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You don't,

you don't have enough fun.

You know?

I have fun.

I mean, real fun.

The kind of fun where you're just like

lovin' what you're doin'

and you're not givin' a fuck

about anything else.

I always give a fuck about everything else.

Mm-hm.

Yeah.

That's your problem.

Come on.

You would love letting yourself go.

I'd have to read a manual

on how to do that first.

What is that?

It's Oxy.

What does it do?

It makes all your worries

and all your problems just...

disappear.

It got me through last season

when I had that torn hamstring.

You remember that?

Yeah.

Mm-hm.

Best ride of your life.

I guarantee.

Okay.

You're not so boring after all.

Watch your step.

Watch your step.

Careful, watch your step.

Watch your step.

Tell them how you're spending

your Saturdays, Kristen.

Hannah, shut up!

How?

Oh my God.

Your mom enrolled you in another flute class.

Didn't she?

It's worse!

What the hell

could be worse than...

It's an SAT prep course

with Valerie the bitch!

Oh my god!

Oh my god!

Are you joking?

You're in AP calculus.

You shouldn't need a stupid SAT prep course.

You can get in just about anywhere you want...

That's what I tell her.

My mom thinks I can get into Princeton so I...

You can!

Definitely can.

Boring!

I'm following my boo to Penn State.

Yeah, Jeffrey parties nonstop

and he still has a two two.

What is a two two?

Whatever, you and your AP calculus

will be at lame-ass Princeton in Boston.

What?

Hannah?

It's New Jersey!

No, is she joking?

Are you actually joking?

It's Princeton New Jersey,

Princeton is in New Jersey Hannah!

I'm gonna have to fact check this.

Whatever!

Whatever.

What are we gettin' into tonight bitches?

Party!

What you gon' do with it?

Whatchu gon' do with it?

Whatchu gon' do with it?

Whatchu gon' do with it?

Whatchu gon' do with it?

Whatchu gon' do with it?

Oh, that feels like my boo!

There's a snowing forecast,

for all good lil sno-babies.

Yes.

Thank you baby!

Oh, Hannah, Kristen,

This is my boy Mike Stelini.

Mike's our head runnin' back this year.

Hi Mike.

I know who you are.

Guessing you are,

you Irish?

Kristen...

McBride?

McDougle?

I'm gonna get it.

Monihan?

McKusker.

I knew it...

Kristen McKusker.

Knew it why did you stop me.

I'll be honest.

I've been wanting to do something

since I saw you ten minutes ago.

Oh yeah?

Won't hurt, I promise.

? I thought I told ya ?

? I came to party ?

? Have a party girl ?

? You could bring your friends tonight ?

? I fill the club pushed away ?

? All the games you... ?

? The stakes are high ?

? But if your cards are right ?

? You'll be wakin' up naked ?

? What happened last night ?

Listen, you gotta give me that number

so no one else gets it.

? I came to party ?

? I came to party ?

? Hands up girl gimme a party ?

Let's get well.

'Scuse me!

Ava!

Do it, do it!

Ava!

Ava!

Ava!

Do it!

Go, go, go, go, go, go,

go, go, go!

Sadie, Sadie!

White trash hoe's nodding again.

How does she not fall?

Aw.

Emily's dancin' to a Chris Brown song in her head.

You are drunk.

Bye!

Why'd you say she was white trash?

'Cause she comes from a white trash family.

Yeah.

Mm=hm.

Her sister got pregnant when she was 15

dropped out of school and had the baby.

Can you believe that?

She actually had the baby.

That's crazy.

They're like, so ghetto.

Blur her face if you post that shit.

You know, your room hasn't really changed

since your mom left.

what's up with that?

Die Hard Nine's potent, Kristen.

So open wide

and be prepared.

Come on!

Don't be scared.

Okay.

Don't move.

The vain

is right

there.

Tiny puked again.

You're freakin' kidding me!

He is so disgusting.

Ugh.

Asshole never lasts past ten.

Where were you?

You weren't with her, were you?

Wait.

God!

Hurts.

Brandon.

Ow!

Brandon.

Please!

Brandon.

It hurts!

Brandon!

Please!

Brandon!

Stop!

? Don't call me the renegade ?

? The enemy ?

? Throw your hands up if you feel the same ?

? Oh ?

? Livin' life on the edge ?

? Just say what you wanna say ?

? Or walk away ?

? I stand tall when there's hell to pay ?

? Ain't no power higher ?

? We're the outlaws ?

? And outsiders ?

Hey.

Are you going to pay any of these bills today, Matt?

So the Reynolds brothers called again.

Oh yeah?

Mm-hm.

What're you talkin' to those assholes for?

They're serious about buying this place.

Look, I know dad's dream

was to have us carry out what he started,

but now that we own this place,

that dream's a nightmare, Matt.

This place is hemorrhaging money.

I made a promise, Mary.

I think we just need to consider

the Reynolds brothers' offer...

Thanks.

Kristen!

Where is it?

You know, if you touch my iPad again,

you're not going to make it to your 10th birthday.

You are so gross.

The check was on the counter.

Where did you put it Kristen?

Can't believe you're making me do this on a Saturday.

