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Previously on "Grey's Anatomy"...Okay, Cindy Wright.

She fits the profile.

Arrest this woman for child trafficking!

Bailey: Please escortDr. DeLuca to my office.

What? Me?! What, you're just gonna let her go?

I did the job that needed to be done!

Andrew, you sound like your father.

This is Gemma.

Uh, she's a friend.I can see that.

Something's wrong with me. What's happening?

DeLuca:Cobalt poisoning would explainthe dementia, the depression,

hallucinations, tremors --everything.

Is your mindplaying tricks on you again?

Did you stand by me while I was being fired?

I'm tired of telling youthat I want more.

I hope you find someone who will give that to you.

Dr. Winston Ndugu.

I have had a crush on yousince my first day of residency.

Link: What do you think of the name Scout?

So cute. [ Chuckles ]

We're getting married.I want a life with you.

Koracick: Are you really sure you want to close this door?

A voicemail from Dr. Altman.

I can't leave with you.

I am marrying Owen.

I'm so sorry, honey.We'll reschedule.

Why are we rescheduling?

Meredith: I've heard that when tidal waves hit,

there are often people watching on shore.

They see the disaster coming, see the horizon disappearing.

They don't really see until it's too late.

There's a lecture we take in residency

that's meant to prepare us for such surprises.

It's called Disaster Ethics --

where future surgeons imagine what they would do

when the unimaginable happens.

[ Gasps ]

But it's imperfect.

Because while it's good to plan for the worst,

you can't really know how you'll handle it

until you're smack dab in the middle of it,

under the wave, trying not to drown.

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[ Cheers and applause ]Thank you!

Yes! Thank you, all!

♪♪

♪♪

I'll see you after the shift change.

You be careful out there.

You be careful inthere.

We are doing everything right.

We are wearing masks.We are wearing gloves.

We are slowing the spread.

I am goodand my family is g--

Oh, please don't tell meyou're experiencing symptoms.

I am absolutely not experiencing any symptoms.

I'm here to work.

I'm cobalt free, Miranda.

I've done my hip rehab. I'm better than ever.

Just tell me where you want me, but don't say back home.

Well,everything's changed.

I mean, specialties no longer matter.

Surgeons check temperatures.

Attendings do scut. It's a madhouse.

On fire.

Well, you better show me around.

Unless you're too busy.

You can send me off with a resident.

You know, I'd love to say hello to DeLuca.

[ Tape rewinds]

DeLuca is no longer a resident.

So, Andrew's inthe on-call room on 3.

He didn't even want to come in today,

but I didn't thinkhe should be alone, so...

Right.

Because you're so concerned about his well-being.

This is unbelievable.

What happened with DeLuca now?

He could barely get up after Richard's surgery.

It's the depression that always comes after the mania.

You knew this happens, b-but you pushed him anyways.

And you let her.

First stop for every employee. A few questions.

And if your temperature's even a hair over 100 degrees,

you go back home. No exceptions.

And once you're cleared -- here, get in here --

you will change

and be fitted with a new N95.

Alright, let's move it.

[ Cellphone rings ]

Winston: How was the picnic?

It turned into a sleepover, actually.

[ Chuckles] On the laundry-room floor?

Yeah, Zola didn't want me to leave,

and I-I was too tired to go back to the hotel room.

So she had a picnic on the kitchen floor,

and I got takeout.

And we talked to each other through the closed door,

and then I made a bed

out of some baby blankets I found in the dryer.

You are such a good aunt.[ Chuckles]

Yeah, my back is killing me,

but it sure beats lying in my hotel-room bed

and watching terrifying statistics on the news

and knowing that's not even half the story.

Yeah. I tried explainingto my grandma

how this is impactingBlack folks more severely.

But all she wants to talk about is how sacrilegious it is

to attend church on a computer.

[ Laughs ]

Kingsley: Dr. Ndugu,we have a dissection.

Uh, I gotta go, babe. Love you.

[ Cellphone beeps ]

Love you? Hm?

Were you eavesdroppingon my call?

Not on purpose.

Sounds like things are going pretty well, though,

if you're at "love you" already.

Well, we're not. I'm not -- We're --

That's just -- That's just,like, a-a thing people say.

By rote. Is it?

How's Vic?

