All language subtitles for Aardvark 2017

[woman] Obviously,
working from home,

I'll ask that you
respect my privacy.

That said,
what we share in this room
is also private,

and, of course,
I will respect that
in turn.

I could just imagine myself
spending a lot of time here,

letting my mind...
wander.

[clears throat]

So you say you've been
to therapy before?

Yes.

And what brings you back?

Um, wanting to
get my act together.

I got a new job.
New therapist.
New prescriptions.

So you're seeing
a psychiatrist as well?

I've been
on medication
before too.

And what medication
was that?

You know,
I also got a new job.

Yes, you said that.

And do you
have health insurance
through them?

Oh, God, no, no.

It's a grungy
little coffeehouse
downtown.

I'd be lucky
to get a paycheck.

Well, you have
several options there.

Money's not an issue.

Oh, you know what,
we can settle at the...

Well.

Perfect.

So no suicidal thoughts?

No thoughts
of harming yourself
or others in any way?

No, absolutely not.
I checked "no"
on all that stuff.

Well, is there anything
in particular

that prompted you
to return to therapy?

My brother's back in town.

He's been gone
for a long time.

Well, how long
is a long time?

Fifteen, 16 years.

Oh.

[dog barking, faint]

So it's not
a simple relationship?

Relationships
with actors never are.

So your brother's
an actor.

Would I know him?

If you ever meet him,
don't ask him that.

Okay.

The truth is, he's one
of the great talents
of his generation.

He's like that guy
you see and you go,
"Oh, shit, that guy."

Okay, so then
he's very successful?

He's one of
the great talents
of his generation.

He's completely
unrecognizable
from role to role.

But what you just said
made him seem--

It can be gradual.

What can be gradual?

Recognizing him.

Do you watch a lot
of television?

No, I don't. Sorry.

[sighs]

[woman] Well, hi there, Emily.
Hey, Abigail.

I wasn't sure
if I should expect you
after the last time.

You're the first one here.
Come in, come in.

I wanted to speak
with you privately.

Oh.

I think
I need to quit
the book club.

Sweetie,
is that really necessary?

I think so.

I don't think Sela meant
to attack you personally.

My taste is not
that incredibly obscure.

Of course not.

Alice Munro
is not obscure.

It's just someone
Sela's not familiar with.

[Emily sighs]
You're old.

I mean, collectively...

and I'm the youngest one
in the group.

I feel that I am
having trouble...
relating.

I just thought that it was
the least I could do
to tell you in person.

[sighs]

Put yourself
in my shoes.

[woman on TV]
I had your back.

You'll never know everything
I did for you.

[man]
And I'm grateful for that.

[woman] So why can't you
do this one simple thing
for me?

[man] Because
this isn't about us.

This is about a city
that's broken and
needs to be put back together.

[woman] You never cease
to amaze me, Nate.

[man]
We both want the same thing.
Justice.

[woman] No, you want to
save the world.

I'm too selfish for that.

So please don't call me anymore,
at 2:00 in the morning
or otherwise.

[man] Monica,
let's finish what we started.

[light rock music]

[music on headphones]
[man] Well, I'll be.

Anthony.
Hey, sweetheart.

[laughs]
Hey.

Oh. [chuckles]
Oh! Wow. Wow.

This is not where
I would have expected
to find you.

Well, according
to my physician,

it's time to get
the old ticker in tune.
Ah.

And an ex of mine
always had good things
to say about these trails.

Ah. [laughs]
Yeah, they're a great place
to be alone.

Yeah.

So, what mile
are you on?

Oh, I'm just starting.

Well, I'm afraid
it's not for me.
Unfortunately. Sorry.

No, no.
Why are you apologizing?

Right.
That's your thing,
right?

Well, it was nice
seeing you.

Hey, I'd like to
take you to dinner.

Anthony.
No, I'm serious.
Just as friends.

Really?

Really.

Okay.

Okay, why not?

Excellent. Good.
I'll-I'll call you.

[giggles]

[sighs] And now
if you'll excuse me,

I have to go back
to my desk.

[giggles]
Okay.

Okay.
All right.

Oh, hey...

Okay.
Yeah.

All right.

[music continues on headphones]

[song playing, faint]

[boy] Josh?

Josh?

Mmm.

What are you doing?

Nothing, really.

I mean, it's slow.
Is there...

Should I be
doing something?

We're low on milk.

Yes.

Do you want me
to use less?

No, I'd like you
to go get some.

[objects rattling]

[sighs] Sh...

Josh!
Josh, my man!

[sighs]
Josh, wait up!

You got a smoke?

Uh, I don't smoke.
I told you that yesterday
and the day before.

Damn.

I gotta make friends
with more smokers.

Thing's gettin'
real expensive
these days.

I wish I could help.

How about you
loan me $10?

What did you do with the $10
I gave you yesterday?

You didn't give me
no $10.

I didn't?
No.

You said you weren't
giving me money
for cigarettes.

Then why are you asking me
for money again today?