You need to raise your score

another 300 points to get into Princeton.

I'll get up 300.

The fine print in life

applies to you, Kristen McKusker.

When are you gonna realize that?

When it's too late?

You're not going to make today's game, daddy?

Client, sweetie.

I wish I could,

but I will be back for the game on Tuesday.

How much

is the SAT course?

Okay.

Honey.

Who put this in here?

Maddie.

Hurry up, Maddie.

We have got to get going.

Let's go.

Bill.

I'll drop you off at the airport.

Then I'll drop off Maddie at the soccer game.

Then I'll drop off Kristen at Valerie's apartment.

Then I had got to swing by

the office to pick up the brochures

for the angel road listing.

Then I'll get Maddie after her soccer game.

We'll scoop you up, Kristen,

bring you both back home.

I'm going to be showing houses

for the rest of the day.

You got Maddie.

That sounds like a nice little Saturday.

Promise you'll make Tuesday's game, daddy?

Absolutely.

You know what mom?

I'll just have Hannah take me to Valerie's

and then you can stay at Maddie's game.

Sure?

Yeah!

You're gonna stay and watch me play, mommy?

You sure Hannah can take you?

Yes.

And then she'll drop me back off here.

Thanks Kiki.

You better not slack, Little Bit.

Come on Maddie.

Here we go.

Kristen.

You didn't do any of the work

I emailed you last night, did ya?

You want to get accepted at Princeton?

I guess.

You guess?

You either do or you don't.

We don't have the time

and I am not in the mood.

Okay, okay.

Yeah.

I do want to get accepted into Princeton.

Geez, Valerie.

Your hormones are raging today.

Remind me to never get pregnant.

When you due?

Not soon enough.

I want the world to meet my baby Sophia.

Baby baby!

Hi.

Talk to me, baby.

So.

My personal fertility doctor,

WebMD, says that I need to track my biophasic pattern.

Oh, what the hell is that?

It means I take my temperature a bunch

to estimate when I'm ovulating.

And?

The good news is

my peak ovulation is tomorrow at noon.

And there's bad news?

Yeah.

Brandon won't give me off

and Lisa's out with the flu

and the new girl's a ditz.

Well, I'll just have to come down there

and knock you up in the kitchen.

Behind the pizza boxes.

Sorry, pepperoni pizza lovers.

You'll have to get your slices to go

because your desperate, barren waitress

is making another futile attempt to get pregnant.

You're not desperate, Anna.

Okay, baby.

I gotta go.

You know I can't be late.

Brandon's on a war path.

Yeah?

Well you tell that Dallas-Cowboys-loving Irish pizza maker

I'll come down there and stuff his ass

into a sausage grinder.

Huh?

Okay.

Go Eagles.

Damn right.

Eagles, baby.

I love you.

I love you more.

Oh!

I have something funny to tell you.

Please tell.

Cruella de Vil is pregnant.

You're lying.

Nope.

Oh my God.

They've known for two months.

Dude, the bitch isn't even showing

and she's wearing maternity clothes.

So typical.

Yeah.

She insists on traveling with my dad now

to all his business trips.

So.

They're never home.

You should see my dad.

All happy.

Rubbing her belly,

feeding her tapioca pudding.

Ew.

So gross.

They're picking Irish names,

Connor for a boy.

Delaney for a girl.

Those are the worst names

I have ever heard.

I know.

How's your mom handling the baby?

Like usual.

This time his name's Hank.

They're in a threesome.

Oh my God.

You're lying!

With who?

Her, Hank,

and Jack Daniels.

I'm sorry dude.

At least he's so fine.

Actually?

Oh, except for his gut and hairpiece.

I told my mom that she should buy him a chin strap.

Gross.

Kiki!

I scored a goal!

Mom has the video on her phone!

Can't you knock, you little brat?

Why are you bleeding?

What, what's it this time?

A vampire was chasing me.

Oh my gosh!

It was scary, Kiki.

Well there's no reason to be scared

because Kiki would never

let a vampire chase you.

On the day before,

he was to suffer.

He took bread

in his holy and venerable hands

with his eyes raised to heaven.

To you, oh God.

Almighty father.

Giving you thanks

saying the blessing.

He broke the bread

and he gave it to his disciples saying

take this all of you,

and eat of it

for this is my body,

which will be given up for you.

In a similar way,

when supper was ended,

he took this precious chalice,

in his holy and venerable hands.

And once more, giving you thanks,

he said the blessing.

And gave the chalice to his disciples.

Saying take this, all of you.

? Virgin born ?

? We kneel before thee ?

? Blessed was the womb ?

? That bore thee ?

? Mary mother, meek and mild ?

? Innocent, God's holy child ?

? Hallelujah ?

? Hallelujah ?

? As the holy angel's wept ?

? Jesus slept ?

? Blessed is she by all creation ?

? Who brought forth the world's salvation ?

? Blest are they forever blessed ?

? Innocent, they must profess ?

? Hallelujah ?

? Hallelujah ?

Body of Christ.

Amen.

? As the guardian angels slept ?

? Jesus wept ?

Hi!

I'm Clare McKusker, Banatee Realty.

Matt.

