All language subtitles for Saving.Hope.S05E09.WEBRip.x264-ION10

[ Cash register beeping ]

[ Chuckles ]

When someone's that secretive
about their phone,

it's got to be either porn
or a job offer.

Well, it's porn.
It's totally porn.

[ Snaps fingers ]
It is a job offer.

Come on.
From where?
[ Chuckles ]

Somewhere exotic?

Come on, spill.

It's from my old hospital
back in Detroit.

And I guess it's exotic
in its own way.

Nice! So it takes you back
to old friends and family --

That'd great, huh?

Yeah, my sister
did just have twins.

Aww.

And the hospital's
offering

to back the money truck up
for me, so...

So the upside's
pretty obvious.

What's the downside?

I --
I kind of --

I kind of like it here,
you know?

I think
maybe I should stay.

[ Cellphone vibrates ]
Give this place
a real chance.

Right.
I'm needed in the trauma bay.

But maybe you could
tell me later

what's the real reason
keeping you here.

Or whom.
Hmm?

Thank you for the coffee.

Hey, Manny.
It's Alex.

Maybe you started your shift
already.

I just --
I wanted to call to tell you

that I'm sorry that I didn't
say goodbye before I left.

Things have just been crazy
with my mom and everything,

and I just --

I needed some space.

Anyway,
I am coming back tonight,

so if you want to,

let's meet after your shift
and we can talk.

[ Thud ]
Martha: Oh!

-Mom?
-Ohh!

Oh, my God.
Are you okay?

I'm fine.
[ Sighs ]

I'm fine!
It's --

Ugh, it's my own fault

for trying to move
the damn thing by myself.

-Well, are you hurt?
-No.

Oh, it's -- The balance
in this room is all off.

I mean,
you can just feel it.

Well, you need
to be more careful.
[ Sighs ]

Well, if somebody

had cleaned the living room
before like I asked.
Right.

You've been leaving out
your papers.

What is this?

Sunny Pines,
Manor on the Glen?

These are palliative care
facilities.
Oh!

I left them out for you,
remember?

You -- You didn't
look at them, did you?

Okay, well, we have
appointments to see them.

When we get back to town,

we need to find ones
that you'll like.

No!
No, I can't do that.

I -- I've got
too much to do.

This place is a sty.

No, t-this place is spotless.

[ Sighs ] Well, if you think
that Nick Murphy

isn't gonna judge me
for rings on the tables

or dust on the walls,

then you're not
gonna be the help to me

that you said
you were gonna be.

Okay, I am sorry, Mom.

Who is Nick Murphy?

The real estate agent.

Alex, he's coming
to appraise the house.

I told you.

I'm selling it.

Can't I stay
just a bit longer?

I don't know how many more ways
I can tell you this, Blake,

but you are dead.

Saw my body on this table.
I totally get that.

But what I'm saying is

why can't I just chill here
a little while longer?

Do whatever you want.

But I can't be talking to you
anymore because I am busy!

Don't make me
follow you home.

You --

Does that shelf
look level to you?

Wouldn't it fall over
if it wasn't?

Hmm.
Not on my watch.

Dr. Harris.

Um, I was wondering
if we could have a little chat,

Chief to Chief.

You mean Interim Chief
to Interim Chief?

Nobody listens to me.

Every resident rotation,
every surgery I assign --

Yeah, well, that's --
Heavy lies the crown.

Such a heavy crown.

Mm.
It's hard enough proving

that I deserve
the permanent chiefship,

but how do you lead
when no one respects you?

Well, you went from friend
to boss overnight,

so it's not gonna happen
right away.

Why, you're not thinking
about stepping down, are you?

No! Wait.
Should I? No.

[ Cellphone vibrates,
elevator bell dings ]

I am the most qualified.
Dr. Bell even said so.

Yeah, well --
Oh, look!

Incoming trauma.
Huh.

We will talk
about this later.

Right...Chief?

I need you.

Uh, can you be more specific
and less kidnappy, please?

I'm on rounds.
I have an OB admission,

but she won't let me examine her
or Dr. Rosen, who's on call.