It's really nice of themto clap us in and out every day.

I -- [ Sighs ]I really appreciate that.

Yeah.Yeah. It really is.

It's nice.

[ Tape rewinds]

Jackson: [ Mimickingairplane engine ]

[ Doorbell rings ]Ooh, we have a visitor.

Who is here coming to visit us?

[ Sighs ]

Hey, hey, hey, I'm --

Oh, hey!Oh!

Uh, what is --Oh! No.

What is going on? Hi.

No, no. Um...

I thought --

We were texting and you said to come over with nothing on.

I didn't mean right now.So you -- Okay.

Okay. Um, sorry. I'm sorry. Hello?Hi.

Come on --No, no, you know what? Actually. No.

It's fine. It's okay. It's good.

It's not that...cold out, actually,

so I'm just -- I'm gonna go.Hey. No, you don't needto leave.

No, I do. I have to, okay?

This is...

This was good.

Thiswas a mistake. But this whole thing.

I'm not a...

I'm not a stepmom.

You're not a stepmom.

I'm just -- I'm a person who shows up at penthouses

wearing puffy coats and nothing else, so...

Yeah.

Wow. Okay.

Um, this was too much too soon.

Thank you.

Hi, Harriett, it was really nice --

really nice to meet you after all this time.

Um, okay, bye.

Godspeed.

Next. Man:This happens when I eat nuts,but I didn't eat any nuts.

Uh, I don't think.Those food labels are small.

Here.[ Thermometer beeps ]

Okay, 98.6.

So you are going to want to follow

the purple line to the ER.

I don't want a Chinese doctor.

Oh, okay.

Then you're going to want to follow

this green line to the parking lot,

put your rude self back in your car

and hope you don't go into anaphylactic shock.

I'll follow the purple lineto the ER.

Perfect.

OMG. Dr. Webber.

You look great. Hearts.

Perez.

Next.

[ Indistinct conversations ]

Hey.

Can you please make sure this gets up to the Covid floor

with Enna Ravera?Just leave it.

Uh, hey, Karen, uh, could I get an update

for Ike Donerson?He's a friend of a friend.

Happy to check on him for you, Dr. Hunt.

Hope the kids are doing okay.Oh, thanks.

Um, my mom's hands are full,but she's managing.

Bailey: There's another tent for visitors

'cause none are allowed in the hospital

unless accompanying a young child.

Dr. Webber?Ah, Hunt.

Altman. I-I-Is it still Altman?

Yeah, still Altman.Ah.

I hate to leave,but I-I-I got to get back.

Yeah, and I-I've got another --

Uh. Alright,the less severe symptoms

are sent home to self-quarantine.

The more severe are admitted.

The entire OR heard a recording

of Altman and Koracick having sex...

[ Sighs ]...or was that the cobalt talking?

That was not the cobalt. Ooh!

[ Chuckling ] Stop it.Stop it.

You're bad. Stop it.Stop?

I came back just so I could ask the question.

[ Both laugh ]

Bailey: What is wrong --What?

Bailey: The entire east wingis now a Covid ward.

We've converted whole floorsinto negative pressure rooms.

Severe patients go to this special Covid ICU.

So far we have enough ventilators.

Well, what about PPE for the staff?

We are reusing what we have,

but we need more -- a lot -- Wait.

No, no, no, no.Well, someone's coding here.

Uh, and we have staff inside to deal with it.

Look, hospitals are losingtoo many of their own.

So no one goes throughthose doors without full PPE,

which is in short supply.

Yes, it goes againsteverything we teach,

but there are no emergenciesin a pandemic.

Marvin Lindstrom. 83.

He was fine yesterday, became hypoxic an hour ago.

It's the fourth patient I've lost today,

and they're all dying alone.

Welcome back, Richard.

♪♪

Hey, so, bed 4 needs to go up for CT, okay?

Man: Still has pain in the chest?Woman: Yes.

[ Siren wails ]

Hughes, we're not taking --Vic: No, I know.

I know you're not taking any non-Covid cases,

but you are taking this teenagerwith full thickness burns

from head to toe from a car explosion.

I intubated him on the scene.

He's hypotensive and tachycardicand you are the best

so you are taking him because if you send us away, he dies,

and that makes you a murderer.

