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Cold winds have swept the harvest land...

and laid to waste my field of dreams...

and scattered wide the ripening seeds

which drift to earth upon the morrow...

to die, or bring forth choking seeds...

and bless the harvest of my sorrow

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ln December 1 91 7...

the great Russian composer, conductor and pianist, Sergei Rachmaninoff...

left the Finland Station in Petrograd -

Leningrad, as it was to become - bound for Stockholm

Taking advantage of an invitation to play for the Royal House of Sweden...

Rachmaninoff decided to leave the growing chaos of Russia...

following the Bolshevik Revolution

With him were his two daughters and his wife

His friends gave him warm clothes for the winterjourney

Chaliapin brought him food and vodka

Such was the hurry of his departure...

that he took with him just one small bag - and his music case

He was never to return

He became, as he said, ''like a ghost wandering forever in the world''

lt is a curious story

The older we get, the more we lose that divine confidence...

which is the treasure of youth

And the fewer are those moments when we believe that what we have done is any good

Nowadays, l am rarely satisfied with myself...

and almost never feel that what l do is successful

l am burdened with a harvest of sorrow

THE HARVEST OF SORROW

But there is another burden, heavier still, unknown to me in my youth

lt is that l have no country

the memories of SERGEl RACHMANlNOFF

You must know that l was forced to leave my homeland...

where l struggled and suffered all the sorrows of the young...

and where l really did achieve great success

Now, the whole world is open to me

Success, apparently, awaits me everywhere

But one place, and one place only, remains closed to me...

and that is my own country, the land where l was born

True, l have my music, and my memories...

which l now put down for you, my dearest daughters, and your children

And if it is true that a composer's music is the sum total of his experience...

then it must express his love affairs, his religion...

above all, the country of his birth

And l was born... in Russia!

l was born the fourth of six children...

at Oneg, near Novgorod, two hours north of Moscow...

on the banks of the river Volkhov, in the shadow of the church

My father had been in the army and married a wealthy general's daughter...

which perhaps accounts for my own military bearing

But my father drank, enjoyed his women, and gambled...

and soon we were forced to sell our estates...

and move to ''temporary'' accommodation in the great city of St Petersburg

Here l won a piano scholarship to the Conservatory in 1 883...

when l was just 1 0 years old

Opposite the Conservatory was the famous Mariinsky Theatre for opera and ballet...

where the premieres of Swan Lake and Boris Godunov had recently taken place

And it was here l realised that l must become a composer

My studies went badly and when my sister Sofya died of diphtheria...

my mother decided this was the last straw...

and blamed my father for our slum-like circumstances

Shortly after, she left him, and l never saw my father again

On the recommendation of my cousin, Alexander Siloti...

l was packed off to Moscow to study and live with his professor, Nikolai Zverev...

leaving behind my beloved Mariinsky Theatre

Siloti, l discovered later, was the lover of Tchaikovsky...

who thereby became my friend and mentor

With Zverev, it was always practise, practise, practise

Finally, l could take it no more...

and moved out to live with my Aunt, Vavara Satina...

her husband and her two daughters, Sofia and Natalya

And every summer, we all travelled to their country estates...

at lvanovka, 600 km southeast of Moscow

And here, l once again discovered the country fairs...

which l had earlier visited with my parents

The sound of gypsies and of the local peasant choirs...

made a profound impression upon me

lvanovka! 20 years of my life were spent there

Every Russian feels strong ties with the soil

Perhaps it comes from an instinctive need for solitude

The endless fields ofwheat, stretching as far as the eye could see

The smell of the earth and all that grows and blossoms

l felt so good there

l could work, and work hard

Most of my music was written there...

and even when l left Russia, my music was inspired by there

There, at last, l found blessed happiness

Many artists, orchestra players, young pianists or vocalists...

they were directly or indirectly influenced by his figure, his personality

Even when he left Russia, l think...

the remaining energy through the music he composed...

was influencing every second or third musician...

coming out of schools in Siberia, Caucasus, or in Moscow or Petersburg

This is my belief

This is what Rachmaninoff did to his country

This is what he brought back to the culture...