She wants a woman.

Actually,
Dr. Lin, she wants you.

Mrs. Friedman,
Dr. Lin.

Thank you for your time,
Dr. Scott.

Okay, Mrs. Friedman,
I see you're 14 weeks pregnant

and receiving chemotherapy
for ovarian cancer.

Tumor showed up
in my ultrasound.

I was supposed to have surgery,
but it already spread.

They backed off and biopsied.

Stage 2.

She's been on mild chemo
to control growth

till the baby's viable.
It sounds like a plan.

Why you'd move from
Summer Hill Memorial to see me?

Your cancer study.

My sister's a doctor.
She told me about it.

I want to enroll, Dr. Lin.

May I ask
who your sister is?

[ Groans ]

The pain's worse.

It's just a wave.
a-a bad one.

Okay.
Keep breathing slow.

I am!

Slower, Rivka.
Slow down.

**

[ Alarms beeping ]
Hey.

We got a John Doe,
possible transient.

Decided to go for a stroll
in a subway tunnel.

Poor guy.
Was he living down there?

Unclear.
Definite thoracic trauma.

Left tibia's broken
in two places

and likely
pelvic fracture.

Yeah, internal injuries,

but no major bleeding
I can see so far.

Okay,
he needs an MRI right away.

His pupils are sluggish.
This could be a brain bleed.

All right,
Dr. Hamza's got dibs.

Let's get him up to imaging.
Let's go!

Oh.

In the meantime,
you better take a look at this.

I found it in his pocket.

**

[ Indistinct announcement
over P.A. ]

[ Gasps ]
Impressive, Dr. Sekara.

I didn't master
sleeping while standing up

until third year.

You don't mind, do you?

Bold move.

I should put you
on abscess duty.

Hey, hey. Be cool.
I can't deal right now.

What?

Nurse Cabrera.

Dr. Miller.

Is Dr. Sekara around?

Uh, last I saw,

I think he was in the middle
of a fairly dramatic enema.

Oh.
Should I interrupt?

Probably not.

I got it.

Here you go.

Tell him
I'm looking for him.

[ Sighs ]

We've been, uh
[Clears throat]

dating a few weeks now,
and, uh...

I can't keep up.

If we're not on a shift,
we're on a dance floor.

I don't know
how she does it.

I'm sorry.
You're complaining?

Wilfred: Hey, hey, hey, hey.
Screw off!

Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey.
Come on.

The line for this club is --
You can't --
You can't come in here.

What are you, the boun--
You're not supposed
to come in here.

What are you, the bouncer?
I'll have a double vodka.

He said he was having
chest pains.

[ Slurred ] Just leave me
with the bartender.
Sir, it's 9:30 A.M.

Well, then,
to Kensington then, my man!

The after-hours bars
are calling my name.

Look,
I don't know this guy,

but 20 minutes ago,

he said he was dying
in the back of my cab.

This is for the cab,

and this is for the gyro
you dumped in my back seat.

Hey, hey, hey.
Wait a minute.

I want my leftovers back!

Party machines need fuel.
Whoa!

Okay, pump the brakes there,
Keith Richards.

Let's find out
if you're really dying.

Where's that vodka?

I flew home
right after Becca was diagnosed.

And when I looked
into treatment options,

I came across your study
with Dr. Reid.

it's impressive work.

Thanks.

Can you help her?

Sydney said my pathology
fit your criteria,

even though I'm pregnant.

Right now,
I just want to focus

on what's causing
all this pain.

With Syd's counsel,
of course.

I don't -- I don't think
that's a very good idea.

No. I'm just here
to help get her admitted.

My parents are on the way
with Becca's husband.

Mary,
could you get Mrs. Friedman

something more
for her pain?

You just stay comfortable.

I'll be right around the corner
if you need anything.

[ Indistinct announcement
over P.A. ]

I'm so sorry.

Yeah.

It's been a rough year
for the Katz family

[Sniffles]
starting with me.

[ Chuckles ]

Since I came out,
my mother actually thinks

I gave the whole family
an Ayin Hara,

you know,
"the evil eye."

Oh, come on.

