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Do you remember me?

From the trial.

Of course.

You came every day, sat in the same seat.

Do you have any idea how hard it was

for the parents to... to listen?

I can't imagine.

I write to him, to Parker,

every week, but he won't see me.

Can you tell me the truth, Karen?

Can you tell me what you know about my daughter?

Please.

I never saw her.

- And I never knew her.

Look at these pictures.

Please.

I think you need to know she was really someone.

That her first word was "Mama,"

and she used to fall asleep

on my husband's chest when she was little,

curled up on the couch.

And she grew up and she swam for her college.

She was very, very close to Olympic selection,

and now it's just, like...

It's like I dreamed her.

I'm so sorry...

... for your loss.

I hired a private investigator, and...

we found these three years ago

at a gas station in Nevada.

It's... It's the last image of her.

And then three seconds later,

this man came out of the bathroom.

Your man.

The tattoo artist...

right there.

So, one of you is lying.

I didn't know him then.

A serial killer...

right next to her, and my baby never comes home.

Can you really not remember?

Oh, no, no.

Sorry, I just... I just... I just want to...

I... I just want to know the truth!

Karen! Please!

Tell me the truth!

Please tell me the truth.

You ready, Karen?

For what?

To be Emma.

This place, it's really mine?

There's a lot of stuff here.

Yeah, there was a guy that was living here.

He's gone now.

I'm gonna help you get through this.

We're still gonna have our regular sessions

and we're gonna keep working on the memories

that you can't recall.

I just don't want you to get overwhelmed.

OK?

OK.

We talked a lot about this when you were in prison,

about the reality of you living in...

in Witness Protection.

You need to live a quiet life here,

not attract attention to yourself,

and be very careful who you form attachments to.

I don't have to tell you to stay away from young women.

I'm just saying, keep it simple.

Nine times out of ten,

people will believe what you tell them.

You know that.

My number's in that phone.

I want you to keep it with you at all times.

Most people don't ever get the opportunity

that you have right now.

No past, no baggage,

and at the same time, the opposite is true.

Every good thing you ever did is gone.

Tell me about Emma Hall.

Write down three things,

three qualities that you want for her.

What, like, I get to be a...

princess with a unicorn?

Write them down.

Did you finish the letter to him?

To Parker?

It's been seven years since your daughter,

since Theresa went missing,

and that is a very significant amount of time.

Officially, missing persons can be declared as deceased,

and it's natural

that a family would struggle at this time.

W... we're not struggling.

We're fine.

Mom. I thought it would be good for everyone

to at least acknowledge the date.

Yeah, OK. Yeah, I'm fine if you guy s want to talk it out.

Mary, I think Jake set this up

because he feels that we, you included,

should talk about what happens next.

Don't you feel the need to draw a line, Mary?

To begin the process of closure?

On what?

Look, we're fine.

I have the foundation. I'm with my son every day.

I'm with my daughter, as well.

I mean, not... not in... in reality,

but every day, we work very hard to find her.

And other missing children.

W... we help a lot of families.

My wife...

Well, we don't...

We're... We're... We're friends.

Yes. We're just not together.

We're compassionately de-married.

Right, yes.

And I just... I guess I keep hoping

that we will reach a point where...

we can grieve together.

Maybe...

put a bench somewhere that means something to us,

a place that we could all go as a family

and just remember our daughter.

We don't need a bench, Saul. Theresa's not dead.

Mary. Do you have certainty, or do you need certainty?

I have instinct.

A mother's sense of her child,

and my daughter is still out there.

- I know it. - How?

Because I don't feel she's gone.

Always said you needed therapy, Mom.

Took this to get you here.

Mary, do you understand Saul's need to mourn?

- Yeah. I do. - Good.

I guess I've just always been the optimist

in the marriage.

Now you're gonna see me cry.

I love that you're in touch with your emotions.

Yeah. So in touch.

I literally feel everybody's pain.

Except for mine,

'cause I don't have any pain.

Not anymore.

I have you.

All of you.

I see the things I did as acts of compassion.

Young women trapped in ideals put upon them...

perfect girls from perfect homes

when we all know nobody's perfect.

You killed nine women, Mr. Parker.

You shattered the bones in their hands and feet

so they couldn't defend themselves,

and then you beat them to death with your hammer.

If you need a monster, I'll be your monster.

But the truth is...

those girls were begging for their freedom.

Mom, stop listening to that shit.

This shit is how I'm gonna nail Parker.

It's how I'm gonna find Theresa.

Well, I don't want you going by yourself.

It's a maximum-security prison, Mom.

I'm gonna come with you.

After four years, he's finally agreed to see you?

I want to know why.

Let Parker sit down with you

after he already took my other kid?

Never gonna happen.

Hi.

Your hair is so pretty.

Get up.

Just leave me be.

Get up, bitch.

- Please.

You're a dirty, filthy liar

who lives in a house full of slutty trash who no one wants,

that are so dirty and disgusting

that your own moms and daddies didn't even want you.

