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[mellow music]

[Rose] Turn to the right
and then look to the left.

Like, your body
to the right, left.

[camera humming]

[camera clicks]

One more.

[sighs]

- [camera humming]
- It takes so long.

It doesn't take so long.

[chair rattling]

[chuckles]

[camera clicks]

- Okay, yeah.
- Okay, that's it.

[man sighs]

[pensive music]

I love you.

I love you too.

I've got to go, please.

Everything's fine, Mom, okay?

[Rose]
I love you.

I love you too.

[car door opens]

[car door closes]

[car receding]

[sighs]

[sighs]

[gentle piano music]

[water bubbling]

[man]
Hi, if you found this video,

it means that
you are searching for something

and I totally understand that

because I search too.

I'm a military dad,

so here's some advice:

Initially write everything down.

Okay, because you might
have to share it

with somebody down the line.

So just write it down, okay?

Another important thing

that helped me get
to where I am today

and that is that
I found support groups,

there's so many people
out there like you, like me.

They know the pressure,
they know the anxiety,

and they can help,
I promise you.

So just, try to stay positive,

reach out to them, be available.

I can tell you as
I mentioned earlier, I'm a...

proud,

proud military dad.

Okay, and the main thing
you got to remember,

because I learned it
the hard way,

no news is good news.

I promise you,
no news is good news.

Because you have to
remember that your loved one,

they are fulfilling
his or her destiny,

they want to be there
and they are trained,

and they know
what they're doing.

Take up a new hobby,
learn a new skill.

Hell, I even learned
how to swim.

Another thing that helps for me,

maybe This isn't
for everybody but...

Praying.

Praying.

I promise you.

God knows.

[Rose]
How do you know God knows?

[whispering] How do you know
there's a God?

[water bubbling]

[car humming]

[indistinct radio chatter]

[muffled explosions]

[engine rumbling]

[explosions intensify]

[sounds stop]

[Rose]
He left a message.

He said he was calling
to tell me...

that he loved me
and everything was fine.

He didn't sound fine.

He said he would
call back tomorrow,

which would mean today...

tomorrow's become today.

He called at 11 a.m.

so I, I have four more
hours to reach that point.

My father died in Desert Storm.

And...

I still miss him.

I still listen to his messages.

[exhales]

"I love you."

"Everything is fine."

"Don't worry about me," he says,

"Everything's fine."

[sighs]

[pouring rain]

[gentle music]

[Rose]
Hi, Mary.

How are you?

- So pretty.
- Thank you.

[customer] Hi,
I'm looking for a book on medieval art?

Oh, talk to her.

- Hi.
- Hi.

What are you looking for today?

You know, medieval art,
it's for class.

- Well, we've got this, in general.
- Okay.

Then we got this.

And then there's Giotto,
he changed everything.

He was the first
to show human emotion.

- Oh, wow, you should teach.
- Right.

No, I'm serious.

So what should I get?

One general, then one of these.

But, he knew Dante.

- And he painted his portrait.
- Mm-hmm.

And even in just a profile

- he captures the...
- Hello.

Hi, sorry to interrupt.

- Claire?
- Yeah.

Dominic, from the, you know...

[Claire]
Yeah.

Uh, so, I'm just going
to run across the street

- get us a table.
- Oh, yeah, okay.

- See you in a minute.
- Yeah.

Do you want the book?

Yeah, well, you know, he...

- It's okay.
- Okay, thank you.

[footsteps receding]

[laughing]

Kids these days,
I mean, that was awkward.

I feel so old.

Tinder.

I guess.

I use it.

No, really?

Yeah, all the time,
other sites too.

I don't want to know.

Mm.

It's so easy.

- And you know, just convenient...
- No.

Just please, stop,

change this... no,
change the subject.

- I know, but you really should.
- No, stop.

- No.
- Okay, okay, um...

- Change the subject.
- I know.

I have started
selling my jewelry.

- Congratulations.
- Thank you.

Are you going to keep the store?

Yeah, of course,
I love the store.

I love art, books.

Yeah, history,
and it feels safe there.

Yeah, and it's a great
place to me to come by.

Congratulations on
selling your jewelry.

[chuckles] Thank you.

[sipping]

So...

I laughed,

but honestly,
it made me feel sick.

