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- Previously
on "Dirty John"...

- I'm John.

- Ronnie thinks
that John is creepy

and might be a gold digger.

I'm trying to find somebody
who's smart

and funny
and someone I'm attracted to.

- There's something wrong
with him.

Do you not see that?

- I found out some things
about you.

You weren't in Iraq.
You lived in a trailer park.

You don't even have
a medical license.

- You worry about
your own sad life.

I'll worry about Debbie.
We're married now.

- We hired someone.
A private detective.

We need to figure out
why he's lying to you.

- John's not a perfect person.

But I love him
because he's a good man.

- Did you open my mail?
How dare you?

It's a felony to open
someone's mail.

My God, this place
makes me want

to curl up
in the fetal position.

- You said one drink.
- I say a lot of things.

- Well, I actually listened
to this one.

- I should have just gone home
and had a bowl of cereal--

- Greyhound or sea breeze?
Greyhound or sea breeze?

- Okay. If this place
has grapefruit juice,

I'll pay your
next month's rent.

- Hey, Ton.
- Hi.

- So anyway, one of my patients
today was getting

a quadruple bypass,
and his entire family...

And it was getting
so annoying because...

- Nice scrubs.

- Thanks.

- No, I mean, seriously, like,

it's a great color.

- Nice pants.

You like 'em?

- Good.

I was kind of
on the fence today.

I wasn't sure whether
to go with pants.

And I thought, "Probably.

Probably pants."

- What were your other choices?

Barrel and suspenders.

Catsuit...

some kind of decorative,
you know, paint situation.

- Shorts?

- Shorts. Yeah.

That's definitely a choice
people make, right?

So let me get this straight.

So then do you get different
anesthesia training?

- No. No, it's the same.

But when a nurse...

anesthetist.

- You can't even say it.

You can't even say it.

- I can say it.
I can say it.

But when a nurse anesthetist--
Anesthetist.

Anes--anesthetist.

- Administers anesthesia,

it's nursing,

so it has to be overseen
by a doctor.

But when an anesthesiologist
does it,

it's medicine, so it doesn't
have to be overseen, so.

- Okay, wait.
- That's the difference.

- So you do the same job
as anesthesiologist...

- But with a chaperone
for half the money.

- Well, I mean...

half the money
is still great money.

And no one really chaperones
me anymore...

- But doesn't that
make you mad?

- Um...
- I mean, that would--

that would make me mad,
I'm sorry.

But I mean, I'm mad for you.

I--I mean...

you should be paid more.

- Maybe I should go
to law school then.

There's still time.

- Okay, you're making fun
of me now.

I see.

You know, I am on the pathway
to the...

materially rich,
spiritually empty existence

of my dreams.

- That's not funny at all.
That's just sad.

- Hi, I'm Ethan,
I'm the best man.

Most of you don't know him
real well.

I've known him,
three or four years now.

And if you talk to any
of his friends,

as far as the reaction
to him getting married,

you are gonna find out
they are just

completely shocked and baffled.

- We are going for pancakes,

and you are not invited

because you are busy.

- No, I'm not.
- You've got your hands full.

- I mean, why don't you?
- Stop it.

- You don't want a handful
of that guy, you must be crazy.

- I will see you tomorrow.

- And the reason why,

I think the reason why
is that we're...

skeptical people.

So seeing him in love is...

an inspiring thing for me.

And I'm sure for anyone
who knows him too.

- You're leaving with them?

- Nope.

- But you're leaving.

Yeah.

I--I have a shift tomorrow.

I should really go.

- Take me with you.

No, I--I didn't mean it
like that.

I just meant, like, you know,

let's go get a coffee

or go for a drive,

you know, whatever
you're comfortable with.

It's just...

I mean, we're having
a good time.

Right? I just--
I don't want it to end.

Not yet.

- Yeah, okay.

- And so, in closing,

I wish you the best
of everything, John.

Let's everybody say, "Cheers!"

all: Cheers!

- May you live happily
ever after.

- Come on, guys.

Big smile for the camera.

- I had a dream about this,
by the way.

You did?

- About eggs?

- Well, eggs served
by a beautiful, sexy woman.

I mean, what could be
a better dream than that?

Maybe a dream
where I could fly.

Maybe.

Here you go.

Thank you.

- What's your day?

- Um, I am...

going to meet with a client

in Mission Viejo.

What's your day?

- I have a clinic
in Garden Grove.

I have to help
with a root canal.

You ever heard
of an endodontist?

