All language subtitles for Tamar Braxton Get Ya Life - 1x03_track2_eng

All these people,
there's cameras.

This is not like the other shows
that you've done.

Man:
Tamar is headed downstairs.

This is a lot to do this.

I'm just saying.
This is a lot.

I need you to commit
to not shutting us out.

I lost my family.

I lost my dreams.

It's been so long since
I've done an album, I am afraid.

Let's get into your voice.

Right now,
you don't have contact

with a lot
of your own blood, right?

So that's loss.
It hurts.

I've been feeling choked on
a daily basis, every single day.

The pressure of everything
is just [crunches]

and I was mad at him,
and I missed the whole thing,

and that's why I went down
the slope and crashed.

There you go.

[crying]

I opened up and shared
all of my life,

but this ain't for y'all.

-Tamar.
-Unh-unh.

Tay.

[door slams]

so goli's going well.

The dreams are pretty
interesting.

There's other the types
of energy in the world.

Some are very powerful.

I'm not sure
what dream work is.

Everything you don't understand
is not witchcraft.

It's just not.

Like, maybe we could go
to this place

where you can
break things.

Like, what you talking about?
It's called,
like, a break room.

T-that's for angry people.

Y'all want me to be
an angry black woman?

Do I have to be an angry black
woman in every (bleep) series?

-No.
-It's very awkward for me.

Like, you want me
to break (bleep) up

and just act like a (bleep)
donkey, stupid-ass fool?

No.
That's what the hell
y'all want me to do?

I'm not fighting my sisters.

I'm not fighting them girls
from "the real."

I'm not fighting nobody
but the devil.

♪♪

♪♪

-alright. Cool. Let's go.
-Alright. Get that boom.

Man: It's ready to go.

♪♪

[indistinct conversation]

okay, you guys.

So I just got a call
from tamar's lawyer,

and we are being asked
to leave the premises,

so we all need to pack up

and get out of here
as quick as possible.

Okay.
[chuckles]

alright?
So let's pack up.

Forever
or just for today?

Woman: Thank you.

No. We shouldn't leave
anything here.

Yeah.

♪♪

hey, can you hear me?

Lang: Yeah.
Okay.

She's under strict
doctor's orders not to work

and that she has a doctor's note
and that she can't work.

She's texting me...
-Yeah.

...And saying, "I told you
I cannot talk.

No one listens to me.
It's very frustrating.

This is what I got
going on, too.

This show means
everything to me, too.

I hate that I lost my voice."
-yeah.

I mean, the point of the show,
though, is to document all that.

You know what I mean?

We're doc--
doing that as we speak.

You're being...
You're on camera.
Gotcha.

Alright. Mike, let me call you
back when I get in the car.

-Okay.
-Alright.

♪♪

♪♪

♪♪

tamar: Here, you --
do me a favor?

Can you help me
put this on?

I don't want to mess up.
I'm listening, rob.

Okay, so, um, I just wanna
go over the schedule this week,

what we got going on
this week.

♪♪

Thursday, we leavin' at 12:00
to go to the airport.

Oh, we are?
What time is the flight?
Yeah.

Um, so,
the flight leaves at 12:00.

We'll get to maryland
about 7:40.

We'll have rehearsal.

How much is rehearsal
costing me? A lot?

Uh, free. [laughs]

-can we walk and talk?
-Yes, we can.

How much time they givin' us
for sound check?

-An hour for sound check.
-That's it?!

If you want more, we
can get more, 'cause
it's your show, so we can --

I need three hours.
-Okay.

-Want me tell you why?
-Uh-huh.

I need --
I need for the --

so, I need for them to be
able to do their line check.
Mm-hmm.

Like, a full line check.
You know what I'm sayin'?

Because I just don't want
me not to be able to sing.

You know, I'm just
very, very, very nervous

because my voice is not
all the way back.

So, um, then Thursday,
after we finish rehearsal,

we'll go back to
the hotel.

Friday, rehearsals
and sound check.

I think the show is sold out
on both nights.

The tickets all gone
to both shows.

Uh-huh.
Oh, no!

Davi-I-I-d!

[miracle groans]

I can't clean up
no (bleep)

robert: Lemme run
and get it real quick.

