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[bass heavy music playing]

So... what are you doing?

Me? Just chillin'.

Maybe go drinking.

What's up with you?

I was thinking we should go on a date.

For real?

Yeah.

Us?

Yes, Raelyn and Daequan.

I don't know a Daequan.

He's popular with the ladies...

Oh, I definitely don't know who that is.

Stop lying!

Pleeease?

OK, fine. I'll go.

Yeah, yeah, yeah!

[Daequan] I always knew I was gonna go to college.

Not because just to learn something, but...

all the beautiful girls and smart girls are in college.

They go to college.

I'll text you.

Bye...

But...

Did I know I would come to Gallaudet? No.

[electronic music playing]

♪ Now you’re in a situation You don’t know what to say ♪

♪ Don’t worry It ain’t gon' make a difference ♪

♪ If you ain’t gonna make a move Then I ain’t got all day ♪

♪ Ain’t nobody else to blame if you don’t know how to play ♪

Hey, what's up?

Nothing, just got here.

Gallaudet's undergrads are 700 women...

and 300 guys.

♪ Feelin' dirty Come on, come and help me ♪

♪ I'm feelin' flirty Baby, you should work me... ♪

Guys here think they're all that. "Oh, I can fuck...

I can make you orgasm."

But really?

No.

♪ Gotta feel satisfied with you, babe... ♪

Lucky for me, I like guys and girls both.

And the women here...

are just WOW!

I'm excited for the summer, but not the long distance.

I'm going to be gone an entire month.

We can FaceTime each other.

But I'll miss you.

[rhythmic music playing]

Hearing people can cuddle and have a full conversation.

We have to cuddle, then break apart to chat.

I'm so happy we're together.

Chat...

cuddle...

chat...

cuddle.

Big difference!

Maybe you could come home with me.

You would be the first girl, the first person, I ever brought home.

[both laugh]

Next year. Maybe Thanksgiving.

♪ I wanna be your girlfriend ♪

♪ Let me be your girlfriend ♪

♪ I promise not to hurt you ♪

♪ Let me be your girlfriend ♪

[thumping bass music playing]

I walked into the cafeteria literally one morning...

People were laughing, like, "You hooked up with that girl last night!"

I was like, "It happened last night and you already know!?"

That's one thing I hate about Gallaudet.

Gossip.

But at the same time...

that's promotion for you.

If you did a good job...

One thing I need... I need need need to change...

People think I'm a fuck boy.

If you talk and act like one, you probably are one!

Behavior and actions are different.

I act like one, don't mean I am one.

I'm an asshole.

I do not give a fuck how you feel.

That I am... I need to work on that.

But let me tell you something...

If I ever date just one girl...

I'm the most loyal motherfucker on the planet.

But right now, I'm single as fuck.

Me?

I'm gonna fuck around, say something nasty...

right off the bat, like...

I'm gonna tell a girl to sit on my face.

Is that, is that necessary?

No, but...

it works sometimes.

Think about it: Tell me a girl that don't want pleasure.

What do you think of Cheyenna?

If she gives me a chance...

I would rock that world, you feel me?

Cheyenna!

She's attractive.

Very attractive!

♪ If there's someone new, just go! ♪

♪ You don't even have to let me know... ♪

I play little games where, you know, I like...

five pictures in a row to tell her, like...

"What's up?!"

Thank you!

Ugh, he put the bottle between us.

That's not deaf-friendly.

Ah, much better!

Last night at the bar...

I was with a friend and went to grab a drink...

This hearing guy was staring...

really staring...

So I tell him I'm deaf...

He looks at me...

and then...

he bolted!

[Cheyenna laughs]

Have you dated many boys?

I used to date boys because it was easier.

All boys are eww.

True.

They are eww.

[Cheyenna giggles]

I haven't fallen in love before.

I'm still protecting my heart.

And keeping it shiny until the right person shows up and takes my heart.

It's you, finally!

Yeah!

[indie rock guitar riff playing]

♪ This is no confessional You need a professional ♪

♪ Better call the doctor Before I go crazy ♪

♪ You love it, you love it, you love it Yeah ♪

♪ You love it, you love it, you love it Yeah... ♪

Thank you.

Freshman year, I didn't know you, but I would see you a lot.

You used to be...

all over my ass!

What?! No memory of that!

You were like, "I'll teach you ASL...

no problem!"

