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These are the user uploaded subtitles that are being translated: 1 00:00:03,378 --> 00:00:09,486 ♪ These rivers are frozen ♪ 2 00:00:09,509 --> 00:00:12,196 ♪ It's hard to say if it will be alright ♪ 3 00:00:12,221 --> 00:00:14,573 Meredith: Medical schools often ask applicants 4 00:00:14,598 --> 00:00:17,327 for an essay describing a time they faced adversity... 5 00:00:17,350 --> 00:00:19,954 ♪ ...has broken ♪ 6 00:00:19,978 --> 00:00:21,289 and how they overcame it. 7 00:00:21,312 --> 00:00:23,082 ♪ Everything that I have built inside ♪ 8 00:00:23,106 --> 00:00:24,917 They want to know how people will cope 9 00:00:24,942 --> 00:00:26,794 with the challenges they'll face as a doctor. 10 00:00:26,818 --> 00:00:29,379 ♪ I'm chasing my shadow ♪ 11 00:00:29,403 --> 00:00:32,133 [ Thunder crashes ] 12 00:00:32,156 --> 00:00:35,386 ♪ Lately he's been the only friend of mine ♪ 13 00:00:35,409 --> 00:00:37,804 ♪♪ 14 00:00:37,829 --> 00:00:41,058 Some students worry they have nothing to write about. 15 00:00:41,082 --> 00:00:44,270 ♪ And I don't know which way to go ♪ 16 00:00:44,293 --> 00:00:46,648 ♪♪ 17 00:00:46,671 --> 00:00:49,107 ♪ Lost my mind to the unknown ♪ They haven't faced difficulty. 18 00:00:49,131 --> 00:00:52,320 [ Ventilator hissing, monitor beeping ] 19 00:00:52,344 --> 00:00:57,866 ♪ Even if I stay here always ♪ 20 00:00:57,890 --> 00:01:02,537 ♪ I'll keep holding on ♪ 21 00:01:02,561 --> 00:01:05,750 ♪ For you ♪ 22 00:01:05,774 --> 00:01:08,585 ♪ You ♪ 23 00:01:08,609 --> 00:01:09,629 ♪ I'll be waiting ♪ 24 00:01:09,653 --> 00:01:11,171 I didn't have that problem. 25 00:01:11,195 --> 00:01:13,674 ♪ Till we meet again, till we meet again ♪ 26 00:01:13,698 --> 00:01:16,135 Morning, Meredith. 27 00:01:16,158 --> 00:01:19,287 [ Thunder rumbling ] 28 00:01:26,460 --> 00:01:28,438 Uh, let's start with regional updates. 29 00:01:28,462 --> 00:01:30,400 Uh, Hunt? 30 00:01:30,424 --> 00:01:32,819 Shouldn't we start with an update on Meredith Grey? 31 00:01:32,843 --> 00:01:34,820 Yeah. I mean, has her I. S. improved? 32 00:01:34,844 --> 00:01:36,406 Yeah. Is she on a proning schedule? 33 00:01:36,430 --> 00:01:38,408 People, people. I know we're all concerned, 34 00:01:38,432 --> 00:01:40,325 but Meredith is getting excellent care 35 00:01:40,349 --> 00:01:41,703 from Altman and DeLuca. 36 00:01:41,727 --> 00:01:43,204 She's stable and she's resting. 37 00:01:43,228 --> 00:01:44,914 In the meantime, we have a hospital 38 00:01:44,938 --> 00:01:46,665 full of patients who need us. 39 00:01:46,689 --> 00:01:48,293 Hunt? 40 00:01:48,317 --> 00:01:52,838 Yesterday Seattle reported 345 more cases, 29 deaths. 41 00:01:52,862 --> 00:01:55,466 Test positivity rate has increased to 4.7%, 42 00:01:55,490 --> 00:01:57,009 so we should prepare for more patients. 43 00:01:57,033 --> 00:01:58,051 COVID ICU? 44 00:01:58,075 --> 00:02:00,054 Beds are at 68% capacity. 45 00:02:00,078 --> 00:02:01,596 We'll likely need more by the end of the month. 46 00:02:01,620 --> 00:02:04,725 53 of the 72 ventilators are currently in use. 47 00:02:04,750 --> 00:02:06,852 Are there any cases that warrant discussion? 48 00:02:06,876 --> 00:02:08,812 Koracick: Hi. Hello. 49 00:02:08,836 --> 00:02:11,024 I've got one. Me. K‐Koracick? How did you ‐‐ 50 00:02:11,048 --> 00:02:13,026 I‐I've got connections. I'm emeritus chief of chiefs. 51 00:02:13,050 --> 00:02:14,193 That is not a thing. 52 00:02:14,217 --> 00:02:16,194 As I'm sure Hunt gleefully told you, 53 00:02:16,218 --> 00:02:17,822 I tested positive for COVID. 54 00:02:17,846 --> 00:02:19,657 But I think the test was a dud. 55 00:02:19,681 --> 00:02:21,325 Breathing's normal, good heart rate, 56 00:02:21,349 --> 00:02:22,659 singing voice unaffected ‐‐ 57 00:02:22,683 --> 00:02:24,329 That does not change the rules. 58 00:02:24,353 --> 00:02:26,955 A negative COVID test or a 14‐day quarantine. 59 00:02:26,979 --> 00:02:29,417 You're not even close. Then send me a new test. 60 00:02:29,441 --> 00:02:31,544 And can you adjust my camera angle? 61 00:02:31,568 --> 00:02:33,712 As lovely as the ceiling is, I ‐‐ 62 00:02:33,736 --> 00:02:35,673 [ Light laughter ] 63 00:02:35,697 --> 00:02:39,093 ♪♪ 64 00:02:39,116 --> 00:02:41,094 [ Indistinct talking on PA ] 65 00:02:41,118 --> 00:02:44,057 [ Door opens ] 66 00:02:44,081 --> 00:02:47,310 Did you know that there are murder hornets now? 67 00:02:47,334 --> 00:02:49,270 What? Yeah. 68 00:02:49,293 --> 00:02:51,897 As if the COVID outbreak right after my husband dumped me 69 00:02:51,921 --> 00:02:53,650 wasn't bad enough. [ Chuckles ] 70 00:02:53,674 --> 00:02:57,527 I'm gonna go home, crawl into bed before my next shift. 71 00:02:57,551 --> 00:02:59,322 Yeah, I'm done, too. Look, if you don't want to be alone, 72 00:02:59,346 --> 00:03:00,698 you can come hang out at my place. 73 00:03:00,722 --> 00:03:03,241 Um, let me think about the last time I went to your place 74 00:03:03,265 --> 00:03:04,701 and... no. 75 00:03:04,725 --> 00:03:08,330 At least I don't have a resident living on my couch, okay? 76 00:03:08,354 --> 00:03:10,792 I got fancy beer and a negative COVID test. 77 00:03:10,816 --> 00:03:13,211 I guess also April switched Harriett's days on me, but... 78 00:03:13,235 --> 00:03:15,212 Oh, so you're lonely. 79 00:03:15,236 --> 00:03:17,173 Will you just come over, alright? 80 00:03:17,197 --> 00:03:20,425 We can watch TV and, I don't know, order pizza. Or sushi. 81 00:03:20,449 --> 00:03:21,802 Start over. 82 00:03:21,826 --> 00:03:24,597 Friendship reboot. 83 00:03:24,621 --> 00:03:26,515 We're getting both and you're paying. 84 00:03:26,539 --> 00:03:28,683 Fine. And no Kenny G! 85 00:03:28,707 --> 00:03:29,977 [ Door closes ] 86 00:03:30,001 --> 00:03:31,187 [ Thunder rumbling, baby coos ] 87 00:03:31,211 --> 00:03:32,604 Hey, buddy. 88 00:03:32,628 --> 00:03:34,731 Yeah. 89 00:03:34,756 --> 00:03:37,192 Just me and you. 90 00:03:37,216 --> 00:03:39,361 [ Sighs ] 91 00:03:39,385 --> 00:03:41,155 This is called a "C" chord. 92 00:03:41,179 --> 00:03:42,656 [ Guitar playing ] I'll teach you one day. 93 00:03:42,680 --> 00:03:44,074 [ Door opens ] 94 00:03:44,098 --> 00:03:45,784 Why can't I find gauze in a house 95 00:03:45,808 --> 00:03:47,829 with so many surgeons living in it? 96 00:03:47,853 --> 00:03:49,579 Uh, who's bleeding this time? 97 00:03:49,603 --> 00:03:51,289 Bailey lost a tooth. 98 00:03:51,313 --> 00:03:52,917 The one that's been loose for two weeks? 99 00:03:52,941 --> 00:03:54,210 That's supposed to happen. 100 00:03:54,234 --> 00:03:56,878 Well, not when your mom is in the hospital with COVID. 101 00:03:56,902 --> 00:03:58,088 Mer's gonna get better. 102 00:03:58,112 --> 00:04:00,007 [ Sighs ] You don't know that's true. 103 00:04:00,031 --> 00:04:02,217 You don't know that it's not. 104 00:04:02,241 --> 00:04:03,593 Alright, look, um, 105 00:04:03,617 --> 00:04:06,472 let's ‐‐ let's look at the bright side of things, okay? 106 00:04:06,496 --> 00:04:08,723 We get to introduce Bailey to the Tooth Fairy. 107 00:04:08,747 --> 00:04:10,768 Kids love the Tooth Fairy. 108 00:04:10,792 --> 00:04:12,377 I'll, uh ‐‐ I'll check on him. 109 00:04:14,420 --> 00:04:15,814 The bright side? 110 00:04:15,838 --> 00:04:18,358 [ Monitor beeping ] 111 00:04:18,382 --> 00:04:22,404 Dr. Kuo at the Catherine Fox Medical Center in Manhattan 112 00:04:22,428 --> 00:04:25,824 is doing a trial with monoclonal antibodies for COVID. 