An endodontist

is a dentist that specializes

in diseases of the pulp.

Pulp, as in, like, your tooth--

I know
what an endodontist is.

I don't need to hear
any more about that.

- You know, if you taught me

how to cook eggs
that awesome French chef way,

I could make them
for both of us.

You don't have
to do that, hon.

You do so much for me already.

- We could also get the court
to enter a restraining order

for depletion of capital.

You know, to stop someone
from destroying assets.

... okay.

But that's not those, right?

- No--I mean, well,
some of them do mention money,

stolen money, but...

They seem to mostly be...

threats, harassment,
intimidation, yeah.

- Wait, that's why
I was wondering,

you know, is it possible
that maybe that's...

not him, you know?

I mean, maybe those
aren't about him.

- You mean, like,
that John Meehan

is a common name?

Yeah, but...

let's not ask him
about it just yet,

because you did say that...

this one is his ex-wife,
right? Tonia?

Yeah.

But that, you know,
that was a very,

very ugly divorce.

I mean, she...

cheated on him and then

wanted him to come back,

and--and, you know,
she fought him for custody

and made all kinds
of accusations.

He eventually lost his job.

- Yeah, I'm emailing these
to myself,

okay, so that I can,
print them out.

Okay.

And, you know,
I-I thought, too,

you know, maybe the, um,

those printouts
from some of those online

forums or whatever,

maybe that could have
been Tonia too.

'Cause I mean, anybody can

make a profile
and post pictures,

and, you know, all kinds
of nasty stuff online.

- Yeah. Things can get
very out of control online.

That's
the understatement

of the century?

Yeah, and I wish
I could tell you

that I've never seen
this kind of behavior

in family court, but, well,

people do just keep on
surprising me.

- Are you thinking you want
to file for an annulment?

Would that help?

Um...

I don't know...

- Okay. That's fine.

Look, I know
that all of this here

is very intimidating.

I do.
I understand that.

But I'm gonna figure out
what we're dealing with.

Okay? We're gonna
figure it out, together.

All right?

- Okay. Thank you.

- Okay, well,

till then,
just keep your head down.

- You all right?

Please don't
make fun of me, okay?

- I'm not.

Remember, I told you,

you don't even have to do this.

- No, I do.

Your dad's old-school.

He asked your grandpa

for your mom's hand
in marriage,

and I'll do the same.

- What if you throw up on him?

I'm kidding.

He loves you.

They all do.
Why are you so worried?

- Just... getting married,
you know?

Families coming together,

I don't know if I can do that.

- You don't know
if you can do what?

- My family, I can't...

do that to yours, like,

dishonor them with mine.

You know,
I know you say that,

and I know you had
a hard time growing up, but--

- No, you don't.

You couldn't, because,

you know, your family's
loving and supportive.

Mine were drug addicts
and alcoholics.

Even before the divorce,
they hated each other.

When I was little,
they hated me,

and I knew that before
I even knew what it meant.

- John...
- But you can't understand that

because you were raised
by people to be a person.

I was raised by monsters.

- Well, I'm here.
To listen.

- If I told you
what they did to me,

you'll think about me
the same way that they did.

You won't be able to help it.

- John, baby, that's not true.

- I told you that I, you know,

don't talk to them
much anymore,

but that's not true.

I don't talk to them at all.

- For how long?

- Years.

For years now.

It's just,
it was either that or...

I mean, it had to be that.

Listen, I want this life
with you more than anything.

I do, it's just...

if we're gonna do this,

my family cannot
be a part of it.

Ever.

- Okay.
- No, you have to promise me.

Because next thing,
we'll have a baby,

and you'll be so in love.

And you'll think,

"They can share in this.

This'll fix everything,"
but it won't.

They'll poison us,

and you can't let that happen,

so please promise me.

- I...

Yeah, no, I promise.

I promise.

- Hey.

- You married him?

- I-I-I did.

I-I--you know, honey,
I was gonna tell you,

but I-I wanted to wait
for the right moment

because you--you--

you know, you hate him so much.

- Toby told me.

John told Toby.

I didn't know that.

- No, John wouldn't
have told you.

Toby went to the house
the day before yesterday.

He wanted to apologize to you.

John told him
he was trespassing.

And that he no longer
has an aunt.

And that it was a good thing
his father shot his mother

before she could see
what a loser Toby is.

- Veronica--
- John said that.

The man that you married...

...and didn't tell us
that you married him,

said that, about our family.