[ringing]
david: Hello?

-David?
-Hey, what's going on?

Your dog done (bleep)
all over my floor again.

David: Uh...

Uh-huh, that's great.

Okay, so when you go
to your apartment,

I'm gonna need you
to take that dog.

Thank you. I love you.
I'll call you back.

Okay, now, where's rob?
Rob?
Mm-hmm.

Okay, I'm finished.
I'm listening to you.
Okay.

So we're sold out
on both nights?
Uh, yes.

Which makes me nervous.
You know what I'm sayin'?

I'm not sure if I'm ready
for that.

[clears throat]

♪♪

-see my [indistinct]...
-Dsquared!

...That I am highly
addicted to.

♪♪

what you...What, you want
to know where I'm at?

[laughs]
beck: Yeah, I want to...
Alright.

I just want to sure
it's rolling first.

-Okay.
-Alright. It's good.

Where are we?

I'm in dc.

I don't like coming here
because...

When my niece passed,
things changed for me.

It was just bad.

It was a lot, you know,

so I'd like to see him,
see how he's doing, so...

A lot -- a lot of memories,
being here.

But, you know, memories
are what you make them.

You can either make them bad,
or you can make them good.

You see the good
out of the memory.

That's all I'm going to say
about that.

I think that tamar genuinely
believes in the dream work,

and she's seeing
how it's working.

Given that she lost her voice,
her voice is getting better.

You know,
when you do dream work,

you really have no idea
what journey is going to begin,

and so I'm excited for her.

Beck:
How is your throat feeling?

Listen, I'm going to speak
things [clears throat]

into existence as if --
as if they are.

That's what the bible says.
What it say?

[laughs]
right.

I -- my throat is fine.

Da-boom!

♪♪

man: One, two, three!
Let's go!

[indistinct singing]

♪♪

I can't -- I'm sorry, guys.
I can't.

My voice is not that great.

I can't just sing for the...
Of it, so we...

If we going to go through
with the show,

we have to go
through the show...

I need
more background track...

For that.

♪♪

[cellphone chimes]

♪♪

♪♪

♪♪

david: I think
"braxton family values"

showed you the little issue
with tamar's sister,

and there's a lot of drama
around that.

You make it so hard to (bleep)
love you.

You make it so hard.

♪♪

cheers.
Get ya life.

Okay, this is not
going to clear.

I don't even know...
-I'm done with that.

David:
I get along with her family,

but there's still work
to be done.

♪♪

you're on the outside
of your family.

But I can't do anything about
it. What am I going to say?

"oh, please, please,
please love me?

Please be nice to me?
Please?"

well, I've done that,
and that doesn't work.

Tamar loves your wife
very, very much.

Let's figure out a way
to get it resolved.

Why don't you come to the show?
It's at 8.

He's saying that the show
is going to humiliate me.

No.
I have a brand to protect.

This show (bleep), this network
(bleep) has (bleep) us

in so many ways,
you understand what I'm saying?

His whole thing is that
he doesn't want to put
his family on tv

to look like a bunch of idiots.
-Right.

But I can't talk him
out of anything, like...

Because right now,
we on the brink of having

a real major argument over this,

and it's not worth it.

♪♪

kevin:
How you doing?

♪♪

what's up, bro?
You look good as always,
good to see you, man.

[indistinct]

♪♪

david: I'd love to bring
both sisters together.

When you support each other,
it's about family,

so I want to help,
but I think it's gonna

take a while for us to build
that bridge

where we have one family,
with hers and mine.

So I'll do whatever I can
to help tamar and support her.

You know, I never thought
that tamar would date

someone with locks.
[chuckles]

[laughs]
I just wouldn't...

I would've
never thought that.

We're so different.
I'm african, she's american.

That's, like, two worlds,
like, two worlds.

But the one connection
we had...

You know,
I met her June 27th.

We found that there was
a connection

that I found with her.

When you find that, probably
what you found with traci,

it's like,
where else you gonna go?

The funny part is,
when I met traci,

I was at a point
in my life of total change.

She was very different.

I hadn't experienced a woman
like that in my life,

and then the family dynamic
was, like,

something
I had never seen.

I mean, bringing it to date,
man, I just...

Traci, tamar, what is it
about that situation that...

