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You're not real.
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Weren't your eyes green?
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And your hair?
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You weren't what I thought.
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A real person would never
say that. That proves it.
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You weren't what I thought.
Weren't your eyes green?
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That proves it. A real person
would never say that.
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I get to make it whatever I want.
That proves it.
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A real person would never say that.
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The things is, even after everything,
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I wanted to believe.
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Duct-taped to a chair,
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inches from oblivion,
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I still wanted to believe her.
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It's a myth that we use
only 5% of our brains.
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Ask anyone who's lost
even the smallest bit.
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No, we use pretty much all of it,
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and usually that's not enough.
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We never catch the turtle who sits
on the turtle who sits on the...
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Yeah.
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It's turtles all the way down.
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A lot to learn.
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A moment too late.
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Are you ready?
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What did you have for breakfast
this morning, Mr. Herzman?
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Who cares about that?
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I'm just getting sound levels.
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Ham and eggs, like every morning.
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Ok.
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The trains were hell.
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But even hell has levels.
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Some are in the middle of the car,
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and they're probably
not going to make it.
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The heat from the bodies...
Their hell is worse.
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But my father pushed me to the edge.
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There wasn't a window there,
but there were slats,
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and through the slats sometimes
a breath of fresh air.
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Heaven.
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We stopped at a station somewhere.
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Standing still is worse than moving,
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even if you're moving to something bad.
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A bit of light hit my eye,
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so I squeezed closer to the slat.
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Then suddenly...
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a beautiful face appears...
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with innocent blue eyes.
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An angel.
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But I didn't believe in angels,
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even then when I was a boy,
certainly not in this place.
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The Herzman story had been featured in a
local paper and was picked up nationally.
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Before they knew it, they had a book
deal, and there was talk of a movie.
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I thought it'd make
an interesting documentary.
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History Channel?
That kind of thing?
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Yeah.
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Internet says you make movies.
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Normally.
I prefer fiction.
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Why is that?
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It's more believable.
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I was late, as usual,
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hustling to make the 9:40 to
Hudson where the Herzmans lived.
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In the city, you're always in a hurry.
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Gotta get to that meeting,
business lunch, the ATM.
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People are just obstacles,
inconveniences.
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And every now and then, a face
you can't get out of your mind.
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Who is this person,
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and how did our trajectories cross?
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What histories does she bring,
and what myths might we create...
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if only given the chance?
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And you want to say something,
but you can't find the words.
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You're just not that guy.
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So she'll always be a face
among faces, a cipher.
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You'll never talk on the phone,
recognize her scent.
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You won't face each other
over a bistro table,
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taste the Malbec, learn
each other's favorite color.
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She is, in short,
every girl you'll never know,
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never love.
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Better never to have seen her at all.
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Now you understand the ancient wisdom...
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Rip out the offending eye.
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Except I'd captured her in my camera.
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And like that, she was gone.
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I was getting some B-roll, and she
was just a face across the platform.
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No reason to believe
you'd ever see her again.
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There are physicists who believe
there are universes like ours...
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but with one or two things changed.
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I thought maybe there was
a universe where we might meet.
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I didn't think it'd be this one.
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Other universes?
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Yeah.
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That what you believe?
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I find it comforting.
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For simplicity's sake,
let's keep to this universe.
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It was a little girl, maybe five or six,
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with pretty blonde curls.
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She peered at me through the slat,
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a boy only a little older than she.
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What must she have thought
of this train...
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and its strange cargo?
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We looked at each other,
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only inches away,
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but it might have been
different continents.
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Then she made a quick motion,
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and her small fingers
pushed through the slat.
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She dropped something into my palm,
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and a moment later, as if the universe
had known that this moment had ended,
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the train started up again.
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I looked down at my hand,
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and I saw that she had given me...
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the little gold cross
from around her neck.
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There is always a moment
when your life changes,
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though you may not
realize it at the time.
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The words spoken,
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the light falling across
someone's face in a certain way,
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the moment you realize
you're in love or out of it.
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History has turned on its axis,
and you will never be the same.
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Right there.
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Was she getting a speck out of
her eye or dabbing at a tear?
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That touch, however small, turned
into flesh and blood for me...
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A soul with a past, a life with an arc.
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A pretty girl on a train is one thing,
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a crying girl a whole other matter.
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I wasn't sure if it was
the same girl I'd seen before.
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She looked different.
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Are you ok?
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Sorry. You just...
You seemed upset.
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You know, trains can make people sad.
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It's like in all those
country-western songs.
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- Country.
- Right.
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There's always a train,
and there's always someone sad.
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No. No one's called it country
and western in 30 years.
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- Well...
- Your lens is showing.
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It's my job.
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If you're a private eye, you suck at it.
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Nothing surreptitious.
I'm shooting a documentary.
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Is it on now?
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Camera shy?
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Who are those people who believe
a photograph captures your soul?
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Aborigines.
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Pretty sure they're wrong.
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What's it about?
Your movie.
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I guess you could say it's a love story.
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I thought documentaries were nonfiction.
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That would be cynicism?
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You think just because something
really happens, it isn't fiction?
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I was pretty sure this wasn't your
average girl on the commuter line.
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She give you any personal details?
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She had a way of turning
your questions around.
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You thought you were
talking about her...
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but you were really just
talking about yourself.
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Why were you crying?
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You tell me.
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I get to make it whatever I want?
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Sure.
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Ok.
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Seven years ago, you met
a man on this very train.
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You got to talking, but you never
exchanged more than first names.
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He gets off at Poughkeepsie.
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As he steps onto the platform...
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you realize you should
have gotten off with him.
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He was the guy. He was your one
chance to escape the wheel.
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But the train's already moving.
You've missed your chance.
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So you spend weeks looking through
the Poughkeepsie directory,
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but you've only got his first name.
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Which is?
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Bob, unfortunately.
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If only it were Zebediah.
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You call every one of the 373
Roberts, Bobs and Bobbys.
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- I would never call a Bobby.
- With no luck.
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But every day for seven years,
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you buy your ticket,
you get on the train,
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take it to Poughkeepsie,
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and then you turn back
and head home alone.
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Next stop will be Westport.
Westport Station in two minutes.
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That is such a guy story.
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Yeah?
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I wouldn't spend that much time tracking
someone down if they murdered my mother.
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So you're really not gonna tell me?
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You know, the difference
between trains and planes is,
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on a train, if you don't like
the conversation,
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you can change your seat.
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Or get off at the next stop.
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Shouldn't ask for your number then?
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Let me see your hand.
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You gonna tell my fortune?
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That's easy.
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You'll know moments of joy. You'll
lose what you love. You'll die.
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Can I get a second opinion?
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The other thing about trains is,
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you get to see the world
passing in real time.
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When you're eight miles up,
you can convince yourself...
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you're still the same person
when you get off.
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So, a million questions
without a questioner,
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a hundred replayed nights.
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How do I find myself in this sweaty bed?
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Who is this person beside me?
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Why are there more scars
than I remember wounds?
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Right. Memory is flawed.
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But isn't memory all that knits
our moments of existence...
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into a sense of self?
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Of course, philosophical
questions lose power...
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when you're staring
at your own mortality.
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It's one thing to know you're
going to die at some point...
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in the indeterminate future,
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another to watch the clock wind down.
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And, yeah, I'm not
the only dead guy in the room.
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So you went back to work?
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I had to finish the project.
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But now you had a name.
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There were no Lexi's in Westport.
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There were three Alexandras,
but none of them were her.
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When we got to the camp,
everything is very simple.
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A man points left or right,
and you live or you die.
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For my mother and sisters, death.
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I was big enough to work, so my
father and I go to the right.
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I still held the little cross
in my hand,
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but I saw that they were taking every
little piece of gold they could find...
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Rings, bracelets.
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You could only keep
the fillings in your teeth.
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That they took when you were dead.
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I decided then and there...
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that I would hold on to the little
cross the girl had given me,
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no matter what.
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I slipped it under my tongue.
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Having a mission,
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even if it's only in your mind,
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keeps you alive.
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When I wasn't working,
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I found myself wandering the streets.
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I would think I saw her
maybe a dozen times a day.
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Somehow, I'd always wind up
back at the same place.
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I remembered an old photo
I'd seen somewhere.
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Watch things in real time,
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and it's easy to believe
we're part of the world,
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that our motion is more than random,
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our presence more than accidental.
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But a long exposure reveals the truth.
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We're just ghosts,
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illusions we perpetrate in ourselves.
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So a guy's getting his
morning coffee and paper.
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In line in front of him,
he sees this vision.
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Gorgeous. I mean, right out
of the swimsuit edition.
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And she's buying a lottery ticket.
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He's smitten.
Can't get a word out.
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He lets her get away.
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The next day, he goes back to the
store and he asks the owner,
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"Do you know the girl who
bought the lottery ticket?"
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And all the English this guy knows
is, "You buy something or get lost."
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Right?
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Well, our boy figures people
are creatures of habit,
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so he finds himself
the nearest coffee shop,
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plants himself where he's
got a view of the store,
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figuring sooner or later
she'll come by for her ticket.
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He gets obsessed.
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00:16:12,518 --> 00:16:14,987
Days turn to weeks.
Seasons change.
255
00:16:14,988 --> 00:16:18,123
He shows up late for work. He's
unavailable for his friends.
256
00:16:18,124 --> 00:16:23,661
But wouldn't you know it. The day he
finally decides to give it all up...
257
00:16:23,662 --> 00:16:24,829
She shows up.
258
00:16:24,830 --> 00:16:27,699
Turns out she was out of town.
259
00:16:27,700 --> 00:16:31,503
Let me guess.
He never makes his move.
260
00:16:31,504 --> 00:16:32,704
Why?
261
00:16:32,705 --> 00:16:34,873
He sees the future.