which again helped him grow as an artist and as a human being

You can't imagine a pianist, a single pianist...

who would try to learn something about piano playing...

and just passed by without even looking at Rachmaninoff

l don't think it was possible, and least in Russia

And it was for the Satins at lvanovka that l wrote my C# minor Prelude

l heard the endless tolling of the church bells...

and one day the Prelude simply came to me, and l wrote it down

lt came with such force that l could not shake it off, even though l tried to do so

And l was not yet 1 9 years old

Following Rachmaninoff's departure from Russia in 1 91 7...

the Bolsheviks looted and burned down his country house at lvanovka

Since perestroika, it has been painstakingly rebuilt...

ironically, by a local administration that is now communist

Alexander Borisovich, we are happy to welcome you to lvanovka

According to our ancient Russian custom, please take this bread and salt

Please break the bread...

put salt on it, and try

Welcome to lvanovka, the land of your ancestors

We have been waiting for a long time...

for a direct heir of the Rachmaninoff and Satin families to visit us

On this soil, your great-great grandfather...

your great-grandfather and your grandmother were born

And on June 21 st 1 907 your mother, Tatiana Sergeieva, was born here

We are honoured to greet you here

Long life to you...

This is the Tambovsky Chamber Choir, named in honour of your grandfather

This is the Head of the Region, Ljubov Samodurova

You're the man, you hold the flowers!

And this is the Head of the District, Evgeny Tarassov

And Nadezhda Vassilieva, from the District Council

And Zinaiada Milusheva from the Department of Culture

On the meadow at the back of the house...

we have put up a modest statue of your grandfather

He is conducting the best, and most perfect, orchestra...

the orchestra of nature!

lt's very modest, and we hope only temporary

lf a young man was under the iron discipline of his teacher...

his piano teacher...

So, of course, for the first time, if suddenly...

he doesn't wake up at six, in a cold room...

with the stress of in about 25 minutes you have to be ready...

you have two minutes to wash your hands...

then 30 seconds to reach your piano and you have to play one hour exactly

Suddenly, he came for the first time to two nice young girls...

who were very happy to pamper him...

to offer him a rocking chair, to bring his tea for him

lt was absolutely an unbelievable discovery

The house itself has been rebuilt exactly on the site of the original

On the veranda, we even found wicker furniture...

to replace what we found in photographs

Your mother's father, Alexander Alexandrovich...

had great respect for your grandfather

He thought him very honest...

and incredibly industrious

When your grandfather first came to stay...

he liked to be in this little house in the gardens

And this is the actual study of Rachmaninoff

These walls must have been the first to hear your grandfather's music

He chose this room because it is so quiet and solitary

lts only window looks out over the garden and the gazebo, shaded by maple trees

All these things on the desk your grandfather held in his hands

Vavara Arkadievna, your grandfather's mother-in-law...

was the only person allowed in here when Rachmaninoffwas working

The daughters of my aunt, Varvara Arkadyevna, were not my only loves

There were also the sisters Skalon - Natalya, Ludmilla and Vera

But perhaps my first true love was a gypsy called Anna Lodizhenskaya

Alas, she was married

l was by now a student at the Moscow Conservatoire...

and when l set to work on my first opera, ''Aleko''...

l based it on a poem of Pushkin called ''The Gypsies''

Aleko - still not performed in the West - is only a student piece

Nevertheless, it was accepted by the Bolshoi Theatre in Moscow

Chaliapin sang it in the Mariinsky Theatre

Tchaikovsky came to the dress rehearsal and was full of praise

But it was Anna, the gypsy l lost, who inspired it

How quickly my youth has fled!

The days of love pass even more quickly

l only knew her love for a year

One day, near a river...

we came across an encampment of gypsies

They had pitched their tents near ours

Two nights we spent together

On the third night, they departed

When l awoke, my beloved had gone...

leaving behind our small daughter

l searched everywhere, calling her name...

but there was no trace

l wept

And since that time, all girls are to me abhorrent...

and l wish never to look on them again

''Going to your heart'', that's his description

''l am trying to make music which goes directly to your heart...

without passing through your brains

You have to feel yourselfwell, relaxed, captivated...''

