Original subtitles

Man: Tamar is headed downstairs.

This is not like the other shows that you've done.

This is a lot to do this.

I'm just saying. It's a lot.

We're all here ready to go through the fire

to do this with you.

I need you to lead the way.

I'm doing this dream assignment to reach my highest potential.

I have a coach. Her name is goli.

Goli: Your dreams will give us answers.

The only thing you have to do is write down whatever you dream,

and then you and I will figure out what it means.

We're going to go into the battleground of your soul.

Close your eyes.

Who is goli anyway? You haven't met her yet.

David and I have been dating 18 months,

and he's been an amazing boyfriend.

Let me get some of that thickness.

You want some of this lane bryant?

[snickers]

how's everything going with david? Good?

I mean, I think I want somebody to ask me a question.

Tamar, are you just trying to get engaged to be engaged?

So is this going to be the first time

that you try to make music on your own?

This is the first time I'm making music on my own

and making music in front of people.

I am afraid.

It's been so long since I've done an album.

I can't sing in front of people.

Even when I'm writing a song,

I feel like I have to be by myself, which is crazy.

I feel like I'm like this... Wow.

That is the pressure that I have.

I don't want to sing in front of everybody in here.

This is not "showtime at the apollo."

if we get distracted, we have distractions.

Tamar is so fearful and frightened,

but the gold that comes from dream work

comes literally from their unconscious.

[voice breaking] I missed that whole thing,

and that's why I went down the slope and crashed.

There you go.

So there's a fearlessness now.

♪ whatever you need ♪

♪ I kind of miss you ♪

-beautiful. -Gorgeous.

Woman: Tamar braxton!

[vocalizing]

goli: Tamar, you blew us away.

Tamar: Well, goli is not going to lie.

This dream work, I believe.

Period.

David: I don't know what goli's motives are with tamar,

but I need to know more.

There's other types of energy in the world,

and we don't understand some of them.

Like what?

I don't understand what dream work is.

Everything you don't understand is not the devil.

It's just not.

What?!

He thinks I am an american devil worshiper.

[laughs] like, what in the world?

Somebody tell goli -- don't wear all black and a hat.

I cannot work like this. I cannot.

I have to wear her sweater, so I don't look

like I'm some voodoo practitioner.

Look, you're not going about it the right way, david.

I do not agree.

I can't talk him out of anything, so, like,

because right now we're on the brink of having

a real major argument over this, and it's not worth it.

No one told me that I was signing aboard to coach david.

-How you guys doing? -Hey, david.

David: I'm coming in miced with a camera.

When I see tamar getting involved

with something that's very spiritual,

I have a right to ask questions.

What price is tamar going to have to pay?

My life, logan's, our unborn child?

What price?

♪♪

♪♪

wh-- where did this come from?

They tried to put me in that to make me look like

I was, like, not...

For your family members or whatever.

Wait, what?

This morning in the bathroom.

-How you guys doing? -Hey, david.

David: Good to see you.

Let me go, uh, downstairs and say hi.

Tamar: I'm sorry, goli.

I didn't know anything about that.

Yeah, hey told me that I was dressing --

that I... [chatter]

I feel like I owe you an apology.

They said that I was, like, going to embarrass you...

What? What?

...In front of his family because of the way I dress.

They said, "oh, put this thing on,"

so that they wouldn't think that I was, like...

Okay. I don't -- I can't --

that's why I don't live my life for other people.

Um, we were going to do...

[child giggling, man talking indistinctly]

...The dream.

First of all, it's logan's bedtime!

[giggling and talking continues]

logan: No! [exhales deeply]

david, it is logan's bedtime.

I don't lie. I don't play games.

I do the work really deeply,

and I've been really badly treated here.

It's logan's bedtime. It's after 8 o'clock.

You know what happens when he doesn't get any sleep, so stop.

There's only one person who has been negative with me.

It is david because he's afraid of me.

-[laughs] -it's time to go to bed now.

Kid, you're going to get me in trouble.

His fear of me is because he's afraid of the greatness

I can give to her.

He's afraid that the gold is in there,

and with that, he'll lose her.

Okay.

All right, it's bedtime now, so we have to put logan to bed.

I know. I'm coming right back, okay?

It's 8 o'clock. He definitely has to go to bed.

♪♪

jesus christ.

