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that says you understand
the risks.
- No problem.

- If you want to apply,
you'd have my recommendation.

- Theo, you didn't say yes,
did you?

- I treat a lot of patients
who come from war zones.

[gunfire]
- I hesitated.

- I think we both know
it was more than that.

[Dr. Mitchell]: As physicians,
we're trained never
to show weakness.

This, despite the long hours...

... patients' lives
in our hands,

their deaths on our minds.

We're taught to suck it up,
and roll on to the next.

But that's unrealistic.

The weight of the job
gets to us all.

Not just doctors
who've come from war zones.

Have you been
to counseling before?

- No.
- Okay.

Then let's start
with why you're here.

- I was told I had to be here.

- You don't think you should be?

- That's what we're here
to figure out.

- The day that building
down the street exploded,

I understand you were affected?

Lost focus
during a medical procedure?

[sirens wailing]

- It was an intense day.

- I'm sure it was.

Was it the first time something
like that has happened, or...

have you lost focus before?

Maybe even lost time?

It's been a few weeks since
you were referred to see me.

I'm curious, why come now?

[medical machine beeping]

[Bashir]: Patient's stab wound
is causing intensive
internal bleeding.

BP's crashing!
Sats are 70% and falling.

- She's gonna need blood.
- Activate massive transfusion
protocol.

- On it. Putting red cells
through the rapid infuser.

- With an aortic bleed
this severe,

we need to put in a REBOA?

- Let's X-ray first,
rule out thoracic aortic injury.

Can I get a plate, please?!

One, two, three!
One, two, three!

[machines beeping rapidly]

Exposing.

- I need a catheter,
14 gauge needle,

introducer, REBOA kit,
and 30 cc's of saline
and contrast, stat.

- X-ray's up.

- Status?
- Zone one, no widened
mediastinum.

- Patient is 35 years old,
penetrating wound
to the abdomen,

hypovolemic, and percutaneous
cannulation is possible

- Good. Dr. Curtis, take point.

- Sir, I've done a REBOA before.

- Then you're not missing out,
are you? Dr. Curtis?

- Uh... Start an art line?

- Art line's in.
- Alright.

Puncturing femoral artery.

Inserting guide wire.

[suspenseful music]

Inserting introducer sheath.

[machines beeping rapidly]
Alright...

Inserting REBOA.
- Mm-hmm.

Then you inflate the balloon
inside the artery,
and it stops the bleeding.

- Alright, I think I'm there.
Inflating now.

I think we got it.
[Claire]: Pressure's coming up

BP's stabilizing, 90 over 60.

- Alright good,
let's get her to OR.

- I'm gonna need that shiv
for evidence.

- They'll take it out
it in the OR, sir.
You'll just have to wait.

- I had a patient recently.

A prisoner.

She got me thinking.

[theme music]

[birds chirping]

'Kay. Who wants pancakes?

- Me!
- Me! Me!

- Okay, Abby, go get the bowls.

Grace, you get the milk
and the eggs. Okay? Get going!

And you, you get the day off.

- Did you want to take
Grace swimming?

She's been asking for some
one-on-one before you leave.

- Sure. You know, actually I...

was kind of hoping
for some one-on-one with you.

- Hmm.
- Uh...

You know, I feel like
we haven't really had a chance
to talk.

[phone ringing]

[Theo sighs]

Hunter residence.

Oh. Hi, Caitlin.

Okay, how long
has he had the fever?

Alright, well I'll swing by
and take a look. Okay?

Alright, bye.

I forgot I promised your dad
I'd take his Saturday
house calls.

- Good for him to practice
letting go,

since you're taking over soon.

- Right. Uh, Mel...

- Don't worry, we'll save you
some pancakes!

[uncomfortable chuckle]

[cars honking, traffic passing]

[Claire]: Okay, this might
sting a bit.

- What do we have here?

- Uh, this is Chris and Camille,

who were on a pretty ambitious
bike ride and had a wee mishap.

- My fault. I got a cramp
and swerved right into Cam.

- We rode all the way
from Montreal.

- Mmm.
- We're making a pilgrimage
to Niagara Falls.

I've always wanted to see it.

- On bikes? May I ask why?

- Ask Cam. I wanted to drive.

- I used to go as a kid,
and Chris never did.

It's the cheesiest place
on Earth, and I do love
that kind of thing,

so I told him the deal
was we ride,

and stop at every tourist
attraction along the way.

