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- Oh, sorry.

- Dinner, my place?

- I thought we finished
with all that about
five years ago.

[muffled]: Doctor Amed?

[Mags]: Bash.

[gunfire]

[man shouting]

[gunfire]

[woman crying]

[gunfire]

[man shouting in distance]

[suspenseful music]

[coughing]

[man over PA system]:
Lockdown. Code silver.

Lockdown. Code Silver.

- Can I help?

- No. I got it. It's fine. Go.

- I'll go find some gauze
and come right back.

- No. There's gauze
in the cabinet. I can make it.

Just go.

You'll be okay, I can stop
the bleeding as soon as
the shooter clears.

[woman groaning]

[Bashir]: You're going
to be okay.

[gunfire]

[man shouting in distance]

[woman sobbing]

Can you move?

[indistinct whispering]

[Lou]: Did you see him?

- The last shots
came from hallway J.

- You shouldn't be in the open.
[Mags]: Are you okay?

- I've got a through-and-through
to the neck.
Another in the thigh.

- Mine's an abdominal wound
and a shot to the right humerus.

I applied a tourniquet to try
and stabilize his pressure,

but it's still
dropping in critical.

- Pressure right there.
There might not be anything else
you can do for him.

- Well, maybe if I...

Maybe if I bolus him
with fluids,

we'll keep him going until we
can activate massive contusion.

[gunfire]
- Get down, get down.

[machines beeping]

[gasping]

[high-pitched ringing]

[woman over PA system]:
Lights on.

That concludes
the active shooter drill.

Thank you everyone.
- God...

Well, I lost mine,
how'd you manage
to stabilize yours?

Bash?

- Hey, don't worry, I was going
to die no matter what you did.

[soft piano music]

- And now we find out
how we did.

- My guy was gonna die
all along.

If I had no hope of saving him,
what was the point?

Maybe that was the point.
To see how you'd handle it.

- Well then, I failed.
- Pretty sure it's not
pass or fail.

Whole purpose of the drill
is to make sure we're prepared
for the real thing.

[Bishop]: Alright, thanks.

- We're gonna have a full
post-mortem with the observers
tomorrow.

We're gonna review the tape,

and we're gonna discuss
any course corrections in depth.

- In the interim, I want you
to think about how you're
feeling right now.

And how you responded
to the situations you've faced.

You were trying to solve
a problem that couldn't
be solved.

You should've called
that patient and moved on.

Learn to control what you can,
and let go of what you can't.

Right? You're an island.
But you work on a team.

You could've stopped
the bleeding quicker

if you'd let Dr. Hamed
help you get supplies.

Calm under pressure,
no surprise there,
but you took huge risks.

You can't save lives
if you've sacrificed your own.

Huh? Alright.

[soft music]

[elevator dinging]

- Changed your mind?

- I... I pressed
the wrong button.

- Heard there was an active
shooter drill today.

Always cracks a few residents.

Did your patient fake die?

- Fake lived, actually.

[sighing]

Mr. Gomes?

I'm Dr. Hamed. I understand
you've been experiencing
some chest pains and dizziness.

When did this start?
- Earlier this week.

I was trying to ignore it,

but I think that was a bad idea
because...

now my left arm is tingling.

- Deep breath.

- It can't be... it can't be
a heart attack, right?

I mean, I'm too young.

- Are you a smoker, Mr. Gomes?

- Kevin. No, never.

I got scared straight
by that shrivelled lung
they showed us in sixth grade.

- Any family history
of heart problems?

- Not that I know of.

They don't keep me in the loop
on everything.

[indistinct chattering]

- Hello, I'm Dr. Leblanc.

You're from Station 19
around the corner?

Take a deep breath.

- Best post I've had.

Busy, though. We stretched
three times last night.

- Mm.

Do you wear a respirator?

- The tanks are only good
for 20 minutes,

sometimes we're in longer.

They're heavy, so we just ditch
them when they run out.

- Did you run out last night?

- Yeah.

- We pulled a couple
from a bad house fire.

