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You got dreams?

To go back and be with someone I don't have anymore.

Does she still have her stone...

for the lake?

She needs to throw those sins away.

I checked on your landlord.

He did work at St. Jerome,

but his license was suspended.

This place, it's really mine?

It's my cabin.

It's you...

you who's been lying to me.

Your daughter's beautiful.

I want to stay with you.

Go home.

Grandma Moses...

She gave her life to those kids.

I know she phones you.

I know you know where she is.

You'll never find her.

And that's the only time my Karen's ever coming home,

is to kiss my coffin.

Federal agency is restructuring,

closing Minnesota's state office regarding next month's...

Hi.

My sweet girl.

Which ranks third nationally for the number of...

You look good.

New dress?

You bet it is.

I'm here for someone special, you know.

You keep counting down the days.

When I get out,

the first thing I'm gonna do...

is your hair.

And I'm gonna leave it till you're home.

No one else can do it, anyhow.

You're a good person.

I love you from the bottom of my heart

to the end of the world and back again.

Are we safe?

Did you keep us safe?

National Weather Service

is predicting heavy rainfall throughout Minnesota,

as much as six to eight inches up north.

Bring it.

Is our down pillows.

Our down pillows are extraordinarily soft,

luxurious, and long-lasting.

Choose from a wide selection of styles,

densities, and shapes,

including bolster pillows, body pillows, and bed rests.

For the ultimate in...

I don't know. You're the professional.

It fits great.

You look... dashing.

That's not a word you hear every day.

There she is.

Mary, Samantha.

Best salesperson in all of Minnesota.

You're so sweet.

And I am sold.

Can you excuse us?

Sure.

- What was that? - You said you had an emergency.

I don't have anything to wear.

Maybe that's more of a crisis.

Don't play games.

You were very rude to Samantha just now.

That is not a good look on you.

You do not skip meetings with me, John.

I hired you.

Well, then let me do my work.

And you should know that I believe in kindness,

especially when it comes to people

in the service industry.

You might want to apologize to Samantha.

Now you're lecturing me?

My mom worked in cosmetics

and she told me horrible stories about customer rudeness.

You're no-nonsense, like my mom.

You have that same expression, sense of style.

She was an amazing shopping companion.

But she was kinder.

And she used to look at me just that way.

I loved getting caught in her stare.

This suit will help me blend in.

You want me to blend in, don't you, Mary?

I want you to find her!

Yeah, and when I do? What is your plan?

What I do is none of your business.

Because you spoke with her.

- Before. Didn't you? - What?

When she was in jail.

How do you know that?

It's just my work.

I was a different person then. I have different questions now.

So you do believe in change, Mary?

That we can become better versions of ourselves?

Esther Moses? Yeah?

All yours.

Hi.

Same.

I'm making splashes.

You are.

And your lovely hat,

your little cat hat.

I love it.

Me too.

Do you like kittens?

Yes. Kittens are fun.

I have a kitten.

Where?

In my truck.

Mommy loves kitties.

Yeah.

Yeah, she does.

Mommy!

I want to meet the kitty.

Where?

Slow down!

Where? Where?

It was right here?

You've reached Jake. Leave me a message.

Hi. It's me, just... just checking in.

I... I broke the rules, using my phone.

Anyway, the break's been, great.

The spa is super relaxing.

I'm about to get a, um...

a... deep-tissue massage right now.

I have nothing to complain about.

Wow, I feel so cheated.

Except I miss you.

So there's that.

Okay. I love you. I'll see you soon.

Hey, Pumpkin.

I don't care that you're hiding out.

I want to hide out with you.

Hey.

Why would you want to hide out?

Move over.

I reckon...

today's just one of those days.

What's going on?

Nothing.

Don't make me read your mind.

Don't.

Stop.

Stop!

All right.

On one condition...

that you escort me to lunch.

I'm not hungry.

Nuh. You're always hungry.

And my day just freed up.

John?

She wasn't at the funeral.

Did you stay the whole time?

You aren't trying to tell me how to do my job, are you?

E-Excuse me?

I have other options.

I-I don't want options. I want assurances.

Yeah, me too.

I'm sorry?

I'm afraid I do need to know what your intentions are.

I am not a fan of rendition.

What are you gonna do

when I find her?

Hey, John?

Yes, Mary.

You want to hear something?

Yes, Mary.

When my son was younger, he had a bit of a phase.

