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Hi ?

Hi !

How many times do I have to defend my needs, those I have neglected for all these years.

First of all - myself ...

because I thought nobody could not cope.

I was used to her sex to rose water and I assumed that was the standard way to do it.

I thought something did not go round at home ...

because I was different from most people.

I can prepare myself and make plans ...

while no one is watching or wonder why.

If I do not give in to my impulses things will just get worse for me.

And it will become more confused.

I remember the first time where I was invited to a party ...

It took longer to think of an alibi to get out of the house, That the feast itself.

The essence of my perfume he knows so well ...

Not for him and he was not supposed to know it.

I lied as I breathed.

That night, I jumped up.

I felt an irresistible desire for an orgy and all the men who wanted me. .

I had tears in my eyes.

A man whispered to me. If you want to go, go ahead.

And he promised to bring me back At home like a gentleman.

Nice, but useless.

For days, I wanted to cry and fuck.

I think I'm good to cry and to kiss.

In the lie and having a double life.

And if you ask me if I want to stop ...

Well no.

Hi !

Let me out!

What time is it ?

Still early.

What are you doing ? Go.

A quick shot.

I have to shave.

Another time, okay?

Why do you always choose weird moments?

I hope I could to have a copy?

Hi gaya.

No, it's cool.

Now ?

In the teachers' lounge, he is sitting near me.

He always has coffee with milk ... and a cheese sandwich.

He is a professor of mathematics.

He has those beautiful eyes, so hot.

And, obviously, a big rule of calculation.

Damn, Stella.

Hmm, just sit in front from him next time.

Is he married? How could I know?

Am I the only one here a little tired by all these adulterous behaviors?

My god Lau. Let Quinty flirt a little. What difference does it make?

I was not even flirting.

My beautiful ... go ahead and enjoy it.

What is the problem with a little caution?

What choices do you plan to make?

Choice is when you lose friends and family.

Yes, I understand what you mean, but put that aside for now.

Well, I would like ...

To be loved. I want to be able to share without being attached.

Let me out of here!

This conflict. I had just had my first one night adventure and I was chatting online ...

But at each sound I disconnected for fear of being caught.

What Vincent would know. Even if it was an innocuous conversation.

Yet, a week later, I was leaving blow me up in a hotel room.

So, something overcame my fear of being caught.

Maybe fear is not about your husband or about the loss.

Well what then? I was satisfied that Vincent discovered it.

Because he should have known what you're doing ... what you are.

Yes.

Maybe you were scared to recognize what you were doing yourself?

You are back.

I do not know what to say.

My dear

I really want to promise you that this will not happen again and that I will change ...

But I can not.

Fuck you Stella!

What am I supposed to do?

Pretend to be someone else? Ignore my feelings?

What would you say to take my feelings into account? We swore to be faithful you remember?

I am faithful, faithful.

I am faithful to share my weaknesses, my fears and my secrets.

Apparently not all your secrets.

No not all.

You do not even look at me anymore.

As you used to.

Since when we did not fuck?

I mean really fuck?

I feel like a bird in a cage.

So that's it?

Hey!

Fucking asshole.

Let me go out fucking!

Girls are you going to this inauguration next week? Otherwise, I will die of boredom.

Of course, as long as there are drinks. The other girls will come too.

All our events are supported.

Good concept. Eat and do business.

What is the main attraction?

What is the punishment for letting your bread fall?

Flogging is so ancient Rome.

His jacket ?

We have the Lady of Mogilev. Do you believe it?

It's a Russian icon.

For years, she collected dust in moldy storage rooms ...

and they did not have money to restore the museums.

Since the fall of the wall, they were allowed to sell.

Did you know that the virgin Mary is the most popular in Russian art?

What is this adoration of the worship of virgins?

You can not worship an icon. You can honor him.

I did not know you were in the art?

They say that when an icon ceases to be honored, gold begins to take off.

Are you sure?

Yes.

You are the only ones who I thought.

The tension is killing Luca. I have never seen him so nervous.

And you ?

Terrifyingly scared.

And excited!

And now ?

Well, it's an ordinary sauna. We can get used to each other ...

and from there.

I will not force anything. Our friendship is too important.

Thank you.

I am sorry but I can not do it.

I am so sorry.

It's a real shame.

When you are feeling for the first time in a cage?

When I realized that Vincent was not the man that I thought he was.

He had fallen from his pedestal.

It seems hard. I do not want to think that way.

But it made me think ...

and he exited something in me.

