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Wash your hands. Wear a mask.

Stay six feet apart at all times.

Work from home.

Only leave the house
for essential services.

Thank you, Doctor. All good.

We're ready here.

In 3, 2...

Good morning, Grey-Sloan.

Richard Webber, here,

...chief medical officer for
the Catherine Fox Foundation.

And at times, we even need you

to isolate from the people you love.

This time has been extremely difficult.

Many members of our staff
have been unable

to see their families,

we've struggled with supplies,

and we've lost more patients
than we could ever imagine.

I'm so sorry.

I gotta say,
it's a definite improvement

from his last on-screen performance.

Only two people in the lounge
at a time. Covid protocol.

- Since when?
- Since now.

Along with our patients,

we need to take care of each other.

That's why I'm pleased to announce

that Grey-Sloan
has been fortunate enough

to secure enough Covid tests
for the entire staff.

Today, we will be testing hospital-wide.

It is not an option.

Additionally, and effective immediately,

residents will not be able
to go into rooms

with Covid-positive patients

or those patients
whose results are pending.

That's half the hospital's
patient intake!

- Why?!
- It is imperative

that we control the hospital's
transmission rate

and protect our residents.

Oh, and speaking of residents,

please let's give our new class
of interns a warm welcome.

And they have graciously agreed
to start early

to help us in our time of need.

We have to press pause

on everything that makes us
feel like we belong.

Sadly, quarantine looks a lot
like surgical internship.

No joy if you want to survive.

Sorry, I went to get a few hours
of sleep.

Hey. Okay. Present.

Patient was admitted
for respiratory support

four days ago,
after a positive Covid test.

Her O2 is 92%
on six liters nasal cannula,

WBC count is downtrending,

and her latest creatinine is .89.

How's she feeling? Any body aches?

Increased fatigue?

Why don't you ask me yourself?!

Lungs sound good.

Hey.

When are you gonna
let me out of here?

I'm gonna let you out of here

when I'm convinced
you won't collapse again.

Well, that was
four days ago. I feel fine.

I think you should just release
me with supplemental oxygen

so I can go quarantine in a hotel.

Let's give the room
to someone who really needs it.

According to the tracker,
we're almost at capacity.

I told them to take away
your log-in privileges

so that you would rest.

I have connections. I own the place.

Well, let me take a look
at your inflammatory markers

and your D-dimers, and then we'll talk.

Who's on my service?!

It's handled, Mer! We got it!

And will you stop yelling?

You need to save your breath.

Damn it!

We were not able
to resuscitate Mrs. Lewis...

Respiratory failure. Time of death 8:12.

Do you want me to call her daughter?

No. I've been getting to
know her these past two weeks.

I should call her.

I want to call her.

You okay?

That's the seventh patient
I've lost this week.

I'm sorry.

Me, too.

- Are you lost?
- No.

It's quiet on the peds floor,
so I thought I'd come down here

and see if I could
ease the burden a little bit.

Turns out,
adults aren't as funny as kids.

Unless you find death funny.

Sorry, I'm in a really dark mood.

How's Grey doing?

Oh, I hear she's bossing
everybody around up there.

Glad to see some things
are returning to normal.

Want me to tell her you said hi?

God, no. Wouldn't want her
to think she's special.

I would get another CRP, ESR, D-dimer,

and I'd like to schedule her
for a chest CT

before we even consider discharging her.

I'm sorry, "I"?

We. You. Whomever.

What's going on? Meredith wants to leave

to go to a hotel.
Her pulse ox is above 92%,

her ABG looks good,
no fever for 48 hours.

I'll check her daily labs,

but she does not want any more tests.

And this is protocol.

And she wants us to follow it.

Meredith breaks protocol
for every patient.

We can't break it for her?

Part of being an attending

means no longer asking for permission.

- Hey!
- Meredith! Oh, my God.

- Mer? Mer! Hey!
- Meredith?

- Hey!
- Hey, Mer!

- Meredith?
- Hey, okay, okay.

Meredith? Okay.
Let's turn her over. 1, 2, 3.

Meredith, come on.
Stay with me, Mer. Hey.

Okay, come on.

- Meredith?
- Come on. Come on.

Meredith!

♪ Walk me down

Meredith!

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- Mer?
- Mer?

- Hey, Mer, you passed out.
- Okay, sats are 88.

Hey, do you know where you are?
Can you hear me?

I can hear you.
And you're loud.

Well, sorry.

Come on. Take a deep breath for me.

Come on.

