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Thank you for coming.

Uh, over the years,
you all know that, that, uh,

I've been reluctant
to speak with the press

and have assiduously avoided
publicity. �But because of

all the rumors and innuendos, I feel
that I have to make a statement.

First, I'm greatly saddened

that sources close to Mia Farrow

have released to the public
allegations instigated by her

of child abuse on my part.

Dylan Farrow:
There's so much misinformation.

There's so much obfuscation
and so many lies.

I've been subjected
to every kind of doubt

and every kind of scrutiny and
every kind of humiliation over this.

In the last 20 years, he
was able to just run amok,

while I was growing up.

And I was coping with this...

through sleepless nights and
panic attacks because of one man.

For the longest time, I've been
trying to set the record straight.

Because no matter what you think you
know, it's just the tip of the iceberg.

Reporter 1: This is a story of two
of the biggest stars in the world.

Reporter 2: The father is Woody
Allen, writer, director, actor.

The mother is Mia Farrow,
his frequent costar

and the mother of his three
children, two of them adopted.

Reporter 3: Woody and Mia have
been together for 12 years,

but never married
and kept separate residences.

Reporter 4: She reportedly has a
video of their adopted daughter Dylan

explaining how
Allen molested her.

Allen denies child abuse, but
freely admits he's in love

with another of Farrow's
daughters, 21-year-old Soon-Yi.

Reporter 5: Allen said
the newest allegations

are the bizarre concoctions
of a woman scorned.

Woman:
Miss Farrow's only concern

has been, exclusively,
protection of her children.

These are the ones
that my mom made me.

And I know there's stuff full of
a bunch of other, other stuff.

There's us going to the set.

"You came to work with me each
day. �I am making 'Radio Days.'"

You know, some pictures are...

pulled out.

You know, we do
what we have to do.

Yeah, you can see the pictures
have been strategically cropped.

I think in a lot of ways, I've come
to understand my feelings better

as an adult than
I did as a child.

At the root of it, what I was
really feeling was that...

I had let down the little girl that I was
before when I couldn't speak about it.

I wish that I had been stronger.
�That I hadn't crumpled so much

under the, under the pressure.

And... I need to, in a way,

prove to myself that I-
that I can face it.

Which is probably why �I feel so
strongly about coming forward now.

Mia Farrow: So, Dylan, what do
you wanna be when you grow up?

Well, I wanna be...

Mia: Okay. �And what do
you hope to do this summer?

How would you like your summer to go?
-I wanna go swimming.

Great. Is that your favorite thing to do?
-Yeah.

Mia: Great. Anything
else you'd like to say?

I love you. -I love you, too.

Dylan:
It was an amazing childhood.

I grew up in a place
filled with books and toys

and everything
I could possibly want.

Woman: Oh!
-Mia: Blow them all out, sweetie.

Hooray! �Dylan: As a little kid,
I couldn't really understand

in what ways we were
actually different.

Because there were some things
that I thought, "Oh!

Well, this must be how it is in every
family." �And then there are some things

that I thought,
you know, like, "Oh!

Well, this is definitely
unique to my family."

You know, and part of that
was having so many siblings.

I loved having a big family. �There
was madness, but there was a method.

You know, for the most part,
we got along.

Occasionally, my mom would kinda like
swoop in with some damage control.

Mia: Oh dear. Okay. Did it fall off?
�Dylan: She was everywhere at once.

Mia: Alright, let's go. come on. �Dylan:
She could be picking up LEGOs one second,

and then the next,
she'd be on a movie set.

Assistant Cameraman: 22 Frank, take one.
�Dylan: We really were a Hollywood family.

I was always like
stumbling around on set.

To me, that was the equivalent of
like going to your parents' office.

I remember going on incredible
trips in private planes,

and traveling the world
with my family.

I have very fond memories of
us all swimming in the pool

at the most posh hotel.
-Woody: Can you swim?

Dylan: It was idyllic most of the
time. �And he was a big part of that.

Mia:
Here comes Johnny Weissmuller.

Tell Mommy what you said. �Tell Mommy
what you said. -Mia: What did she say?

What did you say, Dylan?
-Your, your...

His legs are funny.
-No, "That some daddies..."

My daddy! I'm with my daddy!