I decided to meet with goli

because I need to understand this, uh, dream work thing.

I have a right to ask questions.

I need to understand from goli

where the source of the power comes from.

I felt slightly offended, I have to say,

that people are saying that this is like voodoo or witchcraft

or any kind of, like, out-of-worldly thing.

I came in to help her find her voice

and help her kind of have a rebirth.

I've seen it.

I've seen it through tamar.

Your process works. Yeah.

That's not the question, goli.

Your process works.

But that's the question, david?

Okay. Let's step back a second.

You know where I'm from, africa?

I came from a place where I've seen a lot of things,

so when you are able to remember your dreams

as vividly as tamar does,

you're connecting through a certain spirit within yourself.

That spirit has a source.

I just need to know where the source of that spiritual energy

and that enlightenment comes from,

and if it doesn't come from god -- my god --

which is jesus christ and the bible,

then I can't subscribe to it.

Now, if you can tell me a place in the bible

that explains where dreams are manifested by god,

then I'll believe you.

Can you tell me that?

Um, there was a book written...

What -- what phrase in the bible?

Bible?

What phrase in -- what part of the bible?

I don't know it by heart, my love.

I need that. I'm so sorry.

I need that.

It's based on jungian psychology.

It had nothing to do with god.

When we went to dc, and we saw her performances,

it was because she was in her highest potential dream.

There was nothing blocking her.

Actors can be very self-indulgent.

You said it has nothing to do with god,

that's a big deal for me.

I understand. Wait, wait.

So you didn't finish telling me the process.

So what...

I ask her questions while she goes through the dream.

We all know when you ask questions sometimes...

A good lawyer knows when you ask questions sometimes,

leading questions could actually cause

somebody to think of things... No!

...Which they they wouldn't otherwise have thought about.

Stop it, david, now. I'm just saying.

Stop it. Well, you know that.

I don't ever push anyone. All I do, I make...

But you said said you interpret the dreams for her.

No, darling. I'm a guide.

I know what's going on. All I do is ask questions.

So ask questions, but, you see, questions can be leading.

It could actually cause someone...

No.

Tamar described the dream to me, the tyler perry one.

Her interpretation, tamar's interpretation --

probably with your prodding --

was, "always come to the dream, and I'll be there for you."

that's her -- that's one interpretation.

A second interpretation could've been --

go on your knees when you get home and pray,

open your bible, supplicate,

go to your family, go to your friends,

go to your, you know, church, go to your pastor.

I know, but, baby, that doesn't work creatively.

And that is to uplift yourself directly to god.

That could've been the interpretation of that dream.

But I'm just saying... But I interpreted that already.

That dream she had... Oh, so you interpreted?

I thought you said she interprets it.

Together, but when I saw

the symbol of her jumping by herself...

But how do you know how to interpret her dreams?

Because I interpret all the dreams.

So you interpret the dreams.

I thought you said you let them interpret it.

So you do the interpreting?

No, I guide. I look at the symbols.

I walk them through it. What...

You know what? I think we should...

Then let's do tonight's dream together right now.

Cool. Let's go.

You sure? With tamar? Yes. Obviously.

Okay.

David feels he has an opinion and that his opinion matters.

Now, apparently in tamar's past relationships,

vince had a lot of say in her work life,

and the fact that it came from him

and nothing from her tells me

that there's a red flag around whatever is going on,

and I think he saw tamar responding to the work

and responding to me,

and he's threatened by my presence.

I don't understand what he's doing.

He doesn't want her to be in the creative world,

honestly, because she can't do the work she does

and, like, tweak -- and then twerk onstage

and then be repeating the bible.

It's a hypocrisy.

So I feel like he's being hypocritical

because he's, like, trying to tell me about the work I do,

and I'm like, "watch her onstage,"

and she twerks.

Where's god in that?

Give me the scripture in the bible.

[scoffs] where is it?

Actually, I would like to go ask him that.

I don't want people thinking, "oh, wow, now the work

that we honor and call sacred is being spit on

by an unknown man who's got zero to do with creativity anyway."

david: Oh, ho, ho!

I was just thinking about something.

Like, where in...

When she's onstage and she's twerking,

where is the scripture? Okay.

So just give me, like, 2 minutes.

Get -- please.

He's got to go to bed in 2 minutes.

Come on. Hey!

