Original subtitles

( classical score playing )

( woman, in french ) newborn.

( train clacking )

I open my eyes.

( silent )

I melt.

Into the eternal night.

A spark.

( man speaking french on p.A. )

( woman speaking french ) I fall into the flame.

( siren blaring )

( bell tolls )

- ( siren continues ) - ( conversation in french )

( whirring )

( train clacking )

- Woman: You brought me out of the shadows. - ( p.A. Beeps )

( man speaking french on p.A. )

( woman, in french ) you lifted me from the ground.

Brought me back to life.

( classical score playing )

( woman speaks )

( woman speaks french )

( woman speaks english )

( speaks french )

( woman speaks )

( laughs )

( woman speaks )

( laughing )

( man speaks )

( woman, in french ) what is she dreaming of?

How calm she is.

In love.

Forever at peace.

( distant siren )

( birds chirping )

( water dripping )

( water dripping )

( bell tolling )

Woman: We climbed the steps...

To the wonder.

( sighs )

( gulls cawing )

( squeals, laughs )

( shouts )

( woman laughs, speaks french )

It's coming in.

( woman, in french ) love makes us one.

Two...

One.

- I in you. - ( distant siren )

You in me.

( girl, in french ) momma?

( continues speaking )

Why are you unhappy?

- Woman: I'm not. - ( girl shouting )

- ( chattering in french ) - ( bells ringing )

- ( woman speaks french ) - ( whirring )

( woman, in french ) I'd never hoped to love again.

I'll go wherever you go.

( woman speaking french ) tatiana, look how cute she is.

You want a little sister like that?

- Tatiana: How old is she? - Woman #2: Three months.

( woman shouts )

( tatiana shouting )

Woman: If I left you because you didn't want to marry me,

It would mean I didn't love you.

I don't expect anything.

Just to go a little of our way together.

( woman and tatiana chatter )

( laughs )

- Woman: Stop being so serious! - ( chuckles )

( tatiana speaks )

( tatiana speaks )

( speaks french )

Mother: You understand?

He's asking if you want to come and live in the United States.

( man grunts, laughs )

( chattering in french )

( laughing )

( man speaks english ) my sweet love.

At last.

My hope.

How I loved you.

( chattering, laughing )

( tatiana singing in french )

- ( crickets chirping ) - ( singing fades )

( faucet running )

( thuds )

- ( faucet turns off ) - (jet passing overhead )

( people chatting )

( rubbing )

( truck departing )

( woman, in english ) so how long have you been here?

A couple of months.

How do you like it so far?

I like it.

- Do you have any children? - I have a daughter.

She's 10.

- ( baby cries ) - I bet it's hard

Being a single mom. I know my daughter's a little younger,

But it would be fun for them to get together, maybe.

It's kind of a hard age to move away from someplace.

- ( people chattering ) - ( women continue chatting )

( rhythmic banging )

- ( hoofbeats ) - ( people chattering )

( animals snorting )

( people chattering )

( mother, in french ) a land so calm.

( man speaking english on p.A. )

Mother: Honest.

Rich.

( kids shout )

- ( mother laughing ) - ( man grunts )

( mother, in french ) if you love me,

There's nothing else I need.

( sizzling )

You spoke little.

- ( fire alarm beeping ) - but you were an incredibly loving man.

( mother, in french ) okay, what are we missing?

( chatters )

There's tons of stuff. It's super clean.

( speaks french )

Everything is beautiful here.

( speaks )

- ( mother chuckles ) - look how clean everything is.

( continues speaking )

( music playing )

( speaks french )

Are you going to marry her?

( clears throat )

- She has pretty hair. - ( man speaks softly )

Pretty hands.

You guys might get rich together.

She can even make drinks.

It'll be great. You'll be my stepdad.

- ( mother speaks ) - ( continues speaking )

( muffled )

- ( crickets chirping ) - ( music playing )

( chattering, laughing )

( clanging )

( man, in english ) what's going on here?

Neil: We're doing a little remedial work.

Remedial work?

We're looking to make sure there's no toxins.

( man mutters ) I got stuff on my house.

Kids acting strange.

Sometimes we see tar

Coming out in the cracks in the patio.

The neighbors here, they had their house in escrow.

