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His wife was a family friend of ours.

[quietly emotional music playing]

At church every month, we had a family and friends gathering.

He would take advantage and touch me when no one was watching.

Everyone thought we were just playing, but no, he took advantage.

It was traumatic. I didn't know what it meant. I didn't understand.

A few years ago…

This person came to our house and when I saw him, it triggered everything.

I was just in shock and I left.

I was bawling!

My parents were concerned and wanted to know what was wrong.

So when I told them,

then it made sense to them.

And did your family support you through that?

After that, my parents didn't really talk about it.

And me, I didn't talk about it.

So it's always there,

not actually resolved.

My parents felt awful when I told them.

But we three…

just don't talk about it.

It's swept under the rug.

I hope one day I'll be able to talk about it with them again,

to tell them how I feel about it.

And how they feel about it, too.

I'm proud of you for sharing this. It's not easy.

Want a hug?

[music swells]

I appreciate that she felt she could trust me enough

to tell me about her experience.

I'm really…

honored.

So…

that put up a wall with men.

I became scared of them because… what would they do to me?

That trust was violated. And trust isn't easy to get back.

Nope.

That's hard.

Fuck this shit!

[Renate laughs]

-Imagine that's his head! -[Cheyenna laughs]

["I See The Fire" playing]

Fuck that guy!

[Cheyenna laughs]

That's good!

My heart's beating really fast already!

Abandon that anger!

Really good.

♪ I see the fire, the fire… ♪

Feels good!

I would say to her…

my eight-year-old self…

I'd tell her she's a very strong person.

You will struggle a lot, but you got this…

and I will be so fucking proud of you!

I don't want my past to define me.

I won't let my past pull me down.

I just want to…

shine!

Honestly, I feel such an adrenaline rush!

I feel like I'm high!

Yeah.

["Stick Around" playing]

♪ Never left ya ♪

♪ Couldn't wait 'Til we get up get up, get up, hey… ♪

[PA] Step back to allow customers to exit.

When boarding, please move to the center of the car…

-Why won't you sit next to me? -If I sit next to you,

it'll be hard to talk.

Oh, okay.

Me and Raelynn, going out, like…

we hang with each other every day.

We just started progressing.

And now, we're just progressing.

[PA] We are holding due to a problem with the signal.

The bell…

What's the announcement saying?

It said, "All white women get off now."

Oh, okay, fine…

I'm not playing that.

If you left, I'd just look at your dumb ass like, bye!

What I like most about Raelynn, honestly…

I think it's because she's sensitive, but she's not sensitive.

Alexa told me herself, she thinks, like,

Raelynn's a really good girl for me.

You haven't eaten meat for two weeks? Or dairy?

It's for the best. I'm fat, sorry.

You're not fat.

I like you the way you are.

-You'll be in bed feeling my belly. -I like it.

Exactly, that means I'm fat!

Alexa, yeah, I look back after this whole situation,

I don't regret dating her, but in my head,

sometimes I just be like,

"What did I see in her?"

Like, not trying to sound like a dickhead, but…

I want to date my best friend. I don't want to date a girl.

Or date a woman. I want to date my best friend.

Are you excited for New York?

What?!

Are you excited to move to New York?

Oh, I forgot I was moving.

You forgot you're moving to New York? You just paid rent and you forgot?

Raelynn's trying to enter grad school

at R.I.T. in New York.

I'm excited. I've been looking on Pinterest,

making an Amazon wish list…

for things I want.

Go with her to New York?

No, because…

I want her to focus on herself.

She's a really smart

young woman and I want her to enter grad school focused

and be the best she can.

["Paralysed" playing]

♪ Find myself paralyzed ♪

Yeah!

I'm not gonna lie, I'm gonna be upset.

I'll probably be in my feelings or whatever.

But it's like…

I broke up with girls I really thought, "You the one, I really love you,"

blah, blah, blah.

I'm not about to go through that pain again.

[both laughing]

[electronic music playing]

[crowd cheering]

Who are you?

Guess.

Marilyn Monroe?

Yes.

But why'd you pick black?

Disgraced Marilyn Monroe!

Badass! I love it.

[muffled rock playing]

[man hollers]

[crowd] Whooooooo!

Yes, I saw Alexa's costume and…

[dance music building]

♪ I'm gonna getcha, getcha… ♪

Devil. Pretty much just fits her.

Cut that out! Ooh, cut that out!

That was pretty mean, wooh!

So, are you interested in anyone right now?

I am not, as a matter of fact.

Single like this chip.

I heard you and Dalton…

Me and Dalton? No.

Well, just thought I'd ask.

I haven't said hi in a long time, you know?

I know, me, too.

We should vacation together over Christmas break.