[laughs] leave the cameras alone.

I'm already... I'm, like, stop telling me,

"where's the scripture in this work?"

where's the scripture when you're onstage,

and you're twerking? I mean, where is that?

And I'm... I think it's a little unfair

when he wants me to, like, name the scripture

where this work comes from because he sees you onstage,

and we're not naming that scripture, are we?

Yeah, so I just... Please.

He wants to watch us do the work.

Tamar: Hi, pumpkin. You got to go to bed, baby.

[logan speaks indistinctly]

we had a little, uh -- a little game hunting going today.

Their relationship and what happens in their private life

is really not my business.

His animosity for the dream work

and the work I do makes it my business.

He probably is, you know, a control freak.

Maybe he does voodoo.

Maybe he's hypnotizing her

because he wants me out of the picture.

My work is about her voice,

and I don't know how to give her her voice

when everyone is blocking me.

I -- I -- I'll go home

and look at the bible, but at the same time,

I'm, like -- you're being a fraud

because it's all on his time.

Like, is this his show or tamar's?

Beck: Goli really wants to start this dream work,

but I think tamar is not in the headspace at all

to begin this work right now, and I understand.

I mean, even though we agreed that we would, together,

kind of follow everything,

she's just not feeling up to it today.

She has to trust me that I'm trying to take care of her

and do the best job possible, and I have to trust her

that she's going to, you know, show up

and be willing to open up to us and let us in.

I -- I gave you my piece, so please respect it.

I have to go to sleep.

No more. I'm wore out.

I -- I -- I can't. I just can't.

Tamar: This is not what this is supposed to be.

Everything is, like, too much!

Goli: Tamar...

Shooting hour after hour, I'm sitting there.

I'm going to sleep.

Can we please just do what we do?

You're wasting her time, you're wasting your time,

your time, everybody else here, and my time.

I can't. I got to go.

I can't work like that, period.

♪♪

you can't have a stage with no money.

Stop worrying about the money.

That's my rich boyfriend talking.

In the beginning, it was me and tamar's work,

and now it's the three of us,

and this work doesn't work that way.

It's getting messy and tainted and personal.

We're looking for a wedding dress is why we're here.

That's bad luck. Is it?

We can't look at wedding dresses without the ring.

I bought myself a couple diamond rings,

ones that I would like to be proposed to.

I manifested the ring.

So he know what it's supposed to look like?

I got to give him ideas.

Ooh!

You had a slip, nip slip?

We got a slip!

David is sitting there telling me stories about,

you know, like, rituals of goats and this.

I'm like, "you don't understand, sir."

guess how many (bleep) I give?

♪♪

♪♪

hi. How you doing?

I'm good.

How are you? Everything's good.

Hi, my rich friend.

[laughs]

I'm not as rich as you yet. Get your life.

Get your life.

So these are all teas, so we have 39 different teas.

Some of the teas that I think would probably be great for you

are, like... Let's see.

We got weight release

because that's going to speed up your metabolism

because you said you want your cleanse to last,

like, what, 7 days, 5 days?

I wanna start on the Monday and be snatched by Saturday.

[laughs]

what we g'on create for you will definitely help you get there.

So when you drink the tea all day, right?

Right. That's it.

You get nothing else.

Okay, so we got to put them on a raw-food diet.

If you're trying to get snatched by from Monday to Saturday

and you want this to happen, you're going to have to eat raw.

You can't still go to mastro's and have steaks.

I don't want to talk about that. And do all that kind of stuff...

That's not what I mean! ...Thinking you going to lose weight?

You just got to be open to the concept.

I do it all the time. How long we been friends?

I ain't lost not 1 pound with you.

Because you don't follow instructions. That is terrible.

That's the problem.

That's because I ain't got no tea yet. Ha ha!

There you go.

But I ain't doing no raw diet. I'm not going to do any food.

That's not healthy.

Well, we don't want to be healthy.

We want to be snatched.

I just want to be snatched by sat--

Saturday night, and I want my friends to join me.

It'll be fine.

Talk to me.

With this liquid diet, is liquor included?

No, liquor is not... Then I don't want to do that.

That's not... Liquor don't count.

But here, let me show you the rest of them.

Okay.

My pants are too big and too small at the same time.

Have you ever experienced that before?

No. Well...

Ooh, this fancy.

What's happening in here?