Dylan: It's really hard to sort of
examine the good times and the bad times

completely independently.

This is somebody that...

I loved... more than anybody else.

And it's taken me a long
time to sort of reconcile

that you can love somebody
and be afraid of them.

I made this, uh, this doll's house
when I was waiting for Dylan.

I actually made it. �Every,
every shingle and the floors.

I went to different places
that had doll furniture,

and I decorated
all the interior.

I mean, I really
went all-out here.

It's a home within a home.

I've lived here in this
house for 40 years.

So much has happened here
that's hard to talk about.

But still a place of
happiness and love.

I haven't spoken publicly
about him for decades.

But that's the great regret of my
life. �That I wasn't perceptive enough.

It's my fault. �I brought
this guy into our family.

You know, there's
nothing I can do

to take that away.

I get why people
can't believe it

because who on Earth could believe
that of Woody Allen, you know?

I couldn't believe it.

Everybody admired Woody so much, you
know. �Loved him, and I did, too.

My next guest is a writer, a director,
a very skillful amateur musician,

a philosopher, a comedian. �Will you
welcome, please, Mr. Woody Allen?

Woody Allen is one of the most prominent
�American film directors and writers.

He's made a film every year
for about four decades.

PJ Grisar: Woody Allen's
success was pretty meteoric.

A lot of his films
were instant classics.

And then he's something of a
legend onto himself, you know.

They say you're not a New Yorker
until you encounter Woody Allen.

Maureen Orth: Woody was such a dominant
cultural figure, particularly in New York.

I mean, he was
so highly regarded.

He didn't even have to maybe submit
his film scripts for approval.

You know, "This was Woody."

Miriam Bale: I was a fan of Woody
Allen well before I was a film critic.

One of the first films I remember seeing
and loving when I was a kid was "Sleeper."

And I thought it
was just so funny.

He's created this adorable persona that's,
you know, the sort of small, weak man.

He makes neuroses hilarious.

He's sort of anything other than
the classic Hollywood leading man.

He's not this kind of buff guy on
a horse. �He reads a lot of books

and he freaks out about things a lot, and
that's who he is. �How much is this stuff?

That's about $2.000 an ounce. �Really?
And what is the kick of it? I never...

Achoo! �Alissa Wilkinson: The
Woody Allen film I love the most

is probably "Annie Hall",
and the reason is that

I thought Annie was
a great character.

A great female character,
which is still something

that's kind of hard
to see in the movies.

And when I watched it, I saw
something aspirational there.

Something that I wanted to be. �You-you
play very well. �Oh, yeah? So do you.

Oh God, what a - what a dumb thing to say,
right? �I mean, you say you play well,

and then right away I have to say you
play well. �Oh, oh God, Annie. Well...

Oh well. �Lah-dee-dah.
Lah-dee-dah. La, la. Yeah.

Claire Dederer: I grew up feeling
really close to Woody Allen.

He was always, to me, my whole
life, extremely appealing.

I felt-
I felt that he represented me,

which is a very weird way
for a little girl to feel

about a, you know,
middle-aged filmmaker.

He has a way of inhabiting something
very human that's extremely relatable.

I got the classic
symptoms of a brain tumor!

Two months ago, you thought
you had a malignant melanoma.

Lili Loofbourow: There's a lot of
kind of mortifying self-disclosures

that make you feel warmly
towards him and root for him.

It's a great cultivator
of sympathy, right?

Like showing your underbelly
to the audience, apparently,

is a great way to earn
their allegiance forever.

This morning, I was so happy, you know?
�Now, I don't know what went wrong.

Woman: You were miserable this morning!
�We got bad reviews, terrible ratings,

the sponsors are furious.

No, I was happy, but I just didn't realize
I was happy. �He makes you think about

that part of yourself that's
unsure and neurotic and, um,

you don't hate it quite so much because
it's being framed so appealingly by him.

But shouldn't
I stop making movies

and do something that counts
like helping blind people

or becoming a missionary
or something?

Claire: So he does, you know,
what great personal art can do.

He shows something that's uncomfortable
in himself, and then you feel less alone.

Mia: In 1979, I was
living in New York City.

I was in a Broadway play for
about a year with Anthony Perkins.