Okay. Okay.

Trauma 1.

You were right to bring him here.

Emergent surgeries only,so it's empty most of the time.

Oh, how the mighty have fallen.[ Cellphone dings, vibrates ]

I try not to look at it.Too sad.

Bailey, what the hell is that?

Oh, not that, her.

Bailey: She's my new best friend.

She hates germs as much as I do.

Uh, see that UV light?

It can disinfect a room in minutes.

Hands-free. [ Laughs ]

That's incredible.

I used to go see babies when I needed serotonin.

But they don't let visitors on the OB floor anymore.

So now I come see her.

She's sleek, beautiful, she hates germs.

I love her.Koracick: Uh,do my eyes deceive me?

Captain Cobalt, welcome back.

Ugh.What, too soon?

No, in all seriousness,

I'm so happy to see youon your feet again.

What's with the nine iron?

Oh, well, this wayyou won't get any closer

than, uh, six feet from me.

You don't need a golf club for that, Tom.

Any word on the shipment?

Uh, relax, Bailey.I said it's coming, it's coming.

What, you got N95s and face shields?

Because there's pirates out there and hucksters.

[ Sighs ]

Has Catherine been coming in?

[ Cellphone dings, vibrates ]Sometimes.

Uh, Richard, I've got a trauma.Oh, I'll come.

No, you go read the safety manuals

and memorize the new protocols.

Can't let anythingfall through the cracks.

Or anyone.

Can I help you?

A patient of your brother's would like to see him.

No. Absolutely not.It's Cindy Wright.

The girl he said was being trafficked.

It appears he was right.

S-She's here? Is she okay?

She is here but I would not say she is okay.

No, Bailey,you need to stop doing this.

I-I wouldn't be here if it were anyone else.

But I think he's the only person in the world

she trusts right now.

Oh, my -- [ Sighs ]

[ Sighs ]

[ Sighs ]

You sure about this?

No.

♪♪

Hey.Cindy: I'm so sorry.

I'm sorry I didn't listen, but I was scared.

You do not need to apologizefor anything, okay?

I'm just glad you came back.

Walk me through what happened.How did you get here?

I got sicker, and Opal said I was useless.

She dropped me off on the side of the interstate.

But I remembered the name of this place.

And you.

Chief, do you mindif I go in with her?

I'll throw on some lead.Of course.

Isn't DeLuca...

I mean, people have been saying he --

Get the man a vest.

[ Ringing ]

Levi: Hi. Schmitt.

Marvin Lindstrom just died.

[ Sighs ] No. Please, no.

I tried calling his wife. It rolled to voicemail.

Are you with her?She's here.

Her flip phone died,and we didn't have a charger.

She wanted to say goodbyeto him.

Well, I wanted that, too, Schmitt.

There just wasn't time. It happened so fast.

They were married 62 years.

I held his hand while he died.

So if you can't deliver the news to her,

just find someone who can.

[ Cellphone beeps ][ Sighs ]

Bailey: What do we have?Engine blew whenhe was trying to cool it down.

It started a fire.

He's got extensivefull-thickness burns.

Let's hang some fluids.Woman: On it.

Kids decided to breakquarantine, went out to a party.

A party? Now?

Okay, I gotta call my kids and threaten them.

You want, uh, back up? Want me to page Altman?

No, no, no, we're good.

He's hypotensive.

Arms are all charred.

This IV's blown. I need access.

Okay. IO kit.Right away, Doctor.

Okay, here we go.

Order a trauma panel.

Let's get x-ray in here.

His sats are still dropping.

He's getting harder to bag.

These chest burns are preventinghis lungs from expanding.

[ Sighs ] Escharotomy. Scalpel.Escharotomy. Scalpel.

♪♪

Jackson: Alright, we need to get this kid to an OR

and start debriding, ASAP. Owen: Yeah,I already paged for help.

I need to stay downhere. There's other kidscoming in from this fire.

Alright, copy that.Hey, Hunt, I got your page.

And here's your help.

[ Tape rewinds]

Everything okay?

Yeah.Yeah. Great.

Okay. Let's get ready to move.

Man: Watch your back.

[ Sighs ]

You hear this, uh, kidwas out partying with friends?

I don't know what the hellthese kids are thinking.