Got in as fast as we could,
but they didn't make it

- Have you ever been diagnosed
with high blood pressure?

- No. I eat right, I exercise,

I don't drink.

I just can't catch
a break right now.

First I, uh...
First I lose my job, and then...

And then I had to move.

[laboured breathing]

- Deep breath. Deep breath.

[soft music]

Alright. Your blood pressure
is high,

and your heart rate has elevated
since you got here.

Is that what you were
feeling before?

- What do you... What do you
think is wrong with me?

- Um, we'll order some tests.

Uh, some blood work
and an ECG, and uh...

Try not to worry,
this is standard procedure.

- Right. Thanks, doc.

- My dad was a firefighter,

and he always said
you save the next one.

- Yeah.

Okay.

Mm. Your nails are blue.

How long have they
been like that?
- They are?

I dunno.

- And your O2 sats are 88%.

I want to send you
for pulmonary function testing.

- I've been doing this
ten years. I bounce back
every time.

- Yeah, I don't doubt it.
But you're here now,

so better be safe
than sorry, right?

[coughs]

If the thing you loved
was slowly killing you,

would you, A,
stop and save yourself,

or B, continue and risk it?

- I would decide not to follow
you down this particular
rabbit hole today

- Oh my God, it's your birthday!

I baked cupcakes and I totally
forgot about them.

- When do you have time to bake?

- I know, I needed
something to relax me.

- You know what could
help you to relax? Sleeping.

- Did you do something special?
- Mel threw the annual barbecue.

Some friends, some family,
some coconut cream pie.

- Oh, that's nice.
- It was.

You know, usual suspects.

- We should shake things up
and let's go for drinks tonight.

- A kid in four
is waiting for you. Okay?

- How'd this happened?

- Rolled it during soccer
practice, and wiped out.

Could've walked it off,
but Coach forced me to come.

My mom's on her way.

You should consider a beard.

Beards are in.
Plus it'll help with your chin.

- Okay, good to know.

How's the pain
on a scale from 1 to 10?

- Six.

Eight when you do that!

- Well, it's probably a sprain,
but we'll X-ray.

Either way, you're gonna
have to rest it.

- But playoffs are coming up.

- But you gotta think long-term.

You push it now, it could
only make it worse.

And uh, I'll get a nurse
in here disinfect these scrapes.

Does it hurt when I press?
- No. All good.

- What happened to your ribs?

- Nothing. They're fine.

- Danny is binding.

If it wasn't on the chart,
I'd never have known
he was born a girl.

- What did he say?

- Not much, he clammed up
when I asked about
the tensor bandage.

I'm worried
he's cutting off circulation.
What's the protocol?

- Is this your first
transgender patient?

- No, I saw some adults
when I was doing residency,

but never someone this young.

But I'm just treating this kid
for a sprained ankle.

- He may not have anyone
he trusts to help him with this.

[sounds muffling]

[high-pitched ringing]

[sounds returning to normal]
- Sorry.

- Sir, you really have
to hold still, okay? Ah!!

[Bashir]: Uh, nurse?

- Ugh... So stupid.
I should've had security there.

- Dr. Curtis, are you okay?

- Yeah, just blood splatter
from a displaced IV.

- The patient is an intravenous
user.

- You need to fill out
an incident report.

Get blood work on him,
including HIV, Hep B, Hep C.

I want you to start
PEP immediately.

- Uh, I have surgery
today, so...

- Not anymore.

- I can draw your blood.
- I'll go to the lab.

[suspenseful music]

- Blood work is normal,
as is your ECG, so no evidence
of a heart attack.

- Then what was I feeling?

- You're tachycardic,
which means you have
an elevated heart rate.

- Is that serious?

- We need to determine
the underlying cause.

Do you still feel numbness?

- It... It comes and goes,

along with this
splitting headache.

- Well, the next step
is an echo and then
a stress test, but...

- What's happening to me?

- Kevin?

[high-pitched ringing]

[muffled]: I need help
over here!

- You were saying something
about an X-ray?

- We'll get you one right away,
now just give me a minute.

