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Previously on The Affair...
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Mr. Solloway, you, uh, got a second?
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- What's up?
- I was, um, wondering if you could
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take a look at this other
thing I've been working on.
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- You reapplying to Princeton?
- Maybe. I don't... I don't know.
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[ASSISTANT] Mr. Solloway,
Principal Wilson's on the phone
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with the president of the
board. You shouldn't...
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- Are you firing me?
- What-what's going on?
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- Why are you here?
- I thought you should read this.
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Don't tell him I gave it to you.
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I owe you an apology.
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No, no, I-I barged in.
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- So, you still my boss?
- I'm on probation.
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Next week, I have to
supplicate to the board.
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Thank you for this.
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I'll read it over and
figure out what to do.
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[NOAH] I'm happy to brainstorm with you.
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[ANTON] Forgot my history book.
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I got my quiz tomorrow, and...
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- Mom?
- We were just, um,
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discussing your Princeton essay.
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- You showed her?
- Princeton? Again?
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- [JANELLE] He wants to go to the school.
- [CARL] We made a decision.
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[JANELLE] Just read the damn thing!
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Nellie, let's just admit
what this is actually about.
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You were never gonna let
him stay here for school.
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[NAN] No one drives all the
way across the country
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just to see about a surfboard.
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[COLE] Truth is I'm in
love with somebody else.
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I'm gonna tell her how I
feel. So I'm going home.
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I'm so glad that you guys moved in here.
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The last people had a
very stagnant energy.
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But you... your being is, like...
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it's a little... [CLICKS TONGUE]
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It is?
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Yeah, I don't know. I-I
guess we'll find out.
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[VIK] I'm going to die.
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And I haven't really
made a single choice
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for myself.
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[SIERRA] I am going to Joshua Tree.
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We go out there a couple times
a year to do a moon circle.
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- Do you want to come?
- I totally, totally don't.
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- Oh, okay.
- Okay?
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Cool.
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I have pancreatic cancer.
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I am going to die.
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- What do you want me to do?
- I told you,
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I want to have a baby.
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If you really want to
do something for me,
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you can do that.
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♪ I was screaming into the canyon ♪
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♪ At the moment of my death ♪
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♪ The echo I created ♪
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♪ Outlasted my last breath ♪
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♪ My voice it made an avalanche ♪
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♪ And buried a man I never knew ♪
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♪ And when he died, his widowed bride ♪
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♪ Met your daddy and they made you ♪
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♪ I have only one thing to do ♪
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♪ And that's be the wave
that I am, and then ♪
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♪ Sink back into the ocean ♪
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♪ I have only one thing to do ♪
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♪ And that's be the wave
that I am, and then ♪
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♪ Sink back into the ocean ♪
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♪ I have only one thing to do ♪
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♪ And that's be the wave
that I am, and then ♪
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♪ Sink back into the ocean,
sink back into the ocean ♪
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♪ Sink back into the o... ♪
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♪ Sink back into the ocean ♪
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♪ Sink back into the o... ♪
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♪ Sink back into the ocean ♪
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♪ Sink back into the ocean ♪
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[SOFT BACKGROUND MUSIC PLAYING]
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Excuse me.
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Do you know where I
can find rolled oats?
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- Aisle four, beside the granola.
- Okay, thank you.
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- Excuse me, can you...
- Are you making overnight oats?
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No. What are overnight oats?
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My sister turned me on to them.
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If you're like me, a total
wreck in the morning,
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it'll save your life.
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- Yeah?
- Yeah.
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It's only like five ingredients.
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- Okay.
- Rolled oats, almond milk,
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chia seed, peanut butter...
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Oh, shit.
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Chia seed, peanut butter,
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almond milk... maple syrup!
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And you need a mason jar.
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Do you have one?
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One with a really good top?
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- I think so.
- [HELEN] Excuse me. Could you please
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tell me where to find the Medjool dates?
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Oh. Sorry, sweetheart. What do you need?
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Medjool dates.
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I can't find them anywhere.
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Sure, sure. Aisle seven.
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[CLERK] So, the key is to
mix everything together...
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And can you tell me where the
pregnancy tests are, please?
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Aisle two.
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[SIGHS]
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[QUIET, AMBIENT MUSIC]
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♪ ♪
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[SIGHS]
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♪ I can never get enough... ♪
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Mom, why are you taking so many pills?
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Um, they're vitamins,
and they're for Vik.
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I thought, if I organized them,
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he might actually take them.
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Oh.
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They're cancer vitamins?
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♪ As for me, I've got
it all right here ♪
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I love that song. Turn it up.
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♪ You're all I need, I'm just a boy... ♪
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Actually, why don't you turn it off?
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All right, you guys, come on.
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- Backpacks, lunches.
- [MUSIC STOPS]
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Homework. Let's go.
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- Let's go.
- Hold on.
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- No. Come on.
- I'm going.
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- You're not going.
- Yes, I am!
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Can I talk to you?
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What's up?
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I took a pregnancy test this morning.
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Why would you do that?
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Because I'm late.
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We were just at the doctor.
You're not pregnant.
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Yeah, I... well, I know that now. I...
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Didn't you hear anything
that Dr. Roper said?
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Yeah.
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You're entering menopause, Helen.
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That's why your period is late.
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[SIGHS]
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You know, things can happen.
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It's not impossible.
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Janet Jackson was older than me.
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Don't you think I'm too
young to be in menopause?
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Don't you think I'm too young to die?
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Vik, wait.
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Kids, let's go!
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I'll make sure he takes them, Mom.
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Thanks, baby.
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Bye.
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[QUIET, AMBIENT MUSIC]
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♪ ♪
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[GASPS, CHUCKLES]
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Helen.
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Oh, my God, you scared me.
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Hi.
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[PANTING]
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You want some?
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Yeah. Sure.
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I know you hate California.
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You have to admit, we have better weed.
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When did I say I hated California?
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I can just tell.
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You're one of those East Coast snobs
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who just loves to act like
you're in exile out here.
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Oh, no. Where is that
cookbook your mother wrote?
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- It's in there.
- Yeah, but which one?
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See, the thing that you
transplants don't understand
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is that California is actually
the cradle of civilization.
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Uh, actually, I think that's
somewhere in the Middle East.
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Yeah, if you're talking
about patriarchal society.
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I'm talking about matriarchal society.
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And you think that started here?
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Not right here.
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About 150 miles east, in Joshua Tree.
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Sierra?
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You know nothing you're
saying is true, right?
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Such a cynic.
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[CHUCKLES]
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I win.
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Oh, wait.
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No, I don't.
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You know, I wouldn't have figured you
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for a solitaire type of girl.
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My mom taught me when I was a kid
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so that I could keep myself entertained
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when she was on set.
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I didn't really have
many friends my own age.
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That's why I'm such an old soul.
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No, you're not an old anything.
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Helen, I'm gonna be 30 next year.
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Wow.
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No, you don't understand.
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Thirty is almost, like,
50 in actor years.
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Well, I'm almost, like,
50 in people years.
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Yeah, but you're still really fuckable.
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I'm never gonna be that
fuckable when I'm your age.
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What time is it?
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I don't know.
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Alexa, what time is it?
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[ALEXA] The time is 11:04 a.m.
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Oh, shit. I gotta get an Uber.
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Where you going?
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To Joshua Tree.
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To my women's moon circle.
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I invited you, remember?
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You kind of spat in my face.
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Yeah, I'm sorry about that.
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It's fine.
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It's too bad, though.
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I mean, I just had this intuition
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that you really needed
some guidance, but...
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[CELL PHONE BUZZES]
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[CLICKS TONGUE, SIGHS]
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What is a moon circle, exactly?
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New moons represent beginnings.
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It's a time for planting seeds
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and setting intentions,
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and then committing to behaviors
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to help us manifest them.
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And I'm really looking
forward to this one,
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because Gaelle is going to be there.
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Who's Gaelle?
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She's my guru.
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She's a healer.
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She's a true gift.
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I mean, my work with her has
been so transformative,
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I don't even see my therapist anymore.
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Fuck it.
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I'll go.
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- For real?
- For real.
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Oh, my God. Awesome.
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[SIERRA] You sure Vik won't
mind us borrowing his car?
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Um, he might,
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but I don't particularly
care at the moment.
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What kind of music do you like?
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Oh, I think probably nothing
that you would like.
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Try me.
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Uh, I don't know.
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I like rock music. I
like some folk music.
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Patti Smith?
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Uh, sure.
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She's my favorite when
I'm super depressed.
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Probably listened to this album like
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500 times in the past week.
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Why were you super depressed?
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Um...
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[PATTI SMITH'S "PEACEABLE
KINGDOM" PLAYS]
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I fucked a married man.
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I'm really annoyed with myself
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because I've done it before,
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and it never ends well for me.
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I see.
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And I even know his wife,
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and I...
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I really like his wife, so...
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it was a stupid thing to do.
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Why did you do it?
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My mom broke up like two marriages,
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so I guess I just always thought
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that's how you vet a man,
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like how you know if he's stable or not.
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You mean, if he's married
to someone else?
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00:12:03,029 --> 00:12:04,929
Yeah, like, that's how you can tell
262
00:12:04,940 --> 00:12:06,409
if he's serious about commitment.
263
00:12:06,419 --> 00:12:07,879
That's what my mom always said.
264
00:12:08,899 --> 00:12:10,110
You're gonna think I'm full of it,
265
00:12:10,120 --> 00:12:13,159
but I wish I had your life.
266
00:12:13,360 --> 00:12:15,000
Oh.
267
00:12:15,110 --> 00:12:16,539
No, you don't.
268
00:12:16,639 --> 00:12:18,169
No, I'm serious.
269
00:12:18,279 --> 00:12:20,240
I would so much rather be you.
270
00:12:20,279 --> 00:12:22,740
I mean, look at my life.
271
00:12:22,850 --> 00:12:24,179
Yeah?