113 00:04:25,848 --> 00:04:27,785 She's got room for two more patients, but we got to jump on it. 114 00:04:27,809 --> 00:04:29,745 I read that study. Didn't three patients die? 115 00:04:29,769 --> 00:04:32,247 Well, there's a strong chance that they got the drug too late. 116 00:04:32,271 --> 00:04:34,207 Dr. Webber, her lungs are flooded, 117 00:04:34,231 --> 00:04:36,334 a‐and she's sleeping almost around the clock. 118 00:04:36,358 --> 00:04:38,211 Richard, I would never give this recommendation 119 00:04:38,235 --> 00:04:40,235 if I didn't think that the good outweighed the bad. 120 00:04:42,783 --> 00:04:44,802 Thank you. I'll ‐‐ I'll think about it. 121 00:04:44,826 --> 00:04:46,721 Okay. 122 00:04:46,745 --> 00:04:47,971 Dr. Webber ‐‐ 123 00:04:47,995 --> 00:04:50,557 I said I'd think about it. 124 00:04:50,581 --> 00:04:57,606 ♪♪ 125 00:04:57,630 --> 00:05:00,192 Bailey: Mom, I can't come see you. 126 00:05:00,216 --> 00:05:02,194 Because of the pandemic, remember? 127 00:05:02,218 --> 00:05:05,615 There's a bad virus and no vaccine yet. 128 00:05:05,639 --> 00:05:07,949 But I can call you later, though, okay? 129 00:05:07,973 --> 00:05:09,869 I ‐‐ Mnh. 130 00:05:09,893 --> 00:05:11,954 How you feeling, Chief? [ Sighs ] 131 00:05:11,978 --> 00:05:14,624 I moved my parents here from across the country 132 00:05:14,648 --> 00:05:18,627 into an assisted‐living facility just in time to never see them. 133 00:05:18,651 --> 00:05:21,422 I meant your ankle. But sorry to hear that. 134 00:05:21,446 --> 00:05:22,714 It's fine. Thank you. 135 00:05:22,738 --> 00:05:26,511 Soccer mom: Hello? Can someone help me? 136 00:05:26,535 --> 00:05:27,701 Hi. I'm Dr. Kim. 137 00:05:31,456 --> 00:05:33,058 Where are you from? 138 00:05:33,082 --> 00:05:35,394 Orthopedics. And it looks like you just have a cut here, 139 00:05:35,418 --> 00:05:37,103 so let's find you another doctor 140 00:05:37,127 --> 00:05:38,879 who can help take care of this, okay? 141 00:05:43,509 --> 00:05:45,237 Orthopedics? 142 00:05:45,262 --> 00:05:46,863 You know that's not what she was asking. 143 00:05:46,887 --> 00:05:48,865 ‐I know. ‐It doesn't bother you? 144 00:05:48,889 --> 00:05:50,951 Her assuming you're not from here? 145 00:05:50,975 --> 00:05:52,495 Happens to all of us at some point, right? 146 00:05:52,519 --> 00:05:54,747 [ Siren wailing ] 147 00:05:54,771 --> 00:05:57,250 Bailey: What do we have? Paramedic: Dave Oyadomari, 37, 148 00:05:57,274 --> 00:05:58,543 head lac and right shoulder pain 149 00:05:58,567 --> 00:06:00,211 after falling off of a step ladder. 150 00:06:00,235 --> 00:06:02,547 He also complains of abdominal pain, nausea, and vomiting 151 00:06:02,571 --> 00:06:04,298 with a 102 fever. 152 00:06:04,322 --> 00:06:06,591 He was recently treated here by Dr. Hunt for appendicitis 153 00:06:06,615 --> 00:06:08,718 then sent home on oral antibiotics. 154 00:06:08,742 --> 00:06:09,928 Dave: Yeah. I'll be okay. 155 00:06:09,952 --> 00:06:11,596 Can ‐‐ Can you just give me some more antibiotics 156 00:06:11,620 --> 00:06:13,266 and ‐‐ and a sling or something? 157 00:06:13,290 --> 00:06:14,809 You were in so much pain that you fell off a ladder. 158 00:06:14,833 --> 00:06:15,810 I had to call an ambulance! 159 00:06:15,834 --> 00:06:17,060 Meet my wife, Tammi. 160 00:06:17,084 --> 00:06:18,855 Okay. We'll check him out, Tammi. 161 00:06:18,879 --> 00:06:21,399 Uh, he's tachycardic and slightly hypotensive. 162 00:06:21,423 --> 00:06:22,692 Kim. Here. 163 00:06:22,716 --> 00:06:25,778 Let's get him to trauma one and do a COVID test, 164 00:06:25,802 --> 00:06:28,781 STAT X‐rays, labs, and a FAST exam. 165 00:06:28,805 --> 00:06:30,658 Nico: Got it. 166 00:06:30,682 --> 00:06:32,516 [ Monitor beeping ] 167 00:06:36,605 --> 00:06:39,040 You trying to will her into joining the trial? 168 00:06:39,064 --> 00:06:41,627 No. 169 00:06:41,651 --> 00:06:44,379 I'm hoping she suddenly gets better and doesn't need it. 170 00:06:44,403 --> 00:06:52,012 ♪♪ 171 00:06:52,036 --> 00:06:53,764 [ Seagulls crying ] 172 00:06:53,788 --> 00:07:01,788 ♪♪ 173 00:07:03,088 --> 00:07:05,026 Excuse me! 174 00:07:05,050 --> 00:07:10,947 ♪♪ 175 00:07:10,971 --> 00:07:12,449 Meredith: Hello?! 176 00:07:12,473 --> 00:07:20,473 ♪♪ 177 00:07:21,315 --> 00:07:23,209 Mer? 178 00:07:23,233 --> 00:07:25,838 George?! 179 00:07:25,862 --> 00:07:28,341 What are you doing here? 180 00:07:28,365 --> 00:07:32,201 ♪♪ 181 00:07:38,500 --> 00:07:42,187 ♪♪ 182 00:07:42,211 --> 00:07:43,521 [ Knock on door ] 183 00:07:43,545 --> 00:07:49,319 ♪♪ 184 00:07:49,343 --> 00:07:51,072 Did you ask the humans to take you to their leader? 185 00:07:51,096 --> 00:07:52,365 Because it's no longer me. 186 00:07:52,389 --> 00:07:54,408 It's Dr. Helm. I'm here to do your COVID test. 187 00:07:54,432 --> 00:07:56,242 No, you're here to deliver it. 188 00:07:56,266 --> 00:07:57,995 I don't allow residents in my house or up my nose. 189 00:07:58,019 --> 00:08:00,605 Uh, just put it down. Right here. 190 00:08:02,273 --> 00:08:03,834 Back up. 191 00:08:03,858 --> 00:08:05,795 Back, back, back, back, back, back, back, back, back, back. 192 00:08:05,819 --> 00:08:07,629 Bup, bup, bup, bup, bup. 193 00:08:07,653 --> 00:08:09,781 [ Siren wailing in distance ] 194 00:08:17,831 --> 00:08:19,766 Taryn: Did you know that I had COVID? 195 00:08:19,790 --> 00:08:21,769 It was mild, but scary. 196 00:08:21,793 --> 00:08:24,062 I learned how to make sourdough. 197 00:08:24,086 --> 00:08:28,067 I couldn't taste it or smell it, but the texture seemed right. 198 00:08:28,091 --> 00:08:32,363 I also, uh, binged a docuseries about house ‐‐ 199 00:08:32,386 --> 00:08:34,865 You can stop your "What I did over COVID vacation" report. 200 00:08:34,889 --> 00:08:36,200 I have no interest in baking, bingeing, 201 00:08:36,224 --> 00:08:38,076 or doing anything you did or will ever do or ‐‐ 202 00:08:38,100 --> 00:08:39,144 [ Sniffles ] What? 203 00:08:40,979 --> 00:08:44,542 Are you plotting something... evil? 204 00:08:44,566 --> 00:08:46,668 No. I'm stopping the pandemic. 205 00:08:46,692 --> 00:08:48,421 [ Test kit thuds ] 206 00:08:48,445 --> 00:08:54,217 ♪♪ 207 00:08:54,241 --> 00:08:58,722 Winston: Chopped chicken salad with homemade sweet pickles 208 00:08:58,746 --> 00:09:00,099 on toasted bread. 209 00:09:00,123 --> 00:09:02,643 That's a Nana Ante special right there. 210 00:09:02,667 --> 00:09:05,354 Ooh! Jealous! 211 00:09:05,378 --> 00:09:07,523 I had stale cashews. 212 00:09:07,547 --> 00:09:10,650 Well, mine's nothing compared to hers, but it's not bad. 213 00:09:10,674 --> 00:09:12,360 And I just can't wait for you two to meet. 214 00:09:12,384 --> 00:09:13,611 I hope to, someday. 215 00:09:13,635 --> 00:09:16,072 Tonight too soon? It's her birthday. 216 00:09:16,096 --> 00:09:19,159 And, uh, we're doing a ‐‐ a virtual dinner. 217 00:09:19,183 --> 00:09:22,830 Or if it's too soon, no rush. 218 00:09:22,854 --> 00:09:25,750 No, no, I just, uh... 219 00:09:25,774 --> 00:09:27,375 It's Meredith. 220 00:09:27,399 --> 00:09:30,004 I‐I know there's nothing I can do, but... 221 00:09:30,028 --> 00:09:32,505 [ Chuckles ] Anything I do that isn't trying to help 222 00:09:32,529 --> 00:09:34,299 just feels selfish and wrong. 223 00:09:34,323 --> 00:09:37,344 Joy is in short supply these days. 224 00:09:37,368 --> 00:09:38,928 Especially our joy. 225 00:09:38,952 --> 00:09:40,306 It sure as hell is. 226 00:09:40,330 --> 00:09:42,432 That's why I'm grabbing it when I can. 227 00:09:42,456 --> 00:09:44,059 You know, it might be a text from you. 228 00:09:44,084 --> 00:09:45,811 It might be the fancy pencils 229 00:09:45,835 --> 00:09:47,605 I bought for my crossword puzzles. 