One night, Michael Caine, an old
friend, came to see the play,

and he said
afterwards, he said,

"Come on. Let us take you
out to Elaine's restaurant."

And I'm like,
"Oh, no, thank you."

Because I liked to get home
before the audience even left,

so I could get up early and take
my kids to school and stuff.

But he said, "Oh, we're- �I'm meeting Mick
Jagger there, and it's gonna be so fun."

And I thought, you know?
Maybe it would be fun.

We passed Woody Allen's table, and
he introduced me to Woody Allen,

who said a nice thing or two.

And I was pretty excited that
he even knew who I was, you know?

Woody: In passing at Elaine's, she came
in with Michael Caine, passed my table.

We said hello. �She got seated elsewhere,
and I lunged back into my tortellini.

Mia: And then I got an invitation for
Woody Allen's New Year's Eve party.

He invited everyone on Broadway, all
the people from the sports world.

Thousands of amazing people would go
to Woody Allen's New Year's Eve party.

Woody: And in among the giddy
multitude was Mia with some friends.

Sondheim, I believe, and Mia's
pretty sister, Stephanie.

Again, Mia and I exchanged
pleasant hellos,

and then made
a casual suggestion

that would eventually change
the lives of many people.

I said, "If you're free
one day, let's have lunch."

Mia: At that point in my life,
it was all work and all the kids.

The children and I had
moved in with my mom

because my husband, Andre, and I split
up. �I had three sons with Andre,

twins Matthew and Sascha,
and my baby son Fletcher.

And we had adopted
Lark and Daisy,

and then we adopted
an older child, Soon-Yi.

When Andre left the family, she'd
only been with us for like a year.

And then after the divorce,
I adopted Moses on my own.

Even though I had a wonderful family, I
assumed that nobody would ever wanna date

anyone with seven children, you know? �And
so, I had just put that out of my mind.

And then one day, I got a phone
call from Woody Allen's secretary,

inviting me to have
lunch with him.

So, I went and, um, we talked.

We talked about music.
We talked about books.

And I was completely intrigued.

Woody: She turned out
to be bright, beautiful.

She could act, could draw, had an ear for
music. �Found myself beginning an affair

with a beautiful movie star who
could not have been nicer, sweeter,

more attentive to my needs.

Mia: He showed me his New York.
�Took me to the top of buildings

where there'd be
a fantastic view.

He took me to little nooks and crannies of
New York City that I'd never seen before.

It was exciting, and I
slowly fell in love with him.

Woody: She was not demanding, better
informed than me, more cultivated,

appropriately libidinous,
charming to my friends,

and, best of all, living
directly across Central Park.

Mia: We discovered that
we could, and we did...

We'd turn our lights
on and off at each other,

just as- it was a way to say
I love you. �And I would,

sometimes I'd hang
a towel, a big red towel,

out of the window, like, "Love you huge."
�Everything about that time was romantic.

But I had seven children, and he
didn't want to meet them at all.

And he said, "Look, I have
zero interest in kids."

So I thought about that,
and I thought, well...

You know, still, in my free time as an
adult, it's wonderful to have a boyfriend.

And then I'll still
be able to be with my kids.

And I thought
I could make this work.

Interviewer: I have a
picture in my mind of...

of Woody Allen and Mia Farrow surrounded,
these days, by pets and children,

and homes, domestic life. Which is a very
long way away from the Woody Allen of old.

Has there been a dramatic change?
-Well, no,

because Mia and I live-
We don't live together.

She is surrounded by kids and pets,
and I live by myself across the Park,

and we see each other
quite frequently.

But, but, no, I'm still-
I'm still as I was.

I mean, I do play
with the kids all the time,

but, but then I never
have to be there

when the diapers are changed or
anything, you know, really awful happens.

Mia: I wanted the children to
be able to get out of the city.

I felt it was important
for all of us, really.

And after a long, dispiriting
hunt, I found this house.

What are you gonna have?
-Ice cream sandwiches.

Can I have an ice cream? -Well, you
can't have that until you had lunch.

What are you gonna have for lunch?
�Toast. -No, you have to have a sandwich.

Ma, can I have an ice cream?
�You had lunch? Okay. -Yeah.

Ma, I-I had lunch. �Can I have some
ice cream? -What kind do you want?