272
00:12:24,279 --> 00:12:27,250
Literally, the only currency that I have
273
00:12:27,279 --> 00:12:29,769
is my youth
274
00:12:29,779 --> 00:12:32,320
or my sex or whatever.
275
00:12:33,559 --> 00:12:35,240
But you...
276
00:12:36,659 --> 00:12:38,309
you, like, have it all.
277
00:12:38,320 --> 00:12:40,730
- [HELEN CHUCKLES]
- No, you're...
278
00:12:42,779 --> 00:12:45,080
You're, like, this smart,
279
00:12:45,100 --> 00:12:46,799
beautiful, sophisticated woman.
280
00:12:46,820 --> 00:12:48,250
You've made all the right choices.
281
00:12:48,259 --> 00:12:49,340
You have...
282
00:12:49,639 --> 00:12:51,340
I mean, you don't have men
283
00:12:51,350 --> 00:12:53,009
chewing you up and spitting you out.
284
00:12:53,110 --> 00:12:56,409
You have a family and Vik and...
285
00:12:56,820 --> 00:12:59,480
I mean, you have a whole
world that needs you.
286
00:12:59,500 --> 00:13:03,019
Like, literally couldn't
live without you.
287
00:13:03,120 --> 00:13:04,720
How do I get that?
288
00:13:08,759 --> 00:13:12,090
♪ To build it back again ♪
289
00:13:14,019 --> 00:13:18,019
♪ Build the peaceable kingdom ♪
290
00:13:21,000 --> 00:13:23,019
- See?
- ♪ Back again ♪
291
00:13:23,240 --> 00:13:24,620
Told you.
292
00:13:24,779 --> 00:13:26,039
Pretty great, right?
293
00:13:26,139 --> 00:13:29,029
♪ Build it back again ♪
294
00:13:29,039 --> 00:13:30,580
Come on.
295
00:13:32,950 --> 00:13:36,220
We're gonna miss the Blessing
of the Eagle Feather.
296
00:13:38,289 --> 00:13:40,190
[RHYTHMIC, TRIBAL MUSIC]
297
00:13:40,289 --> 00:13:41,879
♪ ♪
298
00:13:41,960 --> 00:13:46,179
I want you all to take
a big, deep breath.
299
00:13:47,029 --> 00:13:51,179
We've made it to the new
moon in tropical Libra.
300
00:13:51,580 --> 00:13:53,899
We call upon this new moon,
our cosmic mother...
301
00:13:53,919 --> 00:13:55,100
[WHISPERS] That's Gaelle?
302
00:13:55,200 --> 00:13:56,679
Yeah. Isn't she wonderful?
303
00:13:56,700 --> 00:13:58,080
You said she was a guru.
304
00:13:58,139 --> 00:13:59,700
- [SIERRA] She is.
- [GAELLE] Join us...
305
00:13:59,769 --> 00:14:00,970
She's a teenager.
306
00:14:01,080 --> 00:14:03,240
Well, she was an Incan
princess in a past life.
307
00:14:03,279 --> 00:14:05,740
[GAELLE] Help us uncover
our first selves...
308
00:14:05,779 --> 00:14:08,860
I don't care if you don't
believe me. It's true.
309
00:14:09,620 --> 00:14:11,620
[GAELLE] We call upon fire...
310
00:14:11,700 --> 00:14:13,700
[HELEN] Is she even allowed
to wear that thing?
311
00:14:13,850 --> 00:14:15,580
- What do you mean?
- I mean,
312
00:14:15,600 --> 00:14:16,929
it's kind of politically incorrect.
313
00:14:16,940 --> 00:14:18,279
- Shh.
- I mean, how many birds
314
00:14:18,299 --> 00:14:20,379
- had to die to make...
- Okay, Helen. Shh.
315
00:14:20,399 --> 00:14:24,360
Let its great power
transmute our negative,
316
00:14:24,470 --> 00:14:26,559
lower energies.
317
00:14:26,580 --> 00:14:28,950
- [HELEN COUGHING]
- And help us move forward
318
00:14:28,960 --> 00:14:31,139
into positivity and light.
319
00:14:32,440 --> 00:14:34,539
[CONTINUES COUGHING]
320
00:14:34,639 --> 00:14:37,509
For people whose chakras
are particularly blocked,
321
00:14:37,519 --> 00:14:39,879
the sage is very powerful.
322
00:14:39,899 --> 00:14:41,620
I'm allergic to sage. [SNIFFS]
323
00:14:41,679 --> 00:14:43,519
It's... [CLEARS THROAT]
324
00:14:43,620 --> 00:14:45,899
It's Helen, right?
325
00:14:45,940 --> 00:14:47,820
- Mm-hmm.
- You're lucky the universe
326
00:14:47,850 --> 00:14:50,899
chose to partner you with Sierra here.
327
00:14:51,000 --> 00:14:52,350
I've rarely met a sister
328
00:14:52,360 --> 00:14:54,690
whose sacral chakra is more aligned.
329
00:15:01,269 --> 00:15:03,399
[HELEN COUGHS]
330
00:15:22,759 --> 00:15:24,190
[WOMAN] Get a yurt!
331
00:15:24,200 --> 00:15:25,379
[LIGHT LAUGHTER]
332
00:15:32,139 --> 00:15:34,370
Thank you for holding space.
333
00:15:35,080 --> 00:15:38,139
Thank you for receiving light.
334
00:15:51,600 --> 00:15:53,460
[SIERRA] Oh, my God,
335
00:15:53,500 --> 00:15:56,799
I hate having to wear clothes
all the time. Don't you?
336
00:15:58,159 --> 00:16:00,980
That's what I love about being out here.
337
00:16:01,059 --> 00:16:02,519
There's not a man in sight.
338
00:16:02,559 --> 00:16:04,860
It's so liberating.
339
00:16:05,519 --> 00:16:07,519
- [HELEN] Uh...
- [SIERRA SIGHS]
340
00:16:07,600 --> 00:16:09,000
So, what's the, um...
341
00:16:09,029 --> 00:16:10,730
What's on the, uh...
342
00:16:10,840 --> 00:16:12,509
What are we doing tonight?
343
00:16:12,519 --> 00:16:14,789
Well, I don't know exactly.
344
00:16:14,799 --> 00:16:17,779
Um, with Gaelle, anything could happen,
345
00:16:17,820 --> 00:16:20,740
but we usually have a banquet,
346
00:16:20,850 --> 00:16:22,500
and then we do the moon circle.
347
00:16:22,559 --> 00:16:23,779
Cool.
348
00:16:24,340 --> 00:16:27,419
Ooh. This...
349
00:16:27,480 --> 00:16:30,659
is for you to wear to dinner.
350
00:16:30,679 --> 00:16:32,789
Oh, uh, do I have to?
351
00:16:33,919 --> 00:16:35,799
Well, no, you don't have to,
352
00:16:35,840 --> 00:16:37,789
but I don't know how you expect to have
353
00:16:37,889 --> 00:16:39,490
a transformative experience
354
00:16:39,500 --> 00:16:41,700
if you don't at least
try to participate.
355
00:16:42,460 --> 00:16:44,200
[GONG CRASHING]
356
00:16:44,440 --> 00:16:45,659
What is that?
357
00:16:45,980 --> 00:16:47,340
That's the dinner gong.
358
00:16:47,440 --> 00:16:49,320
Gaelle loves that thing.
359
00:16:49,610 --> 00:16:51,409
So, um...
360
00:16:52,059 --> 00:16:55,710
what's up with the make-out
sesh with you and Gaelle?
361
00:16:55,809 --> 00:16:58,279
Oh. Yeah, there's a little more
362
00:16:58,299 --> 00:17:00,879
to that story than I initially let on.
363
00:17:00,899 --> 00:17:02,840
- Is she your girlfriend?
- No.
364
00:17:02,919 --> 00:17:05,950
No, I mean, she's not... not now.
365
00:17:05,960 --> 00:17:08,460
She was, briefly, for like a second.
366
00:17:08,539 --> 00:17:10,259
So you're bi?
367
00:17:10,859 --> 00:17:12,259
I don't like labels.
368
00:17:12,279 --> 00:17:14,160
Well, no, of course you don't.
369
00:17:16,869 --> 00:17:19,259
Um, I should call Vik and tell him
370
00:17:19,319 --> 00:17:20,960
I'm not going to be home.
371
00:17:21,140 --> 00:17:22,799
How is Vik?
372
00:17:23,009 --> 00:17:24,569
He's fine.
373
00:17:24,680 --> 00:17:26,839
I just... I-I saw him the other day,
374
00:17:26,859 --> 00:17:28,039
and he seemed a little tired.
375
00:17:28,059 --> 00:17:30,000
Well, he has a huge job, so...
376
00:17:30,809 --> 00:17:32,240
Hi. It's me.
377
00:17:32,259 --> 00:17:34,650
I'm just calling to say
that I'm not coming home.
378
00:17:34,750 --> 00:17:37,509
Um, and the kids are with Noah,
379
00:17:37,519 --> 00:17:38,680
so you're on your own.
380
00:17:38,740 --> 00:17:41,329
Uh, there's some of your
mom's baingan bharta
381
00:17:41,339 --> 00:17:42,509
in the freezer.
382
00:17:42,519 --> 00:17:44,460
Okay. Bye.
383
00:17:44,559 --> 00:17:46,779
[GONG CRASHES]
384
00:17:46,819 --> 00:17:48,329
Are you really not gonna wear that?
385
00:17:48,339 --> 00:17:50,000
Because you're gonna be the only one.
386
00:17:51,599 --> 00:17:52,980
Okay, fine.
387
00:17:53,140 --> 00:17:54,480
[SHORT CHUCKLE]
388
00:18:01,779 --> 00:18:05,549
So... what about you?
389
00:18:05,650 --> 00:18:08,720
Um, what about me?
390
00:18:08,819 --> 00:18:10,579
Do you only sleep with men?