I'm starving.

I-I need to get
something to eat.

Well, your lead-in
was all wrong.

Ah!

Fine.

[sighs]

Here.

But if you spend this money
on anything other than food,

I will be
eternally heartbroken.

And I'll probably kill myself.

I don't need all that
on my conscience.

Are you hungry or not?
Yes. I'm hungry.

Then take it.

But no cigarettes.
Or Heroin.

[scoffs]
Ten dollars ain't gonna
get me much heroin, now, is it?

[laughs]
I wouldn't know.

[sighs]

You seen
your brother?

What?

You've seen
your brother yet?

You were
looking for him,
weren't you?

Yeah. I was, but...

It might just be a rumor.
It might not even be true.

I heard it from some chick
I went to middle school with.

She said she ran into him
and they spoke,

and he said that he was
only going to be around
for a little while.

But how long
is a little while?

That's the question.

I have no idea.

How you reckon
you're gonna find him?

Well, what's
his name again?

Craig.

How're you gonna
track Craig down?

Craig knows where I am.

Damn right.

Damn right
he knows where you are.

Holy shit, dude.

Holy shit.

[her voice] My man.

You're unbelievable.

You really are.

I spent months
on this one.

Lucille.

Bag lady.

Had to get
every last detail.

This is
your best work by far,
without question.

This one
was all for you.

I knew you'd appreciate it.

If I'm being honest though,
I do sort of wonder why

you wouldn't
come to me as yourself
if you're really back.

This is what I do, Josh.

Honestly, I don't even think
I'd recognize you at this point.

It's been forever.

Josh, you know
exactly what I look like.

If I was just myself...

I wouldn't know what to say.

[store clerk]
Josh, seriously?

You've been gone
almost half an hour.

Yeah, um, all right.

Hey.

You okay?

-[drunken laughter]
-No, no, no, no.

There go three douchebags.

[store clerk] Josh!

Okay. Yeah.

[faint squealing]

[footsteps]

[knocking]

[clears throat]

[sniffs]

Hi.

I almost called you
Dr. Milburton, but you're
not a doctor, are you?

No.

I'm a licensed
clinical social worker.

Licensed is good.
Mm.

Well, I'm glad
we could see
each other today,

because you seem
a little on edge.

But that said,
I won't always be able to
accommodate last-minute calls.

I had a cancellation today.

Are you all right?

I should be asking you that.

Why is that?

You look tired.

Why did you
want to see me today?

Did you see
your brother?

Yes.

And how was that?

It's hard to say.

Was it
a planned meeting?

No.

So you just bumped
into him, like,
on the street, or...

Yeah, sort of.

Did you try to engage him?

Why aren't you sleeping?

Do you know
what you should try?

Watching television.

Have you seen
South Street Law,
starring Craig Lewis Norman?

Uh, I might have.
I'm not sure.

I have.

All 12 seasons
more than once.

The first three seasons
actually aren't that bad.

Is Craig Lewis Norman
your brother?

It's not his best work.

It's paycheck shit, you know.
There's no craft to it.

But you can get
a great look at him.

Well, if you were
to see Craig again,

would you want to
engage with him?

[nose honks]

Right when he booked the gig,
the South Street Law pilot,

it was a really rough time
for my parents.

They had this one kid,
Craig,

who lived clear
on the other side
of the country,

who didn't seem like
he was ever coming back.

And this other kid
who nobody knew

if he was going to
have to wear Velcro shoes
his whole life.

I don't understand.

I have to tell you something.

[exhales]
I have a condition.

I have since I was 19.

What condition is that?

It doesn't have a name.

Or at least all the conditions
that do have names
aren't a great match.

And the medication
that you've been prescribed,

is that specifically
to treat this condition?

Sometimes it is, yeah.

And what was the diagnosis
when you were 19?

I do perfectly fine
at life.

We all have our good days
and our bad days, right?

Mm-hmm. But you
must want help, right?

Otherwise,
you wouldn't come to me.

How have your parents
been handling things
more recently?

My parents are both dead.

Could I speak...
Could I speak with Craig?

No.

Why not?

Because I don't have
his phone number.

But he has some way
of reaching you?

He sent me money.

Every month.

For...

I don't even remember.

[chattering]

[exhales]

Emily.

Hi, Don. I hope
you're not too busy.

I should have called first.
I-I know.

You look well.

Thank you.
Same to you.

You're right.
You should have called.

So, what's the story?

[sighs]
I have a new patient.

A challenging patient?

I can't tell
if he's bipolar

or if he has some sort
of dissociative disorder...

Does he experience
bouts of mania?

I don't know.

Do you find him
difficult to reach?

Does his grasp
on reality seem looser
than it should be?

Is he paranoid?

I can't really tell yet.

Then what makes you think
he has one of these
64-cent conditions?

Because he told me.
More or less.

Well, there are
records somewhere.
Who referred him?

The Internet.
He's paying cash.

[scoffs]
Oh, God.