- We saw the giant apple
on the 401,

a steam engine museum
in Kingston...

- Until today when he took us
both down.
[Chris chuckles]

- Well, you're gonna need
stitches...

- Ah...

- Your range of motion is okay.

Let's ice it, and see
when the swelling goes down.

- Cam fell harder than I did.
She cracked her helmet.

[Claire]: You didn't mention
that.

- I-I feel fine.

- Well, you can't be too careful
when it comes to a head injury.

Take a seat, please.

We'll do a CT just in case.

- Stay. Stitch. I'll call
radiology and find them a room.

[woman speaking indistinctly
over PA]

- Stomach cramps, broken toe,
and some kind of rash.

Take your pick.

- Dr. Leblanc,

my overnight resident
has to miss today and tomorrow.

Can you cover ten to six?

- Is there someone else
that can do it?

What? I'm taking less doubles,
is that so hard to believe?

- Yeah.
- You were my first ask.

But I'm sure I can cover.

- But I will take all those
patients. Thank you very much.

Let me know if you can't
fill it.

- Is she back down here
for good, now?

- I guess. She was only up
in Internal for, like, a week.

- You didn't ask her?

- Why would I? It's personal.

- Hello again, Mister...?
- CO Roberts.

- Dr. Hamed. I'd like
to update Ms. Spencer.

The nurses tell me she's awake.
- Yeah, come on.

Someone's popular.

- Huh. Doctors don't count.

- I'd like to do a quick
physical exam, Ms. Spencer.

- I think he wants you
to leave, Marty.

- Behave.
- Oh, come on, I'm reformed!

[scoffs]

- He seems nice.

- Mm...

- How are you feeling?

- Like I lost the fight.

- I'd have to see your opponent
to know for sure.

- I guess if I don't make it,
we'll know she won.

- Well, let's not call it
just yet. Deep breath.

[slow inhale]

[pained exhale]

The wound to your abdomen
sliced an artery

which we sealed in the trauma
bay and repaired in OR.

You lost a significant amount
of blood, but you're stable now.

- Feels like I was hit
by a truck.

- Pain at this point is normal.

- My vision's blurry
and there's, like,
pins and needles in my arms.

Is that normal too?
- Give me your hands.

Just this one.

Okay, good.

Those symptoms are common
lingering effects of anesthesia.

We'll keep an eye on it
to make sure nothing's wrong,

and hopefully you'll be in good
shape before you go home.

Go back.
- I've been in lock-up
my entire adult life.

It is home.

- A nurse will be here
to give you something
for the pain.

In the meantime,
if there's anything you need,
you let us know.

- Hey, um, actually yeah. Do...

Do you think maybe someone could
um, get in touch with my mother?

We're not exactly
on the best of terms, but...

maybe if you tell her I was on
death's door and all that...

- Are you allowed visitors?
- If she's willing to come.

I think Marty will let her in.

[June laughing]

- Dr. Curtis, can I borrow you
for something?

- You need a surgical consult?
- Regular exam.

- It's pediatrics.

- The on-call pediatrician
is swamped today.

Good news is the boy's vomiting
seems to have stopped.

- Fantastic.

Hi, Glenn, I am Dr. Curtis.

I hear you've been throwing up
at the Royal Ontario Museum
this morning?

How long have you been
feeling sick... buddy?

Okay, uh...

It says here you refused
to call your parents?
Is there a reason for that?

- My mom's in New York
for meetings.

She's gone a lot.

- Got it. What about Dad?

'Kay. Uh, why don't
you lie down for me?

Does that hurt?

Did you eat anything
at the museum?

No? So you were just...
hanging out by the bat cave

and started vomiting?

- The fossils.

- What?
- I like the fossils,
not the bats.

- Okay.

Do you remember about what time
you started feeling sick?

Listen, you gotta give me
something, alright?

Oh!

Nurse!

[woman speaking indistinctly
over PA system]

[woman coughing]

[coughing]

- Hi. Jessica Brown.
Firefighter.

- Oh yeah, we've met before.

- Your O2 sats were 88%,
your lung capacity was low,

but you didn't want to stay
for more pulmonary tests.

- Good memory.
[coughing]

- You're not coming from a fire.

- Captain said if I'm out
of breath on the treadmill,

I'm not cleared for active duty.

It's been getting worse
for days, and he made me
come and get checked.

- Okay. Breathe in.