Um... �Um... -Daisy: Cat!
�Moses: The cat! -Mia: Oh, no.

Mia: Oh no...

Hi there! -Mia: Hi! �This house
was a wonderful thing for us,

and Woody did come to
visit us in the summer.

He started spending
more time with the kids,

and he gradually
warmed to them and,

and he was sweet to them.
You know, nice to them.

He was the person I loved, and
as such, they loved him, too.

Fletcher Previn: He very
much was a father figure.

I mean, I had my,
my actual father but, um,

he was not around day-to-day, and Woody
very much... functioned in that capacity.

He would have meals with us. �We'd fish
in the pond together up in Connecticut.

Daisy Previn: I would get up in
the morning, and he would be there,

you know, waiting for
the kids to wake up.

We would go to his house on
the weekends, spend the night

when my mom would spend the weekend
with him. �In the back of his apartment,

he made like bunk beds
and stuff for us,

like a little living area
for us to live in

so we'd feel comfortable going
there while my mom was there.

Woody: Her children were well-mannered
and polite. �I got along with all of them,

although I did find
Soon-Yi a tad sullen.

I took a particular
liking to Moses,

a small Korean kid with
black-rimmed glasses.

Mia: Yeah. Sure. �We'll
check with him. -Okay.

Moses absolutely fell in love with
Woody and wanted a dad so badly.

You gotta do it
big and loud. Ready?

Mia: Ready. -Woody: Let's start
with Jimmy Cagney. �You dirty rat.

Woody: Higher voice.

You dirty rat.

Woody: Okay, you got it?
-Mia: Mm-hmm.

Woody: It was about that time that she
told me rather than adopt another child,

she'd really like to be pregnant again.
�I looked over my shoulder to see

who she was talking to,
but she meant me!

Mia: I said, would you ever want,
you know, to have a child together?

He said, "Yeah, I would
not object to that."

He said, "But you have to understand,
"I have zero interest in a kid,

"so you would be entirely responsible,
financially and in every way."

And I said absolutely. �Woody:
Mia assured me I could participate

in rearing a new child
to any extent I cared to.

If I wanted to be a hands-on father,
great. �If not, she'd raise it,

and I would be the same
free soul I'd always been.

Mia: After some years of trying to
have a baby and not conceiving a child,

I asked how he would feel
about adopting a child,

and he said if I wanted to do that,
that it wouldn't ruin the relationship,

but he wanted nothing to do with it.
�And I thought, well, that's fair.

He knew the kind of children
that I adopted were all

from different countries
with different needs.

He said, "Well, I might be more kindly
disposed if it was a little blond girl."

I thought if he cares
about that, I should try to

find, find, find a little girl
like that, and then...

maybe he'll love her.

I eventually ended up with a little
blond girl, and that was baby Dylan.

* Wrapped up in
some silver... *

Woody: I was totally indifferent
to the whole enterprise,

caught up in movie-making. �Still, I
figured if it made Mia happy, fine.

But that's not quite
how it worked out.

I quickly found this
tiny baby girl adorable.

I found myself more
and more holding her,

playing with her, and completely
falling in love with her,

delighted to be her father. �Mia: Dada.

Dada.

He began to be enchanted by her.
�And I was absolutely thrilled.

It was more than relief.
I was over-the-moon happy.

You getting more messy? �Casey Pascal:
Mia was a real role model for mothering.

She loved playing with them and
getting down on the floor with them,

and doing the LEGO and the
blocks and all that kind of stuff.

Mia and I, we were at school
together. �High school. We were young.

When she bought
a country house,

it was in Bridgewater and I
already lived in Washington,

which is like 10, 15 minutes apart,
and we also had children the same ages.

My son John is
the same age as Dylan.

In the summertime,
she had this big beautiful lake

behind the house, and the children
all swam and played together.

And she had this big new video camera, and
she was always videotaping the children.

We had gone away and lived in Japan
for a short time, and when I came back,

my John and Dylan were
about 2, 2 and a half,

and that's when I saw this incredible
intensity that Woody had for...

Dylan. �Fletcher: One
time, she left a teddy bear

somewhere on one of these
European trips, and he paid for

a first-class ticket to
have the teddy bear flown

from one hotel to the next country
so that she would have it that night.