I just was trying
to take a couple of steps.

I thought I could make it.

I want to go to the beach.

The only place you're going is
radiology for a chest CT, Mer.

No more tests.

Meredith, that is where
we are going right now.

E-Excuse me. Ma'am,

despite what you may read
or hear in the news,

sunlight does not in fact kill Covid-19.

Ha. I've been covering
Meredith's service.

I haven't been outside in four days.

- What are you doing here?
- Hand trauma.

You left Amelia alone
with four kids for a hand?

She told me to come in.

Oh. You're already annoying her.

What's on your shirt?

Ooh, that's, uh, syrup?

I made pancakes this morning.

Weird. You're a dad.

- Missed you!
- Yeah.

Abdominal pain consult in the ER.

I have faith in you.

Covid test is still pending.

I feel like I could just
lay down and die.

Ah.

You really shouldn't say that
during a pandemic.

God.

We should have
gotten scans hours ago.

She felt fine hours ago.

That's the thing with these patients.

They think that they're
on the other side of this thing,

- and then they tank.
- DeLuca...

Instead of waiting around,
we should have started

interferon alpha 2b, anti-retrovirals,

antimalarial drugs.

I got a-a dozen patients in the
ICU already on this protocol.

And you're seeing positive results?

With some, but I've also
read a lot of studies

that show that these meds,
they reduce the sev...

What studies?
Are these peer-reviewed?

- Have they been published?
- They're credible.

Nothing is credible. Not yet.

And I don't feel comfortable

giving Meredith Grey
some experimental drug

that's gotten some foot traffic
on a Reddit board.

Let's just get the scans first.

We can fight about the plan later.

Val Ashton?

Hi. I'm Dr. Wilson.

Okay, so you've had
abdominal pain and vomiting

- for the last two weeks?
- But it's not Covid.

I have gone nowhere,
seen no one, touched nothing.

I couldn't stop talking
to the nurse that took my blood.

It was the first in-person conversation

I had had in months.

I told her about
the fight with my co-worker,

all about my ex.

And I think I invited her to lunch.

Don't worry.
They're used to it.

Okay, so your labs came back
already, and...

congratulations.

You don't have Covid.

You're just pregnant.

- What?
- Pregnant.

- What?
- Yaay?

Sorry they even called you in.

I know you're technically on leave,

- so if you need to...
- Happy to help!

- What do we got?
- Ssssh.

Bryan, Lucy needs time

and she needs patience. Try again.

Any chance you can come back
in 15 minutes?

My clients are about
to have a major breakthrough.

No, sorry.

Helm?

Manoj Joshi, closed crush
injury to the right hand

due to a sandblaster falling on it.

He presents with pain,
swelling, and numbness.

X-rays didn't show any fractures.

But he does have
delayed capillary refill.

My therapy practice
has boomed with the pandemic,

so I finally could afford
to make some improvements

to my home office.

I guess I should
have let a professional do it.

How long is my hand
gonna be out of commission?

I do a lot of demonstration in my work.

As a... therapist?

Do I do it
counter-clockwise now, Dr. J?

I think she likes it.

Oh! Sex therapist.

Mute, mute, mute.

- You think it's a joke.
- Absolutely not.

Physical touch and pleasure

are two of the most important
forms of communication.

What I teach is more vital than ever

in the middle of a global crisis

that's destroying human connection.

I need my hand to function.

Well, we just need a CT to
determine if you need surgery.

Fine.

Can I have the room now?

- Yep.
- Yep.

Alright, Bryan.

See, Lucy likes that.

Drive-thru testing should be
up and running by tomorrow morning.

- Thank you for that, Webber.
- Sure.

I asked Koracick about that for weeks.

Uh, speaking of inefficiencies,

I have a whole list

of things Tom Koracick did
that I'd like to change.

How about putting it
in writing, you know?

E-mail me.

Uh, since when do you prefer e-mail?

Ah. Times have changed

since the last time I was chief, Bailey.

- You got to keep up.
- Of chiefs. Chief of chiefs.

I'm still chief. And I'm still yours.

Well, now that you have his job,
what happens to Tom Koracick?

Don't worry about him.

I have a plan.

I am Dr. Thomas Koracick,

but you can call me Dr. Koracick.

Maybe you were expecting Dr. Webber,

but today is a day of many surprises.

The first of which,
I have drawn a very short straw.

The second, you have
won the lottery today.

I'd spend some time regaling you
with my accomplishments,

but I'm very busy.