391
00:18:10,720 --> 00:18:12,690
Um, mostly.
392
00:18:13,960 --> 00:18:16,059
Um, say more.
393
00:18:17,259 --> 00:18:19,339
[GONG CRASHES]
394
00:18:21,359 --> 00:18:24,319
[SIERRA] I forgot to tell you
about the pièce De résistance.
395
00:18:24,369 --> 00:18:27,490
Later tonight, we're going to
a sensory deprivation tank.
396
00:18:27,500 --> 00:18:28,880
[HELEN] A what?
397
00:18:28,940 --> 00:18:31,339
Seriously, you don't know what
a sensory deprivation tank is?
398
00:18:31,369 --> 00:18:32,619
- Should I?
- Oh, my God.
399
00:18:32,640 --> 00:18:34,299
Helen, you're gonna love it.
400
00:18:34,339 --> 00:18:36,700
The water is warmed to your
exact body temperature,
401
00:18:36,710 --> 00:18:38,980
and it's like this big womb,
402
00:18:39,000 --> 00:18:41,579
and you just kind of float
in this mystical cocoon,
403
00:18:41,599 --> 00:18:43,619
and it's, like, totally transformative.
404
00:18:43,720 --> 00:18:45,779
You use that word a lot.
405
00:18:45,890 --> 00:18:47,779
Yeah, I'm just noticing that, too.
406
00:18:49,019 --> 00:18:50,819
[GAELLE] Okay, ladies,
407
00:18:50,839 --> 00:18:53,039
hand over your fears
that you wrote down.
408
00:18:53,680 --> 00:18:55,220
[GAELLE CLEARS THROAT]
409
00:18:55,319 --> 00:18:56,539
Okay.
410
00:18:57,599 --> 00:18:59,769
Okay, do I have a card from everybody?
411
00:19:06,079 --> 00:19:09,380
Now, the first step in validating
412
00:19:09,400 --> 00:19:13,079
our narratives is owning what scares us.
413
00:19:13,180 --> 00:19:16,700
As you all know, a new
moon is an ideal time
414
00:19:16,720 --> 00:19:18,910
for clearing psychic debris
415
00:19:18,920 --> 00:19:22,099
that has accumulated over
the previous lunation.
416
00:19:22,480 --> 00:19:24,970
You have all trusted
your current blockages
417
00:19:24,980 --> 00:19:26,420
to this sisterhood.
418
00:19:26,640 --> 00:19:27,869
Now, together,
419
00:19:27,880 --> 00:19:30,240
we will dissolve them with love.
420
00:19:32,220 --> 00:19:33,420
Okay.
421
00:19:35,369 --> 00:19:36,970
[CLEARS THROAT]
422
00:19:37,069 --> 00:19:38,369
[LAUGHS]
423
00:19:38,470 --> 00:19:40,210
- I'm sorry.
- Read it!
424
00:19:40,240 --> 00:19:41,829
- [LAUGHTER]
- What does it say?
425
00:19:41,839 --> 00:19:44,319
- Read it.
- Okay, okay.
426
00:19:44,500 --> 00:19:46,920
"My boyfriend asked me to try
anal with him last week."
427
00:19:47,000 --> 00:19:48,710
- [LAUGHTER]
- And then there's a frowny face
428
00:19:48,720 --> 00:19:51,819
with X's for eyes.
429
00:19:51,920 --> 00:19:53,759
Ladies, suggestions?
430
00:19:55,789 --> 00:19:57,099
[THROATS CLEARING]
431
00:19:57,140 --> 00:19:58,599
Butt plugs.
432
00:19:58,700 --> 00:19:59,759
The glass kind.
433
00:19:59,829 --> 00:20:01,750
They're tiny. They're not offensive.
434
00:20:01,779 --> 00:20:03,579
I mean, at first, I was
like, "Absolutely not.
435
00:20:03,660 --> 00:20:05,119
No way. Not happening."
436
00:20:05,140 --> 00:20:07,440
But they are a gateway drug to anal.
437
00:20:07,519 --> 00:20:10,099
What if I don't want a
gateway drug to anal?
438
00:20:10,119 --> 00:20:11,299
Oh, you do.
439
00:20:11,380 --> 00:20:12,940
You should listen to the lady.
440
00:20:13,039 --> 00:20:14,509
[LAUGHTER]
441
00:20:14,609 --> 00:20:16,000
[GAELLE] Okay.
442
00:20:16,039 --> 00:20:17,539
[GAELLE CLEARS THROAT]
443
00:20:17,549 --> 00:20:19,460
Next, let's see.
444
00:20:20,049 --> 00:20:21,880
"I am afraid having children
445
00:20:21,900 --> 00:20:24,349
is going to steal my creative spirit.
446
00:20:24,799 --> 00:20:26,750
I still have so much I
want to accomplish.
447
00:20:26,789 --> 00:20:28,559
What if I wake up an old woman
448
00:20:28,569 --> 00:20:31,220
and realize I gave up all my energy
449
00:20:31,259 --> 00:20:32,789
to my children?"
450
00:20:33,539 --> 00:20:35,519
Fuck.
451
00:20:35,529 --> 00:20:37,630
That...
452
00:20:37,730 --> 00:20:39,329
Anyone?
453
00:20:41,079 --> 00:20:42,299
Okay.
454
00:20:42,400 --> 00:20:44,599
Guys, clearly that's mine.
455
00:20:44,700 --> 00:20:46,440
Um...
456
00:20:46,539 --> 00:20:49,309
I'm, like, freaking out.
457
00:20:49,880 --> 00:20:51,849
Like, seriously, like,
I don't even know...
458
00:20:51,880 --> 00:20:53,509
I'm not prepared for this.
459
00:20:53,549 --> 00:20:55,839
Like, what if this ruins my life?
460
00:20:55,859 --> 00:20:59,240
[CRYING] Like, I really fucking
like my life, you know?
461
00:21:01,180 --> 00:21:04,359
[GAELLE] The answer already
exists in you, Cass.
462
00:21:06,440 --> 00:21:10,420
It will come if you let
yourself surrender.
463
00:21:10,559 --> 00:21:12,299
I am surrendering.
464
00:21:13,400 --> 00:21:14,920
Surrender more.
465
00:21:15,099 --> 00:21:16,569
[CASS] Okay, Gaelle,
466
00:21:16,670 --> 00:21:19,240
with all due respect, you
have never been pregnant,
467
00:21:19,339 --> 00:21:21,750
and you have no fucking
clue what this feels like.
468
00:21:21,759 --> 00:21:23,900
- Calm down, Cass!
- Guys, don't fight.
469
00:21:23,920 --> 00:21:25,140
I know what it feels like.
470
00:21:26,809 --> 00:21:28,410
I have four kids.
471
00:21:28,509 --> 00:21:30,049
- Whoa.
- Geez.
472
00:21:30,150 --> 00:21:31,410
[LAUGHTER]
473
00:21:31,519 --> 00:21:33,660
And I do... I remember being terrified
474
00:21:33,740 --> 00:21:34,970
before my first daughter was born.
475
00:21:34,980 --> 00:21:37,400
My husband said I was
acting like a caged animal.
476
00:21:37,720 --> 00:21:40,339
Yes, that's exactly how I feel.
477
00:21:42,880 --> 00:21:44,279
What do you do?
478
00:21:44,339 --> 00:21:47,019
I'm a designer. I make furniture.
479
00:21:47,079 --> 00:21:49,259
Ah. I love design.
480
00:21:49,529 --> 00:21:51,269
I used to have a shop.
481
00:21:51,369 --> 00:21:52,839
Where?
482
00:21:52,940 --> 00:21:54,319
In Brooklyn.
483
00:21:55,960 --> 00:21:58,180
- It was a great shop.
- Mmm.
484
00:21:58,710 --> 00:22:01,279
But, you know, um, I can say this.
485
00:22:01,299 --> 00:22:04,250
Your life is about to completely change.
486
00:22:04,349 --> 00:22:06,349
- Fuck.
- No, but not in the way you think.
487
00:22:06,380 --> 00:22:08,680
It-it doesn't get smaller.
488
00:22:08,789 --> 00:22:11,019
It gets larger.
489
00:22:11,460 --> 00:22:12,849
[CASS] How?
490
00:22:12,960 --> 00:22:16,160
Okay, when... right after I had
my first daughter, Whitney,
491
00:22:17,160 --> 00:22:20,660
I had this moment, and I
remember it very clearly.
492
00:22:20,759 --> 00:22:21,799
I was looking
493
00:22:21,900 --> 00:22:23,970
at her little face, and, um,
494
00:22:24,069 --> 00:22:27,700
it suddenly occurred to me
that she was going to...
495
00:22:27,799 --> 00:22:29,500
outlive me.
496
00:22:29,809 --> 00:22:32,200
Her life was going to
extend beyond mine,
497
00:22:32,220 --> 00:22:35,059
and I was finite.
498
00:22:35,140 --> 00:22:38,609
You know, really just
dust in the fucking wind.
499
00:22:38,710 --> 00:22:40,779
And so...
500
00:22:41,349 --> 00:22:44,640
I just said to myself,
"Okay, then, if that's true,
501
00:22:44,880 --> 00:22:47,309
what am I going to do
502
00:22:47,319 --> 00:22:49,779
with my one wild and precious life?"
503
00:22:52,059 --> 00:22:53,359
Mary Oliver.
504
00:22:55,640 --> 00:22:58,339
You guys don't know Mary Oliver?
505
00:22:58,420 --> 00:22:59,829
Okay, but what was the answer?
506
00:22:59,839 --> 00:23:01,240
Like, what did you do?
507
00:23:01,259 --> 00:23:02,660
Well, I had more children.
508
00:23:02,670 --> 00:23:04,099
- Oh, that's nice.
- [LAUGHTER]
509
00:23:04,119 --> 00:23:05,819
But I love being a mother.
510
00:23:05,839 --> 00:23:07,529
And not everybody does, and that's okay.