Woody: Once Dylan had her heart
set on the ruby red slippers

Dorothy wore in
"The Wizard of Oz."

I stayed up until midnight
having the costume department

of my movie make her a pair so
I could leave them on her bed,

and she could discover them
when she woke up in the morning.

Casey: I remember one
day in particular that

we had taken the children
for a walk in Central Park,

and the kids were up
on this play structure.

And all of a sudden, the limo
pulled up, and Woody jumps out,

and he runs up to the play
structure, follows Dylan, up and down

and through the tunnels
and down the slide.

And I remember thinking, I've never seen
anybody act like this with a child before,

and I-I-I really hope it's a
good thing what's happening.

Woody: I adored Dylan and spent
as much time with her as possible

from her infancy on. �I played
with her, bought her endless toys,

dolls, stuffed animals,
My Little Ponys.

In those days, FAO Schwarz
was a kid's paradise,

and they used to let me
in early before it opened.

And then one day, Mia
announced she was pregnant.

Interviewer: You're soon to become
a father, for which congratulations.

Oh, thank you.
-Do you hope that

he or she's gonna be a chip
off the old Woody, as it were?

I hope it's a she,
that's the first thing.

I mean, that would be
very important to me.

Mia: Woody kept saying to
me, "I hope it's a girl."

And then when we found out it
wasn't a girl, he was disappointed.

Satchel was born on the 19th of
December. �It'd been a difficult birth.

It was a Cesarean,
but I lost so much blood.

I think he'd never been around a
newborn or a woman who had given birth.

He thought I just wanted to be next
to the baby and not next to Dylan,

but I wanted to be
next to both of them.

Um, so he would take Dylan away
and I would be crying,

saying, "Don't take Dylan away.
�Please don't take her away."

Woody: Mia was delirious with
Satchel. �She monopolized his time,

and short of me forcing the
issue, he was rarely available.

Mia had little parenting time
left to spend on Moses and Dylan

or any of the other kids.

Dylan: I remember him taking me out
of the room, away from her a lot.

Even when I wanted to
stay. �And sort of very...

slowly instilling the
idea in my head that

she was more Satchel's parent.
�He was more my parent. Like...

I was Daddy's girl, you know?

I was told...
that she didn't want me around

or that she didn't have time
for me or that she was too busy.

Mia: Here, I'm gonna turn around
so I get the light this way.

Dylan has, uh, done some artwork all
over her arms and face. Let me see, kids.

Oh, you look so great. �I just
think you just look like Alice.

Can I see the white
rabbit? �Oh, Mr. Rabbit!

And there he is,
the white rabbit.

Ronan Farrow: Dylan and I were really
close. �We hung out nonstop all the time

because we were really close in age.
�We would tell each other everything

through our whole childhoods.

Dylan: We were pretty inseparable.

Sometimes, he would literally
follow me around.

Be like, "Dylan, Dylan,
can I play with you?"

And most of the time,
I'd be like, "No! Go away!"

Dylan: He's a very... stubborn,
persistent... type of, type of guy.

So, I would always
wind up playing with him.

I'm going to go out to the
market and have a picnic today.

Mia: Wow. That'll be great. �Me, too.
I wanna go with her on her picnic.

Mia: Great. �So I said, "Oh, what
are you serving at this tea party?"

And he said,
"I'm serving acorns."

Priscilla Gilman: I first met
Mia and Dylan and Ronan in 1987,

when I started dating Matthew,
one of Mia's oldest sons.

And I started going over there
every afternoon

and spending evenings with them,
even without Matthew.

So, I became extremely
close to those little kids.

Dylan: Priscilla definitely, you know,
formed a very close bond with the family.

She was just there all the time.
�She was practically another sister.

When I would go over there,
I would feel, oh,

like I'm immersed in this bustling,
warm, diverse, loving family.

And there was lots of
laughter, and funny stories.

And Woody was there every
morning before the kids woke up.

He was there every night
until they went to sleep.

I thought he was a great father.
�Mia: Here we are in a carriage ride.

Children, say hi! �Dylan: Hi!
-Ronan: Hi! �Isn't it beautiful?

Mia: This is the greatest.

Ronan: Nine times out of 10,
he'd be there when we woke up,

and we were spending our days together,
and the family was fully integrated.