Old World Jewish curses,
Maggie.

It's very serious stuff.

So, Becca's treatment plan --

You have room
for her in your study?

That's what I wanted
to talk to you about.

The study's over.

They started a new phase
at Mississauga Memorial,

but it's only open
to existing patients.

[ Sniffles ]

That's disappointing news.

Yeah.

At least
she'll still have you.

I'm not sure
what I can do

that her last doctor
didn't think of.

You really can't stay?
No.

My parents
have made it very clear

that they don't
want me here.

In fact, it's probably
better for Becca

if I head out
before they arrive.

You look good, Maggie.

**

I put on a pelvic binder
as a temporary measure

till I can
get the ex-fix on.

Well, you bought us time to deal
with the thoracic trauma.

Thank you.

We're gonna need to keep an eye
on his pressure

until we can
get him back to you.

In the meantime,

any ideas as to how your name
got in his book?

No idea.
Maybe an old patient?

It's all over the place.

Different writing,
different voices.

Maybe Dissociative
Identity Disorder?

Yeah, I paged Psych, so let's
see what they have to say.

There's got to be
someone out there

that cares
where this guy is.

Is there any other names
in there to go on?

Yeah.
We have...

Esther Leach,

Vin Tranh,

Randall Crane, Maria Jara --

Wait a second.
Did you say Randall Crane?

W-Why does that name
sound familiar?

Uh...

Actually,
he's -- he's been here before.

A few times.
Wait.

It's that psychic
who messed with Alex's head

when you were in a coma.
Uh-huh.

Okay, well,
maybe we should contact him.

Yeah.
No, I'm --

I'm starting to think
that this is him.

**

God!
How did he end up like this?

That is
an excellent question.

Would you like to come
and hear the answer now?

You're quiet.

You don't approve.

Mom,
I'm just surprised.

It's a --
It's a great time to sell.

I just thought
you were putting things off.

I'm not
putting anything off.

Well, I am glad that
you're facing this head-on.

We'll choose a care home
that you like,

somewhere close to me.

It will be great.

There's no need to bother
about any of those places.

We talked about this, mother.
What do you mean?

[ Sighs ]

I've done a lot
of thinking, Alex,

and I want to die here.

I don't want to wait.

And I want you to help me.

You want me
to help you die?

There's Nick.

Thinner, sweetie.

He's a real estate agent,
not a farm animal.

[ Door opens ]

Martha, you completely undersold
how adorable this place is.

And is that Alex Reid,
or do my eyes deceive me?

[ Chuckles ]

How have you been, girl?
Good.

It's been what,
20 years?

You remember Nick,
don't you, Alex?

St. Regis High.

I asked you to the prom.

And you said no?

Oh, you were
so adorable, Nick.

He was so persistent.
He kept calling and calling.

He was even hanging around
outside the house.

[ Chuckling ] Oh,
I definitely remember you now.

So, let me show you the place.

Uh, actually, Nick,
we need to reschedule.

Oh, you know, I think
that I forgot to tell Alex

that you were coming today.

And, you know,
selling the place,

she needs some time to adjust.

You feel like you're selling

your memories
with your house, Alex.

I get it.

I don't think you do,
Nick.

How about you, uh,
start to take a look around?

We'll catch up to you.

Mother, uh...

We need to talk
about this.

Not now, Alex.

We have a guest.
Not later!

Now, mother.

You see?

This is why
I didn't want to ask you.

Because I knew
you'd get like this.

Get like what?

You're always so dramatic.

I'm the one
being dramatic right now?

You think that I actually
want to kill myself

in front of our
real-estate agent?

That would shave $50,000
off the list price easy.

It's not funny.

It's a little funny.

Oh, I don't want him to see
the water stain in the en suite.

[ Sighs ]

**

Hey!
Charlie!

You look great, man.

Really great.

Let me guess.
You, too, are off

gluten and
refined sugars, huh?

[ Chuckles ]

No, wait a minute.

I'm sensing
it's something else with you.

What is it?

[ Gasps ]
No carbs or dairy.

[ Clicks tongue ]
Except for cheese.