262
00:16:34,874 --> 00:16:38,810
They'll have their affair, and in
time it'll be no more than that...
263
00:16:38,811 --> 00:16:40,478
An affair.
264
00:16:40,479 --> 00:16:43,849
He can anticipate
the purr of her throat,
265
00:16:43,850 --> 00:16:47,485
the scratchy quality
of her voice in the morning.
266
00:16:47,486 --> 00:16:50,555
He closes his eyes,
and he can almost smell her.
267
00:16:50,556 --> 00:16:54,794
It'll be good, but they have
about as much chance...
268
00:16:54,795 --> 00:16:59,632
of making it in the long run as
she does of winning the lottery.
269
00:16:59,633 --> 00:17:02,737
Because good is never perfect.
270
00:17:03,603 --> 00:17:05,704
In his fevered mind, he's realized...
271
00:17:05,705 --> 00:17:10,075
the unbridgeable distance
between real and ideal.
272
00:17:10,076 --> 00:17:13,979
So he would rather let her walk
away with her sad lottery ticket.
273
00:17:13,980 --> 00:17:17,883
He would rather let her live in
the purity of his imagination...
274
00:17:17,884 --> 00:17:22,855
than succumb to the spectacle of
flesh and blood, scent and sorrow.
275
00:17:22,856 --> 00:17:24,756
He's lost something, sure...
276
00:17:24,757 --> 00:17:29,595
Another conquest, maybe even
an enduring relationship.
277
00:17:29,596 --> 00:17:32,532
But think what he gets in return.
278
00:17:33,699 --> 00:17:36,769
He will forever be the man who
waited in the snow and rain...
279
00:17:36,770 --> 00:17:39,137
day after day for the lottery girl.
280
00:17:39,138 --> 00:17:42,608
He will be the one who walked away...
281
00:17:42,609 --> 00:17:45,043
at the moment his dream was realized.
282
00:17:45,044 --> 00:17:47,414
He will be mythic.
283
00:17:50,684 --> 00:17:52,885
You want to know what really happens?
284
00:17:52,886 --> 00:17:54,686
Sure.
285
00:17:54,687 --> 00:17:56,821
He's out of that coffee shop so fast,
286
00:17:56,822 --> 00:18:01,060
he sloshes his half-caf latte
on his hand, extra hot.
287
00:18:01,061 --> 00:18:04,696
He almost knocks her over, they strike up
a conversation, and they begin dating.
288
00:18:04,697 --> 00:18:07,733
Two kids and a summer home in Montauk?
289
00:18:07,734 --> 00:18:13,039
Lasted eight months. "It's not
you, it's me." That kind of thing.
290
00:18:14,773 --> 00:18:17,510
What? Don't be smug.
He gave it a shot.
291
00:18:17,511 --> 00:18:19,680
My version would've lasted forever.
292
00:18:20,847 --> 00:18:22,514
Now I know your secret.
293
00:18:22,515 --> 00:18:24,584
Didn't know I had one.
294
00:18:25,651 --> 00:18:28,588
You'd rather have a great story
than a great love.
295
00:18:30,924 --> 00:18:34,527
You didn't think it was odd
running into her like that?
296
00:18:34,528 --> 00:18:36,931
I guess I wasn't thinking at all.
297
00:18:41,767 --> 00:18:43,168
What?
298
00:18:43,169 --> 00:18:46,972
I haven't quite figured out
if you're a victim or a suspect.
299
00:18:46,973 --> 00:18:50,043
Well, I suppose you could pretty
much say that about anyone.
300
00:18:51,110 --> 00:18:52,946
And the lottery ticket?
301
00:18:53,946 --> 00:18:55,683
She won.
302
00:19:03,822 --> 00:19:05,859
You try to find me?
303
00:19:11,164 --> 00:19:13,098
There are no Lexi's in Westport.
304
00:19:13,099 --> 00:19:15,600
I didn't say I lived in Westport.
305
00:19:15,601 --> 00:19:18,037
You gotta give a guy a fair chance.
306
00:19:18,038 --> 00:19:20,541
I found you, didn't I?
307
00:19:22,943 --> 00:19:25,077
You look different.
308
00:19:25,078 --> 00:19:27,245
Different day.
309
00:19:27,246 --> 00:19:29,984
What color was your hair?
310
00:19:31,984 --> 00:19:35,523
Here's the thing about two
people meeting on a train.
311
00:19:36,356 --> 00:19:39,124
If they know they'll
always be strangers,
312
00:19:39,125 --> 00:19:41,694
it frees them.
313
00:19:41,695 --> 00:19:44,864
You can create me any way you
want, and I'll never disappoint.
314
00:19:44,865 --> 00:19:48,101
I could ask you to kill for me, and I
won't know if you'll carry it out.
315
00:19:49,668 --> 00:19:51,604
We have no reason
to lie to each other...
316
00:19:51,605 --> 00:19:53,707
unless the lie
is prettier than the truth.
317
00:19:56,141 --> 00:19:57,775
We're no longer on the train.
318
00:19:57,776 --> 00:19:59,546
No?
319
00:20:01,348 --> 00:20:03,116
How did you find me?
320
00:20:03,117 --> 00:20:07,555
Don't tell me you're one of those New Age
types who don't believe in accidents.
321
00:20:10,956 --> 00:20:13,694
You're not gonna ask me
to kill someone, are you?
322
00:20:15,128 --> 00:20:17,762
Why don't you show me what you do.
323
00:20:17,763 --> 00:20:20,832
Can I get you a pain pill for that?
324
00:20:20,833 --> 00:20:23,769
Actually, the pain helps me remember.
325
00:20:23,770 --> 00:20:26,772
Sisters at Saint Jude's
would agree with you.
326
00:20:26,773 --> 00:20:27,874
Catholic school?
327
00:20:27,875 --> 00:20:28,975
You bet.
328
00:20:33,045 --> 00:20:34,581
Her patron saint.
329
00:20:36,049 --> 00:20:40,653
I held the cross under my tongue...
330
00:20:40,654 --> 00:20:44,923
until there was a bloody sore.
331
00:20:44,924 --> 00:20:47,994
I ate with it...
like that.
332
00:20:49,329 --> 00:20:51,129
I slept with it.
333
00:20:51,130 --> 00:20:56,335
Eventually the pain fades
and the callous appears.
334
00:20:56,336 --> 00:21:00,973
My father only made it a few weeks.
335
00:21:00,974 --> 00:21:04,409
One morning he refused to work,
336
00:21:04,410 --> 00:21:07,947
and they beat him to death
with their rifles.
337
00:21:09,282 --> 00:21:11,718
Bullets were too expensive.
338
00:21:18,023 --> 00:21:21,962
When I was young, my mother used to
tell me this story when things got bad.
339
00:21:23,696 --> 00:21:27,967
"The world ended when Jesus
hung on the cross," she'd say.
340
00:21:29,234 --> 00:21:31,904
And all of history is just a dream...
341
00:21:31,905 --> 00:21:35,776
in the last instant
of a Roman centurion's life.
342
00:21:40,146 --> 00:21:41,312
Coffee?
343
00:21:41,313 --> 00:21:44,249
That's when she asked you
to tail Carl Pruitt.
344
00:21:44,250 --> 00:21:46,018
Not at first.
345
00:21:46,019 --> 00:21:49,987
I knew she was hiding something,
something from her past.
346
00:21:49,988 --> 00:21:53,125
It wasn't so much what she said...
347
00:21:53,126 --> 00:21:55,696
It was the way she said it?
348
00:21:56,730 --> 00:21:59,766
More the way she didn't say
what she didn't say.
349
00:21:59,767 --> 00:22:01,466
You some kind of cop detective?
350
00:22:01,467 --> 00:22:03,119
Yeah.
351
00:22:03,120 --> 00:22:04,770
You don't look like cop.
352
00:22:04,771 --> 00:22:06,905
Yeah? What's a cop
look like?
353
00:22:06,906 --> 00:22:10,141
Better dressed.
354
00:22:10,142 --> 00:22:13,177
Guy cheating on his wife.
I seen it all right here.
355
00:22:13,178 --> 00:22:14,746
Yeah, I bet you have.
356
00:22:14,747 --> 00:22:17,014
Nothing like stories from cab driver.
357
00:22:17,015 --> 00:22:20,785
One guy tries to strangle hooker in
backseat. I say, "Not in my cab."
358
00:22:20,786 --> 00:22:21,987
He say,
"I give you big tip."
359
00:22:21,988 --> 00:22:23,187
So what'd you do?
360
00:22:23,188 --> 00:22:27,458
I throw him out. He strangle
on street, his business.
361
00:22:27,459 --> 00:22:30,862
Not in my cab.
People fucking, ok.
362
00:22:30,863 --> 00:22:34,332
A big tip covers it.
Killing?
363
00:22:34,333 --> 00:22:36,435
Yeah, I get it.
Not in your cab.
364
00:22:36,436 --> 00:22:38,272
You can bet you.
365
00:22:44,409 --> 00:22:45,946
That's him.
366
00:22:49,349 --> 00:22:51,450
Want to hear strangest story ever?
367
00:22:51,451 --> 00:22:53,185
Does it involve dwarves?
368
00:22:53,186 --> 00:22:54,787
Dwarves? What?
369
00:22:54,788 --> 00:22:59,057
Somehow they always seem to involve
dwarves, and they're never true.
370
00:22:59,058 --> 00:23:01,425
This happened 100%.
371
00:23:01,426 --> 00:23:04,329
My brother, he's fucking
this girl two years.
372
00:23:04,330 --> 00:23:07,800
Met in spinning class. You know,
bicycle doesn't go nowhere?
373
00:23:07,801 --> 00:23:10,068
Only women in these classes.
My brother joins for women.
