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- [Stacey] I just want her to have a normal childhood.

- I don't think it's bad to be gay.

- I didn't say it was bad.

I just don't think I want Birdie to be like that.

Life would be easier for her if she wasn't.

- Well, I sure as hell wouldn't want any son of mine

growing up queer.

- Jim.

- [Jim] Well I wouldn't.

- Birdie can be anything she wants to be.

I just, I'd prefer it if she wasn't a lesbian.

- Okay, wow, am I hungry.

Good thing we're not talking about golf.

Hey, Birdie, come and get your veggie burger.

[somber music]

- Hey.

- Hey.

- You okay?

- Yeah, I'm fine.

- You know what my mom says fine stands for?

Fucked up, insecure, neurotic and emotional,

so, are you fine?

- Pretty much.

Your mom said that?

- Yeah, she'd been drinking at the time.

Hey, that Jim guy's an idiot.

I mean, he doesn't know his head from his ass

and my mom, she wasn't thinking,

it'd be totally different if she knew.

[somber music]

- Kind of like being a spy.

- What is?

- Being gay,

'cause nobody knows until I tell them.

People will be brutally honest because they

think nobody's listening.

- Why didn't you tell me sooner?

- 'Cause I didn't know how you'd take it.

If you'd be cool seeing me with a dude.

- That does sound weird, a dude.

I love you, man, you know, like a brother,

not like, you know?

- Yeah, I know, no sword fights.

- Right.

- I love you too.

- Maybe we can find a more macho way of saying it,

you know, something a little more manly.

- Go Steelers?

- Yeah, go Steelers is good, I like that, I love that,

let's use that from now on,

go Steelers.

Wow, I've never said I love you to a guy before.

- Yeah, me neither.

[somber music]

- Good talk.

- [Birdie] Can I get my ears pierced like Jenna's?

- [Nathan] You know we'll have to talk with mom.

- How come Chase is staying with us this summer?

Why doesn't he spend summers with his own family?

Brian said it's probably because his parents hate him.

- No, that's not true, Pickle.

See Chase, well his Dad died when he was just a little boy

and he doesn't really get along with his mom,

so this summer, we're like his family.

- Can I please get my ears pierced tomorrow?

- We'll talk about it in the morning.

[lips smack]

[Birdie giggles]

Goodnight.

- Goodnight.

- Alright, oh, hey, hey,

let's play for fun, Chase,

you don't gotta get too close.

Oh hey, I forgot to tell you,

my gramma invited us all over for the weekend.

- Oh yeah?

I've had my fill of social gatherings after the barbecue.

I think I'll just stick around here.

- Alright.

It's pretty fun though,

we start drinking at breakfast over there.

So what's the deal, you all of a sudden scared

to get naked in front of a heterosexual or something?

- Whatever, dude, I'm not scared.

- Well, why you being so prissy with the towel, then?

- Why are you watching how I dry myself?

- I'm not, it's just usually you parade around,

jingly your janglers all over the place.

It's hard not to get an eyeful.

- So is it different now, between us?

- No, I'm just saying, usually.

I'm thinking of all the times, is all.

- So it is different.

- Well, kinda.

- Alright, sorry to interrupt your programming,

show's back on schedule.

- I don't want it back on schedule, okay,

I still got reruns playing in my mind.

- No, you want it, you got it pally.

- I don't want it, I want it to stop, okay?

I'm pointing out the difference, I like the difference.

- The parade's back on, rain or shine.

- I don't want the parade.

[somber music]

- What does gay mean?

- Who told you that word?

- Mom, that's not a bad word.

- I never said it was, I asked her where she heard it.

- Brian says he thinks Tyler and Chase are gay.

- Brian?

What does he know, he's like eight.

- I'm eight.

- I know, Birdie,

but gay is not a bad thing, okay?

- So, what is it?

- Well, sometimes a guy will fall in love with a guy

and a girl will fall in love with a girl.

That means they're gay.

[upbeat music]

- I love Jenna, my tennis coach.

Am I gay?

- No.

- You could be.

- But you probably aren't.

- It has to do with love and

other stuff, Birdie.

- Like sex?

- Oh, no.

- It's okay, Mom, I know,

Jeffrey told me all about it.

