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So...

this mess is due to the burglar tossing up the place.

Actually, it's because I was in a bit of a rush.

Why do you have these many books though?

Do you own a bookstore or something?

Like a second-hand bookshop?

I teach children.

Aren't you perhaps Director Yoon Ban Ya?

- Do you know her? - I'm right, aren't I?

I watched your interview.

You host a movie show that airs on cable or online.

- Is she famous? - Totally.

She won dozens of international awards.

- Is it around 30? - 28.

- I don't recognize her. - You used to be a screenwriter.

I've been to one of your plays.

- Gosh, what an honor. - Thanks.

For someone that successful, this sure is...

You see, I have somewhere to be this afternoon.

Right.

So what is it that was taken?

- My laptop. - And?

- Only that. - But your laptop's right there.

This is the one I'm currently using.

What was stolen was my old dead one.

Why don't we start by checking the security cameras?

- Yes, we should. - Right.

Where's the administrative office?

Let me take you there.

- Wait, look. I see someone. - There we go.

Take a look. Do you recognize her?

I don't have the faintest idea.

Gosh.

What she's wearing and carrying...

are all designer brands.

The price of those is worth several laptops.

You and your random knowledge.

Let's see.

Since money isn't the motive,

I have to ask if you have any enemies.

Enemies?

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Sweetie, you're already old news, you know.

Soon, they'll forget who you even are.

Being remembered for your hit debut film?

That lasts only three years.

Art requires money, you know.

Actual hunger being the source of true art...

is just nonsense...

that old geezers say to make them stand out.

You enjoyed my book as well,

so I'll write whatever I want.

- Just one more movie first. - I won't do this.

Sweetie, let me tell you today why your book...

hasn't been selling.

It's of a solid story and paints a beautiful picture.

But in the end, it's a romance novel.

Have you ever begged in the name of love before?

Have you ever obsessed over a man?

You've only dated men...

who practically throw themselves at you.

So how can you know what true romance is?

AT THE SIGHT, SEON FREEZES...

What?

Why are these blank?

SCENE 3: ON THE ROAD, DAYTIME

The most effective...

and efficient method of torture?

There's only the one.

I believe that not letting one sleep is the worst torture of all.

Not being able to sleep,

not being able to sleep when you suffer from insomnia,

makes you go crazy without it costing a penny.

You're driven to the brink of death.

Why are you saying that to me?

It's not my fault that the show was suddenly booked.

If you're all ready,

we'll begin filming. And cue!

We finally get to meet Director Hyun Sung Mun...

whom I personally admire and love.

Aren't you losing too much time doing lectures and TV shows?

Writing scenarios must be challenging enough.

Writing at a desk all day doesn't guarantee a better one.

Doing lectures, hosting TV shows,

and meeting people.

That's all part of the process.

What was today's show about? Which movie?

It was a special episode featuring Director Hyun Sung Mun.

He's the director you hate the most though.

That's not true. I actually admire him.

I envy him, detest him,

and also find him annoying.

He just had to win an award, didn't he?

Hasn't he had enough fame in his life?

Gosh, slow down, will you?

Don't tell me you've been downing shots on an empty stomach.

You need to watch your health.

Look who's talking.

Has work been hectic these days?

You seem haggard than the last time I saw you.

Eat proper meals, okay?

You barely had enough during dinner earlier...

even though it was an expensive dish.

I'm glad at least you had your fill.

I feel like...

I only get to breathe when...

I talk to you.

So get a divorce before it's too late.

What if I do?

Will that change anything?

- Hee Sang... - I know.

I know.

YOON BAN YA, THE HOMEWRECKER

"After seducing a married man,"

"she had an affair with him."

"Shameless."

"She should not be allowed to lecture students."

Darn. Are you kidding me?

You can't dismiss me as a lecturer over something like this.

Isn't it true though?

No, it's not.

Those are only groundless claims by the opposing party.

I'm sorry, but we don't want this to go any further.

Because of this, the university's reputation...

Aren't I the one who elevated that so-called reputation?

You once did.

Hello?

This is the administrative office. Is this Unit 453?

- That's right. - Your electricity has been cut.

Your bills are five months late, and you've been dodging our calls.