Treat yourself to an Internet search.

- Which one are you?
- Reza Khan.

You're on scut.

Respectfully, I can handle more.

I'm a vascular surgeon in Pakistan.

The U.S. is just making me
repeat my training.

Ah, unfortunate.
But you're still on scut.

Chee? Progress notes.

Jensen, discharges.

Ortiz, a new shipment of PPE and
testing supplies arrives today.

You get to sort them. Riveting.

Excuse me? Which Ortiz?

- I'm Sara Ortiz.
- And I'm Alma Ortiz, her mother.

We both matched here. Ah, how sweet.

But two interns
with the same name won't fly.

Who's changing theirs?

Alright, we'll go with nicknames.

Big O, Little O?

You decide.

Name tags for everyone.

If you need anything at all,

ask someone else.

Ground-glass
opacities of the lungs.

Someone sent me an article

about triple antiviral therapy
for Covid patients.

The side effects are kind of tricky,

but I think I could handle it.

You're supposed to be resting.

I specifically asked them
not to give you a tablet.

Here, I found it.

Triple antiviral therapy.

Phase 2 trial of combination
antiviral therapy

could speed recovery in Covid patients.

What do you think?

I'll ask Altman.

Are you good?

I'm sorry.
I don't know what you mean.

I mean are you good? Because
I've respected the boundaries

for the last four days.

I've played the role of family member.

I have respected your authority
as a physician.

Maggie, I've got this. Do you?

Because we both know what happens

when a patient's lungs
start to look like that.

They could turn on us at any moment.

So I need you to swear

that no matter what is going on
in your personal life,

you have this.

Because I can't be her doctor.

I have to be her sister.

I have this.

I'd like DeLuca
to be on her medical team.

He's seen more Covid cases
than any of us.

Okay.

My husband and I tried
to get pregnant for years.

Six rounds of IVF.

And we ended up with no baby,
no savings,

and we hated each other.

So we split up.

And then I had a one-night stand
with this weirdo, Newman,

who was renting our back house
for a couple of weeks.

I had lost my job, had some wine,

then I switched to tequila.

Ugh!

My rock bottom is the father of my baby.

He's not.

- What?
- I see no baby.

I'm not pregnant?

I'm sorry, but no.

A positive pregnancy test
with no pregnancy

can indicate other things.

I'll order a scan.

Other things like what?

Some tumors, uh, can release beta HCG.

- A tumor?
- We will take it

one step at a time.

I saw the scans.

Displaced fracture
of the hook of the hamate?

Exactly.
You know, the ulnar artery

looks a little narrow
by the fracture site,

which I've seen in plenty of patients

that use a lot of vibrating power tools.

You don't say.

Yeah. You gonna be able
to help me with the excision

- or you got to get back?
- Oh, I'm staying.

Four kids in lockdown. This
place is like a dream vacation.

Got to say I think I'm a little jealous.

I don't get to see my Harriet
as much as I used to

'cause I take more Covid shifts
than my ex,

so she's with her stepdad more than me,

which, you know, he's a good guy,

but I don't like hearing

that Matthew cuts sandwiches
better than Dada.

Kinda weird having my place so quiet.

I kinda miss the mess, honestly.

Apparently he's famous
in the Pacific Northwest.

He saves marriages.

You're Googling our patient,
Helm, really?

Whoa, 37 an hour.

37... dollars? Like his rate?

No. Not possible.

Good to have goals.

You're doing it wrong.

No, you're doing it wrong again.

Hey, are you in charge of him?

Well, depends.
Has he killed anyone, or...

I've been waiting for the progress notes

and summaries for two hours,
and he hasn't even finished one.

Fix it.

You clearly don't know
how to make friends.

Scoot.

Well, here's your problem,
next to "Discharged."

I-I-I type
"Home and awaiting follow-up."

And I keep getting "Error."

That's because they're not
being discharged to go home.

They're being discharged to the morgue

or to the giant Popsicle truck
in the south parking lot,

which is very sad.

All these people have died?

You're doing death summaries
during a global pandemic,

so... yes.

All dead.

Carry on.

Wilson, I need you to
keep covering Grey's service.

I'm hoping to persuade Dr. Webber

to come back to the OR,

whenever he finishes
adjusting his crown.

Chief of chiefs.

I could be chief of chiefs.

You'd be really good at that.

Hmm. What do you got?

Abdominal pain, vomiting,
positive beta HCG.

She's not pregnant,
but I want to rule out a mass.

Mass! There. In the liver.