230 00:09:47,629 --> 00:09:49,565 It might be just taking a few minutes 231 00:09:49,588 --> 00:09:51,734 to sit outside with my chicken‐salad sandwich 232 00:09:51,758 --> 00:09:55,361 and look at the daffodils. 233 00:09:55,385 --> 00:09:56,905 I don't mean to tell you how to be. 234 00:09:56,929 --> 00:09:58,908 Uh... are you mad? 235 00:09:58,932 --> 00:10:00,326 ‐No, no. ‐Ignore me. Ignore me. 236 00:10:00,350 --> 00:10:05,288 I'm not mad. I'm not mad. I'm... a little hurt maybe. 237 00:10:05,312 --> 00:10:07,166 You got fancy pencils and you didn't tell me? 238 00:10:07,190 --> 00:10:08,875 Wait. Are you a pencil nerd, too? 239 00:10:08,899 --> 00:10:13,505 Oh, I special ordered a vintage pencil sharpener from Paris. 240 00:10:13,529 --> 00:10:14,298 [ Laughs ] [ Cellphone chimes ] 241 00:10:14,322 --> 00:10:16,674 Oh, oh. That's my resident. 242 00:10:16,698 --> 00:10:18,094 And... joy's over. 243 00:10:18,118 --> 00:10:19,385 [ Sighs ] Until dinner tonight. 244 00:10:19,409 --> 00:10:20,929 Until dinner tonight. 245 00:10:20,953 --> 00:10:23,682 ♪♪ 246 00:10:23,706 --> 00:10:25,809 Dave: My great‐grandpa was an accountant, 247 00:10:25,833 --> 00:10:28,979 but no one would hire him after he came back from camp. 248 00:10:29,003 --> 00:10:32,524 So he got a job as a line cook in a diner 249 00:10:32,548 --> 00:10:34,943 and eventually started Toyo. 250 00:10:34,967 --> 00:10:37,446 ‐Where was he interned? ‐Tule Lake. 251 00:10:37,470 --> 00:10:39,490 My great‐grandparents were sent to Jerome. 252 00:10:39,514 --> 00:10:40,950 I'm Gosei on my mom's side. 253 00:10:40,974 --> 00:10:42,283 Scans up yet? 254 00:10:42,307 --> 00:10:44,495 [ Beep ] Yep, just came up. 255 00:10:44,519 --> 00:10:46,455 [ Keys clacking ] Dr. Hunt, I read 256 00:10:46,479 --> 00:10:48,624 that you initially diagnosed appendicitis, 257 00:10:48,648 --> 00:10:50,584 but these scans show pelvic free fluid 258 00:10:50,607 --> 00:10:52,336 and a paracolonic abscess. 259 00:10:52,360 --> 00:10:54,712 I think he might have right‐sided diverticulitis. 260 00:10:54,736 --> 00:10:56,298 [ Sighs ] Yep. 261 00:10:56,322 --> 00:10:58,259 And it looks like it's perforated. 262 00:10:58,283 --> 00:10:59,969 Plus, his X‐rays show a broken collarbone. 263 00:10:59,993 --> 00:11:01,886 Okay, book an OR, and I'll meet you up there. 264 00:11:01,910 --> 00:11:03,429 We need to get him up there right now. 265 00:11:03,453 --> 00:11:05,599 Really? We ‐‐ We as in me? 266 00:11:05,623 --> 00:11:07,518 Yeah, it's your diagnosis. 267 00:11:07,542 --> 00:11:09,293 [ Exhales sharply ] Good catch, Tseng. 268 00:11:12,672 --> 00:11:14,607 [ Keys clacking ] 269 00:11:14,631 --> 00:11:16,402 Congratulations. 270 00:11:16,426 --> 00:11:19,822 You just ordered Nathan Ramos a pregnancy test. 271 00:11:19,846 --> 00:11:22,014 Intern Sara: What? How?! 272 00:11:23,725 --> 00:11:27,078 Hey. Hey. 273 00:11:27,102 --> 00:11:28,102 Hey. 274 00:11:29,938 --> 00:11:32,250 You already said that. 275 00:11:32,274 --> 00:11:34,253 Woman on P. A.: Portable X‐ray to the third floor. 276 00:11:34,277 --> 00:11:36,172 Portable X‐ray to the third floor. 277 00:11:36,196 --> 00:11:38,090 Intern Sara: Ooh! He cute. [ Giggles ] 278 00:11:38,114 --> 00:11:40,466 No one asked you. Okay. 279 00:11:40,490 --> 00:11:42,635 Jackson: Wait. No, no, no. Wait. She kicked you out of bed, 280 00:11:42,659 --> 00:11:45,681 so you were, like, what, naked? I'm naked. Naked. 281 00:11:45,705 --> 00:11:48,100 I was naked in bed with my boyfriend, and she just ‐‐ 282 00:11:48,124 --> 00:11:50,226 And it wasn't just one time either. 283 00:11:50,250 --> 00:11:52,730 I mean, it kind of says less about him than her. 284 00:11:52,754 --> 00:11:54,230 Really, though? Does it? 285 00:11:54,254 --> 00:11:56,024 Yeah. Mer's like a force of nature. 286 00:11:56,048 --> 00:11:57,192 [ Both chuckle ] 287 00:11:57,216 --> 00:11:59,778 Yeah. That's right. 288 00:11:59,802 --> 00:12:02,054 She's a force of nature. She, um... 289 00:12:04,849 --> 00:12:07,769 She's gonna beat this thing. Right? 290 00:12:08,852 --> 00:12:10,581 Right. 291 00:12:10,605 --> 00:12:13,833 Right. Yeah. 292 00:12:13,857 --> 00:12:16,336 [ Waves crashing ] 293 00:12:16,360 --> 00:12:18,613 [ Seagulls crying ] 294 00:12:20,948 --> 00:12:23,009 Derek said the sand isn't real. 295 00:12:23,033 --> 00:12:25,221 Yeah, no. Neither is the ocean. 296 00:12:25,245 --> 00:12:28,640 It is nice, though. 297 00:12:28,664 --> 00:12:31,309 I wouldn't want to leave either. 298 00:12:31,333 --> 00:12:32,561 The beach? 299 00:12:32,585 --> 00:12:34,671 Your kids. [ Chuckles ] 300 00:12:36,673 --> 00:12:38,359 Got great kids. 301 00:12:38,383 --> 00:12:41,653 They're the best. You didn't meet them. 302 00:12:41,677 --> 00:12:44,572 I check in sometimes. 303 00:12:44,596 --> 00:12:47,158 How did you get older? 304 00:12:47,182 --> 00:12:49,827 Sand isn't real, the ocean isn't real. 305 00:12:49,851 --> 00:12:52,480 The body... it's not real. 306 00:12:54,274 --> 00:12:58,294 Maybe it's just more peaceful for you to imagine me older? 307 00:12:58,318 --> 00:13:01,048 You sound like a fortune cookie. 308 00:13:01,072 --> 00:13:03,073 [ Both laughing ] 309 00:13:08,913 --> 00:13:10,038 [ Sighs ] 310 00:13:12,166 --> 00:13:14,144 Do I choose? 311 00:13:14,168 --> 00:13:17,355 Do I get to decide if I go back? 312 00:13:17,379 --> 00:13:19,881 I don't know. I didn't. 313 00:13:22,302 --> 00:13:26,365 I would have stayed if I could have. 314 00:13:26,389 --> 00:13:28,575 It's different for everyone, though. 315 00:13:28,599 --> 00:13:36,599 ♪♪ 316 00:13:37,399 --> 00:13:39,419 [ Monitor beeping ] 317 00:13:39,443 --> 00:13:40,671 [ Door opens ] 318 00:13:40,695 --> 00:13:42,005 She's still asleep? 319 00:13:42,029 --> 00:13:43,631 Richard: She needs her rest. 320 00:13:43,655 --> 00:13:45,759 You want to wake her and ask her about the trial? 321 00:13:45,783 --> 00:13:48,076 I tried. How hard? 322 00:13:49,453 --> 00:13:51,056 She needs her rest, Bailey. 323 00:13:51,080 --> 00:13:53,225 If you think I'm struggling with the decision, 324 00:13:53,249 --> 00:13:55,043 how do you think she's gonna do? 325 00:13:57,378 --> 00:14:00,441 You want to talk pros and cons? 326 00:14:00,465 --> 00:14:02,609 We don't know anything about the virus, 327 00:14:02,633 --> 00:14:05,236 so we don't know anything about the treatment, 328 00:14:05,260 --> 00:14:09,158 so we don't know any of the pros or any of the cons. 329 00:14:09,182 --> 00:14:11,893 Let's just see if the proning helps. 330 00:14:14,062 --> 00:14:15,395 [ Door opens ] 331 00:14:21,068 --> 00:14:25,298 Nana Ante: The boy refused to wear anything with buttons. 332 00:14:25,322 --> 00:14:28,217 Collared shirts, slacks, even jeans. 333 00:14:28,241 --> 00:14:30,428 Look. Buttons confine, okay? 334 00:14:30,452 --> 00:14:33,557 Now, elastic waistbands give you freedom. 335 00:14:33,581 --> 00:14:35,433 You better not be wearing elastic waistbands 336 00:14:35,457 --> 00:14:36,684 when you take Maggie out. 337 00:14:36,709 --> 00:14:38,187 I promise you he doesn't. 338 00:14:38,211 --> 00:14:40,313 [ Computer ringing ] Oh, is this your brother? 339 00:14:40,337 --> 00:14:41,565 He said he had to work. 340 00:14:41,588 --> 00:14:42,732 Happy Birthday, Momma! 341 00:14:42,756 --> 00:14:43,984 Nana Ante: Thanks, baby. 342 00:14:44,008 --> 00:14:45,235 We're actually in the middle of dinner. 343 00:14:45,259 --> 00:14:47,403 Winston, I invited your dad. 344 00:14:47,427 --> 00:14:49,782 And you have to get along because it's my birthday. 