Matt, nice to meet you.

Anna.

Hi Anna.

Thank you guys for calling.

You're going to love this house.

Great school district.

Beautiful neighborhood.

Ready to see it?

Yeah.

Alright, come on in.

This is one of the first houses

built by the Reynolds Brothers.

Nice area.

Matty?

I love the house!

It's perfect.

We can build our life there.

I know you love it, Anna.

And I know it's perfect.

I also know we can't afford it.

Hey.

Doesn't happen soon, we can adopt.

Kristen.

I'm pregnant.

What's wrong, honey?

When does dad get home?

He's not, he is golfing with clients

in Hilton Head.

Hey, are you okay?

You don't look so good.

Actually.

I'm sorry.

Hold on.

Hello.

Can we wait until tomorrow, Gill?

Okay.

Alright.

I'll be right there.

I need to go to the office.

We will talk as soon as I get back,

I promise.

Okay.

I'll make it quick.

Hey!

There's the hardest working girl in real estate!

Have a seat, Clare.

So how you doing?

I'm good, how are you, Gill?

Never better, never better.

How are your little guys?

You got two, right?

Yeah, Kristen and Maddie.

They're great.

Thanks!

Clare.

You are being considered for the relocation listing agent

for this office.

What?

That's amazing!

Yes!

Could be an extra 30,

$35,000 a year in your pocket.

It's between you

and John Delorenzo.

Yeah.

John's aggressive.

Well, my decision will be based

on who has the best numbers at the end of this quarter.

Shit.

Hello?

Hi Matt.

Clare McKusker at Banatee Realty.

I'd like to stop by

and let you know

how you can buy my angel rose estate

with very little money down.

Hello?

Brandon, hey,

I need to talk to you about something.

Brandon, I'm...

Yo it's Brandon, say whatcha gotta say.

Ow!

Fuck.

Matty,

Aveleen reproductive medicine

has an in vitro program that you can finance.

Finance?

Like a mortgage?

Sort of.

How much?

$14,692.

But you can finance it

over four years.

No interest.

How much are the monthly payments?

$306.

Babe.

I'll work more shifts...

We can't afford it.

I'll work more shifts.

And is it guaranteed you'd get pregnant?

No.

Still gotta pay if it doesn't work?

Yes.

Hey, what are you,

what are you doing here?

It's raining.

I thought I'd pick you up for change.

Oh my god.

Are dad and Maddie okay?

Yes, yes!

Everyone's fine.

Yes.

I know I've been distracted with work.

It's been crazy.

And...

Thought I'd check in.

Kristen, are you okay?

'Cause you haven't been yourself.

Kristen?

Yeah.

Sorry.

I'm fine.

I'm just like tired

and stressed out, you know,

with SATs and whatever.

It's just been like an insane

year for me.

So.

Can I help you?

And whatever it is,

you can talk to me.

Just between me and you.

Kristen.

Mom...

That scared me.

Yeah me too.

Okay, go,

go on.

You know what mom?

I'm fine.

You sure?

Yeah.

No, I'm good.

Like I said,

it's just like lack of sleep

and it's like, stress,

I just don't feel good.

Okay.

So I called planned Parenthood

and they said that I can get an abortion.

But.

I need parental consent.

You need me to come talk to your mom?

No.

I want you to consent.

What do you mean?

I want you to be my parent.

What?

It'll be simple, okay?

Kristen

I'll Photoshop us fake IDs.

It's not that simple.

Yes it is!

I know this girl that's 14

and her sister posed as her mom.

I'm not going to do that.

What else can I do?

Talk to your parents.

Involve them, figure it out with them.

I can come with you.

I can't.

You have to.

Not if you help me.

You said that you would help me, Valerie!

I wanna help you,

but this would not be helping you.

Yes it is!

What is the problem with this?

There are other complications

that you are

not thinking about.

For one thing it's illegal

and I could go to jail.

No, you won't

because no one would know...

I would know.

And if anyone ever found out,

then everybody would know.

And then I would be in really deep trouble.

I'm sorry, but you are thinking about this

like a child.

Hey.

The Reynolds Brothers put an offer in writing.

Wow.

Exactly.

Cash too.

No financing, no rezoning, nothing.

This could be an answer to all of our money problems, Matt.

I could finally divorce

that underemployed loser

who snores next to me every night.

You and Anna could buy a house.

What do you want to do?

Jesus Christ.

I need to think about it.

What is there to think about?

Just sign the goddamn papers.

I need more time.

More time.

All right?

Fine.

Your contracts.

Just keep it.

Okay we need to split this one.

I'm out until Jeff gets back tomorrow.

Okay.

Let's do it.

Oh my God.

Kristen, that is so disturbing.

Your toes are literally going to fall off.

They're so infected.

Shut up, Hannah.

Okay.

Let me show you the big girl way.

I can't do the tongue thing, Hannah.

That's not what I mean.

Come here.

Hannah.

You're not wearing underwear.

You're shaved down there...

Waxed.

Shaving leaves little skank bumps.

Okay whatever just...

please do it, show me...

Pay attention, Princeton girl.

You gotta be careful

and get the femoral vein just right,

because it's real close

to the holiest of holies.