374
00:23:10,069 --> 00:23:14,807
So he's fucking this girl. One night
she asks, can her friend join in.
375
00:23:14,808 --> 00:23:18,342
My brother is like winning lottery.
376
00:23:18,343 --> 00:23:20,479
Of course.
More is merrier.
377
00:23:20,480 --> 00:23:23,214
Let me guess.
The friend is a man.
378
00:23:23,215 --> 00:23:27,886
Man? You crazy? Is more beautiful
than one my brother is fucking.
379
00:23:27,887 --> 00:23:30,955
Big tits, everything.
So they have wild night.
380
00:23:30,956 --> 00:23:33,591
Everything is on menu, soup till nuts.
381
00:23:33,592 --> 00:23:36,895
My brother thinks he died
straight to heaven.
382
00:23:36,896 --> 00:23:40,032
In the morning, I get call.
He wakes up, everything's gone...
383
00:23:40,567 --> 00:23:42,967
Girls, wallet, flat-screen.
384
00:23:42,968 --> 00:23:44,802
He calls police, but nothing to do.
385
00:23:44,803 --> 00:23:46,404
Her cell doesn't work no more.
386
00:23:46,416 --> 00:23:49,340
She's gone from spinning class
like she never exists.
387
00:23:49,341 --> 00:23:51,076
Let me get this straight.
388
00:23:51,077 --> 00:23:54,180
She's with him for two years
so she can steal his TV?
389
00:23:54,181 --> 00:23:58,050
His whole house. Lucky she
left him his underwears.
390
00:23:58,051 --> 00:24:00,418
I tell you it was crazy story.
391
00:24:00,419 --> 00:24:02,154
He never found her?
392
00:24:02,155 --> 00:24:04,857
Every day he sees her.
393
00:24:04,858 --> 00:24:08,226
On subway, walking down street.
394
00:24:08,227 --> 00:24:12,063
But never her. One woman
he followed for half an hour.
395
00:24:12,064 --> 00:24:13,933
She called police.
396
00:24:15,100 --> 00:24:19,138
My brother is never same.
Stopped spinning classes even.
397
00:24:21,506 --> 00:24:24,342
So she had you playing detective?
398
00:24:24,343 --> 00:24:27,914
It wasn't until the next time
I saw her that she asked me.
399
00:24:30,082 --> 00:24:32,516
The time in the camps...
400
00:24:32,517 --> 00:24:37,190
stands outside normal time.
401
00:24:44,196 --> 00:24:47,301
The time in the camps...
402
00:24:48,467 --> 00:24:50,435
The time in the camps...
403
00:24:50,436 --> 00:24:54,240
stands outside normal time.
404
00:24:59,478 --> 00:25:00,713
Hello?
405
00:25:00,714 --> 00:25:03,250
Can you meet me?
406
00:25:16,929 --> 00:25:20,132
Where I grew up everything
was flat, even the cities.
407
00:25:26,205 --> 00:25:28,540
This seems more honest.
408
00:25:28,541 --> 00:25:29,792
Eye to eye with everyone...
409
00:25:29,804 --> 00:25:32,444
you can convince yourself
we're not that different.
410
00:25:32,445 --> 00:25:35,480
Step over a homeless guy
to get to your penthouse,
411
00:25:35,481 --> 00:25:36,615
you know better.
412
00:25:36,616 --> 00:25:37,918
Grow up poor?
413
00:25:37,919 --> 00:25:39,219
Shows?
414
00:25:40,352 --> 00:25:43,655
My mother was always getting
mixed up with the wrong guy.
415
00:25:43,656 --> 00:25:45,991
Father got out before I was born.
416
00:25:45,992 --> 00:25:47,492
Can't say I blame him.
417
00:25:47,493 --> 00:25:48,493
You ever try and find him?
418
00:25:48,494 --> 00:25:51,495
I heard he had an uncle in the east.
419
00:25:51,496 --> 00:25:53,432
That's why I came out here originally.
420
00:25:53,433 --> 00:25:55,166
He wasn't much use though.
421
00:25:55,167 --> 00:25:57,168
You still close to your mother?
422
00:25:57,169 --> 00:26:01,138
I grew up using her
as a model of who not to be.
423
00:26:01,139 --> 00:26:05,409
When I was about seven, she finally
seemed to get her life on track.
424
00:26:05,410 --> 00:26:09,681
Stopped drinking,
met a guy from a wealthy family.
425
00:26:09,682 --> 00:26:11,683
She always wanted me to be provided for,
426
00:26:11,684 --> 00:26:14,288
so he agreed to put
something aside for me.
427
00:26:15,253 --> 00:26:19,225
It was good for a while.
For a while.
428
00:26:22,395 --> 00:26:24,730
He never laid a hand on me,
429
00:26:24,731 --> 00:26:28,402
but I decided then and there
I would never be a victim.
430
00:26:40,112 --> 00:26:42,481
It's important to keep
promises to yourself.
431
00:26:45,318 --> 00:26:47,087
Isn't it?
432
00:26:49,621 --> 00:26:52,091
This the photo she showed you?
433
00:26:55,695 --> 00:26:58,999
I knew I was gonna do
what it took to help her.
434
00:27:02,769 --> 00:27:07,071
At first it's, "You know you
like it rough, don't you, babe?"
435
00:27:07,072 --> 00:27:09,374
Makes you feel like you're
always the one at fault.
436
00:27:09,375 --> 00:27:12,512
If I hadn't done this, hadn't said that.
437
00:27:14,246 --> 00:27:16,447
You look in the mirror
one morning and realize...
438
00:27:16,448 --> 00:27:18,582
it's not only your
mother's eyes you've got,
439
00:27:18,583 --> 00:27:21,020
it's the bruises around them.
440
00:27:23,089 --> 00:27:25,724
Is that why you called me?
441
00:27:25,725 --> 00:27:27,494
I called you...
442
00:27:29,294 --> 00:27:31,195
to get drunk.
443
00:27:31,196 --> 00:27:33,732
That when she told you she was married?
444
00:27:33,733 --> 00:27:36,201
Not in so many words.
445
00:27:36,202 --> 00:27:39,570
More the way she didn't say
what she didn't say?
446
00:27:39,571 --> 00:27:41,273
So who was she?
447
00:27:42,641 --> 00:27:44,242
The one who got to you.
448
00:27:44,243 --> 00:27:47,279
What makes you think there was only one?
449
00:27:47,280 --> 00:27:51,484
Devil takes many forms,
but there's really only one.
450
00:27:52,484 --> 00:27:54,718
You should've been a priest.
451
00:27:54,719 --> 00:27:58,522
Not an option for a woman.
452
00:27:58,523 --> 00:28:00,494
I'd make a terrible nun.
453
00:28:02,861 --> 00:28:04,463
There's always one
who sets the standard.
454
00:28:04,464 --> 00:28:08,366
For most guys, it's the girl in
college who barely knew they existed.
455
00:28:08,367 --> 00:28:10,604
There were a couple of those, I guess.
456
00:28:12,105 --> 00:28:14,239
It's just as well.
457
00:28:14,240 --> 00:28:16,308
If you'd gathered
the courage to talk to her,
458
00:28:16,309 --> 00:28:19,178
you would've noticed
her teeth aren't perfect.
459
00:28:19,811 --> 00:28:22,114
Her eyes are slightly askew.
460
00:28:22,115 --> 00:28:24,816
You ever notice how
it's always those quirks...
461
00:28:24,817 --> 00:28:27,616
we find the most charming
in the beginning...
462
00:28:27,628 --> 00:28:30,101
become the most irritating over time?
463
00:28:31,590 --> 00:28:33,392
What about you?
464
00:28:37,696 --> 00:28:40,300
I'm more comfortable on this side.
465
00:28:41,734 --> 00:28:43,502
As long as there's no tape in it.
466
00:28:43,503 --> 00:28:45,605
It's digital.
No tape.
467
00:28:46,671 --> 00:28:50,641
It was high school, backseat of his car.
468
00:28:50,642 --> 00:28:53,345
I wish I could be more original.
469
00:28:54,813 --> 00:28:59,349
He plays it cool,
a little smile on his face.
470
00:29:00,285 --> 00:29:05,225
But in that smile is a world
of expectation and sadness.
471
00:29:07,426 --> 00:29:11,098
The flower is beautiful, but it dies.
472
00:29:12,465 --> 00:29:15,301
The girl is fertile, but she will age.
473
00:29:19,571 --> 00:29:24,477
They won't find each other in an old age
home at the sunny edge of the world.
474
00:29:25,578 --> 00:29:27,247
Won't wind up in L.A.
475
00:29:28,281 --> 00:29:32,418
This is their moment,
and they better take it.
476
00:29:48,967 --> 00:29:51,602
If there's anything
you need to tell me...
477
00:29:51,603 --> 00:29:53,704
about your relationship
with this young woman,
478
00:29:53,705 --> 00:29:55,740
now would be the time.
479
00:29:55,741 --> 00:29:57,710
I needed to know
if it was possible to know...
480
00:29:57,711 --> 00:30:00,311
I needed to know if it was
possible to know someone...
481
00:30:00,312 --> 00:30:03,416
- I love you.
- Really know someone.
482
00:30:04,783 --> 00:30:06,850
I always have.
483
00:30:06,851 --> 00:30:09,553
I wanted to know what was real...
484
00:30:09,554 --> 00:30:12,691
Our souls were born together
at the beginning of time.
485
00:30:12,692 --> 00:30:16,295
And what was just some kind
of image of her in my head.
486
00:30:16,296 --> 00:30:18,396
I love you. I love you.
I always have.
487
00:30:18,397 --> 00:30:20,633
Our souls were born together
at the beginning of time.
488
00:30:20,634 --> 00:30:22,233
I love you.
I always have.
489
00:30:22,234 --> 00:30:26,404
I always have. Our souls were born
together at the beginning of time.