When I used to live in australia,

where I lived was adelaide,

so every corner a chicken-and-chips restaurant.

It was the hood?

No, no, super nice.

A chicken and chips is rotisserie chicken,

stuffing, french fries and gravy,

and you eat it with a spoon-fork.

So you're going to get them all fat and then sell my tea.

And then we going... There you go.

And them we going to sell them your tea.

We goin' put it right there in the window.

That's like breakup food, stuffing and chicken

and fries and gravy?

You got to do different things in la.

Nobody wants skinny no more.

Yes, they do. No, they don't.

Yes, the do. You know what they want?

They want slim-thick.

That's the new term.

No, either fat, or you're skinny.

There's nothing in between.

It's a new version of women now.

It's called slim-thick.

I'm telling you. Check it out.

Well, who's slim-thick?

Small waist, but then you got a little bottom.

All this is small, but then maybe you have a little top.

Is halle berry slim-thick?

No, she's just a little thin.

Okay, so who? Because she got a booty.

Yes, she do. Boom.

Yes, she do.

How much she weigh? I -- I'm not her sister.

[laughs] I don't know.

Either you're skinny, or you're thick.

I'm telling you.

Now, when you talking about opening up this chicken shack?

Yeah, we already ready.

I want to taste some.

You want me to send the cook to your house?

And my friends will be honest and tell you if you got you

a product or not, since you on this skinny-thick stuff.

That's wrong.

No, I'm telling you, there is a term -- slim-thick.

Terms? You can't give me an example.

It does not exist.

I'mma have examples next time.

Bye, ad.

♪♪

ooh.

-Hi. -Hi.

I really like wedding stuff.

Ashley: We're coming by to see what you guys have for a party

that's on Saturday, just like this gown,

because it's supposed to be, like, '20s, right?

Yeah.

And we got big feathers coming out the top.

Okay. We're -- definitely, we can do that.

Yes. All black?

All black or white.

I don't know. So, look...

But if I'm going to do a black, why would I not wear

that sexy dress right there in my face?

I like the hairpiece too.

-Let's have you try it on. -Hello, welcome to my home.

That's it.

Woman: It fits like a glove.

And I had a whopper for breakfast.

[laughter]

yeah, I'm going to have to be covered up a little bit.

Here? Yeah.

You think it's too sexy?

Yeah, you know...

Because the family -- his family is going to be there.

His nigerian family.

Y'all still got to walk down the aisle. And then after that, I can let loose.

You should be looking at some wedding dresses.

You should look at some wedding dresses while we're here.

That's bad luck. Is it?

You can't look at not wedding dress without the ring.

Are you serious? I've never heard of that.

Yes, that's why you buy you a fake ring,

you manifest the ring.

Who buys a -- what you talking about?

I did. Did you get my size?

Oh, that one that we had to get, that was a fake ring?

That's my fake ring.

Does he see the ring, though?

Sometimes.

And -- and you wear it all the time?

And you -- what you do,

you just manifest it to yourself.

So that's what you doing right now.

That's what I'm doing, so I bought myself

a couple diamond rings, the way --

the ones I would like to be proposed to.

So he knows what... I manifest the ring.

...It's supposed to look like. Yeah.

It's a message. I got to give him ideas.

Oh, okay, okay. I got you.

I got you.

This is amazing, honey. [laughs]

it ain't my birthday, but somebody better get on the knee.

Hey, hey.

We got to have that too, right?

We need it all.

This is oh-mazing.

It is.

We need diamonds.

Diamonds, I have.

[laughter]

I do need something here, though.

You need -- you need the feathers.

You need this.

I don't want it to battle with this hairpiece.

You talking about a full-feather cape.

That's going to battle anyways.

No, I'm -- if we do the feather cape, I can drip.

You know what I mean? Right.

And I can be going like this.

But you want one down to the floor?

Don't you? Yeah.

Absolutely. Absolutely.

Ooh! [laughs]

you got a slip, nip slip?

We got a slip!

And that's what I don't want to happen all night.

Because it's family, his family is going to be there.

His nigerian family.

Are you excited? No, I'm nervous now.

My fans are going to be lit.

Are you serious?

Woman: Tamar braxton!

[cheers and applause]

goli: In the beginning, it was me and tamar's work,

and now it's the three of us,

and this work doesn't work that way.