[Jessica breathes deeply]
Cough for me, please.

[coughing]

[soft music]

Any other symptoms?

- A fever on and off.

And I've been
pretty tired lately.

- Okay well, I'd like to run
full labs and get you
a new chest X-ray,

and consult with a respirologist
this time

if you're open to it.

- Guess I knew that was coming.

[inhales]
Yeah, okay.

- I'll be right back.
[Jessica coughing]

- Do you know what kind
of crime she committed?

- Murder, I think.

At least that's what
the paramedic heard from
the prison transport crew.

- Wow. Guess it's gotta be
pretty brutal to land you
in max security.

- Apparently she was only
18 years old.

- Eighteen?
- Hey.

We should respect
her privacy. Hmm?

[beeping]

- She can't feel
her arms or legs.

- Nicole. Can you
wiggle your fingers for me?

- I can't.

Is it still the anesthetic?

- That's unlikely. Are you on
any other medication?

- No, nothing.

- Narcotics? Would I find
anything in your system?

- Jesus, you didn't.
- No, I didn't.

But I did get in a fight
with Gina.

- More fights? When was this?

- Yesterday.

Gina stabbed me with a needle.

[Roberts sighs]
- Where?

- If someone has it out for you,
you need to come to me!

- I started it, okay?

- Nicole,
where were you stabbed?
- In my left thigh.

[Roberts]: What are you doing,
Nic?

- This is infected. Any idea
what was in that needle?

- Heroin at some point,
probably.

- This is from an infection?

- Possibly. We'll aspirate
and run a tox screen to confirm.

- Can you stop it?
- Depends on what
we're dealing with.

[sighs]

- You're almost getting out.

What are you thinking?

- I get it. You're pissed.
You made your point, okay?

- Are you trying to blow
your release?

Because that's
what you're doing here, Nic.

- I'll be right back.

[suspenseful music]

or, like, food poisoning,
but Glenn's anemic
and his BP is high.

- Maybe it's a dietary issue
or nutritional deficiency.

- I don't know. Viv's trying
to track down his mom.

- Has he told you
anything helpful?

- He's not exactly a big talker.

- Then get him to open up.

- Of course,
get him to open up...

Okay, Glenn, I'm gonna need
some answers, buddy.

Glenn?

Glenn.

Look, the blood tests
are telling me

that you aren't getting
enough iron. Okay?

Does your mom cook vegetarian?
- No.

- Are you eating enough
red meat at home?

- Yes.
- Does your head hurt?

Is anything else
that is off, or weird?

- I am weird, okay?!

[scoffs]
I don't think you're weird.

Do you sometimes
have a hard time hearing?

How's your concentration?

[mumbling]: I don't know.

- Okay. You're gonna have
to show me your teeth.

Come on.

Like this. There we go.

Okay. This is really
important. Alright?

Do you live in an old house?

The paint on the walls, is t
peeling or anything like that?

[tense music]

- It's getting worse.

I... I can't feel my arms,
and it's harder to breathe.

- The tox screen confirmed
you have what's called
wound botulism,

from whatever bacteria
was in that needle.

- Botulism?
- That's why she can't move?

- Botulism can cause
double-vision and paralysis
of voluntary muscles

- You can give her antibiotics

- With an infection
this serious, we use
a targeted antitoxin.

It's being prepared right now.

- What?
[Roberts]: What?

- The medication
is time-sensitive.

Without knowing how far
the infection has progressed,

we can't be sure it will work
before paralysis takes a hold

of your major body functions,
like your heart and lungs.

- Which means...
she stops breathing?

She... dies?

- Guess I might lose
that fight after all.

- We're going to do
everything we can to make sure
that doesn't happen.

- Hey. Hey.

You are not losing this fight.

You got that, Nic?

[tense music]

Dr. Hamed. Dr. Hamed!

- Yes, sir?
- Hey.

When are we gonna know
if this drug you're giving her
is gonna work?

Once we start the infusion,
we keep an eye out
for negative reactions.

After that, it's wait and see.

- And there's nothing else
we can do in the meantime?

- No, sorry.

Nicole asked me to contact
her mother.

Our social worker
is trying to reach her.

- Thirteen years
she's been in max.

Mother never showed, not once.

- You said earlier
that she was getting out.

Her release is soon?

- Statutory after two thirds
of her haul.

Never slipped once, until now.

Nic was a kid when she came in.

My own daughter was just born
at the time.