490
00:30:26,405 --> 00:30:29,273
Our souls were born together
at the beginning of time.
491
00:30:29,274 --> 00:30:32,211
I love you.
I love you.
492
00:30:34,513 --> 00:30:37,583
Our souls were born together
at the beginning of time.
493
00:30:44,523 --> 00:30:48,893
It wasn't in college.
We met at the museum.
494
00:30:48,894 --> 00:30:50,794
Impressionists?
495
00:30:50,795 --> 00:30:53,232
How'd you know?
496
00:30:54,433 --> 00:30:57,737
You always find the best women
in the impressionist wing.
497
00:30:57,738 --> 00:30:59,572
We went out a couple of times.
498
00:31:00,406 --> 00:31:02,273
She invites me back to her place,
499
00:31:02,274 --> 00:31:04,041
and we're sitting on the couch.
500
00:31:04,042 --> 00:31:06,877
When she gets up
to throw a log in the fire,
501
00:31:06,878 --> 00:31:10,350
I notice a slight stiffness in her step.
502
00:31:11,016 --> 00:31:14,752
Somehow that tiny sign of age...
503
00:31:14,753 --> 00:31:17,323
made her real for me.
504
00:31:17,990 --> 00:31:21,761
She was perfected by her imperfections.
505
00:31:23,029 --> 00:31:25,964
And in that moment,
I can see the future.
506
00:31:25,965 --> 00:31:28,433
We will move together
into the bright haze,
507
00:31:28,434 --> 00:31:31,703
fighting age and decay,
losing gloriously.
508
00:31:31,704 --> 00:31:36,608
I will come to love her cancer
scars, her arthritic knee.
509
00:31:36,609 --> 00:31:39,977
And I know that sex and love
are just animal things,
510
00:31:39,978 --> 00:31:43,350
the genes liking what's good for them.
511
00:31:44,082 --> 00:31:47,551
But maybe there's another possibility.
512
00:31:47,552 --> 00:31:50,454
If love is more
than the sum of its parts,
513
00:31:50,455 --> 00:31:54,526
maybe we are more
than the sum of our parts.
514
00:31:56,395 --> 00:31:58,996
But there's another future.
515
00:31:58,997 --> 00:32:02,468
She will leave me, or I'll leave her.
516
00:32:03,401 --> 00:32:06,372
I'll feel the pain but only for a while.
517
00:32:07,505 --> 00:32:10,809
And I know that if I ran
into her a year later,
518
00:32:10,810 --> 00:32:14,346
she won't be someone that I could
imagine falling in love with.
519
00:32:14,347 --> 00:32:16,850
In fact, I'll question
that I ever did at all.
520
00:32:18,451 --> 00:32:20,551
So which future did you choose?
521
00:32:20,552 --> 00:32:24,356
Sometimes the scorpion stings you,
522
00:32:24,357 --> 00:32:26,593
even if it means he'll drown too.
523
00:32:30,562 --> 00:32:33,867
When I was little, my mother
told me about the saints.
524
00:32:36,135 --> 00:32:38,636
Saint Jude was always my favorite.
525
00:32:38,637 --> 00:32:41,707
Patron saint of lost causes.
526
00:32:49,148 --> 00:32:51,484
Why did you really call me?
527
00:32:56,522 --> 00:32:58,522
I agreed to help her out with Pruitt,
528
00:32:58,523 --> 00:33:00,459
but there was a condition.
529
00:33:02,128 --> 00:33:05,799
She still hadn't told me why she was
crying that day I met her on the train.
530
00:33:09,935 --> 00:33:12,637
He was a brave man once.
531
00:33:12,638 --> 00:33:15,441
He was in Cuba on business
during the revolution.
532
00:33:15,442 --> 00:33:19,778
Somehow he managed to convince
both sides he was with them.
533
00:33:19,779 --> 00:33:23,647
He infiltrated the guerrillas
on behalf of the government,
534
00:33:23,648 --> 00:33:26,919
told the revolutionaries he was
gathering intelligence for them.
535
00:33:28,154 --> 00:33:31,423
Both sides suspected
he was C.I.A.
536
00:33:31,424 --> 00:33:34,728
I think eventually even he
didn't know what the truth was.
537
00:33:35,927 --> 00:33:39,799
One time he was able to warn
a village about a coming attack.
538
00:33:41,533 --> 00:33:44,536
About a dozen families escaped.
539
00:33:51,109 --> 00:33:53,513
Do you have chocolate?
540
00:33:57,015 --> 00:33:59,684
I need you to do this for me, Danny.
541
00:33:59,685 --> 00:34:03,588
What will following him
with my camera give you?
542
00:34:03,589 --> 00:34:04,858
Ammunition.
543
00:34:06,458 --> 00:34:08,659
Not everybody has a double life.
544
00:34:08,660 --> 00:34:10,995
Not everybody has a secret.
545
00:34:10,996 --> 00:34:13,400
That's where you're wrong.
546
00:34:14,732 --> 00:34:17,868
You assumed the elderly
gentleman was her great uncle?
547
00:34:17,869 --> 00:34:21,972
I imagine he was just some
old-timer she used as a prop.
548
00:34:21,973 --> 00:34:24,642
She was very good with stories.
549
00:34:24,643 --> 00:34:27,479
That's when you agreed
to follow Carl Pruitt.
550
00:34:27,480 --> 00:34:29,648
He was a criminal defense lawyer.
551
00:34:29,649 --> 00:34:33,051
I knew he'd have
some unsavory associations,
552
00:34:33,052 --> 00:34:34,954
but I didn't think much of it.
553
00:34:34,955 --> 00:34:36,921
You were led to believe
this ammunition...
554
00:34:36,922 --> 00:34:39,591
was for a potential divorce proceeding?
555
00:34:39,592 --> 00:34:41,926
She never actually mentioned divorce.
556
00:34:41,927 --> 00:34:43,026
Right.
557
00:34:43,027 --> 00:34:45,998
The way she didn't say
what she didn't say.
558
00:34:49,768 --> 00:34:52,972
About a week in,
it started to get interesting.
559
00:34:54,806 --> 00:34:58,042
That was the first time
you saw James Fenetree?
560
00:34:58,043 --> 00:35:03,247
Well, we weren't formally
introduced, but, yeah, that's him.
561
00:35:03,248 --> 00:35:05,784
Of course we already know that.
562
00:35:09,889 --> 00:35:13,591
For the record, I didn't leave her.
563
00:35:13,592 --> 00:35:16,794
So, sometimes the scorpion
gets stung too.
564
00:35:16,795 --> 00:35:20,932
You replay the last weeks
and days looking for a reason.
565
00:35:20,933 --> 00:35:24,737
Did you say something wrong,
commit some callous act?
566
00:35:25,571 --> 00:35:28,772
Can it really be so fragile?
567
00:35:28,773 --> 00:35:30,844
Or you can move on.
568
00:35:31,844 --> 00:35:33,945
Envy those couples who've
been together so long...
569
00:35:33,946 --> 00:35:36,247
they can't remember why.
570
00:35:36,248 --> 00:35:39,886
In the land of the one-eyed,
envy the blind.
571
00:35:45,023 --> 00:35:49,093
With the Americans approaching,
they were in a hurry...
572
00:35:49,094 --> 00:35:51,229
to finish up with us.
573
00:35:51,230 --> 00:35:53,532
Finally it would be my turn.
574
00:35:54,600 --> 00:35:57,837
I thought back to the
little girl by the train.
575
00:35:58,770 --> 00:36:03,707
In a place where evil seemed so big...
576
00:36:03,708 --> 00:36:06,109
Also so small,
577
00:36:06,110 --> 00:36:07,846
so everyday...
578
00:36:09,214 --> 00:36:11,649
I believed...
579
00:36:11,650 --> 00:36:16,687
that this one little act
of kindness saved my life.
580
00:36:16,688 --> 00:36:19,591
I had to know that
there was something else,
581
00:36:19,592 --> 00:36:24,564
some people existed
who could be good and kind.
582
00:36:34,739 --> 00:36:38,911
You didn't notice anything odd about the
picture she showed you of Carl Pruitt?
583
00:36:39,811 --> 00:36:41,345
Not exactly a family portrait.
584
00:36:41,346 --> 00:36:43,815
That's taken with a telephoto lens.
585
00:36:44,882 --> 00:36:46,950
Well, she doesn't like
getting her photograph taken.
586
00:36:46,951 --> 00:36:49,955
Right.
The aborigines.
587
00:36:51,357 --> 00:36:53,890
I guess I took a lot on faith.
588
00:36:53,891 --> 00:36:57,095
Well, I thought all you
movie people were atheists.
589
00:36:57,096 --> 00:36:59,565
Only when it comes to God.
590
00:37:00,199 --> 00:37:04,669
In the morning, so much excitement.
591
00:37:04,670 --> 00:37:06,738
The camp guards have disappeared.
592
00:37:06,739 --> 00:37:08,340
People are running around.
593
00:37:08,341 --> 00:37:11,109
The Americans have liberated the camp.
594
00:37:11,110 --> 00:37:13,711
They had hot food for us...
595
00:37:13,712 --> 00:37:17,849
Just some broth with a little meat.
596
00:37:17,850 --> 00:37:22,919
But it was so long since I had
had anything so hot and good,
597
00:37:22,920 --> 00:37:28,026
I ate it so quickly that the little
cross came loose, and I almost choked.
598
00:37:28,027 --> 00:37:30,662
Just think about it...
599
00:37:30,663 --> 00:37:34,999
If after all I'd been through
I had choked...
600
00:37:35,000 --> 00:37:37,936
on this kind gift.
601
00:37:39,270 --> 00:37:42,707
I took it out of my mouth...
602
00:37:42,708 --> 00:37:46,112
and hung it round my neck.