They pulled out.

The buyers pulled out.

Yeah.

That's too bad.

The reports from the lab came in.

It showed the presence of lead and cadmium

In the surface soil and in the dust

In the schoolyards... ( continues speaking )

( water flowing )

( flies buzz )

( marina, in french ) what is this love that loves us?

That comes from nowhere.

From all around.

The sky.

You, cloud.

You love me, too.

( geese honking )

( marching band playing, kids shouting )

( shouting directions )

( kids chattering )

( band continues playing )

( chattering continues )

( in english ) I've had it blonde and brown and pink

- And red. - ( girl speaks )

Me, I could never dye my hair unless my mom says I can.

My mom doesn't care.

My mom's pretty cool.

- ( hands clapping ) - ( girls singing, clapping )

( kids playing )

( car honks )

( breathing hard )

( marina, in french ) after school you took her to swim.

Taught her the names of the wildflowers.

( crickets chirping )

( speaks softly )

You called her your daughter.

( chuckles )

( in french ) I'm writing my thoughts.

( exhales sharply )

( birds chirping )

You love me?

( in english ) of course.

( tatiana, in french ) I don't have any friends.

In paris I had lots.

( birds chirping )

( squealing )

( tatiana and marina chatting in french )

We need to leave.

- Both of us. - ( shushes )

There's something missing.

( distant kids playing )

- ( man, in english ) there is a love... - ( grunts )

...That is like a stream that goes dry

When rain no longer feeds it.

- But there is a love... - ( baby fussing )

...That is like a spring coming up from the earth.

The first is human love, the second is divine love

And has its source above.

The husband is to love his wife

As christ loved the church,

And give his life for her.

He does not find her lovely-- he makes her lovely.

But there is a grace that comes in such a marriage.

( marina, in english ) I got married when I was 17.

And I had a child.

But my husband

Started running after other women.

And he left us

And went to canary islands.

And other priests have told me that

In the eyes of the church I'm still married to that man.

They said I couldn't have the sacraments.

I want to be a wife.

- ( clinks ) - ( girl speaking )

I don't even know why I was with him in the first place.

Then it sunk in.

I didn't really want to tell my dad

Because I knew he would start yelling.

- ( continues speaking ) - ( distant siren blaring )

Girl: I'd never give her up.

Ever.

( distant chattering )

( priest, in spanish ) everywhere you're present.

And still I can't see you.

( crickets chirping )

You're within me.

Around me.

And I have no experience of you.

Not as I once did.

Why don't I hold on to what I've found?

- ( clicks ) - ( dryer whirring )

- Priest: My heart is cold. - ( beeps )

Hard.

( splashes )

( gasps )

( gasps, speaks french )

( marina, in french ) I write on water...

What I dare not say.

( whispering )

( laughs )

( footsteps approaching )

( plucking strings )

( marina humming )

( distant music playing )

( marina, in french ) I try to cradle you.

- To make you contain yourself - ( laughs )

( laughs, breathes hard )

An avalanche of tenderness.

( neil panting )

( people screaming )

The world so far away.

A ghost.

Ashes.

( marina speaking )

( tatiana murmuring in french )

( neil and marina shouting )

( murmuring continues )

( sobbing )

( crickets chirping )

( neil, in english ) you see that red band in the sky right there?

And you see that blue down below it?

That's the earth's shadow on the atmosphere.

Look. You see what I'm talking about?

Stop for a second.

- You see? - ( females speaking french )

( switch clicking )

( sighing )

- ( neil speaks ) - ( in french ) look at me.

I'm not looking at you.

I don't want to look at you.

You're not my father.

You think you're my father. You're not.

Marina: Tatiana...

Tatiana: You're annoying me.

( speaking french )

( marina singing softly in french )

( singing continues )

( distant barking )

( classical score playing )

( organ playing )

( woman, in english ) father, I'm going to pray for you.

Thank you very much. ( speaks spanish )

So you will receive the gift of joy.

Me?

Because you're so unhappy.

( man speaks softly )

'cause you don't come out too much.

Do you get lonely all the time, or most of the time

When ain't nobody around?

So what you got to say about it?

You gotta have a little more excitement.

Just like when me and you are around, and there ain't nobody around.