Anyway, she worked hard
to change.

But bringing this trouble
on herself?

You see that
when they don't wanna go.

When they're scared to.

[soft music]

Alright, thanks.

- You're tired because
your body's not getting
enough oxygen.

Unfortunately, this tissue...

here in your right lung,
is dead.

And the dead tissue caused
an infection that's led
to sepsis.

- Can I fight that off?

- The infection, yes.

But the underlying cause...

I'm sorry, Jessica.

There were indicators before,
but now it's confirmed.

You have COPD.

Chronic Obstructive
Pulmonary Disease.

It's a progressive disease,
and we are seeing signs
of emphysema.

[Jessica sighs]

- Go on, say it.

If I'd seen
a specialist before--

- No. No.

There's no guarantees
it would have changed anything.

But it is stage three,

which means you have
to take it seriously.

- I'm only 32.

I have my whole career
ahead of me.

- I'll start you
on IV antibiotics right now,

to deal with the infection,

and I'm gonna set you up
a surgical consult

to see what the options
are beyond that.

Hey. What do you have?

- Thirteen-year-old boy
with severe lead toxicity.

You ever treated that?

- No, but normally
it's chelation therapy
to flush it out.

You'll need to source out
the cause of the exposure

to make sure
it's not ongoing, though.

Do you have time for a consult?
- What do you have?

- COPD with progressive
emphysema.

She's a candidate
for bullectomy,

which could improve
her breathing significantly.

- So if you already know that,
what do you need me for?

- I just thought that if you do
the consult,

aren't you more likely
to assist with the procedure?

I can ask someone else
if you're busy.

- No, I'm good.
[chuckles]

Thank you.

[Nicole wheezing slowly]

- It's not working.

- You're not responding
to treatment as well
as we'd hoped.

- Did you get in touch
with my mother?

- Uh... Our social worker
spoke with her, but...

- She's not coming.

[wheezing]

- I'm sorry, Nicole.

[soft music]

[Dr. Mitchell]:
That's heartbreaking.

- She shut down.

She wouldn't discuss
any other treatment options
with me after that.

- Why do you think that was?

- With her prison term
coming to an end...

I think that she thought
if her mother would forgive her,

that she would deserve
to get out.

- Same reason
she was starting fights.

Because your patient didn't
think she deserved her release.

- And knowing that her mother
wouldn't come,

even when she was so sick,
made her give up on life.

- Alright, so we finally got
ahold of your mother.

She's gonna take an early
flight back.

Says she has no idea
what could be causing this.

But if you do,
you should tell me.

You won't get in trouble.

Okay, what if I tell you
there's a twenty in it for you?

[Theo]: Wait.
You, you bribed him?

[June]: I tried, it didn't work.

[scoffs]
- So... you're saying
he was thirteen?

- Chelation therapy's not gonna
be easy for a kid his age,

but given how extensive
his lead poisoning is,
he may need it.

- Okay, so then
why are you calling me?

- Because he won't talk to me.

- You... you called me to ask
how to talk to your patient?

- Well, I mean, normally
I deal with adults, okay?

I really need help.

- Well, look...
[girl]: Dad!

- You have to find a way
to make it seem like
you're not trying.

You know? They usually
wanna talk.

They just need to do it
on their own terms.

But look, I gotta go, June.
So good luck, okay?

Bye. Hey!

- Camille Beaudry's CT is clear.

So they will be able
to carry on their cycling trip.

- Oh, God.

There's not enough money
in the world

to make me wanna ride a bike
down a highway days on end.

- Oh, come on, it's romantic.

- Spandex and semi-trucks?

No. Not my idea of romance.

- So you'd prefer Sonoma Valley?

- Mm-mm. Burning Man.

No phones. No rules

- No showers.
[Claire chuckles]

You'd really want to be stuck
in the desert for three days?

- And you'd rather be touring
some stuffy medical museum
in Paris?

[Bishop sighs]
- Latvia. Riga.

Nights on the Baltic.

- Why didn't you ever do that
with Katherine?

- Same reason you didn't
do Burning Man.

Lives burdened
by glorious purpose.

[bags jostling]

- Mel, I've been trying to find
the right time to tell you
something.

I just, I need you
to keep an open mind.

That permanent position
I told you about...

I applied, and Bishop offered
it to me.

- Why didn't you tell me?

- I tried, Mel.
You just, you got upset.

- And you walked it back and you
never even brought it up again.

