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These are the user uploaded subtitles that are being translated: 00:01 [Music] 00:49 after my father moved out 00:51 liddy went back to juilliard and mack 00:53 retreated to the secrets of his room 00:57 my mother took to her bed and mary sarah 01:00 and i were left to fend for ourselves 01:15 mom yes 01:19 there's nothing to eat 01:23 travel home from school not yet 01:27 but mom there's no food left 01:30 go to the store then 01:33 it's five dollars at my bureau 01:41 mr turn pick up two 01:45 pick up you again i wish we could live 01:47 on popcorn 01:48 we do pick up one pass those cheese 01:51 things 01:51 no i'm stealing pick up three you are 01:54 [Music] 02:06 not 02:08 [Music] 02:21 stuff how many others were there david 02:23 aside from tony jo 02:25 did you do joe as well how could you 02:27 look gerald in the face how could you 02:29 look at any of them in the face how 02:30 could you go out drinking and laughing 02:34 yourself 02:36 [Music] 02:40 how can you blame him for leaving just 02:42 listen to her she's a harrison 02:43 what she's crazy what does she do to us 02:46 now that he's gone 02:48 you're so stupid sometimes not stupid 02:50 what do you mean 02:52 dad's always been the one to take care 02:54 of us but 02:55 she's the one that's always loved us 02:57 don't you see 02:58 don't you get it he doesn't love us he 03:01 just cares about getting laid 03:04 is that true i mean did he really have 03:07 that affair with tony 03:09 yes it's true you just heard him well 03:12 what about now 03:13 you mean does he have affairs probably 03:17 he's got women 03:18 at his apartment all the time not when i 03:20 go there 03:22 what are they like that is such a dumb 03:26 question 03:27 you mean are they zebras or gargoyles 03:30 are they like mom 03:32 they're women they have breasts and 03:33 everything what does it matter whether 03:35 they're like mom they're not 03:36 mom 03:42 well i always knew they'd get divorced 03:46 i used to dream that mom and randall 03:48 would move away 03:50 and it'd be just you and me and mary and 03:52 sarah 03:53 and dad and we'd all live here and then 03:56 everything would be peaceful 03:59 yeah and you could run things your way 04:01 right be the new mom 04:03 well at least i'd do a better job than 04:05 you ever could 04:07 i hate living in this place it's pit 04:11 besides you're the oldest not me it's 04:13 not my job to be in charge 04:15 it's not mine either 04:18 [Music] 04:23 mac and i stayed up all night cleaning 04:24 the house by morning we were putting the 04:27 finishing touches on a plan we hatch to 04:29 get the family rolling again 04:45 [Music] 04:50 there we go surprise we made you some 04:52 breakfast 04:54 morning 04:56 [Music] 05:09 you can't start the day with cereal you 05:11 have to have a cooked breakfast 05:13 come on mary yeah 05:16 you make the toast okay sorry run down 05:18 and get some more grandpa's punch in 05:22 here 05:40 drive carefully i'll see you tonight 05:48 oh it's great to see you both lydia you 05:51 look wonderful come tell me about school 05:52 while i make 05:53 dinner oh dad school is fabulous and i 05:55 love new york it's so exciting 06:02 so i come down in the middle of the 06:03 night and there's randall banging his 06:05 head on the kitchen table in perfect 06:07 time to splish splash 06:09 and moms is flapping around in her mood 06:11 pretending to take a bath 06:13 it was hysterical i'd forgotten about 06:16 the midnight spins with randall 06:18 yeah the midnight spins 06:26 so what did you think about beth 06:31 she seemed nice i mean she was only here 06:34 for a minute dad 06:36 that's true what about you mac 06:39 what does it matter what i think just 06:42 curious that's all ask me when you 06:44 decide to marry her 06:47 you angry about something maccas is 06:49 something you want to talk about 06:55 no i gotta go i got i got stuff to do no 06:57 no wait 06:59 i'll drive you both back oh it's okay 07:01 dads gregory's picking me up at seven 07:04 mack you sure you don't want to ride i'd 07:06 rather walk 07:08 the volks this weekend 07:14 along with the lake washington booster 07:15 club it'll be from one to five this 07:17 coming saturday 07:18 over at the st