You know, bad things happen to little girl liars.

My mom did want me.

Oh, honey, nobody wants you.

Nobody.

I mean, except for the trashy boys.

What are you doing?

Smile, bitch, this is going on the Internet.

Stop! Please, don't put that in my hair!

- Just stop!

Oh, do... do you want to be on her story?

Get out!

Get out of here, you little bitches.

Don't show it... that you're afraid.

I see it. They see it, too.

It's dangerous to be afraid.

You're not from here, are you?

You following me?

Why'd you help me? You don't even know me.

I know girls like that.

My mama died.

She had a heart attack.

That's why I don't have her looking out for me.

It's late. You should get home.

I don't have a home.

Not a real one.

I'm in a group home for foster kids.

Yeah, me, too.

When I was your age.

When you get out, it gets better.

I went to live with someone...

kind, someone good.

- No one's gonna come for us. - You don't know that.

Well, you don't know this place.

There's stuff there... bad stuff.

We don't matter.

If things happen to us...

it doesn't matter, either.

I got to... I got to get home.

Stay away from those girls.

I don't know why anyone would come here.

This place is rotten.

I wanted a fresh start.

You shouldn't have picked Saint James.

Yeah, well, I'm here, and now I'm going home to sleep.

I'm Jess.

You got a name?

Emma.

Hall.

No one ever stood by me like that, Emma Hall.

Shame on them.

Hi.

Oh.

Hi, little one.

Hey.

How'd you get out here?

I got you.

OK.

I'm sorry.

These are the last words I'll ever say to you.

I thought about never saying them.

I thought about trying to erase you from my life.

But I can't.

So I have to write them down, make myself end what was ours,

because I have to start again.

I have to forget you.

I still don't know how I'll do that,

but I have to live without you, and you without me,

and we both have to let each other go.

We both have to leave the darkness we were in,

even if being without you feels like the stars have gone out.

So, Emma Hall.

Hmm.

I was in Seattle. I... I cut in some really good places.

Oh, that's a place I'd like to go to someday.

Don't let us keep you, Thomas.

You did notice this is Saint James, Louisiana, right?

I wanted to start over.

Only two reasons anyone starts over...

a breakup or a breakdown.

I'm really good on details. I work hard.

I... I can cut and I can sweep the floor, I can make coffee.

If you need me to step up because of the baby, then I can do that, too.

You gonna save the world while you're at it?

Yeah, maybe on the weekends.

I'm really good at cutting.

I want to rent that chair.

It is a good chair.

I need to stay busy.

You got some money for my chair?

So... So no one else can turn my head.

Thank you for taking this meeting.

I'm hoping that John can be a real big help to the Trust,

on a voluntary basis, of course.

Um, and I wanted to say before we start that I'm so sorry

there's still no news about your daughter, Mrs. Barlow.

Prison was a real epiphany.

When you're away from everything you know

and there's nowhere else to go,

uh, no one else to blame, you've got to look to yourself,

and I was able to do that.

To think about what I had done

and the lives that I had impacted.

- The women you raped.

Our organization supports ex-offenders

in their post-prison lives.

John genuinely wants to change.

He's been recommended for early release.

He's been employed at the Allfoods supermarket.

He recently received a commendation.

This is, uh, for my display work.

Uh, I... I can tell you things

about how the world thinks it is and how it really is.

Safety is a dream.

MARY: That makes sense.

But because of men like you, right?

I... I was every woman's worst nightmare.

I was the boogeyman.

I stalked my victims.

I was a predator.

But now I am well.

And... And you want to work here with us?

I... No, volunteer. There... There would be no cost.

Work, volunteer.

Y... you want to do something with us here?

I can tell you everything

about the gaps where ladies think that they're safe.

I drove a cab, I worked as a cleaner,

I cut keys for women.

I was all over social media, I...

- Can I stop you? - Yes, please.

I'm trying to get my head around this.

You are offering what?

Awareness raising.

Our foundation's about victims.

We counsel, we offer support,

we help find missing persons.

We're not a fit for you.

Well, hold on now.

Maybe there is something you could do for me.

Tell me,

why did you do the things you did?

Why did you choose the women you chose?

I mean, what was it? Why one and not another?

Um, I don't like to talk, um, in that personal way.

I want to talk about the gaps,

uh, you know, offer advice...

ideas that you could put into a pamphlet.

I'm not interested in a general sense.

I want to know...

what makes a woman your victim.

Do you know why I started this trust?

Your daughter went missing.

No.

She was taken.

Seven years ago.

Now, I know who did it, but I can't prove that.

So this whole trust is for her

and others like her,

and we work so hard to help families

whose lives have been...

destroyed by men like you.

- Maybe we should wrap this up. - So, I... I'm glad you've changed.

I hope people can change, but what I would like to know is

what was it about my daughter made a man take her from me?

I'm looking for insight.

- Uh-huh. - You can't give it?