Feeling well and happy byjust listening - that was his answer to the journalists

''lf you want to know me, listen to my music'' - his second sentence

My 1 st Symphony, written at lvanovka when l was 22...

and first performed in the Philharmonic Hall in St Petersburg, was a disaster

My wife later thought the conductor, Glazunov, was drunk

One critic wrote: ''lf there were a music conservatory in hell...

and one of its students was compelled to write a programme symphony...

on the seven plagues of Egypt, then Mr Rachmaninoff has done it

The inhabitants of hell must be delighted''

As you know, the Symphony has never been performed again in my lifetime...

or even published...

and l'm pleased to report that the manuscript will never be found

l had, of course, dedicated it to my gypsy, Anna Lodizhenskaya

lronically, l had added to the title page: ''Vengeance is mine''

ln the Philharmonic Hall, l hid during the entire performance

l refused to come on stage at the end, and fled into the night

You can imagine how l felt.

l sought refuge at lvanovka...

but was unable to compose again for almost three years

But when l did begin again, well, you knowwhat that was!

My Second Piano Concerto, which l dedicated to Doctor Dahl...

who had helped me through this difficult period

And to celebrate, l was incautious enough...

finally to marry my cousin, Natalia Alexandrovna Satina, your mother

l had to write at least twelve songs before the wedding...

so as not to go bankrupt - and have something to pay the priest with

Ah, lvanovka!

When l was still in despair about my First Symphony...

l was taken to meet Leo Tolstoy, the author of War and Peace

lt was thought he too might help me restore a little faith in myself

He stroked my knees and said: ''You must work, young man, work

Work every day, just as l do''

Later, l played for him

He asked me: ''Tell me, does anybody really need music like that?''

War. lt was bound to come.

l felt it. We all did

l had the idea for a piece from a painting by B�cklin...

in which a boatman ferries us over to the lsle of the Dead

How little did we know ofwhat was to come

lt was suggested that l went to America

l had already been - played with the New York Symphony!

My conducting career had also flourished -

since beginning at Mamantov's Private Opera Company...

l had already conducted at the Bolshoi in Moscow...

and, of course, at my beloved Mariinsky Theatre

So now l was offered the posts of chief conductor...

of both the Cincinnati and the Boston Symphony Orchestras

But now, war!

And the destruction of all that we had known

Once l had a homeland

How beautiful it was!

Above me swayed a fir tree

But it was only a dream

My family of friends was living then

l was surrounded by words of love

But it was only a dream

And war bred revolution...

and flight... into the darkness

When l heard that they had looted and burned down lvanovka...

and we were forced to continue our winterjourney by sledge

When we eventually arrived in Stockholm, we were frozen, homeless and alone

But we were too tired to weep

After all, it was Christmas Eve

America!

As l told you, l had been before, been successful...

but not liked it, not liked the crowds

although in 1 909 l had given the world premiere...

of my Third Piano Concerto in New York...

with a second performance conducted by Gustav Mahler

But now? l was 44 years old, homeless and in debt

When the Boston Symphony again asked me -

1 1 0 concerts in just 30 weeks - l was tempted, but refused

After all, l spoke not a word of the language. Howwould l manage?

But, almost a year after we had arrived in Sweden...

fearing the worst, we had set sail for a new life

My wife and l, with our two children, settled first, ''temporarily''...

in an apartment block at 33 Riverside Drive, by the Hudson River...

a far cry from lvanovka

A terrible pain in my head resulted in surgery...

although the news that l was in hospital was interpreted back in Russia that l had died

Thomas Edison asked me to make some recordings for his new ''gramophone''

But l never cared for those...

and always destroyed any pressings l thought less than perfect

My concert debut was on December 8th in Providence, Rhode lsland

Little did l know that l was to give over 1 000 concerts in America alone...

during the next 20 years

The only thing that suffered was my composition - not a single line

l just didn't feel like it

He simply had not the time to put his mind on composing...

because he had the family to look after

He even got some money lent to go to America which he repaid later...

and actually he was forced to do...

the second period of his life as a concert pianist

He would have liked probably to compose, but no time!