Y'all in town right now.
Did y'all come over the house?

No, we didn't,
but I'll tell you why.

Go ahead.
It's because of...

♪♪

...What happened
in napa valley.

It wasn't family.
Family doesn't do that.

We don't do that
to each other.

She feels like
all her rights were taken.

It's some
deep-rooted stuff.

Tamar, you -- you come off
harsh. I seen it.

I don't -- I haven't
come off harsh to you.
So you should be the best
receiver of that.

That's why
I don't talk to you,

'cause she feel like
she don't have no support.

-I'm not interested.
-You're not interested?

I told toni in napa,

I said, "toni,
it's all trae need is support,

a phone call, say 'I love you.
I'm checking on you,'

genuinely.

That's all she need.

But you got to stop
fighting each other, man."

what happened then?

♪♪

man, I'll tell you.

They had a contract
they was going sign.

All they name was
on the contract.

All traci had to do
was just sign it.

When she was told
that she couldn't sign,

I saw her soul
come out of her that day.

And all she ever wanted
was just that support.

"go ahead, traci. Sign it.
We got your back.

You ain't got to
abort the baby."

she chose our son, and it
shouldn't have been a choice,

and it still disturbs her
today,

and that's why I do everything
I can to protect her.

Family is
very important to her.

Traci feels like
they don't believe in her.

They don't believe
in her marriage.

They don't believe in her
as a mother.

All she ask for
is just respect,

and I know how much
she needs her sisters,

and they need each other.

They have so much to offer
this world, man.

It's unreal, man.

With tamar, what's changed is,
I've made her want to connect.

Okay
like, really connect.

Okay.
There's a lot of things
in life

that are really important that
she needs to connect back to.

If tamar and traci heal
their relationship,

the entire family heals.
Exactly, exactly.

The entire family.

Tamar loves your wife
very, very much,

like, deep,
like, real.

I've seen it.
I believe that.

I've seen it.

Let's figure out a way
to get it resolved.

When nigerians marry,

you bring both families
together.

You become one.

It's less common
in the american culture,

where,
"I'm going to marry you,

and I don't care if your mom
or your sister or your uncle

or your aunt or your son
or your dad is involved."

you know, "as a matter of fact,
keep them away."

we don't do that, so I think
this could really help

bring both families together.

Why don't you come to the show?
It's at 8.
It's at 8?

Yeah.
I'll check with traci
and ask,

and I'll let you know.
Yeah, yeah, yeah.

Oh, that'd be great,
and then maybe afterwards,

like, my birthday
is in November.

I'm doing...
You coming, right?
I didn't know.

I wasn't asked.
Y'all should come.

Well, I think
you and traci should come.

I will talk to traci
about just --

just coming together
because logan deserves

to be around his cousins,
all of them.

Yes. Yes.
That's all I got to say.

To new beginnings.
To new beginnings.

And happy endings.
And happy endings, man.

I'm all for it, man.
Amen.

Let's make it happen.

♪♪

goli: Close your eyes.

Take a deep breath.
Tamar: Okay.

♪♪

I want you to feel
a white light

that begins to hit
the tips of your toes.

You can't heal anyone
if you haven't healed yourself.

Moving up your ankles.

So the dream work begins
the healing with the artist,

onward into the craft,
into the art for the audience.

Moving up your belly
and into your solar plexus.

It's not easy to always reach
that success,

but she's on that road,

and I am praying and hoping
that that's what tamar will do.

I believe she can.

Take a breath
and make this sound,

"ha-a-a-a."

okay, baby.

Man: One, two, three!
Let's go!

♪ hot sugar, sugar ♪

♪ I'll be his sweet little mama
all the time ♪

♪ and we can do it now or later,
that's fine ♪

♪ he want that sugar,
he want that sugar ♪

♪ he want that sugar, sugar ♪

yeah.

Come on, little booty.

Where you going with
the teenie-tiny booty?

You got little logan booty
when he was 2.

It was so cute.

♪♪

I don't want to wear this.

Hey.
I got titty sweat.

It's the material.

You see it? It's terrible.
I would rather wear that.

[indistinct]
I feel you,
but the titty sweat and the...

That's not right.
It's not right.

Let's just put this
on real fast.
Okay, let's go.