- I'm sure he did.

- But how do two boys do that?

- Remember our rule to not talk about golf?

Well, I'm changing that.

We can all talk about golf,

especially tonight with your grandmother

and then after the weekend, Birdie,

we're gonna learn how to play.

- Oh yeah, Mom, that's great.

Nothing straighter than two lady golfers.

[knock at door]

- Hey Chase.

- Nathan.

- You wanna grab some dinner later,

I mean, I can't cook like Stacey,

but pretty mean with a barbecue.

- Yeah, barbecue sounds good.

- Alright, you just come by when you're ready.

- Okay, see you in a bit.

[somber music]

- Hello, sweetheart.

- I saw Jeffrey's penis.

- [Gramma] You did?

They're weird looking aren't they, Birdie?

- They look squishy.

- Sometimes they are.

- Mom, please.

- She's gonna find out one day.

Besides, there's nothing wrong with a little education.

- Oh hey, you're right on time.

I hope beer's okay.

- Yeah, perfect.

- So did you hang out with Jarod today?

- What?

- Oh, you guys are friends, right?

I mean, I saw you at the barbecue the other night.

- Oh, yeah, right.

- Chase, Tyler told me.

- Right,

I figured he would.

- Were you scared to tell him?

- Yeah.

I mean, you never know how people are gonna react, right?

- Yeah.

- So,

how 'bout you?

- Things were different twenty years ago.

I should stop talking.

- Steaks look good.

[soft string music]

- You know what, you should probably go.

[somber music]

- Okay, Birdie, let's go.

We're leaving, come on.

- Why do we have to leave early?

Gramma's is always so fun.

- [Stacey] Yeah, it's a riot.

- Hey.

I was just making a sandwich, you want one?

- No.

Chase, I think that I'm--

- I know.

Everything's gonna be okay.

- I don't have anyone to talk to.

- It's alright.

I'm here.

♪ There's nothing to say

♪ It's already said

♪ Some places you go

♪ Some thoughts in your head

♪ And it's you

♪ It's you I see

♪ And there's nothing to lose

♪ If you give it away

♪ It's the time that you try

♪ It's the time that you need

♪ And it's you

♪ It's you I see

♪ So turn around

♪ If you see me

♪ There's nothing left to lose

♪ So turn around

♪ If you know

♪ What you want

♪ You don't ever have to be

♪ On your own

- That's good

it's good.

- It's good.

- It is good.

Man, you're good looking.

- You're not so bad yourself.

- You wanna go for a swim?

- Yeah.

- Are you here?

- Yeah, I'm here,

25 years I've been waiting for you like this, thank you.

- It's alright.

- This is better than alright.

[giggling]

[car door slams]

Shit, someone's here.

- Hey, you're back early.

- I love my mother but one night is enough.

You're shivering, out of hot water?

- Yeah, yeah, I'm just checking the pilot

on the hot water tank.

[water splashes]

- Hey.

- Hey, what's up?

- I'm just swimming.

- Yeah, a night swim.

Uh, I love coming out for a night swim.

Hey, how's the weekend with my dad?

- It was good.

- Kind of boring I'm sure,

a lot of golf talk.

You should have come to my granmma's, dude.

We started drinking, she had mimosas there at nine,

there was wine by 11.

Yeah, look at this place.

It's crazy out here, right?

- Totally.

- I'll race you.

[water splashing]

[birds chirping]

- Chase, good morning.

Can you come here for a minute?

I wanted to talk to you about something.

- Okay.

- When were you gonna tell me?

It must have been terrible to feel like

you had to keep it secret like that.

I'm sorry for what I said at the barbecue, Chase.

I hope you can forgive me.

Have a good day.

- You too.

[somber music]

- Honestly, at this rate,

we're never gonna get to eat breakfast.

- We can't eat until it's finished.

- I don't know Birdie.

Just 'cause I go to college,

doesn't make me smart.

- Oh, you should ask your father,

he'll probably know.

- Ask him what?

- Dad, what's a 10 letter word for bond?

- Hmm, investment?

- Investment doesn't work.

- Okay, I gotta go, I'm gonna be late.

I need to get Chase, he's been working

on that painting 24/7.