The schedule in America - touring from October to January/February...

how can a person on the train all the time start composing?

America! What madness!

And they always wanted me to play that damned C# minor Prelude!

l'm not sorry l wrote it, it has helped me

But now l play it without feeling, like a machine

l think l prefer it as a dance tune

But the money was good - what a bourgeois l've become!

My character has been quite ruined. l'm surrounded by nothing but business

Business drives everything along. Business, and the worship of money

To how many human cares...

betrayals, prayers and misery...

does money bear painful witness?

True, l was feted everywhere, and welcomed by my musical colleagues...

Pierre Monteux, who had conducted the Premiere of ''The Rite of Spring''...

the young German conductor, Wilhelm Furtw�ngler...

even by my fellow exile, lgor Stravinsky...

although he was later to describe me as a ''six-foot scowl!''

A widow brought me some baubles to pawn...

in lieu of her husband's debt

America gave me material security

But America could not give me peace of mind

To hell with her!

But this?

My idiotic son brought me this

How could such an idle bastard have got it?

Stole it, no doubt

Or perhaps ''found'' it on the road

lf all the tears, and blood...

that have been shed...

for these riches and gold...

that l have stored away...

were suddenly to be disgorged...

from the bowels of the earth...

there'd be a flood...

and l'd be drowned...

in money!

We found some consolation each summer...

by renting a house out at Locust Point, NJ, about an hour from New York City

l employed a Russian secretary, a Russian cook...

and because l had failed my American driving test, a Russian chauffeur

We all spoke Russian together, observed Russian customs...

and surrounded ourselves with Russian friends...

some ofwhom already lived here, and some ofwhom joined us in exile

Stanislavsky was there...

the people from the Arts Theatre...

He adored Chaliapin. They met in Moscow...

when he was at the private opera, conducting...

and Chaliapin was an up-and-coming...

very talented singer - so they learned from each other

Chaliapin also gave him lots of pleasure because he was full of funny stories

But nothing could give us back what we most desired, our homeland

For the exile, whose musical roots have been annihilated...

there remains no desire for self expression

A friend wrote about his feelings of being a nobody

Such feelings are probably unknown to me, he said

Howwrong he is!

l am filled to the brim with such feelings

l still wrote music, of course...

but somehow it did not mean the same to me

Only you, my family, and my religion, sustained me

My Liturgy, written all those years ago for the choir of the Mariinsky Theatre...

was constantly in my head

Lord, give us this day our daily bread

Lead us not into temptation and deliver us from evil

l did give many charity concerts to those wounded in the war...

both Russian and American...

as well as countless recitals for those in Holland, ltaly and France

But whatever else l played, they always wanted the Preludes!

Eventually, for convenience, we settled, ''temporarily''...

in a villa outside Paris, in 1 929, called Clairfontaine

Here we planned to spend our summers

At least Europe seemed a little closer to Russia

l loved to sit under the pine trees and just watch the rabbits!

Breakfast of tea, with cream, ham, cheese and hard-boiled eggs...

once again reminded us of our Russia

Meanwhile, news from Russia became ever more distressing

Stalin and his bullies seemed determined to destroy the Russia we loved

ln 1 931 , with Count llya Tolstoy and others...

l wrote a letter to the New York Times in which l said:

''At no time, and in no country...

has there ever existed a government responsible for so many cruelties...

wholesale murders and common-law crimes...

as those perpetrated by the Bolsheviks

For 1 3 years now, the communist oppressors...

have subjected the Russian people to indescribable torture

They are nothing but a group of professional murderers''

My music was now forbidden at the Moscow and St Petersburg -

now called Leningrad - Conservatories, where l had long ago been a student

l knew now that for me, Russia was forever closed

Dies Irae! Day of anger!