It's getting messy and tainted and personal.

Hopefully, david can just, like, stay in his lane.

You can't have a stage with no money.

Oh, stop worrying about the money.

Maybe I should be part of the process too.

I want to know what happened.

I was offended.

Bringing in the bible is out of control.

He was sabotaging where we can go.

I love david.

Jesus christ is the son of god, is the holy trinity,

and say one more thing, and I'm going to bust you

in your forehead.

♪♪

♪♪

-where are we? -We are in atlanta, honey.

♪♪

♪♪

♪♪

you are here. Hi, how are you?

-How you doing? -Good to see you.

All right.

Ooh, a bitch got a dressing room!

[laughter]

♪♪

tamar: Oh, my god.

How are you?

I thought this was all, like, screens.

No. This is it.

Shut up! [laughs]

this is what my friend doing?

Mm-hmm. Yep.

Ooh, I'm so proud of him!

I thought this was all screens.

I didn't know this was set.

-No, it looks amazing. -Yeah, yeah, yeah.

So how long does this take to put up?

This took about...Maybe, about, hour and a half, 2 hours.

That's it? Mm-hmm.

So y'all load-in is what, 3 hours?

Yeah. Hi!

[laughs]

oh, my god. Todrick, I'm so proud of you.

-This stage is amazing. -Like, look at this (bleep)

-oh. -Like, I didn't...

Hi!

No, we were just running up here just, like, to see

where we was going to sit, and then we came up here.

I'm like... [screaming]

[laughter]

we got full production.

You know I'm full out about everything I do.

No, todrick. This is amazing!

Thank you.

Like, I'm dying trying to figure out,

"how the (bleep) do I do this (bleep)"

I will help you. I really will help you,

but you got to be crazy, and I know you are,

so then I know we can -- we can...

Oh, I'm crazier... ...Work with each other.

...Than a June bug. No 'cause this is...

It's not easy, and people don't get it.

Every night, when I go out there, I'm like...

When I say to people, "I don't have a record label.

I don't have management. I don't have a...

I don't have anything."

me neither! [laughs]

I mean, it ain't really the bomb because --

[laughter]

because it's a lot. Yeah!

I'm going to get dressed early so I can come see your show.

Are you going to be ready on time?

We going to have cameras on the clock

just so we know for sure you on time.

[song playing]

♪♪

no, that's where it stops.

That's where it's supposed -- okay.

That's where it's supposed to stop.

Let's go talk to chauncey. You want me to go?

Yeah. Let's just...

You really don't realize how ghetto your (bleep) is

until you see how professional somebody else (bleep) is.

[laughter]

it's so embarrassing.

So the track that they sent you was wrong.

It's, like, 3 minutes, right?

You just want to do that whole song and then call it a day?

Who? [vocalizing song]

good night! [laughs]

because that's still a good chunk.

That's a good little...

It's a lot!

So the version you sent me, it needs to be edited?

Yeah. Yeah.

Please.

I'm sorry. No, you good.

Stage to chauncey.

What time is doors?

-Did tamar do sound check yet? -Not yet.

I'm getting -- I'm downloading the cloud now,

so we're getting ready to do it shortly.

Doors are at 6:30.

[song playing]

[vocalizing]

now!

Right there.

[song plays]

right there! [vocalizing]

good night.

[song playing]

period.

Let's do this, so they can open doors.

So it's 6:24. Doors are 6:30.

♪ hey, hey ♪

♪ and we can do it now or later, that's fine ♪

♪ he want that sugar ♪

♪ he want that sugar ♪

♪ he want that sugar, sugar ♪

what you think? I liked it.

It's going to be good. It's a really cute eight count.

It's cute. It's short. It's to the point.

Okay. Where's the room?

Are the guys in the room?

♪♪

a toast to love, to joy, to a fun gig.

-Yes. -To good times.

Come on, cups. How you doing?

Are you excited? Oh, my god. No, I'm nervous now.

My fans are going to be lit. Are you serious?

I -- I don't think they know about it.

Yes, they do. They're gay.

[laughter]

they're gay men.

They know exactly who you are.

How much time do you need to get ready after the show?

Because I want to wait for you to see the whole thing.

Oh, I'm -- I'm going to be done.

Okay. I'm just lit.

I'm going to be over here fangirling...

Yeah. ...In the wings.

