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My mom used to tell me

never to judge people
until you know

- their story.
- Yeah. I can do that.

♪ Just talk to me now

♪ I'll help
with those demons you carry ♪

You might think you understand,

but you don't.

♪ I don't know if they go

That's why, as a patient,

- it's important to have an advocate.
- ♪ But we'll be happy ♪

♪ Someday, too ♪

Perfect timing.

I just finished my last
tele-health patient.

Oh, I just woke up.

- Aw.
- How'd you sleep?

Would have slept better
if you were laying next to me.

Someone to tell your story,

to be your voice...

...to say your name.

Especially when you don't
have the voice yourself.

♪ The great divide

Her oxygen requirements
have come down this much?

Ah. Cytokine storm's
leveling off, too.

I mean, look at her CRP,
ferritin.

That is great.

Oh, I ordered
a repeat chest X-ray

to see if the infiltrates
are decreasing, too.

You talk to her?
She feel any better?

Just long enough to tell her
that we got her into

the drug trial.
But she's pretty exhausted.

Well, it's probably
the side effects.

And she can sleep all day
if these numbers keep improving.

Keep me posted.

♪ That you are not alone

Jo? Good morning.

It's time to get up.

♪ Afloat

♪ It's a brand-new day

♪ The sun is out to play

God, will you shut up?
I'm awake.

Oh, okay.
Are you going to work?

Yes.

At the regular time or...?

Everything okay?

Oh, yeah,
everything's great.

I barely
get to operate anymore,

and when I do, they don't even
recover enough to go home.

Oh, and how could I forget

the refrigerator truck
full of dead bodies

that I get to pass on the way
from the parking lot

to the hospital?

The only reason
I'm still in bed

is that I am paralyzed
with excitement.

- So you're going?
- Why do you care?

My bike has a flat tire,
and you're my ride.

She said the salad I made was
too small.

So I go back
and make her a bigger one.

She says I must hate her
because it's too big.

- Mm.
- Just can't win.

No, she
appreciates you, Dad.

It's not her.
It's the dementia.

Knowing that
doesn't make it hurt any less.

We're gonna
get through this.

We? I only see you
on the phone.

And you can't even bother
to hold the thing still.

I have a hospital to run.

And I didn't know
there'd be a pandemic.

Ben's sister
gets to stay with you.

To... With the boys.

Who I don't see either.

Ben's staying at the station,

and half the time, I'm too tired
to make it to my hotel.

I promise Silver Villas is
more comfortable than my office.

I just hate this.
I hate all of it.

It's not fair.

Well, COVID's
not big on fair.

Listen, I have to go.

I love you.

Don't go outside, Dad, okay?
It's not safe.

Tell your mom that. She's
the one always trying to leave.

I love you, too.

Dr. Wakeman to Neurology.

Dr. Wakeman to Neurology.

Ah. Good morning, Avery.

Not really.

You know how many trachs
I've had to do this week

on long-term vent patients
'cause of COVID?

No, but I have a feeling
you're gonna tell me.

11, Richard.

Gonna be 12
in about an hour,

and this number's
gonna keep on going up,

which is why I need you
to help me with this.

Oh, when did your mother
go to San Francisco?

What? No, no. That's a...
That's a fake video background

for when she talks to Harriet.
That's not the point. Look.

You want her
to change the background?

I want you to get your wife
to wear a damn mask, okay?

She's in a germ-collecting car
with her driver with no mask.

She wears masks.

On her chin, okay,

or dangling from her ear
like a weird piece of jewelry.

She is living with cancer.
She is immunocompromised.

I got to get to surgery.

Just get her to wear the stupid
mask correctly, please.

Well, you know
what it's like

to get your mother
to do something!

Yeah, that's why
I'm calling for reinforcements.

Val Ashton,
status post right hepatectomy

with segments 5 through 8

due to bleeding
from hepatic pregnancy.