"hey!"

The power hits you, brother. It always hits me.

You can just say, "hey, power," and it hits me.

Hits me before I can get it out.

( speaks in tongues ) see, the devil don't know what I'm saying.

And you won't know and I won't know.

I can feel the warmth of the light, brother.

That's spiritual.

I'm feeling more than just natural light.

Feeling the spiritual light, see?

I can almost touch that light, coming right from the sky.

- ( continues speaking ) - ( people chattering )

- ( man #2 speaking ) - ( chattering continues )

The parish has grown a lot.

And we really need more room

For the community to get together.

We have plays, we have dinners,

We have parties.

We have c.C.D. In the parish hall.

- ( continues speaking ) - ( woman speaks )

( man speaks softly ) we have parties.

( woman speaking )

( quintana, in spanish ) how long will you hide yourself?

( mutters in english ) if I would have known it was there...

( continues speaking )

( both speak softly )

( quintana, in spanish ) let me come to you.

- ( woman speaks english ) - ( deaf woman speaking )

( quintana, in spanish ) let me not pretend.

( deaf woman, in english ) everything that's happening...

( continues speaking )

( quintana, in spanish ) pretend to feelings I don't have.

( deaf woman continues speaking )

( quintana, in english ) man is in revolt against god.

The prophet hosea saw

In the breakdown of his marriage

The spiritual infidelity of his people.

In that broken marriage, we see the pattern of our world.

We wish to live inside the safety of the laws.

We fear to choose.

Jesus

Insists on choice.

The one thing he condemns utterly

Is avoiding the choice.

To choose is to commit yourself,

And to commit yourself is to run the risk--

Is to run the risk of failure,

The risk of sin, the risk of betrayal.

But jesus can deal with all of those.

Forgiveness he never denies us.

The man who makes a mistake

Can repent.

But the man who hesitates,

Who does nothing,

Who buries his talent

In the earth...

With him, he can do nothing.

( in french ) my visa has expired.

We need to face the facts.

- ( sprinkler sputtering ) - ( distant thunder )

( marina, in french ) if you'd asked me to stay,

I would have.

( distant kids playing )

( jet roaring )

( footsteps )

- ( luggage clattering ) - ( footsteps )

( sighs )

( handle clicking )

( jet passing overhead )

- ( grunts ) - ( birds cawing )

- ( engine starts ) - ( instrumental music playing)

( dog barks )

( birds chirping )

( marina, in french ) you thought we had forever.

( heavy machinery whirring )

That time didn't exist.

- ( heavy machinery whirring ) - ( dogs barking )

( kids playing )

( man, in english ) these guys live around here, I mean,

They're perfectly happy until somebody comes around

- Asking questions. And it makes everybody nervous... - ( backhoe beeping )

( man continues talking )

Ain't this is our property? Can't we do what we want to do with it?

I tell my husband to get us out of here, but where we gonna go?

- ( continues speaking ) - ( people chattering )

Man #2: They got all these lawyers, these big time lawyers,

- And we can't get no help. - ( dog whimpering )

Even the dog is acting funny.

( people talking )

( man speaking softly )

We've been on this house for a long time.

( continues speaking )

( marina whispering in french )

( man continues speaking )

( man whistles )

( wind blowing )

( crow caws )

( snorts )

( train whistle blares )

( person coughs )

( bangs )

( neil, in english ) you're out at the ranch up there?

Woman: I've been there for some time.

( marina, in french ) you told me about her.

( neil, in english ) I have to look at

Some of these creeks and rivers--

Marina: The woman you met at the hospital.

You talk to my sister, right? ( mutters )

Marina: Someone you'd known in your youth.

( silent )

Neil: I'm going over to the...

The tall grass prairie now.

( speaks softly )

( scraping )

Woman: The ranch is going into receivership.

( sighs ) it's going bankrupt.

( distant train whistle )

No, he claimed he didn't want to have kids

While he was in school.

- ( mutters ) - neil: She hadn't changed.

So many student loans, gambling debts

And this ranch that's falling apart.

I caught you on the right day then.

( chuckles )

Neil: Kind.

( bugs chittering )

( snorts )

( snorting )

( distant whooping )

Jane: I had a child...