- I don't--I, you know--

I don't know about any of that.

- You don't know this man
at all.

Or what he is...

potentially capable of.

Do you really,

really believe that
he doesn't want your money?

You don't see that
that's what he's wanted

from the beginning?

- I am working through some--

I'm figuring it out.

- How?

- I am dealing with it,

Veronica.

- I hope you got a prenup.

- Not a science major.

- No. No.

I did do a lot of
extra science classes

outside of my major, though.

Growing up, I worked
at Stanford Med as an orderly.

- So interested in medicine,
peripherally.

- Yeah.

And then I met Tonia, and...

- I've been taking him
through all my old textbooks.

He's picking things up
way faster than I did.

- Yeah, law school taught me
the pros and cons

of every make of luxury car,

but at this point,
I can't even remember

why I went there.

I mean, if you decide
I can't do this,

I-I can't go back to that.

I-I really need some purpose.
I really do.

- I will say we do see

a proportionally high rate
of success

with our older students.

And you have this one
on your side, which helps.

But it's gonna be
a lot of work.

More than you even know.

- When I want something,

I know how to buckle down.

- All right, just let me know
when you're finished.

- Well, I have a little cash
here in the house

that I just keep here
in case, you know,

there's an earthquake,
God forbid, or...

- How much is it?

- I don't know, maybe...

80,000 or 90,000?

- I rented a safe
deposit box today.

Yeah?
-Yeah, you know.

For like, important papers,
passports,

that kind of thing.

I was thinking the cash
should go in there too.

In case there's, like,
a fire or something.

Hey.
- Hi.

- How's it going?

- Good.
- Just making myself some tea.

I've got an upset stomach.
You want some?

- No.
Yeah, sure.

Thanks.

- So I talked to a buddy.

A guy I met back when
I was trying to stop Tonia

from draining me dry
after the split.

He used to not mind
investing cash for me

through his firm
when I needed him to.

So I asked him to,

hook me up
with someone out here.

To invest our cash.

So that's why it's not in
the safe deposit box anymore.

- I have the text alert option.

So I got a text today

saying that you were there.

It didn't tell me why,

but it made me realize

I hadn't told you

that I had taken the cash out.

All right.

That's fine.

- So?

Why were you there?

- Well...

Veronica came by
the office today.

And, um,

somehow, she knows
we're married.

So cat's out of the bag.

We can wear these now.

- Really?

Aww.

We're married.

Here we go.

- Look at the camera.

- We should treat every child

not just as a case patient,

but as if they were part
of our own family.

Thank you so much for coming.

- Great talk.
Thank you.

- Really appreciate it.
You have a good afternoon.

Okay? Take care.
- Nice to meet you.

- Nice to meet you. Bye.

- No, please, sorry.
Drink it.

I know everyone wants
to talk to you.

- I'm Maggie.
- Tonia.

I'm a CRNA at St. Hilda's
in Dayton.

- Dayton, yeah, I've heard
that's a great hospital.

- Yeah, yeah, I mean--
no, it is.

- I-I just wanted to tell you

how much I loved your talk.

I always--well,

I just prefer the more
anecdotal speeches

to the really technical ones.

- Well, and I know
a lot of our colleagues

would like a little more...

"Intracranial
cysts in children.

"Peritoneal derivation
or endoscopic fenestration?

Discuss."

But I'm like you,
I like to hear about people.

- I--well, I've only worked
one pediatric case.

Two months old, hydrocephalus,

VP shunt placement failed.

You would not believe
how cute this baby was.

Eyelashes like "swock."

I would definitely
believe it.

Do you have a family yourself?

- Yep. Married, two kids.
Both under five.

- Wow.
- I know.

- You are an American hero.

- Well, what about you?

Not yet.

I used to think I was
more effective without kids.

Less emotional, in a good way.

But then a few years ago,
I realized

that wasn't true anymore.

- Now you think
maybe you might?

- Yeah. Um...

I didn't want to do it alone.

And, you know,
it took me a while

to find the person,
you know, but...

we're about ten months in now,

and yeah, we're having
those conversations.

- Well, congratulations.

That's gonna be one smart kid.
- Thank you.

- No, thank you, again,
for the talk, really.

Well, it's my pleasure.

And it was really nice
to meet you...

- Tonia.

Tonia Meehan.

- Dayton, you said
you're a CRNA in Dayton?

- Yeah.

- What does your husband do?

- John?
Well, he's actually one too.

He travels a lot more than me.

I stick near home for the kids.