511
00:23:07,539 --> 00:23:08,539
I mean, you don't have to give
512
00:23:08,549 --> 00:23:10,089
everything over to this little person.
513
00:23:10,099 --> 00:23:12,480
You just have to make some
room for her. Or him.
514
00:23:12,579 --> 00:23:13,710
It's a girl.
515
00:23:17,019 --> 00:23:19,200
The heart actually does expand.
516
00:23:19,240 --> 00:23:21,319
I-I have no idea how it does it,
517
00:23:21,420 --> 00:23:22,789
but it seems to always be able
518
00:23:22,799 --> 00:23:24,019
to make room for children.
519
00:23:26,700 --> 00:23:28,329
Helen...
520
00:23:29,019 --> 00:23:31,799
I'm passing my guru baton
to you this evening.
521
00:23:31,849 --> 00:23:33,380
- Oh, please don't.
- [LAUGHTER]
522
00:23:33,420 --> 00:23:34,769
I...
523
00:23:35,259 --> 00:23:36,599
I have to.
524
00:23:36,700 --> 00:23:38,339
Tonight belongs to you.
525
00:23:38,440 --> 00:23:43,359
[APPLAUSE]
526
00:23:45,049 --> 00:23:46,269
What happens if my husband
527
00:23:46,279 --> 00:23:48,349
- loves a baby more than he loves me?
- Well, he won't.
528
00:23:48,359 --> 00:23:50,069
And my boyfriend wants to get pregnant.
529
00:23:50,079 --> 00:23:51,869
I'm not so sure about him,
530
00:23:51,900 --> 00:23:54,349
but I want to really have a
kid, so should I just do it?
531
00:23:54,460 --> 00:23:55,460
- No.
- [OTHERS] No.
532
00:23:55,559 --> 00:23:56,559
Don't do that.
533
00:23:56,569 --> 00:23:58,720
Like, what if I don't
find a man in time?
534
00:23:58,740 --> 00:24:00,440
Should I just do it alone?
535
00:24:00,690 --> 00:24:02,789
You can, but it's very hard.
536
00:24:02,799 --> 00:24:04,869
But, I mean, that's why you
guys have each other, right?
537
00:24:04,880 --> 00:24:06,029
Why you have this group?
538
00:24:07,369 --> 00:24:09,200
Look, I want to be honest with you.
539
00:24:09,220 --> 00:24:11,519
No matter how many new moons
540
00:24:11,539 --> 00:24:14,380
or tropical Libras you circle under,
541
00:24:14,400 --> 00:24:16,710
the only way out of this
thing is through it.
542
00:24:16,809 --> 00:24:18,670
I mean, and you can talk to
543
00:24:18,680 --> 00:24:21,750
astrologers or gurus or shamans,
544
00:24:21,779 --> 00:24:23,155
but the only thing that really works
545
00:24:23,180 --> 00:24:26,000
is living and making choices
and making mistakes,
546
00:24:26,019 --> 00:24:28,339
and then eventually,
you get old enough...
547
00:24:29,460 --> 00:24:31,259
and you start to figure shit out.
548
00:24:37,000 --> 00:24:40,400
I thought we were going to
a sensory derivation bank.
549
00:24:41,099 --> 00:24:43,700
A sensory deprivation tank?
550
00:24:46,339 --> 00:24:47,809
What did I say?
551
00:24:48,559 --> 00:24:50,809
I think maybe we should
take that away from you.
552
00:24:50,910 --> 00:24:52,150
Actually, be careful,
553
00:24:52,160 --> 00:24:54,210
'cause sometimes
Gaelle's stuff is laced.
554
00:24:57,819 --> 00:24:59,420
Oh, well.
555
00:25:02,099 --> 00:25:04,859
[TAKES A DEEP BREATH]
556
00:25:04,960 --> 00:25:08,500
So, what was your fear that
you wrote on the card?
557
00:25:09,460 --> 00:25:13,200
Um, I couldn't think of one.
558
00:25:16,200 --> 00:25:18,480
Your life is so perfect that
you don't have any fears?
559
00:25:18,569 --> 00:25:19,579
[LAUGHS]
560
00:25:19,619 --> 00:25:22,269
My life is a total fucking wreck.
561
00:25:28,119 --> 00:25:30,950
I thought I was pregnant this morning.
562
00:25:31,049 --> 00:25:32,799
Oh, my God. Are you?
563
00:25:32,859 --> 00:25:35,079
No. I'm in menopause.
564
00:25:35,519 --> 00:25:36,819
Oh.
565
00:25:38,420 --> 00:25:40,779
- That's a bummer.
- Is it?
566
00:25:41,990 --> 00:25:43,759
I don't know. Is it?
567
00:25:43,859 --> 00:25:46,279
I mean, do you want more kids?
568
00:25:46,339 --> 00:25:47,630
You know...
569
00:25:48,900 --> 00:25:51,069
I have four children.
570
00:25:52,339 --> 00:25:55,150
I don't actually want another baby.
571
00:25:55,160 --> 00:25:58,099
I just... you know, but Vik wanted it.
572
00:25:58,200 --> 00:26:02,460
And I thought that I
should give that to him.
573
00:26:03,079 --> 00:26:06,380
But this whole day, I've
been thinking about it,
574
00:26:06,440 --> 00:26:08,079
and I've been wondering,
575
00:26:08,140 --> 00:26:10,660
how many of my children did I want?
576
00:26:12,960 --> 00:26:14,930
Was it for me,
577
00:26:14,940 --> 00:26:17,700
or was it for Noah?
578
00:26:17,759 --> 00:26:18,960
Who's Noah?
579
00:26:19,059 --> 00:26:20,759
My first husband.
580
00:26:22,230 --> 00:26:24,059
I mean, all my life,
581
00:26:24,160 --> 00:26:26,150
I've been feeling... I don't
know how to say this.
582
00:26:26,180 --> 00:26:28,140
I've been feeling needed.
583
00:26:28,240 --> 00:26:31,299
By men, by my children.
584
00:26:31,319 --> 00:26:33,839
You know, I remember when
Noah and I first got together,
585
00:26:33,859 --> 00:26:36,079
his mother had just died, and-and-and...
586
00:26:36,180 --> 00:26:38,410
I remember how much he wanted me,
587
00:26:38,519 --> 00:26:42,220
in this kind of really
desperate sort of way.
588
00:26:42,319 --> 00:26:44,349
And he would just, like,
climb into bed with me
589
00:26:44,450 --> 00:26:46,049
and need to fuck me,
590
00:26:46,160 --> 00:26:49,819
to feel, um, connected
591
00:26:49,880 --> 00:26:52,180
or, uh, safe
592
00:26:52,240 --> 00:26:54,140
or cared for.
593
00:26:54,200 --> 00:26:55,700
I don't know, and I-I was...
594
00:26:55,799 --> 00:26:58,750
I was happy to give that to him
595
00:26:58,759 --> 00:27:00,559
when I was young, because I thought
596
00:27:00,619 --> 00:27:02,740
that that's what I was supposed to do.
597
00:27:06,460 --> 00:27:08,589
And then my children came along,
598
00:27:08,599 --> 00:27:11,180
and they're just all need.
599
00:27:11,220 --> 00:27:13,279
You know, they're like little, tiny,
600
00:27:13,380 --> 00:27:17,119
little, walking balls of need.
601
00:27:17,160 --> 00:27:21,619
And men... men don't understand.
602
00:27:21,720 --> 00:27:24,420
I mean, they have this notion of...
603
00:27:24,529 --> 00:27:28,099
of-of what bringing a child
into their lives would mean,
604
00:27:28,200 --> 00:27:31,980
but... but-but they only
do a fraction of the work,
605
00:27:32,000 --> 00:27:35,369
and the rest is, like, up to us.
606
00:27:35,470 --> 00:27:38,319
I think I'm...
607
00:27:39,420 --> 00:27:42,099
I think I'm relieved to
finally be in menopause,
608
00:27:42,140 --> 00:27:44,380
because I will never...
609
00:27:45,180 --> 00:27:47,900
have to make a decision like that again.
610
00:27:48,559 --> 00:27:52,000
You mean whether or not to
give a man what he wants?
611
00:27:55,680 --> 00:27:57,019
Yes.
612
00:28:01,079 --> 00:28:02,700
Yeah. Fuck.
613
00:28:02,799 --> 00:28:03,930
Yeah.
614
00:28:04,029 --> 00:28:05,980
I think maybe that's it.
615
00:28:07,640 --> 00:28:09,240
[CHUCKLES]
616
00:28:10,660 --> 00:28:12,539
You know why...
617
00:28:12,640 --> 00:28:15,140
You know why I like
having sex with women?
618
00:28:15,240 --> 00:28:16,980
No. Why?
619
00:28:17,880 --> 00:28:21,250
Because I find that sex
with women is just...
620
00:28:22,039 --> 00:28:24,180
so much more intimate.
621
00:28:24,480 --> 00:28:25,980
You know?
622
00:28:26,480 --> 00:28:28,319
Because I can relate to their struggles,
623
00:28:28,339 --> 00:28:29,920
because they're my struggles.
624
00:28:30,940 --> 00:28:34,960
And so, when I see a woman there naked
625
00:28:35,059 --> 00:28:39,619
and confident and hungry for orgasm,
626
00:28:39,980 --> 00:28:43,039
it's like this primal admiration.
627
00:28:44,970 --> 00:28:46,910
It's very sexy.
628
00:28:48,160 --> 00:28:49,980
And also,
629
00:28:50,079 --> 00:28:53,059
usually with women... [CLEARS THROAT]
630
00:28:53,079 --> 00:28:56,609
I feel like I have a lot more control.
631
00:28:59,049 --> 00:29:00,589
And, um...
632
00:29:00,690 --> 00:29:03,079
I don't know, control is really hot.