C'tait ...

Something hot deep in my belly ...

Which spread slowly. I mean really physical.

And I could not resist or apologize. It's literally happened.

Hmm

Who are you?

Christine.

I am Stella.

Could you say who brought you here? Have you seen it?

I was in my car.

I went outside my house ...

After that, I do not remember anything.

Someone there ?

It's useless.

Who does that?

No idea.

I have no idea.

We need to find a way out of here.

Maybe it's kind of a joke.

A joke? Yes. Maybe?

I have been here for five days already. It's certainly not a joke.

Five?

We have to wait.

Wait for the right moment.

We must sleep turn of role.

The last time, he caught me in my sleep. I do not want that to happen again.

Wait!

Fucking shit!

Do you have a mobile phone?

Shit. What?

No network of course.

Of course, he knew it would happen.

He's a fucking manipulator. Please stop swearing.

I am so stressed.

I could never sleep right away.

Go ahead and sleep.

If something happens you will be the first to know it.

My English is afraid.

Shit.

I speak a little Dutch.

My brother-in-law has just arrived from Russia.

My wife lived here for years. Every year he comes to visit him.

We thought it would be a good evening.

And you ? Are you here with your husband?

If I was, I would not be here to talk to you.

Oh? What is the problem with a friendly little conversation?

Nothing at all.

But try to explain that to my husband.

Yes, and my wife.

Where is she anyway?

Why do we need permission others when things are going well?

But it ends here.

You want everything.

You want a person's love and attention ...

and sex and adventures with all the others.

Is it so bad? Meant?

Am I a bad and ugly woman and I am condemned?

No no. I do not judge.

I'm just watching.

Maybe I'm too greedy.

If I make love to someone I care about, I make love to him.

If I have sex with a foreigner, I have sex with myself.

I use my body. I feel everything and I conquer myself.

My liberation is partly sexual ..

but it's not just sex.

It's like taking off a straitjacket.

And when it came out ...

In the place of a frightened girl a strong woman appeared.

A complete metamorphosis.

Christine?

Christine!

For God Sake!

Asshole. Son of a bitch!

I was thinking.

I called John and I can stay with him for a while.

I noticed you on the SDD site.

SDD?

Nice pictures. Nice profile.

How did you see the pictures? You have to be a paying member ...

Yes.

True.

You Judy?

What is your pseudo SDD?

Madelief 69.

This is not your birth year, is it?

It would be fun to meet sometimes.

Who knows ?

Judy, you can come for a moment.

Have a nice week end. Monday.

Can you turn off all the lights when you leave and do not forget the alarm.

It will be done. Have a nice week end.

I thought about you all day.

And I want to confess something to you.

Oh?

I am a member of the site ...

but I'm never went to a club before.

Do you want me to go with you one day?

Yes.

I do not know if it's a good idea.

We have to see each other every day at work.

Am I attractive enough?

You are a beautiful woman.

This is not the problem.

Nobody needs to know.

I want to say...

Who would I say anyway?

I slept well.

Not good enough.

Come...

No.

Something is wrong?

No, but I think you should go.

My God.

Can I have a minute to wake up?

Of course.

The caf is ready at the bottom.

Where do you want us to go?

We lead?

our relationship?

Stella? Come here !

Of course.

And close this door.

It's okay. You are back.

It's okay.

I'm fine, I'm fine.

Just a minute.

He made me cum.

I did not want.

I've just ...

to stop resisting.

For God Sake.

Oh, I'm sorry.

And now, I do not think What about these stupid magazine surveys.

What is the most exciting place where you did it?

No !

Is that okay?

Nobody will come to help us.

What?

Why do you think that?

My husband is definitely looking for me.

What is your husband's name?

Vincent.

And do not you miss him?

No.

I do not think so.

Why is that? You have been away for several days already.

Things are not going so well between us. He is at a friend's house.

he is with someone else?

No.

And you ?

No.

Not really.

Not really?

With no one in particular. It's a long story.

That's why you broke up?

What? Well what you just said.

Nobody in particular.

Do you have a lot of lovers?

Lovers is a big word.

Do not you feel guilty?

There is nothing I can do about it. I tried.

I could not do that.

Let's talk about something else. How can we get out of here for example.

What do you suggest?

We must make sure he is alone. Sorry ?

I think he is not alone. Why do you think that?

Just an impression.

Is that okay?

Yeah I think so.

I dressed you.

You were a little HS.

He injected me something.

What?

No idea that looked like a G.