Oh, my god. Stop!

♪ he want that sugar ♪

♪ he want that sugar ♪

♪ just so you know ♪

♪ don't leave the house with a little kiss ♪

♪ when your man-man got a big ego ♪

♪ fronting on the cat, don't play like ♪

♪ I -- I -- I -- I gots to go ♪

♪ cut it out ♪

♪ give your man what he dreaming about ♪

♪ t-shirt and some heels on ♪

♪ while he chase you all around the house ♪

♪ get 'em ♪

♪ he wanna piece of something sweet all night ♪

♪ he want that good to the last drop like mine ♪

♪ he want that sugar ♪

♪ he want that sugar ♪

♪ he want that sugar, sugar ♪

goli: When an artist is willing to embark on this journey,

the gold that comes,

comes literally from their unconscious.

We saw it.

She said so many things about being fearful,

but when she gets onstage, she's like a ray of sunshine

because there's a fearlessness now.

♪♪

[cheers and applause]

♪♪

man: Five...

Four...

Three...

Two...

One.

♪♪

♪ do I have your attention? ♪

♪ dance ♪

♪ dance ♪

♪ dance ♪

♪ do I have your attention? ♪

killing in the club

lookin' cute, I'm all dolled up

[singing indistinctly]

♪ dance ♪

pump it up! ♪ dance ♪

♪ do I have your attention? ♪

hello!

[cheers and applause]

[scatting]

[laughter]

tamar: It's brilliant.

Are you guys enjoying it like I'm enjoying it?

I'm a black, straight woman.

I fell apart.

And then he's singing his throat off!

His visuals were mostly ethnic people.

You know, they were really foreign.

What's his budget, do you think?

A zillion dollars.

Really? I don't know.

It's millions, I'm sure.

No record label, no help, no push, no manager, no agent.

He has somebody.

Man: He's -- he's always been, like, creative.

No, he's not.

He did this (bleep) his (bleep) self.

♪♪

change, do your work, and I'm going to be right here.

Okay. I love you.

I love you more.

I love you even more today than I did yesterday!

[laughter]

I mean, I love a petty bitch.

It was so beautiful tonight.

Did you feel it? What?

You onstage tonight?

It was like a blink.

I don't even remember it.

The things that I do remember is epic...

Epic. ...And what I needed to get.

You understand what I'm saying?

Big-time. Period.

On your period.

[laughter]

you can have a stage, right, easy, with no money.

Stop worrying about the money. Man: That's what I mean.

Exactly, I just want to get it...

That's my rich boyfriend talking.

[laughter]

people who got a million dollars say, "don't worry about the money."

don't worry about the money!"

in the beginning, it was me and tamar's work,

and now it's the three of us,

and this work doesn't work that way.

It's getting messy and tainted and personal.

Hopefully, david can just, like, stay in his lane.

Tamar, you're so beautiful.

Thank you. You honestly are the best.

♪♪

she's the most beautiful person on the planet.

How much of that was choreographed?

How much of that was...

All of it. The whole thing.

David clearly doesn't like me.

Nobody's listening.

I'm like, "really?"

okay.

David: I'm a financial guy.

This is even more important than money.

This involves my spirit, tamar's spirit, logan's.

It's just -- help me understand.

If tamar has locked into something

that's very important for her,

maybe I should be part of the process too.

But if I -- you can't help me understand the process,

then maybe we got a little bit of a problem.

♪♪

tamar: See, david is a finance guy.

You talking about spending with a finance person,

they don't believe in that.

Like, they start, like, breaking out in hives and sweat.

No, it's a thing.

So this is where david's party is going to be.

The first ice sculpture will be here.

I'm thinking we should do his face on here.

The man from the ice sculpture said when you do face sculptures

that they start deteriorating faster than the regular ones

because it's so detailed.

Cheeks might start going in or...

But you didn't communicate that with me.

I would've said, "let's not do that then."

well -- well, what happened was...

That -- that determines whether or not

I'mma get a face sculpture.

If he got an ice sculpture of me,

and my face looked like I needed botox, like, dude, come on!

I was offended that david is asking me about

where this work is in the bible.

Bringing in the bible is out of control.

Guess how many (bleep) I give?

-Ashley! -Yeah?

Tamar: David's birthday is coming up.

What are you thinking about getting him for a gift?

