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i was supposed to go back to new york

the next day but a meeting had come up

causing me to push

i've been in los angeles over a week now

and i was tired

and homesick and wanted more than

anything to crawl into bed with ella and

smell the skin of her neck

the fight was one of those insanely

arbitrary things that

if i explained it would make it sound

like an irrational and brittle person

that was not the case

i loved her and admired her

the strain of being away was just

getting to both of us

and she had picked a fight out of

anxiety over whether or not i would be

trustworthy

i was trying to be

what are you reading

i didn't feel guilty about it it was a

road quality to experience

pretty much muzzle memory well

good night you want me to get you a car

no that's okay i got it

okay what i felt was also old and

familiar

looking forward to the sound of the

front door closing and the relief of

being alone

are you [ __ ] kidding me

what is it some [ __ ] [ __ ] robbed

me

what where i mean it

must have been at the bar

weren't you watching your purse what did

they take

i mean my phone my wallet my my my keys

they took your keys so yeah my wallet is

also my keychain

[ __ ] what the [ __ ] am i going to do

ugh my roommate's in oh hi on a [ __ ]

ayahuasca retreat

that really sucks man

can i borrow your phone i need to like

cancel my cards

you sure your stuff isn't at the bar

like you could have fallen out or

something

right

thanks

uh

thanks of course i'm sorry if i was

curt i don't worry about it if it were

me i'd be losing my mind

yeah [ __ ] people help

oh no i'm sorry to bother you with this

it's okay can happen to anyone yeah

you're welcome to stay the night

oh no that's very sweet of you i will

figure something out

are you tired

my friend used to work for the okcupid

analytics team

and they have like this giant data set

it's like all the questions that people

have to answer and

at a certain point they don't even have

to anymore but they just keep like

feeding at information about themselves

like by choice

and they found that there's a question

that if you ask a girl and she answers

yes

is the single most reliable predictor of

whether or not

she will have sex on a first date

do you know what that question is

do you like the taste of beer

do you like the taste of beer

not really do you do this kind of thing

a lot

um do you mean am i a [ __ ]

sure no not that there's anything wrong

with it hmm

do you believe that intellectually

you have kind eyes

and i was feeling sad

the city can make you feel really lonely

i think about leaving it all the time

this is a nice spot it belongs to a

friend of mine from school

he works in tv i live in a whopping 300

square foot walk up in the east village

all to myself

so yeah i'm not jealous ew then why did

i sleep with you

are you what jealous

i don't know i've been here a week now

when i feel this kind of alienation

setting in

i always feel it here i may not have a

lot of space back home but

manhattan is my living room you know

you're right this this is a lonely city

god you know there's just something

particular

about new yorkers they feel like they

can come into your home

[ __ ] all over it and expect you to feel

sorry for them

i'm using your words

so

what are you afraid of what am i afraid

of

um

so i'm turning 30 soon

i'm not saying that's old or anything

but

you look around in new york and there

are tons of people

you know who just closed her eyes at 30

and then wake up when they're 50 and

they're really no farther along

nothing that much is different except

this um

weight in their eyes that wasn't there

before

and you feel no way that happens to

other people sure but but not to me

now i'm meant for something more you

know i'm special

what you really mean by that though is

it wouldn't be fair

if it happened to you in the same way as

a kid you

you thought it wasn't fair if your toy

broke

because that's how children think in

terms of what is fair

or unfair instead of

what is life

i don't know what what are you afraid of

spiders

why do women equate sexual fidelity with

love pass

ah my handy cufflink

i have something that i'm afraid of what

so my ex and i were at this uh bar in

nashville that used to be this house of

this eccentric

millionaire who used to keep these women

as sex slaves

okay but how's the eccentric and there

was this bottom [ __ ]

who you know was like the main girl of

the sex slave totem pole

and she got really jealous one day of

the other girls

snapped and killed a bunch of them

so go to the bathroom and at the end of

the hallway there's a sign

on this door that says do not enter and

of course

i go through it and it's a stairway that

leads to the second floor

it's like completely empty but i notice

on a windowsill

there's a single cufflink

so i take it no no no you don't do that

so the the next day my

my boyfriend and i were on the road and

i tell him what happens

what i did and he's like really pale and

he's like whoa

like we need to go back like you need to

return that i'm like yo like come down

you're crazy you know we're like three

hours away from the city go back we're

trying to [ __ ] cufflink

so you know like without going into

specifics the next uh

six months of my life are chaos and

if that's not enough um

one day i decided to take the cufflink

out of this jewelry box where i was

keeping it i have no idea

like why i had the urge but i did

and it was warm and i'm thinking like

okay

the jewelry box is by window and like

the sun heats it up but i feel around

like on all my other jewels it's the

only ones it's the only one

why don't you just throw it away

like it

hey do you want to get high

where'd you go said you were thinking

about leaving all the time where would

you go

um i don't know

i was actually thinking about going back

to school

what would you study i haven't decided

yet

but i like to help people so

interior design

you think i'm a flake what

like uh here's this like 30 um

something year old tudor who lives in

los angeles

with a roommate get keep track of her

purse and she's talking about all these

changes she's not going to make

i think it's very sweet of you to

pretend that i have

i know that look i don't know who looked

at you that way but that's not what i

was thinking at all

well what were you thinking about my own

problems

i'm gonna get another one do you want

one no maybe some water

um

foreign

next day i ordered layla a car

i gave her what cash i had to get into

the day

63 she gave me information

and insisted on paying me back

i never contacted her

here

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