[suspenseful music]

Kevin Gomes, the heart patient.
Is he in the echo lab?

- Uh no, you sent him
for a CT to rule out stroke.

- When?

- About an hour ago.

[suspenseful music]

- Arnold, have you seen
my patient Kevin Gomes?

- Porters are bringing him
back down.

Why, thought you lost him?

- No, just uh...

- Hey, you forget something bud?

You left this in the lounge.
- Thank you.

[suspenseful music]

- I'm Amanda Gomes,
you left me a message?

- Uh, Dr. Hamed.
You're Kevin Gomes's
emergency contact?

- His sister, yes. Is he okay?

- I'm just about to pick up
his latest test results.

- Did Kevin ask you to call me?

- It's protocol when somebody
loses consciousness.

- He lost consciousness?

What happened? Where is he?

- Um, if you check
at the nurse's desk,
they'll be able to direct you.

I'll be there shortly.

- Why did you even come here?

- I want to help you!
- You being here
only makes things worse!

If you really want
to help me, you'll leave.

- Take care of him.

- You called my sister?

- You collapsed. We had her
on file from a prior visit--

- You shouldn't have called her.
My family is...

They don't know how to handle
this kind of thing.

- Well, good news,
your CT came back clear.

No sign of a stroke.

- But we still don't know
why I passed out?

- It could
be a cardiogenic syncope.

Sometimes with
an irregular heartbeat,

your blood pressure
drops suddenly.

- Is your headache worse?

- Like a dull creeping ache
across the back of my skull.

Could you have missed something?

Doctors make mistakes
all the time, right?

- Uh, we'll order an MRI.

It can detect subtleties
that sometimes a CT can't.

- Four weeks. No training.

- Seriously?
That's like forever.

- It'll fly by
before you know it.

But listen...

When you rewrap
your other tensor,

go easy.

Too tight, and it can cause
other problems.

- Too loose,
and they'll still show.

- You can buy compression
chest binders.

They are easier on your skin.

Still, you shouldn't wear them
more than eight hours a day.

- Yeah, but...

you need a credit card
to buy them online.

- So your parents don't know
that you're...

- A boy?

They're fine with the pronouns

and keeping my hair short,
and wearing
boy's clothes, but...

that's about it.

- They don't know that you bind.

- I don't know,
we don't talk about it.

I know about gender dysphoria.

I've seen a therapist
a couple times for it.

- Okay.

Is there anything
I can do to help?

- I want top surgery.

[suspenseful music]

[indistinct chattering]

- Okay, Danny wants
a double mastectomy.

- He asked you to help him
get it?

- Thirteen's pretty young
to make a call
on gender reassignment.

- So, you're on the conservative
side of the medical?

- The kid is still growing.

- And we don't have proper
long-term studies on hormones.

If he's considering it,
he should know the risks.

- Hmm, well, it's a little
outside the lines
of emergency medicine.

You sure you want
to wade into this?

- I want to make sure
he has the support he needs.

When the mother comes in, I'd...
I'd like to talk to her.

- Well, let me know
what you need.

[indistinct background
chattering]

- Does your patient know
what triggered this event?

- He thinks so.

- And you said he lost time.

- About an hour's worth.

He can't remember
anything over that span.

- Well, sounds like
a dissociative event.

- Right.

He retraced his steps,

and he functioned perfectly
throughout. No one even noticed.

- With dissociation,
the patient's emotional
centre detaches

but his decision-making
and instincts remain the same.

Is this something
he has a history of?

- Sometimes he says
he zones out.

But no, nothing like this.

- Normally when I'm being
referred to a patient,
there's a chart of some kind.

- I'm just
gathering information.
- Mm.

- You said you have
experience with PTSD.

- Yes, I do,
and with post-traumatic
stress injuries,

the only way out is through.

You should encourage
your patient to get therapy.

- And if he's not ready
for that?

- Well, does he have
a good support system?

Family, friends?

[distant sirens]

- He would rather
not involve them.

- Mm. Well, maybe
he should start.