He went from being my perfect little boy

to this kid who painted his room black

and told me I represented a patriarchal society

obsessed with money and the enslavement of others.

Did he have a point?

So I cut off his allowance.

And, pretty soon, we didn't need to have that conversation again.

I'm starting to feel kind of sorry for Jake.

It was "Jake," wasn't it?

It would take only one phone call

to your parole officer.

What would you tell them, Mary?

That you gave me a phone and an expense account

and blackmailed me to cross state lines?

I'll text you when I have something.

Hi.

- How was your flight? - It was worth it.

Even if I have to fly back the same day.

You can't tell anybody you were here.

The spa would never let me back in

if they knew I was breaking all these rules.

Sounds more like a covenant.

A convent?

No, I'm serious, though. I'm serious.

You were never in Minnesota. You never saw me.

You can't... You can't tell anybody.

Fine, fine.

I can be a dirty secret.

You okay?

I feel like coming here was a mistake.

The spa?

-Sounds like a good problem.

I-I just needed to...

get away after what happened with the Walkers.

You know, I wish you would talk to me about that stuff.

You know, about Theresa.

About what happened.

You... You can talk to me, you know?

You're sweet. Hey!

I just meant...

Yeah... you remind me

of a time before all that.

I...

I miss her, too, okay?

Theresa meant a lot to me.

What do I do?

Jesus! It's me. How did you...

- C-Calm down. Relax. Emma. Emma. - How did you find me?

There are rules. We have rules.

I am done with your rules.

You put yourself in danger coming here.

- Do you understand me? - The only danger...

is you.

Emma, open the door!

- Open the door... - No!

-Don't ignore me!

I will run you down!

I'm trying to help you.

All I've ever done is try to help you.

Tell me what you did to her.

Just tell me what you did to her!

Nothing. I didn't do anything to her.

-Bullshit. It's bullshit!

Why did you get fired, Pete?

Why'd you get fired from St. Jerome?

- You want to be a murderer now? - Why? Why?

I will tell you everything that you want to know.

Turn the truck off.

Emma, turn the truck off.

Don't lie to me.

I used to be a counselor at St. Jerome house.

There was a girl there.

We had a connection.

At the time, I was 25.

She was 16.

But nothing ever happened. Nothing. Ever.

Why'd they fire you?

Well, when the state found out how close we were,

they banned me.

That was 15 years ago.

I never went back, ever, until you asked me to,

and that's the truth.

What about the book?

Book? There was a book, writing in it.

A girl's handwriting all over it.

She drew a monster. She was clearly scared.

Hell, yeah, she was scared. She hated that place.

She felt trapped there.

She didn't trust them.

She trusted me.

When she ran away, I made the mistake

of letting her stay at the cabin.

That's why I got fired.

There were markings on the wall.

In the shelter, there were markings,

like she was counting days.

I made those markings.

As a kid, I used to play war.

I used to pretend

that I was a POW.

Where is she now, that girl?

She's doing fine.

- She's fine, Emma. - What happened to her?

-Emma, she's fine.

- I don't believe you. - Emma...

She's my wife.

Years later, way after St. Jerome,

we reconnected.

The feelings were real.

I married her.

Now you know everything.

I never told the feds that you went missing.

I've broken every rule in the book,

trying to protect you.

All I've ever done is try to protect you.

So if you don't trust me by now,

go to hell.

Hey, hey!

I knew you were hungry.

All right.

- Happy birthday to you

Happy birthday to you

Happy birthday, dear Rose

Happy birthday to you

Happy birthday. Congratulations.

Daddy.

Make yourself a wish, honey.

Whoo!

Thank you so much.

That looks good.

You know, someday soon, people are gonna figure out

when my actual birthday is.

Everybody knows what the day is, Peanut.

But they also know

my little girl is too special to have just one day.

And her daddy gets to celebrate her

whenever he wants.

You know, not everybody thinks I'm so special.

The smart ones do.

I'm gonna tell you this.

Whatever you want in this life,

or whoever you want,

you go get it.

Fight for it, baby girl.

Did you find her?

Getting warmer.

I found this beanie, though.

Sprayed waterproof.

Have you ever seen a sheep being sheared?

They say they're never gouged or hurt in the process,

but I don't believe it.

So I am pained and aware of the sacrifice,

but there is no genuinely satisfying substitute for wool.