means there's some 07:21 frosting here if you want to lick your 07:23 balls 07:24 come on down and join us 07:33 it's good though where's the rest on the 07:42 cake 07:46 [Music] 07:54 don't you ever ever 08:00 oh i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry sorry 08:12 i'm sorry 08:34 thank you 08:42 [Applause] 08:52 um 09:07 that he's only been home for 10 days 09:09 how'd she find him so fast 09:11 wasn't her finding him honey she's 09:13 putting it out like a smell 09:15 it happens at that age remember yeah 09:19 i don't even know his last name mom this 09:21 is gregory that's it 09:23 you worried about his last name 09:25 [Laughter] 09:35 nina look at the time you're gonna miss 09:37 your piano lesson if you don't hurry up 09:42 nina it's time to go you ready 09:45 um no i'd like to get changed i'm not 09:48 getting changed it's just a piano lesson 09:51 oh i won't be a minute why is your dress 09:54 undone 09:54 because i'm going to get changed 09:58 i worry that's all worry away it makes 10:01 no difference 10:05 looking good looking real 10:08 good thanks retta 10:14 mohair in july two down and two to go 10:21 [Music] 10:31 so what do we want to do tucker's got an 10:35 idea 10:36 oh no hey what about you and kathy 10:40 what about me and kathy oh come on 10:42 you're next oldest it's your turn 10:45 that is unless you chicken 10:48 back come on bet you won't do it 10:51 how much 10:57 i told you 11:01 never gonna happen 11:22 he's made it 11:32 [Applause] 11:45 [Music] 11:51 [Applause] 12:03 i thought tucker's a jerk man 12:07 yeah but i went through with it yeah but 12:10 that's not the same man 12:14 but it took the money see 12:21 maybe it is the same i don't know 12:26 see many 12:38 [Music] 12:50 for the third time when you shut up 12:52 we're trying to watch tv 12:53 [Music] 13:02 i said shut up 13:06 [Music] 13:08 [Applause] 13:11 [Music] 13:18 hi max 13:24 it's to my apartment i thought you might 13:26 like to use it to study 13:28 thanks 13:32 your mother says you're being too hard 13:34 on the girls 13:36 they're hard on me they're twice their 13:39 age like tell me why you hit nina 13:45 i was watching tv with randall 13:48 they're making noise and they wouldn't 13:49 be quiet 13:53 nina's the biggest if you'd rather hit 13:55 mary i will 13:56 you stop that get over here 14:06 now mac what 14:09 we're all under a lot of pressure we can 14:12 choose 14:12 how to respond to it i want you to make 14:15 the right choice 14:16 you're the oldest i want you to ask more 14:18 of yourself you don't know what i asking 14:20 myself 14:21 can i unless you talk to me i don't want 14:24 to talk to you 14:26 all right will you talk to someone else 14:29 maybe it'll help you understand why you 14:30 lose control 14:31 i don't lose control what do you call 14:34 hitting your sister 14:37 making the wrong choice 14:40 i don't know what to say to you you 14:41 never have known what to say to me at 14:43 least mom 14:44 yells when she gets mad at least she 14:45 hits or throws stuff or something i 14:47 don't understand you it's not so you 14:49 randall there's nothing wrong with you 14:51 you know what's going on you can help 14:54 you know no you don't understand me see 14:56 i am like randall i 14:58 am randall see see i'm randall see 15:02 c tree i'm randall that is 15:12 [Music] 15:24 uh 15:34 all right let's go go go go 15:41 [Applause] 15:44 sarah it's only the damn dentist nina 15:46 please don't swear 15:47 why everyone else does you want to be 15:49 like everyone else 15:51 fine we'll wait in the car 15:57 [Applause] 15:59 you must be macklin's mother how could 16:01 you tell 16:04 i'm his history teacher mr skelly oh yes 16:07 he likes you he says you're cool well i 16:10 like him too 16:11 although he makes me very angry 16:13 sometimes how so 16:14 he doesn't work he's very bright but 16:17 it's as though he doesn't want to be 16:19 special 16:19 in any way oh they want to be like 16:22 everyone else 16:23 it's just a phase i wondered 16:26 is there anything going on at home that 16:28 might explain it 16:32 well yes and no 16:35 thing about home is it has a life of its 16:37 own and life isn't always that easy is 16:39 it 16:40 well no it's not see i believe that 16:42 being troubled 16:44 