Fine, what do you want to do?

We can hang at your house.

No.

Seriously?

Now I look like a fool, thanks a lot!

No, you don't.

[crowd cheering]

[shouting]

Why don't you look at each other?

Bromance.

Oh, Cheyenna, fucking Cheyenna!

I could strangle her.

["Gimme That Good Buzz" playing]

She's so fucking busy making videos.

She's so popular, fuck!

Come.

That hurt. What the fuck?

The Elite…

I feel like, when will this ever stop?

I feel like…

When will I finally get accepted?

I took too many shots.

I am done with shots.

Dalton…

if he showed some real interest, I'd give it a try.

So I feel like I've been…

vibing with Dalton.

So, you're "pretending" to be the devil,

but you're really a bad girl.

Oh my gosh! Stop it!

Just stay protected, stay safe, please.

That's all I care about.

From one to ten, how ratchet is my hair?

You look good. A nine?

Here, now this is a necklace.

Where did Alexa go?

I think she went upstairs.

Have you seen Dalton?

[muffled laughter]

Do you and all your friends go to the bathroom together?

Do you usually go to the bathroom with boys?

["Identifier" playing]

♪ Under the lights ♪

♪ What do we learn to find? ♪

♪ We can shine bright… ♪

Thx for letting me interpret ur song on stage with you! So sick!

I'm excited, too!

I've noticed more deaf singers appearing on stage or music videos.

I hope this will open a path for me

because I definitely want more opportunities with music videos.

As long as you have the lyrics memorized, just follow my rhythm.

-Hey, how are you? -Good.

Nervous.

This is actually my first time ever doing live music.

Not many deaf people live interpret.

Deaf people can follow rhythm, but what about voice changes and pitch?

That makes me nervous the most.

Just feel the beat and follow along.

What if I forget the words?

You've practiced, you got the talent,

it's all in you.

♪ I am love… Sing it! ♪

I really wish I knew what she's saying.

Looks like everyone is enjoying it.

♪ I am free… Come on! ♪

♪ I am free… ♪

That makes me wonder what my voice sounds like.

An angel's voice.

[singer vocalizing]

Some people have said it sounds like a dying whale.

My sister says I sound like a pterodactyl,

a dinosaur with wings.

Does she have evidence of the sound it makes?

Science.

Experts.

[crowd cheering]

"Once you hate, you can't go back."

Waiting in the greenroom before the show,

I started to get stage fright.

What if I miss a line? What if I miss the rhythm?

[man] You know, we usually think of interpreters as

people who go on tour with an artist and they're someone who hears

and they interpret for people who are at the concert who are deaf.

The problem is, some things get lost in translation.

I have a friend, Cheyenna, who's here,

who's gonna do an interpretation as I do it along with her.

So come up, Cheyenna. Give some love to Cheyenna.

[crowd cheering and clapping]

[keyboard intro playing]

♪ I've always had trouble With confrontation ♪

♪ I've always lived inside of this bubble I know they're waitin' ♪

♪ I wonder if I'm uneasy not just because They won't agree ♪

♪ But maybe because when I'm facing them I'm also facing me ♪

♪ You could be the one that won't change ♪

♪ Or you can be the one that don't wait ♪

♪ You could be the one to show hate ♪

♪ Or you can be the one to know pain ♪

Once I started hitting the rhythm,

I could feel it all come together!

And I started to enjoy it and have fun!

♪ You could be the one ♪

♪ You could be the one ♪

♪ You could be the one ♪

Thank you so much!

Show some love to Cheyenna!

[crowd cheering and clapping]

Thank you so much.

["We're Going to Get It Right" playing]

Sometimes you gotta fake it 'til you make it,

and that's what I did in that moment.

So, it's Cheyenna's world now.

♪ Step right into the light ♪

♪ This time, we're gonna get it right ♪

["Next to You" playing]

♪ …got me breaking All of my rules for you… ♪

[man] Hey! Hold the elevator, G.

♪ I drive my car just to Waste my time on you ♪

♪ And all you want is to Ruin my mind ♪

♪ You want to hear me cry When I try to feel alive ♪

♪ I thought I'd find life in you ♪

♪ But all you tell are lies ♪

♪ When I 'm lying next to you ♪

♪ You got me getting caught up ♪

♪ In my feelings for you ♪

♪ I don't wanna fuck up ♪

♪ By getting to lost in you ♪

♪ I should let go ♪

♪ And find my way back home ♪

♪ You got me all in a zone ♪

♪ I can't seem to leave you alone ♪

♪ I try to feel alive ♪

♪ I thought I'd find life in you ♪

♪ But all you tell are lies ♪

♪ When I'm lying next to you ♪