You haven't even read the eviction notice that was sent.

Hello?

I'll make a monthly payment right away.

Remember the movie that required urgent filming?

I'll dramatize the story.

You'll be paid right away.

Thank you.

Darn it.

We talked on the phone once. I'm Oh Han Na.

Ji Hee Sang's wife.

What's so funny?

The poster at the university.

Thanks to you, I got fired. Are you satisfied?

Do you feel better now?

You already have enough,

so why get greedy?

You already dumped him once.

So why constantly meet a man who you chose not to marry?

Why did you steal my laptop?

To scare me?

To mess with me?

I'm not going to divorce him.

I'll never hand him over to you.

You'll never have him.

It's not like you ever possessed him though.

He may not be mine at this moment,

but he was never yours either.

Promise me right now...

that you'll stay away from Hee Sang.

I was never even by his side.

You're trying to threaten me, right?

As if that'll ever work on me.

For what reason did you steal my laptop?

I won't tell the police, so let me know.

Because Hee Sang gave it to you.

I'm allowed to take it.

I see Hee Sang's never given you a gift before.

Of course. A gift is usually given from the heart.

So what if he lets you spend a lot of money?

What good does it do to have a rich husband?

Who you really want in your life...

is someone who can give you everything he has.

As if this is any of your concern.

I bet you've already threatened him...

with the possibility of suicide numerous times.

And every time, divorce was put on the back burner.

Now that it won't work anymore, you chose to come to me instead.

I'll kill myself.

But you don't want to die.

It's me you want to kill, not yourself.

If that's the case...

This is what you should do.

Wanting to die isn't a big deal, you know.

That's how I feel every day.

So call me lucky.

You want to kill me, and I want to die.

Go ahead. Do it!

You want to live more than anyone else,

so don't resort to ridiculous threats.

Keeping him by your side by being weak and pitiful?

It won't last.

It's too late.

I have nothing left to give him.

No. Let go of me!

Let go!

Really? Is this how it's going to be?

Fine. Let's do this. Come on.

Do you want to die? Do you?

Should I push?

THE NIGHT OF SEOAN UNIVERSITY CINEPHILES

Hey. Ban Ya. Goodness.

- You're here. - Hey.

The membership fee is 30 dollars.

Is something up? You seem exhausted today.

I wouldn't miss out on a chance...

to drink expensive booze for 30 dollars.

I expected no less.

Hey, it's Director Yoon!

Why is the great Director Yoon...

drinking in the corner like this?

Why is he so wasted?

- Beats me. - You must have a lot of free time.

From your next movie to university lectures...

Shouldn't you be busy to the point...

where you'd kill for some extra hours in a day?

But still, you made it here.

Hey, can you get him out of my face?

Over here. Miss, over here.

I'm right here, you know.

You know, I wished for you to drop dead.

But not now.

Don't die, Yoon Ban Ya.

Live long, all right?

- Hey, are you okay? - Darn it!

You should've just used your fame to do a single lecture and be done.

Did you have to steal my job like this?

No, let go of me.

You don't have a thesis, a doctorate, or any qualifications,

so how can you be a professor?

Let go of me, darn it!

As if you're fit to lecture anyone!

- Hey. - No, let go of me.

- Hey. Hey! - What?

When did Director Hyun get here?

Did I fail to mention that?

Go and say hello since you're here.

You've never met him in a private setting.

Forget it.

Hey, what's wrong?

- There must've been celery in here. - Celery?

- It's occupied! - Are you all right?

Open up for a second.

I have allergy medicine. Would you like some?

Are you all right?

Maybe we should've gone to a hospital instead.

It's fine. I spat it out almost immediately,

and you also gave me that medicine to take.

I'm all right,

but meeting you in person...

and especially at a place like this was highly unexpected.

So it's true that you have blackouts.

This isn't our first encounter.

- Sorry? - It's our second.

I'm terribly sorry. Did I perhaps make a mistake?

It's too bad.

I had a nice time, you know.

We shared a lot of our thoughts, you know.

I've always wanted the chance to talk to you in person.

Anyway, I had a blast.

I see. Well, what a shame.

You see,

I like you a lot.