neurotic whatever is part of being alive 16:46 do you see 16:47 i'm not sure i do don't worry about mac 16:52 he's strong and he's healthy and he's 16:54 learning 16:56 he's learning you can't separate life 16:59 even childhood from things that are 17:00 difficult or troubling 17:02 surely mrs eberlin it's an invention of 17:04 ours don't you think this thing about 17:06 sheltering our children and not letting 17:08 them know the realities 17:11 they know anyway they see much more than 17:14 we think they do 17:16 we're all a little crazy aren't we kids 17:19 know that 17:21 they're young and they're generous and 17:24 they understand 17:32 but we didn't understand we escaped from 17:34 the chaos of our family into our own 17:36 private worlds 17:38 even randall had a life of his own 17:40 mostly because of bob 17:41 a student mom hired to help care for him 17:45 mary like your hair that way thank you 17:50 so what's happening with you guys this 17:51 evening are you staying home for a 17:53 change 17:53 no i gotta go i'm studying with al it 17:55 won't be late though 17:57 i have to go to the library so do we oh 18:01 it's wonderful to have such a literary 18:03 pleasure 18:05 please make a big excuse off you go bye 18:09 bye mom bye 18:13 right so goodbye mac made the team huh 18:16 yes thank god gets so surly when he 18:19 doesn't do well 18:20 i was lousy in sports so as i the only 18:24 physical thing i'm any good at is labor 18:25 and childbirth 18:29 bob clear the table for me william i'm 18:31 exhausted 18:33 i'd be happy to just relax 18:40 oh randall boy 18:44 you went to school with 18:47 my key when 18:50 my key came you 18:53 jumped into 18:55 [Music] 19:07 you played with war 19:18 he's been such a good guy today we 19:20 walked home from school 19:21 and he put his litter in the basket in 19:23 the park 19:25 come on come on oh and did i tell you he 19:28 he 19:29 got his shoes and socks on 19:37 i know what he can do 19:42 i know exactly what he can do 19:45 [Music] 19:48 better fine just go i'm getting 19:52 married in the morning 19:55 ding dong the bells aren't gonna chime 19:59 kick up around this but don't lose the 20:02 compass 20:03 and get me to the church get me to the 20:06 church 20:07 for god said get me to the church 20:10 on time 20:12 [Music] 20:14 brilliant you really think so mom you're 20:16 not just like me 20:19 wonderful you'll be able to take it on 20:20 the road when you get to camp 20:22 by the way i'll need any lists for 20:24 clothes you might need when you get 20:26 there 20:27 mom do we have to have shots before we 20:30 go to camp 20:31 yes you have to have shots and you 20:33 should be very grateful there's shots to 20:34 be had 20:35 when i was your age people got polio and 20:38 died from it 20:39 even when mac and liddy were little i 20:41 had to lock them in the backyard in hot 20:43 weather 20:45 there you go good night rockettes 20:48 night night knees 20:53 thanks mom um i was wondering could you 20:56 help me with this 20:58 um i don't understand what some of these 21:00 words mean 21:05 what is this a camera mom 21:08 you're as bad as daddy so girls go to 21:11 the library for books these days 21:14 why else would i go boys 21:21 i assure you i go for books 21:25 what a lot he does sugarplum i'm sorry 21:30 means 21:32 go off to bed skedaddle 21:35 good night mom 21:55 [Music] 21:56 uh 21:58 [Music] 22:05 sorry about that mom our entire 22:08 generation will be deaf by the time it's 22:10 30. 22:12 we'll be dead by the time we're 30. 22:16 so what'd you do tonight 22:20 i went over to owls to study and then i 22:22 came home 22:24 come on mac what'd you really do you 22:26 never talk to me anymore 22:32 i went over to alistar started 22:35 then we blew a couple j's and went down 22:37 to the blues joint and i danced with the 22:39 most incredibly sexy black woman 22:41 you'd ever seen in your entire life 22:45 then i came home 22:48 is it as good as they say 22:52 this pot is it as good as they say this 22:56 bourbon my drinking is none of your 22:59 business 23:00 your drug use is my business i'm your 23:02 mother are we gonna sit here and talk or 23:04 is it you talk i listen cause if it's b 23:06 i'm out of here that's right run away 23:09 from being responsible 