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♫ My dear, sometimes, ♫

♫ I feel so tired. ♫

♫ When I'm lonely, ♫

♫ I'll cry as well. ♫

♫ Ooh. Ooh. ♫

♫ Trying hard to grow up. ♫

♫ Ooh. Ooh. ♫

♫ Keeping up with hesitation. ♫

♫ Bravely ♫

♫ The so-called darkness ♫

♫ is just your supposition. ♫

♫ The detour in life ♫

♫ makes us fearless. ♫

♫ Ooh. Ooh. ♫

♫ Go flying. ♫

♫ Where are you now? ♫

♫ Let's go. ♫

Go Ahead

Episode 02

You can eat only vegetables today.

Here you are.

Li Jianjian.

Tell me the truth,

have you bitten others?

You only know laughing.

Ling Xiao. What's this?

Why didn't you wake me up to cook for you?

Let me prepare a dish for you.

Mom, it's okay.

I like eating instant noodles.

Hello.

Welcome.

We're just here to call on you,

and we also brought some fruits.

It's very nice of you.

Actually no need to take fruits.

Come in, please.

No need to change your shoes.

I haven't done the housework yet.

OK.

Come in.

Chen Ting.

Yes?

Are you feeling unwell?

Not really, I was just taking a snap.

I didn't expect you to be here,

so I hadn't prepared anything.

I'm just stopping by with Aunt Qian.

We won't be here for long.

Have a seat.

Why does Ling Xiao have lunch so late?

He didn't eat much during lunch,

so he's hungry now.

Besides, he likes eating instant noodles.

Say hello.

Hello, Granny Fang, Granny Qian.

So sweet. Hello.

How about drinking some tea?

OK. We're good with any drink.

Ling Xiao is so obedient.

Don't let him make tea,

in case he got scalded.

It's OK. He's capable of anything.

Chen Ting.

It's about a month since you moved here.

Why do you always stay at your home alone?

I think it's too hot outside,

so I don't like going out.

You're too introvert.

So does Ling Xiao.

I often see him playing alone.

We often meet up at Haichao Noodle Restaurant,

playing mahjong and chatting.

It's really nice.

Right.

I don't know how to play mahjong.

It doesn't matter.

You can learn it. It's not hard.

Actually playing mahjong is a kind of communication.

Since you spend all your time in the house alone,

and you can see only Heping,

no wonder you would quarrel.

Thank you so much.

Ling Xiao is so obedient.

Good boy.

Ling Xiao, continue eating your noodles.

Mom, I'm full already.

I wanna play outside.

Go ahead.

Ling Xiao is really well-behaved.

You're here for something, right?

You must have heard that I had a quarrel with Heping.

No, no, no.

Each family would have a quarrel.

We were eating at Haichao Noodle Restaurant yesterday,

and we came across Heping,

so we chatted a little.

I see.

What did he say about me?

Of course all good things.

Right.

I mean it, believe me.

In fact, I really understand you.

When I was young,

I was just like you.

I was a teacher then,

and I had two kids in three years.

I was a mother and I had no choice.

And I had to quit my job,

and concentrate on the kids and the family.

My husband was a doctor,

and he didn't help me at all.

Sometimes he got busy day and night.

I was so tired that I got angry as long as I saw him.

We really quarreled a lot.

I know, so does Heping.

When I need his help,

he's always helping others.

In fact, he did it just for the job.

However busy he is,

he has to take care of the family.

Right. I'm not good at expressing myself.

That's exactly what I mean.

Surely we have to admit,

that the men working hard outside is all for the family.

He earns money and you take care of the family.

You both are in place.

Heping is too responsible for his work.

When you take good care of the kid,

he can focus on his work.

It smells really good.

So tasty.

My dad is really good at cooking.

He can cook braised pork, fried pork, salt and pepper pepper,

and my favorite sweet and sour pork ribs.

Smells so good!

Yummy!

You're drinking.

Anything nice?

Let me drink with you.

You're only drinking. There's no dish.

I'll prepare a dish for you.

Ling Xiao, play outside for a while.

It's late night, where can he go?

Get out.

What's wrong?

I've been busy for a whole day.

Please don't start finding fault with me now.

Me? finding fault with you?

You asked Aunt Fang and Aunt Qian

to come here to say those things.

Weren't you finding fault with me?

Why were they here?

Ling Xiao.

What did they say?

Keep pretending.

Go on.

If you hadn't told them,

how would others know about us?

I haven't told anyone about our family.

I swear.