Okay.

Hannah.

Hannah, you shot all of it.

Fuck, Hannah!

Hey, come on in.

Shut the door.

Come on, come on, come on.

More good news.

I cornered Jim O'Hara,

VP of marketing and sales

at the bar after the outing,

he hinted that I was on the short list

for the regional manager's job!

That is great Gill!

You'd be so good at that!

Congratulations.

Oh, thank you.

But that's not all.

I told him about you.

That you're my rising star.

You did?

Yeah.

I told him you're definitely in line

for the relo job

and that you'd be a natural

to fill my position as office manager when I get promoted.

You said that?

Hell yeah, I did!

That's so sweet of you.

Guess what, he's coming in next month.

He wants to take us to lunch.

What the fuck!

I don't even know what to say.

Yeah!

Thank you.

What the fuck is this place?

? I stare at the face of evil ?

? In the belly of the beast ?

? I turn my back on Jesus ?

? In the belly of the beast ?

? Sometimes your only choice is ?

? No choice at all ?

? Sometimes the only voice ya hear ?

? Is when the devil calls ?

Get the fuck out of my way.

? Holdin' on ?

? Holdin' on ?

There he is.

? Don't matter how deep you're diggin' ?

? In the belly of the beast ?

? Don't matter how far you'll ?

Lost, girls?

No, we need a score.

I remember you, Muffy.

You's with that Nick Jonas looking motherfucker.

My name's Hannah.

And his is Jeff.

What you need?

Four dimes.

Die Hard Nine.

You know the drill, Muffy.

Go see shorty.

Hold up though.

You need one more thing.

? Sometimes your only choice is ?

? No choice at all ?

? Sometimes the only voice ya hear ?

? Is when the devil calls ?

I remember you for sure now.

Muffy.

? I'm holdin' on ?

? I'm holdin' on ?

Are you okay?

? Don't matta how far you're fallin' ?

? In the belly of the beast ?

? You better pray for your sins to kill ya fast ?

? Ya better pray how long this life will last ?

? 'Cause ?

? Whatcha do whatcha do when you're livin' ?

? Is whatcha do whatcha do when ya die ?

Hannah, what the fuck?

What the fuck are you doing?

I panicked!

We're so fucked.

Step outta the car.

Jesus Christ, Kristen.

Get up to bed.

What happens now?

Kristen and Hannah,

have to take a urine test tomorrow

at the clinic.

And if they test positive for heroin,

they'll be charged

with possession of a controlled substance.

My God.

But.

If what Kristen says is true,

and they were buying the heroin for a friend,

it will be reduced to a minor in possession charge,

which,

is not permanent, but,

it'll stay in her file until she's 18.

Can't you just shoot this freaking thing already?

Oh, shucks.

What a great idea.

Shoot the coyote

that's been terrorizing this place

the last two fucking years.

Why didn't I think of that?

Don't be a wise ass.

Shoot it, Mary?

This coyote is so slippery,

I barely got a look at it,

let alone a shot.

Well if you would sell it to the Reynolds Brothers,

they would deal with this cagey coyote.

And every other headache that comes along with this place,

but more importantly, you and I would be rich.

Look.

Dad already sold all his other property

to those pencil necks before he died.

He wanted to keep this place pure.

Yeah well dad also wanted more

than a real estate tax bills

and a rogue coyote.

Damn it.

I'm going to go get the tractor.

I can't even get a burger out of that beauty.

God damn coyotes ruined the meat.

? I can't sleep ?

? I tell my ?

? Self to ?

? Sets on boundaries ?

? 'cause I know ?

? Exactly ?

? What you do to me ?

? And I can't ?

? But I can ?

? I've got no ?

? Controling ?

? I running ?

Here.

It's clean piss.

Heroin's in your pee seven days.

Where did you get this?

Jeffy.

He had one of his boys drop it to me.

He said at this clinic,

they strip search you

and they look everywhere.

I mean everywhere.

Just slip it in like a tampon

before you leave your house.

When they ask for the sample,

unscrew the cap,

fill the cup

and put the empty one back inside you.

I don't know Hannah.

this is like really big.

So is drug possession on your record.

? Here we go again ?

? Shame on you ?

? Shame on you ?

Hannah Breen?

? Shame on me too ?

? Shame is what we do ?

Follow the nurse.

Okay.

Kristen McKusker.

Aren't you Kristen McKusker?

This way.

I need you to turn around and face the wall.

Place your hands on the wall.

Keep them flush against the wall.

Do not move your hands from the wall until I tell you to.

Do you understand?

What's in your pocket?

I think my chap stick.

Do you have anything illegal

or any drug paraphernalia on you?

Is there anything that's going to stick me?

No.

Poke me, injure me?

No.

Leave your hands on the wall.

Spread your legs.

Okay.

You can remove your hands from the wall and turn around.

Remove all of your clothing, Kristen,

including underwear.

Everything Kristen.

Okay.

Turn around and face the wall.

Bend forward, Kristen.

Bend forward, Kristen.

Now reach around

and spread your cheeks.

Stand up.

You can turn back around,

see the nurse and give me a sample.

Right over there.