I mean, everybody cheats
with cheese, so.

Yeah,
you're pretty funny

for a guy who just got hit
by a train.

Yeah. Mm.

Went down there
for a little peace and quiet.

A little respite
from our mutual friends.

Didn't turn out so good.

Caught a look
at your journal, Randall.

Why was my name in it?

Because of the changes.

Changes?
What changes?

Last time I talked to you,

you said you didn't
see them anymore.

Yeah, well,
that didn't last.

Not so long.

They couldn't quit me.

I mean, come on.

Could you quit me?
Huh?

I'm about to quit
this conversation.

Okay, okay.
Fine, fine, fine.

It started slowly
at first.

And I was doing great.
I was doing really good.

I was getting along
with my daughter.

I was a granddad.

[ Chuckles ]

And then, um...

Well, you know,

a little whisper here,
a little shadow there,

and then one day,
it was just -- kapow!

Kapow?

Oh, kapow.

Everything gets
turned up to 11.

You still haven't told me
what this is about.

Look, man.

I always thought
I could control this.

You know that.

Eventually, I found out
it controls you.

I tried
to get away from it.

I ran down to a subway
and [Pops lips]

So...

When you find out
you can't shake it,

that's how it starts.

What's left of me in there,
that's how it ends.

Shahir: Randall's craniotomy
was a success.

His pressure was dropping
when I was closing.

I'm worried
the thoracic bleed

may be not as minor
as we suspected.

You sure we don't want
to crack him open?

No.
He's been through too much.

Let's keep it minimal.

EVAR was a good call.
Thank you, Dr. Hamza.

Yes, fine.
Just keep me updated.

[ Monitors beeping ]

I'm really starting to think
that guy doesn't like me.

Who? Shahir?

He doesn't like change.

And you and Alex
are change.

Look.
She's my best friend.

Do you think
she wouldn't mention you?

Needle.

So, you never told me --

You got a job offer that
takes you back to your family

and a pile of money
to sweeten the deal --

So,
what is keeping you here?

Does is rhyme
with Alex Reid?

I can totally hear you,
by the way?

Look, I know
what you're gonna say.

It's a crazy time
right now for her.

Do you know
how many people have tried

to "helpfully"
tell me this?

Implying
you are the rebound guy.

[ Chuckles ]

Look, I'm just not big
on collecting regrets.

And if I don't
give it a try with her,

I will have one.

Manny,
I'm gonna tell you something

that you might not
want to hear.

I know Alex,

and she and Charlie
are the long-term picture here.

They just are.

Maybe that picture's
changing.

They have a kid together.

That's something
that never changes.

Where is my phone?

I need a cab.

[ Chuckles ]

It's not single malt,
but it does go great

with root beer.
Come on.

How long you been going
like this?

Not long enough.

Don't love his pressure,
Dr. Miller,

but it might just be
all the partying.

I know what you're doing here,
Wilfred.

You don't know anything, kid.

It's not
your first time here.

You were admitted six months ago
after your wife died.

I treated you.
You thought you were dying.

Turned out to be
an extreme grief reaction.

I can't stop you from doing
what you're doing, Wilfred,

but I can slow you down.

Dr. Sekara,
let's get an chest X-Ray,

echo,
and full blood panels.

Look at yourself.

Looks like they put
a white coat on a turd.

Dr. Miller,
he's got an arrhythmia.

Okay.

You're mine now, Willy.

Buckle up.

To a beautiful future.

Your mother's just agreed to let
me represent her in her sale.

Well...
Let's get you a glass.

No.
No, thank you.

Martha,
I have to ask --

This place is paradise.
Why do you want to sell?

Well, you know,
after my husband passed,

I -- I needed a change,

so I moved out here
and packed up the kids and --

But now, I --

I'm the only one
rattling around here,

and I want
a new adventure.

Sounds exciting.
Where?

The Greek islands.

I want -- I've always wanted
to go to the Greek islands.

Nick, I think we should
finish this up later.

My mother's had a long day.

Oh, no! I'm fine.
No, Nick. Please.

