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Meredith: Wash your hands.
Wear a mask.

Stay six feet apart
at all times.

Work from home.

Only leave the house
for essential services.

[ Thermometer beeps ]Thank you, Doctor.All good.

♪♪

Camera crew:
We're ready here.

In 3, 2...♪ Broken, disillusioned

Good morning, Grey-Sloan.

Richard Webber, here,

...chief medical officer for
the Catherine Fox Foundation.

And at times, we even need you

to isolate
from the people you love.

This time has been
extremely difficult.

Many members of our staff
have been unable

to see their families,

we've struggled with supplies,

and we've lost more patients
than we could ever imagine.

I'm so sorry.

Koracick: I gotta say,
it's a definite improvement

from his last
on-screen performance.

Only two people in the loungeat a time. Covid protocol.

Since when?
Since now.

Along with our patients,

we need to take care
of each other.

That's why
I'm pleased to announce

that Grey-Sloan
has been fortunate enough

to secure enough Covid tests
for the entire staff.

Today, we will be testing
hospital-wide.

It is not an option.

Additionally,
and effective immediately,

residents will not be able
to go into rooms

with Covid-positive patients

or those patients
whose results are pending.

Jo: That's half the hospital's
patient intake!

Levi: Why?! It is imperative

that we control the hospital's
transmission rate

and protect our residents.

Oh, and speaking of residents,

please let's give our new class
of interns a warm welcome.

[ Applause ]

And they have graciously agreed
to start early

to help us in our time of need.

Meredith: We have to press pause

on everything that makes us
feel like we belong.

Sadly, quarantine looks a lot
like surgical internship.

No joy if you want to survive.

Sorry, I went to get a few hoursof sleep.

Hey. Okay. Present.

Mabel: Patient was admittedfor respiratory support

four days ago,after a positive Covid test.

Her O2 is 92%on six liters nasal cannula,

WBC count is downtrending,

and her latest creatinine
is .89.

How's she feeling?
Any body aches?

Increased fatigue?

Meredith: [ Muffled ]
Why don't you ask me yourself?!

Lungs sound good.

Hey.

Meredith: When are you gonnalet me out of here?

Teddy:I'm gonna let you out of here

when I'm convincedyou won't collapse again.

Meredith: Well, that was
four days ago. I feel fine.

I think you should just release
me with supplemental oxygen

so I can go quarantine
in a hotel.

Let's give the room
to someone who really needs it.

According to the tracker,
we're almost at capacity.

I told them to take awayyour log-in privileges

so that you would rest.

I have connections.
I own the place.

Well, let me take a lookat your inflammatory markers

and your D-dimers,and then we'll talk.

[ Monitor beeping ]

Meredith:Who's on my service?!

It's handled, Mer!
We got it!

And will you stop yelling?

You needto save your breath.

[ Meredith sighs ]

[ Flatline ]Maggie: Damn it!

[ Flatline continues ]

[ Flatline continues ]

We were not ableto resuscitate Mrs. Lewis...

Respiratory failure.
Time of death 8:12.

Do you want me
to call her daughter?

No. I've been getting toknow her these past two weeks.

I should call her.

I want to call her.

You okay?

That's the seventh patientI've lost this week.

I'm sorry.

Me, too.

Are you lost?[ Chuckling ] No.

It's quiet on the peds floor,
so I thought I'd come down here

and see if I could
ease the burden a little bit.

Turns out,
adults aren't as funny as kids.

Unless you find death funny.

Sorry, I'm in
a really dark mood.

How's Grey doing?

Oh, I hear she's bossingeverybody around up there.

Glad to see some things
are returning to normal.

Want me to tell her
you said hi?

God, no. Wouldn't want her
to think she's special.

[ Telephone rings ]

I would get another CRP,ESR, D-dimer,

and I'd like to schedule herfor a chest CT

before we even consider
discharging her.

I'm sorry, "I"?

We. You. Whomever.

What's going on?Meredith wants to leave

to go to a hotel.
Her pulse ox is above 92%,

her ABG looks good,
no fever for 48 hours.

I'll check her daily labs,

but she does not want
any more tests.

And this is protocol.

And she wants us
to follow it.