I think I'm addicted.

What did you say?

Kristen?

Look at me.

I'm addicted.

What do you mean?

You're addicted?

To heroin.

What?

Oh my god.

The baby.

How?

How did it start?

How everyone starts.

Oxy.

Oxycontin the pain pill?

Yeah.

Yeah the pain pill.

How can one pill...

It's like nothing I've ever felt before.

Ever.

I don't even know how to explain it

it's like if you take

like all the good things that have ever happened to me

and you like combine it into one thing.

Valerie, I swear to you,

it would not even compare

to that Oxy high I felt with Brandon.

How did it go from Oxycontin to heroin?

Oxy is

$80 a pill.

It's really hard to find.

Heroin's $10 for a bag.

And it's a better high.

Just do the math.

It doesn't make any sense.

Not with the Kristen that I know.

The Kristen that you know

is not the Kristen that I know.

Heroin makes me who I wish I was.

Vampires again.

Kiki?

Are you okay?

Should I get mommy?

I don't want you sick Kiki.

I love you, Kiki.

I'm dope sick.

I need to stay here just for a couple of days

until I get clean.

What?

I started cold turkey like two days ago,

and I take the Suboxone,

and it's taking off the edge,

I just need a couple more days...

What about your parents?

My dad's going to be away on business trip.

I wish I could quit my job.

And?

My mom's going to some, like, realtor convention

in New Orleans.

What do you mean, and?

Your mom is,

is still going to go to that?

Even, everything that happened with the police?

Yeah.

It's like,

I think it's, it's paid for by her boss.

She's on some kind of promotion or something.

Just say what you really want to say, Clare.

What are you talking...

Just say, Bill, if you made more money,

I wouldn't have to work,

and everything would be perfect.

My parents talked it over.

And they're gonna go with the original plan.

Maddie's gonna stay at her friend Mackenzie's house

and I already talked my mom that I could stay with you.

What?

Kristen.

That's not what I meant.

Yes.

It was.

She trusts you

you've been babysitting me since I was four.

And it's the only way that she's going to go,

and it's the only way that I'm going to get better.

What about school?

= I'm off school today

and Friday because of a teacher thing.

And then it's the weekend, so it'll be four days.

It's just four days...

I don't know, Kristen.

I'm sorry.

Valerie, please.

Please, I swear that

I'll tell my parents I'm pregnant

right after I get clean.

Please, help me.

Like, I don't think I can do this.

Everything hurts.

Do you want me to get you anything?

No, ow!

No.

Okay sorry.

I'm just so uncomfortable!

I know.

I have to go again.

All right why don't you have a sip of water,

why don't you sit down...

I don't want a sip of water.

Okay.

I need it really bad.

I know.

I need it.

I need it.

You just gotta get through it

there's nothing else you can do.

It's just time, okay?

How much time?

I don't know, okay?

I do not know how much fucking time!

Don't yell at me.

I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry.

I just really don't feel good.

Kristen, your mom's calling again.

Come on, get it together.

You got to pick it up.

Come on, get it together

and pick up the phone.

Your mom's calling.

You need to drink this water.

You are the one who made yourself sick.

So then you have to make yourself better.

Okay?

Okay, I'll drink it.

I'll drink the water.

Thank you.

Can you drink the whole thing please?

I'm gonna throw up now, so thanks.

All right.

I don't need that attitude.

Kristen.

Why are you crying?

I don't know.

I can't stop crying.

I appreciate you doing this for me.

Yeah, you're welcome.

You'd do the same for me?

Always.

Hopefully that never happens.

Good new product, baby.

Lucifer.

Laced with fentanyl

tell all your friends

it's a million times better

than Die Hard Nine.

For you Catholic girls,

it's like having an orgasm in heaven.

I'll tell them boo!

And stay away from serial killer.

That scumbag Mazio is givin' it away for free.

Cut with carfentanyl,

fucking elephant tranquilizer.

One bad pop can put you in the ground.

? Happy birthday to you ?

? Happy birthday to you ?

? Happy birthday dear Jeffy ?

? Happy birthday to you ?

You remembered.

Course I remembered.

What's your wish, baby?

Really?

You love me.

Right boo?

I mean,

really love me?

Always.

Kristen!

Come on, let's get coffee!

Hey Hannah,

I can't today.

I have,

I have a paper due.

Dude wait.

Dude, finish it later.

Let's hang out.

I can't.

I'm trying to get my grades up.

Alright.

What's going on?

What do you mean?

You avoid me all day?

No, not really.

Yeah, you do.

You don't return my calls.

You leave my texts on read.

You haven't liked one of my Instagram pictures

in like a month.

Actually I don't remember the last time that we hung out.

I have to tell you about me and Jeffy.

We did it.

It was amazing...

I'm busy, Hannah.

Too busy for me?

What is it?

What?

Hannah, I can't shoot that poison inside me anymore.

I got clean, Hannah.

How?

I just did.

I mean.

Good for you.

But what does that have to do with us hanging out?

It's hard for me not to do that shit

when I'm with you,

you make me want to do it, okay?

You're too good for me now?

Princeton girl?

I'm dealing with something.

What are you dealing with?

