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Emma Hall doesn't exist.

My name is Karen.

My boyfriend... killed nine women.

The police thought that I was involved.

Did you have something to do with them?

Well, you don't know this place.

There's stuff there.

We don't matter.

We all saw it, what he was.

I'm talking about him screwing that missing girl.

Get rid of her, you understand?

I killed her. I smashed her head in with a rock...

because I was jealous...

because she was seeing Kit.

They ran a DNA test on the remains.

It wasn't Theresa Barlow.

It was a woman that went missing four years ago in Minnesota.

Man, this stuff is about Emma.

Who's in this room?

Me.

Who's the real you?

Maybe you don't want to know.

You're gonna be a question mark.

Emma, we've already looked at these photos.

There's nothing in them.

No, no, everything had meaning for him.

Everything.

Here.

Here. It's here.

- Yeah. - And here.

Wow.

He said a question mark was...

for people he would show his true self to.

And you think that means the women he killed?

It's her.

The woman I've been seeing, Amy Walker.

I thought it was a dream or-or-

or one of the black spots in my memory.

I don't know.

But I see this woman...

lying on the floor, and...

and she has a tattoo, and it's a... question mark.

So he tattooed her. He abducted her.

He broke the bones in her feet and her hands,

and then he killed her.

Emma, what do you see?

In the dream...

it's me.

I'm holding the hammer.

You really think you could have done this?

You really think you could have bashed that girl's skull in

with a hammer?

Don't you understand what this is?

What are you doing?

We did this.

We built this tattoo to cover the old one,

the one that he did.

A heart.

Mnh-mnh.

A heart with his and my name.

It was never meant to be a heart.

It was meant to be a question mark,

but the needle slipped.

And you made it into a heart.

He loved me.

No.

He fell in love with you.

And that's what saved you.

Is that what you want?

Someone you can never know completely?

Maybe it's you who doesn't want to be known.

But I think that sounds very lonely.

I don't think you want to be alone.

I've always been alone.

Emma, something in your subconscious

is releasing these memories.

Something's changing. You're changing.

You are so close at pinpointing exactly what that trauma was.

What is it?

What is that thing

that you can't bear to remember?

Sometimes when the brain forms a memory in a state of trauma,

the only way to recover those memories

is for the brain to go back to that same place.

It's called state-dependent learning.

In order to remember the trauma,

sometimes you have to be back in it.

I don't wanna... I don't wanna remember.

Something triggered the memory of Amy Walker,

right, something else.

And whatever it was, it scared the hell out of you.

Another girl is dead.

- What? Another... - From St. Jerome.

Okay, so you're gonna put yourself in the middle

- of yet another conspiracy... - Two girls.

Two girls from that same place, Pete.

So you don't have to think about your past.

- Something is happening. - Emma, I know what you're doing.

Emma, nothing happened.

Emma, nothing is happening.

Nothing.

Emma!

I got it.

Listen to me.

- Before they I. - D.'d the Walker girl, right,

they thought it was Theresa Barlow, right.

If you didn't know Theresa Barlow,

why'd you think you killed her?

I don't know.

Why did you think that she was seeing Kit?

- Why? - I don't know.

Maybe... Maybe because I feel guilty

of the things that people think that I did.

Yeah, or maybe you did know her, and maybe Kit knew her, too.

Well, she's not dead. It wasn't her.

You better hope she's not dead.

Because I remember everything you told me about her.

And believe it or not, I've got loyalties that are beyond you.

To who, Pete?

- Your wife? - Emma...

She doesn't even know what you do, does she?

I lie to my wife so I can keep protecting people like you.

Or maybe you do this because you like secrets, too.

Hey.

Where you been? I been waiting.

I have a job.

Why don't you ever go to school?

I got to show you something.

These were in Jessie's things.

At the bottom of the box.

And then I found this in Tina's jacket.

I found a needle like this, too, at a taxidermy shop.

I think it's where she met with Abel.

I think they were doing drugs.

That's why they're with Jesus.

Did you see this?

There was a rape in Missouri.

They got this from the victim's description.

I think it's him... the creep who wanted to work with us.

I went back through the security footage.

I think it's John Tyler.

He says you're crazy.

He said that?

There's parts of your life you can't remember.

I have memory loss.

He's helping me.

He's keeping me safe here.

Right.

In a house he told me sold.

In a place he said we'd never come back to.

Are you screwing my husband?

Is that what you wanted to tell me?

Did he say that? L... No.

Lisa, I-I didn't choose Pete.

Then he chose you.

I am only here until I can be somewhere else.

You want some advice?

Go now.

Get the hell out.

He told me about you... about how you met.

That you were in the group home.

Please. Lisa.

Two girls from that place are dead.