He may be dysfunctional
in other ways,

but if he's paying you cash
to treat him
for schizophrenia,

then he's certainly
not schizophrenic.

I didn't say
that he's schizophrenic.

I wish
I could be more helpful.

He has a brother.

Oh, does he?

Why don't you
publish a paper
on him then?

Look,
I'm really quite busy.

You told me
I could always come to you.

But I didn't mean it.

You're not very good
at reading people,
are you?

It hurts me to see you.

Can you understand?

You called me a slut.

And yet
here you are.

� I tried to make peace �

� I've had luck in love �

� There's darkness �

� Where those points
Shine brightest �

[music warbling]

[man]
Okay. [laughs]

[laughs]

[laughing on phone]

[noises on phone]
[laughs]

[laughing]

[laughing continues]

Josh?

Against my better judgment,
I am actually leaving.

You got that thing.

It's my cousin's band.

That sounds fun.

You remember
how to lock up, right?

[keys jingle]

I'll check in
after the show.

[laughing continues
on phone]

[horn toots]

[phone vibrates]

[sighs]

-[man] Excuse me?
-[screams] Oh!

Oh, sorry. Uh, is this
71 East Willow Street?

I'm looking for
Dr. Emily Milburton.

Oh, it's you.
You look just like
your picture online.

It's a great picture,
by the way.

Sorry, I'm Craig Norman.
Joshua Norman's brother.

Yeah. I know. I mean...

Yes. I can see a...
a familiarity in the eyes.

Huh.

What, to Josh?
Really?

I don't think
we look anything alike.

I'm not a doctor.

Sorry, what?

I'm a therapist,
but I'm not a doctor.

Oh. Okay.
Are you allowed to...

tell me if you're seeing
my brother as a patient?

Is that illegal?
Can you tell me that?

No, no, that's not illegal.
Yeah. Um, yes,
Josh is my patient.

Wow, who's this asshole?

Okay, that's
my personal phone.
Can you--

Hold on,
just a one second.

[phone vibrating]

[vibrating]
Hey, now you
have my number.

[scoffs]

Sorry,
that wasn't
really fair.

What do you want,
exactly?

It's late, and, um,
this is v-very unusual.

Ah, sorry, yes,
you're right,
this is, uh...

unusual. Um.
[sighs]

But since it appears
that your plans
for tomorrow night

have been canceled...

would you like
to have dinner with me
tomorrow night instead?

We could go to Caproni's.

I haven't been there
since... prom.

Uh, what do you think?
8:00?

Yeah.
8:00 should work...

Great. Okay.
I will see you there.

Um... oh.

Uh, if I
wanted to get back
to 22?

Um, you're driving?

Walking. I thought
I would give that a try.

[laughs, hiccups]

Okay. Um, well,
you're gonna take a right

out of the driveway,

and then a left
on Glen Rock,

and you'll follow that
until it becomes
Springfield Highway,

and then you'll hit 22
in about half a mile.

Okay, and so a right
and then a left?

Mm-hmm.
And I'm good.

Yes.

Okay.

Got it.
See you tomorrow.

[song playing, faintly]

[dishes clatter]

[radio static]

[clattering]

[police radio chatter]

-How's it going?
-Fine.

[police radio chatter]

What were you watching?

I'm sorry.
Was I being too loud?

No. I'm just...
curious.

It's a video of a guy
getting kicked in his balls
by a donkey.

I just wanted to be sure
it wasn't, um,

you know, some kind of
official business.

[police radio]
122-B on Ironwood Drive.
Any available units.

Repeat, 122-B in progress.

Copy that.
This is Davenham.

I'll check it out.

Hey.

You know what that is?
A 122-B?

It means there's
a verifiable likelihood

that someone will steal
two youth-sized bikes

for no other purpose
than to race them.

Now,

who do you think
would do such a thing?

Come on, bud.

We've got some bikes to steal.

[clattering]

[quiet chuckle]

I really don't
understand how you
had time for this one.

I studied clowning
in Europe.

I'm not sure
I see the connection.

Total body control, baby.

I can assume
a new character

with just a few
carefully selected movements.

And a ridiculous
fake goatee.

Hey! The goatee is real.

Yeah, but you know that
I really hate cops, Craig.

But I'm not really
a cop, am I?

What if I have a flashback
and I start tweaking out?

Then I guess we would call it
my most convincing
performance to date.

But it's all
an illusion, Josh.

You know that.

Come on, man.
You used to beg
to hang out with me.

What's the problem?

Brother,
I cannot do this alone.

Come on. This is it.

[upbeat music]

Come on, Josh!
[laughing]

My man! On the run!

Whoo!
Whoo! That's what
I'm talking about.

We're the police, baby!

[laughs]
Come on, man!

[laughs]
[man sings]
� On the wind �

You just gotta
put your heart into it,
baby!

� The clown in a car �

[man] Hey!
I'll show you who...

Hey, what the hell
are you doing?

Oh, shit. I'll see you
at the rendezvous point.