Her drains were pulled
two days ago,

but this morning
she's tachy to 120,

her BP has decreased,

and transaminases and bili
are both trending upwards.

She's kind, giving, successful,

enjoys
a raunchy romance novel.

Without shame.

I need compliments,
too, guys.

I'm glad that you're
in good spirits, Val,

but, um, your labs
are concerning.

I'm ordering a CT.

I carried a baby
in my liver.

Can't you make an exception for
moms and babies who defy odds?

I-I'm sick of video chats.

Luna's gonna think
her mom's a pixelated blob.

Technically, that's what
you'd look like even in person.

Babies can only see
about six inches in front...

Schmitt! Not the point.

Val, I know that it's not
what you wanted to hear,

but Luna's on a vent, and
moving her is very precarious.

Plus, we... we need to make sure
that you're taken care of

before you meet her.

For Luna's sake
and for yours.

Okay?

Do we know if he's okay?

Not sure. This is him.

You're not listening...

I have to be at home.
I don't want to miss it...

Oh, my God.

Okay, we have a COVID-positive male,

heart rate 123, BP 90 over 60.

Pulse ox of 92 on 100%,
high flow.

He's incoherent
and disoriented.

I just saw him
two days ago. He was fine.

Is this a stroke?

Could be. Or encephalitis
brought on by COVID.

I have tickets to Opening Day,

and David's dying
to catch a fly ball.

- Who's David?
- His son.

Let's get him
to a COVID room now.

Hang on. He's seizing.

Let's get him on his side.

Ready? 1, 2, 3.

*GREY's ANATOMY*
Season 17 Episode 05

Episode Title: "Fight the Power"
Aired on: December 10, 2020

Captioning provided by
ABC Studios and ABC, Inc.

Synchronized by srjanapala

No signs of head trauma,
but, Helm, call up to CT,

let them know we'll be
upas soon as possible.

We'll do it. Helm, out.

But I've already had COVID...

Doesn't matter.
You're a resident,

and he's positive.
Out. Now.

Get off me. Stay back.

Tom. Tom, it's me.
It's Teddy. Try to stay calm.

I... Don't...
Don't touch me.

Tom? - Take it easy. We're just trying
to take care of you.

- Push two of Ativan.
- No, I don't... I don't know you.

- I don't know you!
- He's post-ictal.

- No, I don't... I don't know you. - Just
wait a minute, and the meds will kick in.

Teddy, I got this, okay?

Please, call up to CT.

Okay.

Hey, Angel.

I'd be there with you,
but the mean doctors say no.

Can you say "mean"?

Can you hold the phone
closeenough for me to smell her head?

How about I bring you
one of her blankets?

Ah! I will literally
marry you.

Val.

Crap.
That is your bad-news face.

Your CT showed
that you have an abscess

that's eroding into an artery
in your liver,

causing what's called
a pseudoaneurysm.

Okay.

It's a weakening
of the blood vessel,

which is causing it
to leak.

We need to take you to surgery
right away to repair it.

I am so sorry
that it's not better news.

Leave.

Eight years.

I've wanted to be a mom
for eight years.

I've known my baby's name.

I've known the color
I would paint the nursery.

I've known the made-up lullaby
I would sing at night.

And now that I finally
have the chance...

being a mom
is just some weird TV show

I'm watching on my phone,

and I don't know
if it will ever be real.

Please make it real.

Have you heard about Koracick?

Yes. He's
gettingthe world's best care,

and I'm trying
not to think about it.

So, can you wait that
longfor the converted rooms?

Is sooner an option?

See, even with the lockdown,
we are getting slammed.

We got six cases today from
assisted-living facilities,

- three from the same one.
- I'll go check.

- Oh, which one?
- Silver Villas in Ballard.

COVID spreads through
those places like wildfire.

Where are you going?!

Uh, that's where
my parents are.

Next.

- A rescue mission?
- Yes.

Just stop what you're doing
and get to Silver Villas.

To grab your mom and dad?

I've been trying
to call the front office,

but they're not answering.