23:10 you're just like your father i'm trying 23:12 to have a serious conversation with you 23:14 max 23:14 a serious conversation with the fifth of 23:16 bourbon 23:18 no thanks sit down 23:25 i love you mom don't step too late 23:48 should we read a bedtime story 23:51 would you like to read a bedtime story 23:54 on 23:59 not tonight huh 24:07 oh god 24:11 oh my god 24:16 oh god 24:17 [Music] 24:44 uh 24:47 where's the kitchen 24:58 shhh 25:01 wow oh man 25:16 [Laughter] 25:19 [Music] 25:23 [Applause] 25:26 [Music] 25:38 two days later he left 25:45 how did you feel 26:03 [Music] 26:10 hello nina's mac there 26:13 i'll get him dad 26:16 yeah a mac back uh 26:20 well i welcome you using the apartment i 26:23 think perhaps 26:24 a ground rule might be that we respect 26:27 each other's privacy 26:29 that seem reasonable to you sure dad 26:33 what do you say i'm so happy everyone's 26:35 coming 26:37 everyone lily wouldn't miss it 26:40 oh yeah right six tickets 26:44 no that's seven um me randall 26:48 means mary's sari lynn dad that's seven 26:51 sweetie 26:53 that's not coming is he don't be obtuse 26:55 of course dad's coming to your 26:57 graduation 26:58 it'd be very hurt not to be invited i 27:01 wouldn't miss it for the world 27:02 now what shall i do should i call the 27:04 school and say that you made a mistake 27:06 or you want to deal with it yourself i 27:08 don't want to embarrass you mac 27:11 no no i thought he wouldn't come i mean 27:14 i 27:15 i i thought that you 27:18 i was just trying it 27:23 was mine you know yeah look after it 27:25 okay yeah 27:27 oh and uh it's a check for 500 27:33 congratulations mack i'm proud of you 27:38 thanks dad 27:42 listen uh i want you tonight i'd be 27:44 happy to talk to your mother if you 27:46 don't want randall to come to your 27:47 graduation 27:49 why wouldn't i want him there oh 27:53 i'm not saying you wouldn't it's just 27:55 well he can be difficult as we know and 27:58 your mother tends to take it for granted 27:59 that he goes everywhere and it should be 28:00 your choice and not hers 28:02 i'd rather have everyone there 28:06 yeah okay that's generous but 28:09 you let me know if you change your mind 28:11 okay i won't 28:13 everyone goes or no one 28:20 and he doesn't go i don't want him to go 28:22 looking like that 28:24 you should look like everyone else don't 28:27 do this mom i can't stand it when you do 28:29 this 28:29 don't speak to me like that you sound 28:31 just like your father 28:32 this is my graduation i don't want you 28:34 having hysterics and wrecking everything 28:36 i'm sick to death if you're hysterical 28:37 he should wear 28:38 a suit fine he'll wear a suit he doesn't 28:41 have 28:41 a suit no but i have two suits remember 28:44 i have this new one 28:45 and the old one he can wear the old one 28:54 i'm sorry meg i don't know what to get 28:56 something 28:57 i'm sorry i know 29:01 just don't do it that's all 29:06 [Music] 29:08 the world has much changed since our 29:10 childhood 29:12 assassination in wars and distant lands 29:15 are part of our normal lives 29:17 and we understand them in ways that 29:19 maybe you 29:20 our parents and teachers do not cannot 29:25 at this moment of vital change for us 29:28 we say to you the adults who have guided 29:31 us this far 29:33 we are ready 29:37 we ask what we can do 29:40 whatever it is we take up the burden 29:52 gladly 29:54 [Music] 30:06 come on handsome 30:11 [Music] 30:20 i guess we're alike now dad we're out 30:22 free and clear 30:23 both of us how will they manage without 30:27 us 30:28 the women in the idiot 30:29 [Music] 30:35 dr evelyn please will you come right 30:38 away 30:48 please 30:55 daddy teddy i'm sorry if we had to call 30:58 i'm okay he didn't mean it 31:02 nina get his blanket 31:06 how long has it been like this i don't 31:08 know mom tried to put him into bed and 31:10 he threw her down the stairs 31:12 randall randall 31:26 here daddy 31:36 sing to him david 31:41 froggy went to courtney and he did right 31:44 uh-huh 31:47 froggy went according then he did right 31:51 uh 31:54 froggy went according he did right 31:59 sword and a pistol 32:02 by his side 32:06 froggy went according and 32:09 he did right 32:16 what happened 32:19 our baby he was