Wait.
Craig, I don't even know
where that is!

Come on!
Get off that bike!

[panting]
[beeping]

Hey. It's you.

Hey. Uh... I work here.

Oh, I'm glad somebody does.
I've been sitting here
for 30 minutes.

[panting]

You okay?

You're breathing
really hard.
Were you running?

No. I mean,
literally, yes, but...

Not, like, out for a run.

Oh.

What about you?

What brought you out
this evening?

Well...

I like to walk around
at night, then...

thought I might
have a coffee.
I saw this coffee shop.

Okay, yes,
that makes perfect sense.

Do you think you're going
to go walking tomorrow?

I imagine so.

Could I join you?

There's a gas station
at 22 and Springfield.

We could meet there.

I'm Josh, by the way.

Josh.

Hannah.

Hannah.
[chuckles]

Do you still...
want a coffee?

Nah, it's okay.

See you tomorrow?
You bet.

[entrance alarm beeps]

Well, the place
is still standing.

That's certainly
a positive.

Uh, look,

I'm going to need you
to close again
tomorrow night,

So let's just go over a few--
I quit.

[scoffs]
What?

[footsteps running]

So, um...

Emily, I won't always
be able to accommodate
last-minute calls.

This is not
a normal thing for me,

and I am sorry
for interrupting your day.

Oh, um...

You didn't
interrupt anything.
Don't worry.

That was a joke.

I'm actually always
available to accommodate
last-minute calls.

Have you spoken
to your brother yet?

Why? Have you? [laughs]

No.

I haven't.

But after our last session,
I was worried about you.

My condition?
Well, yeah.
[clears throat]

But that's not
what this is about.

Hold--
I'm not saying--
No. Um...

I'm not saying that
you wanted to see me

like you have a crush
on me.

And I definitely
don't have a crush
on you.

You do have a certain way
of presenting yourself,
which is...

Okay, I don't think that
you have a crush on me.

Oh.

Mm-mmm.

I wanted to see
if you were okay,

and was worried about you,
but you seem fine.

You really seem fine.

But you could have asked
if I was okay
over the phone.

Yeah, well...
sometimes a therapist will--

You have
something important
to tell me.

I never said that.

You didn't have to.

So, what is it?
What is what?

The important thing.

There is no important thing.

Why aren't you
sleeping?

Oh.
I don't know.

Have you watched
South Street Law yet?

The first three seasons
are really very strong.

Um...

I'm not gonna
charge you.

Ha, ha.

That will be all?

Yeah. [exhales]

Oh, um...

I quit my job.

Oh. Uh, okay.
Do you want to...

No. It's great.

Hello.

Hey.

Do you like my shirt?

Uh, sure.

I got it at a real discount
'cause it was marked irregular.

But sometimes
irregular things
can be just fine.

Shall we?

[laughs] Sorry.

Sorry, it's just, uh...

Just... Let's go.
Come on.

[piano music playing, faintly]

No. No, no.

[exhales]

Emily.

[sighs] Yes.

Have you ever
been in a car
that's run out of gas?

No.

Me, neither.

Kind of
makes you think,
right?

Think what?

All this gas stuff,
like this dependence
on foreign oil

and whatever,
or oil in general,

it's like, what if they've
just convinced us all
that our cars need gas

to run when really
they'd run just fine
without it?

That's why no one
really gives a shit
if we run out of oil,

because it was useless
to begin with,

and once it's gone,
they'll just wax nostalgic

about the good old days
when they could sell people
what's basically mud

like it was gold
or something,

which is
also pretty useless,
if you ask me.

I don't know
if that all
really holds up.

You're right.
It's just something
I think about.

Hey...

how's this walk
going for you?

So far, so good.

Well, this is great.

I can see
why you like this.

Cool.

I-I was a student
at the college.

Oh, yeah?

Yeah, that's how
I ended up here.

Born and raised, myself.

I didn't graduate.

Eh, who needs it?

No, it was my choice.

It just kept
going on and on,
you know?

No. Um...

I didn't go to college.

Do you have
a lot of friends?

Like real friends,
or on Facebook?

Real friends, for sure.
No.

I have a lot on Facebook.

So you only have, like...

a few quality real ones?

I guess.

One more quality
than the others?

I wouldn't say that.

What?

I've just...

been worried.

About what?

That you're maybe
some sort of criminal...

who spotted me
for a mark, and...

you need me
to kill someone for you
or you'll harvest my organs.

Oh.

Well, I'm not.

Huh. I can't tell you
what a relief that is.

Because when I first saw you,
I thought that this
could really work.

I thought maybe
we'd really hit it off.

Wait,
so when did you decide that
I wanted to harvest your organs?

I don't remember.

Thank you.

Well, so you're an actor.
Is that right?

Yes.

I'm sorry.
I don't watch
very much TV.

[chuckles] That's okay.

That is, however, where I do
the majority of my work.

What's the show?
South Street Law.

Mmm.