You won't give it?

Good luck.

Be a good person.

But I can't have you here with us.

I mean, you understand that, right?

Don't you?

How did you find me?

I followed you.

When? The other night?

Maybe.

You got trouble with those girls again, or... ?

Mnh-mnh.

Good.

I've got, um...

I got things to do.

You want to do them together?

No.

I'm busy. I got... I got stuff. I got a lot of stuff.

I saw her in the window.

She's Bella Sharp's kitten.

You gonna tell Bella Sharp?

Not if you hang with me.

Do you believe in monsters?

Abel says there's a swamp monster...

10 foot tall, skin all scale like an alligator.

One red eye, one black.

And you believe that?

- [ Oh, my God! - What?

- We all believe in monsters. - Come on!

You're the one who told me not to be afraid of anything.

So easy. I'm not.

- Yes, you are.

Who's Abel?

I can't talk about Abel.

I'd live here if I could.

I'd never go back

and they'd never know where I've gone.

But you'll know where to find me.

Come.

Come.

That's my pot of money that never runs out.

And that's the giant that walks behind me.

She's invisible, but I couldn't draw invisible.

She eats anyone who's mean.

She's my swamp monster.

You got dreams?

Must be something you want.

To go back and be with someone I don't have anymore.

I'm happy you're here

with me in Saint James.

Yeah, well, I don't think I'm gonna be here much longer.

You're my true friend, Emma Hall.

I can't give you nothing better.

Thank you.

Mrs. Barlow, I'm so sorry.

You OK?

- Have you left here?

Have you left the cabin?

You been listening to the radio?

- You've been online?

Have you talked to anybody from your past, Emma?

- Hmm?

No. Sometimes I want to. No.

So you don't know?

What is it?

Look.

Something very bad has happened, and I need you to trust

that we'll get through this together.

Do you trust me?

You're scaring me.

Christopher Parker's dead.

He killed himself yesterday in prison.

- No, he wouldn't do that. - He did do it.

- I'm here for you. - No!

- Emma!

You can't leave here. Do you understand?

You're not safe.

No!

Why do you keep coming here?

I work my nights here.

Oh.

- Where is it? - Where's what?

Without that necklace, you're not safe, child.

That was a powerful stone. It was your protection.

I gave it to someone... a friend.

What kind of friend do you have here?

You need to lie down now.

You need to relax.

Emma! Open up, please! Emma, please! Emma!

Emma, please!

You said you were my friend!

Please!

MAN: One second.

Mrs. Barlow, hello.

Can I come in, John?

Of course. Yeah. Come in.

Have you changed your mind?

Do you think people can really change, John?

If you let them.

I believe in the cycle of rebirth.

I'm not so sure.

I think we can try, but our natures are our natures.

I think we can have good days where we try to be better,

but they're just days.

No, Mrs. Barlow, I think if we know better,

we do better.

Every day, I wake up and I think,

"What can I do better for the world?"

I mean, and at the end of the day,

I think, "Did I make my good mark?"

I want to believe in you, John.

I ca... I can't tell you how much that means to me, to...

f... for me to hear you say that, Mrs. Barlow, because truly,

you have been such an inspiration to me.

I want you to do something for me.

A job.

If you like.

I need you to find someone for me.

I don't know where she is.

I don't even know her name.

But this is who she used to be.

I don't do that.

This is the monster that took my daughter, Theresa.

I know you have pain, Mrs. Barlow...

Don't talk about my pain.

Help me.

Help me find this terrible, terrible woman

before she destroys someone else's life.

Do something good, John.

That doesn't sound like a good thing, Mrs. Barlow.

Well, I'm not giving you a choice.

I'm giving you a chance...

the chance that you wanted to prove to me,

y... your inspiration,

that you could live a different life,

you could be someone new.

I want to do that, but not...

I don't want to do that in this way.

I'm sorry. I'm feeling very uneasy right now.

My stomach...

I... I... I'm beginning to have pains already.

You got Tylenol.

Take a vacation. Go sick.

Quit your job, I don't care.

You have four weeks to find this person.

Otherwise, John, I will make sure

that everyone knows exactly who you are.

You are the man that we all dread.

Take it.

Take it.

Good.

Good boy.

Love is a virtuous mind

that creates only peace and happiness,

whereas attachment is never virtuous

and causes only pain and problems.

Swiftly ascending the other shore,

we find the city of tranquility.

Love is a virtuous mind

that creates only peace and happiness.

Jess?

Jess?

Jess, I'm sorry.

I'm sorry.

Jess.

I am your friend, Jess.

Jess!

Jess?

Jess?

Jess!

Jess!

Oh, no, Jess!

I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry.

Oh, no!

Oh, no!

Oh, my God. Oh, my God.

Oh, my God. No, fuck!

Please! No!

Sorry, we're closed.

I just want a little trim.

And then I want to know the best bar in this town

to go get trashed in.

What's your name?

Theresa.

Tell me a story.