- Why are you looking
at the discharged
patients' files?

- I'm checking to make sure
there's nothing I missed today.

Sometimes it... it all feels
like it all blends together

- Mm. I'd trade you if I could.
I remember every patient.

Every detail.
It's like a curse.

Can't remember what I had
for breakfast, though.

[Mags chuckling]

I can help you review
if you want.

If you're worried
you missed something.

- Doesn't look like I did.

Did you get your antivirals?

- Check.
- Why are you still here?
You can't see patients.

- I have files to finish.
- We can cover that.

- Why? If I have something,
I'm gonna have it at home too.

- Hey, your results are in
from Respiratory.

- Perfect.

- Absolutely not.
- Jessica.

- Last night was a grind.
I came in for O2
and an all-clear.

I'm not sidelining myself.

- Jessica, you may have COPD.
- You said my chest X-ray
was clear of cancer.

That's good enough for me.
- Your lung capacity
is significantly reduced.

Ignoring this could
actually kill you.

- Well, so could a fire.
- Listen, it's just a few tests!

- It's a consult with
one of our respirologists.

Let me help you get this
under control.

- Look, I know you're doing
your job, but I gotta do mine.

My dad did this job
'til he was 50, I'm not
about to give it up.

- Well, if you leave
against medical advice,

I need you to sign something
that says you understand
the risks.

- No problem.

- I'm sorry, he shouldn't
have gotten you involved.

We've been through this.
- Eighteen is too long to wait!

- We had a long talk
with his pediatrician,

and we all agreed
we won't even consider surgery
until Danny is an adult.

- I don't agree!

What do you think?

- I think holding off
on a surgical procedure

is a wise decision.

- You're on her side?!
- I'm on your side.

Surgery is a big commitment.

Your body is still changing.
- That's the point!

I need it to stop!
- Danny, you're thirteen!

- I know what I want!

- You pass as a boy.
- With breasts!

They won't let me play
for the guy's soccer team.

- What if this is a phase?
- You think I'm just gonna
get over it?!

- Yes! You might!

Look, when we get home,
we can talk some more.

Okay?

- You don't believe me

- Come on Danny.

No one is saying that.

- She just did.

You're all the same.

- Good night, sir.
- You ordered a CT, an ECG

and an MRI
for the patient in two?

- Along with Kevin's
racing heart,

headaches, and slurred speech,

he's also presenting
with severe abdominal pain.

The nurses say
he's vomited several times.

- I looked at the MRI.
He hasn't had a stroke.

- Mm-hmm.
- You were expecting that?

Does that mean
you have a theory?

- There may be nothing
wrong with him at all.

- Keep talking.

- I think Kevin's tachycardia's
brought on by a stress reaction.

- And yet he's still here.

- Are you saying you want me
to send him home?

- I'm saying you better have
a very good reason if you don't.

[suspenseful music]

[door opening]

- Are you going somewhere?

- Daneesha's, remember?

You said I can sleep over.

- It's Friday already?

I thought we could
make our own pizzas again

- She asked for me to eat there.

Her cousins
are coming over too.

- That will be fun.

- Will you be okay alone?

- You think I need a babysitter?

[chuckles]
- Only sometimes. How was work?

- It was fine.
I'll walk you over.

[distant sirens]

[Theo]: Look, the next one's
on you.

[upbeat music playing]

Hey! You made it!

He's the best.

- Happy birthday.

It's a Baharat.
A spice mix we use at home.

Amira toasts it.

- Thanks, man.
Uh Aiden Miller.

Surgeon. We were in
the same year in med school.

- Bashir.

[Aiden]: Go, big guy.

Mm. You haven't changed a bit.

- That is not true.

- Says the guy who's wearing
the same khakis he wore
to graduation

- When I find pants that fit,
I stick with them!

There's nothing wrong with that.
Am I right?

- No, he's right.
- I'm right.

[laughing]
[Lou]: You sure
you don't want something?

- Early surgery tomorrow, so...

- So you're not coming
over later?

- Don't you have your son?

- He's with his mom.