Oh, can y'all get out?

♪♪

♪♪

♪♪

-yes!
-Y'all look so cute.

-Yes!
-I love those outfits.

-Thank you.
-Is everybody here?

We thank you so much
for choosing all of us,

once again,
for our talents, lord god,

anointing, lord god,
in your presence, in your love.

Lord god, we thank you
for great energy,

great fun, lord god...
-Yes.

...A perfect vocal, lord god.

We thank you for perfect dance,
lord god.

We thank you
for perfect music, god.

Thank you for sending
the right people.

How about that?
-Yes! Amen!

How about that?
-Whoo-hoo!

-In jesus' name we pray, amen.
-Amen!

-Alright.
-Alright, yeah!

[cheers and applause]
pass these down.

♪♪

man: When I say tamar,
y'all say braxton!

Tamar!
-Braxton!

-Tamar!
-Braxton!

Put your hands together
for tamar braxton!

[cheers and applause]
man: One, two, three!
Here we go!

♪ you're my little pick-me-up,
whenever I'm feeling down ♪

♪ I don't need no other drug ♪

♪ I got what I need right now ♪

♪ la-da-da-dee,
you're the party ♪

♪ sure know how
to love somebody ♪

♪ you're my
little pick-me-up ♪

♪ whenever I'm feeling down ♪

I just want to know where my
ladies at.

[cheers and applause]

[indistinct singing]

♪♪

♪♪

goli: I -- I love
watching tamar perform

and seeing where she is in her
highest potential, actually.

I'm seeing it.

Her voice is really
powerful and strong.

There's something so beautiful
about somebody exploring

and exploding
and revealing and unveiling

because the beauty of her
insides are now exposed.

That's where the gold is.

♪ a-a-a-ah ♪

[cheers and applause]

♪♪

[indistinct conversation,
clapping]

man: Bitch, you are cute!

-Hey, tamar.
-Oh, my god. David! Hi.

-How you guys doing?
-This is david.

-Hey, david.
-This is [indistinct].

-Good to see you.
-Have a seat, baby.

Goli:
Tamar, you blew us away.

Tamar: Goli,
I'm not going to lie.

This dream work,
I believe, period.

Tamar is so open
and so trusting that often,

you find people coming in
that shouldn't be there.

Very often, they have
their own agenda.

Hi! Mwah!

You want to do a picture?
-Yes.

Can we do it in the hall?

I don't know what goli's motives
are with tamar.

I'm not that involved,
you know,

with the process tamar
is going through with her,

the dream work.

Come on. Come on.
Come on.

What I do know is that
I need to know more.

Man:
One, two, three.

♪♪

you are on the outside
of your family.

But I can't do anything
about it. What I'm going to say?

"oh, please, please,
please, please love me.

Please be nice to me."

people cut family off.
Be clear.

Sometimes you have to make
a decision about your blood.

I feel like I'm being penalized
for being tamar.

David, you're pushing the way
that you feel on everybody else,

and it's not right.

What?! He thinks I am
an american devil-worshipper.

[laughs]
like, what in the world?

Goli: [crying] they're saying
t-that this is against god,

that this is witchcraft.

He just said, "it's going to
destroy goli's business,"

and I can't.

I can't talk him out of anything
because right now,

we on the brink of having a real
major argument over this.

♪♪

david, david,
you're pushing the way

that you feel on everybody else,
and it's not right.

But you explained it wrong!
It is not negative.

It's not,
and what you don't see

is that you're imposing your
feelings to your family too.

Tamar: What?!

Okay. Wow.

He thinks that I am
an american devil-worshipper.

Like, what in the world?
-You know what?

Somebody tell goli don't wear
all black and a hat.

Alright.
David, I will talk to you later.

What's happening?
Why are you upset?

♪♪

first of all,
I didn't dream last night.

-You -- you didn't?
-No.

What...How...
Was it an odd night?

You have to fill me in.
I have no idea what happened.

Well, you know, david
is a real hard-core christian,

and that's one of the things
that I really,

really love about him,
right,

but he is apprehensive about
the whole dream-work stuff,

but we kind of knew that.
-Yeah.

I just didn't know
how deep he was.

He doesn't believe it?