345 00:14:49,806 --> 00:14:52,326 Clifford: So, who is this young lady? 346 00:14:52,350 --> 00:14:54,702 Um, I'm Maggie Pierce. I'm a friend of Winston's. 347 00:14:54,726 --> 00:14:56,245 Friend? Ha. 348 00:14:56,269 --> 00:14:58,831 Maggie's a genius doctor like Winston. 349 00:14:58,855 --> 00:15:00,292 She used to be his teacher. 350 00:15:00,316 --> 00:15:02,126 Winston? A genius? 351 00:15:02,150 --> 00:15:04,004 Oh, stop playin'. 352 00:15:04,028 --> 00:15:06,923 [ Chuckling ] You know that boy almost failed sixth grade. 353 00:15:06,947 --> 00:15:08,509 Such a pain. 354 00:15:08,533 --> 00:15:10,259 Maybe I wouldn't have missed so much class 355 00:15:10,283 --> 00:15:13,138 if I wasn't helping Mom while you gambled away our savings. 356 00:15:13,162 --> 00:15:15,474 Winston! Sorry, Nana. No disrespect. 357 00:15:15,498 --> 00:15:19,061 Listen, man, I never pretended to be a perfect man. 358 00:15:19,085 --> 00:15:22,147 But I love you, and I love my momma. 359 00:15:22,171 --> 00:15:27,193 So, please, for her sake, let's try to be civil. 360 00:15:27,217 --> 00:15:28,427 Civil, huh? 361 00:15:30,346 --> 00:15:31,514 Okay. 362 00:15:34,142 --> 00:15:36,519 Happy birthday, Nana. I love you. 363 00:15:37,436 --> 00:15:38,687 Uh... 364 00:15:42,024 --> 00:15:44,628 So, is there cake? 365 00:15:44,652 --> 00:15:46,754 [ Siren wailing ] 366 00:15:46,778 --> 00:15:48,048 [ Birds chirping ] 367 00:15:48,072 --> 00:15:50,259 Why are you up so early? 368 00:15:50,283 --> 00:15:52,635 [ Sighs ] Front desk. I got some breakfast delivered. 369 00:15:52,659 --> 00:15:53,971 Oh, you know what? 370 00:15:53,995 --> 00:15:55,596 If I was hungry, I would have just eaten the cold pizza. 371 00:15:55,620 --> 00:15:57,807 Who said I got you any? 372 00:15:57,831 --> 00:15:59,976 Can't believe I fell asleep. 373 00:16:00,000 --> 00:16:02,812 Never should've started a movie with two sequels. 374 00:16:02,836 --> 00:16:04,230 Prequels. They were prequels. 375 00:16:04,254 --> 00:16:06,942 And I said that, but you called me a wuss. 376 00:16:06,966 --> 00:16:08,402 [ Clears throat ] Why is your couch 377 00:16:08,426 --> 00:16:09,861 more comfortable than my bed? 378 00:16:09,885 --> 00:16:13,573 Well, you're welcome to it whenever you want. 379 00:16:13,597 --> 00:16:18,287 [ Clears throat ] Thank you for the friendship reboot. 380 00:16:18,311 --> 00:16:21,164 It almost made up for the last time that I woke up here. 381 00:16:21,188 --> 00:16:22,707 Tried to rip the Band‐Aid off too soon. 382 00:16:22,731 --> 00:16:24,000 It's behind us. We're good. 383 00:16:24,024 --> 00:16:25,626 Uh, but you can take the pizza with you. 384 00:16:25,650 --> 00:16:26,735 I'll grab it for you. 385 00:16:28,571 --> 00:16:29,989 Jo: Wait. 386 00:16:32,908 --> 00:16:34,260 Mnh, mnh, mnh. 387 00:16:34,284 --> 00:16:35,803 I'm ripping off the Band‐Aid. 388 00:16:35,827 --> 00:16:41,976 ♪♪ 389 00:16:42,000 --> 00:16:48,442 ♪♪ 390 00:16:48,466 --> 00:16:52,403 It's just a basic algorithm that simulates the spread of COVID. 391 00:16:52,427 --> 00:16:55,365 Here's what it would look like if everyone social‐distanced. 392 00:16:55,389 --> 00:16:56,408 [ Key clacks ] 393 00:16:56,432 --> 00:16:59,076 [ Chuckling ] 394 00:16:59,100 --> 00:17:01,830 Here... if everyone wore face masks. 395 00:17:01,854 --> 00:17:03,123 [ Key clacks, beeping ] 396 00:17:03,147 --> 00:17:04,415 [ Chuckles ] 397 00:17:04,440 --> 00:17:06,792 It's just a little stochastic S‐I‐R model 398 00:17:06,817 --> 00:17:08,961 that allows for multivariable inputs... 399 00:17:08,986 --> 00:17:10,631 [ Growling ] 400 00:17:10,654 --> 00:17:13,424 w‐which I built by converting a "Zombie Apocalypse" game. 401 00:17:13,449 --> 00:17:15,509 I love that game! How does yours end? 402 00:17:15,534 --> 00:17:16,761 I‐I don't know yet. 403 00:17:16,786 --> 00:17:19,138 Same. I never got past level eight, so... 404 00:17:19,163 --> 00:17:20,766 Yeah, Helm, I appreciate your interest, 405 00:17:20,789 --> 00:17:22,433 but, uh, no one's gonna know my test is negative 406 00:17:22,458 --> 00:17:24,102 if it never leaves my porch, hmm? 407 00:17:24,125 --> 00:17:25,895 Show's over. 408 00:17:25,920 --> 00:17:27,003 Bye‐ee! 409 00:17:31,968 --> 00:17:34,488 Meredith: I was devastated when you died. 410 00:17:34,511 --> 00:17:37,056 You were all cracking up at my funeral. 411 00:17:39,349 --> 00:17:40,661 Well, we were ‐‐ 412 00:17:40,684 --> 00:17:41,744 No. What? 413 00:17:41,769 --> 00:17:44,122 What? No. 414 00:17:44,145 --> 00:17:47,148 It ‐‐ That made me happy. 415 00:17:49,986 --> 00:17:52,422 I was devastated. 416 00:17:52,445 --> 00:17:56,468 And then I was okay. 417 00:17:56,491 --> 00:17:58,761 And even with Derek... 418 00:17:58,786 --> 00:18:02,682 eventually you go on. 419 00:18:02,707 --> 00:18:05,810 And the kids would go on. 420 00:18:05,835 --> 00:18:08,145 They would, but... 421 00:18:08,170 --> 00:18:11,732 I think maybe with them it's different. 422 00:18:11,757 --> 00:18:13,402 My mom didn't go on. 423 00:18:13,425 --> 00:18:14,819 No? 424 00:18:14,844 --> 00:18:17,990 Not really, not like she used to. 425 00:18:18,013 --> 00:18:21,159 Some grief is ‐‐ 426 00:18:21,182 --> 00:18:23,494 is heavier than other grief. 427 00:18:23,519 --> 00:18:25,413 Sometimes it moves through you, 428 00:18:25,438 --> 00:18:28,916 and sometimes it ‐‐ it just gets stuck. 429 00:18:28,941 --> 00:18:32,253 And you carry it. Like my mom. 430 00:18:32,278 --> 00:18:34,113 My mom carries it. 431 00:18:36,031 --> 00:18:39,720 Sometimes I try to shake it out of her. 432 00:18:39,743 --> 00:18:41,721 What?! 433 00:18:41,746 --> 00:18:43,222 Like, you know... 434 00:18:43,247 --> 00:18:44,849 Like you haunt her? 435 00:18:44,874 --> 00:18:46,643 Well, I mean, if you want to call it that, I... 436 00:18:46,666 --> 00:18:49,145 [ Laughs ] 437 00:18:49,170 --> 00:18:52,898 I just want her to... let it go. 438 00:18:52,923 --> 00:18:54,651 I want her to know I'm still me 439 00:18:54,674 --> 00:18:57,863 even though she can't touch me and she can't see me, 440 00:18:57,886 --> 00:19:00,198 but I am still me. 441 00:19:00,221 --> 00:19:01,866 It's not the same. 442 00:19:01,891 --> 00:19:03,326 No, I know. 443 00:19:03,351 --> 00:19:10,208 ♪♪ 444 00:19:10,231 --> 00:19:12,169 [ Monitor beeping ] 445 00:19:12,192 --> 00:19:13,753 [ Indistinct conversations ] 446 00:19:13,778 --> 00:19:15,172 You know, her sats were steady, 447 00:19:15,195 --> 00:19:16,548 but now they're just getting worse. 448 00:19:16,571 --> 00:19:18,508 I made some calls, and there's another spot open 449 00:19:18,531 --> 00:19:20,844 in Dr. Kuo's trial, but we have to act fast. 450 00:19:20,867 --> 00:19:23,913 Is there another spot because another patient died? 451 00:19:27,791 --> 00:19:29,685 Have you seen the opacities in her lungs? 452 00:19:29,710 --> 00:19:31,145 Dr. Webber, at this point, 453 00:19:31,170 --> 00:19:33,190 you can either hope that she wakes up again 454 00:19:33,213 --> 00:19:36,609 or you can make the decisions that she chose you to make! 455 00:19:36,634 --> 00:19:38,362 I beg your pardon? 456 00:19:38,385 --> 00:19:42,097 The choice is between doing nothing and doing something. 457 00:19:44,557 --> 00:19:46,536 Do something. 458 00:19:46,559 --> 00:19:52,441 ♪♪ 459 00:19:58,029 --> 00:20:00,342 Nico: You had to leave him open? Owen: Yes. 460 00:20:00,365 --> 00:20:01,634 Once we got in, his colon was a mess. 461 00:20:01,659 --> 00:20:03,178 So we had to bring up an ileostomy 462 00:20:03,201 --> 00:20:05,096 and place an ABTHERA for the swelling. 463 00:20:05,121 --> 00:20:06,890 His clavicle's non‐displaced. 464 00:20:06,913 --> 00:20:08,349 Fracture should heal quite nicely. 