603
00:37:47,813 --> 00:37:50,750
A Jewish boy wearing a cross?
604
00:37:51,382 --> 00:37:53,950
I got tired of explaining.
605
00:37:53,951 --> 00:37:56,955
So if they thought
I'd converted, let them.
606
00:38:01,694 --> 00:38:04,227
I'd seen Pruitt go into
the building a couple of times,
607
00:38:04,228 --> 00:38:06,230
so I decided to get a better look.
608
00:38:34,426 --> 00:38:36,026
Ever seen him before?
609
00:38:36,027 --> 00:38:37,495
His name's Spider.
610
00:38:37,496 --> 00:38:39,263
Of course.
611
00:38:39,264 --> 00:38:41,966
Carl represented him a few times.
612
00:38:41,967 --> 00:38:45,269
He's required to do a certain
amount of pro bono work.
613
00:38:45,270 --> 00:38:46,370
And Spider?
614
00:38:46,371 --> 00:38:49,807
He's a provider.
Drugs, girls, you name it.
615
00:38:49,808 --> 00:38:52,078
Carl likes to get paid
one way or another.
616
00:39:13,766 --> 00:39:15,968
Are you asking for the time?
617
00:39:17,402 --> 00:39:19,839
Do I need some kind of wrist band?
618
00:39:21,339 --> 00:39:23,775
It ain't part of the club.
619
00:39:24,976 --> 00:39:27,310
I wasn't getting past this guy anyway,
620
00:39:27,311 --> 00:39:29,347
so I figured
I'd come back another night.
621
00:39:29,348 --> 00:39:31,149
He had to take a break sooner or later.
622
00:39:31,150 --> 00:39:33,852
You didn't think you might be
getting in over your head?
623
00:39:33,853 --> 00:39:37,089
Ever try and jump off a moving train?
624
00:39:38,056 --> 00:39:40,057
If there's anything
you need to tell me...
625
00:39:40,058 --> 00:39:42,426
about your relationship
with this young woman,
626
00:39:42,427 --> 00:39:44,262
now would be the time.
627
00:39:44,263 --> 00:39:45,830
I thought I wasn't a suspect.
628
00:39:45,831 --> 00:39:49,867
Yet you're willing to walk into a
potentially dangerous situation...
629
00:39:49,868 --> 00:39:52,403
armed with a video camera.
630
00:39:52,404 --> 00:39:55,039
I guess I wanted to know
what was real...
631
00:39:55,040 --> 00:39:59,277
and what was just some kind
of image of her in my head.
632
00:40:01,112 --> 00:40:04,448
I needed to know if it was
possible to know someone,
633
00:40:04,449 --> 00:40:07,220
really know someone.
634
00:40:09,321 --> 00:40:12,891
It seemed very important.
635
00:40:24,435 --> 00:40:28,907
My wife died last year.
Thirty years.
636
00:40:30,875 --> 00:40:34,703
I got the call I'm usually
the one making.
637
00:40:34,715 --> 00:40:35,979
Car accident.
638
00:40:35,980 --> 00:40:39,216
Funny thing is, she wasn't even
supposed to go out that night,
639
00:40:39,217 --> 00:40:42,252
but she did go out.
640
00:40:42,253 --> 00:40:46,926
She was going out to see
the guy she was screwing.
641
00:40:47,960 --> 00:40:52,330
For weeks I bounced
between anger, hurt, loss.
642
00:40:52,331 --> 00:40:58,401
The hardest thing was jumping
from one feeling to the next.
643
00:40:58,402 --> 00:41:00,937
I couldn't get a foothold.
644
00:41:00,938 --> 00:41:05,142
So finally I decided
to pick one emotion.
645
00:41:05,143 --> 00:41:07,544
I tried to remember who she was...
646
00:41:07,545 --> 00:41:10,548
and why I loved her.
647
00:41:10,549 --> 00:41:14,285
And then when the dark
feelings would rise,
648
00:41:14,286 --> 00:41:15,486
I would...
649
00:41:15,487 --> 00:41:19,423
What do you call it when
you turn lead into gold?
650
00:41:19,424 --> 00:41:21,191
Alchemy.
651
00:41:21,192 --> 00:41:26,296
I'd take everything about her,
even the things I hated,
652
00:41:26,297 --> 00:41:29,332
and I'd tell her in my mind
how that made me love her...
653
00:41:29,333 --> 00:41:33,873
because that's what made her
who she was, even the flaws.
654
00:41:37,576 --> 00:41:39,946
I see it every day.
655
00:41:42,214 --> 00:41:44,948
Love a person half your life,
then wake up one morning...
656
00:41:44,949 --> 00:41:48,551
and you can't find a single
thing about them not to hate.
657
00:41:48,552 --> 00:41:51,321
I've seen women carved
to ribbons by men...
658
00:41:51,322 --> 00:41:55,261
who two days ago would have jumped
in front of a truck to save.
659
00:41:56,594 --> 00:41:58,930
I wasn't gonna let that happen.
660
00:41:59,998 --> 00:42:02,969
I wasn't gonna turn gold to lead.
661
00:42:04,201 --> 00:42:05,871
Did it work?
662
00:42:06,404 --> 00:42:08,006
Sometimes.
663
00:42:12,177 --> 00:42:14,445
You know, there's a tab
on the camera menu,
664
00:42:14,446 --> 00:42:16,347
you can turn off the tally light?
665
00:42:16,348 --> 00:42:20,018
That way the suspect doesn't
know he's being recorded.
666
00:42:21,552 --> 00:42:25,324
You're good.
You share. I share.
667
00:42:29,293 --> 00:42:30,961
Was it true?
668
00:42:30,962 --> 00:42:35,267
Didn't Jesus say, "What is truth"?
669
00:42:36,634 --> 00:42:39,370
Actually, I think it was Pilate.
670
00:42:39,371 --> 00:42:44,343
Eventually I made my way to New York.
671
00:42:45,377 --> 00:42:48,713
I found work with a relative
who sold small gifts,
672
00:42:48,714 --> 00:42:52,249
religious trinkets from the church.
673
00:42:52,250 --> 00:42:55,051
He always made fun of me anyway.
674
00:42:55,052 --> 00:42:58,388
"The goy," he called me
because of the cross.
675
00:42:58,389 --> 00:43:01,492
"Go out and sell the saints."
676
00:43:01,493 --> 00:43:06,398
So every day I went to the cart
out on Coney Island.
677
00:43:07,431 --> 00:43:12,135
I couldn't believe how happy
all the people were...
678
00:43:12,136 --> 00:43:15,740
just for nothing,
for some cotton candy...
679
00:43:15,741 --> 00:43:19,078
and a few silly rides.
680
00:43:19,744 --> 00:43:23,680
This happiness was more foreign to me...
681
00:43:23,681 --> 00:43:26,118
than the new language.
682
00:43:27,786 --> 00:43:30,687
One day I'm pushing my cart...
683
00:43:30,688 --> 00:43:36,026
when this pretty young woman approaches
to buy something for her niece.
684
00:43:36,027 --> 00:43:40,765
I hear she has an accent,
so we start talking German.
685
00:43:40,766 --> 00:43:45,336
I never talked about my experience...
686
00:43:45,337 --> 00:43:49,173
with a Gentile, certainly not a German.
687
00:43:49,174 --> 00:43:53,443
But she was so kind, so gentle,
688
00:43:53,444 --> 00:43:56,479
I let her know I was a Jew.
689
00:43:56,480 --> 00:43:59,118
She could figure out the rest.
690
00:44:00,085 --> 00:44:04,622
So much was different between us,
691
00:44:04,623 --> 00:44:07,591
and yet it was so easy to talk to her.
692
00:44:07,592 --> 00:44:10,329
I never forget her smile.
693
00:44:12,096 --> 00:44:14,832
Finally she buys a trinket,
694
00:44:14,833 --> 00:44:18,334
and I reach down to put it in a bag,
695
00:44:18,335 --> 00:44:21,071
and the cross comes out
from under my shirt.
696
00:44:21,072 --> 00:44:24,042
Her eyes get very big...
697
00:44:24,810 --> 00:44:28,345
like two blue pools of water.
698
00:44:28,346 --> 00:44:31,781
"Where did you get this?"
she asks.
699
00:44:31,782 --> 00:44:35,118
I don't want to tell her
the whole story,
700
00:44:35,119 --> 00:44:38,354
but of course she already knew.
701
00:44:38,355 --> 00:44:43,128
"Why is a Jewish boy
wearing a cross?"
702
00:44:46,163 --> 00:44:48,731
It seemed like forever.
703
00:44:48,732 --> 00:44:52,270
Neither of us said a thing.
704
00:44:53,105 --> 00:44:55,539
Then there are tears in her eyes.
705
00:44:55,540 --> 00:45:01,614
"I was punished when I told
my parents I had lost it."
706
00:45:04,116 --> 00:45:06,883
I had found my savior,
707
00:45:06,884 --> 00:45:11,821
the little girl whose kindness had
seen me through impossible times.
708
00:45:11,822 --> 00:45:15,191
I left the cart right there
on the boardwalk,
709
00:45:15,192 --> 00:45:18,162
and we walked for hours, just talking...
710
00:45:18,163 --> 00:45:22,201
Two people so different.
711
00:45:23,268 --> 00:45:25,870
It was like we'd known
each other our whole lives,
712
00:45:25,871 --> 00:45:28,307
which, of course, we had...
713
00:45:30,141 --> 00:45:33,111
in our imaginations.
714
00:45:34,212 --> 00:45:37,814
Seeing the worst
that people are capable of,
715
00:45:37,815 --> 00:45:42,353
I had also seen in her the best.
716
00:45:44,556 --> 00:45:49,459
Now that I'd found her,
I promised her, promised myself,
717
00:45:49,460 --> 00:45:52,397
I would never lose her again.