The memories I do have were not
like distant, lost father memories.

He was my dad, he was raising us. �You
know, we'd bond over loving genre movies.

He'd play me all of these, you know,
horror movies and science fiction movies,

and things that I still
love to this day.

Woody: Look at that.
-Mia: Oh! Yes.

Let's see what else. Let's see if there's
good pictures in here. �Look. Let's see...

Dylan: I remember every morning, he
would read the comic section with me.

Goody, goody, Daddy, Daddy! �And
on the days that he wasn't there,

he would actually leave me
little notes and comics,

for me to find at the,
at the breakfast table.

He took me to my first Broadway
musical, "Guys and Dolls."

And he explained the entire
thing to me, so I understood it.

I mean, I worshiped him.

He was so funny, and...

he made me feel so special. �That's where
things get really, really complicated...

because... threaded throughout
all of those good times,

there was a lot more going on.

Woody: Dilly-Dilly? Should
we get some presents?

Dylan: Every time he
showed up at the apartment,

like a magnet, he would just come straight
to me. �Intense affection all the time.

Mia: In time, what it became was
there was nobody but the two of them.

And he began just an incredible
amount of focus on her.

He didn't wanna see the other
kids. �He wanted to see her.

It was just so one-track.

Casey: If he was there
and we were there,

Dylan did not play
with the other children.

He would take her to tell her a
story or take her for a walk or...

So we would most of the time
leave because there was no point.

Dylan: Whoa. Daddy! There
was something in this car...

Priscilla: He followed
Dylan wherever she went.

We'd be playing,
Dylan, me, and Ronan,

and I would look up and I would just
see him standing there, watching.

Silently. �And once Dylan
noticed it, she would say,

"Go away, Daddy! Go away! This
is Priscilla time! �Go away!"

Dylan: I remember going
to a friend's house once,

and playing with dolls
with her in her room.

And I remember kind of looking around and
thinking, like, "Her dad isn't in here.

"Why isn't her dad... in the room
with her, like, you know, hovering?"

Woody: Wow. -A bunny! �Dylan: And then
I just kind of went back to playing,

but that was my entire
frame of reference.

I was always in his clutches.

He was always hunting me.

Ronan: She and I would be playing
together, and his voice would sound,

and he'd be calling her away.

And she would kind of stiffen up and
she would try to scramble away from him.

And she was frightened of this stuff. �She
would talk to me at the time about being,

"Oh, I don't wanna
be with Daddy.

Can we keep playing? Can we
do anything other than this?"

He would come. She would
run away from the door,

and say,
"Hide me! Hide me! Hide me!"

And at first, I thought
it was like a game.

But then, I realized
that she actually sensed

this kind of smothering energy from him.
�Casey: I only started questioning things

because Dylan's reaction to it
made me think that it wasn't good

because you could see her
withdrawing from it.

Mia: Hi. �Is this the secret
place? �Is this the clubhouse?

She started running away from him. �She
started locking herself in bathrooms.

And he would say she was retreating
from reality or something,

but she wasn't like that
when he wasn't there.

She was fully conversant, and
then the minute he would walk in,

she'd become an animal. �Sometimes a
dead animal, sometimes a wounded animal,

like, lying on the floor.
�Anything that didn't talk.

Ronan: Over time, Dylan
went from being outgoing

and effervescent and talkative,

to her having this sadness
and this withdrawn quality.

And I didn't know as a kid
how to contextualize that.

But now, in retrospect, I understand
that that was a pattern of something

very serious and alarming.

Dylan:
I have very vivid snapshots.

Just different places in the apartment
or the country house, different rooms.

Mostly just a window
with a feeling attached.

I remember sitting on the edge of
his bed, the light in the room.

The satin sheets.

There were clarinet reeds.

I have memories of
getting into bed with him.

He was in his underwear, and
I'm in my underwear, cuddling.

I remember his breath on me.

He would just wrap his body
around me, very intimately.

Priscilla: The first time that I
saw it, I was coming into the room,

and he was getting out of the bed. �And so
I saw that he was only wearing underwear.

And I just kind of turned
around and walked the other way

because I didn't want him
to know that I had seen.