You can tell me.

I'll help you.

We're best friends.

Kristen.

You coming?

Yeah, just, yeah.

Hold on.

We're best friends, right?

Okay.

Fuck you, Kristen.

? I can't save you ?

? I can't change you now ?

? Save your own skin ?

? I'm not your heroine ?

? I can't save you ?

? I'm not your heroine ?

Hey guys.

Put your dog on a leash for me, all right?

Why?

He's always off leash.

Just do it.

Max, come on.

Do we have to?

Come on.

Sean, come on.

Sophia!

? The damage is done ?

Hey Jeffy.

Call me.

It's been six weeks,

six weeks.

I had to score

from Nick Mazio.

Aww.

Look at you.

I wanted to talk about

what we did.

It was so special, wasn't it?

It was special, right?

That's a good one.

Why won't you call me back?

Always and forever.

Right boo?

Hey, Kristen.

Hey.

Hey.

Who's this?

This is Hudson.

Can you say hi?

Hey Hudson!

Hi!

He loves the scones here.

Aw, he's really cute.

Is that your brother?

Uh, no, I'm actually his nanny.

It's a great gig.

It's like 20 hours a week

every day after school

until his mom gets home.

15 bucks an hour cash.

Dude, that's awesome.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Do you need any

lucifer?

That stuff's insane.

No, I'm good.

Are you sure?

It's so much better than DH nine.

Yeah.

I'm good.

Okay.

Say bye!

Bye Kristen.

Bye.

Bye Hudson.

Hi baby.

Kristen.

You need to tell your parents about the baby.

It's time.

You can't wait any longer.

Look, I,

I'll go with you.

We can do it together.

If that's what you want.

Okay?

When was the last time we did this?

Too busy.

Have to make more time for each other.

Yeah.

Actually mom.

There's something that I want to tell you about.

Yeah?

Yeah.

What?

Hey, there's Hannah.

Hannah!

Hey!

What's going on with her?

She looks terrible.

Those drugs were for her.

That night, right?

You're protecting her?

Her dad has given her everything.

Everything.

I really...

Let me...

Mom, I really need...

I just wanted to,

wait, just wait,

I just wanna let you know,

that I'm really proud of you.

And I don't say it enough

and that's my fault,

but just know

that I'm proud.

And I love you.

Thanks mom.

I have to go to the bathroom.

Hey Matt!

Yes, how are you?

Good, how have you been?

Pretty good.

Yeah.

How about you?

Good.

How's Anna?

She's great.

She's actually in the ladies room.

I'm sure she'll be happy to see you.

I'm here with my daughter,

which you'll finally get to meet actually...

Kristen.

Kristen.

Yeah.

There's Kristen right now,

Kristen, this is Matt.

Matt, this is Kristen.

Heard a lot about you.

Jesus Christ.

Honey, what happened?

Hannah?

Hannah?

Hannah!

Hannah, wake up!

Call nine one one.

Just relax.

Give her some air.

Hannah.

Hannah!

Hannah, that's her name?

Hannah?

Yeah.

Come on, breathe, Hannah.

Hannah, oh my god.

Jesus Christ, there's a needle here!

Some kind of overdose.

Honey.

Tell dispatch it's an overdose.

Hey, hey!

Hannah!

Put this under her head.

Get her head right up.

Thank you.

Okay.

She was just laying there.

Turning blue.

She's a kid.

Hannah?

Hannah.

Come on, come on.

She's not breathing.

What!

Let me do compressions.

Okay.

Hannah, breathe.

Breathe, breathe, breathe!

Oh my god

breathe!

Hannah.

Hannah!

Come on!

So cold.

Come on, dammit!

Don't believe in hell,

look deep into the eyes

of a 16 year old heroin addict.

Please, everyone.

Step aside,

step aside.

Back please.

How long has she been down?

Like five minutes.

She's got a pulse, she's not breathing.

Let's get the Narcan ready.

Is she breathing?

I'm breathing for her.

Did she hit her head when she fell?

I don't know.

We didn't see her fall.

Here's the Narcan.

Give her some room.

Hannah?

Come on, Hannah.

Come on.

Come on Hannah.

Hannah, come on.

She's still not breathing.

Come on, Hannah.

Come on, come on.

Let's get a second dose.

Give her some room.

Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa.

Hannah, lay back.

No!

Hannah, Hannah, Hannah.

Hannah.

Lay back.

Get off!

Lay back for me.

Hannah, Hannah, Hannah.

Clare never mentioned a thing

about her daughter being pregnant.

All she ever talks about is her kid

going to Princeton.

Think she even knows?

How could a mother not know?

Matty?

Yeah.

Do you think that her Daughter

might be giving the baby up for adoption?

Kiki, open the door.

I had a dream.

Go away, Maddie.

It was Pennywise from IT this time.

Please Maddie just

not tonight.

Kiki?

I'm scared.

Go away.

Help!

Someone help!

I just want to confirm with your office

that I have the right to kill this thing

and you're not going to send some,

Barney Fife game warden guy

down here and hit me with a big fine.

It came out of nowhere.

And started attacking.

I understand the humane Disposition

of the problem.

Did you come near you guys?