And I really feel old.

- When you're naughty?
- Mm-hmm.

You're going to think back
to when you're 70 and young.

- Mm-hmm.
- [chuckles]

So what, what didn't
you like about it,

that it didn't obey some
strict aesthetic rule?

Yeah, I guess that's what I do.

Mm.

Well, I'm not saying
that you should, uh...

hook up with
strangers or anything,

but you could enjoy your life

a little more, once in a while.

I know.

It just feels
like I can't breathe

until he comes home.

What's the matter?

You don't like my risotto?

I love your risotto.

So, do you want to hook up?

- [laughs]
- Or something?

That's what I hear
my students say all the time.

- I love when you laugh like that.
- [chuckles]

Some of my colleagues
do that stuff.

- Oh, yeah?
- Mm-hmm.

Which ones?

You know,

Jorge, Angela, yeah...

And you?

Because I can't.

Why can't you?

Because I can't.

I think we should
go on a vacation.

- [chuckles]
- You know...

Uh, Egypt, Italy, Greece.

Hmm.

I miss those places.

I, I, I want to...

make them feel alive
again, you know?

My classes, they've gone stale,

you could photograph.

When, for how long?

Oh, it'd have to be
between semesters,

at least three weeks,
I want to immerse.

- I can't leave.
- Why?

- Because I can't leave.
- How come?

Because, because of
what if something happened?

So, I mean what if he calls,
or she calls, or Bob calls?

When are you going to start
living your own life?

I just...

I mean, I, I just...

I can't wait much longer.

I'm not asking you to wait.

I want to...

I, I want to fall in love
with my work again,

you know, I want to...

I want it to make me feel...

alive and, and, and vital,
I've been rereading.

Joseph Campbell and Robert
Graves, the old myths.

You know,

I, I'm looking
to reconnect back to

like it was when I was young and

when I wanted to study
mythology in the first place.

But you can't
recapture your youth.

I understand, I,
I'm talking about recapturing

and I'm talking about
recapturing the essence

of what inspired me in the first
place, you know, reinvent it.

Re...

re-establish some kind
of current connection, right?

Re... reclaim it.

I want to write a book.

- You should do that.
- And you should come with me.

[sighs]

Yeah.

[water bubbling]

[indistinct radio chatter]

[gunshots]

[cell phone ringing]

Hello?

Hello?

- Hello? Charlie?
- [Charlie] Mom.

- Are you okay?
- Yeah, I'm fine.

I have to go, I just wanted to
let you know everything's fine...

Wait, just wait a minute.

I want to tell you something.

Please, don't worry, Mom.

No, please listen to me.

[stuttering]

I want to tell you that,
that I'm really sorry.

I'm sorry, because...

I never got to be just,
just your mom.

I never got to be
just your mother.

I, I never got to say, "Honey,
don't be so hard on him."

I, I had to play both sides.

I'm really sorry.

Did, did you hear me?
Did you hear what I said?

Yeah.

Okay.

It's not your fault.

- Okay.
- It's okay, I love you.

Yeah, I love you.

I have to go.

[line beeping]

[water lapping]

I'm scared.

[Henry] Well,
swimming in towel is scary.

- I'm afraid of the water.
- [Henry] Okay, that's fine.

It's all good.

[birds chirping]

You stay on the steps if you
want, all you want is fine.

Hey, I'm not going
to touch you at all,

just stay in the distance, okay,
what makes you comfortable.

You're half wet. It's good.

[both chuckle]

You can do it.

- It's good.
- [grunts]

You're doing good.

Hey, hey.

Can you put your head
under water?

Well, I can.

Take a shot.

I don't know how
I swim like that.

You're going to feel
like that too.

Not today.

How do you feel?

All right, do you want
to get out? You can get out.

[dog barking]

[car engine starting]

[gravel crunching]

[indistinct chatter]

[typing]

[sighs]

So I submitted some writing
to the support group online

and the response was
to put it in God's hands,

pray, be strong...

And one guy writes that
I'm writing like a crazy person

and I should see a therapist.

[chuckles]

[kissing]

I should be so proud
blah, blah, blah...

Hmm.

- You're burning it.
- They get burned.

Oh, my God, with ketchup,
that's disgusting.