That is no mass. That is a fetus.

She is pregnant, but her baby
is attached to her liver?

Mine.

Uh, th-this patient doesn't have Covid.

I'm allowed to be on the case.

I feel better.

Go wash up, Ellis.

Shh, Amelia,
you'll increase her heart rate.

What's happening?

- We were watching you sleep.
- Why?

Well, we didn't want to wake you.

How are you feeling?
Like I want to go back to sleep.

How are my kids?
Did Bailey lose that tooth yet?

They miss you.

Bailey's tooth is stubbornly
still there.

So, Meredith,
I was looking at your chart,

and I noticed your healthcare directive.

- It says...
- I know what it says.

Okay. Good. Um, so,

well, we were thinking that maybe

you might want to reconsider.

Mama?

Is that Mama? Is she okay?

Hold on, Ellis.
I-I will let you talk to her

in one minute, okay?

- Put her on, Amelia.
- Of course, I...

But can we talk about w-what
happens if you suddenly...

I don't want to talk about that.
I want to talk to my kids.

- Mama!
- Hey.

Look at you, so big.

Auntie Amelia is feeding you
all that growing-food, huh?

I love you so much, Ellie bell.

Derek!

Why can't I get anywhere?!

You're worried about the kids!

I don't understand!

The sand isn't real, Meredith!

I miss you!

I know.

Hey. Things seem to be
running smoothly down here.

Webber.

Right.

I talked to the kids this morning.

They seem good. Spoiled.

How's Meredith?

Her numbers aren't where they should be.

I got to drop these off.

- Ortiz?
- I'm sorry.

For what?

- I don't know.
- Your PPE's on incorrectly.

Your gown is loose in the back,

and you just touched the inside
of it with your gloved hand.

And your face shield is not in place.

Tseng, show her how to correctly
don and doff PPE,

which someone should have shown
her first thing this morning.

- But I'm next in line, so c...
- Now.

There's a baby in my liver?

You have what's called
an abdominal pregnancy,

where the fetus develops
outside of the uterus.

You're about 26 weeks.

Val, these pregnancies

don't normally survive to term,

but your baby is very much alive.

Your case is extremely rare.

He made me feel like crap
for eight years.

Every time IVF didn't work...

he would
look at the doctor and say,

"Well, what can she do
differently next time?"

When clearly it was his fault.

Because I had a one-night stand

with a guy that wears
square computer glasses,

and I'm knocked up.

Val.

Do you want this baby?

Okay.

Then we need to deliver her today.

The growth of the placenta

could cause the liver to bleed
at any moment,

and we need to operate
to save you both... now.

It's a girl?

Yes, it is.

Luna.

That's her name.

Ever since I was a little girl,
I knew my daughter's name.

Val.

Yeah, okay.

Let's get her out!

Dr. Sung to Recovery.

Dr. Sung to Recovery.

If you think I look
bad, you should see my lungs.

Not funny.

We need to talk about your POA.

My sisters sent you in here.

I know what Alex Karev means to you.

And I know he would have
your best interests at heart.

But he is halfway across the country,

and we can't even travel yet.

Look, God forbid,
this thing gets any worse,

he might have to make decisions
regarding your care.

And you know those decisions
can be rough over the phone.

You need to pick someone local.

Amelia can't even decide
what's for dinner.

Maggie... She doesn't know when
it's time for someone to die.

She has a hard time
letting them go, so...

At least Alex will pull the plug
if I need him to.

Let's just talk

about s-something else, please.

I'm about to scrub in
on a hepatic pregnancy

where the fetus
is attached to the liver.

No! Alive?

Ugh. I'm so jealous.

Removing the bone. Rongeur.

Careful around the ulnar nerve.

You want to take over, Helm?

Dr. J's right.
People need sex right now.

More than ever.

It's therapeutic.

What if you live in a house

that's like Los Angeles
International Airport

on Thanksgiving Day?

Your flight is delayed,
and there's no place to sit.

The bathrooms are disgusting.

Forget regular sex.
You don't even want to eat.

Looks like this artery's thrombosed.

- Can you fix it?
- I've got to harvest a vein

and place a graft.

Take a little bit longer, but, yeah.

I'm in.

I fear the night at Meredith's
house like a medieval villager.

Vessel loops.

"Mama Ortiz"?

Better than
the one you suggested.

Uh, fine. Can you tell me
why you're not, uh, in the ER?

Jensen is on Discharges.

Yeah, Jensen quit after
two hours, and so did Stewart.