633
00:29:08,059 --> 00:29:11,630
["PEACEABLE KINGDOM" BY PATTI SMITH]
634
00:29:21,079 --> 00:29:26,259
♪ Yesterday I saw you standing there ♪
635
00:29:26,799 --> 00:29:30,309
♪ With your hand against the pane ♪
636
00:29:33,079 --> 00:29:37,720
♪ Looking out the window ♪
637
00:29:38,660 --> 00:29:41,529
♪ At the rain ♪
638
00:29:41,630 --> 00:29:44,359
[BOTH MOANING SOFTLY]
639
00:29:44,460 --> 00:29:49,470
♪ Maybe one day we'll be strong enough ♪
640
00:29:50,480 --> 00:29:55,259
♪ To build it back again ♪
641
00:29:55,670 --> 00:30:00,710
♪ Build the peaceable kingdom ♪
642
00:30:01,819 --> 00:30:06,500
♪ Build it back again ♪
643
00:30:13,799 --> 00:30:16,490
[BOTH CHUCKLE]
644
00:30:17,940 --> 00:30:20,400
Listen, can I give you some advice?
645
00:30:21,359 --> 00:30:22,980
Yeah, okay.
646
00:30:23,839 --> 00:30:25,440
Um...
647
00:30:26,569 --> 00:30:29,069
lay off the married guys.
648
00:30:29,539 --> 00:30:30,740
Yeah, I know.
649
00:30:30,779 --> 00:30:32,819
You don't, really, because
you're not married.
650
00:30:32,839 --> 00:30:34,496
You've never been married,
so you couldn't know.
651
00:30:34,519 --> 00:30:36,180
And that's okay, but...
652
00:30:37,549 --> 00:30:39,759
When you sleep with a married man,
653
00:30:39,839 --> 00:30:43,180
it's not just him.
654
00:30:43,220 --> 00:30:45,950
There's a whole constellation
of people behind him,
655
00:30:45,960 --> 00:30:47,660
and it takes...
656
00:30:47,759 --> 00:30:49,750
years to build trust in a marriage.
657
00:30:49,759 --> 00:30:52,349
And when you sleep with
someone's husband,
658
00:30:52,359 --> 00:30:53,599
it's not just a moment.
659
00:30:53,630 --> 00:30:55,970
It's years of his life, and hers,
660
00:30:56,069 --> 00:30:57,589
and the promise they made to each other
661
00:30:57,599 --> 00:30:59,170
and-and their kids,
662
00:30:59,180 --> 00:31:00,940
and it's everything.
663
00:31:01,569 --> 00:31:03,910
And you're just shitting all over it.
664
00:31:06,039 --> 00:31:07,910
Fuck.
665
00:31:11,279 --> 00:31:14,220
[DANCE MUSIC PLAYING]
666
00:31:14,319 --> 00:31:17,039
[INDISTINCT, FESTIVE CHATTER]
667
00:31:17,750 --> 00:31:20,150
The deprivation tank is here?
668
00:31:20,259 --> 00:31:22,089
Yeah.
669
00:31:25,259 --> 00:31:29,599
I want to have four kids one day, too.
670
00:31:30,099 --> 00:31:35,059
♪ ♪
671
00:32:00,099 --> 00:32:04,220
♪ ♪
672
00:32:32,190 --> 00:32:34,220
- Hey.
- No.
673
00:32:35,500 --> 00:32:37,160
Sorry.
674
00:32:45,140 --> 00:32:46,670
Hey, Helen.
675
00:32:46,779 --> 00:32:49,220
There you are. Oh, my God, I found it.
676
00:32:49,319 --> 00:32:51,819
I found the tank. Come on. Let's go.
677
00:33:04,359 --> 00:33:07,089
[QUIET, AMBIENT MUSIC]
678
00:33:07,200 --> 00:33:09,299
♪ ♪
679
00:33:31,720 --> 00:33:35,460
♪ ♪
680
00:33:50,140 --> 00:33:51,599
[SPITS]
681
00:33:54,609 --> 00:33:55,960
[TAPS LID]
682
00:34:02,220 --> 00:34:05,119
[BEATING LID]
683
00:34:10,420 --> 00:34:12,420
[GASPING]
684
00:34:14,800 --> 00:34:16,130
[GASPS]
685
00:34:21,340 --> 00:34:23,170
[SIERRA] Helen.
686
00:34:23,269 --> 00:34:24,369
Helen, wait.
687
00:34:24,469 --> 00:34:26,340
Where are you going?
688
00:34:26,739 --> 00:34:29,159
[TENSE, ATMOSPHERIC MUSIC]
689
00:34:29,219 --> 00:34:31,320
♪ ♪
690
00:34:45,139 --> 00:34:47,039
Helen.
691
00:34:47,500 --> 00:34:48,590
What are you doing here?
692
00:34:48,599 --> 00:34:50,280
I-I thought you were
in the desert tonight.
693
00:34:55,840 --> 00:34:57,369
What's wrong?
694
00:34:57,619 --> 00:34:59,119
Come here.
695
00:35:01,800 --> 00:35:03,170
What is it?
696
00:35:03,280 --> 00:35:05,340
I don't want you to die.
697
00:35:08,619 --> 00:35:10,550
I don't want to die, either.
698
00:35:13,639 --> 00:35:16,789
[QUIET, AMBIENT MUSIC]
699
00:35:16,889 --> 00:35:20,440
♪ ♪
700
00:35:24,530 --> 00:35:27,030
[CRYING]
701
00:35:31,300 --> 00:35:33,340
Don't die.
702
00:35:33,360 --> 00:35:35,300
Please don't die.
703
00:35:38,659 --> 00:35:40,250
- I won't.
- Promise me.
704
00:35:40,260 --> 00:35:41,460
I promise.
705
00:35:45,349 --> 00:35:47,019
I promise.
706
00:36:13,210 --> 00:36:16,480
[SHUDDERING BREATHS]
707
00:36:34,119 --> 00:36:36,199
- _
- [NOAH] Trevor, straighten up.
708
00:36:36,210 --> 00:36:37,329
- [TREVOR] I am.
- [TIRES SQUEALING]
709
00:36:37,340 --> 00:36:39,275
- [NOAH] No, you're not!
- [TREVOR] Well, I'm trying.
710
00:36:39,300 --> 00:36:40,800
[NOAH] Holy shit, stop!
711
00:36:40,809 --> 00:36:42,039
Brake! Brake!
712
00:36:43,800 --> 00:36:45,670
[BOTH PANTING]
713
00:36:45,780 --> 00:36:47,539
This sucks.
714
00:36:49,340 --> 00:36:51,280
Come on. I thought you'd enjoy this.
715
00:36:51,400 --> 00:36:52,400
Why?
716
00:36:52,400 --> 00:36:54,679
Well, your first driving
lesson. I don't know.
717
00:36:54,719 --> 00:36:56,400
This isn't my first.
718
00:36:56,460 --> 00:36:57,750
Vik lets me back Mom's car
719
00:36:57,760 --> 00:36:59,119
out of the driveway sometimes.
720
00:36:59,219 --> 00:37:01,050
Yeah, I know, but, you know,
721
00:37:01,059 --> 00:37:03,519
here you're learning how
to steer and park and...
722
00:37:03,630 --> 00:37:05,090
Whatever.
723
00:37:05,940 --> 00:37:07,420
[SIGHS]
724
00:37:07,500 --> 00:37:10,059
Okay, buddy, why don't
you try reversing out?
725
00:37:10,170 --> 00:37:11,849
Are you giving up?
726
00:37:11,860 --> 00:37:13,139
This is pointless.
727
00:37:13,239 --> 00:37:15,500
I can't even take driver's
ed until next year.
728
00:37:15,599 --> 00:37:17,840
Vik and I were gonna start
lessons next summer.
729
00:37:38,260 --> 00:37:39,730
Hey, Trev.
730
00:37:41,260 --> 00:37:43,840
Listen, I-I wanted to talk
to you about something.
731
00:37:44,900 --> 00:37:46,280
Your friend, Brooklyn...
732
00:37:46,320 --> 00:37:47,800
What about him?
733
00:37:48,139 --> 00:37:49,599
Well, I just wanted you to know
734
00:37:49,619 --> 00:37:53,280
that if there's... if there's
anything you wanted to...
735
00:37:53,380 --> 00:37:54,980
tell me about him or...
736
00:37:56,110 --> 00:37:58,280
- Anything at all.
- [TREVOR SIGHS]
737
00:37:58,460 --> 00:38:01,199
Can we just get Stacey and
go back to Mom's now?
738
00:38:01,550 --> 00:38:02,960
Please.
739
00:38:04,719 --> 00:38:06,079
Of course.
740
00:38:06,139 --> 00:38:07,599
[ENGINE STARTS]
741
00:38:07,639 --> 00:38:09,820
[QUIET, AMBIENT MUSIC]
742
00:38:09,840 --> 00:38:14,300
♪ ♪
743
00:38:16,119 --> 00:38:18,050
[TREVOR] You better not be
heading for the Switch.
744
00:38:18,059 --> 00:38:19,090
[STACEY] It's my day!
745
00:38:19,130 --> 00:38:21,570
[VIK] Helen! What did
you do with my razor?
746
00:38:21,579 --> 00:38:23,980
- [KIDS RUNNING]
- [HELEN] Hey, knock it off. What?
747
00:38:24,019 --> 00:38:26,099
[VIK] Razor! It doesn't have a blade.
748
00:38:26,159 --> 00:38:28,980
Well, I threw it away.
It was dull. Oh, hi.
749
00:38:29,019 --> 00:38:31,510
[VIK] It was only dull because
you shaved your legs with it!
750
00:38:31,519 --> 00:38:34,400
There's more of them in the
top, right-hand drawer.
751
00:38:34,750 --> 00:38:37,139
How was the lesson?
752
00:38:37,199 --> 00:38:39,380
- Can I talk to you?
- Yeah, sure.
753
00:38:39,389 --> 00:38:41,849
[TREVOR] You'd lose your mind
if I went into your room!