I don't care.

[kisses]

You're going to burn yourself,

and that is seriously
disgusting.

I didn't.

Hot.

Hmm, yeah, that's
what happens when...

- I didn't burn myself, though.
- You burn yourself.

- [mumbling]
- [chuckles]

- [explosions and gunshots]
- [indistinct radio chatter]

[car honking]

[reporter]
...Where they were encouraged

to view every Iraqi as the enemy

and they committed
many massacres

beyond what we know...

So, then...

I cleaned his room.

And I found things,
he was smoking heroin.

I did these anonymous test.

I don't even know
what I'm doing here.

There was this article
someone said, um,

"Boy, we sure didn't think
we'd be firing missiles

when we left Fort Hood
last December."

That's when he left Fort Hood,

in December.

I brought this child
into the world, why?

For what?

So he can just die?

In fear?

That's what's killing me.

I feel like I, I, I have to...

hold on, I have to wait for him.

And then what?

What do you mean?

And then, what?

He goes to live with his wife,

live his own life...

and what are you going to do?

Your daughter will graduate,

she'll be living somewhere,

moving on with her life.

And what are you going to do?

- I don't know.
- I want you to try something.

I want you

to paint your bedroom the color
you always wanted to paint it,

and I want you to write.

You can't repress these things,

you have to start
moving forward.

Do you want to make
an appointment for next week?

[gentle music]

What else do you guys do?

Well, I'm working
on my PhD, art history.

[woman]
I wanted to go to grad school

and decided to work.

I design clothes. [chuckles]

That's right, I'm, I'm working
on creating my own line.

- Wish me luck.
- Good luck.

But you're an artist too?

Yeah, I paint, I draw,
I sculpt a little bit too.

My, um, my daughter
is studying chemistry.

- That's nice.
- Yeah.

And my son is deployed
somewhere over in Iraq,

but he was...

he is a really good artist too.

[man]
Well, that's great.

I mean, that'll be super
intense though, right?

[Rose]
Yeah.

- And you're okay though, yeah?
- Yeah.

Yes, so, um...

you know, thank him for
his service to our country.

I will if, um...

I will, when he calls.

[chuckling]

I have an uncle
who fought in Vietnam and

supposedly it helps if
you talk to him about your day

or you know,
show him pictures your dog,

just like normal things,
you know,

to take their mind off of...

Yeah.

- You know, would you want some?
- [rattling]

They're edibles.

Like, it's got
to be really hard,

given that your son could...

Shit, I'll take some.

But, but they're not for you.

You're always taking them.

It's all right.

Bye.
You know, you owe me though.

- See you, guys.
- Bye.

- You owe me, are you sure?
- Yeah.

- Thank you.
- All right.

- I'll see you later, all right?
- Yeah, okay, bye.

- [car humming]
- [indistinct radio chatter]

[cell phone ringing]

[rustling]

Hello? Hello?

- Hello?
- [Charlie] Mom, it's me, I'm okay.

Charlie? I love you.

I'm so sorry
about everything that happened.

I'm, I'm sorry.

I love you too, Mom.

Charlie I, I...

I got to go now, Mom.

[line humming]

[car honking]

[Rose]
So according to Arabella...

he tells somebody
at school he has cancer.

- But he didn't have cancer, did he?
- Uh-uh.

- Okay, so he told them that.
- Yeah.

He tells someone he has cancer

and then the headmaster
asks everybody

to pray for him during assembly.

She said she was mortified.

- Mortified?
- Yeah.

That's a good word
but still, that's crazy.

- Completely.
- [doorbell ringing]

The whole thing makes me sick.

Just talking about it
makes me sick, nausea.

Jean-Paul Sartre, Nausea.

Okay, well, if it...

If it's any consolation,
when I was his age

I had a bit of a drug problem
myself and, you know,

look at me, look,

I turned out okay,
if I do say so myself.

Military might
straighten him out.

I hear that happens sometimes.

You're not alone.

And now...

I'm going to go
grind some grain.

I'll see you tomorrow.

[gasping]

You did it, you did it!

[chuckling] You did it,
it's great.

- How are you, are you okay?
- [coughing]

- Okay, hold my hands.
- [coughing]

Okay, get your breath,
it's fine.