Okay, well, why hasn't Mrs., uh, Cooley

been discharged?

I decided not to discharge her.

Her chart is a mess.

Hand-off communication
has been nonexistent.

She's supposed to be discharged
to Hillridge Nursing Facility?

- You ever heard of it?
- I...

Yeah, 17 new Covid cases, 19 deaths.

Okay, the-these are all things
that can be discussed

with her doctor.

Great. I would love that.

Where is Dr. Grey?

Look, Dr. Grey is...

She's off today.

Look, your diligence has been noted,

but these are extraordinary times.

Let's not forget that we're
in the middle of a pandemic.

I haven't forgotten.

Before med school, I spent
20 years as a social worker.

I was there through H1N1.

And I know that people deserve better.

Especially in a pandemic.

So I'm not discharging her.

Have Dr. Grey call me.

Someone's messing with me, right?

We got a 26-weeker attached
to the liver? Still viable?

Come see for yourself. Liver's exposed.

Wow.

Hello there, little one.

Okay, let's go through it again.

The placenta has left the liver
extremely friable.

We cut. We get the baby out.
We leave the placenta intact.

- Otherwise, she could bleed out.
- Which she will not.

Everyone in this room
needs a little joy.

- Ready?
- Ready.

Weirdest C-section I've ever done.

- Also ready.
- Here we go.

Cutting into the amniotic sac.

Clamps for the umbilical cord.

Heavy scissors.

Thanks.

I'm not seeing any movement.

Prepare to intubate immediately.

Where is all this blood coming from?

Oh, the right hepatic artery.

More suction.

How's Luna?

Apgar 2, maybe 3.

Still trying
to get the tube in. Come on.

Come on, come on, come...

I'm in.

Bag her, please.

Okay, we need to get her up to
the unit as fast as possible.

Go.

Ready, let's go, let's go,
let's go, come on.

More lap pads, more.

More, more...

We should resect the right lobe.

No, that could lead
to liver failure. No.

Then we put her on dialysis and
get her on the transplant list.

That's not as easy
as it used to be. Hold on.

I'm not gonna let her die
before she sees her kid.

Clamp.

Hold on! Hold on!

Bailey?

Okay. Okay, do it.

Bovie.

You look like crap.

Look who's talking.

I got a 26-week-old baby
looks stronger than you.

- Liver baby?
- Mm-hmm.

So, I hear you're looking for a POA.

Are you here to volunteer?

I am cold, calculating,

couldn't care less
about you or your kids, so...

Everyone is family. I don't
want to do that to them.

Then don't. Write down on paper

what you want, every last detail,

and then choose
someone who'll defend it.

The people who love you
the most, you know,

they're going to beg them to do
something, anything to save you.

So choose someone who'll choose you,

over and over again.

Is that what you did for your wife?

Uh, no... Knew better than that.

But her sister followed every
last wish that Abi wanted,

no matter how much we all hated it.

Go on, get some rest.

I'm afraid...

If I fall asleep...

I'm afraid I might not wake up.

Everyone's scared of you, Grey.
You know that?

It's 'cause you're fierce.

You've got teeth, grit.

You fight to the bloody death

about the stupidest, little things.

This virus has got nothing on you.

We successfully removed
the bone fragment

and removed a blood clot
from your artery.

And fortunately,
the nerve was intact.

You're not gonna get
your feeling back immediately,

but we're confident you will
over the next few months.

And you still have your hand. The hand.

We'll get you an occupational therapist,

go through some exercises
to help you in your recovery.

I have my own regimen.

I exercise my hands five hours a week.

Maybe you could just
take your time

with whatever your...
regular routine is.

You want to know my secret, don't you?

- Nah, I think we're good.
- Nah, no thanks.

Yes. I do, please,
tha-thank you, mm-hmm.

I ask my clients what they want.

And I listen.

Your plan worked.

- Excuse me?
- Well, you had to know

I'm not the man for this job.

Those kids are terrified.

At least the ones
who haven't already quit.

And the ones who stayed
have no idea what they're doing

and I have no idea how to show them.

Or you just don't want to.

Maybe you're unaware

because it's always
come naturally to you,

but teaching the way
that you do it, it's a gift.

It's not a talent we all have.

Amelia Shepherd said

that you were the best teacher
she ever had.

That's why I gave you the job.

I teach neurosurgeons how to cut.

I don't teach kids
how to walk through a pandemic.

I can't give them
what they need right now.

You can.

Hi.