It's killing innocent things.

And I'm really concerned about what it will do next.

Yeah, well, guess what?

It's not your fucking property pal.

It's my property.

And I want to know that I have the right

to kill this thing.

Yeah, that's what I thought.

All right.

Thank you sir.

You have a nice day.

Fuckin' a, man.

Hannah.

What?

Hey, I miss you.

How are you feeling?

Dude that was really scary at the Bistro, right?

Kristen, why did you call me?

Do you wanna come over?

That's not an option.

Hannah, look,

I was going through some stuff, okay?

We're cool now.

Hannah?

I need something really bad.

Okay?

Really bad.

Like a best friend?

Hannah, I need to get well

right now.

Seriously.

Hannah!

Hannah!

? Don't let yourself go too far down the rabbit hole ?

? You've been sinking like a stone ?

? Trying to find your way home ?

? But the path is washed away ?

? Don't beat yourself up ?

? You're your own worst enemy ?

? You've been counting all the days you've been in pain ?

? And I know you're not okay ?

Where's,

what was her name again?

I need to score.

Five Dimes.

Wanna come hang out?

Not really.

Get out.

Get out the car.

Go.

Know what I love as much as dead presidents in my pocket?

And some nachos?

Sweet, young

pussy.

I bet yours is sweet too, isn't it?

And tight.

Let's find out.

Strip.

Strip.

Don't make me rip that prep school shit off you, bitch.

Please don't make me do this.

I said fuckin' strip!

Okay.

Now.

Okay.

You're pregnant.

This shit's for you?

No.

No.

My boyfriend said he was gonna beat my ass

if I didn't score for him.

Anybody who do this shit with a baby in 'em.

Ain't no fucking good.

Kid born a fucking opiod orphan.

Be on the block sellin' by the time he's nine.

Sellin' the rest of his no-good motherfucking life.

I'm clean.

Yeah?

I swear to god, I'm fucking clean.

Let's see if you're clean, bitch.

Let's see if you fuckin' clean.

You lucky you clean, bitch.

Not yet.

Ow, ow!

Please don't!

Please!

? Walls are closing in around me ?

? I escape and I'm surrounded ?

? I was dead again... ?

Hey.

Here.

I got the Reynolds brothers

to advance a portion of the deposit.

There's your half.

Put a down payment on your house.

Do the in vitro.

Have the life you and Anna deserve.

See ya bud.

Here's to the new relocation listing agent

for Banatee Realty.

Cheers.

Thank you.

That's good.

I sold my angels road listing.

To a cute young couple

that reminded me

of us.

You've reached Clare McKusker.

To us.

To us.

Hi, you've reached Valerie.

Sorry I missed your call.

Leave a message, and I'll give you a call back.

You need to help me.

Hey babe.

Hey.

How's my hero?

Hero?

Yeah right.

You are my hero.

We're finally getting our dream home, Matty.

And I can do the in vitro.

I mean could the timing of the nature preserve sale

be more perfect?

Yeah.

Perfect timing.

What's the matter?

You're quiet.

Matty?

Yeah, babe?

I left a message with Clare

and told her that I'd drop off the second deposit check

at her house tomorrow morning.

I was thinking that when I'm there,

I could ask her

if she's considering adoption for her daughter's baby.

And if she is,

would she consider us.

Matty?

Yeah.

Well don't you think that it's fate?

Us getting our dream home,

meeting Clare, her daughter being pregnant at 16,

that baby's meant to be with us.

Matty?

Matty, are you there?

Matty?

I got you, you fucker.

What was that?

Are you okay?

Matty?

I had a shot, Anna.

Shot at what?

Just come home.

Hello?

Hi, Hannah, I'm Valerie,

I'm looking for Kristen.

I'm just

worried about her.

Do you have any idea where she might be?

No, I haven't seen her.

I think she's using again.

Kristen, Valerie's looking for you.

She said you're using again.

Dude.

What the hell is going on with you?

I thought you were clean.

Call me back, okay?

I really miss you.

I'm getting help right now and you should too,

before it's too late.

Okay love you.

Bye.

Kristen, I tried calling you back.

Where are you?

I know you're using again.

I know it's hard.

And I'm going to come talk to your mom tomorrow

and we're going to get you help

before something really bad happens.

Help me!

It hurts!

Kristen!

Kristen!

Liberty 285, code six.

105 North Avenue and 52.

Kristen, where is it?

Where's the baby, Kristen?

Kristen, can you hear me?

Yeah.

Gonna get your blood pressure.

Kristen, I'm gonna start an IV, okay?

Gonna feel a tight band and then a little poke.

Okay tight band.

Why didn't she tell us?

All right Kristen you're gonna feel a little pinch.

I want Kristen to get better.

It'll be okay.

Where's the baby, Kristen?

You need to back away.

Kristen.

Hang in there for us, baby,

come on, baby you can do it.

Okay.

Slow deep breaths.

Hang in there, baby.

Mommy?

457.

It's gonna be all right.

Okay?

Your big sister's gonna be okay.

Let's get her hooked to the monitor.

How did she have a baby?

I didn't know, I didn't know.

Excuse me.

Where is her room?