Sit, sit, sit, sit, sit, sit.
I-I want to hear everything

that's been going on with you
for the last 20 years,

ever since my daughter
blew it with you.

Martha,
I really should be going.

I have a billboard
I have to sign off on.

Oh, come on. The party's
just getting started.

Alex, you go up and call
your father and your brothers

and tell them to come down
and bring the music box,

and -- and --

Oh, it's --
You should he-- he--

Oh!
[ Glass shatters ]

Mom. Mom? Okay.
All right, Mama. I got you.

Just sit back down.
I'm here. I'm here with you.

You're gonna be okay.
Nick:
What's wrong with her?

I've got her.
You just need to go, okay?

[ Martha groaning ]

Hey.
Mama, I got you.

I got you.
You're gonna be okay.

What do you mean
the study's over?

There's nothing that we can do?

You said
it would be better here.

You said they would save me
and my baby!

No, I never said that.

Mom and Dad are right.
This was a huge mistake.

I'm the next best thing
to Sydney. She trained me.

Oh, so you were there
when she decided

to upend her life and drop
a bomb on our entire family?

I didn't exactly decide.

You didn't tell me!

You didn't say anything to me!

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry.
I'm just --

I'm scared.

I've had four miscarriages
already.

What am I gonna do?

Okay. We're gonna continue
with a basic chemo cocktail

that doesn't hurt
the baby.

You're still 10 weeks
from viability,

so we have plenty of --

-[ Screams ]
-Becca.

What's happening?
[ Monitor beeping rapidly ]

It must be
where the mass is.

Okay.
Rivka, I'm right here.

-[ Gasping ]
-I'm right here with you.

[ Exhales sharply ]

-Her pressure's way low.
-The tumor must be hemorrhaging.

Book me an O.R.

**

Syd.
I've got her.

This procedure is risky.

Is Dr. Katz
the kind of friend

that could forgive you
if something goes wrong?

I hope we don't
have to find out.

-What's her story, anyway?
-Ask her yourself.

Dr. Katz,
this is Dr. Scott.

-Hi.
-Hi.

So, um...
Oh.

Okay,
there's gonna be lots of blood,

so it'll be hard to see.

If you hit the uterus
with the trocars,

it's a bad outcome
for both of them.

You think I should do
a laparotomy?

No.
I don't know.

Just be sure
to remove the ovary intact

because
if the tumor ruptures --

The cancer can spread
everywhere.

I know.
I'll be careful.

Maggie, if you run
into any complications,

I want you to be aggressive,
okay?

Even at greater risk
to the baby.

Even with all
the miscarriages she's had?

Yeah. Becca isn't thinking
about herself,

and someone needs to.

Go.
Be with her.

I can't lose the baby.
I can't.

You won't.

You do this,
it's your job,

but you don't know
what it's like.

Nothing else matters.

You matter.

Hey.

You matter to me.

You're my sister,
and I shut you out.

That wasn't your fault.

I should have
said something.

I should have defended you,
but I said nothing.

I said nothing
when you were blamed

for breaking
the Shabbat candlesticks.

I knew that was you.

[ Laughs ]

We'll call it even.

Okay.
Time to go.

[ Breathes shakily ]

Oh, I'm so embarrassed.

Nick must think I'm crazy.

You had a seizure.

It won't be the last one.

[ Scoffs ]

How is that feeling?

It's supposed to help
your muscles relax.

It feels nice.

You're gonna need
some full-time care soon.

Oh, don't spoil it.

I'm mothering you.

Yes, you are.

[ Chuckles ]

I miss Luke.

I know.

Me, too.

Why did you
have to name him that?

To remember.

I'm gonna forget it all soon,
aren't I?

My children, my life.

Myself.

You still have time.

But we won't know how much time
until there's none left.

Let's do something.

A puzzle.

Oh,
you hate puzzles.

I do.

But you love them.

And I want to spend time
with my mother.

**

Randall:
Right at the last second,
it's total slow-motion.

Total slow-motion and --

Oh, hey, Charlie.

Didn't feel a thing.
[ Sniffs ]

Randall.

Blake.

What's up, guys?