Now just come with me and kick.

You said a... you said you
wanted to learn to swim, right?

I have you.

Just kick your legs.

Look at you swimming.

Yay, yay, yay! Or sort of.

Just keep going.

Do a little turn here.

Kick your legs,
keep getting them up straight.

Behind you.

Yeah, it's better, it's easier.

Look at you, this is great.

You're swimming.

It's good, yeah...

sort of.

[water bubbling]

Legs up, all right, just kick
them, hold my hands, kick them.

- [water bubbling]
- Whoa!

[pages rustling]

[dog barking]

[pensive music]

[water bubbling]

[water lapping]

[water bubbling]

- [music intensifies]
- [gunshots and explosions]

[reversed sound]

[gunshots and explosions stop]

[Frank]
You were sleepwalking.

No, I wasn't.

Rose, you were
fucking sleepwalking.

No, I wasn't I, I woke up,

I walked into the living room,

Charlie was standing
there covered in dust,

and he said, "This is
what happens to us, Mom.

This is where we all end up,

you know, like, dust to dust."

- And then I...
- And then...

I woke you up because
you were sleeping on the sofa.

[coffee sloshing]

And?

- I'm just saying it.
- Whatever.

Hey.

Thank you.

You're welcome.

Rose, Charlie's
going to be fine.

Okay?

He's in the reserves and they're
not going to send him to the front.

He's not trained for that and...

Arabella,

she's in an Ivy League,
she's fine.

You don't know that,
you don't know that she's fine,

you can't assume because
she's in an Ivy League school

that everything is fine

- and IUDs explode...
- IED rooms.

- It's an IED, not an IUD.
- Yes, stop.

- You know what I'm talking about.
- I know,

but there's nothing you can do
about it, so stop it.

But I can't.

It's like this thing
is seeping in

between my thoughts,

it's like a bee,

and it's following me
like a shadow.

We can't keep doing this.

Stop.

- I'm finished, I'm done.
- Oh...

- It's over.
- Stop it.

Fat, ugly, old, stupid.

- Stop.
- And I'm running out of money.

Oh, you... Shut the fuck up,
you're fine, okay?

[Rose sighs]

Rose...

- Light of my life...
- [laughs]

...fire of my loins, come on.

[mocking]

So many things,

but you are so fucking
stubborn... [chuckles]

your head is made of rock.

So is yours.

You're stubborn too.

I think you're
absolutely sensational.

Okay.

[water bubbling]

[Arabella] Charlie says if
you don't answer his text,

we will regret it
for the rest of our lives.

I hate him, he's frightening,

if you don't do something...

I can't live with him, you don't
know what happened in New York,

you don't know what he's like,
you're too stupid.

I had to pretend I was asleep.

I thought he was
going to kill me.

You're an idiot.

All my friends
say you're an idiot.

[pensive music]

[birds chirping]

[struggle]

[Rose]
Open the fucking door!

[Charlie]
No, get the fuck away!

[Rose]
What the fuck is that?

[Charlie]
It's nothing,

none of your fucking business!

[Rose]
Give it!

[Charlie]
No, stop.

[Rose]
What the fuck is this?

[Charlie]
It's ethene,

just stop, get the fuck out!

- [Rose] No!
- [clanking]

[Charlie] Stop going
through my fucking shit!

[Rose]
What the fuck is going on?

[Charlie] Nothing's going on,
you're fucking crazy, get the fuck out!

[door slams shut]

[birds chirping]

[gunshots]

[reporter] ...yes,
there's an element of ISIS,

I don't know how dominant it is,

that is, you know, trying
to establish the caliphate.

And they are beheading people

and they are imposing
a very strict

interpretation of Sharia Law.

But there are also,

and I would suspect that
their best military figures,

there's also a large
contingent of people

that are fighting the same
battle that they were fighting

when the United States
initially invaded.

The fact is there was no
Al Qaeda presence in Iraq

before George W. Bush
made the decision to invade,

except in the Kurdish region,
in the north of Iraq,

which was not under
Saddam Hussein's control.

In fact, it was under the control of U.S.
backed entities.

Look, there's other strokes,

and you'll get to them,
the dog paddle,

it is goofy, I agree.

It's weird
and it feels weird but,

but like this though,
don't let any air through there,

little, little like scoops
there, like ice-cream.

