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ADAM: At first, they thought
there was something
wrong with my eyes.

-OPHTHALMOLOGIST: One or two?
-One.

ADAM: What I would have given for a classic case of glaucoma.

OPHTHALMOLOGIST:
Okay, we're done.

ADAM: 'Cause soon after...

I started hearing the voices.

-[VOICES WHISPERING]
-ADAM'S DARKNESS: Adam.

[INDISTINCT
WHISPERING CONTINUES]

ADAM'S DARKNESS: Adam.

I'm sure they told you
about the cooking.

Call it what you want,

a distraction,
self-medicating, whatever.

But it was the only thing
that could make them shut up.

[VOICES WHISPERING]

[VOICES STOP]

You okay?

ADAM: And don't blame my mom for not figuring it out sooner.

She had a lot goin' on
the past couple of years.

When my dad decided
the whole fatherhood thing

was a buzzkill
for his creativity,

we had to take
the shit sandwich
we'd been served

and make it edible.

So, I cooked.

And cooked.

And the meals
became my contribution

to our underdog story.

Mmm. Sweetheart, it's delicious.

ADAM: Plus,
I got really good at it.

Mmm. It's just
the right amount of cumin.

ADAM: And then Paul moved in.

Mmm, it's interestin'.

It's so good, honey. I love it.

ADAM: Home, as I knew it,
became a thing of the past.

PAUL: Uh...

ADAM:
So I was getting out a lot.

[INDISTINCT CONVERSATION]

[INDISTINCT CHATTER]

ADAM: Getting into
cooking school next fall

was like an oasis

from the dumpster fire
my brain was slowly becoming.

I just needed to keep
my eye on the prize

and bide my time.

How hard could it be to hide
my burgeoning insanity

from the unforgiving ecosystem that is high school?

TODD: Check this out.

We finally got invited
to one of Sarah's parties.

We can't miss this one, man.
You're coming, right?

I'll pick you up tonight?

Who is that?

Sarah? The love of my life?

ADAM: I mean, for a while,
they were just voices.

Yeah, right. Sarah.

TEACHER: Now that
you've added the solute,

please keep monitoring
the pH and the temperature.

So, my parents are on
another trial separation,

whatever.

But I think I can guilt them
into letting me take the car.

What do you say, dude,
for the party?

And I'm telling you, man,
I think tonight's...

ADAM'S DARKNESS: Adam.

TODD: Adam, yo...

ADAM'S DARKNESS: Over here.

-What?
-TODD: Dude, careful,

this shit's like lava.

-I'm sorry.
-What're you doin'?

ADAM'S DARKNESS:
Right here, Adam.

-[ELECTRICITY CRACKLING]
-[ADAM'S DARKNESS CHUCKLING]

Todd.

REBECCA: [ECHOES] Adam.

We need to leave now.

[SCREAMING] Oh, fuck!

Adam!

TEACHER: Everybody, clear away.
Just clear away.

[ADAM BREATHING HEAVILY]

[TODD GROANING]

Don't worry, boss.

We got this.

-TODD: Do something, please!
-[WHISTLING]

That hurts! It hurts!

BODYGUARD: Hey, kid.

-Kid!
-[BREATHING HEAVILY]

You want us to protect
your scrawny ass, or what?

Beat it.

[MEN GRUNTING]

Adam. Go.

-GUARD: Just calm down.
-[GASPING]

Calm down, son. Calm down.

Just calm down, son.

Calm. Just calm down.
It's okay.

[ADAM GROANING]

Just calm down, son. Calm down.

-ADAM: Let go of me!
-GUARD: Just breathe.

Just calm down.

-Relax. Relax.
-[ADAM GASPING]

ADAM: They called it
my first psychotic break.

DOCTOR: Hello, Mister...

ADAM: And that's
when we found out
exactly what I am.

Schizophrenia.

A chronic mental disorder

in which a person
loses touch with reality.

Allowing for visual
and auditory hallucinations.

Paranoia. Delusions.

Hence the chemistry
class extravaganza.

A cornucopia of shit,
basically.

Never goes away, never normal.

The end.

First, they expelled me
from school.

Hey, um, are you still goin'
to Sarah's party next weekend?

Todd's burn was so bad

they had to take skin grafts
from his ass.

Where's your straitjacket,
freak?

ADAM: Now, he hates me.

Hey, come on, guys,
go to class.

BOY: Freak.

ADAM: They all do.

Then Paul hid all the knives.

PAUL: I'm just gonna say this,

but maybe we should send him
some place that knows

how to take care of him.

Professionally.

Just tell me when to start
cracking skulls, kid.

Deep breaths, Adam.

They mean well.

Looks like the neighborhood momsare training for the 10K.

Wanna check it out?

ADAM: Once they showed up,
they never went away.

Like a bunch
of inescapable roommates.

There's Rebecca.

She's sort of Dalai Lama
meets Coachella.

Always zen.

Honestly, I don't mind her
that much.

Then there's The Bodyguard,
which is self-explanatory.

He's temperamental but loyal.

You always gotta watch
your back.

And lastly, there's Joaquin.

He's like the horny best friend from a '90s teen movie

following you around,

saying all
of your unfiltered thoughts.

I know.

It's a lot. [CHUCKLES LIGHTLY]

That's where you come in,

now that my mom is
on this hopeless quest
for a cure.

Just like all
the other delusional moms

we've met along the way.

Sitting in
the same waiting rooms.

Putting their faith
in the same doctors.

Quietly begging
for the same thing.

"Cure my kid."

Abilify. Risperdal.
Clozapine. Stelazine.

Name a drug cocktail
and I've tried it.

Any changes at all?

[GRUNTING]

No.

Yet, somehow,
my mom hasn't given up hope.

That makes one of us. I guess.

So, there you have it.

The whole woeful story.

Take it or leave it.

Or maybe just leave it.

'Cause let's be honest,
the only reason we're here

is because my mom's persistence
is inescapable.

And I'm not trying
to take a giant shit

on your life's work or anything,

but I'm part of an elite clubthey call "treatment-resistant."

Which means,
we're probably not gonna have

our own
"It's not your fault" moment
from Good Will Hunting.

So, why don't you
quietly reject me

from this experimental trial

and save us both
the disappointment?

Cool?

BETH: Okay, sweetheart,
time to go.

I told you, I'm not gonna be
someone's guinea pig.

We don't know what'll happen
to me if I take that stuff.

You might start feelin' better.

You just might start spending
a little more time out of bed.

That's what could happen.

Okay, but what if I lose
all my hair?

What if I go blind?

What if it's poisoned?

Honey, who would want
to poison you?

-[KNOCKS ON DOOR]
-We ready?

BETH: Okay, we'll be right down.

Come on.

I have a really good feeling
about this one.

Don't do us dirty, bro.

Can I just take it later?

Fine.

Get dressed.

We have got to go to Brazil.

This looks like
it could be nice.

-[STUDENTS CHATTERING]
-[SCHOOL BELL RINGING]

But I'm not even Catholic.

Catholics are more
about attendance anyway.

It's nice to finally meet you,
Mr. Petrazelli.

[CHUCKLES] You, too.

[WHISPERS] Take it off.

I'm glad you could all make
the drive out here.

Yeah, well, the only person

that can't reject you
is Jesus, right?

[SISTER CATHERINE CHUCKLES]

I think what he means
to say is we are

very appreciative
that you're considering Adam

in the middle
of the school year.

Our Lord embraces all children,

even those with challenges.

We make it a point...
[CONTINUES INDISTINCTLY]

Come on, kid.

Let me take care of her for ya.

She's gonna be
nothing but trouble.

SISTER CATHERINE: We want
to give them the tools...

Suit yourself.

Oh, wow.

Is something wrong?

ADAM: No.

Just wow. Ah.

Quite the display.

Yes, Saint Agatha's is home
to the best and the brightest.

Not just in the school district,

but in all of the county.

And the buck doesn't stop there.
[SIGHS]

Moral and spiritual integrity

are also
of paramount importance.

As you know, Adam's admission

to sucha distinguished academic culture

would be conditional.

These expectations extend to him

regardless of
his medical issues.

That won't be a problem.
Right? Yeah?

Yeah, right.

I'm ready to excel
on all fronts.

It says here...

that Adam has begun
a recent medical trial

to help treat his condition.

Yes, he... he just started.

And how are you feeling?