For whatever reason,
from the beginning,

david has not liked me,

and he wants to call it
voodoo or witchcraft,

but no one's ever, ever accused
me of any such thing ever,

and I signed onboard
to work with her, not him.

-Yeah. Yeah.
-That's what it is.

He doesn't have a clear
understanding of what it is yet.

Period.
It's so amazing how
this dream work

has become such
a pain-in-the-ass issue.

I think when you start,
you know,

people are going to see
or just look at you.

Y'all need to get her a shawl
or a poncho because...

With color because y'all don't
want them to think darkness

because she's wearing all black.
-I know.

I look like a witch, right,
today?

Talk about (bleep) perfect.

[cellphone ringing]
hold on, please.

Hey.

I -- I don't.
I don't.

It has zero to do
with religion.

You haven't said
one thing positive.

I just -- I just want you to...
[exhales]

the way you went about it
is still something

that I don't agree with.
It's about creativity.

-It's not about god or religion.
-Okay.

Either y'all going to be quiet
or get out

because what
I don't want is --

is for david
to feel disrespected.

Please don't do that.

Fine.

We gonna hook you up, sis.

That's not what you sellin',
and it's very discouraging.

That's all I have to say.

Okay.

Okay.

So I seem a little
more matronly.

What?

I'm -- look, I can't get --

I'm really, really, really,
really, really tired

because this has,
like, drained me.

You feel a certain kind of way,

so you want to impose
that on everybody else.

♪♪

that's your opinion.

♪♪

I don't want my business
destroyed.

[tamar talking indistinctly
in distance]
I can't do this.

What?! Yeah, but you got...
I -- I get...

Okay.
Wow.

[crying] my teacher told me
that they were going

to make fun of the work,

and there's too
many successful actors

in the dream work
that will be offended

by being shamed
like this.

They're saying t-that
this is against god,

that it's witchcraft.

He said just, "this is going
to destroy goli's business."

I worked hard to have --
I was a model. I was an actress.

I work with huge stars.
I know.

Sofia coppola made movies
based on dreams.

I can't.
I can't...

No.
...Work like that.

Listen to me.
He's not clear.

No, he's saying that the show
is going to humiliate me.
He's panicking.

No.
I have a brand to protect.

Michael!

Just hang out right here
for a second.

Hey, tay.

Like, I...
This is -- this is -- I can't.

I -- I have to
go to sleep.

No, I'm -- I'm wore out.

I -- I can't.

I can't.
I just can't.

Like, this show (bleep),
this network (bleep)

has (bleep)
us in so many ways.

You understand
what I'm saying?

His whole thing is, he doesn't
want to put his family on tv

to look like a bunch of idiots.
-Right.

I feel like we can separate his
family from the dream work.

They can be two separate things.
They don't have to be involved.

They don't have to see it. They
don't have to be a part of it.

But I can't talk him out of
anything, like

because right now,
we on the brink of having

a real major argument over this,
and it's not worth it.

Right.
This is a lot.

Like, it's --
it's a lot.

-Goli?
-Yeah?

You know we love you.
I can't do the work
with her like this.

All in her...
It's too many
obstacles.

But I think that's why
they brought you in

because you can do it.

Somehow, some way,

you gonna have
to push through the obstacles.

In church, we used to say,

"you got to go through
to get to."

you got to push through it

because this is all
about evolving.

It's nothing to discredit
your work.

You're too good of a person,
and your work is...

Clearly, it's working,
you know?

Yeah, I know.

It's working.

I have no desire to speak
to david right now.

I'm tired.
Okay.
Let me talk to him.

Whatever you want to do.

[ringing]

david: Hello?

Hey, david.
Hey, michael.

What's going on?

You know, I think maybe
there's been

a misunderstanding about
what the dream work is,

and we haven't even really
seen you experience, like,

what tamar is doing
with this dream work.

-Yeah.
-We actually haven't even

had, like, on camera, like,
a good conversation

between you and goli
where you can even

just pick her brain
about it,

so I think maybe
when you're free,

you can come up here
and see it.

Uh...

Okay, yeah.
Okay.

I'm very happy to have
a conversation with goli.

-Okay. Great.
-Great.

Yeah.

-Hey.
-Hey, tay.