Breaststroke, you'll get there.

Kick like a frog,

and the crawl,

that's also known as freestyle.

[water lapping]

Butterfly, might be advanced.

- What?
- I'm never going to learn.

[birds chirping]

You are going to learn.
That's the deal.

- [reporter] ...an epic formula for blowback.
- [gunshots]

[reporter 2]
According to Yahoo News

the Obama Administration
acknowledged a policy

announced last year
calling for near certainty

for no civilian
casualties in drone strikes

will not apply
to the current bombing.

The admission came
in response to queries

about a strike that
killed up to a dozen civilians

in the Syrian village
of Kafr Dariyan last week.

[reporter] This is kind of
Kabuki drone theater here,

because the reality is that
even in their drone strikes,

that are supposedly done with
precision and every, you know,

every precaution is taken
not to kill civilians.

The reality is that
they've created a mathematical

process for
churning out the number...

[papers rustling]

[plastic bag rustling]

[sobbing]

[water bubbling]

So, uh, I'm not going to be able
to have lunch with you today.

Okay.

I have a meeting
for my jewelry, wish me luck.

Good luck.

Thank you.

[chuckles]

- Do you speak Italian?
- [Rose] No.

- No?
- No.

- Why?
- Why?

Because I don't.

Well, that's stupido,
you should learn.

- It's too late.
- It's never too late.

Listen to me, Italian is the most
beautiful language in the world.

[whispering] I don't speak it
either, but I'm learning.

And look, if you love
art and history,

and you must, otherwise
you wouldn't be working here,

then you should listen in
and talk in Italian.

Okay, I will.

- Good. Goodbye!
- Okay, okay.

[mellow music]

Okay, so he's either crazy...

- He's crazy.
- Or he likes you.

Maybe he's here to bring you
some kind of message.

It'll wake you from your
[whispering] slumber.

I'm, I'm awake.

I think you should do it.

It's better than...
Whatever this is.

I can't get comfortable.

- Well, give me a...
- You hog the couch.

I'm just trying to be cozy.

You're not.

- I can't sit.
- Come on, live with it.

- [chuckles]
- Let's absorb each other's...

stuff.

[chuckles]

Mm.

So, um, hey.

What?

Um, Egypt, Morocco or Greece?

- Um, that's too difficult.
- Choose.

- I can't.
- Yeah, you can.

Choose.

One week each.

Uh, uh, it's not going to work.

It's just... Okay.

Come on, Rose, choose.

I want to go to all three.

Yeah, all right,
well, fine, but pick one.

[camera clicks]

Okay, fine.

Let me see.

Hmm.

So, is this like a tour thing?

Or...

Are we going to stay
in fancy hotels?

It depends.

Are we going to rent a plane?

[chuckles] Depends, could be.

That's Sekhmet.

- Yeah... [snaps a finger] perfect.
- [chuckles]

I'm not one of your students.

Oh, I know you're not
one of my students.

No, that's great, Egypt.

It's, uh...

It's the oldest culture,
that and Sumeria.

I can't.

I'm buying two tickets.

- Yep, all right, now.
- [camera clicks]

14A and 14B.

I told you.

[car humming]

[indistinct radio chatter]

- [soldier] Two, one, zero.
- [explosion]

[gunshots]

[Rose]
And there's more,

but I've told you all of this.

I, uh, what's the point?

What good is this?

Just keep moving forward,

acknowledge your feelings,

write, photograph, get it out.

Did you paint your room?

[roller rolling]

[sighs]

[sighs]

[Rose] Remember when we
met them at the airport?

That was the turning point.

Are we really going to have
this conversation again?

[sighs]

[water bubbling]

[slow heavy breathing]

[Frank] Hey, Rose,
Rose, [screaming] Rose!

Hey...

I'm hungry,
let's go get something to eat.

Okay.

- It's freezing.
- Grab your coat, let's go.

Okay.

[sighs]

[papers falling]

[gunshots]

[indistinct radio chatter]

[mellow music]

- You ordered a mocha?
- Thank you.

Hello.

What's up?

I'm photographing
this ugly fucking city.

Oh, some of us like it here.

Then I'm happy for some of you.