Uh... [CLICKS TONGUE]

All fired up.

[SHATTERING]

Well,

we can accept Adam.

On the condition
that he maintain

a three-point-five GPA.

And score above a 90%
on the yearly benchmark exam.

Lastly, we would need
monthly updates regarding

his psychiatric treatment,
of course.

That won't be a problem.

Thank you so much.

You'll, uh,
practice discretion, right?

We had an issue with bullying
at his last school.

SISTER CATHERINE:
Perhaps that would be
for the best.

No need to alarm anyone.

PAUL: Okay, thank you.

Adam.

Adam?

I need to go use the restroom.

Just a second.

Hey,

what's wrong?

Don't you see him judging me?

Who, Paul?

Yeah.

He cares about you.

He just doesn't communicate
like us.

Really?

You call this communicating?

Look,

you're going to feel better

once you start taking
the medication.

[SCOFFS] Subtle topic change...

No, you heard her.

You have gotta get serious
about this trial

and about doing well
here, otherwise...

Otherwise what?

No diploma.

No culinary school in the fall.

This is your last chance, Adam.

Sweetie, we can treat this.

You remember
what the doctor said

that just because
you're a person

who's dealing with this illness
doesn't mean...

I'm not the illness itself.

It's hard not to feel like that

when everyone
treats you like one.

I'll be right back.

[URINATING]

[CHUCKLES]

Moral and spiritual integrity,
my ass.

MAYA: How hard is it
for you to meet me

in the bathroom like
we talked about?

Not outside,
never in the hallway.

In, it's a simple concept.

TED: Okay. Get off my nuts,
all right?

We're in the bathroom now...

-MAYA: Cash.
-TED: Yeah.

MAYA: You're short 40,
this isn't charity work.

TED: Okay, I'll get you
the rest next month.

MAYA: No, you still owe me
30 from last month.

[TOILET FLUSHING]

MAYA: Is he with you?

TED: Nope.

You know this wing
is closed for Mass, right?

Her energy is so strong.

I bet she's a Sagittarius.

Are you mute or something?

Scratch that,
definitely a Scorpio.

Not mute.

Um, just new.

Tomorrow's my first day,

I didn't realize
this wing was closed.

Don't get too excited
down there.

Ew.

You didn't see us, okay?

See who?

Us.

-MAYA: I need it by next week.
-I'm gonna sew you a cape...

-MAYA: Shut up.
-...because you're my hero.

[STUDENTS CHATTERING]

ADAM'S DARKNESS: Adam.

Who are you trying to fool?

[VOICES WHISPERING INDISTINCTLY]

You'll never make it here.

Yeah.

Um, okay,
I'll see you guys later.

Okay, this is it.
Send out the vibe.

Be cool. Be confident.
Less like you, more like me.

Keep this prasiolite
in your pocket.

It'll boost your confidence.

What is that?

It's my lunch.

Who brings their own sushi
to school?

Beautiful, she's setting you up
for playful banter.

Beats the dog food
they serve here.

The food here
isn't that terrible.

For the tuition, they should be
serving farm-to-table.

So, what, are you some kind
of food snob or something?

Tell her you have
a big palate.

I have a big palate.

-[REBECCA HUMMING]
-Okay.

[HUMMING CONTINUES]

-Hey, right here.
-ADAM: Yeah.

-Hi. Yeah.
-Hi.

You're kind of weird.

No offense,
but are you special needs?

-[GRUNTS]
-[SHOUTS] No!

Just a question, man.

Jeez, didn't mean to get you
all triggered.

I mean, uh, no, I'm not.

I have
this chronic headache syndrome.

So it makes me
blurry sometimes.

Have you ever got
a brain scan for that?

No, why would I?

Well, several malignant tumors

mimic the symptoms
of the common headache.

Acoustic Neuroma,
CNS lymphoma, Meningioma.

Just saying.

I'm pretty sure
they're just headaches.
[CHUCKLES]

I'm Maya.

I'm Adam.

I came over here
to intimidate you into silence

but something tells me
you're pretty harmless.

Are you the school's
drug dealer or something?

You're looking at Saint Agatha'sprojected valedictorian.

Show a little respect.

What's with
all the cloak-and-dagger

in the boys' bathroom?

Just a side hustle.

I'm the kind of person

who knows how to get things
done around here for a price.

Homework, essays.

So you're like

the Bernie Madoff
of academic fraud?

[INHALES SHARPLY]
Sure, only I don't get caught.

[CHUCKLES]

Why are you dressed
for a snowstorm?

It's like 80 outside.

I run cold.

Well, you better hope
they don't catch you
out of your uniform.

Hey, guys. Um, would you like
to sign up for prom tickets?

This year's theme
is Starry Night.

A magical night under His stars.

I think she's talking to you.

I choose to not affiliate myself

with patriarchal norms
like prom.

Um... Thank you.

Hmm. Not bad.

Anyway, uh,
if you need anything,

if you know what I mean,
let me know.

Hey, um, are you guys coming?

Well, no, I don't...

They didn't say the timebut I was just gonna head there.

Bad idea, kid.

Sure.

Good luck getting laid
with jaundice and diarrhea.

MAYA: Yeah.

[ALTER EGOS GROANING]

ADAM: Updates?
I made a new friend. Sort of.

That felt like a win for Adam.[CHUCKLES]

Don't get many of those
when your entire waking life

is an Escape Room with no exit.

Meanwhile,
Paul still tiptoes around me

like I'm going to kill him
in his sleep.

As if being mentally ill

automatically makes
you Jeffrey Dahmer.

What are these?

Um, uh, one less utensil
we have to wash.

Just thought
we'd give 'em a try.

I don't know what's weirder,

seeing things
that aren't actually there,

or sitting across
from a grown man

who is suddenly afraid of me.

So, Adam,

did you learn
something new today?

ADAM: But that's his problem.
Not mine.

I learned that Saint Agatha's

was named after a woman
who refused a man's advances

and subsequently had
her breasts hacked off

as penance.

Wow.

I think Paul was referring
to your coursework.

It was fine.

Not much to say.

Just give it time.

It's a good school.

Okay.

ADAM'S DARKNESS: Adam...

Adam.

You're ruining
your mother's life, Adam.

You're not the son she wanted.

This is why your father left.

He knew something
was wrong with you.

And soon, everyone
at your new school

will know the truth.

That's when they'll
finally get rid of you.

Gone.

Nothing.

When that voice comes
to visit me,

it's like
I'm having a nightmare

while I'm awake.

I try to close my eyes

and let my mind go blank.

Like you told me to.

But

that doesn't work.

I'm proud of you.

Thanks.

And I maintain that this drug
won't work, either.

Proud of you, honey.

But I was secretly hoping
you'd prove me wrong.

[DOOR CLOSES]

TEACHER: Good.

Very good, Marlene.

BETH: Adam, this is not good.

We have to fix this.

[SIGHS] I'm not trying
to fail math.

I know that.

Okay, but you can't get
kicked out your second week.

This is your life
we're talking about.

Well, I know,

but you're not in my head
with me.

Okay, let's get back
on the same team.

Find your center.

Take a breath.

[INHALES DEEPLY]

Yeah, okay.

Same team.

Maybe Paul could help,
he's a numbers guy.

[CHUCKLING] No, that's...

That's gonna be
a hard pass from me.

BETH: Well, just think
about it, okay?

Okay.

[ENGINE STARTS]

I'll find a tutor.

[DOOR OPENS, CLOSES]

Hey.

Why did you sign your name
in the note?

I was literally looking at you
when you handed it to me.

Kids around here really
have a way with words, huh?

Don't let the academic
achievements fool you.

Everything you need to knowabout Saint Agatha's is in here.

So this is
like the underbelly?

Yeah, and it needs
to stay that way.

If we're gonna do
business together,

you can't be passing notes
in front of Sister Catherine.

Well, that's the thing.

I don't need you to go
all Madoff on me. [CHUCKLES]

I need a tutor.

Yeah, no. I don't do
that kind of bitch work.

Try the student center.

That kid the other day,
he owed you money, right?

You'd be surprised how many
of these rich assholes

don't keep up
their end of the bargain.

[CHUCKLES]

So, do you want to
keep chasing rich assholes

or do you want to get paid?

My mom is willing to pay
for a tutor

and she really wants me
to do well.

200 a week. Three sessions.