A little girl.

( hoofbeats )

She died.

My father,

He said to read romans.

"all things work together for good."

( stone splashes )

He believed that.

Will you pray with me?

( footsteps )

Neil: I had no faith.

You knew.

Were you afraid?

Jane: My mother says I'm chasing moonbeams.

- Is that what she said? - ( hums agreement, chuckles )

I told her I'd rather

Have a moonbeam than

The life I had before.

( jane speaks softly )

( insects chittering )

( dog yips, panting )

Jane: Do you want this?

Do you know what you want?

I can't afford

To make mistakes with men anymore.

I want you to come more often.

Can you?

( faintly ) I've been waiting for you.

- I felt wild. - ( jane laughs, speaks softly )

I don't know. What are you laughing at?

You.

- Me? - You make me laugh.

- ( neil mutters ) - you make me happy.

Jane: You took me.

( birds calling )

No.

( thunder rumbling )

( rain pattering )

Girl.

Little girl.

Fool.

( squeals )

( laughing )

( chuckles )

Jane: Here I am.

Yes.

( rain pattering )

( traffic sounds )

( baby wailing )

( marina, in french ) I feel stripped bare.

( bell tolling )

I don't know where I'm going.

I return to my apartment and collapse.

I can't take it here anymore.

Paris is dreadful.

I don't see tatiana.

She's gone...

To live with her father.

I can't find a job.

I want to come back to the states.

I met someone who told me

He'd marry me so I could get a green card.

( machinery rumbling )

( neil, in english ) tell her.

( train clacking )

( grinding )

( hisses, loud rumbling )

( motor revving )

- ( back-up beeping ) - ( wind blowing )

- ( hoofbeats ) - ( clicks tongue )

( snorts )

( softly ) I trust you.

I want to be your wife.

( whispers )

I love you.

( truck engine chugging )

( grunting )

( sniffles, grunting )

( sobs )

( classical score playing )

Jane: Walk away.

I thought I knew you.

Now I don't think you ever were.

What we had was nothing.

You made it into nothing.

Pleasure.

- ( creaks ) - lust.

( birds chirping )

( distant barking )

( man speaks softly )

Ma'am, if you'll come over here.

Sir, if you'll be on this side, please.

You all have rings for each other?

( speaks )

...To love, honor and cherish you...

Be faithful only to you...

As long as we both shall live.

And I do promise before these witnesses...

Marina: And I do promise before these witnesses...

...To love, honor and cherish you...

...To love, honor and cherish you...

...To be faithful only to you...

...To be faithful only to you...

...As long as we both shall live.

...As long as we both shall live.

( marina, in french ) I feel so close to you...

That I could almost touch you.

There is always this invisible something...

- That I feel so strongly... - ( grunts )

- Which ties us so tightly together. - ( children playing )

I love this feeling...

Even if it makes me cry sometimes.

It is so strong, this conviction...

That I belong to you.

( singing in french )

( speaks french )

- ( sings in english ) - ( neil yelps, mutters )

( marina, in french ) maybe you'd like me to stop telling you I love you.

( speaks french, claps )

I know that strong feelings make you uneasy.

Tell me if that's so.

( blowing, tubing echoing )

( piano music playing )

- ( clicks ) - ( music stops )

( clicks )

( train whistle toots )

( tatiana and marina speaking french )

- See my bracelet. - ( gasps )

It's pretty. Where's it from?

( speaks french )

( laughs )

How's everything there?

You miss being here?

It's great here.

Honestly, at dad's it's so much fun.

Did the tooth fairy steal it?

No, I'm the one who took it out.

It didn't hurt?

( speaks french )

You're so pretty.

( both speak french )

( speaks french )

( computer beeps )

( train whistle toots )

( quintana speaking english )

The divine presence...

Which sleeps in each man, each woman.

You say...

"christ said this.

Christ said that." what do you say?

And what you say,

Does it come from god within?

Answer that

Which is of god,

In every woman, every man.

Know each other in that love

That never changes.

( continues speaking )

( man speaking softly )

I'd like to show you here on the monitor...

- ( beeps ) - this is the area of your uterus

And the I.U.D. That you have in place there.

We feel like one of the less risky procedures

That we can do is to remove this device.