He was just finger spelling and I couldn't understand anything.

I was making up bullshit signs.

[Daequan] Okay.

When talking about my hearing...

I always just thought like, "Damn, my fucking left ear broke as shit!"

One day I went home and I told my mom, I'm like, "Yo, Mom...

I think I can't hear out of my left ear."

And then she explained the whole story about, "Oh, yeah...

You were really, really sick, age six, you had a seizure...

so you can't hear clear."

I'm like...

"You're telling me this now?"

Like, that's the kind of life I had.

"Oh, I'm sorry, I forgot to tell you."

Damn, you forgot to tell me I was half deaf?

You taught me about life in the hood.

I'd always heard about it,

but I never had a friend from there.

Daequan comes from...

a really unsafe area.

His mom died, and he didn't have much support growing up.

He lived from one friend's house to another.

I felt like...

I don't know, maybe something sent him to me.

You helped me understand what life is like.

Yeah, I know.

And I learned about rich white girl lifestyle from you.

[TESSA] Okay!

[Daequan chuckles softly]

People find out my family has money, and they're like,

"Your dad has a job?" "Your mom is a doctor?"

Yes! What?!

You think we're all clueless with no money and no house?

Many people actually consider my family "elite."

[electronic music building]

♪ Who's that looking at me? ♪

♪ Who's that looking at me... ♪

You have the "elite" group...

Their families have been deaf for four or five generations.

They went to all-deaf high schools.

♪ Who's that looking at me... ♪

My first language is ASL.

My first words were signs.

And that puts you in a higher status here.

The "elite" clique...

they're so fast to judge.

♪ Who-who-who's that looking at me? ♪

[PRODUCER] But aren't you an elite, Alexa?

By definition, yes.

But I feel like I'm on my own journey.

[uptempo pop playing]

♪ Life moves fast like a new roller-coaster ♪

♪ Don't hold back, make a splash Make the most of ♪

♪ New shoes, new moves, new clue ♪

♪ Don't you wanna sit with us? ♪

Come on in.

[Alexa] Thanks for helping!

[rock music playing]

I dressed--

I dressed warm for this.

I see that, I know.

Is that where you trespassed?

Yeah...

I'm supposedly "banned" from that one street.

I'm banned from everywhere in D.C.

Last year...

I was testing my limits.

And things got wild!

♪ Look to the left, look to the right ♪

♪ On your mark, get ready Hold on tight... ♪

Really wild!

♪ Get set, go... ♪

That's when I met Brax, and he was wild too!

♪ Get set, go ♪

I was thinking...

Why don't you get a job at Maryland School for the Deaf?

High schoolers are brats.

I was thinking of, like, elementary.

That's even worse.

They're babies. You love babies.

I fucking hate babies!

I feel like I'm nagging you lately.

Nagging is a good thing.

Behind every man, there's always, like a...

you know...

a nagging woman behind a successful man.

Always a woman behind him nagging, like...

nagging is a good thing.

So...

I'm trying to figure out...

what it means to have Daddy Issues.

My friends joke about it. I joke about it.

Ohhhhhh!

Look at that hill.

Skateboarding, like, hill bomb!

After my parents divorced, my dad was very distant.

Not emotionally available to me, didn't make time to know me.

You need to cut your nails.

Fine, fine!

I will cut my nails, but there's no reason to right now.

I'm so busy. I don't have time to think about it.

So, does having Daddy Issues mean...

I date guys who don't meet my standards?

Okay.

If that's the case...

then yeah, Daddy Issues.

Mild case.

♪ Summer is a-comin' in Loudly sing, "Cuckoo" ♪

♪ Summer is a-comin' in Loudly sing, "Cuckoo" ♪

♪ Summer is a-comin' in Loudly sing, "Cuckoo" ♪

[overlapping singing continues]

[man] Now...

What'll kill a great week of practice...

tomorrow morning at 6:30...

when I'm at the bus and you're not here.

Go to sleep at a good time tonight.

Don't go to the party tonight.

Let's go. Break 'em out.

[shouting, cheering]

[electronic beat playing]

With my hearing aid, I can listen to the music.

I don't understand it, but I feel the beats.

[muffled music]

Party hard!

[music drops]

[electronic music resumes]

If a hearing person tries to talk to me,

make sure you're with me.

I don't want to be, like, "Sorry, I can't talk to you."