All weekdays, one weekend
out of the month.

Jesus.

-Are you serious?
-You get what you pay for.

-How about 100 a week?
-200.

-150?
-Two or I walk. Yes or no?

After I won the
Newton Young Genius Award

from the National Honor Society
in seventh grade,

I got a full ride scholarship
to Saint Agatha's

where I've been the reigning
student body president

since my freshman year

in addition to being captain
of several clubs.

Yearbook, Science, French,

Model United Nations,
to name a few.

But those are just for fun.

My primary focus is academics

as I've received
an early acceptance
to Duke this fall.

Wow. [HESITATES]

Wow, very impressive, Maya.

The upright Lovers card!

Love, union,
mutual attraction...

MAYA: When I do something,
I do it all the way.

Middle ground or halfway

aren't concepts I subscribe to.

So, I will do everything
in my power

to make sure that your boy
doesn't fall behind.

-She's good.
-She is good.

You don't work with adults,
do you?

Um... [CHUCKLES]

You're very impressive, Maya.

Um, but $200 a week
is too much.

Would you accept 75?

Yeah, yeah, that's fine.

Really?

Great!

Pretty impressive dog
and pony show down there.

Yeah, well, I invented the dog
and pony show.

[BOTH CHUCKLE]

Wow, it's so quiet out here.
You can hear everything.

[ROMANTIC MUSIC PLAYS]

-Uh, totally.
-[MUSIC STOPS]

What's with the cookbooks,
Julia Child?

Oh, um, I'm sort of studying
to be a chef.

Sort of, or are you?

I am.

That's your thing?

That's my thing.

You don't hear that every day.

Yeah.

Wow, The Encyclopedia
of Cinnamonby Alicia Tella.

What she can do with cinnamon
is seriously unreal.

-[CHUCKLES]
-What?

Are you surprised

that I've surpassed
your level of nerdiness?

Please, you're talking
to the captain
of the Robotics club.

Oh, well...

I can literally make
the final dish

-served on the Titanic.
-Oh.

You wanna go there?
All right.

For my eighth grade
science fair,

I built a functioning replica
of the Mars rover

out of soda cans.

Well, for my 16th birthday,

I went to a cheese seminar
in Oregon.

Last summer, I won
the Google Science
Talent Search.

You know who hand-picked
my project?

Neil deGrasse Tyson.

-No.
-Come at me.

[CHUCKLES SOFTLY]

All right, I got nothing.

What? Don't look at me.
Look at her!

You have a problem
with eye contact.

Do you always say exactly
what comes into your mind?

I mean, I could have
a degenerative eye disease
or something.

Yeah, well, it's best to say

exactly what you mean
or nothing at all.

Unrelenting honesty, you know?

That's useful.

This is a new recipe
I'm trying.

Did they teach you this
at your Hogwarts
for Artisan Cheeses?

[CHUCKLES] Just try it.

Are you sure
you can handle the truth?

Guess we'll find out.

JOAQUIN: This is it.

Okay, you're
on the five-yard line.

Wow...

Hook, line, sink. He's in!

What's happening?

Told you not to take the pills.

This is good.

-[JOAQUIN GROANING]
-Like, really good.

[CHUCKLES] Yeah, no, I know.

-It's like...
-[JOAQUIN CONTINUES GROANING]

...earthy.

Maybe smoky, even.

-That's the Fontina cheese.
-JOAQUIN: My goodness.

It's my secret weapon.

JOAQUIN: Can you hear me?

All right, to find
the area of the circle, you...

A equals...

-Pi times R.
-...pi times R

squared.

[CHUCKLES] See, I got this.

Yeah, I'm sure.

[KNOCK ON DOOR]

Hey, guys, it's late.

Maya, how did you get here?
I don't see a car outside.

Yeah, I took the bus.

Okay, well,
let me drive you home.

Oh, you don't have to do that,
I can catch the last bus.

At this hour? Not a chance.

I'll meet you downstairs
in 10.

-MAYA: Yeah, this is it.
-BETH: Okay.

MAYA: Thank you
for driving me.

-MAYA: Um...
-BOTH: I'll see you Monday.

ADAM: Look, I know "cure"

is a dangerous word
amongst my people,

so, I won't say
that's what's happening.

Hey. No.

Don't, don't, don't.

Adam, think about this.
Just don't...

Hey!

[SIGHS] You mother...

[CHUCKLES]

But this is the closest
I've felt to normal

in, well, ever.

No projectile diarrhea

or any other punishing
side effects.

Just some muscle twitching.

No big deal.

It's all good.

I hope it lasts.

[ADAM VOCALIZING]

Eggs Benedict
with well-done bacon...

how you like it.

Good morning to you, too.

The hollandaise sauce
has cayenne pepper.

Let me know what you think.

What?

Nothing.

You seem up lately.

Up?

-Happy.
-[CHUCKLES] Oh.

It's a good look.

Yeah, well, you know...

I feel good.

-Okay, have some. Come on.
-Okay.

Wow.

[MOANS]

Honey, it's so good.

-Yeah? Really?
-Mmm-hmm!

-He's back!
-[LAUGHS]

-Okay.
-Mmm!

I'm back.

Hey, what's with
the heating pad,

is Paul hemorrhoidal?

-Is his prostate flarin' up?
-[COUGHING] God.

No, I'm serious.

-I care about that.
-Stop, you're terrible!

I'm not terrible.
I just care about his spine.

Stop. No, I bought it for you.

I thought it might help
with your muscle spasms.

Mmm. Baby, this is so good.

Wait, did you talk
to my psychiatrist?

Now and then.
That's the agreement, right?

I didn't think
you'd be getting transcripts.

I'm your mom.
My job is to help you.

[BELL TOLLING]

Hi.

Hello?

FATHER PATRICK: In the name
of the Father, the Son,

and the Holy Spirit, amen.

It's your turn.

Sorry, I've never done
this before.

I don't even really believe
in God.

I probably shouldn't say that.

FATHER PATRICK:
Don't overthink it.

There are no rules here.
This is your time.

Do people really
just talk about,

you know, how much
they jerk off and stuff?

Well, everybody in this school

is between the ages
of 13 and 18.

So what do you think?

[CHUCKLING] Well,
that's embarrassing
for everyone.

Long as they don't do it
in here.

John 1:9...

"If we confess our sins,
then He is faithful and just

"and He will purify us
of all unrighteousness."

Really? That's your sales pitch?

It usually works.

Well, what if I just sit here?

Then you can search
your soul for guidance

and I'll enjoy the quiet time.

So, everything I say
stays between us?

And God.

But since you don't believe
in God,

then I guess it's just us.

I see this psychiatrist

and apparently,
she tells my mom everything.

And that bothers you?

Yeah.

I mean, you wouldn't want
your mom reading
your diary, right?

[CHUCKLING]

No.

You're right, that's twisted.

I... I don't think

that I should feel like
I have someone

watching over me all the time.

I feel like I should be able
to live my own life.

Right?

Now, that is
a reasonable request.

Because you should have
the space and autonomy

to become the person
you're going to be.

Right.

Thank you.

You're welcome.

It's nice to be heard
and not just observed.

It's nice to be listened to.

Yeah.

Okay,
I absolve you of your sins

in the name of the Father,
Son, and Holy Spirit. Amen.

Oh, I didn't confess anything.

Just go with it.

I'll admit, I was ready
to come in here guns blazing

over you telling my mom

everything I say
in our sessions.

But then,
something incredible happened.

For the first time in forever,

I woke up the other morning
to complete silence.

No whispers.

No banter.

No visions.

Just pure, beautiful,
unfiltered quiet.

It's amazing
what I've been able to do

with all this extrarenal estate in my brain.

Hey!

Oh, you're pleased
with my services.

-Yeah! What do you think?
-Okay.

It's an A-minus.

-Thank you.
-Mmm.

Hey, don't rest on your laurels,

you're not going to get
another make-up exam
if you shit the bed again.

Right, and that's why I think
we should hang out later.

Hang out?

I mean, study.

MAYA: We could've just studied
in the library.

ADAM: Yeah, well, the library
doesn't serve lobster frittata.

MAYA: You're so weird.

You know, when I first met you,

I thought maybe
he's just awkward
and unsocialized,

but that's not it,
there's something else.

Oh.

Cool. [CHUCKLING] Thanks.

I don't know
what to say to that.

I'm just me.