754
00:38:41,860 --> 00:38:43,340
[STACEY] I didn't go into your room!
755
00:38:43,380 --> 00:38:46,059
I swear to God, if you
guys don't stop...
756
00:38:46,159 --> 00:38:47,440
You and Vik need to work with me.
757
00:38:47,460 --> 00:38:50,940
- Work with you?
- I am trying so hard.
758
00:38:50,980 --> 00:38:52,590
I've upended my life
759
00:38:52,599 --> 00:38:54,219
to follow you here for Vik's work,
760
00:38:54,239 --> 00:38:55,679
- to be near my kids.
- Yeah, me too.
761
00:38:55,690 --> 00:38:57,260
And you guys won't meet me halfway.
762
00:38:57,340 --> 00:38:59,059
I don't... What?
763
00:38:59,119 --> 00:39:01,159
This is supposed to be
a partnership, Helen.
764
00:39:01,179 --> 00:39:03,210
We are co-parenting, and right now,
765
00:39:03,239 --> 00:39:04,980
I am the only one extending myself.
766
00:39:05,820 --> 00:39:09,050
You won't encourage the
kids to call back.
767
00:39:09,219 --> 00:39:11,079
You roll over my visitation.
768
00:39:11,190 --> 00:39:14,000
Vik is incredibly
competitive with the kids.
769
00:39:14,019 --> 00:39:17,119
I mean, for fuck's sake,
Helen, they are my children.
770
00:39:17,219 --> 00:39:18,989
Not his.
771
00:39:19,179 --> 00:39:21,590
You just need to tell him
to back the fuck up.
772
00:39:21,699 --> 00:39:22,900
He's dying.
773
00:39:26,860 --> 00:39:28,659
Vik has cancer,
774
00:39:29,639 --> 00:39:33,340
and he's going to die soon, so...
775
00:39:35,219 --> 00:39:36,449
... maybe you'll forgive us
776
00:39:36,460 --> 00:39:38,480
if we aren't at our best right now.
777
00:39:41,139 --> 00:39:42,679
What kind of cancer?
778
00:39:42,780 --> 00:39:44,179
Does it matter?
779
00:39:46,199 --> 00:39:47,619
The kids know?
780
00:39:51,929 --> 00:39:53,659
Oh, God.
781
00:39:55,179 --> 00:39:57,199
You should have told me.
782
00:39:57,300 --> 00:39:59,230
Why would I have told you?
783
00:39:59,329 --> 00:40:00,730
Because we're friends.
784
00:40:00,829 --> 00:40:02,630
No, we're not.
785
00:40:06,139 --> 00:40:07,960
Jesus, Helen, I...
786
00:40:08,099 --> 00:40:09,539
I'm so sorry.
787
00:40:11,210 --> 00:40:12,989
Look, i-if there's anything you need,
788
00:40:13,000 --> 00:40:15,010
anything I can do...
I-I can take the kids.
789
00:40:15,019 --> 00:40:16,840
You and Vik can have some time.
790
00:40:18,219 --> 00:40:20,219
Oh, God, Helen, I...
791
00:40:23,059 --> 00:40:24,349
Sorry. I can also...
792
00:40:24,360 --> 00:40:26,239
I can just give you guys some space.
793
00:40:26,320 --> 00:40:27,929
That would be great.
794
00:40:29,730 --> 00:40:31,630
Sure.
795
00:40:31,730 --> 00:40:33,400
Thank you.
796
00:40:53,280 --> 00:40:56,010
- [ANTON] Hey.
- What the fuck?
797
00:40:56,019 --> 00:40:57,949
Sorry. Your-your door was open.
798
00:40:58,059 --> 00:40:59,920
Did I scare you?
799
00:41:01,289 --> 00:41:03,219
[SIGHS] No.
800
00:41:03,429 --> 00:41:05,550
It's the hoodie, right?
801
00:41:05,559 --> 00:41:07,179
The hoodie makes me seem threatening.
802
00:41:07,320 --> 00:41:08,440
Better?
803
00:41:08,519 --> 00:41:09,769
That's not funny.
804
00:41:09,869 --> 00:41:11,469
Yeah, it is.
805
00:41:19,400 --> 00:41:22,340
Well, now that you've
made yourself at home...
806
00:41:22,440 --> 00:41:24,099
want to tell me why you're here?
807
00:41:25,380 --> 00:41:27,250
How do you even know where I live?
808
00:41:27,349 --> 00:41:29,690
Read through my mom's personnel files.
809
00:41:29,789 --> 00:41:31,650
I've seen all your pay stubs.
810
00:41:33,420 --> 00:41:34,690
Well, then you should have known not
811
00:41:34,699 --> 00:41:36,349
to eat all my prosciutto.
812
00:41:36,360 --> 00:41:39,099
I'm playing. I-I
White-Paged you, actually.
813
00:41:39,199 --> 00:41:41,079
It's that easy, huh?
814
00:41:41,099 --> 00:41:42,400
That's disturbing.
815
00:41:42,429 --> 00:41:44,699
Yeah, I think you can get it blocked.
816
00:41:48,809 --> 00:41:50,940
I need your thoughts.
817
00:41:52,110 --> 00:41:53,860
Okay. What about?
818
00:41:54,039 --> 00:41:55,940
On whether or not I
should join the Marines.
819
00:41:56,050 --> 00:41:57,679
What?
820
00:41:57,780 --> 00:41:59,380
What about college?
821
00:41:59,400 --> 00:42:01,840
I need to be my own man, Mr. Solloway.
822
00:42:01,900 --> 00:42:03,039
I-I can't keep letting my parents
823
00:42:03,050 --> 00:42:04,550
push me around like this.
824
00:42:04,650 --> 00:42:06,079
It's not right.
825
00:42:06,659 --> 00:42:09,190
Look, I know you and my mom
826
00:42:09,199 --> 00:42:11,059
have something going on right now.
827
00:42:12,460 --> 00:42:14,030
She can be a real bully.
828
00:42:14,130 --> 00:42:15,179
You should know that.
829
00:42:15,239 --> 00:42:17,670
Yeah, I do know that, Anton.
830
00:42:19,260 --> 00:42:22,239
I also know that she loves
you like a crazy person,
831
00:42:22,340 --> 00:42:24,840
and right now she's having a
hard time letting you go.
832
00:42:24,940 --> 00:42:26,400
And that's normal. That's not her.
833
00:42:26,420 --> 00:42:28,400
That's just what happens
when the time comes
834
00:42:28,420 --> 00:42:30,579
for kids to flee the nest.
835
00:42:30,750 --> 00:42:33,159
You'd really rather go to
war than go to college?
836
00:42:33,199 --> 00:42:34,820
Well, they said the chances
837
00:42:34,840 --> 00:42:36,210
of me seeing combat are slim.
838
00:42:36,219 --> 00:42:37,280
Yeah, they're lying.
839
00:42:37,340 --> 00:42:39,150
This country is pretty much
840
00:42:39,179 --> 00:42:41,159
at war somewhere all the time.
841
00:42:42,059 --> 00:42:44,730
Well, any way I go,
842
00:42:44,829 --> 00:42:47,059
one of them is going to be disappointed.
843
00:42:50,130 --> 00:42:52,869
Look, you came here. You
want my advice, right?
844
00:42:55,760 --> 00:42:57,769
I really think you
need to see Princeton.
845
00:42:57,869 --> 00:42:59,440
Just see it. Just...
846
00:42:59,539 --> 00:43:01,139
spend some time there.
847
00:43:01,239 --> 00:43:03,739
You have this idea in your head
that it's a terrible place.
848
00:43:03,760 --> 00:43:05,719
Maybe it is, but maybe you'd like it.
849
00:43:05,880 --> 00:43:07,460
Well, how am I supposed
to pull that off?
850
00:43:07,480 --> 00:43:08,920
It's all the way across the country.
851
00:43:08,949 --> 00:43:10,309
Your mom will take you there.
852
00:43:10,320 --> 00:43:11,400
No, she won't.
853
00:43:11,449 --> 00:43:13,460
- How do you know?
- I just do.
854
00:43:13,480 --> 00:43:14,579
Have you asked her?
855
00:43:18,389 --> 00:43:20,079
How did you get here? You drive?
856
00:43:20,119 --> 00:43:22,119
No, I Ubered. I never get to drive.
857
00:43:22,139 --> 00:43:23,400
I don't have a fucking car.
858
00:43:23,500 --> 00:43:25,230
Okay. Let's go.
859
00:43:25,239 --> 00:43:26,269
Where are we going?
860
00:43:26,340 --> 00:43:27,530
To talk to your mom.
861
00:43:27,639 --> 00:43:28,900
No. I just got here.
862
00:43:28,949 --> 00:43:30,199
She'll kill me if she finds out
863
00:43:30,239 --> 00:43:31,579
- I came to you.
- Come on.
864
00:43:31,659 --> 00:43:33,239
I'll let you drive.
865
00:43:33,340 --> 00:43:34,909
Down the PCH.
866
00:43:50,320 --> 00:43:54,690
[JANELLE] Why can't you
rebel like a normal kid?
867
00:43:54,800 --> 00:43:57,679
Go to Europe for a year.
Date a white girl.
868
00:43:57,840 --> 00:43:59,576
You really want to fuck
with me and your dad?
869
00:43:59,599 --> 00:44:02,320
Do the Peace Corps in some
awful third-world place.
870
00:44:02,360 --> 00:44:04,179
Don't join the fucking Army.
871
00:44:04,210 --> 00:44:07,039
- Marines.
- Boy, I will kill you.
872
00:44:07,079 --> 00:44:09,159
Look, if I go to the Marines,
I won't be a victim.
873
00:44:09,179 --> 00:44:10,510
What are you talking about?
874
00:44:10,610 --> 00:44:12,849
How is shooting other brown people
875
00:44:12,860 --> 00:44:14,880
gonna give you agency? Hear yourself.
