

Time for takeoff.

Cruising altitude is 30 thousand-hundred feet.

Drink please.

[mouth clicking]

[Eden giggling]

Another drink.

Time for landing.

Welcome to LA, where the weather is perfect all the time.

Catches the car keys.

Where is it?

Oh, wow.

Picks up the phone.

[indistinct]

Hey.

Isadora?

It's Eden.

Wow.

What a surprise.

Yeah.

I'm even more of a surprised, I'm in LA.

Really?

Yeah.

Wow.

Any chance you're around?

I'm around.

Well, can I see you?

You can see me.

When?

How about, now?

Okay, what's your address?

I'll text you it.

It's a five-story walk-up.

Think you can make it up?

- I can make it up.

What is this feeling?

This feeling that I've never had before.

This feeling.

Even before it happens, he knows that there's no going back.

Either this is gonna be complete bullshit, or this is it.

Bing.

[indistinct chatter]

- You found the edge, huh?

- I guess I went over it.

- I guess so.

- I hope I didn't fuck up your business trip too much.

- Don't be stupid.

What's the damage?

- I fractured three vertebrates in my spine.

The doctor said that I might be all right, eventually.

But it's going to take a lot of time and patience.

[monitors beep]

Can we go home now?

[soft music]

- What unbelievable timing, he thinks to himself.

A joke, a test too monstrous

even for a cruel and capricious god to invent.

Leaving Aviva now would be unforgivable.

He's gonna be like a character in a Russian novel.

It was said in his later days he could be seen

walking arm-in-arm with his frail wife.

In the park of a Sunday, taking in the air,

a faraway look in his hollow eyes.

Like two ghosts without purpose or destination.

They've wandered through the land of the living.

- [Eden] Please.

[soft music]

We can't do this anymore.

- I know.

Did you meet someone?

- [Eden] Yes.

- In Los Angeles?

- [Eden] Yes.

- Will you stay with me long enough

to help me go through

with some of the doctor's appointments?

So I can figure out what's what?

- He stays for six weeks before he takes off.

As for his thing with Isadora,

I ended in five.

Payback's a bitch.

He'll never forgive me for it.

Fuck him.

What's he ever really done for me?

Other than a few brief misfires.

He and I are in a relationship now, only with each other.

Not much of her relationship.

more like a detente, a cold war.

No major blowups without any outside forces

to instigate discord or strife.

But a lot of lonely nights and internet porn,

which, weirdly enough, I think I'm more into than he is.

As for Aviva.

[rock music]

- She finished her movie after a slow and painful year

of rehab, achieved with an iron will and encourage

and an immense tolerance for suffering.

[water splashing]

I've seen it 100 times.

And Aviva's capacity for acceptance and forgiveness

is as vast as the ocean she wants crossed

in order to share her life with me.

And not a day will pass without a message or a call

between us, and we will work together and play together

and grow closer than ever before.

[rock music]

And one day.

- Where is she?

My girlfriend's out there tonight.

Where?

There she is.

[speaking foreign language]

What?

Don't nothin' rhyme with soir, baby.

I don't know what to call you now.

My girl is French, crazy too.

Got me dancing under the active volcanoes

and on top of bridges, and whatnot.

It's charming as hell, though, got my heart like,

She's complicated.

Not only is she French, she's Jewish.

Got an attitude and she feels guilty about it.

[all laugh]

And I feel guilty, too, I drive a Germany car.

The Jewish and German people have

a history I don't fully understand.

All I know is that when she's in the car,

I can't turn the heat on without hearing shit

about her grandmother.

She gives me this look like.

And I'm like, sorry, I didn't kill your family,

I'm just enjoying the precision and cold-blooded

technical efficiency of those who did.

Is that so wrong?

[audience laughing]

Anyway, I flew into Paris.

- When she laughs at a guy's jokes,

she's not pretending.

- Oh, he's amazing, right?

- He loves you.

- He does.

- Then he's the best.

[audience laughing]

- Such a great show.

- Hey man, nice to see you.

[indistinct chatter]

- We need to talk outside.

Excuse me.

I'm going to have a baby.

- When?

- Seven months.

- Everything's gonna change.

- Everything is always changing.

[soft piano music]

- Hello.

Hello.

[Female Eden giggling]

[indistinct chatter]

[soft music]

[indistinct chatter]

- Come on, let's go.

[indistinct chatter]

- You're my best friend in the world.

[birds chirping]

[soft music]

[indistinct chatter]

[slow music]

♪ Tears are clouding up a sunny day ♪

♪ And I wish it'd turn out

♪ Any other way

♪ But I don't think that you'd care ♪

♪ If I stepped out of your hair ♪

♪ And you'd find me anywhere

♪ But here

♪ I wish it wasn't so

♪ I'll say it again

♪ I wish it wasn't so

♪ But I don't think that you'd mind ♪

♪ If I left this room behind

♪ And I'd step outside to find

♪ Some other place

♪ Let's say that it's okay

♪ And just leave it

♪ At that

♪ Things are different

♪ Than they seem

♪ Everybody's looking from the outside ♪

♪ But we're both stuck within

♪ And I wish that you would say ♪

♪ That you wanted me to stay

♪ And we'll find some other way ♪

♪ But this

♪ Let's say that it's okay

♪ And just leave it at that

♪ La la la la la la

♪ Maybe I could wait

♪ But I think that it's too late, ♪

♪ So let's just call it fate

♪ From here

[soft music]