Upstairs, to the right.

First room on the right.

We can cycle her blood pressure.

Kristen, open your eyes.

Kristen.

Open your eyes.

Matty.

Yeah, what's wrong?

Where was she last night?

Here.

I think.

What do you mean, you think?

I didn't help, I didn't know.

I didn't know.

I'm sorry.

Kristen.

Where's the baby?

There's no baby.

Where's the baby?

Tell them, Kiki!

I don't have a baby.

Where's the baby, kristen?

They gotta go, come on.

? Paint yourself a picture ?

? Of what you wish you looked like ?

? Maybe then they just might ?

? Feel an ounce of your pain ?

? Come into focus ?

How you doin', kristen?

? Step out of the shadows ?

? It's a losing battle ?

? There's no need to be ashamed ?

? 'Cause they don't even know you ?

? All they see is scars ?

? They don't see the angel ?

? Let them find the real you ?

? Buried deep within ?

What'd you do, kristen?

What did you do?

? You are not your skin ?

Kristen?

What's she doing?

She's in V-Fib!

My baby, my beautiful girl.

? Just rise above this ?

? Kill them with your kindness ?

? Ignorance is blindness ?

? They're the ones ?

? That stand to lose ?

Her fingers aren't moving.

Mom, I need you to back up.

Don't touch the bed.

Clear.

Shocking!

I'm so sorry.

Can you hear me?

? Let them find the real you ?

? Buried deep within ?

Come on Tom, we're losing her!

Is she breathing!

Shocking!

Kristen!

No!

Kristen.

Baby.

Can you hear me?

Mom, I need you to step back.

Clear the bed again, I'm shocking please.

Shocking!

I want this eulogy to matter.

That should've been me.

I did this.

I taught Kristen

how to shoot heroin under her tongue.

And I showed her where to shoot up.

To hide the needle marks.

And I am so sorry.

The truth is

that you can be blessed with a great family,

and go to a great school,

and have a lot of friends and money

and all these things that make your life seem perfect.

But on the inside,

things can be ugly

and they can feel

terrifying and hopeless.

And it.

It breaks my heart

to think that that's how Kristen felt.

Like it or not.

I'm going to tell you Kristen's story.

I know Kristen's story wasn't easy to hear.

It's a cautionary tale

like success,

tragedy leaves clues.

Some of you

will see parts of yourself in Kristen,

some parents will see parts of themselves

in the McKusker Family.

She's so strong.

And that awareness can bring change.

But help and success

starts with acceptance

and talking.

We can't lose another Kristen.

And we cannot lose the future.

Like baby Amari.

Her name means miracle of God.

And it's truly a miracle

that she survived that night

in the nature preserve.

If we can save

just one life

by telling Kristen's story,

she will not have died in vain.

? All the scars ?

? All the lines ?

? On my face they show the times ?

? I've abandoned my own life ?

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? I can't breathe, I can't eat ?

? So I just drink myself to sleep ?

? And embrace this morbid price ?

? But maybe it's time to heal ?

? Maybe it's time to try ?

? Maybe it's time to deal ?

? With all the pieces in my life ?

? Maybe I'll sober up ?

? Maybe before I die ?

? Maybe I'll finally deal ?

? With all the wreckage in my life ?

? And this was self-inflicted ?

? I was on a mission ?

? To ruin everything in life ?

? But now I'm so damn ready ?

? Just take my hand and steady ?

? And we will make it through the night ?

? Maybe it's time to heal ?

? Maybe it's time to try ?

? Maybe it's time to deal ?

? With all the pieces in my life ?

? Maybe I'll sober up ?

? And maybe before I die ?

? Maybe I'll finally deal ?

? With all the wreckage in my life ?

? Oh ?

? Maybe it's time ?

? Maybe it's time ?

? Maybe it's time ?

? Every moment I'm awake ?

? It's a fight that you could never know ?

? Every moment I'm awake ?

? I'm clinging onto hope ?

? And I feel so low, but I'm dealing ?

? The struggle's getting old ?

? Every moment I'm awake ?

? But I'm getting sober ?

? Trying but I can't get closer ?

? Baby, did you let me go? ?

? Baby, did you let me go? ?

? Now I'm getting sober ?

? Trying but I can't get closer ?

? Baby, did you let me go? ?

? On and on we pray ?

? Thinking 'bout time and our mistakes ?

? Thinking 'bout time, thinking 'bout time ?

? 'Cause it's about time ?

? On and on we pray ?

? Thinking 'bout time and our mistakes ?

? Thinking 'bout time, thinking 'bout time ?

? 'Cause it's about time ?

? So don't say it's over ?

? Waiting here while you get sober ?

? I'm never gonna let you go ?

? I'm never gonna let you go ?

? So don't say it's over ?

? Waiting here while you get sober ?

? I'm never gonna let you go ?

? I'm never gonna let you go ?

? On and on we pray ?

? Thinking 'bout time and our mistakes ?

? Thinking 'bout time, thinking 'bout time ?

? 'Cause it's about time ?

? On and on we pray ?

? Thinking 'bout time and our mistakes ?

? Thinking 'bout time, thinking 'bout time ?

? It's about time ?