Meredith breaks protocol
for every patient.

We can't break it for her?

Part of being
an attending

means no longer askingfor permission.

♪♪

DeLuca: Hey!Maggie: Meredith! Oh, my God.

Mer? Mer! Hey!Meredith?

Hey!
Hey, Mer!

Meredith?Hey, okay, okay.

Meredith? Okay.Let's turn her over. 1, 2, 3.

Meredith, come on.Stay with me, Mer. Hey.

Okay, come on.

Meredith?[ Echoing ] Come on. Come on.

[ In distance ]
Meredith!

[ Seagulls crying ]

♪ Take me in

♪ Like I've never been

♪ Lead me now
to your heart's chagrin ♪

♪ Take me in

♪ By the river's bend

♪ Where I can
wash away my sins ♪

♪ Whoa, won't you take me in

♪♪

♪ Walk me down

Meredith!♪ Walk me down

♪ Walk me down

♪ To the hollow ground

♪ There I promise
not to lose my crown ♪

♪♪

♪ Won't you take me in

♪ Oh, won't you take me in

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Maggie: Mer?DeLuca: Mer?

Hey, Mer, you passed out.Okay, sats are 88.

Hey, do you know where you are?
Can you hear me?

Meredith: I can hear you.
And you're loud.

Well, sorry.

♪♪

Come on.
Take a deep breath for me.

Come on.

[ Groans ]

[ Coughing ]

I just was trying
to take a couple of steps.

I thought
I could make it.

I want to go to the beach.

The only place you're going isradiology for a chest CT, Mer.

No more tests.

Meredith, that is where
we are going right now.

[ Coughs ]

♪♪

[ Exhales ]

Link:
E-Excuse me. Ma'am,

despite what you may read
or hear in the news,

sunlight does not in fact
kill Covid-19.

Ha. I've been coveringMeredith's service.

I haven't been outsidein four days.

What are you doing here?
Hand trauma.

You left Amelia alonewith four kids for a hand?

She told me to come in.

Oh. You're already
annoying her.

What's on your shirt?

Ooh, that's, uh, syrup?

I made pancakes
this morning.

Weird.
You're a dad.

Missed you!
Yeah.

[ Laughs ]

Abdominal pain consult
in the ER.

[ Snaps fingers ]
I have faith in you.

Covid test
is still pending.

I feel like I could just
lay down and die.

Ah.[ Imitates spitting ]

You really shouldn't say thatduring a pandemic.

God.

DeLuca: We should havegotten scans hours ago.

Teddy: She felt fine hours ago.That's the thingwith these patients.

They think that they'reon the other side of this thing,

and then they tank.Maggie: DeLuca --

Instead of waiting around,we should have started

interferon alpha 2b,anti-retrovirals,

antimalarial drugs.

I got a-a dozen patients in theICU already on this protocol.

And you're seeing
positive results?

With some, but I've alsoread a lot of studies

that show that these meds,they reduce the sev--

Teddy: What studies?Are these peer-reviewed?

Have they been published?They're credible.

Nothing is credible.
Not yet.

And I don't feel comfortable

giving Meredith Grey
some experimental drug

that's gotten some foot traffic
on a Reddit board.

Let's just
get the scans first.

We can fight
about the plan later.

♪♪

[ Groans ]

Jo: Val Ashton?

Hi. I'm Dr. Wilson.

Okay, so you've had
abdominal pain and vomiting

for the last two weeks?Val: But it's not Covid.

I have gone nowhere,seen no one, touched nothing.

I couldn't stop talkingto the nurse that took my blood.

It was the firstin-person conversation

I had had in months.

I told her aboutthe fight with my co-worker,

all about my ex.

And I thinkI invited her to lunch.

[ Chuckling ] Don't worry.
They're used to it.
Mnh.

Okay, so your labs came back
already, and...

congratulations.

You don't have Covid.

You're just pregnant.

What?
Pregnant.

What?
Yaay?

Jackson:
Sorry they even called you in.

I know you're
technically on leave,

so if you need to --Link: Happy to help!

What do we got?Manoj: Ssssh.

Bryan, Lucy needs time

and she needs patience.Try again.

Any chance you can come backin 15 minutes?