I'm gonna take this to go.

- Here, let me make you up a plate.

- So what are you doing today, Daddy?

- Well, I gotta do some paperwork

and then I'm gonna play a round of that game

we're not allowed to mention.

- I still need a 10 letter word for bond.

- Uh, try commitment.

- C-O-M, is that one M or two M's?

- I changed the rule.

- What's this, it's two m's kiddo.

- M-E-N-T, it works Daddy, you got it.

- We can all talk about golf, as much as we want.

- Golf, golf, golf,

balls, balls, balls.

- You know, I've been thinking.

Maybe it would be good for you

to spend some time with Chase.

- He's gay.

- I know, Tyler told me.

- Did you talk to him about it?

- Yeah, a little.

- I just think he needs all our support right now.

- Okay, yeah, I'll talk to him.

- Golf, golf, golf.

- [Stacey and Birdie] Balls, balls, balls.

Golf, golf, golf, balls, balls, balls.

[Stacey giggles]

- Chase!

- Hey.

- Where's Tyler?

- He's working on the back nine.

Do you have a minute to talk?

- I'm kinda talking right now.

- You know what I mean.

[somber music]

Hey, Nathan, stop.

- Um, didn't Daddy ever ask you to come play?

- No,

when one man and one woman are married to each other

sometimes they need some time apart.

That's what golf does for your dad.

Ooh, and his car and his office.

Oh, I have my scrapping and I love to cook.

[suspenseful music]

Hang here for a minute.

Birdie, grab your golf clubs, let's go.

We're leaving.

- Nathan, not here, okay?

- You're probably right,

but I can't stop thinking about you.

- What were those men doing in the bushes?

- Oh, probably looking for a lost ball.

[keys jingling]

How was your day?

- [Nathan] Good, yours?

- Fine.

How's Chase?

- [Nathan] I think he's gonna be okay.

- Hmm,

and how 'bout you?

Are you gonna be okay?

- [Nathan] I don't know what you mean.

- Really?

- What's this about?

You asked me to spend more time with Chase,

why are you so upset?

- Oh, I'm not upset.

- [Nathan] Stacey, you're half drunk.

- I saw you.

- Excuse me?

- At the golf course with Chase.

I saw you kiss him.

What else have you done?

- N-Nothing

- Don't lie to me, Nathan.

- This is--

- Crazy?

Are you about to call me crazy?

I'm a perfectly sane woman

dealing with completely irrational behavior.

In case you've forgotten,

this is our life you're toying with.

Now tell me what happened.

- What you saw with Chase was an accident.

- Oh, an accident.

- It didn't mean anything.

- Cheating on your wife, that is not an accident.

Have you always liked men?

- No,

yes, I don't know, Stacey.

- Are you gay, Nathan?

- I don't know.

- Yes you do.

Are you?

- Yes,

but I loved you.

You know what I mean.

- Actually, I don't.

That is why we're having this heart to heart.

Why did you marry me

and you knew that you'd be living a lie.

- This hasn't been a lie.

What happened with Chase,

it was the first time.

I have never been with a man before.

- Oh, so you chose a boy.

- Stacey.

- Your son's best friend to experiment with.

- Stop.

- No, I won't stop.

I tried in vain to be the perfect wife,

but it didn't matter, did it?

Don't you understand, Nathan?

I don't care that you're gay.

I chose this life with you and with everything

that comes with it.

Why didn't you talk to me?

- Stacey, I just couldn't

and if you knew all along, why didn't you just leave me?

- Because I love you, Nathan

and I thought that eventually you'd tell me

and that I could tell you it was alright,

that I don't care,

that we could keep everything we have

and we could just go on.

- Pretending.

- But you slipped.

- I'm sorry, it just happened.

I didn't plan it.

What are we gonna do?

- I don't know what we're gonna do, Nathan,

but I know I'm gonna start by telling

Chase he's leaving.

- Stacey, don't, please.

Just let me handle it.

- Handle what?

[can tab pops]

Hey mom, what's for dinner?

- Everyone's on their own tonight.

- Okay.

[sad string music]

[dramatic music]

[Stacey sobbing]

- Hey.