- Do you mind if I sit here?
- Go ahead.

Go ahead take a seat,
enjoy the view.

Thanks.

Can I, can I see your pictures?

Yeah, let me get it
to the start.

There.

Ah.

You know, you say that you are

"photographing this ugly city,"

but these...

these are...

...gorgeous!

Hey.

...gorgeous, right?

Yes.

Thank you.

[chuckles]

[door unlatching]

Hey.

Hello.

[door slams shut]

[sighs]

Are you writing?

If you can call it that.

- I brought you flowers.
- Oh!

- [kissing]
- Thank you.

I'll, I'll put them
in, in water.

They're really beautiful.

I'm, I'm just trying
to get it out,

you know, that's
what everyone says to do,

and it's hard because...

I see him
in my head crying and...

he tells me that everything
is fine, but it isn't fine.

That's just what they're
telling him to say.

You just, stop.

What?

You sound like a parrot,

over, and over, and over.

That was mean.

Rose, I, I was there,

with you, when, when,
when you spoke to Charlie

and you said to him

that you would rather

he died doing something good,

then you find him dead
in his bed

with a needle in his arm,
that could have happened.

You did your best.

Instead you're...

you're trying to make up for
something that you never had.

It's like you're doing
penance for surviving,

- you're turning yourself into...
- He could actually die.

[screaming]
We could all die, at any moment!

So fucking stop.

[screaming]
I can't fucking stop, I can't!

Well, I can't

do this anymore.

I'm done.

[water bubbling]

What the fuck, Rose, Rose!

What the fuck are you doing?

Hey, are you trying to drown?

- [gasps]
- Hey!

What the fuck is wrong with you?
Don't do that.

You're not allowed to do that,

hey, you're not allowed
to try to drown.

Do you understand me?
You're not allowed to do that.

That's not okay, what
the fuck is wrong with you?

- [panting]
- [water lapping]

Oh, my God.

[breathing heavily]

[wind howling]

[crows cawing]

[door unlatching]

Hey.

Hello.

I'm, uh...

I'm, I'm going to New York.

Great.

I, uh, I took a stand as a...

a visiting professor
for a semester at Columbia,

so it'll give me
a chance earn right.

Congratulations.

Come with me.

No, thank you.

[thud]

Don't fucking lie to me.

Don't lie to me, you can't just get
a job at Columbia just like that.

- I'm not stupid.
- Nobody said you were stupid.

You're just leaving, Frank.

I am.

Okay.

Okay.

- Do you want me to say it?
- Yeah, say it.

You're so insecure.

Nobody can talk to you.
Nobody can deal with you.

You don't talk to anybody.

Everything drives you crazy,
everything.

Anything sets you off,

it's... all about you,

your, your children
and your past.

Oh, fuck you,
like it isn't about you.

- You're so important in your job...
- It's not about me.

- ...and you form in the future some fantasy...
- It's not about my job.

- Passion that nobody cares about.
- This is about you.

This is on you,
this is your fucking fault!

[sighs]

So, when are you leaving?

Sooner or later.

- Like a week? One week?
- Something like that.

Why don't you just leave now?

I mean, that's what you
really want to do. Isn't it?

Rose, come on, I'm trying
to talk to you, okay, look,

- a friend found me a place in Carroll Gardens.
- A friend?

Yeah, a friend.

Carroll Gardens, Rose,
we talked about this.

Okay, let's fucking do this!

Just cut the crap and leave.

Rose, come on.

Come on.

I'm trying to...

I'm trying to do this
with some kind of dignity, Rose.

Just go.

Just cut it, you know,
like, cut the crap,

- just fucking go.
- Rose, can we do this with some kind of dignity?

Some kind, please.

Just no, Frank, like, no, like,
you came in here and you knew.

- It's really late, you just came in here, you're leaving.
- All right, okay, yeah.

- Go, just go, just fucking go!
- Okay, I'm going, I'm going.

[water bubbling]

[birds chirping]

[Frank chuckles]

Hey.

I was, uh...

reading around in the...

bookshelves and I found this.

- Remember that?
- [sighs]

It was a good day.

You know, this isn't
about Charlie being deployed.

This is about you.

Dealing with your past.

Thanatos, the Angel of Death,

follows you everywhere
all the time.