465 00:20:08,374 --> 00:20:09,934 How soon? Till he can work again? 466 00:20:09,959 --> 00:20:11,144 Maybe a month. 467 00:20:11,167 --> 00:20:12,854 Tseng, let's diurese him overnight 468 00:20:12,877 --> 00:20:14,647 and let's put him on the stand‐by list for the OR 469 00:20:14,672 --> 00:20:16,900 in case we need to do a washout tomorrow. 470 00:20:16,923 --> 00:20:18,467 You did well today. 471 00:20:22,846 --> 00:20:24,365 Can I ask you something? 472 00:20:24,390 --> 00:20:26,492 Am I literally the only person that can answer it? 473 00:20:26,517 --> 00:20:28,953 Kind of. 474 00:20:28,978 --> 00:20:31,664 Our patient's Asian‐American. 475 00:20:31,689 --> 00:20:34,792 So right‐side diverticulitis was a greater possibility. 476 00:20:34,817 --> 00:20:37,586 But Dr. Hunt didn't scan him when he first came in. 477 00:20:37,611 --> 00:20:39,506 So, what's your question? 478 00:20:39,529 --> 00:20:42,049 I think he should know so he doesn't make this mistake again. 479 00:20:42,074 --> 00:20:43,801 But I don't know how to talk to him about it. 480 00:20:43,826 --> 00:20:45,886 You don't know how to accuse your attending of being a racist? 481 00:20:45,911 --> 00:20:48,097 That's not what I meant. Well, that's what he's gonna hear. 482 00:20:48,122 --> 00:20:50,958 So your advice is... do nothing? 483 00:20:53,126 --> 00:20:55,188 You're a resident. He's an attending. 484 00:20:55,211 --> 00:20:57,773 My advice to you is, if you're gonna have a conversation 485 00:20:57,798 --> 00:21:00,192 with him, at least know what to expect. 486 00:21:00,217 --> 00:21:04,930 ♪♪ 487 00:21:07,599 --> 00:21:09,684 Hello! Dr. Koracick? 488 00:21:16,983 --> 00:21:19,003 No test kit? They wouldn't give me another one 489 00:21:19,028 --> 00:21:20,380 because you keep testing positive. 490 00:21:20,403 --> 00:21:23,383 But I got to level nine on "Zombie Apocalypse." 491 00:21:23,406 --> 00:21:25,218 I didn't stop the virus, but it's a start. 492 00:21:25,241 --> 00:21:26,845 Oh, yeah, I‐I stopped that. 493 00:21:26,868 --> 00:21:29,138 You found a cure? Or a vaccine? 494 00:21:29,163 --> 00:21:33,018 Wait. Did you reach herd immunity? 495 00:21:33,041 --> 00:21:35,353 Tell me. 496 00:21:35,376 --> 00:21:36,645 I blew up the world. 497 00:21:36,670 --> 00:21:37,855 You killed everyone? 498 00:21:37,880 --> 00:21:39,732 Oh, we're all gonna die anyway. 499 00:21:39,757 --> 00:21:41,526 Well, yeah, eventually. 500 00:21:41,549 --> 00:21:43,528 Well, if by "eventually" you mean before the year's out, then, yeah. 501 00:21:43,551 --> 00:21:46,448 [ Chuckles ] I figured I'd cut to the chase. 502 00:21:46,471 --> 00:21:53,121 ♪♪ 503 00:21:53,144 --> 00:21:56,208 That was not a bridge. 504 00:21:56,231 --> 00:21:59,711 That was ‐‐ What's bigger than a bridge? 505 00:21:59,734 --> 00:22:02,547 Mm, whatever that was, I guess. 506 00:22:02,570 --> 00:22:04,965 Okay. But we can't do it again. 507 00:22:04,990 --> 00:22:06,175 No? No. Definitely not. 508 00:22:06,200 --> 00:22:07,676 Because then ‐‐ then we're a thing. 509 00:22:07,701 --> 00:22:08,929 We're definitely not a thing. 510 00:22:08,952 --> 00:22:10,387 Yeah, definitely not a thing. 511 00:22:10,412 --> 00:22:11,597 Agreed. Not a thing. 512 00:22:11,622 --> 00:22:13,892 It's just ‐‐ However... Yeah? 513 00:22:13,915 --> 00:22:16,811 If we were to not get dressed 514 00:22:16,836 --> 00:22:19,815 between the first and the ‐‐ goes after... 515 00:22:19,838 --> 00:22:22,358 Yep. Yeah, mm‐hmm. You know what I'm saying? 516 00:22:22,383 --> 00:22:25,194 Then it's all really just one experience. It's just one experience. 517 00:22:25,219 --> 00:22:26,946 So it's not a thing. It's just... It's one whole experience. 518 00:22:26,971 --> 00:22:30,616 ♪♪ 519 00:22:30,641 --> 00:22:33,369 So... he just bailed? 520 00:22:33,394 --> 00:22:36,413 Yeah. I knew that he had problems with his dad, 521 00:22:36,438 --> 00:22:38,875 but I did not know they were that bad. 522 00:22:38,898 --> 00:22:40,460 Couldn't even be in a virtual room with him. 523 00:22:40,483 --> 00:22:42,295 And I haven't heard from him since. 524 00:22:42,318 --> 00:22:44,256 You seem exceedingly calm about that. 525 00:22:44,279 --> 00:22:46,423 You know, I'm ‐‐ I'm paying it forward. 526 00:22:46,448 --> 00:22:48,175 Or... backward. 527 00:22:48,200 --> 00:22:50,386 When we first reconnected in L. A., 528 00:22:50,411 --> 00:22:54,057 I told him that I needed some time, and he totally heard me. 529 00:22:54,080 --> 00:22:58,310 Plus, our sister's in the hospital with COVID alone. 530 00:22:58,335 --> 00:23:00,546 It really puts things in perspective. 531 00:23:03,048 --> 00:23:04,526 I hate that we can't be with her. 532 00:23:04,549 --> 00:23:05,800 Me too. 533 00:23:07,469 --> 00:23:10,281 [ Man whistling ] 534 00:23:10,306 --> 00:23:12,325 Is that whistling? 535 00:23:12,348 --> 00:23:13,993 That's Link. 536 00:23:14,018 --> 00:23:17,538 He is a one‐man pep rally. 537 00:23:17,563 --> 00:23:19,147 And I hate that, too. 538 00:23:22,108 --> 00:23:24,712 Oh! Dr. Altman. 539 00:23:24,737 --> 00:23:26,423 Bad time? 540 00:23:26,446 --> 00:23:28,299 This virus is like a‐a drunk uncle at a wedding. 541 00:23:28,324 --> 00:23:29,968 Y‐You've got no idea what it's gonna do 542 00:23:29,991 --> 00:23:31,553 or when it's gonna turn on you. 543 00:23:31,576 --> 00:23:33,387 I am reading everything on COVID 544 00:23:33,412 --> 00:23:35,598 because every 24 hours there's something new. 545 00:23:35,623 --> 00:23:37,558 And I have to keep up because there could be one drug, 546 00:23:37,583 --> 00:23:39,310 one procedure ‐‐ it could help. 547 00:23:39,335 --> 00:23:40,644 It could help everyone. It could help Meredith Grey. 548 00:23:40,669 --> 00:23:42,546 So, yes, it's a ‐‐ it's a ‐‐ it's a bad time. 549 00:23:45,798 --> 00:23:46,817 What do you need? 550 00:23:46,842 --> 00:23:48,319 Um, I was gonna tell you 551 00:23:48,344 --> 00:23:51,405 that Dr. Koracick is in a really dark place 552 00:23:51,430 --> 00:23:53,407 and seems like he could use a friend. 553 00:23:53,432 --> 00:23:57,787 But, um, Dr. Grey is kinda my whole world, so... 554 00:23:57,810 --> 00:23:59,788 Never mind. Proceed. 555 00:23:59,813 --> 00:24:03,919 ♪♪ 556 00:24:03,942 --> 00:24:06,546 Owen: Dave's abdominal swelling is coming down, 557 00:24:06,569 --> 00:24:09,214 so we should be able to close him in just a few days. 558 00:24:09,239 --> 00:24:11,300 Tammi: Oh, that's great news. Thank you. 559 00:24:11,325 --> 00:24:13,428 Yeah. Just doing my job. How are things there? 560 00:24:13,451 --> 00:24:14,762 Oh, hanging on by a thread. 561 00:24:14,787 --> 00:24:16,513 Dave's the one who keeps this place running. 562 00:24:16,538 --> 00:24:18,098 Well, we are doing everything we can here 563 00:24:18,123 --> 00:24:19,351 to get him back to you, okay? 564 00:24:19,375 --> 00:24:20,559 Can I see him one more time? 565 00:24:20,584 --> 00:24:21,769 Of course. 566 00:24:21,794 --> 00:24:23,438 Rest up and come home soon, okay? 567 00:24:23,461 --> 00:24:26,273 I wish I could be there. I love you. 568 00:24:26,298 --> 00:24:29,318 [ Sighs heavily ] It's awful that she can't visit. 569 00:24:29,343 --> 00:24:31,095 It's awful this happened in the first place. 570 00:24:33,221 --> 00:24:34,640 Tseng, you need to step out. 571 00:24:36,099 --> 00:24:38,536 [ Sighs ] Now. 572 00:24:38,559 --> 00:24:45,167 ♪♪ 573 00:24:45,192 --> 00:24:47,252 You don't have to be so hard on her. 574 00:24:47,277 --> 00:24:49,047 She's very attached to this patient. 575 00:24:49,070 --> 00:24:50,632 She's upset that a misdiagnosis 576 00:24:50,655 --> 00:24:53,134 cost this patient the next four weeks of his livelihood. 