What's up?
He wants to talk to you.

Hello?
Hey, babe.
I want to come today.

I want to come,
and I want to watch it.

I also want to come,
and I want to talk to goli.

Yeah, because you...

You know, let me
tell you something.

She's upset.

She -- she's like me.
She feels everything.

[goli crying]

she really likes you,
and she really, really likes me,

and, you know,
and I think the last thing

that anybody want to do
is trick anybody.

I -- I don't know.

I can't even really talk
that much anymore.

If you're going to come, great.
Love to see you.
Sure thing.

A big part of why I didn't want
to talk to her...

-I don't wanna hear that...
-Alright.

Well, we'll see you
when you come.

-Yeah.
-Alright. Thanks, david. Bye.

Goli: I feel a boundary
has been crossed,

and if I really followed
my intuition and instinct,

I would walk away tonight,

saying that this
is not going to work

because we're not dealing
with the actual work.

We're dealing with
so-and-so's opinion,

meaningless to the dream work.

[crying]
I can't function like this.

♪♪

tamar: I'm over it. Like...

Let me just go in
and see what's happening.

-Okay.
-I had to head down to set

to see
what the hell was going on.

There's so much that we're
not getting access to.

Yeah.
I need to know once
and for all,

are we in this or not?

[cellphone ringing]
hold on. This is todrick.

Hold on one second.
I've been waiting on this call.

Hey,
superstar black man?

-What you doing?
-What you doing?

I'm having a production meeting.
What are you doing?

I'm just, uh, at my show
at the theater in orlando,

but I'm doing my show
in atlanta, but I was like,

"I wish tamar
was going to be around

to come up there
and do a number onstage."

you want me to do a number
with you?

I want you to sing
one of your songs.
Oh!

You should just come out and
just do, like, three songs.

Three? Bitch.
[laughter]

you want me do a concert
in your concert.

[laughs]
can I bring my baggage?

Yes, 1,000%.

Okay. I'll s--
I'm going to call you

about an hour and a half,
okay?

-Okay. I love you. Bye.
-I love you, bye. Bye.

-Oh, my god. Thank you.
-Yes.

What's going on, go?
What's wrong with you?

Because it's so hard.

I guess I'm vulnerable
and sensitive to you,

and it's just really painful
to see

that we can't do our work
in a safe and proper way.

It's like you're
being shamed for the work

that you want to do.

♪♪

I don't think you have
a clear understanding

of what's going on.
No.

It's not that,
so I need you to calm down

because once you
start crying...
I know.

...I'm gonna start.

I'm going to just go
and try to...

Okay.
[indistinct]

♪♪

beck: Why do you think
you're so upset?

I'm not used to working
with people's mothers

or fathers
or husbands or significant...

When you work,
you work with them very deeply.

It takes me off my game,
and that's a sabotage.

I cannot work like this.
I can't.

I can't help her.

I don't get a chance
to even work with her.

Every time, it's a block.
It's a this.

It's the issue,
the issue.

I have to wear her sweater
so I don't look like

I'm some voodoo practitioner
because I'm in overalls.

It's not normal, and it's
starting to break me down,

and that's never
happened to me.

I've been everywhere
around the world.

I'm really disturbed.

No one told me that I was
signing aboard to coach david.

I came to coach tamar.
I know how to do my work.

[crying]
this is so unfair to me.

♪♪

♪♪

-yeah.
-What's happening, my love?

Lang: She's still getting her
hair done.
Uh-huh.

I think there's a world where
michael could just tell her

that you're here.
Let me just go in

and see what's happening.
-Okay. Alright.

Mona: So I got a call
from production

that david referred to
what goli does as witchcraft.

There was spiraling.

She was quitting, so I had
to head down

to set to see
what the hell was going on.

♪♪

how are you guys?

It was a lot of emotions
running high.

David has
his religious beliefs.

He's always said them
very clearly.

He told his family about her.

They had an issue with it,

and they were the ones
who were saying,

"don't do this."

mm-hmm.

Right, exactly.
He told them too much.

He probably should've just
let him meet her,

form their own opinions.

This is what this whole process
is about,

stepping outside
of your comfort zone,

allowing yourself
to experience and elevate.