Well, where do you want me
to take them?

Uh, to my hotel.

Y... Uh, I don't care.
Just get them out.

Yeah, I'm on it.
I love you.

- JOkay, lap pads...
- Here you go.

Khan was an attending
in Pakistan.

We could probably
be assisting him.

Not gonna happen.

No, I know. I just...
Making a point.

Suction.

You were a vascular
surgeon, right?

Yes, Dr. Schmitt,

one of the first to be certified
in my country.

Why would you leave?

Okay, Kelly clamp.

Uh, it wasn't exactly
a choice.

I love my home,
it shaped me.

Still nice not to worry
about religious persecution

or bombings.

- So I just started over.
- Clamp.

Just?
It's a five-year residency.

If I finished this
and had to start over...

Ugh. Pass.
Can you imagine?

Can you imagine payingmore
attention to the field

so the patient
doesn't die?

Damn it.
Her tissue's so friable

it's just disintegrating
into my hands.

- We got to get control of...
- I know what we need to do!

Everyone shift. We're doing
a modified pringle maneuver.

Clamp.

Okay, thank you.

Hey. Your phone has been
ringinglike crazy.

Oh.

Oh, wow. Okay.

Uh, okay.
Let's just, uh...

- tried to call you.
- Ben, how did it...

I picked up your mom,
and she's sick. - Wait, slow down. I ca...

- We're at the hospital.
- Now?!

Right now.

Mom!

Mom?

Hey, it's me.

I'm here.

- William?
- Alright, okay.

Where...
Where... Where's William?

Mom, you're in
the hospital.

We're gonna
take care of you.

He's gonna
be here soon, right?

Okay. Yes, yes.
He's coming soon.

Okay?
Just lay back and relax.

I can't wear this.
I got to get my clothes.

Where my clothes?

Okay.
She seems really agitated.

Are there any meds
we can give her to calm her?

I can order some meds?

♪ I got sunshine

♪ On a cloudy day

- ♪ When it's cold outside ♪
- ♪ Cold outside

- ♪ I got the month of May
- ♪ I got the month of May

Yeah.

- ♪ I guess you'd say
- ♪ I guess you'd say

♪ What can make me feel this way? ♪
♪ What can make me feel... way?

- ♪ My girl
- ♪ My girl

♪ My girl

♪ Talking 'bout

- ♪ My girl
- ♪ My girl

- ♪ My girl
- ♪ My girl

What do you see, Shepherd?

Uh, I see a lesion
on his thalamus,

but it's small,
so that's something.

Have you been able to talk
to him since the seizure?

He was post-ictal,
and they gave him lorazepam,

so he wasn't really coherent.

Okay. I'm coming in.

Are... Are you sure? I mean, do
you want me to call Dr. Mehta?

It's Tom. I'm coming.

Thank you.

Uh, Ellis decided she didn't
want her mac and cheese

after begging me to make it,
so if you're hungry...

What's going on?

It looks like Tom is having some
neuro complications from COVID.

I thought he was asymptomatic. Yeah,
so did I.

I just pumped, so there is milk
in the fridge for Scout.

Uh, Bailey and Ellis
need a nap.

Make sure you check in with Zola
about her homework.

If Scout starts to fuss,
just try the yoga ball.

What am I forgetting?

To breathe.

We'll be fine here, okay?

Go. Save your friend.

He was my teacher.

And he saved my brain.

And, uh, he was my first sex
after Owen,

which shouldn't matter,
but it kind of saved me, too,

so I don't want him to die.

And I don't want to leave Scout,
and I'm scared of the pandemic.

You had sex with Koracick?

What?

Hey. Oh, um,
Mr. Anderson's trach in 4722

needs to be suctioned, please. I'm on it.

Hey, got your page.
Did you hear anything from Mom?

She's just texting me back
hearts and "Love you, baby"s

like that's gonna
shut me up.

No, I haven't had the time. Richard,
this is not something

that can wait till your schedule
frees up, right?