My clients are aboutto have a major breakthrough.

No, sorry.

Helm?

Taryn: Manoj Joshi, closed crush
injury to the right hand

due to a sandblaster
falling on it.

He presents with pain,
swelling, and numbness.

X-rays didn't show
any fractures.

But he does have
delayed capillary refill.

Manoj: My therapy practice
has boomed with the pandemic,

so I finally could afford
to make some improvements

to my home office.

[ Strained ] I guess I should
have let a professional do it.

[ Groaning ]

How long is my handgonna be out of commission?

I do a lot of demonstration
in my work.

As a...therapist?

[ Lucy moans]Bryan: Do I do it
counter-clockwise now, Dr. J?

[ Moaning] I think she likes it.

Jackson: Oh!Manoj: Sex therapist.

Taryn: Mute, mute, mute.

[ Moaning stops]

You think it's a joke.Link: Absolutely not.

Physical touch and pleasure

are two of the most importantforms of communication.

What I teachis more vital than ever

in the middle
of a global crisis

that's destroying
human connection.

I need my hand to function.

Well, we just need a CT to
determine if you need surgery.

Fine.

Can I have the room now?

-Yep.
-Yep.

[ Lucy moaning]Alright, Bryan.

See, Lucy likes that.

Owen:
Drive-thru testing should be upand running by tomorrow morning.

Thank you for that, Webber.Richard: Sure.

I asked Koracick about that
for weeks.

Bailey:Uh, speaking of inefficiencies,

I have a whole list

of things Tom Koracick didthat I'd like to change.

Richard: How about putting it
in writing, you know?

E-mail me.

Uh, since whendo you prefer e-mail?

Ah. Times have changed

since the last time
I was chief, Bailey.

You got to keep up.Of chiefs. Chief ofchiefs.

I'm still chief.And I'm still yours.

Well, now that you have his job,what happens to Tom Koracick?

Don't worry about him.
[ Grunts ]

I have a plan.

I am Dr. Thomas Koracick,

but you can call me
Dr. Koracick.

Maybe you were expecting
Dr. Webber,

but today is a day
of many surprises.

The first of which,I have drawn a very short straw.

The second, you have
won the lottery today.

I'd spend some time regaling youwith my accomplishments,

but I'm very busy.

Treat yourself
to an Internet search.

Which one are you?Reza Khan.

You're on scut.

Respectfully,
I can handle more.

I'm a vascular surgeon
in Pakistan.

The U.S. is just making me
repeat my training.

Ah, unfortunate.
But you're still on scut.

Chee? Progress notes.

Jensen, discharges.

Ortiz, a new shipment of PPE andtesting supplies arrives today.

You get to sort them.
Riveting.

Excuse me?
Which Ortiz?

I'm Sara Ortiz.And I'm Alma Ortiz, her mother.

We both matched here.Ah, how sweet.

But two interns
with the same name won't fly.

Who's changing theirs?

Alright, we'll go
with nicknames.

Big O, Little O?

You decide.

Name tags for everyone.

If you need anything at all,

ask someone else.

[ Scoffs ]

[ Monitor beeping ]

Meredith: Ground-glassopacities of the lungs.

Someone sent me an article

about triple antiviral therapyfor Covid patients.

The side effects
are kind of tricky,

but I think
I could handle it.

You're supposed
to be resting.

I specifically asked them
not to give you a tablet.

Here, I found it.

Triple antiviral therapy.

Phase 2 trial of combinationantiviral therapy

could speed recoveryin Covid patients.

What do you think?

I'll ask Altman.

♪♪

Maggie: Are you good?

Teddy: I'm sorry.I don't know what you mean.

I mean are you good? Because
I've respected the boundaries

for the last four days.

I've played the role
of family member.

I have respected your authority
as a physician.

Maggie, I've got this.Do you?

Because we both know
what happens

when a patient's lungs
start to look like that.

They could turn on us
at any moment.

So I need you to swear

that no matter what is going on
in your personal life,

you have this.

[ Crying ]
Because I can't be her doctor.

I have to be her sister.

I have this.

I'd like DeLuca
to be on her medical team.

He's seen more Covid cases
than any of us.