From other people getting
in the way of the (bleep)

you're trying to do again.

We have to figure out
how you can stay focused

because guess what?

Every time we are dealing
with something,

it's never your own issue.

Like, when do you have time
to deal with your own (bleep)?

People are going to have
their beliefs.

This whole process is supposed
to be about growth

in every way,
shape or form.

Alright.

I'm talking about
my living room, my room.

Let me change my pants
because she can't be talking

to me looking like --

looking like that,
and I'm looking like this.

[laughter]
that's a lie.

Mona:
So what happened exactly?

Because I got bits and pieces of
it. That's why I came over.

I came to coach her.
Uh-huh.

And we were going to walk
through one of her dreams.

Mm-hmm.
But then I come,

and it's like,
david is on the phone

talking about
how this is magic or voodoo...

Mm-hmm.
...Or whatever.

I've never had to
deal with...
Okay.

...So much negativity...
Mm-hmm.

...To the point where,
when I think

about the work,
I feel sick now.

Okay.
Let's just take a deep breath.

She's like
a ray of sunshine,

but then everything else
around her

is pulling her down
to negativity.

How do you
get rid of that?

When it comes to her creativity,
she has to say,

"nobody can tell me what to do.
This is my work. This is my job.

This is my dream,
and it's not your business."

but when there's so many
opinions constantly,

when does she have
the time to do that?

She's...
Tamar!

♪♪

hey.
I was just sharing
with goli there

are all these levels of control
still happening in your life,

and control was something
that we talked about early on.

You set out
on this mission.

You said to me you want
to do this.

You have all the friggin'
resources at your disposal.

This is your crew.
I'm here for you.

[cellphone ringing]
goli's here for you.

It's coming together,
right?
Yeah, it is.

When we started this,
we didn't know what the hell?
Yeah.

Are we going to be able
to put a show together?

But as it relates to the show,
I feel like there's so much

happening that
we're not getting access to.

This ain't for y'all.

Unh-uh.
-Tay.

[door slams]

every black woman is not angry!

If -- if anything...

I got to break up
some (bleep)?

That's stupid.

Okay, you guys.

So I just got a call
from tamar's lawyer,

and we are being asked
to leave the premises.

Like, you have to let us
into that...
Yeah.

And those moments
where things are happening

that impact you,
we're not getting.

Every single day
that you have been upset,

crying, distracted has not
had anything to do with you.

I don't know because it's never
been like this before,

and I'm just so confused because
I feel like we've all...

All three of us have had
different conversations,

and they've been very positive,
very open, and very different.

I don't know where this is
coming from today.

Sometimes there's just an air
of sabotage that exists.

I definitely don't want to feel
choked or stifled.

I don't want to carry other
people's...Anymore.

I need to put a period
on this...

I need to know once
and for all,

are we in this or not?

You are on the outside
of your family.

But I can't do anything
about it. What I'm going to say?

"oh, please, please, please,
please, love me.

Please be nice to me."

people cut family off.
Be clear.

Sometimes you have to make
a decision about your blood.

Mona: I need to put a period
on this...

I need to know once
and for all,

are we in this or not?

Um, I don't know.

I feel like I'm being penalized
for being tamar.

What you do, you know,

need to consider
is dealing with things.

Is traci coming up
on Saturday for his party?

I know I talked to the rest
of my siblings.

And my mom and...
Okay. Are they coming?

They're not interested
in coming, so...

What do you mean,
not interested in coming?

I don't know, but I --

I can't...

Chase anybody...

-Right.
-...Anymore. I am tired.

Are you telling me that you are
prepared to completely dismiss,

cut off ties with, never
have any interaction again?

People cut family off.
Be clear.

Sometimes you have to make
a decision about your blood.

It's very hard
to talk about,

especially with the baggage
around because...

Is that what we're calling
the crew, baggage?
Baggage.

-Okay.
-[laughs]

I didn't know she was talking
about you guys.

You're the baggage.
Okay.

It's hard for me to talk about
when they're around

because of all of the things
that has been perpetuated

on our family's show,
right?
Mm-hmm.

Even going back to,
like, second season,

not knowing that everybody
was upset with me.

All of a sudden,
it's tamar versus everybody.

It's deeper.
It's deep.