G

GHB. Drugs.

How do you know ?

Hey ...

He said I'm here because of you.

Did he tell you anything?

Yes.

He said: if you are wondering why are you here ...

try to ask your girlfriend.

If he does not speak to me, It must mean that I know him.

Can you remember where you were last?

He's afraid I'll recognize him.

Rflchis.

Maybe one of your meetings?

How many men have you fucked lately ? And then throw?

My God.

Of course, now God is here to help you.

Reflections!

You made enemies somewhere? Have you been harassed?

Reflections!

You here ? Yes.

How is work going ?

I miss you.

Yes ... eh ... Judy. About the last time ...

It's not that I regret what we did, but I think it's better to stay there.

Take a moment to think about it.

Well, I do not think so ... Now that Vincent is gone ...

I wanted to ask you if I could come tonight.

I do not think it's a good idea.

You can not use me like that. Sorry ?

Why do not you answer my text messages? Judy, we will not do it ...

You used me and thrown away.

If you really want to talk about it, can we please do it elsewhere?

You really blamed me. Okay.

I'm going to a birthday.

My God.

What?

He took my covenant.

I have people who are worried about me, bitch!

And now, there is a man who molests me because you have something to hide.

Stop it!

Do you think that's what I want?

That's what he wants.

To be in first place to see us intercede.

You have to tell me more.

I beg you.

I do not think you want hear these things.

I will face.

Tell me about you.

I am a white goose. It must have something to do with you.

How can you deceive your husband like that?

Sex is exclusive.

I see it differently. Sex is just sex for me.

What is more personal than sex?

Your fears? Your inhibitions? Your heart breaks.

Your insecurities?

Unconditional love.

That's what my brother and I have We would do everything for each other.

I missed this link because my parents divorced.

When I was five.

I could not see my father anymore.

He left the country. He and my brother.

You never went to visit them?

No, I could not.

Everything relates to childhood no?

So it's my father's fault as usual?

Oh dear, my childhood was pretty easy.

When a woman is sexually aggressive, they think that she is traumatized or that something is wrong with her.

Men are lovers, women are sluts.

Why can not they just accept whether it's something I want?

It feels good. I feel more alive, I respect people and I have more energy.

Maybe that's this behavior which is the origin of all your problems.

You can not interpret your promise God your gr .

Where is it written in the vows of marriage that I can not fuck with other people?

Sorry ?

Loyalty is something different than to agree not to see other people.

And if you stop taking me the lesson.

They say that when you become an adult, we can do anything we want.

Well, I'm sure to have noticed nothing.

First my father tells me what I can and can not do.

Then the school controls my life.

My boss, my friends with their expectations.

The plant that needs watering. The refrigerator that needs its weekly filling ...

and finally Vincent who gives himself to me every two weeks.

But there was a time when I thought of stopping everything.

I mean to leave everything.

And then there was that night when everything changed.

I was at a friend's house.

We played trivial pursuit. I won.

I appreciated red wine for the first time in years. And it made me happy.

And on the way back ...

Saudainly a fog fell.

In the middle of the night on an un-lit road, in the middle of nowhere.

I played a game

Driving blind in the snow and hit something ...

or concentrate and go home safely.

I chose the second solution.

I put the radio and just drove.

On the radio there was a guest ...

he was also depressed, and he had survived.

He described exactly how I felt.

And then they passed my kind of music and ...

something peaceful took hold of me and he never left me.

I can do it. I could choose.

And after that night, I was not just thinking about sex ... I was sex.

My body has become a flower ...

and more blissful than ever.

The game had started.

First with men. Secret and fast.

After that, with a woman.

A friend obsessed.

Kisses and piggy words.

And after we attacked her husband together there was nothing that could stop me.

What I feel is now a world apart the way I felt in my cage.

I caress my arm.

I curl my toes of happiness. I paint my nails ...

I shave everything that can be smooth.

And for no one else. I do it because my body wants me.

If I ride a bike, I feel the saddle on my pussy. If I flirt ...

I smile back

My body is at the party. 24 hours a day, 7 days a week, it's just the party.

I sent out invitations to everyone who wants to join and I leave the door open.

When I have sex, there are no thought backs, not my father's voice tell me what to do ...

or a boyfriend asking me what I like.

It's just for me.

And sometimes, I feel guilty.

Terribly guilty.

In life, you can flee any exept yourself.

Things can turn against you ...

but in the end you are the one who has to pay the price.

So now, I have become this mythical creature ...