Uh, I was talking
to your friend here,

sharing
some old war stories.

How the gorgeous Dr. Reid
cured me of cancer,

how you're just about to fix

whatever's busted up in me
in there.

Maybe you can cure me, too.

You're dead, Blake.
Dead.

I prefer life-challenged,
okay?

Blake,
if you could, uh, excuse us.

I-I don't know.

So, Randall,
I talked to your daughter.

She's not coming.

Yeah.
[ Sighs ]

We had a bumpy ride,
Leslie and me.

So she's finally decided
to jump off.

There's always
another chance.

[ Chuckling ] Come on.

Another chance,
another chance, another --

Used to always think so.

Then, uh...
Anyway.

If I don't
make it through this,

you'll tell her
I love her, right?

Come on, Randall.

Every time you've walked
into this place,

you somehow manage
to walk out okay.

Maybe so.

But if you're not careful,
buddy,

you're gonna end up
in a bloody mess like this, too.

Randall, I'm not you.

And I know you're trying
to scare me or whatever,

but I'm -- I'm doing fine.

**

Having trouble
sending him on his way?

I'm working on that.

You know,
it's hard to pull off

a creepy clown vibe
without the costume,

but he's really nailed it.

Yeah.

It's nothing
I can't handle.

[ Chuckles ]
I'm sure you can.

But who's gonna tie you
to the living, hmm?

You know you can't
do it alone.

So, who?

[ Cellphone vibrates ]
Oh, there you go.

Saved by the bell.

I need to scrub in
for your surgery.

Un-break a leg in there.

Sorry.
It's all I got.

How many drinks do you have
per week?

Somewhere between just enough
and the perfect amount.

And how long
have you been smoking?

Six months.

Let me guess --
it'll kill me?

Hey.
Just, uh, checking in,

making sure that
you're going to be assisting

on Mrs. Edison's
colonoscopy.

You didn't schedule me,
so no.

I didn't schedule you.
I told you.

Mm, no.
No, you didn't.

I want a percentage
of the door

if your girlfriend's
gonna watch.

-Uh, I'm his boss.
-She's not my girlfriend.

I don't care.

I'm gonna be making
a new schedule, Dev,

so watch out for it.

You got it, Chief.

[ Door closes ]

Shut this hamster toy off.

[ Treadmill beeps ]

[ Panting ]

You know, the only good thing
about this experience

has been watching you suffer
more than me.

That was painful.

Thanks.
That really helps.

I'm gonna sugarcoat it for a guy
who wired me to a conveyor belt?

Wilfred, the way you're living,
it's gonna kill you.

You know that, right?

Ah.

So why do you keep doing it?

Do you want to die?

Not so much want to die.

More like...
don't know what to live for.

Well, you just live
one day at a time.

Oh, stop.
Just stop!

[ Door opens, closes ]

[ Monitors beeping ]
Maggie: See here?

It's invaded the tube on
this side, but not the uterus.

That's the good news.

It's really hemorrhaging
a lot.

Pressure's low.
I'll push more blood.

You two have a history,
don't you?

It's none of your business,
Billy.

You're careful
around each other.

Friends aren't like that.

You're wrong.
Just friends.

I just think
there's obviously,

like, electricity in the air
with you two.

It's so --
Stop talking, please.

Hold on.
Do you see those lesions?

Mm.

They're everywhere.

The cancer's spread
to the omentum.

Don't look.

Do not make
eye contact with her.

This has to be
my decision.

What do we do?

[ Sighs ]
We stick to the plan.

We came in
to take her cancer out,

and that's what
we're gonna do.

No, the plan was to remove
the primary --

I'm not leaving these spots
to grow.

Prep for a laparotomy.

Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa.
We're opening her up?

Every second we're in there,
we risk the fetus.

It's a small risk that we lose
patient and baby now

or a good chance this kid
grows up without a mother later.

I want to save them both.
We're opening her up.

[ Sighs ]

There are ways
to manage your pain.

That's what
I'm asking you to do --

manage it permanently.

I can't do it alone.

You're the doctor.

No, I'm your daughter.

And it's the last thing
you should ask of me.