It's no resolve,
even from the time,

you know, that my mom decided
that she would talk to tmz

and not have
a conversation with me.

First time I seen it was on
the news like everybody else.

That's a problem.
It's a problem!

You been
all quiet and stuff.
No, I'm not being quiet.
Just answer the question.

Because I need to know
what I need to tell people...

-Am I being quiet?
-...On the streets

when they ask me questions.

Tell them to mind
their (bleep) business.

I don't even feel like I'm
talking to my sister right now.

I kind of feel like I should
get beat up or attacked

because I kind of feel that way,
and I feel that way

because I am the person
that's going through it.

So wait.
How do you guys interact

with each other now
when you see each other?

Um, we don't really see
each other

outside of the cameras,
outside of the "values."

are you kidding me?
No, no, no.

We should be putting
everything that

is important in your life,
and important meaning

whether it's because
you want deal with it

or you don't want
to deal with it

because the...
You don't want to deal with

is just as important, right,
because it's affecting you

in ways you're not
even conscious of.

We should be putting all of
that...Through this filter.

Yeah, well, mona,
I tried.

I invited everyone
to david's party,

to my house for thanksgiving,
and no one wants to come.

You invited them to your house
for thanksgiving?

Yes.

Tamar,
I am not a therapist,

but there is something
incredibly unhealthy

for you emotionally
about accepting the fact

that you are on
the outside of your family.

It cannot be healthy.
It cannot be.
No, it's not.

But I can't do anything about
it. What am I going to say?

"oh, please, please, please,
please, love me.

[voice breaking]
please be nice to me. Please.

♪♪

please be here for me.

Come see me."

it's like I see you
and it's almost like --

you're in pain.
You're in pain.
Yeah.

If we believe in the work
that you're going through

and the change that is
happening within you...
Yeah.

...That conversation
should be different.

I believe, like, with family,
you never stop trying.

Mm-hmm.
But sometimes, you end up
hurting yourself even more...

I get that.
...When you are constantly
being rejected.

Okay.
Do you understand
what I'm saying?

Okay.
And that's where I am.

I get it,
and I understand that.

We should get goli
and talk about life

because she gives you
that assignment.

What happens if we gear
that assignment

towards alignment
with your family

and towards better
understanding?

You know what I'm saying?
-I do.

I'm interested.
I'm in, you know?
Let's point that laser
and see what happens.

Like, if we're doing this...
Let's, like,

apply it across the board.

Um...

I'm open to it.

Okay.

Go-go bean.

Go-go bean, we just,
uh, had an idea.

You know how we've been
focusing the dream work

and the assignments,
right,

on the career stuff,
the stage stuff.

We're going to do
the personal stuff.

Towards her family.

But we have to go into the
darkness to get to the light.

Mm-hmm.
Obviously, we're encountering
that right now.

That's exactly
what I'm talking about.
And we have to put it
into the art.

Preach.
Are you listening to this?

She don't have to
talk me into it.

I experienced it.
It's already happening.

And I keep -- I keep saying,
like, had I not experienced it

and had that moment
where I really did feel

like I was in tune with myself
and had a conversation,

I mean, I would probably
be apprehensive, as well.

-Right.
-I am not!

It was a powerful moment
that I had with myself

that I needed to have.

Every great song ever written
was based

on someone's struggle,
journey, pain, epiphany.

If we can have
the distractions silenced,

she can get this done
because your time is money,

and your time is important.
Why -- why is this not
a conversation with david?

I would love to. I mean...
That should be
the conversation.

We should.
There's only one person
who has been negative with me.

It is david because
he is afraid of me.

I just think his main concern
is making sure

my soul is anchored in the lord.
[laughs]

exactly. I gots to go.

You've got
very little time.

♪♪

david:
How you guys doing?

Beck: Hey, david.
Good to see you.

I decided to meet with goli

because I have a right
to ask questions.

I saw a lot of people in lagos,

growing up there, paying
a heavy price for success.

You know, you go
give a sacrifice.

You give goats.

You give, you know,
maybe chickens.

So when I see tamar
getting involved

with something
that's very spiritual,

I got to ask myself,

"what price is tamar
going to have to pay?

My life? Logan's?

Our happiness?
What's the price?"

♪♪