I never asked them to be here.

Fine, stop talking about this.

Let me change my clothes.

I have to work overtime later in the police station.

Tell you what, you can't go anywhere today.

Chen Ting. The kid of my colleague is ill.

I promised to work for him.

You work for him when the colleague's kid gets ill.

When our kid got ill, where were you?

Where were you?

Chen Ting. Can we just stop talking about our kid?

Forget about it.

No way.

Chen Ting. Please.

Can you just spare me?

I'm begging you.

I'm so tired.

Fine.

Thank you.

I'll set you free.

What are you doing?

Let me go.

Calm down.

I'll find my daughter.

Let me go to see her.

Ling Xiao, have you had dinner?

We'll have fried pork.

The fried pork that my dad cooks is really tasty.

Go with me.

Come on.

Slowly. No hurry.

Don't get choked.

Tasty, right?

Yeah.

Brother Ling, I've glued this photo.

Your little sister is just like my mom.

They all went to the sea to be fairies.

After a long long time,

we would also be there.

Then we can meet again.

Who told you this?

My dad.

My dad knows everything.

He lied.

They were dead.

Death means they're gone.

Then where did they go?

They're just gone.

We can never see them again.

Why?

Because everyone would die,

when a person died,

we burned her belongings,

destroyed her photos,

and forgot the dead.

So does your dad.

Come here.

I'll show you my dad's secret.

Look. This is my mom.

These are all of my mom.

Here.

These are my mom's clothes.

My mom's shoes are still under the bed.

My dad hasn't thrown anything.

My dad wouldn't forget my mom.

Mom smells really good.

This is how my mom smells.

Sweet?

Actually I know all about it.

He's thinking of my mom secretly.

Why?

Don't you miss your mom?

I miss her,

but I have to pretend that I don't miss her.

Because dad would be sad.

So when you miss your mom,

what do you do?

I'll draw pictures.

Pictures of my mom.

I also miss my mom secretly,

without letting my dad know.

You can also miss your little sister secretly,

without letting your mom and dad know.

We can't get caught.

Let's watch Sheriff Black Cat.

Let's go. We'll have double cooked pork slices.

We'll have spicy boiled fish today.

Today is my favorite sweet and sour pork ribs.

Hurry up.

Come and have noodles.

Move.

Chen Ting.

Could you just let me have my meal quietly.

Why shouting?

Don't move.

This little ”worm“ goes out from your nose.

Slowly, don't get choked.

Hello?

Is that Li Haichao? This is He Mei.

He Mei.

I...

Don't worry. No hurry.

I wanna borrow some money from you.

What happened?

My mom gets a heavy disease. I have to go home.

So serious?

And...

I also want you to take care of Ziqiu for me these days.

No problem.

Don't worry. I'll take him here.

Jianjian. Ling Xiao.

I have to go outside for something.

It's urgent.

You two can eat slowly.

After the meal,

you can play in Granny Qian's home.

Wait for me.

Got it?

Remember to lock the door when you leave.

Take care of Jianjian.

See you.

Here. Ziqiu. Come in.

This will be your room.

You'll live here.

I'll put a bed there for you.

What do you think?

Let me show you around.

This is the kitchen.

I'll cook tasty food there for you.

This is the bathroom.

This is the living room.

There are many toys.

You can choose whatever you want.

This is Li Jianjian's room.

Jianjian has a bad temper.

She gets angry easily.

But you're elder than her.

You're the elder brother.

Shouldn't you excuse her?

Yes.

So well-behaved.

When do you and my mom get married?

Get married?

Why do you say that?

I saw you give money to my mom earlier.

Really a big amount of money.

And you asked me to live here in your house.

Well, Ziqiu.

I did give money to your mom, but what's wrong?

My aunt said,

when a man give a woman money,

it is betrothal gift,

meaning they're getting married.

You even know betrothal gift.

Your mom took my betrothal gift.

So you're my child now,

and you have to obey me.

Do you know that?

Ziqiu, don't scare me.

I'm just kidding.

Dad.

What?

Dad!

Yes, my son.

Dad.

Come. I'll clean your room for you.

OK.

Let's go. My son.

You can't live in my house.

He's not your dad.

You can't call him dad.

Jianjian. Don't bully Ziqiu.

Do you hear me?

What's wrong?

Why are biting others again, Jianjian?

Let go. Hurry up.

Are you a dog or something?

Let go.

I won't let you have meat this noon.

Li Haichao get his girlfriend's son home.