And I can't do this anymore.

It's okay.

- Just go to New York.
- I am.

Okay.

I have to.

Okay.

It's late.

This doesn't make sense.

I know.

But it's too late.

Just, just go.

I need you to go, right now.

[counselor] I know this
is very hard for you.

And I understand that
you don't like support groups.

I don't blame you.

You think that you're not
as bad off as those other people

and many of them
are very Christian based.

And you don't really
believe in anything right now,

especially not God, I get it.

But you need to recognize

that your fears

and your sadness...

are valid.

And there are
others who understand.

And they know that
you have to move through it

to get to the other side.

Uh...

My ride's here.

Great.

I'll, uh...

I'll have Natasha stop by and
pick up the rest of my things.

Okay.

Great.

[car humming]

[indistinct radio chatter]

[gunshots]

[camera clicks]

[helicopter engine humming]

[mellow music]

[liquid sloshing]

- [knocking on glass]
- Good mor...

Good morning.

Good morning.

Hello.

I want to, I want
to tell you something.

Actually, I want to
ask you something first.

Are you happy?

What kind of question is that?

It is a question,
answer yes or no.

Define happiness.

So you avoided the question,

which is an answer
in itself, "no."

You're not happy.

Well.

Everything about you
says you're sad,

you're, you're wilting
like an old woman.

Older than your probable age.

You don't know
what you're talking about.

What are you talking about?

Well, tell me
I'm not saying the truth.

You don't know me.

You are no sharey.

Been that one.

I think I already know.

Listen, I'm going to...

I'm going to tell you something.

I lost my son

three months after he was born.

And I lost my wife...

during his birth.

I was in my 20s
and I thought to myself,

"What do I do?

How do I live."

You know what,

I wanted to travel to museums

because I love art.

Yeah, lucky for you,

you had the money to travel.

Money?

No, it was much more
to the calling than that.

Okay, right.

Hey, listen, I'm talking
about the will to live.

Love.

We'll never see
each other again.

Do, do whisper to me,

tell me why you're not living.

How do you know I'm not living?

We'll never see each other.

Whisper to me like the angel
in the Giotto painting.

[whispering] I made choices...

they affected my children...

my daughter is miserable...

and my son is somewhere in Iraq,

he could die, just like that,

for no reason.

You know,

life makes absolutely no sense.

Schopenhauer said that...

"Men in one hand
the tormented souls

and in the other
the devils in it."

And your only salvation is to

live life in Heaven...

or at least enjoy the Hell.

You know, you need to think that you
can control all these other souls.

And who am I to think
that I can help you?

Well...

Goodbye.

Beautiful, sad woman.

[car humming]

[seagulls squawking]

[waves crushing]

[door latches]

[mellow music]

Hey, how are you doing?

I'm great, how are you?

Uh, not so great, thank you.

Why?

Well, my ex is being
kind of a douche.

Oh, I'm, I'm sorry.

He wants a percentage
of my jewelry company.

- [sniffing]
- Can he do that?

Uh, well, uh, yeah,
I guess he, he started it, um,

it was like a joke to him, he
just handed me his credit card

and he was like,
"Here, do whatever you want.

And I will do whatever I want,

and I will fuck whoever
I want, when I want,

and who cares,
because you're nothing.

[sobbing]

You can just...

raise the children and,
and show up at events

and then I'll put you
in a limo and I'll go

fuck somebody
else in another limo."

I didn't even know you had kids.

Yeah, I have three,
I have three children.

They are all grown
and they hate me.

Because daddy was one
who knew all the movie stars

and mommy was the crazy,
jealous, angry

mother who made them
do homework.

I thought...

I don't know what I thought.

[sighs]

Yeah, but now that I finally,
you know, I have, like,

my work, something,

and he wants a percentage of it.

- I had no idea.
- Yeah, fucking asshole.

He represents,
you know... [sniffing]

uh, actors, you know, writers,
all those kind of people.

- Oh.
- Although he lost his better, biggest client.

Well, he killed himself,

and that set him off
in that kind of depression or,

or some kind of aftershock
or some shit like that.

Oh.

I know it's, he's just
lashing out, I guess,

but you know, I still like him.

It's, it's going to be okay,
it's going to be okay.

I mean, look at you.