Mia: I would suddenly walk
in, and there she would be

in his bed with him
in his underwear.

And sometimes, he would also kneel
in front of her, or sit next to her

and put his face in her,
in, in, in her lap.

Which I caught a couple of times,
and I didn't think that was right.

Dylan: At the time, I thought this was how
fathers interacted with their daughters.

I mean, I was a kid, so I...

I internalized it in a sense that I...

I felt that if, if I felt weird about
it, that was on me. �That was my fault

and that was because
I was doing something wrong.

Tisa Farrow: When I went to the
country house, it was a summer day.

We were all outside, and the kids were
running around naked by the beach.

Mia handed Woody a thing
of sunscreen to put on,

and he was rubbing Dylan's back
and his- �My mom was there, too.

His hand went down between her
buttocks and kinda lingered there,

and suggestively... �I have to say
suggestively because that's what it was...

went between her buttock cheeks
with his finger, and then came back.

And Mia saw it, too,
and snatched the sunscreen away.

Mia: I started being
-I felt more like a policeman,

you know, coming into him, like,
am I gonna see something that, um,

I- that shouldn't
be happening.

One time, we were all sitting on the
floor, and he slapped her hand away.

And I said, "Why did you do that?" �And
he said, "She grabbed at my penis."

So... �I was comforting her, and
at the same time, I was thinking,

"Why would a little
girl do that?" �What...

I tried to push it
out of my mind, but...

what, what kind of thing was
going on of... that involved...

private parts, at all?

Maybe there were things that I
didn't know that might be happening.

I remember...

sitting on the steps with
him in the country house.

There was nobody
else around, and...

He was... directing me
on how to suck his thumb.

Telling me what
to do with my tongue.

And...

I think that lasted a while.

Um, it felt like a long time.

Priscilla: I saw her sucking his
thumb, which was really, really weird.

And he said, "Yes, this helps her. "This
calms her down. �Soothes her to do this."

Mia: I finally said, "You
know, I'm not comfortable

with the way that you're
handling her and looking at her."

And he just got so angry with me.
�Oh my gosh. �It was as if I had

accused him of being an axe murderer.
�Like, "What is wrong with you?

You know, how could
you think that?"

Finally, I was crying
and I was apologizing.

I said, "I'm so sorry.
I'm just so sorry."

And sometimes he would say, you know,
"I honestly think you need help."

And I began thinking,
well, I must be crazy.

He can't be a pedophile. Of course,
what am I saying? �Oh my god!

He's my boyfriend and I, and I love him
and I know him and I must believe him.

I wanted to believe
that he was not capable

of what I feared,
you know, what I was seeing.

I wanted to believe
that it was in innocence,

and that it was just being
affectionate. �And I just wanted...

I wanted that to be true.

He's the man I love.

He's Woody.

You know, he would never hurt
the children or hurt our family.

One day in our apartment building,
there was a very famous psychiatrist.

Her name was Ethel Person, I mean,
much-printed, very respected therapist.

And she called me, and she said,
"Mia, I saw something of Woody,

the way he greeted your daughter, Dylan."
�And I'm like, "Yeah?" And she said,

"There was something off." And I'm like...
�Then the floodgates opened for me.

The fact that she saw this, I
thought that he would listen,

you know, and that it would
really mean something to him.

So I asked, and he agreed to
see a person she recommended.

The therapist told me that the
behavior was inappropriate,

but that it wasn't sexual. �It could
be perceived as sexual by others,

by me, and even by the
child. �But it wasn't sexual.

It was just that he had
never been around children,

and that it was his way
of expressing affection,

and that he must learn
how to behave with a child.

And when he would do things,
the therapist told me to say,

"Could you not do that?"
And he then would just say,

"I, you know,
was showing affection.

Never for a second
was any of it sexual."

And he relieved my anxiety by
saying, "You know, you're right.

"When you see something like
that, it's good if you tell me,

and I won't get mad at you anymore."
�And I felt it was under control.

So, I thought things,
things would get better.

And for a time,
it seemed that way.

Woody: I decided in a moment of clarity

that not being the legal father of
Dylan and Moses was just not acceptable.

For years, I had assumed
full responsibility

for both of them
as their father.

Interestingly, for someone who
always wanted me to father her child,

Mia was suddenly
very cool to the idea

of me adopting Dylan and
Moses when I broached it.