Oh, sorry. I mean your work.

I've always been a fan,

but talking to you...

made me like you as a person too.

- So we talked about our work. - That's not all.

You also mentioned your ex-boyfriend.

I went that far?

You said you had to lose some to gain some.

That's the rule you lived your life by.

It's why you chose your work over love.

I thought it was very you.

Although that judgment is purely from my own perspective.

You too.

You're not at all like the person I imagined.

You said this to me back then.

That you didn't like me.

You hate me.

You hate that I'm perfect.

You hate me even more because I seem like a good person.

You said that to me.

To my face.

Most people think of me...

as a good person and a good man.

But I hate those notions about me.

It puts me at a disadvantage most of the time.

People have high expectations of me...

which prevents me from crossing the line.

Is that something you want to do?

Do you want to get out of here?

Let's get some fresh air and sober up.

Are things all right with you and that friend?

He seemed wasted...

and said some harsh words.

It's not like he was lying though.

I wrote stories based on my own sufferings,

made a movie out of them.

I utilized every memory I had,

so being drained of those...

made me wonder if I'd be able to...

write and film my next movie.

I've been doubting myself, you see.

I see. That must be why you write your own scripts...

instead of just directing movies.

Exactly.

I was lucky enough to have my first feature film be a success,

but now I wonder if it's going to be my last.

It terrifies me.

Gosh, I'm babbling.

I see you're quite arrogant.

Sorry?

Thinking that people were fooled...

into liking and acknowledging your work...

tells me that you're arrogant.

- That's not what I... - You're wrong.

Your movie...

didn't find success because you got lucky.

What made that happen was the level of your talent...

which we don't come across easily.

Anything that is created...

should first be based on our actual lives anyway.

So in that sense, you are a person...

who was able to...

build a strong, solid, and honest life.

You definitely have talent.

So it's okay to drain...

your memories and experiences completely.

It's okay to be terrified too. That is part of the process anyway.

However, I have to ask...

about the lectures you conduct at three different places.

You're right. It's because I need the money.

I didn't come this far with my career...

to choose to do something different.

Conducting lectures and hosting TV shows...

is the better option.

They're also my safety net.

Your safety net?

It prevents me from falling flat on the ground.

I'm 35, you see.

To those older than me, I may still seem young.

But it doesn't feel that way.

Whether it's money or a house,

if you have none to your name,

you won't be able to do anything at 35.

It's like being backed into a corner.

- My gosh! - Oh, no.

Are you hurt?

Are you all right?

Goodness.

PATIENT: FEMALE, 35, YOON

I didn't have to be hospitalized, you know.

This is your chance to rest up.

Others make up excuses when they're too exhausted.

Thank you...

for bringing me here and to a one-person room at that.

It's my pleasure.

- Let me. - No, let me.

- Is it too cold? - A bit.

Bear with me even if it's too cold.

If you don't ice it, it'll swell up and become more painful.

The doctor said you won't be able to sleep well either.

You better lie down...

if you want to get discharged tomorrow.

What does it mean that you feel excited...

just because someone you don't even deserve...

seems to desire you?

Is it narcissism?

Superiority?

Or is it a desire for conquest?

Well... Rest up.

I'll be back in a bit.

Thank you for everything. Goodbye.

Get in. I'll drop you off.

It's okay. I can go by myself. Goodbye.

SEOAN UNIVERSITY HOSPITAL

BLUE ROSE AWARD

Why did you change your passcode? To what?

It means I don't want you to come in as you wish. I told you this before.

Is there a reason for that?

There is no reason for you to come here.

Why did you send this over to me?

You want a divorce?

You're the one who had first sent that to me.

That was ages ago.

I've changed my mind.

What's the point? We don't even live together anymore.

Do you want to move back in together?

Should I come live here?

That's not what...

We've been separated for a long time.

So what's the point of being married on paper?

"What's the point"? I know you still love me.

And I love you too.

I don't want to be swayed by you anymore.

That's proof that you love me.

If you didn't, you wouldn't be swayed.

Be honest.

I know you've been waiting for me.

Don't kid yourself. We're over.

I have no desire to forgive you.

Marriage shouldn't be about love.