- Can I get a soda with lime,
please.

- Oh, so y'all are gonna
make me drink alone?

- Are you okay?
- Never better.

- Hey, hey, hey!

It's my favourite not-a-couple!

[Mags laughing]
Wait, so you're here together?

That means
you're here together.

Right?

- Are you still thinking about
your fake patient fake dying?

- No, no, no.
I've let that go.

- Oh.

- Okay, no I haven't.

But I'm also thinking about
this firefighter I saw today.

COPD. And I tried
getting her to see all the risks
of ignoring it,

and she just discharged herself
to run right back into the fire.

- Sounds like no one I know.

- So basically you went
from obsessing over
a fake patient,

to obsessing over a real one,

both of which are outside
of your control?

- I gave her all the intel,
it wasn't enough to stop her.

[indistinct chattering]

[Theo]: Joanie! The paramedics
came out tonight too?

- I got you.

[Theo chuckles]

- How did I lose
my wallet already?

- Sign of someone
who's having a good birthday.

- Yeah.
- How old exactly?

- Thirty-two.

One more year,
and I've outlasted Jesus.

[laughing]
Hey, what do you think?

Should I...

Should I grow a beard?
- Like Jesus?

- Ha! I was thinking more
like... like a lumberjack.

- Yeah! Yeah, I think
you could handle it.

- Thank you.

[upbeat music]

- One more drink,
and they'll cross over
from lubricated to morose.

- Is that why you're hiding?

- I always hoping that a night
out will help with a tough day.

- Do you want to talk
about it?

- I'm really better a listener.

But you're not much
of a talker.

In that case...

Should we go?

[distant sirens]

- Organic...

fair trade...

dark orange.

- You remembered.
- Mm.

That's it?

- That's all I want.

Mm.

- Why don't you stay the night?

- We don't do that.

[soft music]

- You could leave Eric,
you know?

- For you?

The workaholic
with a hole in his head?

Get some rest.

[soft music]

[panting]

[sirens]

- Hey. Sorry to call
you in so early.

- It's fine, Arnold,
I asked you to.
What's happening?

- Uh, Kevin took a turn
for the worse.

- I know you said
to send him home,

but he could be having
an aortic dissection,

which, if went untreated,
could be fatal.

- Because of the widened
mediastinum?

- And because dissection
already mimics everything
I've tested for.

Heart attack, stroke...
- Get him a CTA to confirm stat.

Put cardio-thoracics
on standby.

If you're right,
every second counts.

- Dr. Hunter!

- Paula? What, what happened?

- I found him trembling
on the floor,

he was burning up!
He passed out on the way over!

- Hey. Danny?
Can you hear me?

Did he take anything?

- He said he bought testosterone
off some guy at a gym.

Would it do that to him?

- We need to get him inside.

Mike, Mike! Bring a chair!

Just take a step back.

[suspenseful music]

Alright...

I need a resus, stat!

Code pink! Trauma bay!

- Heart rate elevated.

Hyperthermic, temp is 39
and rising.

Cooling packs.

- He may have ingested
some form of amphetamine.
Start 1 mg Lorazepam.

[Claire]: Rate's spiking!
Temp won't stabilize!

[Theo]: Normal, give me
that syringe.

[machines beeping rapidly]

Can I get a flesh?

Okay, okay.

[Claire]: 110... 106...

100... 99!

- Okay, start fluids, get a CBC,

lytes, and a CK to check
if there's rhabdo.

Tell lab to rush
a full tox screen.

- Okay.
- Oh, my baby!

[mother crying]

- And finally, after every
test that I ran,

my patient's CTA is normal.

- So what's next, Dr. Hamed?

Full-body PET scan?

A course of prophylactic
chemotherapy?

- There is nothing physically
wrong with Kevin Gomes.

- You knew that ages ago.

- I could have missed something.

- You've never doubted
your instinct before. Why now?

Why do you think
you've missed something?

Next time this happens,
don't keep it to yourself.

Come and talk to me.

- Your labs aren't back yet,

but your vitals have stabilized.
You're doing good.