Only art that is free has meaning

Only creativity that is free can be joyful

ln Russia, there are no free artists, only victims without rights

The title ''free artist'' is now a bitterjoke

The need to find a more permanent home now became urgent

And through a friend, a biographer -

who, like so many others, had misrepresented me -

l found a site by Lake Lucerne, hidden in the mountains of Switzerland

There's a big flat space right by a precipice, down to the lake

l fell in love with the view immediately l saw it

l kept imagining what it would be like to have my own music room...

with big windows, with such a view

l've even found a place where l can be buried

l should build a house here and call it ''Senar'' -

Sergei and Natalya Rachmaninoff

Here, l believe l shall find peace at last

And here it was l wrote my ''Rhapsody on a Theme of Paganini''...

as a kind of christening present for the new house

l worked literally from morn to night

lt is a large piece - some compensation...

for the many stupidities l allowed myself to commit in building the house

Dies irae!

For me, he was the epitome of a gentlemen

He was slender, he was tall...

he had a very good conservative taste for dressing

lt was always beautifully done, from Savile Row

And always he looked absolutely perfect, to my way of thinking

He was not at all gloomy. lt's all rubbish to say that

He loved Armenian and Jewish jokes

He laughed his head off when somebody told him a new one

And he had a very special movement - you know, he had that short hair

lrina, his daughter, told me father has two hairs...

one is silk and the other one is velvet

lt really was like that - lt was silky, and when you went against it, it was velvet

After breakfast he went for a walk around the house and garden...

and then he'd practise, and he always started with scales

He loved boats, going very fast

He loved also driving his car in a very fast way

He was a very good horseman, he was a good rider...

but in Clairfontaine, he fell off the horse and aunt said that's it, no more

My new boat in Senar only cost me 1 600 francs...

plus 1 00 francs to the neighbour who drove me to the auction...

plus... oh dear, oh dear...

200 francs for the little dog we ran over on the way

Despite its great age - l'm talking about the motor, not me -

it works magnificently, and if l do change it...

it will only be because l want to go faster!

ln future, l intend to limit the number of my concerts...

or find some cure for old age

The only place to be now is Senar

Old age!

Perhaps it is that l'm lazy

Perhaps the incessant practice and eternal rush...

inescapable from life as a concert artist...

is taking too much toll of my strength

My fingers are giving me real trouble and the little finger on my left hand...

threatens to go the same way as the one on the right

And so a last work for piano solo

Music should bring relief

lt should rehabilitate the mind and soul

lt cannot be just rhythm and colour

lt must reveal, as simply as possible, the emotions of the heart

l have made immense efforts to understand the music of today, but l cannot

Perhaps it is that the music l care to write is not acceptable today

But time may change the technique of music, it cannot alter its fundamental mission

But l sometimes feel that all my audience wants is noise and excitement

On a recent tour of America, for instance...

l played the Corelli Variations about 1 5 times...

but only one of these performances was any good

The others were slapdash

l even, the first time in my life, had a memory lapse...

and, to the audience's great consternation...

tried for a long time to remember what came next

l was usually guided by the amount of coughing in the audience

Whenever the coughing increased, l would just leave out a variation

ln one concert, the coughing was so violent...

that l only bothered to play about half the variations

l have yet to give a complete performance

l practise and practise but the more l play, the more l hear my own inadequacies

lf l ever do learn to play properly, l'll probably drop dead the next day

But now the blood vessels on my fingertips have begun to burst, bruises are forming

When that happens, l can't play for about two minutes...

so l just strum some chords

But take me away from my concerts and that'll be the end of me

Oh, Russia, my Russia!

And did l tell you about my 3rd Symphony?

They played it in New York, Philadelphia, Chicago and elsewhere...

and they played it wonderfully

But one critic wrote: ''Oh, Rachmaninoff. Does he have a 3rd symphony in him?''

Cut, cut, cut, they say

lt's like cutting out pieces of my heart

l just broke off this letter to glance at the local afternoon newspaper

The news is getting worse

Calm is departing from those of us in Europe, even though war does not come

To be the first to run away would seem improper in every way

But l fear we are living on a volcano

That there should be such possibilities in the world - it is unthinkable!