Yeah, well, people do stupid things.

[ Knock on door ]Hey.

Hey.

I'm, uh, about to be done here if you need the room.

No, actually,I was looking for you.

I need a favor.

Cool. Consult?

Yeah, kind of.

Um... [ Chuckles ]

Actually, no, not --not like a consult.

Um...

S--

Sex.

What's that?

Sex.

I need sex.

I need a sex favor.

A sexual favor.

[ Clears throat ] I -- W-What?

I need a bridge over the riverof the husband who abandoned me.

A short bridge.

No, like a --like a one-night bridge.

I-I can't tell if you're being serious. Are you --

Look, I don't know how to besingle or feel single again.

I just -- I-I don't know howto cross over the bridge

over into the land of Not a Sad Sack.

Of Not a -- The landof Not a Sad Sack?

Okay.Okay, I-I need to have sex, Jackson.

With someone that I trust to be safe

and -- and just not murder me in my sleep.

And I need a bridge, so I'm asking.

I am truly asking for a favor.

A sexy favor.

Okay, and you -- and you can say no

if you feel used or objectified or whatever,

but I hope that you just feel flattered

because I'm mostly saying that you're a human male

that I kind of trust.

Okay.

Like, okayokay?

I mean, it's not exactlya hardship, Jo.

Oh, my God. Okay. Um...tonight?

Sure. Yeah. Okay.

My -- My place?Okay. Yes!

Thank you. Thank you. You're the best.

Thanks. Okay.

Yo!

Okay. Okay, Jo.

Dora, hi, it's Dr. Grey calling.

I-- I'm okay, thank you for asking.

Dora, I-I'm so sorry to tell you, but your father --

his condition got much worse last night.

So, um, I'm afraid if --

if you do want to come and say goodbye, then --

then you should come soon.

Now.

Okay.

Okay, uh, just call me when you're here,

and I'll make the arrangements.

Okay. I'm -- I'm so -- I'm so sorry.

Okay.

[ Sighs ]

[ Cellphone clicks, buttons clicking ]

[ Text chimes ]

♪♪

♪♪

DeLuca:You're doing great, Cindy.

Almost done, okay?

I'm not Cindy.

My name is Erin Banks.

I'm from Scottsdale, Arizona.

This photographer followed me on Snapchat.

He said that he had a modeling agency

and that I was beautiful.

He wanted to meet, but my parents said no.

My sister said it was sketchy.

But I snuck out to meet him.

That was two years ago.

Two years?So she was fourteen.

Helm...[ Paper tears ]

Take this. Call the police immediately.

Say to them what she just said.

Her family needs to know

their little girl is still alive. Go, go.

[ Sighs ]

Lord, help us.

Erin: My parents tried to warn me,

but I'm so dumb.

I'm so stupid.

Hey, hey, stop that.Okay, listen to me.

None of thisis your fault, okay?

None of it.

It's Opal,and people like her.

It's their fault.

And we got you.

And they're never going tohurt you ever again, okay?

Opal said that if I ran, she'd kill me,

and if I told anyone, she'd findmy sister and take her, too.

♪♪

[ Siren wails ]Soak it in, kids.

Bask in the glory of the PPE mother lode.

It's beautiful.

It came? It actually came!

[ Both laugh ]I forgot what good newsfeels like.

Altman, can I help you?Uh, yeah.

I mean, our nursesare using rubber bands

to hold on their masks.

Can't we help you open these?

Or were you planning to sell them on the black market?

[ Laughs ]

Oh, my God, were you?

No, no, I just -- We -- We need, uh, a system.

Yeah, okay, well,you know, we open these,

we take the masks,and run around the hospital

like Santa Claus on Christmas. That's the system.

Fine, fine, but you two stand guard

in case someone sneaks infrom another hospital.

Are you serious?This stuff is paper gold,Tseng.

So now you'rethe best-educated security guard

this side of the Mississippi.

I got booties!

Booties.

Booties. Good. Booties are good.

Yeah. Okay, but we also need masks.

Yeah, well, we also need...booties.

You ordered masks, right?

And gloves and shields?

Of course I did. I --These are all booties.

By the thousands.Booties, more booties.

They're here, somewhere.

♪ I keep distance to everyone I see ♪

They're here some...

♪ Is it me or you?