Okay.

♪♪

My husband and Itried to get pregnant for years.

Six rounds of IVF.

And we ended up with no baby,no savings,

and we hated each other.

So we split up.

And then I had a one-night standwith this weirdo, Newman,

who was renting our back housefor a couple of weeks.

I had lost my job,
had some wine,

then I switched to tequila.[ Jo laughs ]

Ugh!

My rock bottomis the father of my baby.

Carina: He's not.

What?I see no baby.

I'm not pregnant?

I'm sorry, but no.

[ Gasps ]

A positive pregnancy test
with no pregnancy

can indicate other things.

I'll order a scan.

Other things like what?

Some tumors, uh,
can release beta HCG.

A tumor?We will take it

one step at a time.

[ Crying ]

♪♪

Link: I saw the scans.

Displaced fracture
of the hook of the hamate?

Jackson: Exactly.You know, the ulnar artery

looks a little narrowby the fracture site,

which I've seen
in plenty of patients

that use a lot
of vibrating power tools.

You don't say.

Yeah. You gonna be able
to help me with the excision

or you got to get back?Oh, I'm staying.

Four kids in lockdown. Thisplace is like a dream vacation.

Got to say I think
I'm a little jealous.

I don't get to see my Harriet
as much as I used to

'cause I take more Covid shifts
than my ex,

so she's with her stepdad
more than me,

which, you know,
he's a good guy,

but I don't like hearing

that Matthew cuts sandwiches
better than Dada.

Kinda weird
having my place so quiet.

I kinda miss
the mess, honestly.

Taryn: Apparently he's famousin the Pacific Northwest.

He saves marriages.

You're Googling our patient,
Helm, really?

Whoa, 37 an hour.

37...dollars?
Like his rate?

No.Not possible.

Good to have goals.

♪♪

Karen:
You're doing it wrong.

No, you're
doing it wrong again.

Hey, are you
in charge of him?

Koracick: Well, depends.
Has he killed anyone, or --

I've been waiting
for the progress notes

and summaries for two hours,and he hasn't even finished one.

Fix it.

You clearly don't knowhow to make friends.

Scoot.

[ Telephone ringing
in distance ]

[ Indistinct conversations
in distance ]

Well, here's your problem,next to "Discharged."

I-I-I type
"Home and awaiting follow-up."

And I keep getting "Error."

That's because they're notbeing discharged to go home.

They're being dischargedto the morgue

or to the giant Popsicle truckin the south parking lot,

which is very sad.

All these people
have died?

You're doing death summariesduring a global pandemic,

so...yes.

All dead.

Carry on.

♪♪

Bailey: Wilson, I need you to
keep covering Grey's service.

I'm hoping to persuade
Dr. Webber

to come back to the OR,

whenever he finishes
adjusting his crown.

Chief of chiefs.

I could be chief of chiefs.

You'd be really goodat that.

Hmm.
What do you got?

Jo: Abdominal pain, vomiting,positive beta HCG.

She's not pregnant,but I want to rule out a mass.

Levi:
Mass! There. In the liver.

That is no mass.
That is a fetus.

She is pregnant, but her babyis attached to her liver?

[ Gasps ]Mine.

Uh, th-this patient
doesn't have Covid.

I'm allowed
to be on the case.

[ Sighs ]

Bailey: I feel better.

♪♪

Amelia:
Go wash up, Ellis.

Shh, Amelia,you'll increase her heart rate.

What's happening?

We were watching you sleep.Why?

Well, we didn't
want to wake you.

How are you feeling?Like I want to go back to sleep.

How are my kids?
Did Bailey lose that tooth yet?

They miss you.

Bailey's tooth is stubbornly
still there.

So, Meredith,I was looking at your chart,

and I noticedyour healthcare directive.

It says --I know what it says.

Okay. Good.
Um, so,

well, we were thinkingthat maybe

you might want
to reconsider.

Ellis: Mama?

Is that Mama?
Is she okay?

Hold on, Ellis.
I-I will let you talk to her

in one minute, okay?

Put her on, Amelia. Of course, I --

But can we talk about w-what
happens if you suddenly --

I don't want to talk about that.I want to talk to my kids.