When do you have
to give him an answer?

You already said yes.

- Okay, and I-I...

I know that was stupid.

Alright, but babe...

I haven't been this excited
about something in a long time.

- I thought you were excited
to come home

- Of course I am.

I-I just...

I can see a future
there too, Mel.

For all of us.
It's not just the job.

It's the people the kids
would meet. The opportunities.

- My job is here, my parents,
our whole lives are here!

- You would...
You'd get a job in a second.

[soft music]

Hey look, I know.

I know that if you just
gave it a chance,

you'd love it.

[scoffs]

Mel... Say something.

- What am I supposed to say?

You wait until five minutes
before you leave

to drop this on me,
and I'm supposed to what,
get on board?

- Mel--
- No! Just...

You better leave.
You'll miss your flight.

[soft piano music]

We can perform a procedure
called a bullectomy.

Essentially, we're gonna remove
the diseased air sacs
from your lung.

- Take out part of my lung?
- It'll help the surrounding
healthy tissue grow,

and it would make
a big difference
on your breathing.

- You're young enough, Jessica,

we really feel this will have
a positive effect
on your disease,

it can help slow
progression, and--

[wheezing]
- Jessica?

[Jessica]: What's happening
[wheezing]

- Her heart rate's 200.

- I need a crash cart here!

- Jessica, I need you to stay
with me, alright?

Everything's gonna be okay,
just stay with me.

- Jessica, COPD can trigger
heart problems, and right now,

your heart's not in a normal
rhythm, and we're gonna need
to address that.

Okay?
- What do we have?

- Jessica Brown,
newly diagnosed COPD,

and now regular narrow complex
tachycardia, looks like SVT.

- Okay. A re-entrant
tachycardia. Recourse?

- Block antegrade conduction
and try to break it.

- Okay, good.

Prep 6 milligrams adenosine
IV push

with 20 cc saline flush.

[machines beeping rapidly]

- Okay, Jessica, I'm gonna
give you some medication

that's gonna pause your heart,
but don't worry, it's gonna
start back all by itself.

[wheezing]
- Pause my heart?

But won't that kill me?

- No. No. It's a very
quick procedure.

But your heart will stop
beating for a few seconds.

It's like hitting
the reset button

- What if it...
[coughing]

What if it doesn't restart?

- It will. We have the defib
here just in case, but it will.

- Heart rate's still 200.

- Jessica.

You run into fires every day.
This is nothing compared
to that.

Trust me.

- Let's do it.

- You're gonna feel
a discomfort in your chest,

and a warming sensation.

Are you ready?

[Jessica wheezing]

[intense music]

[continuous beep]

[June]: Flatline.

- Come on, come on, come on.

[machine beeps]
- Regular sinus rhythm.

- Welcome back.

- Good work, everyone.

- You okay?

[breathing heavily]

[indistinct chattering]

- Sir?

My botulism patient
isn't responding
to the antitoxin.

- Options?
- I want to try a newer drug.

A higher potency
synthetic compound.

- Which is still relatively
untested, and therefore
comes with a higher risk.

- It's shown results.
- What does your patient say?

- Not much. She's afraid,

disengaged from her treatment.
- Mm.

People don't always want
the things they need. Huh?

Talk to her. Get her consent.

- Glenn. How's it going?

So, uh... speaking of weird...

The kids thought
I was weird too.

Yeah. I know, right?

I was like a foot taller than
everyone else, which I hated.

And I didn't like talking
to people.

Things at home weren't great.

I felt pretty alone. You know?

- You sure talk a lot now.

[laughing]

- Okay. Alright.

So look, as you get older,
the thing you realize

is that, you know,
the weird kids grow up to be...

the cool kids.

[snorting]

You wanna see something awesome?

[soft music]

Ready?

You said you liked fossils,
right?

Eh? Cool, right?

I mean, he's not real,
but he's to scale.

We use him for teaching.
The residents call him Maurice.

Say hi.

Shake his hand.

Have you been eating these?

- I like the way they taste.

- What are they?
- Fishing weights.

- How long have you
been doing this?

- About a month.

I got them from my grandfather's
tackle box.

He used to take me fishing.

Before he died.

We used to talk about stuff.

- I bet you miss him, huh?

- I feel alone too.

- No, you're not alone.

But Glenn, how many of these
have you eaten?

- A lot.

I tried to stop, but I can't.

I didn't know
they were made of lead.