A woman on whom all men fantasize ...

but think it does not exist.

A unicorn.

How can I explain this to people?

What words can I use?

It's like going to see a movie but I go into the movie and be part of it.

DTES me ...

Did you appreciate the view?

It's always like that.

Can I have a Bitter Lemon?

Where is your wife?

I tied it to the house.

Have you ever been tied up?

You want to be in control no?

Raymond. We need you.

I arrive.

I'll be back.

interesting paintings.

Two and a half.

Chin.

We will not play with ourselves.

Hey.

What are you doing?

Much better like that. shithead

Much better. now I understand you. Like this ...

Go!

I am one of the 25% of women who fantasize about this.

Thousands of women masturbate each night fantasizing about forced sex.

An aggressor. Two.

Or five.

Two between my legs, two in the hand and one in the mouth.

Is not it great? Fantasize is good ...

but when things get bored the reality is different.

It's logical, is not it?

So why do we have these fantasies?

Why are we screaming if we are a little rough with us ...

but in our imagination, we can take five.

These are things that appeal to me.

I decided there, that I would not let a rotten apple spoil my pleasures.

I could have easily decided to throw the sponge ...

but I became more confident in myself.

Do you think he's behind all that?

You know...

everyone I know is busy fighting to recover what they once had ...

I fight for what I want to become.

Anyway, I'm sorry. I am sincerely sorry.

If I did something wrong, I am sorry to agree?

Someone there !

He cut me off.

They were two.

There was another guy.

You suffer ?

Hey.

Did it hurt?

I think it's a local anesthetic. I'm not sure.

No anesthesia, therefore.

For God Sake !

I'm starting to see what they do.

Do you know Mechanical Orange ?

A violent person is bombarded with violent images ...

Until she can not stand it anymore.

They are trying to destroy me.

To destroy what I have.

My freedom.

I will not let them take me all ..

Suppose we leave tomorrow.

You would do again where you left off?

Can you go back to an orgy?

I think I'll have problems with this.

as if I was disconnecting sex from feelings that you have on this table.

And lust and pleasure of sex ...

are replaced by fear.

So we need to replace all that with something else ...

To get rid of fear?

What excites you?

Sorry ?

No excuses.

Visualize it.

I can not.

In general, I can speak that kind of stuff so easily ...

but with you, it's different.

on ... because I'm monogamous do you think I do not have fantasies?

I love control.

I like being on it so that I can control the rhythm.

I like carving pipes.

Because it gives me so much power.

All his virility in my mouth.

I like to watch myself. Really ?

Mirrors. Pictures, Vid os.

It's hot.

I have an exhibitionist tendency.

I go in public without panties.

Do you really do that? Yes.

Once I was shopping with my friends ...

and we went for a drink in a cafe.

A guy at the bar and we looked at each other eye to eye.

His eye contact was so strong ...

I was so excited and full of lust ...

I had to go to the bathroom.

To make me cum.

He went into the toilet, closed the door behind him ...

and kissed me against the wall ...

and without saying a word he left.

What is the most beautiful thing about you?

My ass.

I think it's your breasts.

The way you behave.

Your smell.

What are you doing ?

I visualize.

Sorry.

Sorry.

My husband left me.

What?

Damian.

He cheated on me last month.

And you only tell me now.

Why ?

He met someone else.

First, they betray you.

Then they do what they want and you drop as if it was your fault.

I hate that.

It is not fair.

We will get out of here. I will not hold much longer.

This betrayal.

It has such a hold on all the other emotions It smothered everything ...

until everything is dead.

Except rage.

I saw it when my parents divorced.

You are an unique woman.

What did you do ?

In what did you train me?

I do not understand you. You were supposed to break it.

To give a lesson Damian.

Do you think I was joking?

Whore !

My God Christina what did you do?

I can not do it. Shut up !

Okay. We must leave it behind.

She still does not know anything. who we are, where we live.

I will come back tomorrow and you come with me.

Do you realize what you destroyed?

There is really something wrong with you.

Well.

We will finish and we will leave it.

Nobody will come by and it's her going out.

Meanwhile...

And if you, today's Stella, look at the Stella from a year ago ...

What do you see ?

Now, as at that time ...

she is alone and will probably always be.

That I had secrets then from myself, but now other people.

And I would say that the symbiosis does not exist.

That...

she wants a connection, but she will never get it.

As painful as this discovery is, she is liberating ...

but sacrifices must be made if you do not want to be alone.

Thank you.

subtitle by Panot