It's said that his girlfriend has to go home to look after her sick mom.

Then things go wrong.

Jianjian wouldn't allow it.

Look what's happening.

Xiao, why don't eat? You won't get hungry?

He won't be.

When it's mealtime, he would be in the neighbor's home.

Chen Ting.

When it's time, you have to cook for him.

When he gets hungry, surely he would eat at the neighbor's.

Since you take here as a hotel,

why do you care so much?

Off you go!

♫ Eyes stare like brass bells, ♫

♫ showing shrewd as lightning. ♫

♫ Ears stand up like antenna, ♫

♫ paying attention to all suspicious sounds. ♫

♫ That's Mr. Black.♫

There you go!

♫ Great Mr. Black. ♫

♫ All citizens in the forest salute to you. ♫

♫ Salute to you! Salute to you! ♫

So naughty.

Let me go.

Granny.

Ziqiu.

Go.

Get rid of the enemy.

Remove the enemy.

Thanks, dad.

You wanna vomit?

How dare you?

I cooked it with my heart.

If you vomit, you have to eat it back.

You have to recite things everyday. Got it?

When did you get this back?

What happened to this picture?

Give it to me.

Chen Ting. This is the last get-together photo.

Can't you give him as a memorial?

Give me.

Go to school now.

Give me or not?

Give it to me.

You psycho, why do you hit him?

I am the psycho.

I am the one who should get choked by the walnut.

Could you stop talking about this?

Besides, that was an accident.

Nobody blamed you.

Fine. So I have to thank you for not blaming me, right?

You didn't look after the child,

so you could get rid of the responsibility.

You could judge me, right?

So it's all my fault.

I didn't proudly judge you.

Could we just stop talking about this and look ahead?

You could avoid mentioning this.

You could stay outside all day long.

And I have to live the damn life.

I have to go through it.

And you,

why did you let your sister eat walnuts?

Stop mentioning walnuts, could you?

Did I say anything wrong?

It's him.

He killed his sister.

Stop saying it!

He killed her!

Shut up!

Brother Ling.

Brother Ling.

Aunt Chen.

♫ The rain fell through the window. ♫

♫ I kept the wetness in my heart. ♫

Aunt Chen, you don't want Ling Xiao, right?

♫ Tell me how I can hide on purpose. ♫

♫ It didn't tell me. ♫

If you don't want him,

can you give him to me?

I happen to need an elder brother.

♫ If it rains heavily. ♫

You can have him.

Great! I have a brother now.

I finally have a brother.

I have a brother!

Great! I have a brother.

I like this brother. I have one now!

Chen Ting went to play mahjong with her friends,

and asked Ling Xiao to look after his sister at home.

This little girl liked eating walnuts.

Usually it was Ling Xiao who feed her walnuts,

and nothing wrong happened.

Just on that day,

this little girl was choked with a walnut.

The door was locked from outside,

and Ling Xiao couldn't go out.

He couldn't get contact with anyone.

When Chen Ting came back,

that little girl was dead already.

She died out of breath.

How do you know that?

She used to live in the Family Home in Beili.

And my aunt lives there.

When I visited my aunt several days ago, she told me.

Chen Ting couldn't live there anymore.

People said horrible things.

That's why she moved.

That was an accident.

She also wouldn't want that happen.

That kid was just three years old.

What a pity!

Let the elder kid look after the younger kid.

Chen Ting lives really a comfortable life as a mother.

You can't say things like this.

It's also not easy for her.

You neighborhood committees aren't helpful at all.

In my opinion, it's right that Heping get divorced with her.

They should get divorced earlier.

When I found someone proper,

I would introduce another to him.

Well.

I introduced a woman to Haichao.

He already brought the kid home.

And the kid calls him dad now.

Look.

He Mei bought me the shoes for being matchmaker.

Pretty, right?

Right. Good-looking. Nice.

Haichao. When would you and He Mei get married?

We haven't gone so far.

We have to get along for more time.

Haichao, if you have a wedding feast, don't forget us.

Of course.

He is shy now.

Your turn.

OK. My turn.

Haichao, I'm here to pick up my son.

He's fallen asleep.

Fallen asleep already?

Why are you so late every day?

There is a case.

I really can't leave.

You haven't had dinner, have you?

Honestly, no, I haven't.

Come in, there are several dishes.

OK. Thank you so much.

That's OK.

He fell asleep after two stories.

He's really obedient.

Come. Let's have a drink.

Haichao, during the several months since we moved here,

we caused you lots of trouble.