- It's okay.

It's cool. I can help you
with this.

- Can I stay here a bit longer?

- Definitely. You should
chill with Maurice.

- Hairline fracture
of the patella.

It'll take 4 to 6 weeks to heal.
- Ugh...

Can't you give me
a steroid shot?

- You can walk on it,
but a long ride is definitely
out of the question.

- I'm sorry, Cam

What?
- I booked a tour company

to the falls
on the New York side,

and they have something
I've never seen.

A chicken who does math.

[Cam laughing]

I'm serious. She counts out
little kernels of corn

with her little, little beak!

- Well, only a madman
could turn down that offer.

- Then I guess I'm not.

- Listen to the doctor.
All he wants is your consent.

- What's the point?
Isn't it shift change?

Don't you gotta punch out?

- The infection isn't stopping.
It's going to reach
your respiratory system

- What happens if she doesn't
take the new medication?

- If things continue
as they are, she's going
to stop breathing

within the next 24 hours
- You hear that?

He says you'll die.
- I don't care.

- Don't say that. Don't do this.

Doc, please, you gotta
talk to her.
- He's right, Nicole.

You don't have to give up.

You don't deserve to die
from this

[struggling to breathe]
- You don't know me.

You don't know what I deserve

[Roberts]: But I do.

- I killed someone, Marty.

I took an innocent man

away from his family,
his two kids,

just for the cash in his till.

- It was a different
person who did that!
[Nicole wheezing]

The law says you paid
your debt.

- Well, I don't!

He's dead.

Why do I get to live?

Just... just go, home.

Just leave.

[Nicole crying]

[soft music]

[door opening]

- Hey, I'm home!
- Hey.

- What are you doing?
- Homework.

We had an algebra test,
and I didn't finish.

Now my teacher says
I have to do these
extra problems for Monday.

- Algebra still
gives me nightmares

- I bet you finished
your tests on time.

- Not always. And I went
to school in my first language.

Amira, you're doing great.

And whenever you feel
like you're not...

You come find me.

[door opening]

- Hey.

Homework on a Saturday?

- How was work?
- Long.

How'd it go?

- Mel wasn't thrilled
about the idea
of us moving here.

- Give her time.
She'll change her mind.

- What will you do
if she doesn't?

- Amira.
[Theo]: No, it's okay.

I don't know.

- Sounds like we could use
a pizza.

- Oh, yeah. I'm in.
- Me too.

[sirens wailing,
traffic passing]

[soft music]

- Uh, Nicole Spencer?
Where is she?

- They moved her
to ICU overnight.

She lost consciousness

[tense music]

- Blood pressure's low.
O2 sats are still falling.

- They upped the infusion
of antitoxin, but...

- She's not responding.
She's going into
respiratory failure

- Do you want to intubate?

Dr. Hamed?

- We're going to try
a synthetic adenovirus.

[tense music]

- Glenn's mother agreed
to the chelation therapy.

That should flush out the rest
of the lead toxicity.

He'll just be here a few days.

- Okay, well the X-ray
confirmed all the lead weights

have passed from his system.

The way he described it,
it sounded like
a compulsive habit.

- That could be Pica.

It's an eating disorder
brought on by anxiety
and major stress events

- Glenn's grandfather
just passed away.

They were close, and now
it's just him and his mom, so...

- Yeah, it's never easy.

Well, she's committed
to helping.

So I'll refer them
to a psychologist who's
worked with teens before.

- More talking?
The kid's gonna love that.

[chuckles]

- Well, looks like you made
a new friend.

- You really like doing
this stuff every day?

- Yeah. I really do.

- You put her on the adenovirus.

- She was unconscious
when I started the infusion.

I had no choice but to make
an informed decision.

- Meaning?
- Meaning, I'm trying
to help her.

You said yourself
that people don't always want
the things they need.

Wouldn't you have done
the same?

- Wasn't it three weeks ago
I asked you to go see
Dr. Mitchell?

Have you gone?

I'm trying to help you, too.

[tense music]

- You'll be up and around
in no time.

- No more fires, though.

[Mags sighs]
- No.

Not if you want to slow
the progression of your disease,

no.

[soft piano music]

- Fighting fires was...

was the thing I picked.

Not marriage,

not kids.

- You're still young, Jessica.

You've got your whole life
ahead of you.

- Maybe.

But I cut everything else out.

Without my job...

I'm not sure I know who I am.