577 00:24:53,157 --> 00:24:55,511 Me too. Sometimes you have to weigh the risks and make a decision. 578 00:24:55,536 --> 00:24:57,806 Right‐sided diverticulitis is extremely rare. 579 00:24:57,829 --> 00:25:00,182 But not as rare for Dave. It's 10 times more likely 580 00:25:00,207 --> 00:25:02,477 in patients of Asian descent than white patients. 581 00:25:02,500 --> 00:25:04,854 Which you clearly didn't know or didn't take into consideration. 582 00:25:04,877 --> 00:25:06,647 But either way it's on you, 583 00:25:06,672 --> 00:25:09,025 'cause all this could've been avoided with a simple scan. 584 00:25:09,048 --> 00:25:10,693 [ Monitor beeping ] 585 00:25:10,718 --> 00:25:17,598 ♪♪ 586 00:25:23,230 --> 00:25:25,125 You're just getting here? [ Car door closes ] 587 00:25:25,148 --> 00:25:27,167 Is that a problem? 588 00:25:27,192 --> 00:25:29,878 No. Just didn't see you when I got up. 589 00:25:29,903 --> 00:25:31,714 I figured you came in early. 590 00:25:31,739 --> 00:25:33,824 I was exercising. 591 00:25:35,491 --> 00:25:36,491 Morning. 592 00:25:38,202 --> 00:25:40,472 Oh, my God! You're back together. 593 00:25:40,497 --> 00:25:41,682 Kind of. Ugh! 594 00:25:41,707 --> 00:25:43,476 Taryn said the Netherlands 595 00:25:43,500 --> 00:25:46,270 suggested people find a designated sex partner 596 00:25:46,295 --> 00:25:47,480 for the pandemic. 597 00:25:47,503 --> 00:25:49,190 You're having sex with Nico 598 00:25:49,213 --> 00:25:51,276 because the Dutch government recommends it? 599 00:25:51,299 --> 00:25:54,028 Their country ranks very high on the World Happiness Index. 600 00:25:54,052 --> 00:25:56,114 He lied, dumped you. 601 00:25:56,137 --> 00:25:58,074 He barely gives you the time of day. Okay, stop judging. 602 00:25:58,097 --> 00:26:00,535 It's wartime, but I still have needs. 603 00:26:00,558 --> 00:26:03,203 It's not like I'm just gonna find someone new. 604 00:26:03,228 --> 00:26:05,248 So you're with your emotionally unavailable ex? 605 00:26:05,271 --> 00:26:06,458 Wartime! 606 00:26:06,481 --> 00:26:08,167 [ Sighs ] 607 00:26:08,192 --> 00:26:12,422 Link: Ah, the sun is out, and Scout's down. 608 00:26:12,445 --> 00:26:17,509 And everyone else is watching a PBS show about penguins. 609 00:26:17,534 --> 00:26:20,680 Meredith's not improving. Uh, they can't wake her. 610 00:26:20,703 --> 00:26:22,723 Well, she's getting her rest. It's good. 611 00:26:22,748 --> 00:26:25,226 No, it is not good. None of this is good, okay? 612 00:26:25,250 --> 00:26:27,479 Do you not see that? I am terrified for Meredith. 613 00:26:27,502 --> 00:26:31,066 I am sad. I am enraged that this is happening. 614 00:26:31,089 --> 00:26:33,526 So, please, stop dismissing me 615 00:26:33,549 --> 00:26:35,987 with your bright sides and your pep talks, okay? 616 00:26:36,010 --> 00:26:38,655 Let me have my fear and my grief 617 00:26:38,680 --> 00:26:40,407 and my anger. 618 00:26:40,432 --> 00:26:44,537 Because if I don't, if I keep shoving it down, 619 00:26:44,560 --> 00:26:47,164 you will have a very hard time 620 00:26:47,189 --> 00:26:49,398 finding the bright side to the consequences. 621 00:27:06,666 --> 00:27:08,000 What are you doing? 622 00:27:12,548 --> 00:27:16,236 I'm making some space for us to sit 623 00:27:16,259 --> 00:27:20,740 while you have all your feelings. 624 00:27:20,763 --> 00:27:24,117 [ Celeste's "I'm Here" plays ] 625 00:27:24,142 --> 00:27:26,453 [ Monitor beeping ] 626 00:27:26,478 --> 00:27:34,478 ♪♪ 627 00:27:35,487 --> 00:27:39,199 ♪ How do we still remember ♪ 628 00:27:41,993 --> 00:27:45,705 ♪ My mind and memories young ♪ 629 00:27:48,250 --> 00:27:51,604 ♪ I want you January to December ♪ 630 00:27:51,627 --> 00:27:54,315 [ Waves crashing ] 631 00:27:54,338 --> 00:27:56,150 George: Do you still dance? ♪ Another trip around the sun ♪ 632 00:27:56,173 --> 00:27:57,317 Meredith: Hmm? 633 00:27:57,342 --> 00:27:58,944 When you're sad or you're stressed, 634 00:27:58,969 --> 00:28:02,155 do you still... dance it out? 635 00:28:02,180 --> 00:28:07,369 No, not so much anymore, not since Cristina left. 636 00:28:07,394 --> 00:28:09,998 Cristina didn't die. 637 00:28:10,021 --> 00:28:11,647 I know. 638 00:28:13,317 --> 00:28:16,587 That's what I miss about being alive. 639 00:28:16,612 --> 00:28:20,340 Dancing till you drop. 640 00:28:20,365 --> 00:28:23,720 Laughing till you cry. 641 00:28:23,743 --> 00:28:26,556 Food. Textures. 642 00:28:26,579 --> 00:28:28,932 The crunch of cereal as you eat it from the box. 643 00:28:28,957 --> 00:28:31,227 [ Laughs ] 644 00:28:31,250 --> 00:28:33,813 The feel of clean sheets and a good pillow 645 00:28:33,836 --> 00:28:35,440 at the end of a long day. 646 00:28:35,463 --> 00:28:37,482 ♪♪ 647 00:28:37,507 --> 00:28:40,028 ♪ These fears ♪ [ Monitor beeping faintly ] 648 00:28:40,051 --> 00:28:43,114 Richard: I've got the consent forms for that clinical trial... 649 00:28:43,137 --> 00:28:44,615 for that clinical trial... 650 00:28:44,640 --> 00:28:48,327 ♪ These tears are just tears ♪ 651 00:28:48,352 --> 00:28:51,204 And there's one more space, and... 652 00:28:51,229 --> 00:28:53,750 I have to decide, and... 653 00:28:53,773 --> 00:28:57,545 it could be the best or worst decision of my life. 654 00:28:57,568 --> 00:29:01,382 Richard: Your doctors, your friends, your family. 655 00:29:01,405 --> 00:29:03,050 They're worried about you. 656 00:29:03,075 --> 00:29:04,885 I'm trying to be strong for them, 657 00:29:04,910 --> 00:29:08,038 but I'll admit... I'm struggling. 658 00:29:09,498 --> 00:29:11,476 Seeing you there like this... 659 00:29:11,500 --> 00:29:13,685 and not knowing what to do. 660 00:29:13,710 --> 00:29:16,189 [ Monitor beeping ] 661 00:29:16,212 --> 00:29:19,400 I'm sorry, Richard. 662 00:29:19,423 --> 00:29:22,487 And choices. Ahh. 663 00:29:22,510 --> 00:29:24,529 So many choices. 664 00:29:24,554 --> 00:29:27,951 So many ways to live a life. 665 00:29:27,974 --> 00:29:29,326 Meredith? 666 00:29:29,351 --> 00:29:32,372 Meredith, what is it? I'm here. 667 00:29:32,395 --> 00:29:34,164 I'm right here. 668 00:29:34,189 --> 00:29:38,502 ♪ Enough time to know that you're... ♪ 669 00:29:38,527 --> 00:29:41,088 If you stay here, it might break him. 670 00:29:41,113 --> 00:29:45,384 ♪ Ohh, keeping your eyes on me ♪ 671 00:29:45,409 --> 00:29:47,010 I know. 672 00:29:47,035 --> 00:29:50,079 ♪ I know you'll be here when I look 'round ♪ 673 00:29:51,373 --> 00:29:53,893 [ Weakly ] I know, George. 674 00:29:53,916 --> 00:29:57,771 ♪ These fears ♪ 675 00:29:57,796 --> 00:30:00,732 ♪ No longer weapons ♪ 676 00:30:00,757 --> 00:30:07,280 ♪ These tears are just tears ♪ 677 00:30:07,305 --> 00:30:09,616 ♪ Not longing ♪ 678 00:30:09,641 --> 00:30:10,617 Get her in. 679 00:30:10,642 --> 00:30:13,578 ♪ For direction ♪ 680 00:30:13,603 --> 00:30:19,192 ♪ I belong here ♪ 681 00:30:25,949 --> 00:30:27,676 [ Siren wailing in distance ] 682 00:30:27,701 --> 00:30:30,202 Oh, God, I hate... 683 00:30:32,079 --> 00:30:33,266 Me? 684 00:30:33,289 --> 00:30:35,166 Every single thing except you. 685 00:30:42,007 --> 00:30:43,776 I live with Jo Wilson now. 686 00:30:43,799 --> 00:30:45,569 But she, uh... 687 00:30:45,594 --> 00:30:48,905 has not been sleeping at home. 688 00:30:48,930 --> 00:30:51,451 I want to invite you over. 689 00:30:51,474 --> 00:30:56,497 But I guess we have not been great to each other. 690 00:30:56,520 --> 00:31:00,625 And I don't know what's really changed. 691 00:31:00,650 --> 00:31:03,336 Levi. 692 00:31:03,361 --> 00:31:06,590 There's a worldwide pandemic. 693 00:31:06,615 --> 00:31:09,719 We literally don't know if we're gonna live to see tomorrow. 