718
00:45:53,531 --> 00:45:56,634
And I've never broken that promise.
719
00:45:58,670 --> 00:46:01,771
I was wrong.
720
00:46:01,772 --> 00:46:05,843
You don't want to choose between
a great love and a great story.
721
00:46:05,844 --> 00:46:09,446
You think that's what this is about?
722
00:46:09,447 --> 00:46:12,416
I woke up one morning,
723
00:46:12,417 --> 00:46:15,385
and I saw my mom standing
over the kitchen sink,
724
00:46:15,386 --> 00:46:19,225
and suddenly I knew what hell was.
725
00:46:20,958 --> 00:46:24,330
You see the world, but you're not in it.
726
00:46:25,197 --> 00:46:27,700
People walk by your grave,
727
00:46:29,201 --> 00:46:32,505
laughing, alive, forgetting you.
728
00:46:33,737 --> 00:46:36,307
But still you remain,
729
00:46:36,308 --> 00:46:39,445
a bead of awareness
in a universe of uncaring.
730
00:46:40,712 --> 00:46:43,248
But what if there's a way out?
731
00:46:46,284 --> 00:46:50,189
What if there's a bridge
to just one moment,
732
00:46:51,223 --> 00:46:55,460
a story, a sentence of our lives?
733
00:46:56,328 --> 00:46:59,165
Do we become a part of that story?
734
00:47:01,398 --> 00:47:04,235
Does that become our eternity?
735
00:47:13,911 --> 00:47:16,648
I don't know why I didn't
tell her about the Herzmans.
736
00:47:17,982 --> 00:47:20,451
I wonder if it saved my life.
737
00:47:22,786 --> 00:47:24,888
She took the cab down with me.
738
00:47:24,889 --> 00:47:29,461
The idea was I'd collect the footage
and we'd meet later in a diner.
739
00:47:37,969 --> 00:47:39,737
You should have fought for her.
740
00:47:41,272 --> 00:47:43,774
You thought it was her
imperfections that you loved,
741
00:47:43,775 --> 00:47:47,580
but it's really just the story.
742
00:47:48,446 --> 00:47:50,314
Makes you into a nicer guy...
743
00:47:50,315 --> 00:47:53,219
than the one who would've
left her for someone younger.
744
00:47:53,884 --> 00:47:56,720
The great lost love has its appeal,
745
00:47:56,721 --> 00:47:58,623
even to a girl like me.
746
00:47:59,723 --> 00:48:00,990
Stories don't age and die.
747
00:48:00,991 --> 00:48:03,228
You can tell them over and over.
748
00:48:04,295 --> 00:48:07,532
Problem is, they always end the same.
749
00:50:00,444 --> 00:50:03,481
Seriously, man, what the
fuck were you thinking?
750
00:50:05,683 --> 00:50:07,050
Fair question.
751
00:50:07,051 --> 00:50:09,487
I mean, what did you expect?
752
00:50:10,121 --> 00:50:11,821
Damned if I know.
753
00:50:11,822 --> 00:50:13,122
Damned if you don't.
754
00:50:13,123 --> 00:50:15,959
Good one.
755
00:50:15,960 --> 00:50:18,630
Yeah? Well,
756
00:50:23,034 --> 00:50:24,936
take it to the grave.
757
00:50:26,770 --> 00:50:28,205
What am I doing here?
758
00:50:28,206 --> 00:50:32,008
Hey, man, you chugged
in here on your own steam.
759
00:50:32,009 --> 00:50:34,846
It was a rhetorical question.
760
00:50:36,014 --> 00:50:38,517
I was asking myself.
761
00:50:40,018 --> 00:50:42,721
I know what "rhetorical" means.
762
00:50:46,623 --> 00:50:48,526
No disrespect.
763
00:50:50,828 --> 00:50:53,830
You know what I like
about vampire stories?
764
00:50:53,831 --> 00:50:56,000
The good ones, anyway.
765
00:50:57,201 --> 00:50:59,604
I couldn't begin to guess.
766
00:51:01,105 --> 00:51:05,511
The victim has to invite the vampire in.
767
00:51:12,549 --> 00:51:14,917
I think I might have misjudged you.
768
00:51:14,918 --> 00:51:16,989
It's a common mistake.
769
00:51:19,723 --> 00:51:22,024
Did you really think you could have her?
770
00:51:22,025 --> 00:51:25,229
Think she'd ever show you her real self?
771
00:51:25,238 --> 00:51:27,492
I guess I wasn't thinking.
772
00:51:27,497 --> 00:51:30,533
That's where you're wrong, partner.
773
00:51:30,536 --> 00:51:32,670
You think too much.
774
00:51:33,705 --> 00:51:37,573
Girl like Lexi, she isn't about thought.
775
00:51:38,541 --> 00:51:41,078
She tell you what floats her boat?
776
00:51:41,078 --> 00:51:45,140
Tell you to grab her hair,
777
00:51:45,141 --> 00:51:48,014
push her face into the pillows?
778
00:51:48,016 --> 00:51:49,829
Tell you she likes it rough?
779
00:51:57,628 --> 00:51:59,196
I just had a funny thought.
780
00:51:59,197 --> 00:52:01,798
Wouldn't think you'd be
in a laughing mood.
781
00:52:01,799 --> 00:52:04,802
About a patron saint for lost causes.
782
00:52:05,536 --> 00:52:07,104
Yeah, that's one of her raps.
783
00:52:07,105 --> 00:52:10,941
Unlike you, I don't imagine I'm
the first man she's told that to.
784
00:52:10,942 --> 00:52:14,580
Probably not the first to wear
this around his neck either.
785
00:52:16,681 --> 00:52:19,983
You always believe women when
they tell you you're their first?
786
00:52:19,984 --> 00:52:22,553
Actually I never believe that.
787
00:52:22,554 --> 00:52:27,059
Well, there's hope for you yet.
788
00:52:34,766 --> 00:52:37,633
You know, of course, that's a scorpion.
789
00:52:37,634 --> 00:52:40,704
And your name's Spider.
Why do you...
790
00:52:40,705 --> 00:52:43,074
Why have you got a scorpion tattoo?
791
00:52:44,576 --> 00:52:46,343
You do have a right to remain silent.
792
00:52:46,344 --> 00:52:49,982
Hey, I'm just saying.
Just saying.
793
00:52:53,083 --> 00:52:56,989
In the end, does all that
smarts really pay off?
794
00:52:58,255 --> 00:53:02,793
I mean, look where I am.
Look where you sit.
795
00:53:03,828 --> 00:53:05,227
Doesn't that strike you as funny?
796
00:53:05,228 --> 00:53:07,263
Well, not funny.
797
00:53:07,264 --> 00:53:10,536
I have this theory about smarts...
798
00:53:12,703 --> 00:53:15,006
That it gets in the way
of seeing things.
799
00:53:16,773 --> 00:53:20,679
What? Did you think
she cared?
800
00:53:22,212 --> 00:53:23,914
Just what I thought.
801
00:53:23,915 --> 00:53:26,918
Only a smart guy could be
that fucking stupid.
802
00:53:36,094 --> 00:53:40,298
Here's another smart guy.
See how fucking smart?
803
00:53:51,676 --> 00:53:55,211
So, want to hear the plan?
804
00:53:55,212 --> 00:53:59,649
Our girl asks you to get some dirt on old
Carl over there, which isn't hard to do.
805
00:53:59,650 --> 00:54:02,051
He's much more interested
in pain than women.
806
00:54:02,052 --> 00:54:03,320
What's the difference?
807
00:54:03,321 --> 00:54:06,423
But you wind up falling for her.
808
00:54:06,424 --> 00:54:10,094
Decide you have to have her.
809
00:54:13,130 --> 00:54:15,167
She brings that out in a man.
810
00:54:18,802 --> 00:54:20,038
Let me guess.
811
00:54:22,072 --> 00:54:23,741
I kill him.
812
00:54:33,016 --> 00:54:35,654
See? Those smarts again.
813
00:54:37,455 --> 00:54:40,993
Why do I kill him if she's
going to leave him anyway?
814
00:54:42,460 --> 00:54:44,763
Hang on a minute.
815
00:55:00,110 --> 00:55:05,482
Because he put a fucking
nail through your hand.
816
00:55:08,485 --> 00:55:10,787
Of course, I'd been following Pruitt,
817
00:55:10,788 --> 00:55:13,891
collecting all this footage,
so it had a certain logic.
818
00:55:17,962 --> 00:55:19,697
Spider.
819
00:55:21,264 --> 00:55:22,833
Scorpion.
820
00:55:23,433 --> 00:55:25,970
Whatever your name is.
Arachnid!
821
00:55:29,139 --> 00:55:31,341
You like pain or something?
822
00:55:31,342 --> 00:55:34,310
Look, I know smarts has its limitations,
823
00:55:34,311 --> 00:55:38,080
but dumb won't get you very far either.
824
00:55:38,081 --> 00:55:39,115
Seriously?
825
00:55:39,116 --> 00:55:41,184
You really think you're gonna end up...
826
00:55:41,185 --> 00:55:43,820
on a paradise island with her?
827
00:55:43,821 --> 00:55:45,756
You really don't know
what's what, do you?
828
00:55:45,757 --> 00:55:47,025
- She's not real.
- No?
829
00:55:47,028 --> 00:55:50,894
She only shows you what she needs to.
830
00:55:50,895 --> 00:55:55,064
See, a man like you will
never get what she's about.
831
00:55:55,065 --> 00:55:57,834
Upper West Side pussy.
832
00:55:57,835 --> 00:56:00,970
Think I don't know you?
833
00:56:00,971 --> 00:56:05,876
You walk the line, afraid
to give the littlest offense.