Mama! Hey.

Look at you, so big.

Auntie Amelia is feeding you
all that growing-food, huh?

[ Ellis laughs]

I love you so much,
Ellie bell.

♪♪

[ Waves crashing ]

♪♪

♪♪

♪♪

Derek!

♪♪

Why can't I get anywhere?!

Derek:You're worried about the kids!

I don't understand!

The sand isn't real,Meredith!

I miss you!

I know.

♪♪

[ Siren wailing in distance ]

Teddy: Hey. Things seem to be
running smoothly down here.

Owen: Webber.

Right.

I talked to the kids
this morning.

They seem good.
Spoiled.

How's Meredith?

Her numbers aren't
where they should be.

I got to drop these off.

Owen: Ortiz?Sara: I'm sorry.

For what?

I don't know.Your PPE's on incorrectly.

Your gown is loose
in the back,

and you just touched the inside
of it with your gloved hand.

And your face shield
is not in place.

Tseng, show her how to correctlydon and doff PPE,

which someone should have shown
her first thing this morning.

But I'm next in line, so c--Now.

Val:There's a baby in my liver?

Jo: You have what's called
an abdominal pregnancy,

where the fetus develops
outside of the uterus.

You're about 26 weeks.

Carina:
Val, these pregnancies

don't normally survive to term,

but your baby
is very much alive.

Your case is extremely rare.

He made me feel like crapfor eight years.

Every time
IVF didn't work...

[Scoffs] he wouldlook at the doctor and say,

"Well, what can she dodifferently next time?"

When clearly
it was his fault.

Because I had
a one-night stand

with a guy that wearssquare computer glasses,

and I'm knocked up.

Carina: Val.

[ Monitor beeping ]

Do you want this baby?

♪♪

[ Inhales tearfully ]

[ Chuckles ]Jo: Okay.

Then we need
to deliver her today.

The growth of the placenta

could cause the liver to bleed
at any moment,

and we need to operate
to save you both...now.

[ Chuckling ]
It's a girl?

Yes, it is.

Luna.

That's her name.

Ever since I was a little girl,I knew my daughter's name.

♪♪

Val.

Yeah, okay.

Let's get her out!

♪♪

Woman on P.A.:
Dr. Sung to Recovery.

Dr. Sung to Recovery.

[ Monitor beeping ]

[ Indistinct conversations
in distance ]

Meredith: If you think I lookbad, you should see my lungs.

Not funny.

We need to talk
about your POA.

My sisters
sent you in here.

I knowwhat Alex Karev means to you.

And I know he would haveyour best interests at heart.

But he is halfway
across the country,

and we can't even
travel yet.

Look, God forbid,this thing gets any worse,

he might have to make decisionsregarding your care.

And you know those decisionscan be rough over the phone.

You need to pick
someone local.

Amelia can't even decide
what's for dinner.

♪♪

Maggie -- She doesn't know when
it's time for someone to die.

She has a hard time
letting them go, so...

At least Alex will pull the plugif I need him to.

♪♪

[ Coughs ]
Let's just talk

about s-something else,
please.

♪♪

I'm about to scrub inon a hepatic pregnancy

where the fetusis attached to the liver.

No! Alive?

Ugh. I'm so jealous.

[ Sighs ]

Link:Removing the bone. Rongeur.

Taryn:
Careful around the ulnar nerve.

Jackson:
You want to take over, Helm?

Dr. J's right.
People need sex right now.

[ Chuckles dryly ]
More than ever.

It's therapeutic.

What if you live in a house

that's like Los AngelesInternational Airport

on Thanksgiving Day?

Your flight is delayed,and there's no place to sit.

The bathrooms
are disgusting.

Forget regular sex.You don't even want to eat.

Looks like this artery's
thrombosed.

Can you fix it?I've got to harvest a vein

and place a graft.

Take a little bit longer,
but, yeah.

I'm in.

I fear the night at Meredith'shouse like a medieval villager.

[ Chuckles ]

Vessel loops.

[ Monitor beeps ]

[ Telephone ringing
in distance ]

Koracick: "Mama Ortiz"?

Mama Ortiz: Better thanthe one you suggested.