If you're interested, it is...
pretty much...
everywhere,

I think, at this point.

It's a very big hit, right?
Or was-- was a very big hit.

I was very lucky.

Um... but that is
all over now.

Well, why is it
that you're back in town?

Josh mentioned that
both of your parents are...

Real estate issues.
Really?

I own some property--
I was left some property
in town,

when my parents died,

um...
and I got an offer
on it out of the blue.

So I wanted to make sure
there were no...

weird issues.

Hm. This time of year,
I would have thought...

Well, I mean,

I'm not kidding myself
about what the property's worth.

I mean...
But I thought for Josh,

you know,
that I would sell it and...

and give the money to Josh.

But you-- He says
you haven't seen him
in, like, 15 years?

I just...
I did wonder how you
knew he was my patient?

Uh, well,
I pay his phone bill,

so I did a reverse look-up
on some of the numbers.

Um, I don't usually
like to pry,

but, you know,
he doesn't really call
that many people,

so I was actually thrilled
to find out that
you were a therapist.

But don't you
want to be in contact
with him yourself?

He says he doesn't even
have your phone number.

Well, you know...
Josh is a pretty
disturbed individual.

I just mean,
a piece of property
around here

probably isn't
anything to you.

I'm just surprised
that you would come
all this way for that.

Um, you know what?

I think
I don't want to talk about
Josh anymore.

Well, talk to me
about acting then.

Okay, what do you
want to know?

� I hope you had
A very, very merry �

� And that your season's wishes
Came true �

� But mine were all
Quite the contrary �

� For I received a gift
Of the blue �

Is it time
to say good night?

I think so, yeah.

Maybe we could hang out again?

If the weather holds.

That was a really
nice walk, Josh.
Thanks.

I figured
this place was closed.

It is, isn't it?

That door...
Something just moved.

Maybe it was a light
or something.

It must have been.

-Just go.
-What?

It's better that way.

But you do
want to hang out again?

I'll see you soon then.

Hey. There's nothing
to be sad about.

[footsteps departing]

[no audible dialogue]

� Being alone
It can be quite romantic �

� Like Jacques Cousteau
Underneath the Atlantic �

� A fantastic voyage
To parts unknown �

� Going to depths
Where the sun's never shone �

� And I fascinate myself
When I'm all alone �

� So I go a little overboard
But hang on to the hull �

� While I'm airbrushing
Fantasy art on a life �

� That's really kind of dull �

� Oh, I'm in a lull �

� Oh, I'm in a lull �

[Emily] So,

it's been almost a week.

That's a record for us.

How are you feeling?

Fine.

Good.

Well, I feel like I have to ask,
and you don't have to tell me,

but... have you been taking
your medication?

No.

Why not?

Is that
a serious question?
Yes.

You do know those drugs
make men grow tits, right?

They're not without risk.

And I don't want to be
lost to the world.

But isn't the point
of therapy and medication

to bring you back
into the world?
[scoffs]

[sighs]

I have a confession
to make.

Okay.

I've been watching
South Street Law.

[exhales]

So?

Craig, huh?

You're right.
He's very good.

Do you find him
attractive?

Well, I wasn't
thinking of him
that way.

Oh.
Well, what way were you
thinking of him?

Not that way.

Mm-hmm.
I wanted to get a sense of
where you were coming from.

Oh, so you're watching
South Street Law.

Good for you.
I take after our mom.

I wasn't looking
for a resemblance.

Okay,
that's bullshit.
But fine.

[sighs]

I'm sorry, Josh.
Is something bothering you?

You didn't believe
that I had a famous brother,

that he was a great actor,
so you had to see
for yourself.

Well, whether or not
I believe you
is not an issue.

So you still don't.

I'm just trying to understand.

There are things I could
tell you about my brother

that you really
wouldn't believe.

Like... Like what?

I was lying when
I said I haven't seen him
for 15 years.

I have seen him.
He comes to me.
But only in character.

So you see Nate Marcus,
and not Craig Norman?

Sometimes he comes to me
as an old homeless woman.
Sometimes...

I mean,
Craig took clowning in Europe.
Did you even know that?

He has amazing command
over his body!

So when...
when you see
an old homeless woman,

how do you know
that it's Craig?

We talk!
We talk!

[gulps, exhales]
And then what?

Let me ask you a question.
Let me ask you a question.
Is it real?

When I see him,
when I talk to him,
is it real?

Most of the time,
our perceptions...

Please just answer
the question.

I'm not sure that it matters.

You charge for this?

Josh, hold on.

Just...
if you want to go now, do you
want to come back tomorrow?

[door slams]

There you are.

[chuckles]
Did I tell you
where I live?

Yeah, you did.

The downstairs door
was unlocked, so.

Yeah,
the downstairs door
is always unlocked.

I don't think the lock
even works.

I thought we were
going to hang out,
so I...

Yeah,
I thought we were
gonna hang out too.

I've been looking
everywhere for you.

I haven't seen you
for days.

I figured
you were gone.