And we see if those symptoms don't resolve.

I think something that

You and your husband need to consider

Is with the absence of the I.U.D.,

Is this a time that you may want to think about children?

Or is there another means for contraception?

So I don't need to have a hysterectomy?

That's the good news.

Thank you.

( doctor continues, softly )

Would you like to have children?

Marina: Someday.

( bell tolling )

Man: God gave us marriage as a holy mystery...

In which a man and woman are joined together...

And become one.

And with affection and tenderness...

Freely give themselves to each other.

Neil: This ring I give you...

Is a sign of our constant faith...

...Is a sign of our constant faith...

...And abiding love.

...And abiding love.

( geese honking )

( birds chirping )

( laughing )

( neil speaks softly )

Go.

( speaks softly )

( squeals, laughs )

( marina speaks french )

- ( neil sighs ) - ( speaks softly )

( wind blowing )

( marina, in french ) where are we...

When we're there?

Why not always?

Which is the truth?

What we know up there?

( bell tolling )

Or down here?

( distant dog barks )

( table saw whirring )

( clattering )

( grunts )

- ( marina speaks english ) - ( chuckles )

- ( clattering ) - ( grunts, mutters )

( kids playing )

( man speaks )

( man, in english ) we pray thy blessings upon them

And upon this food which we are about to eat.

( people chatter )

( woman speaking softly )

Would you like one?

( people chattering )

( marina in french ) alone.

He just goes off like that.

I don't know where he goes.

( woman speaks italian )

( in italian ) leave while you can.

Now that you're young. Beautiful.

Your whole life in front of you.

Live and do what you like.

Life's a dream.

In a dream you can't make mistakes.

In a dream you can be...

Whatever you want.

Anything.

Leave this place.

It's cramped.

Small.

There's nothing here.

Look at their faces.

( whispers ) false.

All false.

You're a little dreamer.

You need to fly.

( repeating )

( laughs )

You should be free.

Listen to your heart.

Dead?

( woman mutters )

( marina, in french ) no, my bag!

You're crazy!

( in italian ) we'll get it later.

When we come back.

It's hidden.

You don't need anything.

You're free.

We're gypsies.

You're like me.

A gypsy.

( speaks english )

( speaks french )

( in italian ) I'm my own experiment.

Come get me.

I'm here.

Where are the people?

They're all dead. Nobody's here. Nothing.

( shouting ) I want somebody to surprise me.

( repeats )

- Where are you people? - ( shushing )

( speaking italian )

What are you looking at?

You think I'm a monster?

An evil monster?

A vampire? A witch?

- ( mutters ) - ( anna mutters )

( anna speaks italian )

I want to break these chains...

Be free.

( train clacking )

( giggling )

( gasps )

( laughs, mutters )

( marina, in french ) open me.

( dogs barking )

Enter me.

Show me how to love you.

Why do we come back down?

( echoing tap )

( man speaks english ) things have gotten worse.

- ( quintana groans ) - ( gates clanging )

( man #2 speaking )

In and out of prisons like this.

( man #3 muttering )

( overlapping chatter )

( man #4 speaking )

I don't know what happened. I was drunk.

If I had done this,

I'm not saying I did, I might've, I could've.

I'm asking for forgiveness, father.

( continues speaking )

I can't help myself.

If you need me to kneel down, I'll kneel down.

( stammers )

I want to be free.

( continues speaking )

That sun is just right in my eyes.

( continues speaking )

I can fight, I will fight.

I can fight with my feet and hands.

They think they're really about something, but they ain't.

( mutters )

( grunts )

( clacking )

( boy speaks )

( girl speaks )

Woman: You gonna open that bible and preach to me now?

( bible thuds )

( quintana, in spanish ) intensely I seek you.

My soul thirsts for you.

Exhausted.

( bangs )

Will you be like a stream that dries up?

- ( phone ringing ) - ( in english ) loverboy! Where are you?

( ringing continues )

Priest: Love is not only a feeling.

Love is a duty. You shall love.

Love is a command.

And you say, "I can't command my emotions.

They come and go like clouds."

To that, christ says,

"you shall love

Whether you like it or not.

You fear your love has died."

( echoing footsteps )

"it perhaps is waiting to be transformed

Into something higher."