- Nathan, look, I've been thinking and I--

- Chase,

Stacey knows.

She saw us this afternoon on the golf course.

- Shit.

- Chase, this isn't your fault.

If I'd have come out 20 years ago,

none of this would be happening.

- If Tyler finds out.

- He won't.

I'll fix this.

- I don't even know what I was thinking.

- It's okay.

- What about you?

Are you gonna be okay?

- As good as I ever was,

maybe even better.

Thank you.

[door squeals]

- Dad?

- Son!

- Tyler!

Tyler, it's not what it looks like.

- Okay, what is it, huh?

- Hey, this isn't his fault.

- So it's your fault?

Who is that, I don't know who that is.

- Tyler, come on.

- Don't fucking touch me.

- Enough!

- What are you doing?

Why did you do this?

- Why is everyone yelling?

[somber music]

- [Tyler] Why wouldn't you just leave, Dad?

- Because your mother was pregnant.

- So it's my fault?

- Nothing is your fault, Tyler.

- So this, all this, this is just,

my family, my parents, it's just a lie?

- It's not a lie, Tyler.

I love you, I love your mother.

I just had other feelings.

- So my best friend's a fag

and also my dad's a fag too?

- I know this is difficult for you, Tyler.

- Why are you sticking up for him?

Why don't you kick him out?

- Birdie.

- I'm hungry.

- Oh, alright, sweetheart.

How about some pie?

I think we should all have a piece of pie.

- Ooh, hey, kiddo.

- Are you okay, Daddy?

- Pie, huh?

- I like pie.

- This is,

Dad this is bullshit.

[somber music]

- I like it.

I'll have Tyler's piece.

[somber music]

[knocks on door]

- I'm sorry, but I still can't believe this.

Anybody call Jerry Springer yet?

- Honestly, man, I don't even know

how it got to that place.

Are you sure it's okay if I stay here?

- Well, you won't be staying with Tyler any time soon.

You're not the only one who made a mistake.

[somber music]

- Hi Mom.

- How did you sleep?

- [Sighs] Not so good.

- It's gonna be fine.

- Yeah, so much for the perfect family, huh?

- Perfect is overrated.

- I just don't know how I'm gonna look

at him again, you know?

- Oh, he's having a hard enough time

looking at himself,

but he's still your dad.

- Did you know?

- You can't blame a person for who they are.

♪ Slow emotion

♪ Don't forget yourself

♪ Don't forget yourself

♪ My friend

♪ I said I'll hold on

♪ And I'm with you till the end

- Hey Chase.

♪ And it's life's

♪ Emotion

♪ Don't forget yourself

♪ Don't forget yourself

♪ Back here

♪ Where they left you

♪ Don't you ever ever feel

♪ And I'm so tired

♪ We're lonesome

♪ But you've got to carry on

♪ When this waiting room

♪ In this lonely place

♪ Have I let you down

♪ Did I lose your faith

♪ Can you hold me close

- Where did Chase go?

- Well, he's gone to stay someplace else.

- Did he and Tyler break up?

- Tyler and Chase were never dating.

- But they loved each other.

I could tell.

- They loved each other like good friends,

and right now they have some issues to work out.

- Because Daddy kissed Chase?

[somber music]

- Yes, Birdie.

Because Daddy kissed Chase.

[somber music]

[water lapping]

- Have you seen him yet?

- Who?

- Come on, man.

It's been over a week.

- I'm pretty sure I'm the last person

he wants to see.

- It's not gonna get better all at once but,

you gotta start somewhere.

- I think this is one of those things

that just doesn't get better.

- I mean, what's the worst that's gonna happen?

- Hey, oh, Tyler's here.

- Chase beat you in by an hour again today.

- I'm not supposed to be here until eight.

- He's been here at seven every morning

working the back nine.

- Where are you gonna be today?

- Anywhere but the back nine.

[somber music]

- Hey.

- Hey.

- So I shot an 81 yesterday.

- Atta boy.

- I finally shot a par on number eight, so.

I know that's the hole you were having trouble with.

- Yeah.

So you talk to Chase yet, son?

- No, there's nothing to say.

- I know what I did was stupid.

Okay, really stupid.

What happened with Chase wasn't his fault.