I'll crack you, Petrazelli.

Hey, let me ask you
a question.

Why does the valedictorian
risk it all for a side hustle?

I like helping people.
Big deal.

[CHUCKLES]

Maybe I'll be the one
to crack you.

Why don't you tell me
about the restaurant
you're taking me to?

[SIGHS] Well, basically,

it's my dream kitchen.

I've studied the menu
for years

and nobody invents like they do.

It's the kind of place
I'd like to work at one day.

Maybe even own, we'll see.

Oh, right, when cheese camp
finally pays off?

Hey, you laugh, but cheese camp
was a spiritual experience.

And the kitchen
is just my place.

When I'm cooking,it's like everything disappears.

And...

I get to be exactly
who I want to be.

I'm in control.

I respect that.

You have to choose
exactly who you wanna be.

Life's too short.

CHEF 1: Got the sirloin.

CHEF 2: Salads are ready.

WAITRESS: Chef wants to see you.

CHEF: Beef tenderloin fillets
are up.

WAITER: Yeah.

WAITRESS: Whole calamari.

CHEF 1:
Is the chocolate sauce ready?

[IMPERCEPTIBLE CONVERSATION]

CHEF 2: That was
two duck breasts for 83.

TODD: All right, guys,

so I got my parents' car
for the night

so whenever you guys are trying
to head out, we can.

I'm trying to head out
as soon...

BOY 1: Hey, yo, check it out.

-Yo, look who it is.
-TODD: Oh, man!

[LAUGHING] I feel like

-such an idiot because...
-What?

I made fun of you
so hard before,

and now, I don't know.

I thought your cheese was betterthan the cheese we had.

-ADAM: Oh, really?
-Look who it is!

-ADAM: That's crazy.
-Hey, straitjacket.

MAYA: That's actually
a good testament to you.

Adam!

BOY 2: Adam!

Hey! Come on, man.

-BOY 3: Yo, get him, dude.
-You know it's us.

TODD: You don't have to mess
with him. Come on, don't...

-BOY 3: Oh, yeah!
-[BOYS EXCLAIMING]

-BOY 2: Got him.
-[BOYS LAUGHING]

BOY 4: Look at his face.

-Hey! You need...
-BOY 3: Loser.

...to apologize, asshole.

-BOY 3: Who're you
callin' an asshole?
-Wow!

Your handler is actually
pretty hot, straitjacket.

-BOY 3: Yes, she is.
-Look, trust me though,

you don't wanna hang out
with this psycho, okay?

-Don't touch me.
-[BOYS EXCLAIMING]

BOY 3: Back up, chick!

-BOY 2: Dude!
-TODD: Both of you, man!

-Hey!
-[BOYS EXCLAIMING]

Hey! Hey! Stop! Stop!
Let it go, all right?

BOY 3: Losers!

What the fuck?

-ADAM: It's okay. It's okay.
-Who was that?

ADAM: I don't know.

-MAYA: Adam, who...
-I don't know.

Hey, I'm sorry about that.

Do you wanna tell me
what that was about?

Um, there's nothing really
to tell.

You know,
I was thinking, isn't it...

Isn't it a little weird

that you left your high school
in the middle of senior year

to go to a Catholic school
outside of your district?

Yeah. Um...

It was a... [SIGHS]

It was a fight.

I got into a fight
with one of those guys.

You were fighting?

Yeah, and it was really bad

so I tried to put it behind me.

That's all you're gonna give me.

MAN: [WHISPERING]
Don't let them take you there.

[IN NORMAL VOICE]
No, I wanna stay here.

I wanna stay right here
on this surface. Mmm-hmm.

[WHISPERING]
Don't let them take you there.

[SHUDDERING]
No. I won't go. I won't go.

Don't let them take you.

It's not good there.

Don't, don't, don't.

Ted, thanks for coming early
for once.

Ted, my office. Now.

Maya, you stay here.

[DOOR OPENS]

[DOOR CLOSES]

How long has this been
going on?

Sister Catherine, I'm...

[VOICE SHAKING]
I'm sorry, I...

How long?

Just a couple months.
Not long.

Seems you and I need to have

a long conversation
about your future.

[INDISTINCT CHATTER]

Okay, everyone, bring your eyes
to the board, please.

The state Benchmark Exam
is in just two weeks.

Here's your essay question.

Recount a time
when you faced failure.

How did it affect you

and what did you learn
from the experience?

As you know, no outlines
or scratch paper is allowed.

But please, start thinking
about what you will write.

[BELL RINGING]

All right, everyone,
see you tomorrow.

[INDISTINCT CHATTER]

Hey.

-ADAM: Hey. Hey.
-Hey. Hey.

Are we still good for tonight?

MAYA: Um... I have, uh, a...

a club thing after school.
Can I just...

I'll text you later, okay?

Sure.

Come hungry.

ADAM: She never showed up.

And now that
my hallucinations are M.I.A,

everything is so quiet.

Too quiet.

FATHER PATRICK:
In the name of the Father,

the Son,
and the Holy Spirit, amen.

ADAM: Yeah, it's me.

Hello, me.

ADAM: Um...

I need some guidance.

[BREATHES DEEPLY]
Spiritual guidance?

Uh, not really.
It's about a girl.

Okay.

Well, we've been hanging out
for a while

and it was going great,

and then she randomly
stopped talking to me.

I believe the kids
call that ghosting.

Yeah, whatever.

I'm just worried
that maybe she found

some things out about me,

like the psychiatrist
I was telling you about,

which I can't imagine
is the sexiest thing
in the world.

What do you think?

-Have you tried praying on it?
-[CHUCKLES]

No. No offense, but I need
some real life advice.

Timothy 1:7...

"God does not give us
the spirit of cowardice,

"but rather the spirit
of power and of love."

Okay, okay, but is there
anything else that you've got?

Listen, I don't know
the details of your life,

but from where I'm sitting,
you seem quite all right.

You're a little squirrely,
maybe.

-Squirrely?
-Squirrely. Yeah.

And the truth is,
the older you get,

the more difficult it is
to stay sane.

And it's gonna take real work.

Or maybe that's what makes you
more mature than others.

And I hear that girls like
that sort of thing.

So you're saying
I should confront her?

I should tell her how I feel?

Your words, not mine.

[CHUCKLES]

Non-committal
till the bitter end. Thank you.

Go in peace.

Excuse me,
I'm lookin' for Maya.

Oh, there's no one here
by that name.

Are you sure about that?

[CHUCKLES] Yeah. I'm sure.

Do you know a Maya Arnaz?

Mmm-mmm.The only Arnaz I know is the guywho works on my roof.

Manuel Arnaz?

Oh!

Everything okay?

Yeah.

Do you know
where I could find him?

MANUEL: I'm comin'.

-Yeah, what can I do for you?
-[TV PLAYING]

Uh, I'm looking for Maya.

Okay.

I'm Adam.

We're supposed to study tonight.Is she home?

No, she doesn't get off work
for another half an hour.

But, uh, you can come in
and wait if you like.

No, that's okay.
But thank you.

No, no, come on in.
Don't be shy.

Okay.

Are you
from one of those clubs?

I can't keep track
of them anymore.

[TV CONTINUES PLAYING]

Sorry about the mess.

Oh, no. Don't be.

I've been on these crutches
for months.

This is Ricky and Danny.

Boys, uh, this is...

-Adam.
-Say hi to Adam.

-Hey, guys.
-BOTH: Hey.

Don't worry about them,
they're shy.

Not like their sister,
but I'm sure you know that.

-[CHUCKLES]
-Right.

Can I get you something
to drink? Something to eat?

Oh, I'm... I'm good.

Sure?

We've got, uh, TV dinners

and TV dinners.

Yeah, no, I'm all good.
Thanks.

BOTH: We want TV dinners.

Oh, they have spoken.
[CHUCKLES]

-[PHONE RINGING]
-Oh, shoot!

ADAM: Hey,
I can put those in for you.

Are you sure?

-Yeah. No, no, no problem.
-You don't mind?

Oh, thanks!
That'd be a great help.

ADAM: Yeah.

Two minutes each, I think.
Check the box.

[PHONE CONTINUES RINGING]

MANUEL: Arnaz Roofing.
Hi, Mrs. Jenkins.

Oh, you're having trouble
with your gutters again?

Yeah, well, look, I'm still
on medical leave. So...