Mia: I had felt a little strange
about it. �He had mentioned it before,

but I said I just didn't think
that would be a great idea.

That just was too big a step,
but once he was in therapy

and said he wouldn't
get mad at me anymore

and, um, that,
that I felt, um, that...

maybe it'd be great if she had a dad,
you know. �Maybe it'd be a great thing.

As long as everything
else was okay.

I actually said to the judge, "I'm
not giving up anything, am I?"

And the judge said, "No,
you're gaining something."

And then Woody said he
wanted to adopt Moses.

He was the only other child in the
family that didn't have a father.

So, I asked Moses if he would
like to be adopted by Woody,

and Moses was over the moon.

The reason I let him adopt them was 'cause
I thought that he was my life's partner,

and I believed in our future.
�And that we were gonna go on,

you know,
and have a wonderful life.

One day, I was at his apartment
because I wasn't working that day,

so I took one of the kids over
that we left a coat over there.

And there by the side of the
phone, to the right of the phone,

was a stack of Polaroid pictures,
of pornographic pictures of...

a woman, a girl.

And I picked them up, and I realized
all of them were of Soon-Yi.

It was my own child. �She was
in her first year of college.

And they were all just like... �I mean,
they wouldn't put them in "Playboy."

They were like... �I don't know,
"Hustler" pictures or something.

You know, really, really, really
raunchy pictures, and I...

I, you know...

I- I-I just remember- �I remember
struggling to breathe. �I remember, um...

um, get-getting my son...

um, trying to put his coat on,
trying to do the buttons.

I took the photos, and I put them
in my pocket and I- I was leaving.

And then I just realized that I don't even
think �I could push the elevator button.

I was just, like, shaking.

And I took my child home
and I locked the door.

Soon-Yi was home, and I remember
saying, "I found the pictures."

And she said, "What pictures?" �And
I said, "The pictures Woody took."

And she started crying
and I started crying.

And I'm like, "No, no, it's not your
fault." �And she was just beside herself.

Casey: Mia asked me to
go in and talk to Soon-Yi.

And I did do that
because Mia said,

"I'm so upset right now, I
don't think I should talk to her.

Will you go in and talk to her?"

Mia was very
forgiving of Soon-Yi.

She said that, "He's an older
man, very much experienced,

"and you would have no idea
how to resist his overtures."

Mia: And the next thing I knew, Woody had
entered my apartment 'cause he had a key.

And I was saying, "Get out,
get out. You gotta get out."

And then Woody was there
for like four hours,

just talking and talking and
talking. �And first he said,

"I'm-I'm-I'm in love with
Soon-Yi. I would marry her."

And then he said, "No, I just said that.
"It was something I thought of in the car.

"I thought it would make it better
if I said - put it that way.

No, I, I love you." �And it
was all of that for four hours.

"I just made a mistake. I lost
control. Blah, blah, blah."

I didn't know what to think.
�I just needed him to get out.

Dylan: I came home one
day, and my mom was...

crying. �And she was standing in
the doorway of Soon-Yi's bedroom.

And Soon-Yi was on the floor.

And, um, she was crying.

I'm not sure if I really understood
anything that was going on.

It was like, you know, somebody
had shut the lights off.

Everything was suddenly very
dark and confusing for a kid.

Mia: It was Dylan's therapist who told me
I had to tell her, and, and also Ronan.

And she gave me the words,
and I memorized them.

And I would rather have cut off my
arm than have to tell them that.

Dylan: I remember my
mom told me and Ronan,

"Daddy took naked
pictures of Soon-Yi."

And...

that was sort of the first
instance that I thought,

"Oh. It's not just me."

I loved Woody Allen. Mia loved Woody
Allen. �There was so much to love.

And Woody gave her everything
she could possibly want.

When I met Woody, suddenly,
there was somebody who said,

"I'll take you out. I'll show you all
of New York." �I would've told you

that I'm just
the luckiest person on earth.

You had sex with one of my teenage
children. �He can't deny it.

Mia was terribly upset.
�Casey called and she said

her babysitter had seen
something that upset her.

They looked everywhere for like 20
minutes. �Woody and Dylan disappeared.

We went into the attic.

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