[ Sighs ]

Look, when the time comes,
we can discuss this,

but we're so far off
from that.

Don't you want to see Dougie
or Jasper?

Your brothers have had 10 years
to come and see me.

They hate me.

This is not
gonna change anything.

Fine, then.
What about Luke?

[ Voice breaking ]
Don't do that.

[ Sighs ]

Mom.

Mom.
Mom, don't!

[ Sighs ]

Mom, come out
and talk to me, please.

I'm supposed to look after you,
not the other way around.

I still need you.

You never needed me.

Well, I do now.

[ Pills rattle ]

I'm pregnant.

**

[ Exhales sharply ]

You're the only person
I've told.

And it's Charlie's.

Yeah.

[ Horses snorting ]

Go back to him.

You love him.

I do.

It doesn't work that way.

It's not enough.
It wasn't enough for you.

It wasn't enough
for you and Dad.

You know,
I used to believe

that I was responsible

for all the bad luck
in this family.

God knows
we've had our share.

[ Chuckles ]

But after your dad died,

I thought that you were
gonna be the one to escape it.

But I haven't, mom.

[ Sighs ]

Charlie and I, well,

we've had nothing
but terrible luck.

You have an amazing career
and a beautiful son.

How is that bad luck?

[ Voice breaking ] And I can't
be with the man that I love

because we're cursed.

You are not cursed.

[ Sniffles ]

We make our own destiny.

God, I hope so.

[ Sniffles ]

And I'm gonna have
another grandchild.

Well, it looks like it.

[ Laughs ]

You know, you were
the only one of my babies

that I didn't need
a pregnancy test for.

Really?

Right from the beginning,
I knew

because you were
giving me hell.

Well...

You had so much fight
in you.

You still do.

**

I got it from somewhere.

[ Sniffles ]

I'm dying, honey.

Nothing's
gonna change that.

Faster, slower --
what's the difference?

[ Monitors beeping ]

You removed the ovary
and stopped the bleed?

Yes.

Going after all of it --
that was a risky choice.

It was the right choice.

I know.

My family's here.
I'll go talk them through it.

Okay.
I'll be right out.

Billy:
That still happens

even when
you're a grown-up doctor?

I guess it does today.

Okay, now you're just
messing with me.

Oh, lighten up a little,
buttercup.

Your wife wind you up
like that?

Girlfriend.
And no, actually.

[ Sighs ]

How long were you married?

56 wonderful years.

She was working in a flower shop
when I met her.

Swept me right off my feet.

That's beautiful.

My girlfriend at the time
didn't think so.

[ Laughs ]
They never do.

I have
Mr. Jennings' results.

Well, tick-tock.

I may make happy hour
at The Belladonna after all.

Early stage
Alcoholic Cardiomyopathy.

The barrage
of drugs and alcohol

have caused the vessels
in your heart

to swell and harden.

Your heart's strangling itself,
Wilfred.

We're gonna have to admit you,
monitor you.

We'll give you medication.

Oh, I will take that
under advisement.

But, uh, for now,
if you'll excuse me,

I have a pitcher
of mojitos waiting.

Wilfred,
you're an idiot.

And if Priscilla were here,
she'd say the same thing.

You didn't know her.

She'd be okay with you
killing yourself by drinking

just to prove
that you loved her?

What you know about love
couldn't fill a shot glass.

Oh, cut the crap!

What would Priscilla want?

[ Sighs ]
Her garden.

She'd want me to look after
her garden.

And how's it doing now?

It looks like a dog's ass.
I hate gardening.

And I hate salsa dancing,

but you got to do
what you got to do.

[ Book thuds ]

Oh, uh...
hey, Serena.

So, I thought about what
you said, about the chiefship,

how you think
I should step down.

No,
I-I didn't say that.

I just asked you
if you were considering it.

Oh.
Well, I'm not.

I just got started, and I know
I can make this hospital

a better place
while I'm here.

That's good because based
on Dawn's recommendation,

I've decided to make you
permanent Chief Resident.

Congratulations.

Wow.

That was easy.
No, not easy.