Yeah, I can refer you
to Galloway.

Yeah, he's a great guy.
Mmm-hmm.

Yeah, Bill will take care
of you.

-[DOOR OPENS]
-ADAM: Yeah, yeah,

so the secret is to marinate
the chicken for flavor.

-MANUEL: Oh, okay.
-ADAM: Olive oil,

chopped garlic, salt, pepper...

And then you brush
a little butter
over the top there.

-MANUEL: That's it?
-That's it.

-Hey.
-DANNY: I can eat all of it.

-[MANUEL CHUCKLING]
-Here. You good?

Oh, look at this.

-DANNY: Thanks, Adam.
-RICKY: Thanks, Adam.

-ADAM: Yeah, no problem.
-Come on in.

It's a little spread
your friend whipped up here.

-MAYA: Hey.
-DANNY: Hey.

It's awesome.

[WHISPERING] Hey, um,

what are you doing here?

Oh, we had a study session,
remember?

RICKY: The chicken tastes nice.

Right.

This is amazing.

[CHUCKLING] Yeah? Good.

MANUEL: 'Cause you never know
what's hiding

-in your fridge I guess.
-[ADAM CHUCKLES]

How'd you get so good
in the kitchen?

Oh, I've been cooking
my whole life.

You know, one day, hopefully,
I'll own my own restaurant.

MANUEL: Wow.

You had to go to school
for that?

DANNY: Okay, fine.

Yeah, Dad,
it's culinary art school.

Oh. Yeah. Right, right.

Well, for you to spend
your whole life working,

might as well make it
something you enjoy, right?

I always try to tell Maya that.

You know,
she'll be the first Arnaz
to get her college degree.

Her mother would've been
so proud.

She was a smart lady, too,
you know.

Dad...

[CHUCKLING] What?

Let me brag about my daughter.

Well, one day,
my little girl here,

she's gonna pick me up
in a Porsche.

She's been saying that
since she was 10.

Sorry, excuse me.

Why did you do this?

I didn't mean
to upset you, honestly.

I went to the other house
and the lady just sent me here.

So you just decided
to make yourself at home

by cooking dinner?

I thought it'd be
a nice thing to do.

You did it because it was
a nice thing to do

or because you felt sorry
for us?

I wouldn't... No.
I don't feel sorry for you.

Are you satisfied then?

Good job! You found
our tiny little house,

in a rundown neighborhood

so you could cook us
poor people dinner.

You're a real saint.

I'm sorry.

Sister Catherine caught me.

Side hustle's dead,

and I'm not making enough money
tutoring you.

This restaurant pays me
under the table.

And it's good.

My family depends on me.

You know, the only reason
I'm getting a second chance

is 'cause I'm valedictorian.

You have no idea how hard
I worked to get here.

I can't lose it all now.

No.

You're not gonna lose anything.

You're like a robot.

Immune to human error.

And my schedule is wide open,
you know.

So we can meet whenever.

There are other tutors
out there.

You know that, right?

None like you.

I like knowin' I get to see you
three times a week.

[ADAM CHUCKLES]

A Brief History of Time.

Pale Blue Dot.

And then... Would this be
your favorite movie?

Do I, uh, detect a hint
of smugness in your voice?

[CHUCKLING] Not at all.

I actually
really love this one.

'Cause it's a classic.
You know that, right?

It's a cinematic masterpiece.

[BOTH CHUCKLING]

Thank you for cooking.

Sure.

Don't forget to show your workwhen doing the sine ratio, okay?

Okay.

Otherwise...

Looks good. Great work!

Watch out. I may be coming
for your academic throne.

Never. Um...

But I do have
a surprise for you,

since you've been
killing it lately.

ADAM: Whoa. [CHUCKLES]

You can thank my dad,
he fixed the roof last winter

so he's pretty tight
with the owner.

Oh, man... [CHUCKLES]

Are these the MAC MH-90s?

[LAUGHING] I don't know.

This grill's insane.

I don't know about you,
but I'm pretty hungry.

So, you don't follow a recipe?

Everyone thinks cooking is
about following instructions,

but it's the opposite.

Your palate will tell you
exactly what the dish wants.

So, we need to talk
about benchmark exams
next week.

Right.

Why is everyone so obsessed
with those here?

Are they really hard?

I mean, no,
they're not so much hard

as they are a means
to keep the school funded.

Plus, the top three
are read at graduation

so, you know, St. Agatha kids,

they live for that crap.

[PAN SIZZLING]

MAYA: Um...

I was, um, thinking

that maybe you could write

about what happened
at your old school...

I mean, if you see it
as a failure...

-I see what you're doing.
-What?

[CHUCKLES] You're digging
for more answers.

MAYA: I'm digging
for more answers?

You showed up at my house,
you basically stalked me.

-Yeah.
-Yeah.

Yeah, I guess.

[CHUCKLING] Okay, okay.

Okay. Um...

I guess, in the beginning,

I tried not to see it
as a failure,

but it's hard not to.

After the fight,

people immediately
looked at me differently

like they were afraid of me.

No matter what I did,
I couldn't get them to see me

as they did before.

But I let that happen.

I, I became a bystander
in my own life.

I guess that's what felt like
the real failure.

[ADAM EXHALES DEEPLY]

Hey.

[SIZZLING]

[COUGHS, CLEARS THROAT]

-[COUGHS]
-What?

[CLEARS THROAT] Mm-mm.

It's good. It's very good.

[CONTINUES COUGHING]

What happened
to unrelenting honesty?

I'm... I'm sorry, I...

I know you worked
really hard on that.

What's wrong with it?

No, I think you just added

a little bit too much spice
or something.

[CLEARING THROAT]

It tastes fine to me.

SISTER CATHERINE:
All of your belongings

should be under your desk,

out of sight.

No exceptions.

The only materials
I should see

are the Scantron,
a number two pencil,

your calculator,
and the test booklet.

[ECHOING AND DISTORTING]
Absolutely nothing else

should be visible.

You will have 60 minutes
for the mathematics portion

and 90 minutes
for the essay question.

[IN NORMAL VOICE] Begin.

[PAPERS RUSTLING]

BETH: Are you not that hungry?

ADAM: Oh, no, I, um...

BETH: It's your favorite.

ADAM: Yeah.

BETH: Paul picked it up
from Vince's.

Yeah. Thanks, Paul.

You're welcome.

[CLEARS THROAT] So, actually,
we have something

we need to talk to you about.

And I just want you to know

that everything
is gonna be okay.

Okay?

Did somebody die?

No, nobody's dying.

No, everybody's okay.
Everybody's alive.

I'm pregnant,

and we're gonna have a baby.

Like a human baby?

[CHUCKLING]

Jeez, I hope so.

[CHUCKLES]

[ECHOING AND DISTORTING] Look,
we didn't plan this at all.

You know?
And we're just getting

our heads around this now.

-Adam?
-[RATTLING]

Adam?

[IN NORMAL VOICE] Adam.

You okay, buddy?

Yeah.

Yeah, congratulations.

Okay, all right,
I'm gonna go to the office,

get ready for tomorrow's work.

[KISSES]
If anybody needs me...

Adam. Look at me.

I promise
nothing is going to change.

What are you talking about?

Everything will.

[ECHOING AND DISTORTING]
No, I mean between you and I.

Look, I know
this isn't the right time.

I'm scared, too,
believe me, but it's also...

ADAM: [IN NORMAL VOICE]
Okay, I was reading

the pamphlet you gave me

about the potential
side effects of this drug.

Dehydration, sweating,
trouble urinating,

vision loss, muscle tension,

loss of taste and hearing,

tremors,

oh, and my personal favorite,

anal leakage.

You can go ahead and cross
most of those off the list.

I can't cook anymore, because
my taste comes and goes.

I can barely piss straight

because my hand
has a mind of its own.

But I swear,

if anything drips
out of my ass,

please just kill me.

Morning.

-Have a good day.
-You, too.

I love you.

Have a good day, hon.

Have a good day, honey.

[THUNDER RUMBLING]

[ADAM SIGHS]

Someone should really keep
an eye on that kid.

[REBECCA CHANTING OM]

Good morning.

Morning, boss.

Yeah, yeah, we missed you.

[GRUNTS]

[INDISTINCT CHATTERING]

Um, okay, we're starting
at Chapter 5, I think.

-Five.
-It's page 403.