You're, you're so beautiful.

And you have this...

amazing, famous
jewelry design company

that all the bougies
want to represent,

you're always running off
with some man.

I'm lonely, Rose.

- [sniffing]
- I know.

[sobbing]

I understand.

I understand.

It's going to be okay.

It's going to be okay.

- [sighs]
- It's going to be okay.

You just have
to remember to breathe,

that, that's supposed to help.

- [mellow music]
- [sobbing]

[sighs]

[car humming]

[beeping]

[door unlatches]

[door latches]

[cell phone ringing]

[rustling]

Hello? Hello?

- [line beeping]
- Hello? Hello?

[screaming and thudding]

[line beeping]

[dogs barking]

[line beeping]

- [beeping fades]
- [sighs]

[kid] Boo, boo, boo!
Boo, boo, boo, boo!

Look, mommy.

[simulates screaming]

[simulates explosion]

[simulates explosion]

[kid playing with toy soldiers]

[water bubbling]

[water lapping]

There you go... That's it.
Yes! Yes! You're swimming.

I, I was?

Yeah, you're swimming,
you just paddled up

from the bottom
on your own accord

and you got your own breath,
that's swimming.

That, that's not swimming.

That, that's swimming, Rosie.

No, that's not swimming.

That's almost or whatever,

but that's not swimming,

that doesn't count!

You need to relax, Rose.

You need to just
calm the fuck down.

- I can't.
- Because you were swimming.

You have a bad attitude,

do I have to throw you
to the deep end?

Because I'll do it,
I'll just, I'll just grab you

on your little ribs
and toss you...

- into the deep.
- [screaming]

[chuckles]

[water lapping]

You're standing, right?

Now go under and come back up.

But come back up.

[roller rolling]

[cell phone ringing]

Hello?

Hello?

[louder] Hello?

[Charlie]
Mom, it's me.

I just want to let you know
I'm fine.

I love you.

I love you too, Mom,
don't worry about me, I'm fine.

Of course I'm worried about you,
I'm your mother.

I'm fine.

I have to go, Mom, okay?

I love you, everything's okay.

[sobbing]

[pensive music]

[humming a song]

[coughing]

[vomiting]

[panting]

[Henry]
There she goes, there she goes.

[water splashing]

[chuckles] Yes!

Rose, that's enough, yes!

[laughs]

- Yes!
- I swam.

- You swam!
- That, that was swimming.

Did you, did you breathe out
here? You picked your head up?

- Yeah.
- You swam, that's swimming, that's exactly swimming.

- Okay, I swam.
- [Henry laughs]

And the gold medal...

goes to...

Ro... you don't look very happy.

- No, I can swim now.
- You can swim.

- That was the deal.
- You just swam.

[laughs]

- [mellow music]
- [Rose] I'm not the only one,

there are millions
of fathers and mothers

of soldiers all over the world,

throughout the history
of being human,

waiting.

Enemy soldiers' mothers waiting.

What's the difference?

We gave birth to something
that is suffering and could die.

We try to hold them
from far away,

try to send love, send prayers,

send anger,
so they won't die in fear.

But, we have no control.

We can't even protect ourselves.

We want to say,
"It will be all right,"

but we can't.

[car humming]

♪ Oh, Danny boy, the pipes
the pipes, are calling ♪

♪ From glen to glen
and down the mountain side ♪

♪ The summer's gone
and all the roses falling ♪

♪ 'Tis you must go, 'tis you
must go and I must bide ♪

♪ But come ye back
when summer's in the meadow ♪

♪ Or when the valley's
hushed and white with snow ♪

♪ 'Tis I'll be there
in sunshine or in shadow ♪

♪ Oh, Danny boy, oh, Danny boy
I love you so ♪

♪ But if you come and all
the flowers are dying ♪

♪ If I am dead
as dead I may well be ♪

♪ You'll come and find
the place where I am lying ♪

♪ And kneel and say an Ave
there for me ♪

♪ And I shall hear though
soft your tread above me ♪

♪ And all my grave
shall warm and sweeter be ♪

♪ If you will bend
and tell me that you love me ♪

♪ Then I will sleep in peace
until you come to me ♪

♪ And I will sleep in peace
until you come to me ♪

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[water bubbling]