If you truly love someone, you shouldn't get married.

That way, your love will stay the same.

However, you and I are married,

so we need to accept this lifestyle.

It's your favorite.

Seeing this...

made me miss you.

Don't do this...

This is the shirt I bought you.

It looks good on you.

Do you mean it?

Do you really want a divorce?

- I do. - Don't you dare lie.

No matter what I did,

you hesitated about getting divorced for years.

I know you're worried about me.

I know you're worried...

that something might happen to me if we really part ways.

Not anymore.

"Anymore"? Why not?

Why the sudden change of heart?

This is the right thing to do. Our relationship ended long ago.

Despite that, it was never really over.

- Don't be ridiculous. - What will you do?

Will you reveal everything?

Do you have another copy?

"Best-selling author Jeon Ji Sung is a fake..."

"who published her husband's diary..."

"without his consent."

Like this?

I do have a copy.

You've gone insane.

If you do that, both you and I will go down.

Exactly. Was it really that hard...

to live like other average married couples?

Cut that boring nonsense.

I don't know why you're doing this out of the blue,

but I know you won't be able to do it.

It wasn't out of the blue.

I don't want to hear it.

DIRECTOR HYUN SUNG MUN

Hello?

Did you get home safely?

I'm just checking in.

Are you in any pain?

I wanted...

I wanted to buy a decent bookcase.

But they were so expensive.

And I rarely buy secondhand books...

because I purchase anything I want to read.

I know I have too many.

I should've organized them.

Did you get hurt?

Why did you come all the way here?

Because you cried.

I really can't fix this habit of mine.

Even if it's 3am and I crave some sliced raw octopus and vodka,

I wouldn't think twice about heading over to a fish market.

Likewise.

Habits are so hard to fix.

You're wrong. We have no desire to fix them.

- Is that so? - So...

where will you stay until you move?

I'm not sure. I don't really have anywhere to stay.

I'll have to look around.

What? Aren't you in a relationship?

Weren't you dating this guy for quite some time?

He got married a while ago.

Afterward, he wanted to get a divorce,

and I got involved.

That's why I got sacked.

Speaking from a married woman's perspective,

I think I know what this is about.

You're married?

Yes, ages ago. We've been living apart for quite some time.

- I had no idea. - Anyway,

if I were in her shoes, I'd hate to get involved...

with such a headache like you.

- Me? - Of course.

I hope we never get involved in that way.

You can say that again.

How about we get involved...

in some other way?

How about staying here? It's empty.

I can't do that.

Who cares? No one lives here.

I thought you'd be staying in Seoul for some time?

It's fine. This was my workroom from the get-go.

So just stay here. You won't need to pay rent.

In return,

help me out with my new book.

DIRECTED BY YOON BAN YA

Come on in.

Is that all you have?

I won't be staying here long anyway.

When I don't want to die but feel like I'm going to die,

what can I do...

to live?

To breathe?

There wasn't any particular event that motivated me.

It was more of an impulse.

One day, I asked myself.

"Am I really telling the story I want to tell?"

It's not that I reject all my previous works or anything.

I just came to think about if I was censoring or regulating...

the ways I express myself.

In that sense, you'll find my latest work...

quite different from my previous...

Thank you for the other day.

The other day?

You called me arrogant.

I was embarrassed that you saw through me.

But at the same time, I was relieved...

and glad.

You were?

People lie even to themselves.

To be able to be completely naked in front of another person,

to meet such a person,

is a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity.

The day I blacked out...

I remember that day now.

If I had been less drunk that day,

or even more drunk,

do you think something would've been different?

I like things better now...

because you're not drunk at all.

You're finally back at your alma mater.

And we have Professor Hyun to thank for this honor.

We couldn't be happier to have you here.

Thank you.

That was easy.

- Thank you. - Dig in.

It looks delicious.

By having sex with him that one night,

I got more than I'd ever expected.

I could finally breathe again.

What am I trying to get...

by sleeping with him again?

It's not that I want him.

What I want is to steal him...

and ruin him.

What's this?

I love you.

How can you do this to me?

Why?

Sorry. I have to go now.

What?

Don't get up. Sleep some more.

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