-I'm on it.
-403, do you have it?

-Yeah.
-Okay.

Um... All right.

MAYA: [CLEARS THROAT] "Angles
in X-Y coordinate system."

"Angles formed by rotating ray

"or a half-line
about its end point,

"the initial side
of the angle,

"starting position
of the ray."

Final position
of the ray rotation,
did you get that?

[COUGHING]

[SHARPENING]

ADAM'S DARKNESS: Adam.

[SOUNDS AMPLIFYING,
DISTORTING]

Adam.

You thought you
could get rid of me.

You feel that?

I'm still here.

You don't know that,
you just know.

ADAM'S DARKNESS:
Don't fight it, Adam.

Adam.

Adam.

Adam!

You need to go. Now.

Adam, what do you think?

Um... Sorry. I'm...
I'm not feeling so good.

Hey. hey, Adam.
hey, hey, what's wrong?

What'd I say, huh?

Get out of here!

I gotta go. I gotta go.
They're gonna take me,

-and I gotta go, okay?
-Wait.

Take you where?
What are you...

I can't keep her safe, too.

-Adam.
-Stop!

Just leave me alone,
and don't follow me.

[DOOR OPENS, CLOSES]

[MALE VOICE WHISPERING] Adam.

[INDISTINCT WHISPERING]

FEMALE VOICE:
Over here.

[BABY CRY ECHOING]

[INDISTINCT WHISPERING
CONTINUES]

MALE VOICE: Adam.

[INDISTINCT WHISPERING
CONTINUES]

[FEMALE VOICE WHISPERING]
She never wanted you.

She doesn't love you.

MALE VOICE:
He hates you.

ADAM'S DARKNESS: This
is the kid she always wanted.

The one that'll make up
for her biggest mistake.

You.

Everything all right?

Were you watching me?

No.

I was just heading to bed.

Everything okay?

Sister Catherine called.

She expressed some concerns
about your behavior this week.

Having a kid with my mom
doesn't make you my dad.

Adam, I'm not going anywhere.

Yeah, clearly.

ADAM: When I was a freshman,

there was this girl at
our school who was a junior,

and she was diagnosed
with terminal bone cancer.

She was part of
the Make-A-Wish Foundation,

so before she died,

they had some boy band
come to our school

and have lunch with her
as part of her wish.

It was a really
touching thing.

It was all people could
talk about for weeks.

But it got me thinking.

When you're a cancer kid,

people can't wait
to flock to your aid,

and are so eager to
grant any wish you have
before you die.

But when you have
schizophrenia,

people can't wait to make you
someone else's problem.

That's why
we end up on the streets,

screaming at nothing,

waiting to die.

No one wants
to grant our wishes.

Hey.

I'm sorry about the other day.

I just wasn't feeling good.

-I'm sorry.
-[SIGHS]

Are you sure
that it's just headaches?

I'm worried about you.

Yeah, I'm fine.

Let me make it up to you.

Please.

[INDISTINCT CHATTERING]

GIRL: She won't let me
go out...

MAYA: No way.

[ADAM CHUCKLES]

Way.

[MAYA LAUGHING]

You didn't.

ADAM: I did.

MAYA: You know, usually,
this stuff doesn't impress me,

but, um,
this is... pretty smooth.

[MOVIE PLAYING]

JOSIE THROUGH SPEAKERS:
Thank you.

Um, may I have five minutes
on the clock, please?

[APPLAUSE IN MOVIE]

JOAQUIN: Okay, kid.

We both know
this part of the movie

is the ultimate panty-dropper.

Better make your move.

Hey, just take your time.

No rush.

KIRSTEN THROUGH SPEAKERS:
That is so wrong.

[SENTIMENTAL MUSIC PLAYING
THROUGH SPEAKERS]

[INHALES SHARPLY]

ADAM'S DARKNESS: Adam... Adam.

Hey, over here.

Adam.

[INDISTINCT WHISPERING]

ADAM'S DARKNESS: Adam.

That's not good.

[INDISTINCT WHISPERING
CONTINUES]

[FIRE CRACKLES]

[GASPS]

[IN SING-SONG VOICE] Finally!

No way!
What is going on with you?

Nothing, I'm fine.

No, you're not fine.

You don't even look like

you're on this planet
half the time.

Adam, look, you can trust her.

No, you're right.
There is something.

[SOFTLY] Yeah.

Yeah, just show her
who you are.

Tell her about us.

Don't do that.

There's been
a lot going on at home.

Lately.

I've been feeling
really alone.

I'm sorry.

But I don't feel that way
when I'm with you.

Oh, yeah.

So...

I wanted...

I wanna know if you'd wanna go
to prom with me?

[EXHALES]

I know it's an extension of
the patriarchy and everything,

but would you?

Only if you tell people
that I asked you.

-Deal.
-Deal.

Aw.

[MUSIC PLAYING
THROUGH SPEAKERS]

♪ Well, it's been
building up inside of me

♪ For, oh
I don't know how long

♪ I don't know why

♪ But I keep thinking

♪ Something's bound to go wrong

♪ But she looks in my eyes

♪ And makes me realize

ADAM: My mom
told me something once

when she first
started dating again.

You lose your secrets when you let people get too close.

It can be painful,

to let someone find you

in all the dark
and twisty places inside.

But you have to hope they do,

because that's the beginning
of everything.

But letting Maya love me
the way that I am

would be like letting her
catch a disease.

She doesn't deserve to
be loved by someone

who can't see the world
the way it is.

Right?

And I'd really like to
keep my secrets

while I have them.

You wanna explain these?

What do you want me to say?

I want you to say that
you haven't stopped

taking your medication
behind my back.

I can't say that.

Do you have any idea

how much we have on the line
with this school?

With your medical expenses?

What about me?

What about what I need?

What are you talking about?
It's all about you.

It's all about you.
All the time.

All of this is for you.

The books, and the articles,

and the sitting up all night
reading forum after forum.

Do you think you're
the only one in this house
going through this?

So that's what they tell you
in those parenting books?

Oh, my God!

You know, you are not
the only person in this house

who is affected by this.

Do you think that
this is the life

that I wanted for you?

For myself?

Okay.

I'm sorry for getting
in the way of you,

and Paul, and the new baby,

and your perfect new life

that doesn't include a crazy
stepson who hears voices.

Stop. Adam.

[SIGHS] Adam. Stop.

Listen to me.

I know that
you must be scared,

and that it's lonely
in your head,

and I wish, I wish
I could be in there with you,

I wish I could ease
that burden, but I can't.

I'm trying.
I am really trying.

And I would do anything
for you.

Just tell me what to do.
Tell me.

Tell me how to help you.

There's nothing you can do.

The pills make me feel like
I wanna die.

I can't see. I can't think.
And I can't cook.

And what's the point
if I can't cook?

Why didn't you share that
with me?

We're in this together.
We're...

We're supposed to be
on the same team, remember?

We're not on the same team.

And we haven't been
since Paul moved in.

BETH: I can't do that to him.

PAUL: Look, I understand that.

Just listen to me.
We have to do something.

BETH: I know that, Paul.

PAUL: It's only a matter
of time before you...

BETH: I'm doing
everything I can.

PAUL: Do you see him?
Do you see what's going on?

BETH: Of course, I see him.
I see everything.

I'm his mother.

PAUL: I'm trying
to avert the disaster.

We ain't taking no damn pills,
you hear me?

JOAQUIN: You didn't
need those pills.

BODYGUARD:
We gotta get him outta here.

Screw the pills!

-REBECCA: Okay.
-You're awesome,

and we're here for you.
And we believe in you.

BODYGUARD: We ain't gonna
let 'em take us out of ya.

This is our house! Ours!

JOAQUIN: This bed
is really comfy.

[VOICES STOP]

[KEYBOARD CLACKING]

Sorry. You startled me.

ADAM'S DARKNESS: You're trash.

What?

Could you throw away
your trash?

Sure.

-[GRUNTING]
-[SHATTERING]

[GRUNTING CONTINUES]

You know...

I was really starting
to look forward

to our Good Will Hunting
moment.

TEACHER: When you're finished
with the questions,

please pass them forward

and open up your textbooks
to Chapter 18.

[CHUCKLES]

[BEEPS]

SISTER CATHERINE THROUGH PA:
Adam Petrazelli,

please report to
the Principal's office.

Adam, please, take a seat.