694 00:31:09,742 --> 00:31:11,787 A lot has changed. 695 00:31:16,750 --> 00:31:17,875 Yeah, okay, let's go. 696 00:31:24,548 --> 00:31:25,942 [ Horns honking ] 697 00:31:25,967 --> 00:31:27,134 [ Knock on door ] 698 00:31:29,762 --> 00:31:31,406 Hey. Hey. 699 00:31:31,431 --> 00:31:32,784 Um... [ Clears throat ] 700 00:31:32,807 --> 00:31:35,036 Our plan went to crap, 701 00:31:35,059 --> 00:31:37,121 and now we can't pretend it didn't happen ‐‐ 702 00:31:37,144 --> 00:31:38,623 I can't be in a relationship right now. 703 00:31:38,646 --> 00:31:40,500 What? Sorry. 704 00:31:40,523 --> 00:31:42,710 Let me start over. That sounded rude. 705 00:31:42,733 --> 00:31:46,672 When I'm saying is, I‐I jumped right into something with Vic... 706 00:31:46,695 --> 00:31:48,715 Mm‐hmm. you know, after breaking up with Maggie, 707 00:31:48,740 --> 00:31:52,135 who I started dating pretty soon after April. 708 00:31:52,160 --> 00:31:55,556 So I just probably should take some time to sort things out. 709 00:31:55,579 --> 00:31:59,935 I don't want to do anything to hurt you or our friendship. 710 00:31:59,960 --> 00:32:05,900 Jackson, my husband left me the same year that we got married, 711 00:32:05,923 --> 00:32:07,734 for a second time. 712 00:32:07,759 --> 00:32:09,237 I am super broken. 713 00:32:09,260 --> 00:32:12,198 Like "virtual therapy three times a week" broken. 714 00:32:12,221 --> 00:32:14,534 And now I have to put myself back together 715 00:32:14,557 --> 00:32:16,952 in a world that I no longer recognize, 716 00:32:16,977 --> 00:32:20,373 one that is sad and lonely and depressing. 717 00:32:20,396 --> 00:32:24,669 So what I need is friendship and sex. 718 00:32:24,692 --> 00:32:30,133 I am not, like really not, looking for a relationship. 719 00:32:30,156 --> 00:32:32,384 Especially with someone like you. 720 00:32:32,409 --> 00:32:34,804 Someone like me? Okay. Mm‐hmm. 721 00:32:34,827 --> 00:32:37,306 Yeah, you know, Mr., um, Can't Be Alone 722 00:32:37,329 --> 00:32:40,518 But Sometimes Skips Town To Go On Nature Journeys. 723 00:32:40,541 --> 00:32:41,769 No thanks. No. Oh, okay. 724 00:32:41,792 --> 00:32:43,311 But you can be friends with 725 00:32:43,336 --> 00:32:45,897 and have sex with Mr. Can't Be Alone? 726 00:32:45,922 --> 00:32:47,942 Got it. Yes. 727 00:32:47,965 --> 00:32:50,987 The Netherlands has recommended 728 00:32:51,010 --> 00:32:54,906 that its residents find a regular sex buddy 729 00:32:54,931 --> 00:32:57,660 during the pandemic for safety. 730 00:32:57,683 --> 00:32:58,894 Sounds wise. Doesn't it? 731 00:33:00,895 --> 00:33:03,374 [ Laughing ] You thought I wanted to date you?! 732 00:33:03,397 --> 00:33:05,567 Well, how is that ‐‐ Why is that so funny? 733 00:33:13,282 --> 00:33:14,594 Hey. Uh... 734 00:33:14,617 --> 00:33:17,596 You mind if I, uh... 735 00:33:17,621 --> 00:33:20,123 Okay, well, sit over there. 736 00:33:26,837 --> 00:33:28,982 Okay. Hypothetical. 737 00:33:29,007 --> 00:33:31,611 Asian‐American male presents with fever, 738 00:33:31,634 --> 00:33:34,697 high white blood cell count, and right lower quadrant pain. 739 00:33:34,721 --> 00:33:36,740 Oh, is this the restaurant guy? 740 00:33:36,765 --> 00:33:38,201 I caught him in the ER. 741 00:33:38,224 --> 00:33:40,577 Bailey, I see a dozen presentations like that a month. 742 00:33:40,602 --> 00:33:42,413 All appendicitis. 743 00:33:42,436 --> 00:33:44,707 But if I'm honest, in that moment, 744 00:33:44,730 --> 00:33:46,375 I‐I didn't give it much thought. 745 00:33:46,398 --> 00:33:49,045 I just ‐‐ He was ‐‐ He was any patient. 746 00:33:49,068 --> 00:33:51,338 Any non‐Asian patient. 747 00:33:51,363 --> 00:33:53,382 I defaulted to a standard of care. 748 00:33:53,405 --> 00:33:55,991 That's centered around white patients. 749 00:33:59,203 --> 00:34:02,141 I never want to make that mistake again. 750 00:34:02,164 --> 00:34:03,476 There is no excuse. 751 00:34:03,500 --> 00:34:05,810 You know, when you're dealing with a high patient count, 752 00:34:05,835 --> 00:34:08,271 you have to make judgment calls, you know? 753 00:34:08,295 --> 00:34:11,483 You ‐‐ You have to ask, what is the most likely problem, right? 754 00:34:11,507 --> 00:34:13,235 So there's no excuses, 755 00:34:13,260 --> 00:34:15,237 other than the excuses you just listed off? 756 00:34:15,262 --> 00:34:16,697 [ Chuckles ] That's not what I meant. 757 00:34:16,721 --> 00:34:17,989 Ha! 758 00:34:18,014 --> 00:34:20,867 I just want to treat everyone equally. 759 00:34:20,891 --> 00:34:24,121 Equal doesn't work for everybody, Hunt. 760 00:34:24,144 --> 00:34:27,416 I‐It's about equity ‐‐ patients getting what they need, 761 00:34:27,440 --> 00:34:29,876 whether it fits into a protocol or not. 762 00:34:29,900 --> 00:34:33,797 Look, I just put my parents in assisted living, 763 00:34:33,822 --> 00:34:37,550 and I can't stop worrying that they won't get enough care 764 00:34:37,574 --> 00:34:41,597 because... there are so few Black folks there. 765 00:34:41,621 --> 00:34:44,182 Meanwhile, my dad's freaked out 766 00:34:44,206 --> 00:34:47,519 because on his floor the nurses are male. 767 00:34:47,543 --> 00:34:51,148 In his mind, good nurses are female, period. 768 00:34:51,172 --> 00:34:55,235 So we all have biases, Hunt, including you. 769 00:34:55,260 --> 00:34:58,447 What matters now is what you do about it. 770 00:34:58,471 --> 00:35:00,115 You're the chief of trauma. 771 00:35:00,139 --> 00:35:01,951 If the protocols don't work, 772 00:35:01,974 --> 00:35:05,704 then read, learn... 773 00:35:05,728 --> 00:35:08,708 question... and change them. 774 00:35:08,731 --> 00:35:11,168 ♪♪ 775 00:35:11,192 --> 00:35:13,193 [ Guitar playing blues riff ] 776 00:35:17,990 --> 00:35:19,552 Kids are asleep. 777 00:35:19,576 --> 00:35:27,059 ♪♪ 778 00:35:27,083 --> 00:35:31,606 And... it's your turn to talk. 779 00:35:31,630 --> 00:35:32,755 I'm good. 780 00:35:35,342 --> 00:35:38,737 Link, everything sucks right now. You can talk about it. 781 00:35:38,762 --> 00:35:40,280 Yeah. Yeah. I could do that. 782 00:35:40,304 --> 00:35:43,742 If you want me to be... miserable and resentful. 783 00:35:43,766 --> 00:35:45,827 Resentful of me? 784 00:35:45,851 --> 00:35:47,663 For trying to listen? 785 00:35:47,686 --> 00:35:49,206 No, of making me talk 786 00:35:49,230 --> 00:35:52,626 when clearly all I want to do is play my damn guitar. 787 00:35:52,650 --> 00:35:54,210 [ Guitar playing ] 788 00:35:54,235 --> 00:35:55,880 You can't keep everything bottled up. 789 00:35:55,903 --> 00:35:57,380 No, no, you can't, Amelia. 790 00:35:57,405 --> 00:35:59,050 That's how you process feelings. 791 00:35:59,074 --> 00:36:01,385 That's how you cope. And I'm okay with that. 792 00:36:01,409 --> 00:36:05,889 But... I've been through "everything sucks." 793 00:36:05,914 --> 00:36:09,268 Illness and isolation. 794 00:36:09,291 --> 00:36:11,646 When I had cancer. When ‐‐ When my parents split. 795 00:36:11,670 --> 00:36:13,521 I was so depressed that I could ‐‐ 796 00:36:13,545 --> 00:36:15,775 I could barely get out of bed for the better part of a year. 797 00:36:15,798 --> 00:36:19,235 And I was 11. 798 00:36:19,260 --> 00:36:21,614 Then I met a kid at cancer camp. 799 00:36:21,637 --> 00:36:23,657 Morrow Willis. 800 00:36:23,681 --> 00:36:25,326 Kid was probably sicker than I was, 801 00:36:25,349 --> 00:36:27,702 but he didn't want to talk about treatments or symptoms. 802 00:36:27,726 --> 00:36:30,289 Just sports and "Mario Kart." 803 00:36:30,313 --> 00:36:34,585 So I said to myself, "What if I just focus on the good stuff?" 