♪ But something makin' me feel brand-new ♪

Damn it!

Oh, my God! Koracick!

[ Grunting ]

[ Echoing ] Tom!

[ Crying ]

[ Breathing heavily ]

Jackson: He's still tachycardic.

His body's so stressed from the burns.

God,it's so hot in here.

It has to be.I mean, the burns mean

his bodycan't regulate temperature,

so we got to crank the whole room way up.I know that.

I wasn't saying you didn't, Jo.

Okay,then why even say it?

You said it was hot. I said why.

Okay? I thought we were just stating facts.

[ Doorbell rings ]

Hey. I, uh, I drank some in the elevator

to, like, make it less weird.

Oh! Wine!

Jackson: Yeah, which is now embarrassing

because I realize

that I kind of set this up as a date,

and it's definitely not a date.

I mean, I didn't botherwearing pants,

but it's really sweet.

Whoa! [ Laughing ] Oh, my God,is that your date food?

That is not --Oh, my God, Jackson.

No girl wants to taketheir clothes off

after eating cheese and cured meat.

Thanks for coming overand openly mocking me.

This is -- It's totallyacceptable date food.

Wait.

Is that Kenny G?

[ Gasps ]

Do you only have romantic soft pillow sex?

That's not --It's on, like, a shuffle.

Mm. Mm.

I hate you. Gimme that.

[ Gasps ] Wow.

What now?

No, I just realized I've never dated a rich guy before.

I mean, doctors have money,

but you're, like, collect-art rich.

Wow, that would weird me out.

Well, it's a good thing thatwe're not dating then, isn't it?

Right.

You're just a bridge.

I'm just a bridge.

Are you surethis is what you want?

Mm-hmm.

[ Crying ]

Are you -- Oh, oh, okay.

We c-- We should stop.

No, no, no, I'm okay. Let's keep going.

I don't think -- Jo --I'm okay. I'm okay.

It's okay. We should --[ Crying ] No, no, I really --

I really want to have sex with you.

I really do. Please, let's keep going.

Okay, listen, it's okay.

I think we can --we can try another time.

I'm sorry.

Sit down. I'm sorry.

I'll get you some water.

[ Crying ]

I'm so sorry.

No, you have nothingto be sorry about.

Don't worry about it.

[ Crying ]

They said they wantedto talk to my boss.

Then tell them you'rethe boss next time.

Really?Hello. I'm Dr. Miranda Bailey.

Steve: Uh, uh, Kayden Lee is our son. He was in a fire.

Kayden is only 18. We shouldbe allowed to be in there.

I know this is a scary situation.

I'm a parent. Believe me, I understand your frustration.

But you have my word as chief that all of your children

are receiving the best possible care.

But we just need you to bear with us a little while longer.

Excuse me. Uh, Aaron Morris.Any word on Frankie?

Uh, which one is Frankie?He's immunocompromised. He got a kidney donation

for polycystic kidney disease just two months ago.

He's high risk for Covid.

Then why was he at a party?Schmitt.

Frankie Morris.Yes.

Uh, he must still be en route.

I'll look into it myself.

Tell Kayden he's not alone. Mom and Dad are here.

I cannot do this, Steve. I need to be with him.

He's our baby. [ Crying ]

Bailey: We still haven't heardanything from her family?

Taryn: Her family still live in Arizona,

sister goes to school in Portland.

I'm not sure if missing persons was able to reach them.

Well, find out. I don't want her

waking up alone in an empty ICU!

Go on!

Bailey, if this is too much for you, I can take over.

I betrayed her once.I'm not doing that again.

I looked her in the eye

and told DeLuca to send her home.

With a monster.

Well, you assessed the situationas best you could.

And you were distracted because DeLuca was --

DeLuca -- I don't know whatwe're gonna do with DeLuca.

[ Sighs ] I mean,I-I know what he's feeling.

At least in part.

I know what it feels liketo want help

but be afraid of it at the same time.

Richard Webber all but putthe pills in my mouth.

I had given up, but he never did.

Well, maybe that's what we need to do.

Just not give up.

Tissue grasper.

Frankie...Morris.

His father was notified

he was being brought here from the fire.

Frankie Morris. He's not here yet.

[ Sighs ] What did they do?