It's my mom. She's gonna give me
a damn rage stroke.

Bailey's mother was just
admitted, COVID-positive.

It's bad.

Look, can you fill in for her
at the board meeting today,

take a few of her patients?

We'll all pitch in.

Yeah, of course.
Whatever she needs.

We took a lot more of
her liver than I was hoping to.

Keep an eye
on her liver panel.

The next few hours
will be crucial.

You think
she'll need a transplant?

Knowing her luck, probably.

But if she needs it,
we can try liver dialysis first.

Khan, finish the op notes.
Keep an eye on her.

Dr. Wilson, thank you

for allowing me
to observe your process.

That was amazing.

She could still
need a transplant.

Yes, I understand, but
you resected most of her liver,

and she's still alive.

I mean, do you know
how rare that is?

That... That's unheard of
in so many parts of the world.

I know. Op notes.
I'm going.

Was I really amazing,

or is he just
some weird happy person?

If you impressed him,
I think amazing's a safe bet.

Glad you got
to operate again.

Her ferritin is 2087.

600 is severe in COVID.

Her CRP is 87.

Creatinine's 2.3.

W-What about
her oxygen requirements?

♪ Caught swimming in your new sundress
♪ - She's at 100% F-I-O2.

40 liters.

She went into A-fib
an hour ago.

We pushed dig,
but so far, no response.

♪ Keep living
like the sun don't set ♪

Her systolic was in the 80s,
but we pushed a fluid bolus

and got it back up
into the 90s.

So she's starting to have
multi-system organ failure

in addition
to her cytokine storm.

I'm sorry, Bailey.

There is still
more we can do.

We can take her to the ICU,
intubate...

She didn't want
to be on machines.

Or be kept alive
with medication.

I got to call my dad.
Um...

I'm here if you need me.

H-How...
How do I tell my dad

that the love of his life

won't make it
through the night?

Neuro exam's intact.
No deficits.

He asked for his son.

I think the seizure and delirium
are secondary to hypoxemia

and inflammation from COVID...
Possible early sepsis.

Let's just watch him

and, uh, see how he responds
to treatment.

Okay. Oh, hey, Shepherd.
Didn't realize you were back.

Welcome to... hell.

Just consulting
on Koracick.

Oh, right, 'cause he needs
somebody to cover his service.

On him,
not... uh, not for him.

Sats dropped,
he's got a fever of 103,

and he seized
when they brought him in.

Well, I hate everything.

Dr. Cade to
the ICU. Emma Cade to the ICU.

I was wondering
if you get used to this,

but I'm guessing
that's my answer.

How's the baby?

Uh, yeah, uh, well,
he won't let me sleep,

but other than that, um, yeah,
I can't wait to get back to him.

Leo and Allison
are with Owen's mom.

I'm just...
I miss them like crazy,

but with both parents
treating COVID patients,

it just...
It doesn't seem safe.

Uh-huh.

So, um, guess you heard
what happened.

Yeah.
And I have feelings.

But I've also done

more hurtful and complicated
things in my life

than anyone I've met
outside an NA meeting, so...

Some of them to Owen.

Owen won't say a word to me

that doesn't have to do
with the kids,

and everyone
is ignoring me

or treating me like
I'm wearing a scarlet letter.

What about Tom?

He's hurt, too.

Well, um,
I'll keep checking on him.

And, uh, thank you
for getting Mer into the trial.

Oh, yeah, uh, of course.

Hi, Grey.

It's me.

I'm gonna say it.

I miss you.

When I was a kid,
I had big thoughts.

Big feelings.

And I never knew
where to put them.

Physically, they ran through
my body like a high-speed train.

And anytime
I felt the train coming,

my mom could see it.

So she took me around the corner
to the park

with this strange,
twisted tree.

Said it was mytree.

And I could scream at it,
hit it, hold it...

And it would make
the feelings small enough

that they would fit back
inside of my own body again.