876
00:44:14,889 --> 00:44:16,150
No, hear yourself.
877
00:44:16,250 --> 00:44:18,719
It is always about race
and agency with you.
878
00:44:18,820 --> 00:44:20,300
What nine-year-old has
879
00:44:20,320 --> 00:44:22,150
a Black Revolutionary-themed
birthday party?
880
00:44:22,179 --> 00:44:23,989
Fucking Marcus Garvey
on the chocolate cake?
881
00:44:24,090 --> 00:44:25,360
Malcolm X napkins?
882
00:44:25,460 --> 00:44:27,190
- Like, who does that?
- They make those?
883
00:44:27,300 --> 00:44:29,539
Yes. This is what I've had
to deal with my whole life.
884
00:44:29,550 --> 00:44:31,960
- To protect you.
- Look, if I have a target on my back,
885
00:44:32,070 --> 00:44:33,530
why shouldn't I sign up?
886
00:44:33,639 --> 00:44:35,159
At least then I'll have a gun.
887
00:44:37,239 --> 00:44:39,469
- What are you doing here?
- Your mother called.
888
00:44:39,570 --> 00:44:41,639
She didn't know where you went.
889
00:44:41,739 --> 00:44:43,969
You can't disappear without
telling her where you're going.
890
00:44:43,980 --> 00:44:45,559
You know that. She worries.
891
00:44:45,619 --> 00:44:47,440
Why? I'm 19 years old.
892
00:44:47,480 --> 00:44:48,639
Tell him.
893
00:44:48,679 --> 00:44:49,780
Go on.
894
00:44:49,880 --> 00:44:51,119
You're such an adult. Tell him.
895
00:44:51,159 --> 00:44:52,550
Tell him what you did.
896
00:44:54,090 --> 00:44:55,996
I talked to a recruiter
about joining the Marines.
897
00:44:56,019 --> 00:44:57,250
You did what?
898
00:44:57,260 --> 00:44:58,639
[CLEARS THROAT] Uh...
899
00:44:58,690 --> 00:44:59,920
Hi.
900
00:44:59,980 --> 00:45:02,000
Does this motherfucker live here now?
901
00:45:02,039 --> 00:45:04,349
Look, I-I know it's not my place...
902
00:45:04,360 --> 00:45:05,699
Oh, you're damn right.
903
00:45:05,800 --> 00:45:07,250
But your kid came to my house
904
00:45:07,269 --> 00:45:09,000
looking for help, so...
905
00:45:09,099 --> 00:45:11,480
I thought maybe we could
all just talk about it.
906
00:45:11,579 --> 00:45:13,235
Who the fuck does your
boyfriend think he is?
907
00:45:13,260 --> 00:45:14,440
He's not my boyfriend.
908
00:45:14,539 --> 00:45:16,199
Reason he wants to join the Marines
909
00:45:16,210 --> 00:45:18,250
is because he can't make a decision
910
00:45:18,280 --> 00:45:19,809
about this Princeton thing
911
00:45:19,909 --> 00:45:23,179
because he is terrified
of hurting one of you.
912
00:45:23,699 --> 00:45:25,449
So, what I suggested was that
913
00:45:25,550 --> 00:45:27,650
somebody should just take him there.
914
00:45:27,750 --> 00:45:29,550
Let him see the school,
see if he likes it,
915
00:45:29,659 --> 00:45:30,820
make his own decision.
916
00:45:30,920 --> 00:45:32,260
Sounds reasonable to me.
917
00:45:32,360 --> 00:45:34,019
If I go, it'd have to be this week.
918
00:45:34,079 --> 00:45:35,090
Why?
919
00:45:35,119 --> 00:45:37,699
Because I scheduled to
take the GED next Monday.
920
00:45:38,679 --> 00:45:41,349
Anton... in order to take the GED,
921
00:45:41,360 --> 00:45:42,800
you have to drop out of high school.
922
00:45:42,920 --> 00:45:45,179
I can't join the Marines without it.
923
00:45:45,239 --> 00:45:47,090
- Oh, no.
- You have school this week.
924
00:45:47,099 --> 00:45:49,269
Hell no. You're not joining
the fucking military.
925
00:45:49,280 --> 00:45:50,750
Look, I can miss a couple classes.
926
00:45:50,760 --> 00:45:52,690
I already took these
fucking classes anyway.
927
00:45:52,710 --> 00:45:54,255
Boy, don't talk like
that to your mother.
928
00:45:54,280 --> 00:45:55,539
Why is it, whenever you're mad at me,
929
00:45:55,550 --> 00:45:56,715
you act like you're still her man?
930
00:45:56,739 --> 00:45:58,349
- You want to live?
- Oh, Jesus.
931
00:45:58,360 --> 00:46:00,050
Not another word.
932
00:46:00,239 --> 00:46:01,860
Look, Carl, my friend...
933
00:46:01,920 --> 00:46:03,750
Man, why are you all up in my family?
934
00:46:03,760 --> 00:46:04,840
You don't have your own?
935
00:46:05,500 --> 00:46:06,820
Yeah, I do.
936
00:46:06,860 --> 00:46:08,289
Then what the fuck you doing here?
937
00:46:09,860 --> 00:46:11,860
Anton, go to your room.
938
00:46:11,960 --> 00:46:13,159
Carl, go home.
939
00:46:13,269 --> 00:46:15,860
Let's... let's just sleep on this, okay?
940
00:46:15,900 --> 00:46:17,519
We don't have to make
any decisions tonight.
941
00:46:17,539 --> 00:46:18,840
We don't have to do anything.
942
00:46:18,849 --> 00:46:20,940
- It's my decision.
- Okay.
943
00:46:21,039 --> 00:46:23,420
[SIGHS] If you want to go to the school,
944
00:46:23,500 --> 00:46:25,599
I'll take you this week. I promise.
945
00:46:25,639 --> 00:46:27,096
Janelle, what about the board meeting?
946
00:46:27,119 --> 00:46:28,300
This is more important.
947
00:46:28,320 --> 00:46:29,420
[CARL] Janelle, hold up.
948
00:46:29,460 --> 00:46:30,525
We talked about sending him
949
00:46:30,550 --> 00:46:33,019
to a state school... public education.
950
00:46:33,340 --> 00:46:34,960
We agreed on that when he was a baby.
951
00:46:35,119 --> 00:46:36,630
Things have changed, Carl.
952
00:46:36,639 --> 00:46:37,989
No, you've changed.
953
00:46:38,000 --> 00:46:40,039
- Dad, what if I want to go?
- Anton, just be quiet.
954
00:46:40,079 --> 00:46:41,309
Just because you couldn't make it there
955
00:46:41,320 --> 00:46:42,530
doesn't mean I can't.
956
00:46:42,539 --> 00:46:43,550
[JANELLE] Carl!
957
00:46:43,630 --> 00:46:44,860
Hey.
958
00:46:44,960 --> 00:46:46,800
[BOTH PANTING]
959
00:46:46,820 --> 00:46:48,539
You gonna hit me?
960
00:46:48,739 --> 00:46:50,030
Hit me.
961
00:46:50,599 --> 00:46:52,199
Go ahead.
962
00:46:54,570 --> 00:46:55,699
Carl.
963
00:47:01,909 --> 00:47:03,539
So you a man now.
964
00:47:05,650 --> 00:47:07,519
Okay, be a man.
965
00:47:10,750 --> 00:47:13,190
Go see what it's like.
966
00:47:16,090 --> 00:47:17,760
[DOOR OPENS]
967
00:47:18,519 --> 00:47:19,860
[DOOR CLOSES]
968
00:47:23,539 --> 00:47:25,670
[QUIET, ATMOSPHERIC MUSIC]
969
00:47:25,940 --> 00:47:30,920
♪ ♪
970
00:47:36,480 --> 00:47:37,880
[LINE RINGS]
971
00:47:37,940 --> 00:47:40,050
Hi. It's Whitney. Leave a message.
972
00:47:40,059 --> 00:47:42,179
- [PHONE BEEPS]
- Hey, Whit, it's Dad.
973
00:47:42,260 --> 00:47:43,909
Uh, it's super late where you are.
974
00:47:43,920 --> 00:47:45,880
You're probably asleep,
but I just, uh...
975
00:47:45,960 --> 00:47:47,260
I was just calling to say hi.
976
00:47:47,360 --> 00:47:49,980
Mom keeps me informed about
most things, but, um...
977
00:47:50,889 --> 00:47:52,880
good to hear from you once in a while.
978
00:47:52,920 --> 00:47:54,440
It's been a while.
979
00:47:55,369 --> 00:47:56,929
Okay. Love you.
980
00:47:57,030 --> 00:47:58,469
Call me if you can.
981
00:47:58,480 --> 00:48:00,780
If you feel like it. Bye.
982
00:48:14,480 --> 00:48:16,480
[KNOCKING AT DOOR]
983
00:48:27,900 --> 00:48:29,340
Hey.
984
00:48:29,800 --> 00:48:31,480
Hey.
985
00:48:32,869 --> 00:48:34,179
Can I come in?
986
00:48:34,280 --> 00:48:35,760
Of course.
987
00:48:40,679 --> 00:48:42,050
It's nice.
988
00:48:42,079 --> 00:48:43,380
Thanks.
989
00:48:43,840 --> 00:48:45,199
You renting?
990
00:48:45,219 --> 00:48:46,349
Yeah.
991
00:48:46,449 --> 00:48:47,920
Thank God.
992
00:48:47,980 --> 00:48:49,219
How did you find me?
993
00:48:49,480 --> 00:48:52,900
Um, I made Anton tell me where you live.
994
00:48:52,940 --> 00:48:55,159
What, and you drove all the way up here
995
00:48:55,170 --> 00:48:58,099
in the middle of the night?
You didn't call or text or... ?
996
00:48:59,219 --> 00:49:00,219
Should I go?