Stop for frozen yogurt on the way?

We're not even supposedto be open to trauma.

You think he was turned away?

I'll try to find out.

Uh, uh, Bailey.

Uh, ah.

Um, I was thinking.

I saw some nurses wiping down their masks with bleach.

Now, I know that can't be good,

so what I was wondering was can I --

You went through the whole stackof safety precautions?

I-I-I -- What was I say--

You committed all of those protocols to memory?

Look, this is no longer the hospital that you left.

And if you're going to insist on being here,

then you are going to need to know how we operate now.

So when I tell you to read the safety protocol,

I mean read the damn safety protocol!

Woman: Dr. Madigan to the Covid floor.

Dr. Madigan to the Covid floor.

[ Cellphone rings ]

[ Sighs ]

[ Cellphone clicks ]Hey.

Yeah, so when I said goodbye earlier,

something kinda slipped out.

Hmm. You're gonna need to be more specific.

Oh, you mean when you droppeda "love you" on me

and then jumped off our call?

Right, okay, so you heard.[ Chuckles ]

Yeah, so, um, s-so, yeah,

I wasn't really saying that to you.

That was to my colleague Kingsley.

It's this little initiative we started at my hospital.

It's kind of like a morale boost,

so that the whole staff feels valued.

Oh, yeah,that makes way more sense

than you saying it to mebecause that would be --

Ridiculous, yeah, I know.

And maybe scare you away.

For real, though. Did I freak you out?

Weirdly only a little.

Okay, good.

Because if I lost the one place in the world

where I actually manage to feel good during this mess,

I think I'd be done for.Me, too.

And somehowyou just made it more romantic

than saying "love."

See how I do? Hm.

Talk later?If we're still alive.

[ Cellphone beeps ]

[ Chuckles ]

Excuse me.

We have more signs in this placethan Times Square,

and they're very clear.

The few visitors we have right now

have to be accompanied by a hospital employee.

So either you have been misplaced

or you're not supposed to be here.

My son is in here. Kayden Lee.

I know it's against the rulesfor me to be here,

but he was burned.

He was burned so badlythat he needs surgery.

He just turned 18, and I --and I --

and I know that meansthat he's an adult,

that he drives a carand he's dating someone,

and he does his own laundry

because we wanted to make sureof that before college.

But he still has the same smile

that he had when he was a baby,

and he still says "I love you"before leaving the house,

and he won't shut the door

unless I say "I love you" back.

So he needs me.

He needs to hear my voice

and he'll know that I love him

and that everythingis going to be okay.

I know what it's like to worry about someone

so much you think it'll break you.

Come with me.Oh, thank you.

Thank you.

What is this?

Andrew, the people in this room love you, respect you,

and care about you, and they want you to know that.

[ Scoffs ] This is --

No, no, humor us, please, please.

Carina: A-A-Andrea,the day you were born,

Nonna was babysitting me.

And -- And, uh, when she told meI had a baby brother,

I-I-I ran outside and I splashed around

in the puddles of rain and --

and shouted at the sky because I was so happy.

I, um...

You -- You will always be my baby brother.

And I know you're hurting right now.

I know that.

But you don't have to be.

There is help for you.

All of us want to help you.

DeLuca, even if you hadn'tsaved my life, I'd be here.

I've seen class after classcome through this program.

I've done it enough to know whensomeone has something special.

Don't throw this away.

Meredith: What seems like a weakness

is actually a strength -- if you get help.

Because you care so deeply.

You fight so hard for your patients,

for the people you love.

That's not illness. That's you.

You -- You know I live with obsessive compulsive disorder.

But I take medication.

I get therapy, and I stay on top of it.

And, no, it is not always easy for me.

Look, you're not alone.

You have an illness, but there's no shame in that.

No shame?No.

That's a joke, right?

Why do you think it's a joke?

To say there's no shame?

My whole life, I've had one goal.

One thing that would mean I did okay.

Don't end up like my dad.

I wanted it more than being a surgeon.

One thing.

And I just...

I failed.

No, you're not like him.

I don't care what you think, okay?

I don't care about Bailey's OCD.

I don't care about saving Richard's life.

I would give up every life I have ever saved

if I could just not feel like this.

I'd give up knowing you!

[ Crying ] God!