-ADAM: Mom, what's going on?
-It's okay.

It has been brought
to my attention

that you are no longer taking
your medication.

Yeah, okay, it...
It made me worse.

As I said from day one,

your admission to St. Agatha's
is conditional.

We can't take any risks.

What does that mean? Risks?

They're afraid you're gonna
hurt other students, Adam.

Are you kicking me out?

-Suspending you.
-BETH: Temporarily.

Just... Just until
we figure things out.

You may finish off the day
to avoid causing a scene.

It was you.

I saw you writing
that email to her.

I know you wanna send me away.

Adam, you need to calm down.

No one wants to send you away.

Yes, he does. And he's a liar.

This was my last chance.

I probably
won't get another one.

Remember, Mom?

[DOOR SLAMS]

[BREATHING HEAVILY]

[INDISTINCT WHISPERING]

[INDISTINCT WHISPERING
CONTINUES]

MAYA: Are you surprised?

What? Why?

It's... actually nice

to have some competition
around here for once.

-What are you talking about?
-[CHUCKLES] Come on. Let's go.

[INDISTINCT CHATTERING]

[GIRL EXCLAIMS]

I'm proud of you, Petrazelli.

Aren't you supposed
to be in class?

I didn't feel like it.

You wanna hop in the box
and talk about it?

What I'm dealing with
can't be fixed, Father.

Try me.

What is even
the purpose of all this?

Confession?

You think making people
feel like shit

somehow brings out
the best in them?

Cool philosophy.

"Whoever conceals their sins
does not prosper,

"but the one that confesses
and renounces them..."

That's great.

Another fortune cookie answer.

You have a list
that you alternate?

Maybe.

Being ambiguous
doesn't make you profound.

It makes you full of shit.

FATHER PATRICK:
Here's something...

ADAM'S DARKNESS:
Here's something

profound for you...

Why don't you kill yourself?

What?

I said, why don't you
excuse yourself?

Take a day off.
Leave yourself alone.

That's not what you said.

This is bullshit.

Hey, don't talk to your mother
like that!

Thanks for the parenting
advice, Paul.

What makes you think you could
go to the prom tonight?

-You're suspended.
-This is insane!

Hey, let's just
sit down, okay?

[INDISTINCT WHISPERING]

ADAM'S DARKNESS:
You're trapped.

I'm trapped.
This is how it starts.

ADAM'S DARKNESS:
This is how they do it.

This is how you do it.

First, it's the pills.

Then the pills make me
feel like shit,

so, I come off of them.

And that's when Paul
convinces you

-to send me somewhere.
-[BETH SHUSHING]

Because nothing else works!

Nothing else works!

ADAM'S DARKNESS: Because
nothing was designed to work.

Nothing was designed to work.
That was the plan!

And I was right.

-PAUL: That wasn't the plan.
-I was right the whole time.

That wasn't the plan, Adam.

Shut up, Paul!

-You poisoned my brain.
-BETH: Hey.

ADAM: You know
he did that, Mom.

-Can you see that?
-Adam.

-Mom. Can you see that?
-Come on. Come on.

BETH: Hey, hey, hey. Hey.
Listen to me.

Listen to my voice.

My voice is the only one
that matters right now, okay?

And I am telling you that
you are my entire world, okay?

Adam?

Come on, kid.

Don't you see it's all
a big bait and switch?

Adam?

You better get out of here
before it's too late.

BETH: Adam.

I don't believe you.

[BREATHING HEAVILY]

ADAM'S DARKNESS:
Oh, Adam, Adam, Adam...

What are you doing?

No. Please...

ADAM'S DARKNESS: You're really
gonna go to prom unprepared?

[INDISTINCT WHISPERING]

[MUFFLED PROM MUSIC PLAYING]

[INDISTINCT WHISPERING
CONTINUES]

ADAM'S DARKNESS: That's it.

How else will you
survive the night?

Take all the pills.

Do it. Do it.

GIRL: No, I will.
I will, I promise.

GUY: That's not what I saw.

[MUFFLED PROM MUSIC CONTINUES]

GUY 2: Good, girl.

GIRL 2: Thank you.
You like it? Oh, yeah.

What are you staring at?

I just thought you didn't
really care about dances.

Well, I don't do anything
halfway, so...

Clearly.

I'll, um, try not to pierce
your nipple.

Why are you sweating?
Did you run here?

[CHUCKLES]

-MAYA: Yeah? No.
-No, no, no.

No, it's just really hot out.
Do you want this?

-Yeah.
-Okay...

You sure you're okay?

Yeah. You wanna go inside?

-MAYA: Okay.
-ADAM: Come on.

[LIGHTS BUZZING, FLASHING]

Oh, wow. That was bright.

-Wanna go?
-Yeah.

[DANCE MUSIC PLAYING]

[INDISTINCT ECHOING]

[INDISTINCT DISTORTION]

Yeah. Do you want some punch?

Sure.

-[EXCLAIMS] Hey!
-Sorry.

[BREATHING HEAVILY]

ADAM'S DARKNESS:
Excuse me, Mr. Petrazelli...

...what part of suspended
do you not understand?

Young man, I'm talking to you.

Where are you going?

-Mr. Petrazelli!
-ADAM'S DARKNESS: Adam...

Adam...

Hey. Hey, let's go dance.
Come on.

Oh, okay.

[UPBEAT MUSIC PLAYING]

Adam?

-MAYA: Adam?
-Excuse me.

You can't just walk away
from me.

You have to leave this prom
right now.

MAYA: Hey, hey, wait.
What's going on?

SISTER CATHERINE: We discussed
this, Mr. Petrazelli.

[DISTORTED] You don't
have permission to be here.

You will leave the prom
right now.

You are suspended.

-[EXCLAIMS]
-[STUDENTS GASPING]

Oh, my God.
Oh, my God, Adam!

Adam!

Oh, my God, I'm so sorry.

Adam!

[PANTING]

[GASPS]

[BREATHING HEAVILY]

Stay with us, buddy.
Stay with...

Adam, look at me. Adam!
Adam! Look at me quick.

-Eyes open.
-[ADAM GASPING]

PARAMEDIC 1:
Pupils are nine point four.

Adam, you're okay.
You're safe. You're safe.

-Adam, Adam, Adam.
-[STRUGGLING]

Slow down. Slow down.
You're all right. You're okay.

PARAMEDIC 2: Breathe, breathe.

[BREATHING SHAKILY]

Hey.

What's going on? Where's Maya?

Is she okay?

She's, uh...
She's worried about you.

[SNIFFLES]

We all are.

Does she know?

I told her, honey.

No, no, no.

No.

No.

What is this?

-PAUL: Adam.
-What's going on?

PAUL: That's just
for your own safety.

-Shut up, Paul. Shut up.
-BETH: Hey. [SHUSHES]

-It's just temporary.
-Where am I?

Listen, you were upset,

and we didn't want you
to hurt yourself.

[BREATHING HEAVILY]

Okay, when can I go home?

You have to get better first.

You wanted to put me here,

in a place
where they could fix me.

"Professionally."

It's not how I meant it, Adam.

[KNOCKING]

Hi.

Can you please make her leave?

Adam...

Oh, I'm ready, boss.
All you gotta do

-is say the word.
-[SHOUTS] Stop!

Don't... Don't move.

Adam, listen to me.
She can accept all of you.

Okay, please,
everyone be quiet.

This is it.

This is what it means
to let someone find you

in all the dark
and twisty places inside.

Shut up!

No, this can be the beginning
of everything, remember?

Shut up! Shut up!

Are you happy?

This is who I am.

It's my big secret, okay?

No, this isn't who you are.

Yes, it is!

I am crazy, and I'm dangerous.

And I'm...

I need you to leave.

No.

[SHOUTING] Do I look like
I need a fucking tutor?

Find some other way
to keep the lights on!

Make her leave.

-Please. Everyone, get out!
-BETH: Okay.

Don't touch me.

This is Seroquel?

Yeah, I tried that one.

♪ You probably think
you're going to Heaven

♪ Even though
you put me through hell

♪ You're preachy like
you're some kind of reverend

♪ I wish you'd turn
the light on yourself

♪ You thought
that if you wrecked my car

♪ Those flames
would mend your broken heart

♪ I know you say
it's all my fault

♪ But, darling
if these walls could talk

♪ They'd say that you should
put down your weapons

♪ Before you go
and start up a war

♪ There's no point
in getting upset here

♪ You can't tell
what you're fighting for

♪ I know you're telling
all your friends

♪ Those things
I wish I never said

♪ I know you won't
pick up my calls

♪ But, darling
if these walls could talk ♪

FATHER PATRICK: Good morning.