so confused 32:25 bob had the weekend off the whole 32:27 schedule was shot 32:30 last night was bad enough but tonight he 32:33 wouldn't take his bath he wouldn't come 32:35 to dinner 32:37 i was just trying to get him to bed and 32:40 he pushed you he didn't mean to 32:44 he just wanted me to go away 32:47 i fell in hit my head against the newel 32:49 post 32:55 this isn't very bad 32:58 oh need stitches i'll take you to the 33:02 hospital no 33:04 lenny you need to see a doctor no you're 33:06 a doctor you take care of it dude 33:10 well i guess you can always look at it 33:12 as a new stick 33:13 mata in the life of our blessed saint 33:17 elaine 33:20 here 33:23 dizzy 33:28 yes it scared me 33:39 i don't think i can do this anymore 33:52 careful girls remember mom's head that's 33:55 okay 33:58 i'm sleeping with mom i don't think it's 34:01 oh it's okay she goes back to her own 34:03 bed later on 34:06 i'm going to bed lightning 34:09 thank you darling 34:12 good night hi daddy 34:17 are we missing one as as mary joined the 34:20 lydian mack exodus 34:22 oh staying over to friends tonight 34:24 nina's mad cause mary's real popular at 34:27 school and she's not 34:28 shut up sari barry go to sleep 34:40 david you don't have to stay 34:44 thank you for being here 34:48 it's okay i'll stick around for a while 34:54 hey i'll go 35:04 it's okay honey i'll see though sure 35:06 yeah i'm sure 35:08 all means i wanted to tell you how well 35:12 you handle everything today 35:14 you did all the right things in a very 35:15 grown-up way and i'm proud of you okay 35:18 thanks must made you angry with randall 35:21 did he 35:22 there's no point in getting angry with 35:24 randall it's not his fault 35:27 well i better go to bed 35:30 good night 35:44 [Music] 35:56 well 36:05 [Music] 36:10 randall 36:12 come on 36:28 [Music] 36:33 i'm sorry did i wake you no i get up 36:35 anyway 36:37 some coffee yeah i'd love something 36:42 did you sleep yeah i did i did 36:50 let me look at this 36:54 uh okay sorry 37:00 no 37:03 i'm sorry lady 37:07 now david 37:12 i said i'm sorry i mean it's 37:22 i managed to see 37:26 i'm safe now 37:30 i'm finally safe 37:35 you can't imagine how i felt when you 37:37 went away 37:40 i was terrified 37:44 i felt so alone 37:48 i don't want to want you david 37:52 i don't want to need you 37:56 i'm safe now 38:00 i want to stay that way 38:04 i don't know what i feel anymore 38:07 when i went away i was so 38:10 damn relieved to get out of here you 38:12 know i felt dead and 38:16 trapped 38:19 everything seemed false are you more 38:23 alive out there with all your other 38:25 women 38:29 well for a while yes but 38:36 i wouldn't have gone if you hadn't told 38:40 me to 38:42 leave me much choice 38:47 we could go back and back you know you 38:50 made me do this you made me do that 38:53 if randall had been all right if 38:58 we had the pill if i hadn't slept with 39:02 tony of 39:04 one thousand fs and a thousand 39:07 terrible mean things that we did to each 39:12 other 39:15 well i'm i'm very sorry for my share i'm 39:19 really 39:20 very sorry you must believe that 39:23 i'm not even angry anymore i'm just so 39:26 tired 39:32 lady 39:41 we need to talk about sending randall 39:44 away 39:54 yes 40:04 after my mother's fall my father 40:07 arranged for randall to be sent to an 40:08 institution in connecticut 40:12 we all knew it was for the best as one 40:15 of the neighbors said 40:16 an autistic child is one thing but an 40:19 autistic man is something else 40:22 it's okay let's fix that let's fix that 40:43 [Music] 41:02 randall get in the car did you help him 41:09 [Applause] 41:11 [Music] 41:18 nina 41:20 i cried when randall went away i cried 41:23 because he was happy that day 41:26 like a cheerful trusting pet who's being 41:28 taken to the pound and doesn't 41:29 understand any of it 41:32 mostly i cried because i hadn't paid 41:34 attention to him in a long while 41:38 the biggest problem with my mother 41:40 apparently resolved 41:42 it wasn't long before my father moved 41:44 back in 41:46 my family had been shaped by randall's 41:48 presence 41:50 none of us were at all prepared for what 41:52 his absence would bring 42:03 [Music] 43:10 so 43:24 foreign 43:27 [Music] 43:41 you22672