He said you hated it,

that he looked after you.

You ran off, came here. That's what got him fired.

What else did he tell you?

Why did you draw this?

What does the writing mean?

Nothing.

Maybe it's just a girl with a crush on a man

she thinks is gonna save her.

The girls who are dead.

They were injecting themselves with this.

What are they doing?

Are they... Are they grooming them?

Are they selling them for sex?

They're 15-year-old girls.

And you're gonna take it on?

Something is still happening there.

It was happening when you were there, and it's still going on.

I-I need someone to tell me what it is so I can stop it.

So I can make something right.

Put my trust in you?

You can't even save yourself.

How you gonna save anyone else?

Shit.

Hello?

John?

Did you do something?

Are you, projecting?

Are you... Are you feeling bad about something that you did?

It's so deeply unrewarding

when you lose faith in me, Mary.

'Cause guess what.

I found her.

I found your friend.

She's living the good life down here.

She cuts hair. She has a boyfriend.

They go dancing.

And she's not suffering at all.

Not like you.

You'll always be suffering.

But don't go making accusations, okay, Mary?

Just don't spoil everything.

What you've done is an act for Jesus.

You made a... A very great sacrifice, Lisa.

Sometimes these procedures, these gifts,

are more complex than we first expect.

And we've had to tidy up inside you.

You can run, but you can't ever hide from God, from us.

Hi.

There's a room in the attic where they did it.

It was our eggs.

They took our eggs.

Some of us got infected.

Some of us became sterile.

Our names are there.

He used to say, right before we went under,

"This is the Lord's work."

Who?

Who's doing this?

You've been there all these weeks,

and you still don't know who runs that town?

Emma?

What are you doing?

Rose?

Why are you here?

I've been watching you.

I know that he's gone.

You've been watching me? What are you talking about?

The dumb cop.

And I-I'm glad.

You shouldn't be with him.

Rose, I need you to listen to me.

I'll always listen to you.

I love you.

Rose. Rose. Rose.

No.

I care about you but not like that.

I'm your friend.

You know that, right?

I need to tell you something

that's gonna be very hard for you to hear about your father.

What?

Do you know what he does up here?

What are you talking about my dad for?

- He's... - What's wrong with you?

He is involved in something.

- No. No. - Yes, something very,

very dark with the girls here.

Don't talk about my dad.

And Jess knew, and that is why she's dead.

No. No!

- Rose... - My God!

- Stop, stop! - Shh!

It's you.

The girls say there's a devil here.

No. No.

And it's you.

You're the darkness.

- Hey... - You're the darkness!

You're the monster!

Rose.

"She's living the good life down here."

Down here.

Down.

Where do you mean, John?

Where do you mean?

Leave a message, and I'll get back to you

as soon as I can.

I know what happened at St. Jerome, Tom.

I'm making sense of things.

And I'm starting to remember.

Please. Please.

Shh.

Karen, look at me.

Shh.

Shh.

Help me.

Get me out.

You get back!

-I'll kill you!

So, we're just gonna hang at the bar tonight,

have a few drinks.

Me and her.

God, I really shouldn't drink.

Lose all control.

I'm making your coffee.

I have such anger issues.

You made me so angry.

Jeepers.

-Is she keen or what?

John?

You burned me, Mary,

and now I am gonna burn you so, so, so, so, so, so bad.

You know what? Screw you to hell.

I know you raped her. And I will hunt you down, too.

Yeah? You? The murderer?

Please excuse me while I have a big, fat, filthy laugh.

You can't even find your own daughter.

You think you're gonna find me?

You better find me before I find you.

One night.

One day.

You watch your back.

Mom? You okay?

Did you call them?

- Who? - The police.

About the Missouri rape?

They caught him?

That's incredible, Mom.

No.

We didn't catch him.

He's still out there.

- So he said he was pissed at me? - I don't know.

I think, like, maybe I caught him on a bad day.

L-Let's not... I-I don't want to stir the pot.

What... did... he... say?

- Okay. - Shit.

He just said that maybe, you know,

he didn't know if he could trust you,

like, that he thought

that maybe you weren't the person he thought you were.

Shit.

He was right.

We're at the bar.

We've been waiting like... like 40 minutes.

What the hell?

And John says that you don't trust me?

"John."

Why don't you grow some balls and come tell me yourself?

Good night, Emma.

Hey, I would say I hope you guys can work things out,

but... he's a prick.

You want another game?

I want to wipe the floor with you.

In your dreams.

Take that ridiculous hat off.

What ridiculous hat?

- Take it off. - You take it off.

Take it off.

Wow.

I took it too close, didn't I?

Hey, let's make it interesting.

I lose, drinks at mine, you choose the music.

You lose, drinks at yours, I choose the music.