997
00:49:00,260 --> 00:49:01,860
No, no, please, no.
998
00:49:01,960 --> 00:49:03,900
Sit down.
999
00:49:04,320 --> 00:49:06,750
Can I get you anything?
I... I've got whiskey.
1000
00:49:06,760 --> 00:49:10,239
You can, but let me just
say something first.
1001
00:49:10,340 --> 00:49:11,469
[SIGHS]
1002
00:49:11,570 --> 00:49:13,840
Thank you for what you did.
1003
00:49:15,000 --> 00:49:16,300
I didn't do anything.
1004
00:49:16,320 --> 00:49:17,639
No, you did.
1005
00:49:17,750 --> 00:49:19,380
You stood up for my son.
1006
00:49:20,099 --> 00:49:21,969
That was crazy earlier.
1007
00:49:21,980 --> 00:49:23,719
Well, we've all been there.
1008
00:49:26,750 --> 00:49:28,690
We've been, uh...
1009
00:49:28,789 --> 00:49:31,320
divorced for so long,
1010
00:49:31,340 --> 00:49:33,730
you'd think we'd be over it by now,
1011
00:49:33,829 --> 00:49:36,159
figured out a way to forgive each other,
1012
00:49:36,380 --> 00:49:38,719
find some peace.
1013
00:49:38,820 --> 00:49:41,159
But somehow...
1014
00:49:41,619 --> 00:49:44,119
They say time heals all wounds,
1015
00:49:44,199 --> 00:49:45,659
but sometimes it doesn't.
1016
00:49:46,909 --> 00:49:48,519
No, it doesn't.
1017
00:49:48,619 --> 00:49:50,579
It just makes things worse.
1018
00:49:52,079 --> 00:49:54,179
Anyway, I just...
1019
00:49:56,420 --> 00:49:59,159
Of course he should have
seen the damn school.
1020
00:49:59,179 --> 00:50:00,989
I should have taken him.
1021
00:50:02,800 --> 00:50:04,860
I'm gonna take him this week.
1022
00:50:06,119 --> 00:50:07,690
What about the board meeting?
1023
00:50:07,800 --> 00:50:09,230
What about it?
1024
00:50:09,329 --> 00:50:11,760
If they fire me, they fire me.
1025
00:50:11,869 --> 00:50:14,030
[CHUCKLES]
1026
00:50:14,130 --> 00:50:16,329
Look, what if I take him?
1027
00:50:18,010 --> 00:50:19,579
You?
1028
00:50:19,639 --> 00:50:20,800
I'm the neutral party.
1029
00:50:20,820 --> 00:50:23,139
I can take him there,
introduce him to my friend.
1030
00:50:23,159 --> 00:50:24,679
He can observe a class.
1031
00:50:25,239 --> 00:50:27,579
Then we come back, and he
can make his decision.
1032
00:50:28,239 --> 00:50:29,780
You'd do that?
1033
00:50:29,880 --> 00:50:31,480
I'd be happy to do it.
1034
00:50:31,590 --> 00:50:32,960
If it's okay with you.
1035
00:50:32,980 --> 00:50:34,820
And Carl, of course.
1036
00:50:35,289 --> 00:50:37,110
If it's a choice between this
1037
00:50:37,119 --> 00:50:38,420
and the goddamn Marines,
1038
00:50:38,440 --> 00:50:39,820
who knows? Maybe he would.
1039
00:50:41,059 --> 00:50:42,530
He should go.
1040
00:50:49,739 --> 00:50:52,059
Why are you doing this, Noah?
1041
00:50:53,619 --> 00:50:56,159
You really think my son
is that brilliant?
1042
00:50:58,210 --> 00:50:59,639
Yeah, I do.
1043
00:51:01,199 --> 00:51:03,110
But I'm not doing it for him.
1044
00:51:03,159 --> 00:51:05,219
[QUIET, AMBIENT MUSIC]
1045
00:51:05,320 --> 00:51:09,139
♪ ♪
1046
00:51:18,260 --> 00:51:19,960
Mmm.
1047
00:51:22,099 --> 00:51:24,130
[PANTING]
1048
00:51:34,079 --> 00:51:36,250
[GRUNTING]
1049
00:51:45,460 --> 00:51:46,989
[CHUCKLING]
1050
00:51:47,090 --> 00:51:48,550
Does it turn you on
1051
00:51:48,559 --> 00:51:50,030
- that I'm your boss?
- Oh, Jesus.
1052
00:51:50,130 --> 00:51:52,090
- Janelle, shut the fuck up.
- [JANELLE CHUCKLING]
1053
00:51:55,900 --> 00:51:57,400
[MOANING]
1054
00:52:09,000 --> 00:52:10,309
Oh, my. Oh, my.
1055
00:52:10,409 --> 00:52:13,550
[CHUCKLING] Oh, my God.
1056
00:52:13,650 --> 00:52:15,150
[PANTING]
1057
00:52:15,250 --> 00:52:16,949
Oh, my.
1058
00:52:17,989 --> 00:52:20,019
[CHUCKLING]
1059
00:52:23,239 --> 00:52:26,239
[BOTH PANTING]
1060
00:52:26,659 --> 00:52:28,530
Oh, fuck.
1061
00:52:39,039 --> 00:52:40,800
Excuse me. Can you tell me
1062
00:52:40,820 --> 00:52:42,480
what the connecting gate to New York is?
1063
00:52:42,579 --> 00:52:43,989
We don't have that information.
1064
00:52:44,000 --> 00:52:45,909
You'll have to check in on the ground.
1065
00:52:46,019 --> 00:52:47,550
Okay, thanks.
1066
00:52:48,690 --> 00:52:49,980
Hey.
1067
00:52:50,159 --> 00:52:51,900
Because we were delayed taking off,
1068
00:52:51,920 --> 00:52:53,766
we're gonna have to book
it when we hit the ground
1069
00:52:53,789 --> 00:52:54,949
to make our connection, okay?
1070
00:52:55,019 --> 00:52:56,920
Should've got a direct flight.
1071
00:52:57,559 --> 00:52:59,210
Yeah, well, your mother
booked this yesterday.
1072
00:52:59,230 --> 00:53:01,429
We were lucky to get any flight at all.
1073
00:53:02,699 --> 00:53:04,320
Did you talk to your dad?
1074
00:53:05,079 --> 00:53:06,679
He won't call me back.
1075
00:53:12,380 --> 00:53:14,199
You're listening to my book?
1076
00:53:14,239 --> 00:53:15,480
Yeah.
1077
00:53:15,699 --> 00:53:17,539
It's pretty good, actually.
1078
00:53:17,650 --> 00:53:19,409
Thanks.
1079
00:53:20,349 --> 00:53:23,719
[INDISTINCT CHATTER]
1080
00:53:24,159 --> 00:53:25,579
What?
1081
00:53:25,679 --> 00:53:27,420
- _
- That's weird.
1082
00:53:29,690 --> 00:53:30,880
Yo.
1083
00:53:35,360 --> 00:53:36,929
Hi.
1084
00:53:37,030 --> 00:53:40,019
Uh, we missed our connecting
flight to New York, so...
1085
00:53:40,039 --> 00:53:41,099
Uh, no.
1086
00:53:42,119 --> 00:53:43,340
"No"?
1087
00:53:43,440 --> 00:53:46,219
No, we have no more flights
to New York today.
1088
00:53:46,409 --> 00:53:48,300
What about the shuttle?
1089
00:53:48,320 --> 00:53:50,269
They're all booked. [SIGHS]
1090
00:53:50,280 --> 00:53:52,690
We've had delays all day
because of the wind.
1091
00:53:52,699 --> 00:53:55,260
- What about standby?
- Good luck with standby.
1092
00:53:55,900 --> 00:53:57,425
Come on, is there anything
you can do to help?
1093
00:53:57,449 --> 00:54:01,150
Well, let me see if I
can switch you to...
1094
00:54:01,260 --> 00:54:02,420
Ah.
1095
00:54:02,719 --> 00:54:04,800
Tomorrow night, 8:23.
1096
00:54:04,840 --> 00:54:06,530
No, we have to get to New York tonight.
1097
00:54:06,539 --> 00:54:07,630
Then rent a car.
1098
00:54:15,880 --> 00:54:17,969
They're gonna run out of cars.
1099
00:54:18,070 --> 00:54:20,679
[CELL PHONE RINGING]
1100
00:54:23,440 --> 00:54:24,619
Cole?
1101
00:54:28,420 --> 00:54:29,719
Wait.
1102
00:54:31,519 --> 00:54:32,920
Wait. Cole, slow down.
1103
00:54:32,940 --> 00:54:34,119
What do you mean?
1104
00:54:35,019 --> 00:54:37,300
- _
- [ANTON] So, who's coming to get us?
1105
00:54:37,320 --> 00:54:38,679
[NOAH] An old friend.
1106
00:54:39,860 --> 00:54:41,389
[HORN HONKS]
1107
00:54:41,500 --> 00:54:44,460
[TENSE, ATMOSPHERIC MUSIC]
1108
00:54:44,570 --> 00:54:47,019
♪ ♪
1109
00:54:51,469 --> 00:54:54,039
[ANNOUNCER OVER P.A.] Welcome
to O'Hare International Airport.
1110
00:54:54,079 --> 00:54:55,820
Loading zones for rideshare services
1111
00:54:55,840 --> 00:54:57,639
are located on the upper level
1112
00:54:57,739 --> 00:55:00,260
of terminals one, three and four.
1113
00:55:14,340 --> 00:55:16,690
I'm sure she's fine.
1114
00:55:17,400 --> 00:55:19,019
That makes one of us.
1115
00:55:25,659 --> 00:55:28,860
- Synced & corrected by MementMori -
-- www.addic7ed.com --
1116
00:55:28,900 --> 00:55:30,800
[RHYTHMIC, ATMOSPHERIC MUSIC]
1117
00:55:30,820 --> 00:55:35,840
♪ ♪
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