So I did.

And it worked.

But now I'm an adult,
and tree-hitting is...

frowned upon.

I can be your tree.

My mother has Alzheimer's.

I never told you

because she's older,

and I didn't want to bring up
any old pain

for your or Richard.

But it would be a lie

to say
that it hasn't been hard.

Or painful.

Even as a doctor
who knows about the disease,

I feel like...

I didn't know crap.

...like I don't
know anything.

It's difficult
to talk about it

with someone
who hasn't been there,

been through it.

No one understands
that you are

watching
your own mother die...

twice.

I'm so sorry, Bailey.

I wish you were awake.

Val's still not awake.
LFTs are up slightly.

Okay. Do another panel
in a few hours.

Absolutely, Dr. Wilson.

Okay, has your attitude
always been this good?

My mom used to say every day
above ground is a good day.

Did she get that
from "Scarface"?

She did. Still, it's true.

You! You're a doctor, right?

Yeah. Great, follow me.

- We're delivering a baby.
- Oh, no, no, no, no, no.

I'm not an OB,
I'm a general surgeon. I don't care.

We have an imminent delivery,
and all our OBs are busy.

Hospital rules say
we need a doctor.

I haven't
delivered a baby...

You heard the "I don't care"
part, right?

We'll talk you through it.

- The Elmores.
- Okay.

G3P2 came in fully effaced
and dilated at zero station.

Started crowning by the time
we got her settled on the bed.

Ms. Elmore? Hi. I know
that I'm not who you expected,

- but I am here...
- The head is coming now.

Hi. Hi.

Okay. Okay.

Alright. Contraction
and big push, okay?

Big push.

♪ Told my troubled heart

Okay.
Contraction and push.

The head is out. There...
No cord around the neck.

See?
Just like riding a bike.

Alright, uh...

Pull head down, then up,
to deliver the shoulders.

Okay, it's coming.

Coming.

Oh, my God.
Oh, my God.

Ms. Elmore asked that the baby
go directly onto her chest

while still connected.

Okay, clamp.

Okay. Oh, my gosh. Okay.

♪ A new light
shining down on me ♪

Okay.

♪ A new way, a new road

You ready
to cut the cord?

Hi. Okay, right here.

Okay, yeah.
In between here.

In between, yeah.

Good. Hi, little one!

♪ Take my hand

♪ The worst is over

♪ Weight is liftin'

♪ Off our shoulders

- ♪ I can see ♪
- Oh, I can see

- ♪ I can see
- ♪ I can see

- ♪ A new light
- ♪ New light

- ♪ Shining down on me
- ♪ Down on me

♪ A new way, a new road

Just need you to sign
the paperwork, and you can go.

Is it alright if I stay?

♪ Oh, oh,
to a new kind of beautiful ♪

Okay. Mommy?

Hey, it's me.

Look, Dad's here, too.

Hi, honey.
I'm here.

Wait till you see
Miranda's hotel.

I mean,
there's room service,

and the view is so much better
than Silver Villas.

You can actually
s-see the water.

William?

Is that you, William?

Right here by your side,
as always.

I love you.
I love you so much.

Sweetheart?

Uh, she drifts
in and out, Dad.

In her state,
even breathing's exhausting.

I can't do this.

I know.

It's difficult.

I should be there.

It's too risky, Dad.

She should be in her own bed,
not in some sterile box.

She spent 60 years
taking care of me, and now...

She hardly ever got a cold
before this.

Just call me
when she wakes up.

Of course, Dad.

Okay.

♪ It's a new kind of beautiful

Mommy.

If you're ready to go,

it's okay.

We're gonna be okay.

♪ A new kind of beautiful,
oh, oh ♪

We love you.

But we don't want you
to suffer.

♪ Oh, oh

I'm not r-ready.

If you're tired,
I understand.

♪ A new light

I love you.

♪ Shining down on me

Ready to die?

♪ A new way

No.

♪ A new road

I-I want to go home.