It doesn't change the fact that I love you very much, Tyler.

[somber music]

[crickets chirping]

- It's killing you, isn't it?

- Obviously.

- Well, I can tell.

You haven't tried to make out with me yet

and we've been here what, 10 minutes?

- Oh, Bre, come on, I can't stop thinking about it.

It's liked ingrained in my mind.

I mean, why would Chase do that to me, right?

What the hell was he thinking?

What was my dad thinking?

- They obviously weren't thinking.

- So that makes it okay.

- Tyler, this isn't about you.

I mean, try to imagine how hard it must have been

for your dad.

Maybe Chase was supposed to be here this summer

and if your dad is gay,

he still deserves to be happy.

- How can my dad be gay?

- Chase and your dad are still the same people.

- Why though?

Why would Chase do that to me?

- I can't answer that, Tyler.

Maybe you should ask him.

- Well, we could still make out,

I just, you know.

[somber music]

- I know you've made sacrifices

and so have I,

but Bertie's only eight years old

and she needs both of us

so we can't make any promises,

all we're gonna have to do is try.

- I'd like that.

Thank you.

- I've been thinking what it would be like

to see you with another person.

- It'd be pretty weird, wouldn't it?

- I guess even though I suspected you might be gay,

when you told me we'd still be together,

I didn't think that meant we'd be with other people.

I guess that wouldn't be fair, would it?

- Not to either one of us.

I mean, you deserve to be with someone else too.

- Oh, I can't even think about that.

- I love you Stacey, you know that, right?

- I know,

but I just can't imagine what our life

is gonna look like.

I mean, are we still gonna live together?

Do we get separate rooms?

Maybe you should go back home

at the end of the summer and I should stay here.

- Yeah, I don't think we have the

answers to those questions yet.

We need to be there for Birdie

and the rest, I think we take it a day at a time.

[birds chirping]

- Looks great.

- [Sighs] It's getting there.

- Nah, it's there,

but I'm feeling for some beach right now,

what do you say?

You ready?

- Yeah, let's do it.

- Alright, meet you out front.

[upbeat music]

[water lapping]

- Hi.

- Hey, how's it going?

[somber music]

- Tyler, I'm sorry.

- If Mom and Dad break up,

I'm scared I'll never see them again either.

- Well, they might not split up.

They might stay together.

They don't know yet, they're still talking it through.

- I think that's what you should do with Chase.

[somber music]

- [Birdie] Everyone, come look.

- [Stacey] So you're going, aren't you?

- I just need to figure this out.

- And you need your space to do it in.

I know.

I guess we're just gonna have to tell the kids.

[somber music]

- Come here, kiddo.

- I don't want you to go, Daddy.

- We will see each other all the time.

I promise.

[somber music]

- Where are you headed?

- Uh, bus stop.

Jarod called me, so.

- Hey,

I love you, son.

- I love you too, Dad.

See you Dad.

Jarod called me.

- I thought he might.

- Well, my dad left.

- I'm sorry, man.

- Yeah, me too,

but I know now it's not your fault.

- Thank you.

- [Sighs] Okay, enough with that sentimental crap, right?

I'm terrible at it.

- You don't do too bad.

- Really?

- Well, yeah, for a straight guy.

- Hey, well that's good to know.

Well, um, take care of yourself, man.

- You too.

- Hey, go Steelers, right?

♪ So turn around

♪ If you see me

♪ There's nothing left to lose

♪ So turn around

♪ If you know

♪ What you want

♪ You don't ever have to be

♪ On your own

♪ So turn around

♪ If you see me

♪ There's nothing left to lose

♪ So turn around

♪ If you know

♪ What you want

♪ You don't ever have to be

♪ On your own

♪ And you're falling over backwards

♪ And you're falling

♪ Where you won't make a sound

♪ And you're crying on some shoulders

♪ And you're crying

♪ 'Cause you can't hit the ground

♪ So turn around

♪ So turn around

♪ When you see me

♪ So turn around

♪ So turn around

♪ If you see

♪ Open your eyes

♪ Open your mind

♪ You know the truth is hard to find

♪ Say that you see

♪ Say that you're free

♪ Well, now that you know

♪ It's to be told