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Hang on a sec. Let's recall what happened one by one...

It was exactly 15 hours ago...

15 hours ago... I met with a college student from a national university... then he and I...

I...

Let's put on my panties first.

Chiaki. 38. Single.

After quitting my previous design company and going independent,

I'm now a freelance illustrator.

My experience with men is almost limited to my ex-husband.

This drama tells a story about one's last adventure in Heisei...

to regain her youth with a great effort,

contrary to her age at which a person's expected to have settled down.

THE DIARY OF THE 38-YEAR-OLD DIVORCEE WHO HAS TRIED A DATING APP.

Yesterday at 6pm, I met a second-year economics student, who I called Mr. National,

from a national university.

Excuse me... are you...

Chiaki-san?

- Have a seat. - Thank you.

Cheers.

I see... you're such a serious person.

You want some more?

Very serious and a little bit strait-laced.

Mr. National reminds me of my past a little.

I think... you're a little similar to the guy I liked back in high school.

Well, I don't care who I am similar to.

I want to talk about my job hunting.

The way he can't read the mood is also so similar!

Chiaki-san, did you turn what you like into your career?

Well... I do like to draw...

Do you only work as an illustrator now?

Yup.

It would better to have a side job nowadays, don't you think?

You see, my place is too far from here, so we can't meet up quite often.

I feel like I want to see the place where you draw your illustrations.

Can I come over?

Um... I think you'd better go home. Yup.

Hey, what is it?

What's the matter?

Do you not trust me? I don't have that kind of intention.

I often spend the night at my female friends',

but I never do anything.

I don't have such intentions at all.

Seriously. Not at all.

I just want to touch the tablet used by a professional illustrator.

Nothing more, nothing less.

You've got it all wrong!

Sorry, sorry!

You see, the people of our generation,

when they want to come over, they always want to do those things.

You see...

It's just what I always think...

I'm really sorry. I misunderstood you.

- So um... - Then...

Although it's my first time to stay over, I won't make any move on you!

What do you say?

Can I?

I finally caved in to the demands of the 7th guy I matched with,

and let my dating app date into my place for the first time.

And... all he's been doing since he's arrived here is draw.

Don't I look a like pervert to be on my guard against him?

I'll go to bed first.

I'm done!

You really are! What building is it?

A university building.

It was built by a famous architect.

You see, I have an interest in architecture.

I also like to draw...

But, I want to join a big company since I also want to make money.

Should I follow my dream or be realistic?

I just can't make up my mind.

He's a mix of intelligence and innocence.

Kind of cute.

Let's color it.

He's seriously so cute! What's going on here?

Doesn't it feel like a junior from the same club... comes over to my place?

Then I'm going to draw people... on here.

Here...

Why am I closing my eyes?

This feels so soft~

Hang on a sec.

Wait...

That was your real intention?

No.

Wait...

This wasn't my intention.

Well... Um? Has this already begun?

Control yourself! Control yourself!

Chiaki, what the hell are you doing?

He's cute!

If you don't like it, tell me to stop, okay?

Okay.

This kiss...

definitely made me get on a roller coaster!

What do you want me to do?

What do you want me to do?

I don't know...

I'm embarrassed.

But... the one who got on the roller coaster...

is, without a doubt, me!

It's me.

Sorry.

What time is it?

Um... it's 8!

- Morning. - Morning.

I drank too much yesterday!

Me too.

Ah, listen.

You see...

When I came here, I really decided not to do it.

But... it's...

Freud’s libido!

Libido?

It's what Freud said in the Introduction to Psychoanalysis about libido!

Sorry?

Those unconscious impulses and desires exist as natural things.

So...

Are you angry?

Am I angry?

Why would I be?

Really?

No! I'm not angry at all.

I'm not angry at all.

Then let me put my clothes on first.

I'll look this way.

Thanks for having me!

Won't you stay for breakfast?

I don't eat breakfast.

Bye.

Bye.

He seems distant now. Totally different from when we were in bed.

This is new.

I have classes. See you later!

"See you later"?

Seriously?

Rika-chan!

Rika-chan... even though I'm already 38,

I only stepped up into adulthood now.

What's going on?

Hold on.

It feels strange.

What's going on?

It's like... it's like... you know,

I feel thrilled, like I've just accomplished something.

I feel refreshed!

What the heck?

I did it!

I kinda feel refreshed!

Thank you much. It's great!

You did it with the guy you met on a dating app?

Yes, I did. Sorry to disappoint you.

Isn't that dangerous?

I mean... It's a dating app we're talking about.

The person who just made such a reasonable response is my friend, Setsuko.

Our friendship goes a long way back since high school.

Married. No children.

I also thought it was dangerous, but it doesn't seem to be case.

It feels youthful.

Going on a date and feeling the butterflies...

I wonder if I should I contact him...

Are you going out with him?

No way! He's still in college.

But, if he, by any chance, asks me out, I'll probably be moved and say yes.

Sorry, never mind.

Rationally speaking, it's impossible.

College student...

I don't want to really date him!

I just thought... if I chose such a pure guy,

it would make me feel young.

Anyway, what does he date a middle-aged woman for?

What would he get from it?

I mean, even after the meeting, where will the relationship go next?

I wonder too...

He doesn't seem to have any definite purpose.

Or it's probably easier than going out with a girl of the same age?

That must be it.

This is such a difficult world.

He wasn't turned off at all when I told him I was 38. So, it's now or never.

Life is about taking special care of your feelings.

Let me show you. Here.

- He looks so young! - Right?

Huh? You did it with this kid? I can't believe you!

Don't say it out loud, I'm embarrassed!

But, you know, there are guys our age too! I just chose not to see them.

Even middle-aged men too?

Hey, you should swipe in the opposite direction!