- What do you care?

- I care.

Your mom cares too. We all do.

- If she did,
she'd do something.

- Your mom is scared.

I saw the way she looked
when she brought you in,

she loves you very much, Danny.

- Not enough to let me
have surgery.

- Mastectomy is a big deal

- Look at me.

What do you see?

Right.

Do you know what it's like?

I feel caught in between.

I just wanna be like
the rest of the guys.

I can't live a lie

another four years.

[soft music]

- Are they in yet?
Your results.

- I haven't checked.

- June, it's okay
if you're worried, you know.

- I'm fine.
- Incoming! Woman collapsed
in a fire.

That's all I know.

- Female, 33, unconscious.

[Mags]: Is she a firefighter?
- No, a civilian.

Wendy Newman, hypotensive.

Penetrating trauma to the chest.
80 on 40.

She fell through a window
during an apartment fire,

and the glass cut deep.

[machines beeping rapidly]

- Pericardial effusion.

She needs a bilateral chest
tubes and a sternotomy.

Call OR.
- Pressure's 70 over 30.

- There's no time,
that's a penetrating wound
to the heart.

- You're saying she needs
a thoracotomy?
- She needs it now.

- I'll page Atwater.
- I've got it.

- ED thoracotomies have less
than a five percent success rate

- We don't control the odds,
doctor.

Just have to face them.

Dr. Curtis, you can't help,
so why are you here?

[June]: I can help talk Mags
through it.

- Okay, let's do it.

- Sats are dropping!
- I'm going to bag.

[Bishop]: Now would be
a good time!

[June]: Alright, let's get
the left arm out of the way.
Prep the chest.

[suspenseful music]

Alright, so,

you're gonna make
an incision between
the 5th intercostal space,

from the sternum to the bed.

- Scissors.

Ready to open the chest.

[Bishop]: Alright.

Just pretend I'm Dr. Curtis.

- When's the last time
you got your hands dirty?

- On three.

One, two, three.

[Claire]: She needs blood.

- O-Negative. Four units.

Activate MTP and 2 grams of TXA.

- Keep talking, Dr. Curtis.

- Okay, you're gonna need
to make an incision
in the pericardium

from apex to base.
[Bishop]: Okay, let's do it.

[June]: Just medial
to the phrenic nerve.

- She's arresting!

- Don't think, just cut.

- Is the clamp secure?
- Mm-hmm.

- Arnold, what's the count?
- She's been down 10 seconds!

[machines beeping]

- Do you see anything?

- A single cardiac wound.
I can plug it with my finger.

- Good, do it.
[patient coughing]

[Claire]: And BP's rising,
80 60.

- Needle driver. 1.0 sutures.

You rolled with an imperfect
situation and you had her back.

It's good to see that when
it's not a training exercise,

you two remember
what we taught you.

Good work.

[soft music]

- Good to see
you got home okay.

- Hey.

Was I supposed to text you?

- I'm glad we ran
into each other last night.

I had fun.
- Me too.

- It was good not talking
with you.

- Our family doctor called it
somatic symptom disorder.

He said Kevin can actually feel
the symptoms,

even though they're
just in his head.

- How long
has he been like this?

- It started young.

Always finding some new thing
wrong with him.

Mom and Dad would rush him
to the doctor,

but he was never really sick.

- They didn't get him help?
- He hated therapy.

- Our parents did their best,
but...

he only got worse
after he moved out.

- Are there any
specific triggers?

- When things change,

or he has setbacks,

it could be anything.

And then anyone who doesn't
believe him is gone.

- Including you.

Why didn't you tell me
any of this before?

- You said he collapsed.

- What if this time,
something really was wrong?

I couldn't be the reason
you didn't look closely enough.

You saw what happened
when I tried to talk to him.

I love my brother,

and I feel so bad
knowing he's in pain, but...

The second he decides
he wants help,

I'll be there to support him.

- Labs came back.

The shot of testosterone
you bought was laced
with an amphetamine.

It was a large dose. And that's
what caused you to OD.