( continues speaking )

( marina, in french ) we fight.

( quintana continues speaking )

( bangs, engine starts )

( marina, in french ) without knowing why.

( marina speaking french )

Weak people never bring anything to an end themselves.

They wait for others to do it.

How had hate come to take the place of love?

( yells )

My tender heart grown hard?

( laughing )

Do you want me as a wife?

- ( laughs ) - a lover?

Companion?

( panting )

( shouts in english ) he's killing me!

I'm sorry.

( banging )

( neil speaks )

( shouts ) you want me to die? Here!

( pills rattle )

Why don't you have them?

( shouting )

( silent )

( kisses )

I'm frightened.

( speaks softly )

( pills rattle )

( air conditioner rattling )

( quintana, in spanish ) why do you turn your back?

All I see is destruction.

Failure.

( marina, in english ) give me your blessing, father.

( sobbing )

I've hurt people.

( sobbing )

I know what I am.

( speaks softly )

( speaks softly )

( speaks softly )

- ( bird chirping ) - ( wind blowing )

( marina, in french ) my god,

( thunder rumbling )

What a cruel war.

- ( fishing reel whirs ) - I find two women inside me.

( reel winding )

One...

Full of love for you.

The other...

Pulls me down towards the earth.

( loud crashing )

( man speaks softly in english )

I thought you went away.

( phone rings )

( birds chirping )

( beeps )

( wind blowing )

Forgive me.

( clicks )

( parking brake clicks )

( woman speaks )

Marina: Please.

( speaks softly )

- ( woman speaks ) - ( neil speaks )

( woman speaking )

( clicks )

( truck chimes )

( neil sighs )

- ( neil speaks softly ) - ( breathes heavily )

( sobbing )

( engine revving )

( water running )

Man: Don't take up with anybody during the first six months.

Don't stop talking to people.

That's the first mistake that I see people make in my practice.

Sometimes you eat the bear,

And sometimes the bear eats you.

You can't feel sorry for yourself.

- ( speaks softly ) once we get her served... - ( phone ringing )

...That'll start the process.

Because there's no children involved,

This could be a fairly rapid process, if that's what you want.

And I don't want you to lose hope...

( speaking softly )

( breathes heavily )

Quintana: It's very hard to be

The one who loves less,

The one who's stronger.

You have to struggle with yourself.

You have to struggle with your own...

Strength.

( quintana speaking softly )

Neil: Why?

( thunder rumbles )

Neil: I saw you.

Again.

( man speaking softly )

Quintana: They are sending me away. I won't be here for long.

They are sending me to western kansas.

Western kansas? What are you gonna do in western kansas?

A lot of people around here

Is going to be missing you.

( mutters ) we need people like you here in bartlesville.

To preach the gospel.

That's why we have churches.

( conversation continues )

( quintana, in spanish ) where are you leading me?

( dog barking )

Teach us where to seek you.

( woman speaking english )

I feel a lot of burning, you know...

( continues speaking )

( speaks )

( woman speaking )

I pray but sometimes I don't hear him.

I don't think he hears me.

( quintana, in spanish ) christ, be with me.

Christ before me.

( geese honking )

Christ behind me.

Christ in me.

Christ beneath me.

Christ above me.

( elderly man speaking english )

( elderly woman speaks )

( quintana, in spanish ) christ on my right.

( woman speaking )

Christ on my left.

Christ in the heart.

( whirring, rattling )

( blade cutting )

( quintana, in spanish ) thirsting.

We thirst.

( kisses )

Flood our souls with your spirit and life...

( woman babbling, crying )

( quintana, in spanish ) so completely...

That our lives may only be a reflection of yours.

Shine through us.

( wings flapping )

Show us how to seek you.

We were made to see you.

( boy shouts )

( bell tolling )

( kids playing )

( bike zooms by )

( people chattering )

( p.A. Announcements )

( marina, in french ) I want to keep your name.

( crickets chirping )

( birds chirping )

( marina, in french ) love that loves us...

Thank you.

- ( child laughing ) - ( stream burbling )

( exhales sharply )

( exhales sharply )

( marina speaks softly )

( shouting )

( birds chirping )

( classical score playing )

( train clacking )