Or they might think I'm interested in them.

Sorry!

Yup. Swipe left.

The heck?

Goro-kun?

This is Goro, right?

Hey... don't swipe right on him!

Hold on.

If I remember correctly, he does live nearby.

Hey...

Didn't he just have a baby recently?

I remember. He made a post on Facebook thanking his wife and all, right?

I even commented on his post.

- This jerk!! - This jerk!!

- Shall we take a screenshot? - Yes.

- Just in case. - Yes.

OK.

I see now... this is also an app for those who want to have affairs.

I'll tell you just in case, I'm not one of them!

Even if I chose to see young users, I must avoid the married ones at all cost!

This is also why I prefer younger guys.

Chiaki, can I ask you a favor?

If you see my husband on this app,

don't worry about how I'll feel, just tell me right away.

OK.

OK.

You really are impressive, Chiaki-san!

What is he like?

Somehow...

He seems like a clumsy guy.

And kind of smart.

- Hey, are you shy? - No, I'm not!

Huh?

Did he unmatch me?

He just wanted to hookup.

After looking at me with such serious eyes?

After saying, "See you later"?!

- Chiaki-san... - Yes.

I was totally fooled and led on by a guy a whole generation younger than me.

I'm so embarrassed of myself.

I thought there was a little bit of love involved, though.

I...

want to get laid.

Sorry?

I'm not looking for a girlfriend.

Now that you know my intention,

what are we gonna do next?

WHAT?!

It's true that 90% of dating apps' users are looking for casual sex.

90%?

There are a lot of women who hate it and stop using it.

But I think about 10% of them are people like me.

Who're looking for life experience.

You are too precious.

I'll go get some drink.

Thanks.

By the way, being in a place like this on a weekday afternoon,

what am I doing?

- Here you go. - Thanks.

Look at that bright color!

It's from the food coloring.

Also, he doesn't feel embarrassed to take selfies in public.

Owh!

I've only been drinking carefully home-roasted coffee for years.

This is just bitter water.

I had become such a picky adult before I knew it.

Anyway...

How are we supposed to spend our time here?

Petting the cats? Or reading some manga?

You can do whatever you see fit, and have a nice daydream afterwards.

Ways to waste your time, huh...

Hm? What's the matter?

Is something bothering you?

Are you hungry?

Holding hands in broad daylight?

Dear Mom, at the age of 38,

I'm holding hands with a future actor while walking under the blue sky!

I see. The dating app is making you worry, right?

But, wouldn't it be great to meet all kinds of people?

You can gain life experience, by meeting a lot of people through that app.

While holding my hands,

don't tell me to meet with others, please~

Please tell me what kinds of people you've met next time.

"Do you have time today?"

I want to drink in towns I don't usually hang in.

Then, would you like to have a drink in Kichijoji?

The guy who took me to Kichijoji, the town I rarely go to,

is a 26-year-old web director.

The way he carries on a conversation, and his attitude in how he escorts me...

are just impeccable!

I named him Mr. Gentle, the gentleman.

Oh, here it is, the bar I was talking about.

- Is it here? - On the second floor.

Go ahead.

I often go to the popular izakaya in the first round,

and come to a quiet bar like this in the second round.

I love that kind of gap.

Me too.

Oh, I like this instrumental.

Yes. The music here is great.

Gosh~! Suits are so sexy!

I've been here many times, since I was a fresh graduate.

This is my first regular bar.

This is his first time bringing a female customer here.

I'm really happy.

Don't make me feel embarrassed, please.

So honest. So perfect!

Since you were a fresh graduate, so how long has it been?

Four years, I guess? I graduated four years ago.

Wow.

We're the same age then! Are you a 93-liner?

Yes, I am.

Wow! I was a middle-schooler at that time!

Oh, what’s the relationship between you two?

Ah... we're just...

It was fun and the drink was also nice!

Let's come again next time.

What a wonderful man.

What's wrong?

What is it?

I kinda feel small.

Because you're just too perfect.

Well, usually,

the fact that I'm a divorcee and already in my 38...

doesn't really bother me.

But, I had so much fun today, so...

I don't care about age gap or marital history.

I also want to introduce you to my friends next time.

That's what I feel now.

Can you feel... my sincerity?

People like this actually exist.

It feels so much like a dream, I want to cry.

In a place like this...

We can't do this here...

To all passersby, I'm sorry!

But...

Thanks.

So... tonight...

What is it?

Let's go to a hotel.

Okay?

There's one at the back.

"Brutus... You too?"

[T/N: The famous last words of Julius Caesar when he realized one of his assassins was his friend, Brutus. The phrase is often used to express an unexpected betrayal by a friend.]

Let's go.

Stop! The romantic atmosphere is ruined! Stop it!

I want to check our bodies' compatibility before dating.

Don't! Don't! Don't!

I don't wanna go!

I thought he wouldn't be serious about dating me even if we did it.

So I ran away from him, but...

"Thank you for today."

"I got home safely."

"Let's go to Jiyugaoka next!"

Although it was a bit awkward at the end,

he was too nice, and we hit off pretty well.

I kinda want to see him again...

Day one.

Day two.

Day three.

He hasn't read my message even after three days.

In the end...

He just wanted to hookup!

Got any replies from that gentleman?

No!

Ah, what did that romantic moment mean then?

Was it necessary to make me feel moved like that?

Foreplay!

Well then... just move on to the next one!

I feel like I just got dumped.

It's not like we were dating or anything, though.

But... wouldn't it better to try to do it with him?

Your relationship might have started from there.

Don't just wait for men to confess to you, then going on dates before having sex.

You are not a high-schooler anymore.

You think so?

The beginning of adult romance is mostly unclear.

Starting a relationship with sex... is that possible?

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