Thank you.

No bother.

I just need to add a pair of chopsticks.

You must have heard about our family.

The neighbors mean no harm.

They just like chatting after meals and making fun.

I'm a local district cop.

Of course I know.

Things like what happened in my family,

people just like gossiping about it.

People forget it fast and don't really care about much.

I understand that.

What I don't understand is what happened to Chen Ting.

How could her state get worse and worse?

She wouldn't let it go.

I...

I don't know what to do.

I've comforted her with lots of words.

You've also heard about my family, right?

Surely I have.

It's just about one year.

You had a tough life.

When Huiying just died,

I was really heartbroken.

The neighbors took turns to comfort me.

But you know what?

The words used to comfort me were just like knives.

They stabbed me one by one.

I really so regrettable.

Why did I so easily believe her?

Why didn't I convince her?

Why did I believe that she can be cured by staying confident?

Why didn't I listen to the doctors?

So I know that regret is really torturous.

I think Chen Ting can't let it go,

that's why she behaved like this.

When Chen Ting was pregnant with Yun,

it's already three months until we found out.

To keep this child,

Chen Ting lost her job.

I got fined.

They also withdrew the award to be given,

let alone the promotion.

I almost lost my job.

But I've never regretted for this.

What I've been regretting is that

I failed to look after the kids.

I failed to take good care of Yun.

But life has to go on, right?

So I have to try hard to stick to it.

If the adults give up,

what should the kids do?

Right. At least for the kids, we have to adhere to it.

Haichao, tell you what,

Ling Xiao wasn't like this before.

He was really an outgoing boy.

And he liked talking and playing.

Look at him now,

he doesn't speak much.

He shouldn't go through this.

Unlike Jianjian, she's really active.

Look...

Talking about Jianjian,

it's really weird.

She is not like me, or her mother.

I don't know why.

And her temper...

She's also optimistic for no reason.

So lovely.

Cheers.

To optimism.

And to those who left.

To them.

No wonder Ling Xiao always have meals at your place.

Even the cucumber is so tasty.

Really tasty.

You can come here more often if you like it.

Take here as your home.

Then I have to bother you.

No bother at all.

How can this be a bother?

It's also good for the kids. They can have little companions.

Right?

Thanks so much. Then I'll come here more often.

No problem. Just come.

Cheers.

Besides, you can also order what you want.

If you say that you want to have noodles,

then I'll cook noodles.

I want to eat pork ribs tomorrow.

Haichao, tell you what...

(autumn, Year 2009)

Jianjian, breakfast is ready.

Today is the first day for school.

Don't be late.

Hurry up.

Don't dawdle, otherwise you'd be late.

Dad. Youtiao and Muachi. I've bought them.

Good.

Tell Ling Xiao to have breakfast.

OK.

Li Jianjian, are you inside?

I'm taking a dump.

Hurry up. I can't bear it.

Don't rush me. I'm enjoying it.

He Ziqiu.

I've said it for many times.

Don't use the toilet when I'm brushing my teeth.

I know. Got it.

I won't do it next time.

So absurd.

Enjoy it.

You can't do that!

Luckily I've prepared some.

Damn it.

Jianjian, hurry up. Come and eat.

On my way.

Jianjian is in Grade One, and you two are in Grade Three.

You're all in the same high school.

Don't be like in junior high school,

and always asked me to go to the school.

You have to behave like brothers.

OK.

Be assured, dad.

I'll take care of her.

Don't worry, Uncle Li.

I'll look after they two.

Li Jianjian, Ling Xiao's eating your Muachi.

♫ When we held our hands for the first time, ♫

♫ it was like you were grasping all you had. ♫

♫ One turns bigger while the other turns smaller. ♫

♫ We meet at the crossroads of time. ♫

♫ Good night. Goodbye. My children. ♫

♫ Maybe you'll leave here. ♫

♫ Maybe the way back home will be longer. ♫

♫ Walk slowly. Don't look back. ♫

♫ I'll stay here, ♫

♫ looking afar with your back view. ♫

♫ I'm like the old house you're accustomed to live in. ♫

♫ One day you find a new start, ♫

♫ like a leaf flying to the new branch. ♫

♫ The old days are just like yesterday. ♫

♫ Good night. Goodbye. My children. ♫

♫ Maybe you'll leave here. ♫

♫ Maybe the way back home will be longer. ♫

♫ Walk slowly. Don't be sad. ♫

♫ I'll stay here, ♫

♫ watching you fly away. ♫