You see him, right?

Yeah, he's real.

Group session in four minutes.

Okay.

What are you doing here?

FATHER PATRICK: I'm on my way
to the graduation ceremony.

I just wanted to see
how you were doing.

ADAM: I've had better days.

Are you even allowed
to be fraternizing

with someone like me?

You know
I got expelled, right?

FATHER PATRICK: The only
agenda I serve is God's.

ADAM: Could you tell him
to maybe reconsider his agenda,

'cause it feels like
I'm getting
the short end of the stick.

I'll put in a call.

You mind if I sit?

Go ahead.

Well, joking aside,
I want to talk to you

about the question
you asked me the other day.

About the point of confession.

Okay.

Sometimes,
kids come to see me,

and they wanna know
what it all means.

And I usually quote the Bible,

allowing them
to attach their own meaning.

Trust me. I know.

But sometimes,
a kid needs more.

Actually telling somebody
our sins

is just an opportunity
to admit that we are flawed.

You don't think
we know we're flawed?

FATHER PATRICK:
Everyone's flawed.

But admitting our flaws,

that gives us the opportunity
and the strength to face them.

And that's why we confess.

I'm sorry
I didn't tell you all this

before everything happened.

But I had no idea
what you were up against.

Sure.

You want to pray with me
before I go?

What if I still don't believe
in God?

Then I will pray.

But you need to take the time
to think about

what kind of person
you wanna be.

At the very least, you need
to believe in yourself.

Dear Father in heaven,

please watch over Adam
on his road to recovery.

[KNOCKING]

Hi.

I'm gonna wait downstairs.

BETH: Okay.

They said you haven't been
eating much,

so I thought you might want
something fresh.

They made me take
all the skewers out.

It looked a lot better
in the store.

No, thanks.

How are you doing?

How do I look?

[BETH SIGHS]

This is temporary.

No diploma, no culinary school.

It's over.

This is my life now.

That's not true.

You used to tell me
to see myself

as a person dealing
with an illness,

but not become
the illness itself.

But look at me.

I am looking at you,
and I see my son.

Who I love more than anything.

Come on. You wanna go get
something to eat downstairs?

No, I'm okay, but thank you.

See you later.

ADAM: Okay.

PAUL: Dear Sister Catherine,

I met Adam a little
over a year ago.

I don't have much
experience with kids,

but knowing Adam has taught me that being a parent

means becoming
what your children need most.

Every step of the treatment
has been reported.

Not because we were
required to do so,

but because it is in
Adam's best interest

to have the adults in his life

be as informed as possible.

Your threat to
expel him is abusive,

and we will not tolerate it.

Right now, my son needs me

to protect him from
narrow-minded people
motivated by fear.

I have faith that you will
make a decision

that reflects the moral
and spiritual integrity

-St. Agatha's is built upon.
-ADAM: Paul!

Paul. Paul.

I'm sorry.

It's okay.

It's okay.

I know you didn't sign up
for this.

I'm not going anywhere.

I'm not trying
to replace your dad.

No, I know.

But he was an asshole anyway.

I need you
to take me somewhere.

What? Where?

Look, there is no cure,

and maybe one day,
there will be,

but right now, I gotta work
this out on my own terms.

And I can't do that here.

Please, Mom, be with me

on the same team.

Okay.

Okay.

-Okay.
-Okay.

All right.
I'll go sign him out.

BETH: Okay.

Okay.

Thank you.

GIRL: That was when
time stood still.

A moment that came to define

that chapter
of my adolescence.

And as I stood there
with my feet touching
the cold waters of Lake Owano,

I knew I could never
go back again.

Thank you.

[APPLAUSE]

SISTER CATHERINE: Let's have
another round of applause

for our
Benchmark Exam finalists.

[APPLAUSE]

Without further ado,
may I present

St. Agatha's graduating class
of 2020.

[APPLAUSE CONTINUES]

SISTER CATHERINE:
Jordan Adler.

[CHEERING]

Congratulations.

Lisa Alliser.

[CHEERING CONTINUES]

Monica Atkinson.

Oh, my God.

What are you doing?

I'm graduating.

Thank you.

Um...

Um, I'm sorry
but there's one other essay

that's been scheduled

to be read.

Okay, that was a bold move.

[INDISTINCT WHISPERING]

ADAM'S DARKNESS: Adam.

Adam...

[ECHOING AND DISTORTION]

You're not telling them
anything, no.

ADAM: Okay.

[WHISPERING AND DISTORTION]

ADAM'S DARKNESS: Adam...

No.

Hi. I'm Adam.

-I'm here because...
-ADAM'S DARKNESS: Don't.

-[OVERLAPPING DISTORTION]
-...I need my diploma.

Without it...

ADAM'S DARKNESS: Please, Adam.

...I can't be the person
I wanna be.

ADAM'S DARKNESS: Shut up.

[DISTORTION CONTINUES]

And that's because
I have schizophrenia.

ADAM'S DARKNESS:
You're ruining
your mother's life, Adam.

It's a chemical disorder...

ADAM'S DARKNESS:
This is why your father left.

...in the brain.

And it makes you hear voices,

and see things
that aren't there.

It sucks.

ADAM'S DARKNESS:
You're terrified.

You could just Google it.

ADAM'S DARKNESS: You will
always be terrified of me.

I have people in my life

who have been trying
to help me.

People who've seen me
as more than an illness.

But I pushed them away.

I tried chasing this idea
of being normal.

Whatever that means.

Don't wanna end up
on the bathroom walls, right?

ADAM'S DARKNESS:
You are who you are...

[DISTORTING FADES]

The Benchmark Exam asked us

to write about
our greatest failure.

And I wish that I could
read my essay right now,

but it was based on a lie.

My greatest failure,
hands down,

has been hiding
from the ones I love.

For believing
the voice in my head

when it tells me...

I'm ruining their lives.

For believing it
when it tells me

I'm too defective
to be loved by anyone.

You made me feel
so many things.

And I wasn't ready
to give that up.

I'm sorry you had to expel me

because I didn't fit
your picture of normalcy.

But this is who I am.

This is who I am.

I'm Adam. I have an illness,

but I'm not
the illness itself.

[SIGHS]

Okay.

Thank you.

[CHEERING]

[INDISTINCT MURMURING]

Adam.

Hey, I'm... I'm sorry
about the hospital.

No, I don't care
about the hospital.

-I was just in a bad place.
-I know...

And you have every right
to hate me.

-I don't hate you, okay?
-ADAM: And if you don't wanna

-talk to me...
-Stop!

Is that why
you didn't tell me?

Because you thought
that I was gonna leave?

Hey.

Right here.

-No. I'm just...
-Then I don't...

I'm always gonna see things,

and hear things
that I shouldn't.

And the drugs aren't always
gonna work.

And I'm sorry, but I can't
put you through that.

I'm sorry.

Hey.

Hey, hey.

What makes you think you get
to make that decision
on your own?

I wasn't mad
about the hospital.

Or that you lied to me.

ADAM: Then why?

You didn't let me choose.

You didn't give me
a chance to stay.

Would you have?

I love you.

Hey, there's never been a more
explicit cue to kiss the girl.

Okay.

[REBECCA AND JOAQUIN
EXCLAIMING]

JOAQUIN: Yes, yes, yes!

ADAM: Am I gonna sit here
and tell you

that things like
love and honesty
can cure crazy?

No.

But they sure can help.

For example,

my graduation speech earned
St. Agatha's enough shitty PR

for them to give me
my diploma.

That felt like a win
for honesty.

And as for love,

my mom was right.

BETH: Tiny little fingers.

ADAM: You have to
let people discover

all your dark
and twisty places inside.

She looks like you
a little bit.

These big cheeks.

-See these cheeks...
-[INDISTINCT WHISPERING]

REBECCA: [WHISPERING]
Adam, come over here.

[WHISPERING STOPS]

ADAM: Because those
are the people

that can show you what's real

when you can't
see that for yourself.

It can be the beginning
of everything.

If you let it.

-Yeah. All right, no. Stop.
-BETH: You do.