Uh, fine. Can you tell me
why you're not, uh, in the ER?

Jensen is on Discharges.

Yeah, Jensen quit aftertwo hours, and so did Stewart.

Okay, well, why hasn't
Mrs., uh, Cooley

been discharged?

I decidednot to discharge her.

Her chart is a mess.

Hand-off communicationhas been nonexistent.

She's supposed to be dischargedto Hillridge Nursing Facility?

You ever heard of it?
I --

Yeah, 17 new Covid cases,19 deaths.

Okay, the-these are all things
that can be discussed

with her doctor.

Great. I would love that.

Where is Dr. Grey?

Koracick:Look, Dr. Grey is --

She's off today.

Look, your diligencehas been noted,

but these areextraordinary times.

Let's not forget that we'rein the middle of a pandemic.

I haven't forgotten.

Before med school, I spent
20 years as a social worker.

I was there through H1N1.

And I know
that people deserve better.

Especially in a pandemic.

So I'm not discharging her.

Have Dr. Grey call me.

Someone's messing
with me, right?

We got a 26-weeker attached
to the liver? Still viable?

Come see for yourself.Liver's exposed.

Carina: Wow.

Hello there, little one.

Okay, let'sgo through it again.

The placenta has left the liver
extremely friable.

We cut. We get the baby out.
We leave the placenta intact.

Otherwise, she could bleed out.Which she will not.

Everyone in this roomneeds a little joy.

[ Suction gurgling ]

Ready?Ready.

Weirdest C-section
I've ever done.

Also ready.Bailey: Here we go.

Cutting into
the amniotic sac.

♪♪

Jo: Clamps for
the umbilical cord.

Heavy scissors.

Thanks.

♪♪

I'm not seeing
any movement.

Hayes:Prepare to intubate immediately.

♪♪

Where is all this blood
coming from?

Oh, theright hepatic artery.

More suction.

How's Luna?

[ Monitor beeping rapidly ]

Apgar 2, maybe 3.

Hayes: Still trying
to get the tube in. Come on.

Come on, come on, come --

I'm in.

Bag her, please.

♪♪

Okay, we need to get her up to
the unit as fast as possible.

Go.

♪♪

Ready, let's go, let's go,
let's go, come on.

More lap pads, more.

More, more --

We should resect
the right lobe.

No, that could leadto liver failure. No.

Then we put her on dialysis and
get her on the transplant list.

That's not as easyas it used to be. Hold on.

I'm not gonna let her die
before she sees her kid.

Clamp.

Hold on! Hold on!

♪♪

Bailey?

Okay. Okay, do it.

Bovie.

♪♪

♪♪

[ Video call ringing ]

♪♪

[ Tablet beeping ]

Meredith:
You look like crap.

Look who's talking.

I got a 26-week-old baby
looks stronger than you.

Liver baby? Mm-hmm.

So, I hear
you're looking for a POA.

Are you here
to volunteer?

I am cold, calculating,

couldn't care less
about you or your kids, so...

Everyone is family. I don't want to do that to them.

Then don't.
Write down on paper

what you want,
every last detail,

and then choose
someone who'll defend it.

The people who love you
the most, you know,

they're going to beg them to dosomething, anything to save you.

So choose someone
who'll choose you,

over and over again.

Is that what you didfor your wife?

Uh, no --
knew better than that.

But her sister followed every
last wish that Abi wanted,

no matter how much
we all hated it.

Go on, get some rest.

I'm afraid...

If I fall asleep...

I'm afraidI might not wake up.

♪♪

Everyone's scared of you, Grey. You know that?

It's 'cause you're fierce.

You've got teeth, grit.

You fight
to the bloody death

about the stupidest,
little things.

♪♪

This virus
has got nothing on you.

♪♪

[ Video call ends ]

♪♪

Link: We successfully removed
the bone fragment

and removed a blood clot
from your artery.

Jackson: And fortunately,
the nerve was intact.

You're not gonna get
your feeling back immediately,

but we're confident you will
over the next few months.

And you still have your hand.
Thehand.

We'll get you
an occupational therapist,

go through some exercises
to help you in your recovery.

Manoj:
I have my own regimen.

I exercise my hands
five hours a week.