♪ Oh, oh

♪ To a new kind of beautiful

Hey, you've reached Ben Warren.
Please leave a message.

Yeah, I... Ben? Um, it's my mom.

I think she was just
lucid with me,

and she said some things
that I don't understand,

and now I-I don't know what do,

and I need someone
to tell me what to do.

Just, uh, call me
as soon as you can.

Uh, I love you.

Hey.

I saw you leave.
I wanted to check.

She said
she's not ready to go.

For a split second,

my heart was filled up
with so much joy.

But now I'm just mad.

Mad because no one
told me she was sick,

mad because she probably
has no idea what's happening.

You know, if I'm being
totally honest,

I don't want her to suffer
from this Alzheimer's anymore.

You know,
it's a horrific disease,

and I want her to be free.

But I don't want COVID
to be the reason.

I d... I don't want her

to be just another
Black woman statistic

in this pandemic count.

Yeah, I hear that.

100%.

None of this is easy.

All of it
is confusing and...

hard and awful.

But even with Alzheimer's,
she's been healthy.

And now I'm
watching her struggle

to do the most basic
of human reflexes... breathing.

And if she's saying
she's not ready to go...

I don't know what to think.

I felt so sure

that she wouldn't want to live
like she's been living,

but maybe I'm wrong, yeah?

Maybe she's happy in the world
her mind takes her to.

Now I'm questioning
every choice I made.

I mean,
s-should I be doing more?

Should I move her to the ICU?
Intubate her?

Am I just thinking about
how I feel

instead of what's going on
with her... inside of her mind?

- Do you want my opinion?
- Please.

I've been the one
who does everything,

who fights tooth and nail
against death at all costs.

But truthfully,
with my mom,

it didn't give me
more peace of mind in the end.

It might have done
the opposite.

I didn't think so at the time,
but it was the easier choice.

To fall back on
acting like a surgeon

and searching
for all the answers.

Bailey, you've given your mom
so much.

She's gotten to raise you

and watch you turn into
this incredible surgeon

and chief of a hospital.

She watched you
fall in love.

- Twice.
- Twice!

And raise a family.

Of course you're never going
to feel ready to say goodbye,

but...

she's had an amazing life.

I brought my parents
to Seattle kicking and fighting.

I promised them,
if they moved here,

it was the right thing
to do

so they could be closer
to their only daughter.

I told them I knew best.
Just listen to me.

And if they hadn't done that,
they would still be at home.

Isolated.

And Mom wouldn't be dying.
Not yet.

You don't know that.

She was exposed at the place
that I set up for them.

The... The facility let someone
move in from New York,

a retired surgeon.

He became symptomatic
the day after his arrival.

Afterthey said they had
shut down to all outsiders,

including family.

How in the hell could you have
known that was going to happen?

How could you have known
any of this was going to happen?

Bailey, you cannot
feel guilty about this.

My mom, she left me
five voicemails

for my birthday
last year.

She kept calling

because she forgot
that she had already

wished me happy birthday.

- There they are.
- Happy birthday to you ♪

I never deleted them

because I guess I realized

that it might be the last time
she remembered at all.

She raised me
to be a good little girl.

And even
when I defied her...

I was never disrespectful.

And I tried
to be good at everything.

A good student,
a good mother.

Wife, doctor, chief.

And now she just needs me
to be a good daughter,

and I'm not sure
how to do that,

even though it's what I've been
the longest.

You've chosen
palliative care.

You're giving her
the best care possible

while keeping her
as comfortable as possible.

That is good.

And it is kind
and respectful

and brave.

♪ I'm gonna lay down

I wish I could've given my mom
a more dignified death.

♪ Lay down some roots,
this rolling stone ♪

But I pushed so hard.

♪ He's gonna lay down

You know, it's her own
damn fault, really.

♪ For you

My whole life, she told me
to push through.

Be strong.
Fight the good fight.

My mom was
kind of the opposite.