804 00:36:34,608 --> 00:36:36,086 And I tried it. 805 00:36:36,110 --> 00:36:40,048 And it turns out that's what works for me. 806 00:36:40,072 --> 00:36:42,217 That's what I need. 807 00:36:42,242 --> 00:36:44,052 And if you're okay with that, great, 808 00:36:44,077 --> 00:36:46,681 but if you need a partner in misery, I'm not your guy. 809 00:36:46,704 --> 00:36:48,724 [ Guitar playing ] 810 00:36:48,748 --> 00:36:54,813 ♪♪ 811 00:36:54,838 --> 00:36:57,858 Whatcha playing? 812 00:36:57,882 --> 00:36:59,318 Just a little something I made up. 813 00:36:59,342 --> 00:37:03,239 It's called, uh, "If the Virus Doesn't End Us, 814 00:37:03,262 --> 00:37:05,699 Then Climate Change Probably Will Blues." 815 00:37:05,724 --> 00:37:07,867 [ Guitar playing ] 816 00:37:07,891 --> 00:37:11,621 ♪♪ 817 00:37:11,646 --> 00:37:15,692 [ Computer ringing ] 818 00:37:18,193 --> 00:37:19,922 Hey. 819 00:37:19,945 --> 00:37:22,590 Hey. Wasn't sure you'd answer. 820 00:37:22,614 --> 00:37:24,844 Please. The woman who all but ghosted you for a month 821 00:37:24,867 --> 00:37:26,327 does not get to judge. 822 00:37:27,786 --> 00:37:30,391 It's just, uh... my dad. 823 00:37:30,414 --> 00:37:32,268 We don't have to talk about it 824 00:37:32,291 --> 00:37:35,271 if you're not ready to or if you don't want to. 825 00:37:35,295 --> 00:37:39,233 It makes me crazy because he ‐‐ he seems like he's all charm, 826 00:37:39,257 --> 00:37:42,402 but he has got this temper that... 827 00:37:42,427 --> 00:37:46,532 Well, if you're serious about not talking about it right now, 828 00:37:46,556 --> 00:37:48,199 that can wait... 829 00:37:48,224 --> 00:37:50,702 because the things I want to do with you tonight... 830 00:37:50,726 --> 00:37:52,538 they can't. 831 00:37:52,561 --> 00:37:57,168 Oh, well, I'm going to need you to say more about that. 832 00:37:57,192 --> 00:37:58,501 Alright, alright. Hold on. Let me, uh ‐‐ 833 00:37:58,525 --> 00:38:00,045 Let me try to share my screen. 834 00:38:00,068 --> 00:38:02,322 Oh, my God. What? 835 00:38:03,907 --> 00:38:05,300 Are we gonna watch porn? 836 00:38:05,324 --> 00:38:07,135 [ Chuckles ] No. 837 00:38:07,159 --> 00:38:09,012 "Coming to America." 838 00:38:09,036 --> 00:38:10,264 [ Gasps ] 839 00:38:10,288 --> 00:38:11,806 Mm‐hmm. 840 00:38:11,831 --> 00:38:15,226 Yes! Please! Ahh! [ Chuckles ] 841 00:38:15,251 --> 00:38:16,978 [ Thunder rumbling ] Ugh! 842 00:38:17,003 --> 00:38:18,128 Okay. 843 00:38:20,923 --> 00:38:23,068 Hey, Tom?! 844 00:38:23,092 --> 00:38:24,969 Tom, it's me! 845 00:38:28,806 --> 00:38:32,036 I brought you soup and I know that you're home! 846 00:38:32,059 --> 00:38:35,521 It's that really excellent soup from that little Polish place. 847 00:38:39,067 --> 00:38:41,253 Tom... 848 00:38:41,277 --> 00:38:43,713 I know ‐‐ I know that I am the last person 849 00:38:43,737 --> 00:38:44,715 that you want to see. 850 00:38:44,739 --> 00:38:46,342 I just ‐‐ I don't know. 851 00:38:46,365 --> 00:38:48,594 I thought maybe we could talk through the door. 852 00:38:48,617 --> 00:38:53,556 I just feel like you need some semblance of human contact. 853 00:38:53,581 --> 00:38:57,311 I don't blame you for ‐‐ for wanting to keep your distance, 854 00:38:57,335 --> 00:38:58,878 I mean, pandemic or not. 855 00:39:05,760 --> 00:39:08,054 I just want you to know that you're not alone. 856 00:39:10,222 --> 00:39:12,534 [ Kevin Garrett's "Refuse" plays ] 857 00:39:12,559 --> 00:39:18,373 ♪♪ 858 00:39:18,398 --> 00:39:20,626 [ Shivers ] 859 00:39:20,650 --> 00:39:23,378 Meredith: Experts say the more resilient we are, 860 00:39:23,402 --> 00:39:25,713 the better we can face life's challenges. 861 00:39:25,737 --> 00:39:26,965 [ Thunder crashes ] 862 00:39:26,989 --> 00:39:30,302 ♪ I'm okay alone ♪ 863 00:39:30,326 --> 00:39:32,887 [ Seagulls crying ] 864 00:39:32,911 --> 00:39:35,349 ♪ It makes my soul stir ♪ 865 00:39:35,373 --> 00:39:37,559 I was so mad at you. 866 00:39:37,583 --> 00:39:40,103 What, for leaving you? 867 00:39:40,128 --> 00:39:42,565 For choosing someone over yourself. 868 00:39:42,588 --> 00:39:44,775 I didn't know I was gonna die. 869 00:39:44,798 --> 00:39:46,902 Do you regret it? 870 00:39:46,925 --> 00:39:49,737 ♪ Keep my head in the dirt ♪ 871 00:39:49,762 --> 00:39:52,199 Does that matter? 872 00:39:52,222 --> 00:39:54,827 You'd have done the same thing. Isn't that why you're here? 873 00:39:54,851 --> 00:39:56,579 ♪ Slow crash ♪ 874 00:39:56,603 --> 00:39:59,539 ♪ Stumble over nothing on my own path ♪ Yeah. I guess. 875 00:39:59,563 --> 00:40:00,833 So it's your fault. 876 00:40:00,856 --> 00:40:02,793 [ Both laugh ] 877 00:40:02,817 --> 00:40:04,628 How do you figure? 878 00:40:04,652 --> 00:40:06,547 ♪ No one ever wanted me to go back ♪ 879 00:40:06,570 --> 00:40:09,300 Because you... 880 00:40:09,324 --> 00:40:12,427 went all‐in for everybody. 881 00:40:12,452 --> 00:40:16,347 Your friends, your family, a woman at the bus stop. 882 00:40:16,371 --> 00:40:18,141 You think that didn't somehow affect me? 883 00:40:18,166 --> 00:40:19,893 ♪ But I refuse ♪ 884 00:40:19,918 --> 00:40:23,021 You changed my life, George. 885 00:40:23,045 --> 00:40:25,481 I didn't say it then, but it's true. 886 00:40:25,505 --> 00:40:28,402 And the single biggest factor for cultivating resilience? 887 00:40:28,425 --> 00:40:31,070 ♪ Far away from home ♪ 888 00:40:31,094 --> 00:40:33,532 Positive relationships. 889 00:40:33,556 --> 00:40:36,827 ♪ Forgot my address ♪ 890 00:40:36,851 --> 00:40:38,894 [ Monitor beeping ] 891 00:40:41,188 --> 00:40:45,168 ♪ Mind is still on loan ♪ 892 00:40:45,193 --> 00:40:48,672 For what it's worth, I think you made the right call, 893 00:40:48,695 --> 00:40:51,257 putting her in the trial. 894 00:40:51,282 --> 00:40:55,637 I've known Meredith since she was a child. 895 00:40:55,661 --> 00:41:00,601 I watched her operate on her dolls in the OR gallery. 896 00:41:00,625 --> 00:41:05,146 I took her for milk and cookies in the cafeteria. 897 00:41:05,170 --> 00:41:08,275 I helped her get over her fear of the film review room 898 00:41:08,298 --> 00:41:10,735 because that's where she thought we kept the skeletons. 899 00:41:10,760 --> 00:41:14,155 ♪ I know I am anything but uncouth ♪ 900 00:41:14,179 --> 00:41:19,327 And then I watched her become a surgeon, a wife... 901 00:41:19,351 --> 00:41:22,981 a mother, and a chief. 902 00:41:25,190 --> 00:41:30,005 You know, I knew COVID patients had to suffer in isolation. 903 00:41:30,028 --> 00:41:33,967 But I never gave any thought to how helpless 904 00:41:33,992 --> 00:41:36,844 and alone it feels 905 00:41:36,869 --> 00:41:38,954 for the people who care about them. 906 00:41:41,541 --> 00:41:47,713 ♪ I ref‐u‐u‐use ♪ 907 00:41:49,590 --> 00:41:56,072 ♪ Yes, I ref‐u‐u‐use ♪ 908 00:41:56,097 --> 00:42:00,702 ♪ No, no, no, no, no ♪ 909 00:42:00,726 --> 00:42:01,829 [ Thunder crashes ] 910 00:42:01,853 --> 00:42:04,623 ♪ Yes, I refuse ♪ 911 00:42:04,646 --> 00:42:07,876 [ Thunder rumbling ] 912 00:42:07,900 --> 00:42:11,922 ♪ Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh ♪ 913 00:42:11,945 --> 00:42:14,215 So find your people... 914 00:42:14,239 --> 00:42:15,509 ♪ Ooh, ooh ♪ 915 00:42:15,532 --> 00:42:16,592 and keep them close. 916 00:42:16,617 --> 00:42:21,222 ♪ Ooh, ooh, yes, I refuse ♪ 917 00:42:21,246 --> 00:42:23,331 Because when you're at your lowest... 918 00:42:28,253 --> 00:42:30,965 those people get you through. 919 00:42:48,398 --> 00:42:55,465 ♪♪ 920 00:42:55,489 --> 00:43:02,681 ♪♪ 921 00:43:02,704 --> 00:43:09,711 ♪♪ 66543

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