Jackson: Maybe you could justtake your time

with whatever your...
regular routine is.

You want to know my secret,
don't you?

Nah, I think we're good.Nah, no thanks.

Taryn: Yes. I do, please,tha-thank you, mm-hmm.

Manoj:I ask my clients what they want.

And I listen.

♪♪

[ Knock on door ]

Koracick:
Your plan worked.

Excuse me?Well, you had to know

I'm not the man
for this job.

Those kids are terrified.

At least the oneswho haven't already quit.

And the ones who stayedhave no idea what they're doing

and I have no idea
how to show them.

Or you just don't want to.

Maybe you're unaware

because it's alwayscome naturally to you,

but teaching the waythat you do it, it's a gift.

It's not a talent
we all have.

Amelia Shepherd said

that you were the best teacher
she ever had.

That's why
I gave you the job.

I teach neurosurgeonshow to cut.

I don't teach kidshow to walk through a pandemic.

I can't give themwhat they need right now.

[ John Legend's
"Never Break" playing ]

You can.

♪♪

[ Door closes ]

♪ We got a good thing, babe

♪ Whenever life is hard

Amelia: Hi.♪ We'll never lose our way

Link: I basically showered
in sanitizer,

but better safe than sorry,
right?

How was your surgery?

Well, it was a crush injury
to the hand.

The patient was
some sort of sex therapist.

Apparently he's very well-known
for helping women

achieve their goals 37 times.

♪ And I've never been

Like, in one sitting?♪ We know how the story ends

It was advertised
as one event, yes.

♪ We will never break

♪ Built on a foundation

[ Sniffling ]♪ Strong enough to stay

I'm so sorry.♪ We will never break

No, no, I'm sorry.

♪ As the water rises
and the mountains shake ♪

I don't -- I don't think
I know what's wrong.

Meredith is still
in the hospital.

And the kids are all waiting forme to tell them that everythingis going to be fine,

but I just keep turning aroundand wondering who the person is

who is going to tellyou and me that.

I'm so tired...
[sniffles]

...that I don't evenrecognize myself.

I-I don't even know
what pants are.

There's a global medical crisisgoing on, and I can't even help.

And I can't turn my brain offwith a glass of winelike normal people.

I'm -- I'm, uh --I'm going to explode.

♪ Of what love really means

You want me
to take the kids?

They're asleep.

♪ It's 1 + 1 = 3

Okay.♪ When we talk about forever

How about you tell me
what you want...

♪ Then forever's what we mean

...and I will get it for you.
Anything.

♪ So I'm not worried about us
and I've never been ♪

37 times?

Oh.♪ No matter
what may come our way ♪

That's what you want?

I just need
to feel something

other thanoverwhelming despair.

Ah.♪ Built on a foundation

I was at the hospital.
I-I --

♪ Stronger than the pain

I was planning on
keeping my distance

until I could get tested.

Well, who says we can'tdo this six feet apart?

♪ And the mountains shake

♪ Our love will remain

♪ We will never

♪ Nah, nah, never

♪ Nooooo

[ Exhales deeply ]

Woman: [ over P.A. ]
Dr. Leon, call the blood bank.

Dr. Leon, call the blood bank.

♪♪

Hey, um...

Do you have time to let me buyyou a-a bad cup of coffee or...?

I'm sorrywe haven't talked a lot. I --

The past few months haven'tbeen easy for me and for --

Oh, I've been having
a-a grand time.

Tom, I --Teddy, what would be
really great

is if, uh, you weren't here
right now.

Because you broke me again

and I still love you.

But I got to get over you
because [Laughs]

I've had enough misery
for one life.

Owen: [ Sighs ]Just the man I was looking for.

Great. What now?

You tested positive
for Covid-19.

[ Chuckles ] Funny.
Kick a man when he's down.

14-day quarantine.
Hospital policy.

Contact tracing teamwill be in touch.

[ Scoffs ]

I'm -- No, I'm not symptomatic.Go home, Tom.

Don't stop at the store.Just go home.

Stay home. Try not to [Sighs]infect anyone else.

Maybe you shouldput your mask back on.

Right. Um...