834
00:56:05,877 --> 00:56:09,312
Tell them what they wanna hear,
fuck on their schedule,
835
00:56:09,313 --> 00:56:12,381
tiptoeing nine paces behind them.
836
00:56:12,382 --> 00:56:13,917
You're right, hoss.
837
00:56:13,918 --> 00:56:17,054
She'll never be real to you.
838
00:56:22,493 --> 00:56:24,862
Just about done here.
839
00:56:32,804 --> 00:56:35,773
And you thought the nail
was a good idea because?
840
00:56:36,473 --> 00:56:38,109
He pisses me off.
841
00:56:38,942 --> 00:56:40,843
So let me get this straight.
842
00:56:40,844 --> 00:56:44,281
He kills Carl, and then he hammers
a nail into his own hand.
843
00:56:46,417 --> 00:56:50,586
Carl fucks him up with the nail,
but he gets himself free.
844
00:56:50,587 --> 00:56:53,088
He does Carl with the knife,
845
00:56:53,089 --> 00:56:57,061
and Carl has just enough left in him
to put a bullet between his eyes.
846
00:57:00,096 --> 00:57:02,133
What did I say about improvising?
847
00:57:03,868 --> 00:57:05,770
Where is he?
I want to see him.
848
00:57:25,956 --> 00:57:29,459
I've waited a long time.
849
00:57:29,460 --> 00:57:31,263
Who the fuck are you?
850
00:57:35,866 --> 00:57:38,167
Jesus.
851
00:57:38,168 --> 00:57:39,937
Now he's dead.
852
00:57:41,339 --> 00:57:43,074
He didn't know you.
853
00:57:46,409 --> 00:57:48,010
You have the gun?
854
00:57:48,011 --> 00:57:50,479
Cold as they come.
855
00:57:50,480 --> 00:57:52,116
Why didn't he know you?
856
00:57:57,255 --> 00:58:00,589
No. Let me.
857
00:58:00,590 --> 00:58:02,860
You sure, babe?
858
00:58:03,627 --> 00:58:06,063
He's my responsibility.
859
00:58:11,168 --> 00:58:13,171
There's my girl.
860
00:58:20,578 --> 00:58:25,050
Come on. You can do
better than that.
861
00:58:30,186 --> 00:58:33,090
If it makes a difference, I'm sorry.
862
00:58:36,060 --> 00:58:38,196
Can't blame the scorpion
for stinging you.
863
00:58:44,101 --> 00:58:46,236
What was that she said?
864
00:58:46,237 --> 00:58:50,173
About living out an alternative future
in the last instant of your life.
865
00:58:50,174 --> 00:58:52,475
...future in the last
instant of your life.
866
00:58:52,476 --> 00:58:55,479
Is that what all this has been?
Is that what this is?
867
00:58:55,480 --> 00:58:58,481
Are you always the last
to realize you're already dead?
868
00:58:58,482 --> 00:59:01,186
...always the last to realize
you're already dead all along?
869
00:59:02,152 --> 00:59:04,889
Maybe I should have been
paying more attention.
870
00:59:06,056 --> 00:59:11,263
Well, that was the death that
flashed before my eyes anyway.
871
00:59:24,174 --> 00:59:27,211
No. Let me.
872
00:59:28,746 --> 00:59:30,482
There's my girl.
873
00:59:48,331 --> 00:59:52,503
For the record, I never liked it rough.
874
00:59:57,475 --> 00:59:59,243
He pisses me off.
875
01:00:05,516 --> 01:00:07,151
You weren't what I thought.
876
01:00:07,152 --> 01:00:09,955
You're exactly what I thought.
877
01:00:27,103 --> 01:00:28,906
He won't be needing it.
878
01:00:32,777 --> 01:00:34,279
So where will you go?
879
01:00:35,311 --> 01:00:37,146
Someplace warm.
880
01:00:37,147 --> 01:00:40,349
Who will you be when you get there?
881
01:00:40,451 --> 01:00:43,989
You invented me as much
as I invented myself, Danny.
882
01:00:46,723 --> 01:00:49,593
The vampire can't enter
without an invitation.
883
01:00:53,764 --> 01:00:56,134
I knew he didn't come up
with that line himself.
884
01:00:57,333 --> 01:01:00,471
You want me to tell you
it was real for me?
885
01:01:01,337 --> 01:01:04,008
That I loved you if only for a moment?
886
01:01:05,476 --> 01:01:08,213
That's why you're alive
and Spider's dead.
887
01:01:09,480 --> 01:01:11,248
Ok.
888
01:01:11,815 --> 01:01:13,551
I love you.
889
01:01:15,518 --> 01:01:17,287
I always have.
890
01:01:18,389 --> 01:01:21,359
Our souls were born together
at the beginning of time.
891
01:01:23,226 --> 01:01:26,063
I can't tell you anything
you don't already know.
892
01:01:33,503 --> 01:01:35,339
I believe you.
893
01:01:39,710 --> 01:01:42,179
Will you remember me?
894
01:01:44,248 --> 01:01:45,617
Safe bet.
895
01:01:53,523 --> 01:01:57,526
The thing is, even after everything,
896
01:01:57,527 --> 01:01:59,531
I wanted to believe.
897
01:02:01,132 --> 01:02:04,267
Duct-taped to a chair,
nail through my hand,
898
01:02:04,268 --> 01:02:06,670
two dead guys on the floor,
899
01:02:08,505 --> 01:02:10,339
I still wanted to believe her.
900
01:02:10,340 --> 01:02:13,210
Homo creditus.
Man the believer.
901
01:02:14,244 --> 01:02:15,746
Pretty fucking stupid?
902
01:02:15,747 --> 01:02:17,247
Just overmatched.
903
01:02:17,248 --> 01:02:20,283
They're smarter than us.
You know that.
904
01:02:20,284 --> 01:02:23,320
At least you're not one of
the dead guys on the floor.
905
01:02:23,321 --> 01:02:24,888
Does that make me a suspect?
906
01:02:24,889 --> 01:02:27,423
I don't think you killed Carl Pruitt.
907
01:02:27,424 --> 01:02:32,762
And I don't really think that she
ever expected you to take the rap.
908
01:02:32,763 --> 01:02:37,566
My guess is her plan was to get rid of
Pruitt and Spider at the same time.
909
01:02:37,567 --> 01:02:39,702
So why use me?
910
01:02:39,703 --> 01:02:41,738
What Spider lacked in moral clarity,
911
01:02:41,739 --> 01:02:43,705
he made up for in street smarts.
912
01:02:43,706 --> 01:02:46,441
He knew somebody would have
to take the fall for Pruitt.
913
01:02:46,442 --> 01:02:49,211
Well, she convinced him it was you...
914
01:02:49,212 --> 01:02:51,446
so he wouldn't know
it was him all along.
915
01:02:51,447 --> 01:02:52,683
But why kill Spider?
916
01:02:55,185 --> 01:02:58,388
I guess she had a short fuse
on this kind of thing.
917
01:02:59,924 --> 01:03:01,592
Tell you she likes it rough?
918
01:03:05,196 --> 01:03:07,165
She was never married to Carl.
919
01:03:08,498 --> 01:03:10,200
He didn't seem to know her.
920
01:03:10,201 --> 01:03:11,901
He knew her.
921
01:03:11,902 --> 01:03:16,407
But I decided then and there
I would never be a victim.
922
01:03:17,208 --> 01:03:19,177
The mother was married to him.
923
01:03:30,587 --> 01:03:31,955
He killed her.
924
01:03:31,956 --> 01:03:33,191
D.A. went for manslaughter.
925
01:03:33,192 --> 01:03:37,526
Carl claimed she came at him
with a kitchen knife.
926
01:03:37,527 --> 01:03:39,296
He was acquitted.
927
01:03:41,898 --> 01:03:44,767
She never said she was married to him.
928
01:03:44,768 --> 01:03:46,468
What?
929
01:03:46,469 --> 01:03:48,638
Or that he was the one
who beat her. She just...
930
01:03:48,639 --> 01:03:51,274
You look in the mirror
one morning and realize...
931
01:03:51,275 --> 01:03:54,544
it's not only your mother's eyes you've
got, it's the bruises around them.
932
01:03:54,545 --> 01:03:57,379
She just...
933
01:03:57,380 --> 01:03:59,749
She just let me fill in the blanks.
934
01:03:59,750 --> 01:04:03,586
Turns out the mother insisted that
Carl set up a blind trust for Lexi...
935
01:04:03,587 --> 01:04:05,455
before she'd marry him.
936
01:04:05,456 --> 01:04:08,392
Carl stipulated the trust
wouldn't go into effect...
937
01:04:08,393 --> 01:04:10,526
until he and the mother died.
938
01:04:10,527 --> 01:04:12,495
She always wanted me to be provided for,
939
01:04:12,496 --> 01:04:14,999
so he agreed to put
something aside for me.
940
01:04:15,000 --> 01:04:17,734
She cleaned out the trust
three days ago.
941
01:04:20,770 --> 01:04:25,274
I imagine she hooked up with
Spider as a way to get to Pruitt.
942
01:04:25,275 --> 01:04:28,745
He'd represented him
on a couple of drug beefs.
943
01:04:29,813 --> 01:04:33,785
Once Spider laid a hand
on her, his fate was set.
944
01:04:44,795 --> 01:04:46,963
You knew all along.
945
01:04:46,964 --> 01:04:49,365
Be nice if we could see
the rest of the room.
946
01:04:49,366 --> 01:04:51,934
Well, I'll be more careful
next time I drop my camera.
947
01:04:51,935 --> 01:04:55,505
You will get me the footage
that you've been collecting?
948
01:04:56,639 --> 01:04:57,708
So I'm free to go?
949
01:05:02,946 --> 01:05:05,580
I am curious though.