You just went from one
impossible job to two.

Crossbar.

Randall: Kapow.

Charlie, it's happening.

**

Dr. Harris,
are you all right?

Yeah.
I --

I just had
that feeling like, uh...

someone walked on my grave.
-Ooh.

Actually, that's a subconscious
release of adrenaline.

Like a reaction to temperature

or an emotional response
to memory.

You must clean up
on trivia night, Dr. O'Toole.

Something's coming for me.
I can feel it.

[ Monitors beeping rapidly ]
Whoa.
We have a problem.

The craniotomy site's bleeding.

Okay, his pressure
must have dislodged

a clot in the arterial vessel.
Page Dr. Hamza.

Okay, I need sponges.
-He's tachycardic.

You know, I've been ferryman
for so long,

showing people
to the other side.

It's finally my turn
to take the trip.

Roxy, push more fluids.

Hey.
Buddy, you remember

you can't handle this
on your own, okay?

You need a link
to the living.

Stay with us, Randall.

Thank you for caring.

It helps a lot, my friend.

[ Sighs ]

I'll see you
on the other side, Charlie.

[ Flatline ]

[ Sighs ]

[ Birds chirping ]

[ Horse snorts ]

[ Horse whinnies ]

[ Soft music plays ]

You kept it.

[ Music ends ]

Anyway,
I've been thinking.

If --

If it's what
you really want...

When the time comes,
I will help you.

Mom?

Mom.

Mom?
Mom?

[ Bottle clacks ]

Oh, my God.

What --
What have you done?

[ Sighs ]

[ Ringing ]
Mother!

Dispatcher:
911, what's your emergency?

I have an opiate overdose
at 9947 12th Line.

I need an ambulance now.

Come on, Mama.

Stay with me here!

Please don't leave me.

[ Cries ]

**

* I hear the sound

* Echoes beneath

* Angels and skylines meet

* And I'm straining to reach

* The light on the surface
[ Engine starts ]

* Light on the other side

* I feel the pages turning

* I see the candle
burning down *

* Before my eyes

[ Sniffles ]

* Before my wild eyes

Hey, Alex.
It's me.

Uh, I've been wanting to talk.

Something came up.
A job, actually, back home.

* Finally breathe

Uh, I wanted to connect,
but, uh...

it seems that we can't connect.

Maybe it's a sign.
[ Chuckles ]

Uh, you know,
maybe in another life,

there's nothing messing us up
and nothing getting in the way

of us giving this thing
a chance, but, uh...

doesn't look like it's this one.

* Breathe

Listen, I-I really hope
that you find

whatever makes you happy,
and, uh...

* Breathe

...good luck with everything.

* I feel the pages turning

Goodbye, Alex Reid.

* Before my eyes

* Before my wild eyes

* And I feel you holding me

* Tighter, I cannot see

* When will we finally

* Breathe

* Breathe

* Breathe

[ Laughs ]

* Breathe

We'll resume chemo
as soon as she's strong enough,

but right now, I want her
to focus on rest

and getting
her strength up.

Okay.

Thank you.

Yeah.

[ Sighs ]

Well,
I should go.

Really?

After everything
that's happened today,

your family just doesn't
want you here?

You know what, they'll come
around or they wont,

but I'm done trying
to make it easy for them.

You seem so...different.
[ Chuckles ]

I am.

Israel was...
a lot of things.

Are you here for long?

Do you want to get together,
have dinner, or...?

Hey, there's something
I need to tell you.

I thought it could wait,
but...it can't,

so, uh, just listen.

Okay.

Um...

[ Chuckles ]

When I was in Israel,

I thought about you
every day.

I thought about you, too.

[ In The City's
"When I Look Back" plays ]

I want to find out
if we can be something.

I just need to know
if you do, too.

* Meet me where the sun sets

* Golden days I won't forget

* Lights will hold you
as you rest *

* Meet me where the road ends

* Lost out here
without my friend *

* A heart that only
you can mend *

[ Keys thud ]

Is she here?

Yeah.

Will you tell her
that I love her?

She knows, Alex.

[ Cries ]

She knows.

**