[ Crying ]

Hey.

Hey.

I know I'm not okay.

I just don't know what to do.

Okay. You listen to the people that know what to do

and let them help you, Andrea.

Th-That's it.

♪ It's there in your eyes

♪ The way this world

♪ Has held us down

All we're asking you to do

is fight as hard for yourselfas you do for everybody else.

♪ We're on our own

♪ At least for now

♪ Just

♪ Surviving, surviving

♪ And nothing else

Okay. Okay.

Okay.

Perez.

It's Grey.

Get someone to cover your shift

so you can walk Dora up so she can say goodbye.

Yep, that's it.

Walk her up so she can say goodbye.

Thank you.[ Cellphone clicks ]

♪ The room in a spin

♪ I hear the howling of the wind ♪

♪ And the pounding of the rain ♪

♪ And I'd give everything to dream again ♪

♪ There must be more than

♪ Surviving, surviving

♪ Surviving, surviving

♪ And nothing else [ Crying ]

♪ Surviving, surviving

♪ Surviving, surviving

♪ Surviving, surviving

♪ And nothing else

I'll clean all this up.

♪ I'd give everything to dream again ♪

♪ Ohhh

I'll clean...that up.

[ Sighs ]

Hey.

Where have you been?

I-I was at home.

If you're not hereand you don't answer your phone,

then no one knows where you are

and nobody knows that you're okay.

I turned the ringer off

and I crashed the second I got home, okay?

The therapist says that if I don't sleep,

the mania can creep back in.

Who died?

Everyone.

Marvin Lindstrom,

Doris Sanchez,

Tom Richardson.

You treated him.

Yeah, the retired choir director.

He -- He loved fishing.

[ Sighs ]

And I'm sorry I wasn't here, Mer.

You're okay?

Yeah, I'm -- I'm okay.

I'm glad you're okay.

Make sure people knowwhere you are.

[ Joanna Jones' "Freedom" plays ]

[ Elevator bell dings ]

So, Dr. Grey and I were able to repair Erin's hernia,

but there was a great deal of inflammation in her abdomen.

So we are giving her a course of IV antibiotics.

You're going to have to say all this again

for my parents when they get here.

I still can't believe any of this.

We -- We looked for her forever.

[ Sniffles ] We looked for her everywhere.

♪ Those winds of change

Well, we can't stress enoughhow much she's been through.

She's going to need yearsof support and therapy.

Of course, whatever she needs.

I'm not sure I'm gonna let her out of my sight ag--

[ Gasps ]

♪ It feels like freedom

Abby?

I'm here, Erin.

I'm here. Oh, my God.

♪ Storm clouds are breakin'

♪ Storm clouds are breakin', oh, yeah ♪

[ Crying ] I'm so sorry.

♪ My worries, they are fadin' ♪

I'm so sorry.[ Crying ]It's not your fault.

It's not your fault.

It's not your fault.

♪ And oh

♪ Oh, freedom

♪ Oh, yeah

♪ Freedom

♪ It feels like freedom

♪ Oh, freedom

♪ And my sisters and brothers

♪ Sisters and brothers

Kayden.

♪ Oh, yeah [ Cries ]

♪ I see 'em comin' together, ooh ♪

♪ Comin' together, ooh

♪ And, oh

♪ I'm ready now to move on ♪

What the hell are you doing?You know that's not allowed.

If Bailey asks, I'll tell her

that I didn't get to that part of the manual.

♪ The sun is comin' up again ♪

Can you give her a couple minutes?

[ Sighs ]

Mama's here.

Can you hear me?

I'm here, and I love you.

I love you, too.

♪ I know

♪ It feels like freedom

Richard.

O-O-Okay, I knowit's just a start, but --

If you haven't gotten through the new protocols,

then I'm not interested.

You are not my mother,and you are not my teacher.

You are my colleagueand you are my friend --

And I am your boss.

I am your boss and it is my job to --

Well, don't tell me what your job is.

I taught you your job.

I taught youyour whole damn job.

And now suddenly you don'twant to let me do mine?

I brought you down here for some good news,

but you're convincedthat I'm --

I'm incompetent and infirm,and you won't even hear it.

Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa. What good news?

Your staff is reusing PPE,

and cleaning themwith bacterial wipes...