'Christ is risen'...

they sing in holy places

But l am sad

My soul is silent

So much blood, and so many tears...

are shed now in the world

This song of praise before the altar...

offends us like a mockery

lf He were among us now...

and could see the achievements...

of our glorious age...

how brother has come to hate brother...

how man himself is shamed!

And if, in this world of ours now...

He heard 'Christ is risen'...

He would weep the bitterest of tears...

in agony at what we have done

l don't think that he was a very... Sunday church-goer

lt meant a lot to him otherwise he would never have written the Vigils and the Liturgy

An unbeliever couldn't have written that

Also, that he loved the bells - it must be something in a Russian soul...

When l came to England, the first thing l missed were the evening bells

lt must be something which means a lot to Russians, l don't know

l think he was quite fascinated by death - he didn't like to think about it...

l don't knowwhether he was afraid of death...

but it occupied his mind, l'm sure, quite a bit

And like the church bells, something in his music came always back to...

you are here not forever, so one day you have to face the end is coming

And so we left Europe once again...

once again bound for America, to Los Angeles

Left my beloved Senar, just as we had once left lvanovka

Once again cut off from those places which sustained me...

gave me comfort

And from the comfort of America we heard of Leningrad - St Petersburg -

starving to death during the German siege

My Symphonic Dances, which l wrote in America...

were a memory ofwhat was, and what might have been

After all, composing is as essential a part of my being as breathing or eating

lt is the expression of my deepest thoughts...

and my constant need to compose...

is actually the urge within me to give sounds to those thoughts

l write down only what l hear within me

My music is therefore a product of my temperament...

and so, wherever l live, it is Russian music

l wish to say, simply and directly, what l feel...

and if that be love or sadness or bitterness, well, so be it

My music is perhaps a long dark coda into the night

How l miss the peace of Senar

This endless concertizing, just to earn enough money to survive

ln New Orleans, l definitely noticed that my cough was getting worse

Soon l shall not be able to get up, sit or lie down

Like Chekhov, l keep spitting phlegm into paper bags -

phlegm covered with blood

Too many cigarettes

l am frightened, embarrassed and guilty

And so, finally...

as l end this long letter to you, my dearest lrina and Tatiana...

l feel that my mournful features are clearing

l have signed myself up for a course of ''healing by music''

What other function can music have but to make us whole again?

As you know, the title of one of my first published songs...

was ''The Harvest of Sorrow''

Perhaps nowwe can gather in the harvest and heal our sorrow

Farewell. Farewell my hands

lt's just a very, very unique ability...

for a composer to be able to compose a melody...

which lasts sometimes nearly a minute...

and people still can remember it right away

This is difficult

There are some composers of today, if they could only do it...

and there's some very popular people in the last, let's say 20 or 30 years...

Look at these young Beatles - they have this ability to give you...

simple, but beautiful and strong...

simple but strong, you know, image

l call it a gift. The melody, you just take it and it stays with you

There were many, many others. None of them reached the same level

This is what Rachmaninoff brought to classical music in general:

endless melody

And also endless in terms that it starts...

and it never gives you the feeling that... ''it's clear, this melody - stop it''

You want to listen, you want it to continue...

you want to be led by this melody to the next and the next and the next vision

And you see more and more... and every door opens and you see even more

Sergei Vasilyevich Rachmaninoff died in Beverly Hills on March 28th, 1 943...

a few days short of his 70th birthday

He had composed four piano concertos, three operas, 80 songs...

over 1 00 pieces for piano including two sonatas...

numerous choral works for the church - and three symphonies...

the second ofwhich, Rachmaninoff himself conducted the premiere in St Petersburg...

on the 26th January, 1 908, in the Mariinsky Theatre

After his death, since return of the body to Europe was impossible in wartime...

he was buried in a cemetery he and his wife had chosen, outside New York...

appropriately called ''Valhalla'' - the place of the Gods

And his death certificate it said simply: "Composer".

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