950
01:05:05,581 --> 01:05:09,952
Earlier you mentioned something
about that couple, the Herzmans.
951
01:05:09,953 --> 01:05:12,021
Something you never told her.
952
01:05:12,022 --> 01:05:14,457
I didn't want him
to do this. Never.
953
01:05:14,458 --> 01:05:17,426
I was in the camps, just as I said.
954
01:05:17,427 --> 01:05:20,729
And I saw many trains
pass by with prisoners.
955
01:05:20,730 --> 01:05:22,999
But I never even saw Morris.
956
01:05:23,000 --> 01:05:26,836
That day on Coney Island
was the first time we met.
957
01:05:26,837 --> 01:05:29,939
We fell in love and were married.
958
01:05:29,940 --> 01:05:32,642
The important parts are true.
959
01:05:32,643 --> 01:05:36,512
But the story of the girl
with the cross? Your angel?
960
01:05:36,513 --> 01:05:37,848
That I made up.
961
01:05:40,016 --> 01:05:42,484
It was just a trinket he was selling.
962
01:05:42,485 --> 01:05:46,856
I thought it was so funny, you know,
a Jewish boy selling crosses.
963
01:05:46,857 --> 01:05:49,024
I've worn it ever since.
964
01:05:49,025 --> 01:05:51,493
But it's not even real.
965
01:05:51,494 --> 01:05:55,765
Of course it's real.
It's just not real gold.
966
01:05:55,766 --> 01:05:58,769
When the book publishers
did their fact checking,
967
01:05:58,770 --> 01:06:01,738
they found that the dates
and places didn't match.
968
01:06:01,739 --> 01:06:05,376
Morris came clean, but of course
he lost the book and movie deal.
969
01:06:05,377 --> 01:06:07,778
Why'd he do it?
For the money?
970
01:06:09,011 --> 01:06:11,613
Not exactly.
971
01:06:11,614 --> 01:06:15,952
It was a wonderful story.
It made people happy.
972
01:06:15,953 --> 01:06:18,421
But it's not true.
973
01:06:18,422 --> 01:06:21,591
Agh! It made them feel good.
974
01:06:21,592 --> 01:06:24,595
Do you care when you read a novel
that it didn't really happen?
975
01:06:24,596 --> 01:06:29,499
Are you angry at Shakespeare because
Juliet never said those words?
976
01:06:29,500 --> 01:06:33,603
Our love is real.
Fifty years.
977
01:06:34,404 --> 01:06:36,807
That part is real.
978
01:06:37,808 --> 01:06:39,642
So what's more important?
979
01:06:39,643 --> 01:06:44,180
I gave them something beautiful,
and now it's gone.
980
01:06:44,181 --> 01:06:46,550
Is there too much beauty in the world?
981
01:06:46,551 --> 01:06:50,888
Believe me, where I was
there wasn't so much beauty.
982
01:06:51,922 --> 01:06:55,725
A story like this would've
given those poor souls...
983
01:06:55,726 --> 01:06:59,630
more hope than a hundred gold crosses.
984
01:07:03,167 --> 01:07:06,202
That's why I was on the train
when I saw Lexi the second time.
985
01:07:06,203 --> 01:07:09,741
I was on my way up to do the follow-up
interview with the Herzmans.
986
01:07:13,143 --> 01:07:15,513
You will get me that footage.
987
01:07:16,547 --> 01:07:20,650
You're welcome to it.
She never let me shoot her.
988
01:07:21,451 --> 01:07:23,487
Maybe she was right after all.
989
01:07:24,987 --> 01:07:27,424
About it capturing your soul.
990
01:07:41,071 --> 01:07:46,944
She asked me if I'd choose the
great love or the great story.
991
01:07:48,946 --> 01:07:50,714
But is there a difference really?
992
01:07:51,647 --> 01:07:54,149
In the end, you aren't
who you think you are.
993
01:07:54,150 --> 01:07:56,818
You're who I perceive you to be.
994
01:07:56,819 --> 01:08:00,490
In the world of matter, you are
uncontrollable, unpredictable,
995
01:08:00,491 --> 01:08:03,758
a babble of random motion.
996
01:08:03,759 --> 01:08:08,497
I capture you in a net of words, and
you are known, if only for a moment.
997
01:08:08,498 --> 01:08:11,133
We imagine we create words.
998
01:08:11,134 --> 01:08:14,070
But what if they create us?
999
01:08:14,071 --> 01:08:17,573
This is the secret poets know.
1000
01:08:17,574 --> 01:08:21,910
Words are incantations
weaving magic spells.
1001
01:08:21,911 --> 01:08:26,882
If the word initiated
the universe into existence,
1002
01:08:26,883 --> 01:08:28,585
what will close it?
1003
01:08:31,588 --> 01:08:33,857
Why didn't I tell Detective Martin?
1004
01:08:33,858 --> 01:08:37,927
I guess I was never purely
victim or suspect.
1005
01:08:37,928 --> 01:08:40,865
You could say I was
an accomplice of sorts.
1006
01:08:44,101 --> 01:08:45,870
Check my heart.
1007
01:09:03,053 --> 01:09:07,657
Why did I give her the memory
card, let her keep her soul?
1008
01:09:08,991 --> 01:09:11,928
Why did I go back there, knowing?
1009
01:09:14,697 --> 01:09:18,503
Sometimes you just have to
find out how the story ends.
1010
01:09:19,770 --> 01:09:23,874
Of course, I did back it up
to my hard drive.
1011
01:10:10,887 --> 01:10:13,888
I really do miss
our conversations, Danny.
1012
01:10:13,889 --> 01:10:17,093
But this time I'm just going
to have to imagine your side.
1013
01:10:18,160 --> 01:10:20,328
In a way, it's just as well...
1014
01:10:20,329 --> 01:10:23,100
since we can't ever
really know each other, can we?
1015
01:10:24,735 --> 01:10:27,369
Men and women, people and people,
1016
01:10:27,370 --> 01:10:30,006
we're all alone in the end.
1017
01:10:30,007 --> 01:10:31,807
But maybe that's ok.
1018
01:10:31,808 --> 01:10:36,311
It's what makes us hope and fear
and sometimes love each other.
1019
01:10:36,312 --> 01:10:38,013
It's what keeps us awake at night...
1020
01:10:38,014 --> 01:10:42,985
and makes us pull the blankets over our
head against the glare of morning.
1021
01:10:42,986 --> 01:10:46,323
It's the throbbing in your brain at 4:00
a.m. as you look for the bathroom...
1022
01:10:46,324 --> 01:10:50,727
in some stranger's apartment to piss out
the chemicals from the night before.
1023
01:10:51,928 --> 01:10:54,797
It's fingers scratching across tiles,
1024
01:10:54,798 --> 01:10:58,167
my knees pointed at the ceiling,
my back arched like a cat's.
1025
01:10:58,168 --> 01:11:01,436
Love is a religion, a denial of death,
1026
01:11:01,437 --> 01:11:03,939
a descent into fiction
and improbability,
1027
01:11:03,940 --> 01:11:07,677
a lighting of candles,
a bridge to the impossible,
1028
01:11:07,678 --> 01:11:10,980
a lunatic babbling
on the uptown I.R.T.
1029
01:11:10,981 --> 01:11:15,717
It is this tenement basement with
its stink of cockroach and death.
1030
01:11:15,718 --> 01:11:17,253
It is Jesus above Rio.
1031
01:11:17,254 --> 01:11:19,288
...denial of death.
1032
01:11:19,289 --> 01:11:22,725
It is sex and it's withering.
1033
01:11:22,726 --> 01:11:24,959
It is blood on the floor.
1034
01:11:24,960 --> 01:11:28,864
You will kill for it and die for it.
1035
01:11:28,865 --> 01:11:30,433
It is hope and the death of hope.
1036
01:11:30,434 --> 01:11:34,871
You'll open its shroud and see your
face etched in dirt and sweat.
1037
01:11:36,173 --> 01:11:39,376
It fills you and empties you
in the same heartbeat.
1038
01:11:39,377 --> 01:11:41,843
A bridge to the impossible.
1039
01:11:41,844 --> 01:11:44,481
It is hope and the death of hope.
1040
01:11:48,985 --> 01:11:51,787
Love without sex is life without death.
1041
01:11:51,788 --> 01:11:55,958
Sex without danger
is God without the devil.
1042
01:11:55,959 --> 01:11:59,196
If you can't risk being damned,
don't imagine you can ever love.
1043
01:12:00,262 --> 01:12:01,997
Love straps your arms to the cross,
1044
01:12:01,998 --> 01:12:04,499
drives nails
through your hands and feet.
1045
01:12:04,500 --> 01:12:06,836
Love is the spear
that pierces your side...
1046
01:12:06,837 --> 01:12:09,807
and the blood and the gall
that splashes to the ground.
1047
01:12:10,840 --> 01:12:12,775
It is a rag of vinegar
pressed to your lips...
1048
01:12:12,776 --> 01:12:15,012
and the thorn pushed into your scalp.
1049
01:12:17,981 --> 01:12:21,484
It is a desert mirage,
an echo in a cave,
1050
01:12:21,485 --> 01:12:24,520
your own words returning to mock you.
1051
01:12:24,521 --> 01:12:27,890
It's every great painting
you'll ever see...
1052
01:12:27,891 --> 01:12:30,729
and the way we know art
from the scratchings...
1053
01:12:30,741 --> 01:12:33,074
an elephant can make with his trunk.
1054
01:13:17,807 --> 01:13:20,009
Hard center or soft?
1055
01:13:23,346 --> 01:13:25,148
Soft.
1056
01:13:53,375 --> 01:13:56,346
Never much cared for the hard center.
1057
01:13:59,081 --> 01:14:00,785
Nor I.
9999
00:00:00,500 --> 00:00:02,000
shafiqul islam saddam
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