- Why would someone sell a kid
something so dangerous?

- Guys think using it
gives them a better workout.

It doesn't.

- What were you thinking?!

0 You won't let me start T
or get surgery.

- Danny, please.
Let's not get into this.

- I did do some digging,

and there is a gender clinic
in the city

who specializes
in building action plans
for transgendered youth.

- Action plans?
What does that mean?

- Like surgery?

- There are interim options.

It's a bit late
to put you on puberty blockers,

but you don't have to do
a full cross-hormone
to see an effect.

- So, hormone therapy.

- Which means my breasts
will stop growing?

- I can refer you,

if it's something
you'd like to consider.

- Please, Mom.

I want this

[soft music]

- No more buying hormones
off the street.

I cannot go through this
again, Danny.

- I'm sorry.

I promise.

- Okay.

We'll hear
what they have to say together,
and we'll take it from there.

- I won't change my mind.

- I'm not promising
to change mine.

Just...

one step at a time,
okay baby?

- Will you be disappointed in me

if this isn't a phase?

- Danny, you're my kid.

You're my son.

I love you no matter what.

- You know who you are.

That's pretty amazing.

- Uh...

The results are up.

I'm gonna... Can you...?

I can't.
I need you to look at them.

Jesus, it's not Moby Dick.

- It's all clear.

[soft music]

- You're gonna tell me
there's nothing wrong with me,

that's why they had me
get dressed.

- Actually, I'm not.

You're worried about being sick,

so your body
is manifesting symptoms.

- No, I have a heart problem,

it's... it's real, I know it.

- I know it feels real.
- You're just like
the rest of them!

It's all in my head!

- This? Coming into
the emergency department,

isn't going to stop
this from happening.

- You have no idea
what it's like.

I'm scared I'm gonna die
all the time.

- There are people
who you can speak to.

I can refer you to our staff
psychiatrist, Dr. Mitchell.

- I've talked to shrinks before.

They do nothing!
- Because, Kevin,
you have to want that help.

You have to accept
that you need it.

- No, you are not listening!
- I'm listening.

- Forget it! Just forget it!

[sighing]

[indistinct chattering]

- There he is!

- Ah, I'm such a lightweight.

- Are you still good for later?

- Listen, maybe
I didn't mention this,

but I'm married.

- You told me.
She's a real estate agent.

You showed me pictures
of your kids.

What does that have to do
with you coming on a ride along?

- I can't today.

But thanks anyway.

- Well, if you find yourself
stuck here bored
some other weekend,

I usually work on Saturdays.

Offer's open.

- Is he doing alright?

Your patient who wanted
to transition.

- Better. He still
wants surgery,

but he's relieved
there's a way forward.

Thank you for organizing that
referral to the gender clinic.

- How does your family cope
with you being away this much?

- We make it work.

- You know, there's a full-time
position in Emerg pediatrics
opening up.

If you want to apply,
you'd have my recommendation.

- I don't know what to say,

thank you.

I'd have to discuss
that with my wife.

- Ah, maybe they could
move here?

The kind of experience you get
at a city hospital like this,

you're not gonna find
that back home.

Could be an exciting
new chapter.

- Hi.
- Hi.

- You okay?

- Yeah.

Yeah, yeah, I'm just,
I'm like...

I'm just, I don't know.

- Heard you did
a trauma bay thoracotomy?

- Yeah.

The patient's recovering in ICU.

Looks like she's
gonna pull through.

- Saves like that
are why we do this.

- You know, my mother
never wanted me to?

Become a doctor, I mean.

- I thought all parents
want that.

- Mine are always worried
I'll push myself too hard.

- Do you?

- Well, if there's any
another way to do this job,

I haven't found it.

- I spent the last two days
trying to help a patient

who didn't want
the kind of help he needed.

- Seems like
that's going around.

[soft music]

[sighing]

[Bashir]: Did you find
what you were looking for
at the library?

- Yeah, I did.
I finished my homework.

- All of it?
- Yeah.

- Was it hard?
- Mm... It was okay.

Are those our things?

What happened?

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