[ Siren wails in distance ]

[ Indistinct conversations ]

[ Video call ringing ]

[ Cellphone clicks ]

[ Cellphone hums ]

Winston: God, it's good to see your --

W-What's wrong?

[ Voice breaking ] I don't know
how much longer I can do this.

[ Sobs ]

53 people.

That's how many
have died on my watch

since this thing
started. 53.

And most of them have been
Black women, so that means --

The same thing's
happening here.

Everywhere.

I lost a patient
this morning.

Rosalie Lewis.

She was so funny.

She, um...

She thanked me every single timeI came in to check on her,

and...

watching her talk
to her daughter on the phone,

it reminded me of the way that my mom used to talk to me.

I never thought
the day would come

when it would
feel like a privilege

to have held my mother's hand
while she died.

I'm so sorry.

Rosalie deserved
a better death than this.

She deserved
to not be a statistic.

♪♪

I know.

[ Crying ] And I'm scared
for my sister.

I'm -- I'm -- I'm -- I'm tryingso hard not to be scared, but...

I'm scared.

[ Sighs ]

♪♪

[ Monitor beeping ]

Hi, Luna.

Hi.

Your mommy is asleep right now,

but she is gonna be so excited
to meet you.

See?

Joy.[ Chuckles ] Yeah.

She developed in a liverand was born in a pandemic.

She is a survivor.

Your work these last few days
hasn't gone unnoticed.

Thank you.

♪♪

Meredith has to
be okay, Bailey.

She has to be okay.

♪ In the rising wind
where the black waves call ♪

♪♪

♪ To the bones of ships
on the ocean floor ♪

This feels like payback.

Meredith: Damn right it is.♪ To your hopeless heart
left on the shore ♪

And you're sureyou want me to have your POA

and not Maggie or Amelia?

You've known me
my whole life.

You're the only one
I can trust

to pull the plug
if my brain is gone.

I'll do every damn thingI can first.

I know you will.

♪ And when your prayer's unheardand you don't believe ♪

And you -- you don't wantto be put on a vent?

[ Coughs ]♪ So put your faith in the deviland the deep blue sea ♪

There's a shortage.
I don't want to take one

from somebody who needs it.

What if
that someone's you?

[ Coughs ]♪ There's a darkness up ahead

It's not. Not yet.

My kids need me.

We all need you.♪ I will see you

♪ Where the shadow ends

♪ Cross the badlands
to rise again ♪

[ Door closes ]

They're ready for you.♪ I will see you

♪ Where the shadow ends

♪ There's a darkness up ahead

♪ I will see you

♪ Where the shadow ends

♪ Cross the badlands
to rise again ♪

Meredith: They say following
the rules saves lives.

Richard: When you decided
to go to med school,

you had dreams of a career.

I know this isn't it.

It's not mine either.

I want to be in an OR.

I want to be cutting.

I want to hold my patient's
hand, skin to skin.

I want to meet their loved ones.

I want to be in the before.

But the before is gone.

We're in the now.

And people are looking to us
to guide them through it.

And we will.

I'll teach you the jobs
that need to get done.

I will make sure that you learn
as much as you can.

And we'll be okay.

We'll get through this
together.

♪♪

Meredith: But what happens

when life suddenly
changes the game entirely?

♪ Where the shadow ends

♪ There's a darkness up ahead

[ Seagulls crying ]

♪ I will see you

♪ Where the shadow ends

♪♪

What happens
when you find yourself

walking on totally new ground?

You could walk, too,
you know!

Wouldn't make a difference!Why not?!

Because the sand isn't real,Meredith!

♪♪

♪♪

♪ Where the shadow ends

♪ There's a darkness up ahead

♪ I will see you

[ Derek laughing ]♪ Where the shadow ends

♪ I can see a lighthouse
through the smoke ♪

You said it wasn't real!

♪ Everything is lost, I know

Ugh, I hate you!

You love me.God knows I love you.

♪ I can hear
the breaking of the dawn ♪

I'll be right here
when you're ready.

♪ Can you see
the broken rays of light ♪

I wish I knew.

♪ Caught into
the dead of night ♪

[ Laughs ]♪ And I know
that I'll see you again ♪

♪ Where the shadow ends

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