Like, overprotective,
like, hovering.

There was a reception

sponsored by
the Daughters of the Revolution.

They had given me
a scholarship.

So my mom said
I should take the scholarship

but not
go to the reception.

But I didn't want to give them
that satisfaction.

No, I wanted them to see

what "Miranda Bailey"
looked like, right?

So I went with my dad.

We had a good laugh

at those very proper ladies.

I think you mean
"white" ladies.

- Uh...
- Yeah.

Watching them try to hide
their horror

when they saw who they had
given their scholarship to,

yeah, that was classic.

Oh, and guidance counselors,
oh, my God.

Oh, yeah, yeah,
always trying to suggest

a school where we might
feel "more comfortable."

"Oh, Wellesley.

That's a fine school, Miranda.

But, um, I think state school
is more your speed."

- Mm-hmm.
- Like I don't know my speed.

- Please.
- Try harder and do better

just to be
considered average.

Or to be considered
at all.

But how they underestimate
our greatness.

- Graduated magna cum laude...
- Mm-hmm.

...with my biology degree,
by the way.

And you better bet my mom cut
out the graduation announcement

from Wellesley and mailed it
to my guidance counselor.

I don't know
how I'm gonna do this.

Oh. Uh, I c...
I can come back.

No. No, no, no. Uh, no,
I just finished up his EEG.

I wanted to, um, make sure

that the seizure
was a one-and-done,

before I head home,
take 10 scalding hot showers,

and hug up on everybody.

Um, Maggie says
that his numbers are holding.

Good. Thanks.

I don't know
if you were ignoring me

when I came by the house

or... or if you were
just too sick to answer,

but I-I'm...
I'm gonna go with too sick

'cause then... then maybe
there's a-a ray of hope for us,

which I could really use
right now,

and I know you could.

You know, I'm...
I'm gonna stop asking.

I'm just gonna decide.

I-I'm deciding that
we mean enough to each other

that, even though
I hurt you and I-I...

I hurt you
more than I could ever imagine,

that a repair could be made,
that...

maybe you could...
remember

some of the things
that you don't hate about me

and we... we could salvage
our friendship because...

I don't know how we're going
to get through this pandemic,

but I do know... I do know

that we're not going
to get through it alone.

So if you want
to have nothing to do with me,

then you are just going
to have to get all better

and tell me yourself,

because until I hear you
say the words,

you're not gonna get rid of me.

Oh, my God. Tom. Tom?

Tom, can you hear me?

It's me.
It's... It's Teddy.

You were wrong.

Wrong about what?

♪ The setting free

When you came to my house.

I was ignoring you.

♪ The bittersweet
but sweet release ♪

Did you hear
everything I-I just said?

♪ A heavy sky

I hate you.

♪ Hangs on the sea

Well, we both know
that's not true.

- ♪ Then all at once an opening
- Hey.

What would you say
to a sponge bath?

Well, but, you know,
as friends.

Friendly sponge bath.

♪ I am lifted, I am lifted

♪ I am lifted, I am free

♪ I've been holding on,
I've been holding on ♪

♪ I've been holding on,
now I'm lifted ♪

♪ We can learn to love

- ♪ Without looking back
- Hey.

I rounded on all
of Bailey's patients.

DeLuca said he'll keep an eye on
them for the rest of the night.

Yeah, thank you.

Yeah, I hesitate to ask,
but how's her mom doing?

They don't expect her
to last the night.

♪ Everything is beautiful

That's...

♪ I am lifted, I am lifted

You realize half of our COVID
patients are Black and brown?

I know.

In a city that's 7% Black?

Like, how does that
even compute?

It doesn't.

If I hear one more person blame
it on pre-existing conditions

as if the conditions aren't
manmade to begin with...

Like we're not pushed into the
front line of all of our jobs

and forced to live
in overcrowded situations,

surrounded by
environmental hazards.

Yeah, people want

to make everything bad
that happens your own fault.