Gone?
Like, I moved away?

[sighs]
What have you
been up to?

I don't know.

Stuff.
[chuckles]

What have you been doing?

Have you
been out walking?

I tried.
It's not as fun alone.

I know. I was just out
walking for hours alone.
It sucks.

Right?

Okay, I'll take you
for a walk. Come on.

If you've been walking
for hours, aren't you tired?
You want a break?

No. Come on.

Are you thirsty?
You want some water
or something?

No.

Can I use your bathroom?

Sorry.

Yeah. You can
use my bathroom.

[knocking]

[lock clicks]

It's nice to
see you again.

[squeaks]

What?

Nothing.

[door closes]

[Josh] Since you're here,
do you want to watch
TV or something?

I don't usually have people
over, um, but if you
wanted to watch something...

So this is where
the magic happens.

Yeah, I should have said.
This space is off-limits.

[sighs]

I hope you can understand.

[scoffs]

Did you ever
study clowning
in Europe?

[chuckles]

Wow,
did Josh tell you that,

or did you read that
somewhere on the Internet?

I didn't look you up
on the Internet.
Uh-huh.

[scoffs]

[chuckles]

Well, I did go to Europe
for a little bit,

and clowning
was meant to be...
on the agenda.

[chuckles]
Um...

It was right before
I split to go to LA.

I was basically looking
for any reason to...
drop out of school.

I vaguely remember
telling Josh
something about that.

But, no, I never went
to a single class.

I just sort of dicked around
Paris for a little while,
then came home.

Hmm. Well, it must
have stuck with him.

Isn't that weird?

You must get that
all the time, like...

people remembering, like,
weird things that...

I mean,
I remember this one time...

vividly...

Josh came with me
and a bunch of friends
to the zoo, right?

He was little.

We thought
we'd play a prank on him.

We would run ahead,
hide behind trees,
yell his name and...

hide in a tunnel.

[exhales]

He was like eight,
and he was terrified,
and he ran away.

And... I remember
being so pissed.

I had to look for him
for, like, 20 minutes.

I could not find him
and I just remember...
[inhales]

[sighs]
being so angry.

And now, obviously,
realizing it was awful,

especially given...
[clicks tongue]

how everything
turned out.
[sighs]

[groans]

Is that normal?
To remember things
like that?

Like you said,
people hold onto
all sorts of things.

Yeah, I guess.

I was really glad
to hear from you
after the other night.

[sighs]

[sighs]

I'm sorry I had to leave.
I had to get back to LA...
Mmm.

to test for this
new television show.

Oh? Did you book it
or get it or whatever?
Yes. Yes, I did. I did.

Congratulations.
That's great.
Thank you.

Thank you.
I'm not going to do it.

Really?
No. It's terrible.

I mean, it's terrible.
[laughs]

[chuckles]
It's embarrassing.

[chuckles]

[sighs]

What about
your real estate?
How's that going?

Well, you know,
I mean, it's...

as soon as I sell,
the house is toast.

It's just...
I mean, I don't even know
what anyone would do with it.

Hold on.

Would this be
your childhood home
we're talking about?

Yeah, I mean,
the house is basically
falling down.

I mean,
not literally but...

I mean,
I don't even know...

I mean, you'd have to
deal with the mold, and...
[exhales]

Things are probably
for the best
the way they are now.

No.

No what?

Things are not best
the way they are.

They're actually
pretty bad.

I don't understand.

For Josh.

Well, I mean,

I'm gonna go soon
and then everything
will be back to normal.

You need to see him.

Is that your advice
as his therapist?

As his therapist
who's currently sleeping
with his brother?

Yes.

As a therapist, yes.

[sighs]
And he needs much better care
than what I can give him.

Well, maybe I'll stop
paying for it then.

[sighs]

I think
Josh hallucinates.

You think he hallucinates?

Yeah, no, he hallucinates.
He-He's schizophrenic.

Or...
Or maybe bipolar or
maybe schizoaffective

or maybe all of the above.

I mean, do you have any idea
how long I've been
hearing about this

and dealing with this?
Craig.

I mean, God, that is...
That is not why I am here.

It's you.

[sighs]

You are
what he hallucinates.

Me?

As different characters
that you've played.

What-What are you
talking about?
Like Nate Marcus? What?

No, but...
like the...

like an old
homeless woman?

When would I ever have played
an old homeless woman?

[sighs]

Why don't we go to bed?

Okay, well,

I'll call you before I leave.

[sighs]

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry
about my place.
Don't be.

I want to be able
to have you over and stuff,
watch TV, and...

But I...

I just don't really
have people over right now.
It's not something that I do.

After my mom died...

She died of breast cancer...

and my dad
had a heart attack.

He went first.
It was really sudden.

So that was a bad year.

Anyway,
after all that happened,
I would just...

sleep outside...

for, like,
weeks at a time.

I would get
so fucking cold sometimes.

But it just kept going on
for a while, like,
years, I think, maybe?