I don't know, but when it was my birthday,

he said my party was my gift.

So... His party is not his gift.

[laughter]

but you got to think of something else,

even if it's like a presentation.

You know what I'm saying? No, I don't -- a presentation?

You thought about the party, right?

I didn't know I was paying for the whole party.

Well, what was going split it with you?

I was just going to, you know, use his american express

for most of it. [laughter]

I didn't.

But then you got to get a gift.

You can't go halfsies and then not get him any --

not get him a gift.

But see, david is a finance guy.

You talk about spending with a finance person,

they don't believe in that.

Like, they start, like, breaking out in hives and sweats.

Yeah, right. No, it's a thing.

Like, really.

When I first met david, he was telling me a story

about how he went to walmart and bought 23 pairs of shoes.

Wait, what?

I don't even have 23 pairs of shoes.

But he was so excited, "and it only cost me $300."

wait, what? What?

♪♪

♪♪

there you are. Good morning.

Good morning.

Hey.

[doorbell rings, dog barking]

hey, boo. Good to see you.

Come on in. Mwah!

So this is where the party is going to be.

He's never had a birthday party before.

Wow. He's 50 years old.

There's always a first time.

So it's really important for me to, like,

really show my ass literally.

Show him what it's about.

Yeah. Sounds good.

Let's do it. Okay.

So let me ask you a question.

I wanted to have the the barstools there

because I was going to have the african food out here.

This is what I was thinking.

The first ice sculpture will be here, like, gorgeousness.

I'm thinking we should do his face.

I got one with his face. I got one that says 50.

Fifty, then david, and then let's surround her

with floating candles and... Roses.

...Beautiful roses, white roses.

That's what I would do because that's late.

I would talk about me.

I would come right in this house, like,

"this bitch try me with her ghetto ass."

and so then I was thinking the photo booth can go here,

so when you first walk in, you get, bam,

you get your picture, click, click.

Right?

Oh, we need a place for the coat check.

We need a coat-check person.

It's cold outside. Yeah.

So the band would be here,

and I kind of wanted to keep this the same

but just light it up,

and I would put the bar there.

The bar in the corner? Yeah.

That makes sense for the bar.

Yeah.

The dog, what's going on with my dog?

♪♪

david is going to have a fit.

So this is where the dance floor is.

Did you show him the -- the dance floor?

The dog peed on my carpet.

Obviously, I got to get a new rug by tomorrow.

Come on. Come on. Come on. Come on.

Come on, miracle.

Come on.

♪♪

robert: Where's your second ice sculpture going?

I was thinking downstairs, but where?

The man from the ice sculpture said

when you do face sculptures,

they go a little faster than the regular ones.

The face is going to melt? How long, an hour?

He said about an hour before it start deteriorating.

He's turning 50. You don't want...

That's the first time I ever heard of that.

Because it's so detailed,

he said cheeks might start going in or...

But you didn't communicate that with me.

I would've said, "let's not do that, then."

well, what happened was...

That -- that determines whether or not

I'm going to get a face sculpture.

If he got an ice sculpture of me

and my face started to look like I...

Yeah, like I need restylane and botox, like, dude, come on.

Okay. Does it seem like it's going to be

a lot of stuff to do?

No, not that much.

Okay. Wonderful.

Yeah. Yeah, it's pretty, pretty easy.

All right. Well, thank you so much, boo.

I'll see you Friday. Okay.

I need the single-mother quote.

Thank you. Bye!

Okay, bye. [chuckles]

♪♪

♪♪

how are you?

It's going.

Yesterday was a lot, which made today a whole lot.

Tamar: I'm going to call you guys after I leave here

and find out where you guys are.

Um, I'm about to go to sit at the house

in about another hour and a half.

Waitress: Would you like to look at the cocktail menu?

I'm going to wait for my friend to meet me, and we'll see.

All right. Sounds good.

Thank you.

He's having a midlife crisis.

I think being 50 years old is (bleep) with him.

He's the youngest, and he's not married.

He doesn't have kids.

He's like, "how the (bleep) did I do this?"

yes, thank you.

I'm going to call you guys after I leave here

and find out where you guys are because I want to see you.

Goli: Tamar wanted to meet with me

because of the drama with david and I.

Can I get some buffalo sauce? Waiter: Yeah.