Deal?

Beginner's luck.

Maybe I should call it a night.

What? Such a lousy hustle.

Pbht!

Screw it.

I'm no good at chatting up

And always get rebuffed

Enough to drive a man to drink

I don't do no washing up

I always leave the stuff piled up

Piled up in the sink

But you will always find him in the kitchen at parties

Me and my girlfriend, we argued

And she ran away from home

She must have found somebody new

And now I'm all alone

Living on my own

What am I supposed to do?

That's why you'll always find him in the kitchen at parties

You will always find him in the kitchen at parties

You will always find him in the kitchen at parties

Then I met this débutante...

That... That paint might still be wet.

She was into French cuisine...

Who's Freya?

But I ain't no Cordon Bleu

This was at some do in Palmers Green

-I need some water.

So, do I call you Mommy?

I hope so.

That's so beautiful.

Where is she?

It's complicated.

How?

-You don't want to know.

Neither do you about me.

Lets say I... had too much to drink.

Please ignore me.

I came here to get away from myself,

and all I find is me.

Yeah, but isn't that, um...

Isn't that what you do all the time with the books you write?

Don't you get to...

be different people?

Yeah, until I shut the laptop.

Then all it is is John, John, John.

Who do you wanna be?

A dad.

Have a little girl cuddle up on me, call me Dada.

And that can't happen?

Yeah, but who's it for?

What? What do you mean?

Well, I mean, the little girl that I want.

Is that about her? Is it about me?

'Cause, you know, the selfish part of me is just like,

"I want... I want to have a baby.

I want to be loved."

Yeah, everyone wants that.

Who has kids for the right reason?

No, what I mean is, they'll grow up someday

and find out who I really am.

Well, who's that?

Not a very nice person.

Maybe kids make us better.

Yeah, maybe they make us worse.

These... little prisoners

with their Stockholm syndrome.

That's not fair... not on them and not on us.

Isn't that what love is?

Love's an excuse we make for all our bad choices.

It's sure been mine.

You have a really dark view.

-That's probably another reason

I shouldn't have kids.

No.

Aren't they the hope?

That we can be better?

Well, it depends what you did.

What'd you do?

- What? - Come on.

What did Squeaky Clean struggle with?

You so got to dump him.

Screw Tom with his puritan ideals.

He said you hurt somebody.

He was pretty damning.

Emma, it's okay.

We've all done things we're not proud of.

It doesn't make you a bad person,

it just makes you a lonely one.

I don't want to be alone anymore.

I see that.

-I want my daughter.

But you can't have her?

- Not yet. - 'Cause of what you did?

No, I-I can have her whenever...

- Okay. - Whenever I want.

I...

I'm ready for her.

I'm getting ready for her.

Who... Who are you to talk about my daughter?

I'm so sorry. I d...

I really don't mean to... to pick at a sore spot.

I'm working things out.

I get that.

I also am...

trying to atone for all the things that I've done.

What things?

This is such a heavy conversation.

Pee break.

Mrs. Barlow?

Rose?

How old are you?

Old enough to be her type.

You have her?

Karen Miller?

You know where she is?

I want enough money to get out of this town.

Yeah, yeah, I'll make sure you get it.

But I need to see her first.

I need to know this is not a game.

She already hurt a girl here.

Jess Cairns.

She died the night after she got here.

She will never hurt anyone else again... not ever.

And here I was... Just about to leave.

That's your little kittie's collar.

I know. Because I pulled it off her neck.

You shouldn't have opened the case.

You really want to know what I did?

That's Tom's phone.

How do you...

I raped 14 women, and I only got caught for 2.

-Now here I am.

- In your house. - No! No!

- Emma. - No!

The wolf and the little piggy.

And the little piggy is all alone.

No.

What... What... What... What... What?

How 'bout you tell me what you did, Karen?

It's locked.

You want to tell me about Theresa?

I'll kill you!

Slow down. Slow down.

We gotta get you to the hospital.

What did he do?

We just gotta get you safe.

This isn't the way to the hospital.

Oops.

I guess I did a bad thing, too.

Another thing I got to leave with Honey.

What do you mean?

We're not going to the hospital

God. God.

Shut up.

Shut up!

Shut up!

Before it was you and him, it was me and him.

And it's always gonna be me and him.

Please.

Please.

My baby.

You think I'm gonna let you keep his baby?

You get a part of him?

You get to keep him?

Aah!

Please, Theresa. I need a doctor.

There's nothing a doctor can do for you now...

believe me.

What did you do?

I did everything.

And I'm gonna do it now.

I'm gonna beat your brains in with the claw of my hammer.

I'm gonna whack you until the snow is red.

No.

Gotcha.

Tell me a story.