I think it was years.

But you know how it is,
and then I moved into
my current apartment.

I have to tell you
something about myself.

When I was 19, I w--
I had a psychotic episode.

And I ended up
in the hospital
for almost a week.

Most of that in restraints.

You can ask me
for more details,
but I honestly don't have them.

You'd have to ask
a doctor or someone.

I've taken
different medications,

had different treatments
of all kinds.

I have a brother.

But he hasn't been around
very much.

Hey, is there anything
that you want to tell me
about yourself?

[men, quiet]
Josh. Josh. Josh...

[jeering laughter]

Hey!
Don't listen to them.

Douchebags!

Josh!
What did you say?

-Let's make this quick.
-Josh, come back!

Make what quick?
Very funny.
Which one of you is it?

Holy shit.
What do you want from me,
Craig?

My name's not Craig.

I know what this is.

Jesus, psycho.

Shut up. I know what this is.

Josh!

-I know what this is!
-Josh!

I know you're doing this
to try to mess with me!

I know you're trying
to get to me!
I just don't know why.

Back off.

What do you want from me,
Craig?

What do you want from me?
Ow!

Dude!
He deserves it.

-[coughing]
-Come on, bro. We gotta
get out of here.

No, he deserves it.

[grunts]

[phone ringing]

Uh, Emily Milburton.

Is everything okay?
Are you looking
for someone?

Yeah,
I'm looking for Josh Norman.
He's my patient.

I'm the one
who called you.

Okay,
I want to see Josh.

[clears throat]
He had this
in his wallet.

I'm sorry.
You're his therapist?

Yeah. I'm his therapist.

So I don't need to show you
his rather impressive file?

Who's prescribing
his medications?

I don't know.

The guy has prescriptions
all over the planet.

I mean,
I would love to give him
a real painkiller, but...

Yeah,
he's not a drug addict.

He has prescriptions
for ziprasidone,

olanzapine, risperidone,
but the benzos are
what really have me worried.

He's not taking them.
He's not taking any of them.

Oh. Wonderful.
You do realize
he's schizophrenic, right?

Can you step aside please?

-The police are on their way.
I don't think it's a good idea.
-Step aside!

Emily.

You're in a hospital,
Josh.

[sighs]
You had a-a little card
in your wallet.

[groans]
Oh, Jesus.

Oh, Jesus.

Oh, my head hurts
really bad.

Yeah, I'm sorry.

The police
want to speak with you.

Hospitals and police.
It's my favorite things.

Well, you were attacked,

and they need
to find out who did it.

Is there a cop there,

right on the other side
of that curtain?

No.

I asked them
to give us some time.

What about the girl?

What girl?

The girl that I was with.
Is she okay?

I don't know.
I didn't hear anything
about a girl.

Josh, do you think
that it was Craig
who did this to you?

It was three
douchebags.

One douchebag
in particular.

But I... I don't think
we can rule Craig out.

You just said it was--
I know what I said.

[whispers] 'Kay.
[sighs]

I'm gonna go
get the officer.

I've seen Craig...

since he's been back.

Did you sleep with him?

Why...

Why would you ask that?
That's very personal.

Yes, it is.

I, uh...

I'm sorry.
I don't make very good decisions
in that way.

I'm sorry.

Why don't you just go?

[printer printing]

[sighs]

[knocking]

Where the hell
were you?

I'm sorry. What?
I...

[sighs]

I've been calling you,
like, all day.

Josh was in the hospital
last night.

He got in a fight.
He got beaten up.

Okay, when exactly
did you call me?

All day. All day
I have been calling you.

I-- I was busy.

With what?
It's none of your business.

Well, I had to tell him.

W... That's on you.

Well, he already knew somehow.

Well, I have to leave
first thing
tomorrow morning, so...

No.
Sorry.

You can't.

I'm a horrible person,
all right?

But you need
to see your brother,

and you need to let him see
that you are real.

How did he react?

When you told him...

we were
sleeping together?
[scoffs]

He was very upset.
Yeah.

I'm pretty sure
he knows I'm real.

Please.

Look, you want to
know why you're
not a good therapist?

It's not because
you're a horrible person.

It's because
you're alone.

Nothing has any context.

I bet you just sit there
and nod your head

while people cry
about their problems to you,
hmm?

Am I right?

I mean,
what are you
supposed to say?

Okay then, Debbie,
have a good week.

[knocking]

Oh, Debbie, Debbie.
Debbie.

[sighs]

I didn't think
I'd see you again.

I'm not coming back.

You don't need to
find a new time for me.

I understand.

So they never caught
the douchebag.

I'm sure if they had,
he would have just
hired a lawyer

and cried
"crazy person."

I'm sorry.

But it's not your fault.

I just wanted to make sure
that you're okay.

That's very nice,
but I'm fine.

Have you, um...
Seen Craig?

No.

I started
taking my meds again.

Uh, I don't have
the sweats or the jitters.

And I can still...
open my jaw.