And some, like, ranch? Yeah.

Goli: But she's sitting out there for an hour, left me by myself.

That's not cool. My work is just being wasted,

and it's beginning to almost look ridiculous.

I don't work like that. I have my dignity.

You cannot keep me waiting for her any longer.

I know. But it's his birthday.

Tamar: Because I supposed to be off.

Waiter: Oh.

It bothers me to know

that there's somebody in your life that...

I love david.

Bringing in the bible, for me, is out of control.

Say one more thing, and I'll bust you in your forehead.

You cannot keep me waiting for her any longer.

I know. But it's his birthday.

Tamar: Because I was supposed to be off.

Waiter: Oh!

Tamar is juggling multiple things at once --

david, david's family, the birthday,

logan, vince, this reality series.

This work doesn't work in half measures.

It can't.

♪♪

so, um, you know,

remember when we first started working together,

and I'm like, "I feel everything"?

Yeah.

Well, now that we don't have all of these people around us,

I want to know what happened.

I -- I was offended that david was asking me about

where this work is in the bible.

He was almost sabotaging where we can go,

and we have a very short period of time to do this work.

I love you, and I want to do the work with you,

and so if I offend him, then I'm offending you,

and that's when I got a little bit tweaked,

but bringing in the bible, for me, is out of control.

I didn't really get to put him in his place

because I'm protective over you,

so I don't want to hurt you in the midst of disrespecting him.

I had my own energy, and everybody else around me

that was like, "what the hell is going on?"

I came aboard for only one sole reason.

For me. It's you.

And david, he's sitting there telling me

about stories about, you know, rituals of goats and this,

and I'm like, uh, "you don't understand, sir."

here's the thing. Yeah.

I don't know if you know my background, but, um,

I grew up in a household where my father was a pastor.

Right.

So the whole bible situation is not foreign to me.

It wasn't a personal attack towards my goli,

and I'm going to call you my goli because you're my goli.

Um, david speaks for 50 percent of the african-americans

that live here in america

who are christians and go to church,

and it's, "jesus christ is the son of god,

is the holy trinity, and say one more thing,

and I'll bust you in your forehead."

♪♪

it bothers me to know

that there's somebody in your life that...

I love david.

David came in my life

when I wasn't even looking for a person,

and the connection that we had, like, from day one...

When I tell you, goli, it was...

We call it magic.

It was absolutely amazing.

Like, I never felt that way...

Instant. If I was divorced,

then I would've gone to vegas and got married.

Ooh. Nice.

Period. Okay.

Do you understand what I'm saying?

I do.

Listen, somebody in your life is trying to get involved

in your creative process because...

I don't feel like the work that you're doing is witchcraft.

I don't feel like this is not where I'm not supposed to be.

I feel like this is where I'm supposed to be

and what I'm supposed to be doing,

so therefore, I'm going to continue it,

and whether he want to realize it or not,

that is just what it is.

If or when david comes around, that's on him.

That's not my journey.

This is my journey.

This is my path, and it's working for me

because the decision is not someone else's,

and that's a mistake that I made in the past.

I put my life, my goals, my desires,

my dreams that god placed in me in somebody else's hands.

Let me tell you something, goli.

You can be a witch from witchville.

Guess how many (bleep) I give?

None.

Do you want to know why I don't care?

Why?

God had his way at the end of the day.

I felt blocked, lost, confused, hopeless.

I never thought I would sing again.

I never thought I could be creative again.

I know.

God sent you to open the door for me.

Who am I not to take this opportunity

because of how somebody else feel?

I can't do that.

That would be living in the past,

so I apologize because it's not david.

It's me.

I did that.

I did that because that's what I'm used to.

I gave someone else an opportunity to judge you

while I'm working when they have nothing

to do with my work, and -- and because it's my fault,

let me fix my fault, and I love him.

[slurps] [laughs]

I do, and he's amazing, but it's my fault

because I invited him to the party,

a party that was... Did not have a plus one.

Yeah. [laughs]

did it? I trust my instinct.

I'm never wrong.

I feel that david pushed her to say

that it's her fault that he has judged my work.

If tamar and I were working privately one-on-one,

and sort of david didn't have any influence,

she would've really flourished in this work.

Let's go home.

Who's -- who's paying the bill, michael beck?

"not I," said the duck.

I need a raise, bitch.