Yeah....which deterioratesthe mask.

[ Sighs ]Now they don't have to.

You're welcome.

Oh, my God.

[ Sighs ]

It's genius.

[ Laughs ]

You're genius.I know.

I'm not sure how you forgot.

[ Scoffs ] I did not.

And it's not aboutyour ability, Richard.

It's about your vulnerability.

You know you are high riskfor Covid right now.

Look, you have already givenmore of yourself

to this hospitalthan anyone ever could.

And you have overcome, you have suffered,

and you are why this hospitalis as good as it is today.

Y-You're why I am as goodas I am today.

And you, Richard, have earnedthe right to stay home,

to stay safe, and to rest.

This thing, it's...

[ Sighs ] It's -- It's -- It's only going to get worse.

Every relationshipI've ever had has failed.

Except this one.

And this place.

I will find no peace --

no peace --

if I have to leave it.

[ Voice breaking ] You...

are going to give mea second heart attack,

you know that?

Bailey... [ Sighs ]

...you know I got to tell you

that this place couldn't ask for a better chief.

I'm in awe.

Even thoughI taught you most of it.

You know...

♪♪

[ Monitor beeping ]

Jo: Hey.

Hey.

How's he doing?

Well, he's stable.Okay.

I think his visit from his mom helped.

Right.

I'd like to apologize to you if that'll help.

I mean, I'm not exactly sure what I did

to make you so angry, but -- Angry? I'm --No, I'm not angry.

I -- I was just hot.

Jackson. [ Sighs ]

I am mortified.

All the time, every minutethat I'm around you.

I...cried into your mouth.

I mean, I'm -- I'm pretty surethat I snotted in your mouth.

And I-I -- You were tryingto do me a favor

and I just -- I --It was a favor you weren't ready for.

I really wasn't.It's fine. You --

Look, you've been through hell, okay?

You were doing your best.

You're still doing your best.

And we are, um, friends.

So if you can get over the mortification

and stop treating me like crap, I figure we're all good.

Can we just pretend it never happened?

Done.

Okay. Alright.

I saw Kayden.

It's bad.

[ Voice breaking ] He was so bandaged

that I couldn't see his face.

One second, okay. Hi, um, Mr. Morris.Yes?

Hey, your son Frankie was takento Seattle Presbyterian

because we'rea Covid center --Oh, my God.

No,they are understaffed,

so they turned away his ambulance.

Are you kidding me?I've been in touch with my husband,

who is a first responder.

They're bringing himback here.

He is stable, right?He should be here momentarily.

Oh, my God.

Okay. Thank you.Okay?

Oh, God.[ Sighs ] Okay.

Hey, Mr. Bronson saidhis wife was here,

but I can't find her.

Can you just let her knowthat his O.R.I.F. went fine?

I hope you're doing okay.

Because I'm not.

I hit 100 this morning.

100 times I've had to tell someone

that their loved one has died.

That's 10 times as much as I've had to do

since I started here.

And it's making me wonder how much longer

I can keep doing this because 100 is a...big number.

And I'm afraid of getting to a place where it's not so big.

And I know that we're not together,

but you're still a person that I care about and...

I don't know.

I-I-I thought that you might want to know how I'm doing.

Which is terrible.

And I really hope that you're okay.

I'm fine.

Aaron: No, Conor said Kayden started the fire.

Oh, so it's -- it's his fault?

They shouldn't have even been out there,

but they felt sorry for Frankie.

Wait a minute. You think that this is Frankie's fault?

Posting all the time about how sad he is

he can't be with his friends.

He missed a year of school when he was sick.

Of course he wanted to see his friends.

And, hey, I don't need a lecture

from Mr. Lakehouse here, okay?

Bailey: Okay, everyone,let's just settle.

We all follow each other on Instagram.

Did you really think we weren't gonna see you grilling

every night with half the neighborhood?

And no one in masks!

You know, kids learn by example.

Well, Kayden's example is a selfish moron.

[ People gasp ]Stop, both of you!

Steve, stop!Cut it out right now!Schmitt, call security!

Meredith: Disaster has a tendency to melt away everything else in life.

Selfish son of a bitch!

Steve!

So if you want to know who you'll be in a disaster,

ask yourself...Security!

...who am I now?

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