He's fine! He reads lips all the time. He's fine!

Not all the time!

I got you, baby!

No man left behind!

Deaf people are split into different categories.

We have deaf people who swear they can talk.

You have deaf people who used to talk, but they don't talk anymore.

And then you have...

deaf people who know they can't talk, so they just scream.

[screaming to the beat]

Dalton... he used to talk fluently, then he stopped for a good while.

Hi, what's your name?

My name's Dalton.

What's her name?

Angelica.

-Nice to meet you. -Nice to meet you, too.

Can you read my lips?

A little bit. Sometimes.

-Sometimes? -Yeah, sometimes.

Well, I'm from Colombia, so, like, I speak Spanish.

So it's kinda hard, I guess?

-She has an accent. -Got it.

He said he understands.

You understand?

Oh, thank God!

[all laugh]

[Daequan] Hey, Rodney.

[hip hop music playing]

[Rodney] Yo! Look!

[Angelica laughs]

[Rodney] Yo, guys, look at this!

Yo!

You gave him your cochlear?!

He said he needed to hear!

He has a cochlear implant, which causes him to hear.

That machine is magnetic, so it sticks to your head.

Oh, my God!

He doesn't have that. He has hearing aids.

At Gallaudet they have...

criteria on how deaf you are.

A lot of people with CIs are judged.

A lot of people with hearing aids are judged, you know.

But if I take off my CI, I can't hear...

worth a shit, like...

Man, give me back my shit!

But I can't hear.

[hip hop music continues]

[Rodney] Do you know where the taco place is, man?

Are you hungry?

[Angelica] I'm not hungry. I ate sushi.

You know sushi?

Sushi...

-Chicken? -Su... shi.

[Angelica] Like, fish?

Oh, yeah!

Yeah, sushi. I got it.

Sometimes I don't understand, but then, "Oh, I understand!"

My bad!

That good?

Hm-hm, it's good.

Why not?

I'm not hungry.

All right.

But thank you.

[Angelica] Thank you.

So, what are you guys gonna do when you finish here?

-Probably go home. -Home?

-Are you tired? -Hm-hm.

-You are? -Very tired.

Can I get your phone number or something?

Give me your phone.

It's easier that way.

Umm...

-[Angelica] Do you remember my name? -Yes, yes.

It was nice to meet you.

[Angelica] Okay. You too. Bye.

[Angelica giggles]

[Rodney] Yo, Dalton.

Get Dalton right quick.

[Rodney] What happened?

I got her phone number.

It's all good.

[all] Awwwww...

You slick bastard. Look at you.

♪ There's no love you can love all the way ♪

♪ There will still be heartache ♪

♪ You can wrestle the dawn from the day ♪

♪ You will still be parted... ♪

-So, what did you do yesterday? -I went home.

Chilled, slept in my bed...

I haven't been home in a long-ass time.

While I was home, I talked with my dad.

And it made me realize, like...

did you actually ever love me?

What?

When I transferred to Gallaudet...

I noticed him on Tessa's Instagram.

I started hanging out in his room and sleeping with him every night.

He shared personal things about growing up.

Sometimes he'd show emotion...

but it was rare.

I think it has to do with his childhood.

What did your dad say?

Growing up, he was a lot like you in some ways.

Closed off. Distant. Not showing me love.

I don't know, it's part of my...

personality to be really...

shut off.

But shutting off emotionally isn't a personality.

It's a defense mechanism.

[Daequan] When we were dating fully...

in that moment in my life, I was so at a low point

with, like, friends and...

people just dying left and right that I just...

I don't know, I felt some kind of...

happiness and love.

Because the girl is beautiful. Like, she's naturally beautiful.

You said I'm similar to your dad, and I get it.

But I cared about you.

I had honest feelings for you.

Fine, fine.

There's something else bothering the shit out of me...

to this day.

What?

I want to ask you...

Did you get me pregnant on purpose?

Were you trying to trap me?

♪ You're sick ♪

♪ And I want your disease ♪

♪ You're damned, you're damned You're damned ♪

♪ I want your curse in me ♪

♪ Some might say the parasite's still living in my blood ♪

♪ Can I get a drop of you ♪

♪ La la la La la la ♪

♪ La la la La la la ♪

♪ You're sick La la la, la la la ♪

♪ La la la, la la la You make me sick too ♪