Like all the cows who died here

so you can have your good steak.

Sometimes nice things come from an experience that hurts.

You want to pretend like you're on top of this,

but you just keep stalling.

I'm starting to think you're just playing games with me,

like you don't really know how to do this job.

Does it feel like it's too much?

Failure's not a good look on you, John.

Don't say that, Mary.

I prefer "Mrs. Barlow."

Yeah? But I really know you now.

So...

it's gonna be Mary.

Wow, you keep popping that gum like my friend Andrea Black.

She was nervous, too.

I tried to tell her about Meditation Alley.

She wouldn't listen.

It's really funny,

you reminding me of my mom this morning

and Andrea Black right now.

Stop this shit.

I want to see Karen Miller by the end of the day,

and then I think you and I are done.

-We're not gonna be done.

Because I would miss you too much.

Stop chewing!

Now, swallow it!

Now, swallow it!

Swallow it.

Get out of my car.

That's a good girl.

But I met him

maybe about a month before.

He did, housekeeping at my block.

I think I said good morning.

He said that I ignored him,

but I'm not that kind of person.

He took one of the master keys.

And I woke up.

And he was beside my bed.

Masturbating.

I just...

I knew he was gonna rape me.

There was this blackness in his eyes, this power.

He had all my... my power.

He took all my power.

He used a fake name

at the job, so,

they never caught him.

But I can...

I can still smell his sweat...

and his weight on top of me.

And in my dreams, he's...

he's there.

He's always there.

Can I help you, ma'am?

I want a gun.

Something...

basic.

Okay, then.

Pick 'em up. See how they feel in your hand.

That's a nice one right there. I got a couple of those myself.

They're great for concealed carry.

They're actually more reliable than the revolver.

Nice polymer frame.

If you load the magazine, you got eight,

and then one in the chamber.

These guns are super popular.

Easy to draw. Easy to holster.

You can't go wrong with any one of those.

What... What will you use it for?

Protection.

Emma...

what are we doing out here?

I didn't come back

just to say goodbye to Esther, Pete.

Okay.

I came to get my little girl.

I named her Freya.

She's beautiful, Pete.

She has my eyes.

I knew I had to keep her safe.

No, I don't know.

I know something happened.

I...

I don't know why I had Freya out here with Esther.

She said she just found me out here.

She's the only one who knew where my baby was.

With a couple.

Someone that she'd fostered years ago.

But it was only meant to be until I could come back for her.

I don't know who I am...

who I can be...

without her.

Will you help me?

Yes.

I'm always gonna do my best by you.

It'll be hard and strange.

She only knows them, but...

No.

No, Pete.

No. Esther, she always made it very clear

it was only until I could come back for her.

Emma. I am...

No. No.

- I'm not leaving without her. - I'm not asking...

Emma, I'm not asking you to leave her permanently.

I came back for her.

I understand that,

but there's a right way to do this

and a wrong way.

I'll help you get Freya back, but not today, not yet.

Now, what you can do is get yourself ready for her.

Get yourself together.

And, more importantly, keep yourself together.

I will go see every judge that I need to go see.

I pro... Emma, look at me. Emma.

Emma, I'm gonna stand by you.

You have to trust me right now.

I can't leave her here.

You don't want to spend the rest of your life

looking over your shoulder,

waiting for that knock on the door,

or dreading the day that they finally come

to take her away.

Come back to St. James with me.

Come back, and I promise I'll get you Freya back.

But we have to do it the right way.

Emma, you could live the life that you want to live,

but you have to trust me.

"We put our sins...

our mistakes into a stone...

one at a time.

Cast them into this lake

with an open heart.

When they fall...

we are free.

Free from our sins.

Free from the past."

Free from the past?

Well, then give me a goddamn stone.

I found you.

Look at you.

-You are a cutie.

Emma, you in there?

You have her?

It's nice to hear you, Mary. How are you?

You have Karen Miller?

She did not show.

Okay.

Are you heartbroken, Mary?

You came across her, didn't you, my friend Andrea Black?

You must've, from your silence.

I love this intimacy...

both so, so familiar with each other.

I know what you did, Mary.

Yeah?

What do you know?

What, are you gonna play games?

Hi, you.

I'll drive you back.

I got here by myself.

Okay.

Bitty?

Where are you?

There you are.

Hi.

I know I left you alone for a while.

I'm sorry.

You lost your collar?