- Dr. Leblanc,

I'm still looking for someone
to cover tonight 10 to 6.

You said to tell you
if I hadn't covered it?

- Yeah, um...

I'm sorry, Dr. Atwater. I can't.

- Okay.

Hi, Dr. Curtis.

- What?
- Nothing, you have other plans?

- No, why?
- Well, good.

Just, you know, don't make any.

- Hey.
- Mr. Roberts.

[sighs]
- Nic's on the new meds?

- And her deterioration
is holding.

She's still critical,
but we're hopeful.

- She did shoot that man,

but what she didn't mention
was the abusive boyfriend
who dragged her into it.

He's doing life for that,

and another crime that she had
nothing to do with.

Nic never had anyone
who to look out for her.

Her first year inside,

she was too scared to sleep.

So we sat up nights
playing Scrabble
until she could.

[light piano music]

Give that to her
when she wakes up?

- I guess she did have
someone looking out for her.

- Theo!
- Hey, Joanie.

- I heard from
my shift supervisor you put in
for a ride along?

- I'm starting here full-time.

- And you need
your EMS field experience.

- Yeah, all permanent staff
need to log 20 hours.

- Okay, well, if you can do
next Thursday, we'll take you
with us.

- That's perfect. Great!
Thank you.

- See you then!

[distant sirens wailing]

[cars honking]

- Hey.
- Hi.

New nurses schedule.

I've added a second
overnight to Saturday.

Wanna take a look?
- Claire, uh...

If I... If I were
to ask you to...

...come to the Baltics
with me, would you?

- I thought you were too
caught up here,

burdened with
"glorious purpose"?

- Well, it wouldn't kill me
to take a vacation.

- Mm. Burning Man?

- Well...
[chuckling]

Possibly. I know...

I know you wanted
some time on your own
to figure things out, Claire.

I just wanted to let you know...

I'd follow you anywhere.

Even the middle of the desert
with the great unwashed.

[soft music]

[giggling]

- Well, why don't we
start small?

Take the same day off?

Go from there?

[distant sirens wailing]

Singh's going to let me
scrub in on the bullectomy.

- Wait, is that...
is that why we're here?

- No.
- Is that why we're hanging out?

- Listen. Don't... don't make
a big deal out of this.

- Mm-hmm.

Well, last time I had a beer
and pretzels,

I was with my sister.
[chewing]

She was getting married
the next day,
and panicking about it.

- Oh, okay, so...

Overthinking runs really strong
in your family?

[laughing]
- Yeah. Yeah.

You have a brother, right?
- Yeah, uh, Charlie.

We have a strong
text-based relationship.

- My sister and I, we used to...

we used to talk every day.

- Every day?
- Mm-hmm.

- Wow.

- Well, since my residency
started, it's been more like
every, uh...

every few weeks, I'd say.

She used to let me pretend
to defibrillate her.

[laughing]
- What?!

- I know.
- Are you serious?

- Poor kid.

- So, I guess you were one
of the weird kids too,
then, huh?

- Mm-hmm. Definitely.

- Hmm, nice.

Well, cheers to the weirdos.

- Cheers.
[glasses clinking]

[soft music]

- What happened?

- You survived.

[sighs]
- I survived, or...

You saved me?

- I made a judgment call
when your life was in danger.

Yours was a fight
I refused to lose.

- Hmm.

Marty bring these?

You ever play?
- With my little sister,

when she was learning English,
it helped with her spelling.

[knocking]

- Hey. Good to see you up.

- Good to be up.

You got time for a quick
game, or what?

- Yeah, I could carve out
a few minutes.

- Okay, I'm gonna beat you,
though.

- Yeah, well, there's a first
for everything.

Good?

Why don't I let you
pick first.

- Your patient struggle
to forgive herself.

It affected you.

It made you finally
come see me.

Many of my patients
who come from war zones
live with survivor's guilt.

[slow exhale]

- You asked me what I saw

that day that building
across the street exploded,

and I lost focus
during a medical procedure.

I saw my mother.

[high-pitched ringing]

[soft music]

She was dead.

There was a bombing
in the clinic
that my parents built.

The clinic they ran
since I was a child, and...

I was too late to save her.

- And you can't forgive
yourself for that.

- Every time I see my little
sister, I'm reminded...

... of what we lost.

Reminded that the one thing
she needs

is the one thing
I can never give her back.

Our parents.

[soft music]

[theme music]

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