Uh, that's
a good thing.

And I guess
I have more clarity.

Like, I'm not seeing
and hearing things
that aren't there.

Well, that's good.

That's very, very good.

Is that
what you believe?
Really?

'Cause I miss them,
you know?

I really miss those things
that weren't there.
Isn't that weird?

I think
it's perfectly natural.

I miss certain of them
more than others,
I think.

[sighs]

I haven't...
[chuckles]

I haven't seen him either.

Of course
you haven't.

Well,
I don't think I will...

see him again.

Emily, I know that you only
said what you said because

you felt the need to lash out,
and you were angry with me.

What?

And I think that
you're a very lonely person.

I am too.

It's easy for us
to get carried away.

I don't understand.

Emily, you never
slept with my brother.

I'm sorry, Josh.
[scoffs]

I am so sorry, but I did.

That's impossible.

Why is that?
Because I am my brother.

I am Craig Norman.

I have been
the whole time.

[laughs]

Sorry,
I'm just kidding you.

I'm just messing with you.
I'm not Craig Norman.

[chuckles]

Wha...
No, no, whoa, no.

I was just joking.
I was joking.
It was a joke.

[gasping]
No, no, whoa, whoa, whoa.

[sobbing]
Whoa, whoa, hey, hey.

How could we possibly
be the same person?

I mean,
you must have Googled him
at least, right?

[sobbing]
He's famous.

[sniffles]

[sobs]

[panting]

I just...

I can't believe
he would come all this way
and not have seen you.

I guess he really
didn't want to.

[sniffles, sighs]

[door closes]

Craig Lewis Norman?

Yeah.
It's me.

It's really you, huh?

Yes.

So, this is
what you look like now.

I hope you're not
disappointed.

You look a little
like Nate Marcus,

if I'm being honest.
[scoffs]

Ah, well...

Typecasting, I guess.

Emily?

[door closes]

Uh, I made her come.

You sure it wasn't
the other way around?

You can call me anytime, Josh.

Come in. Both of you.

Um...

Do you want
some water?

I'll...

I'm okay.

Emily?

Um...

Where's your bathroom?

It's just...
Just through there.

Here, let me...

Thanks.

You don't--
You don't have to...

It's good to see you, buddy.

It's good to see you're still
in one piece.

[Josh]
A couple of bruises
is all it was.

My schnoz is healed.
I could probably take this off,
actually.

They ever catch the guy?

It's just
a few douchebags.
What can you do?

Well, I was worried, you know.
I was worried when I heard.

I must have changed
my flight back home
five different times.

You staying
at the old house?

No. No,
I thought about it
when I...

first made plans
to come out here.

But then I saw the place
and I thought, oh, great.

Been trying to make up my mind
what to do with it, you know?

What do you think?

It's your house.

It was left to you.
It wasn't left to me.

Yeah, I know that, Josh,
but I'm asking you.

I mean,
you have every right--

Um, I bet I look really,
um...

I bet I look
really different than...

what you remember
from the last time
you saw me, huh?

Josh, it was seven years ago
when we saw each other last.

Do...
Do you not remember that?

[Josh]
No, that's not...
That's not right.

That's definitely
not right.
It was 15 or--

It was when dad died.

When dad died,
and I got the call,

and I came here,
and Mom was as good as gone,
and no one could find you.

I looked all over for you.

You weren't at the house.
The hospital said
you were never there.

And I found you...

living on the street.

[scoffs]

Never at the hospital is...

That's not exactly true.

[Craig]
Josh, I could have
put you in an institution.

But I put you here
instead.

I thought it would be
more manageable for you
than living in the house.

Well, I should go.

-No, it's...
-Yeah, it's okay, Josh.

[Craig]
Josh, yeah, I just...

I-I had to stay away.

What?
Before.

I had to.

But I kept you
in my thoughts.

And not the money,
that's not...

I just...

You know, I keep thinking.
I keep thinking about...

about how I...

You...

I keep thinking about
how I treated you.

[sighs]
Like the day at the zoo.

[stammering]
I think of you
just being so lost

and bewildered and abandoned,
and it just rips my heart out.

So, I'm sorry.

Apology accepted.

[sighs]

Honestly, I...

I remember always
having a great time
at the zoo.

What are you
going to do now?

Why don't you just stay?

[woman] Oh, yeah,
so he says to his boss...

-[man] I had to tell him
what I thought.
-[woman] Oh, had to?

If I hadn't told him
what I thought, then...

Oh, yeah,
that he should, you know,
go-- himself.

[man] Then we were going to
be stuck in the same rut
for the rest of our lives.

What, you and him?

You and me.

Oh.

You expecting someone?

[sighs]

No.

[dog barks]

[sighs]

[man] Lot of anger.
[woman] What?

[man] I get so
goddamn angry, you know,
I don't even know at who.

At who. At whom?

Which is it? At who?

[banging]

[man]
I am just like my father.

He was
this exact same way.

[exhales]

All right, I think
we're just about out of time.