I basically showered in sanitizer,

but better safe than sorry, right?

How was your surgery?

Well, it was a crush injury to the hand.

The patient was
some sort of sex therapist.

Apparently he's very well-known
for helping women

achieve their goals 37 times.

Like, in one sitting?

It was advertised as one event, yes.

I'm so sorry.

No, no, I'm sorry.

I don't... I don't think
I know what's wrong.

Meredith is still in the hospital.

And the kids are all
waiting for me to tell them

that everything is going to be fine,

but I just keep turning around
and wondering who the person is

who is going to tell you and me that.

I'm so tired...

...that I don't even recognize myself.

I-I don't even know what pants are.

There's a global medical crisis
going on, and I can't even help.

And I can't turn my brain off with
a glass of wine like normal people.

I'm... I'm, uh... I'm going to explode.

You want me to take the kids?

They're asleep.

Okay.

How about you tell me what you want...

...and I will get it for you. Anything.

37 times?

Oh.

That's what you want?

I just need to feel something

other than overwhelming despair.

Ah.

I was at the hospital. I-I...

I was planning on keeping my distance

until I could get tested.

Well, who says we can't
do this six feet apart?

Dr. Leon, call the blood bank.

Dr. Leon, call the blood bank.

Hey, um...

Do you have time to let me buy
you a-a bad cup of coffee or...?

I'm sorry we haven't talked a lot. I...

The past few months haven't
been easy for me and for...

Oh, I've been having a-a grand time.

- Tom, I...
- Teddy, what would be really great

is if, uh, you weren't here right now.

Because you broke me again

and I still love you.

But I got to get over you
because

I've had enough misery for one life.

Just the man I was looking for.

Great. What now?

You tested positive for Covid-19.

Funny.
Kick a man when he's down.

14-day quarantine. Hospital policy.

Contact tracing team will be in touch.

- I'm... No, I'm not symptomatic.
- Go home, Tom.

Don't stop at the store. Just go home.

Stay home. Try not to
infect anyone else.

Maybe you should put your mask back on.

Right. Um...

God, it's good to see your...

W-What's wrong?

I don't know
how much longer I can do this.

53 people.

That's how many have died on my watch

since this thing started. 53.

And most of them have been
Black women, so that means...

The same thing's happening here.

Everywhere.

I lost a patient this morning.

Rosalie Lewis.

She was so funny.

She, um...

She thanked me every single time
I came in to check on her,

and...

watching her talk
to her daughter on the phone,

it reminded me of the way
that my mom used to talk to me.

I never thought the day would come

when it would feel like a privilege

to have held my mother's hand
while she died.

I'm so sorry.

Rosalie deserved
a better death than this.

She deserved to not be a statistic.

I know.

And I'm scared for my sister.

I'm... I'm... I'm... I'm trying
so hard not to be scared, but...

I'm scared.

Hi, Luna.

Hi.

Your mommy is asleep right now,

but she is gonna be so excited
to meet you.

See?

- Joy.
- Yeah.

She developed in a liver
and was born in a pandemic.

She is a survivor.

Your work these last few days
hasn't gone unnoticed.

Thank you.

Meredith has to be okay, Bailey.

She has to be okay.

This feels like payback.

Damn right it is.

And you're sure
you want me to have your POA

and not Maggie or Amelia?

You've known me my whole life.

You're the only one I can trust

to pull the plug if my brain is gone.

I'll do every damn thing I can first.

I know you will.

And you... you don't want
to be put on a vent?

There's a shortage.
I don't want to take one

from somebody who needs it.

What if that someone's you?

It's not. Not yet.

My kids need me.

We all need you.

They're ready for you.

They say following
the rules saves lives.

When you decided
to go to med school,

you had dreams of a career.

I know this isn't it.

It's not mine either.

I want to be in an OR.

I want to be cutting.

I want to hold my patient's
hand, skin to skin.

I want to meet their loved ones.

I want to be in the before.

But the before is gone.

We're in the now.

And people are looking to us
to guide them through it.

And we will.

I'll teach you the jobs
that need to get done.

I will make sure that you learn
as much as you can.

And we'll be okay.

We'll get through this together.

But what happens

when life suddenly
changes the game entirely?

What happens when you find yourself

walking on totally new ground?

You could walk, too, you know!

- Wouldn't make a difference!
- Why not?!

Because the sand isn't real, Meredith!

You said it wasn't real!

Ugh, I hate you!

You love me. God knows I love you.

I'll be right here when you're ready.

I wish I knew.