Yeah, when systemic racism
is the root

of the whole damn thing.
Forget the pre-,

it's the existing condition.

Existing while Black.

♪ I am lifted, I am free

♪ I've been holding on

You know, Richard, we both know
my mom is stubborn.

♪ I've been holding on
too long ♪

And everything she's been
through, I feel like

she thinks she's invincible now,
and she's not.

♪ I've been holding on
too long ♪

We can't lose her, Richard.

The world can't lose her,
you know?

It's been handled.

Oh, you talked to her?

Oh, good.

What'd you say?

I think it's best
kept between us.

Why are you
being weird about it?

'Cause it's about sex,
isn't it?

- It is.
- Thanks. Right. Good night.

♪ I am free

Oh, my God.
That smells so good.

We're sharing, right?

Pod together, eat together?
Please say yes.

I delivered a baby today.

- Is that a yes?
- Yes!

- Oh.
- Yes, yes.

Wait, weren't we together
all day?

What do you mean
you delivered a secret baby?

Happened very quick.
I went to check on Luna,

and this nurse said that there
was an imminent delivery,

and the next second,
I was catching a baby.

I was literally the first person
in the universe to hold him.

And then I handed him
to his parents,

and their faces
were just...

No wonder
Val's so depressed.

It's the happiest thing
I've ever seen.

It was just so pure and simple
and perfect.

I was buzzing.

But it was a total
random fluke,

and tomorrow, I'll be back
to the same depressing crap.

I mean, you did
save Val's life today.

You think that's why
Carina DeLuca

is always in such a good mood?

She's just, you know,
handing out babies,

and it shoots her serotonin
level through the roof.

Well, yeah, but doesn't she also
have, like, an orgasm hobby?

What if I changed?

Changed what?

Careers. Programs.

Is that insane?

Khan did it, and what he did

is so much harder
than switching specialties.

He started over
with nothing.

And I know... I know
I've put years into surgery,

but if it's not
bringing me any joy,

then wouldn't it be insane
to notchange?

I think you eat and then sleep
before you make any major li...

Oh, my God.
I sound like my mother.

I want to be happy.

Everyone's dying.

Meredith's...

Tomorrow is not promised.

Not in marriage.

Not in life.

I want to be happy.

She's decompensating.

You should go in.

She barely knows
who I am.

And I want
to be there for her.

I-I want her husband
to be there for her.

She deserves to be surrounded
by love and family.

But Dad's in quarantine.

He's high-risk, and I don't
want him to expose anyone.

I don't want him
to be exposed.

I know this is not what
you imagined for your mother.

And I'm sorry about that.

But she needs you now.

It's time.

And if you don't go in,

I promise
you will never forgive yourself.

I'm scared.

- ♪ I've got sunshine
- I know.

- ♪ On a cloudy day
- We'll do it together.

Patients lose their power

when they are referred to
as "Bed number 4"

or "arm pain guy."

- ♪ I've got the month of May
- Even in their deaths,

they are not faceless.

They are not nameless.

- ♪ I guess you'd say
- They are more than statistics.

♪ What can make me ♪

♪ feel this way? ♪

More than
"co-morbid conditions"

or "nursing-home patients."

♪ My girl

They are sons, brothers,
and uncles

who speak five languages

- and run restaurants... Wade Klein, 66.
- ♪ My girl

They are great-grandfathers
who love Broadway...

Jacob Lappin, 92.

♪ I don't need no money

♪ Fortune or fame

♪ I got all the riches, baby

They are baseball loving
nurses with an easy laugh...

Dane Wilson, 45.

♪ I guess you'd say

♪ What can make me feel

- ♪ This way?
- ♪ This way?

- ♪ My girl
- ♪ My girl

♪ Talking 'bout my girl
♪ Talking 'bout my girl

♪ My girl ♪

It's okay.

- Okay.
- ♪ My girl

They are the world's
greatest mothers,

and they are
the most beloved wives...

Elena Rose Bailey, 84.