Actually, he's been coming
to Indiana a lot.

You might have crossed paths
at work.

It wouldn't be surprising
at all.

- Hey.

How's it going?

You look wiped.

It's a good thing
the kids are asleep.

Those conferences
are tough?

Not that looking after
two kids is easy.

The latest thing is they've
taken to pinching each other.

So...

what's the latest
in anesthesia care?

No? All right.

Let's start smaller.

What--what'd you learn?

- I talked to a
pediatric neurosurgeon.

- Yeah?
They're smart.

- Yeah.

Her name is Maggie Baratta.

- Are...

are you smiling?

- Okay. All right.

So you want to get
into this now?

You want to get into this
right now.

- Get into what, John?

What are we getting into?

She said you've been together
almost ten months.

She operates two days a week.

Sees patients two mornings.

She probably makes,
I don't know,

like, 500K?

And you saw her.

I mean, she even looks
expensive, right?

- What are you even...

What--what are you even saying?

Are you trying to upgrade?

You're showing off.

You're putting on
some kind of show.

I don't know for who.

What is this, John?

What are you doing?

- I don't know.

It's something.

- I'll go over
everything with you,

and then I've also
printed up a copy.

My God.
-It's--it's a lot.

Arrest record's on top.

- "Felony, burglary,
first degree.

Felony, burglary,
second degree."

What is the difference
between those two?

- Second is entering
a commercial building

with intent to commit.

First is entering a residence.

So both of those.

- I knew it.

"Felony threat
with intent to extort.

"Felony...

Possession of a gun
by a felon."

John's a gun guy?
He has guns?

- At least once
that we know of,

he has been a guy
with a gun, yeah.

- What are all
these numbers here?

- Social Security numbers
he's used.

- If he has been arrested
for all of these things,

and he's been charged
with all of them,

then why is he not in prison?

- He was, and now he's not.

- Okay, but, like,
he pled guilty

for stalking and a gun
in California.

It says that he was...

"given two concurrent
two-year sentences," so--

- Right, so concurrent means

you serve them
at the same time.

So two concurrent sentences,

and the court gave him credit
for time served

and good behavior.

So two years minus
541 days credit

is 6 1/3 months.

Now, he should have gone
to state prison,

but overcrowding,
so he serves 6 1/3 months

at Theo Lacy Jail in Orange,

and he was released.

- The third week
of last September.

That's when he met my mom.

So where--where did he go
when he got out?

Where was he living?

- I haven't found
any fixed address for him

in that time frame yet.

- So...

when I told my mom I thought
he looked homeless,

maybe he actually was homeless.

- There she is.

You did great, Celia.

You're a Spartan.

- They get it all?

- Yeah, surgeon's on his way
down to talk to you.

You got a tube going there,
so be careful.

Got a pump for your meds.

How's your pain right now?

From a one to ten?

One, "I feel okay," to...

Ten? Your pain is a ten?

Okay. All right.

I'm gonna take that away.

- He barely drew out
the fentanyl.

I think what he gave her
was saline.

I know he didn't give her meds.

And I saw him drop the vials
in his pocket.

He didn't put them
in the receptacle.

- You seriously think
John would steal drugs?

From a patient?

- I'm telling you what I saw.

And...

I reported it to Aikiko.

She's calling
the Nursing Board.

My God.

Lynn, why would you?

He'll lose his license.

- It was smooth, Tonia,

what he did.

This was not a "day one" thing.

It was just the first time
anyone saw him.

John is not the only CRNA
in your family, Tonia.

If this is a bigger thing

than what I--

and it ends up with the cops

searching your house for drugs,

they could think that you

were stealing them too.

Or at least that
you knew he was.

They could take your kids.

And I know you.

I know you would never.

- But...

I'm not the one you'd
have to prove it to.

- Hello?

- Hi, Debra,
it's Paula Harding,

the attorney.

- Hi, Paula, how are you?

I...

I'm just gonna start.

- Well, that doesn't sound
very good.

- They're him.

The restraining orders

in Ohio and California,

and more in Indiana
and Kentucky, all...

it's all the same guy,
it's all your husband.

Okay. Well...

Are you sure?

- In California and Ohio,
he's been in prison.

California more than once.

- Prison for what?

- Stalking a woman.

Violating a restraining order

against a different woman.

Doing drugs.

The online purchases were
component parts of a handgun,

a Sig Sauer,
like he was trying to buy

each piece
from a different place

and use them all
to build the one gun.

- And was he able to do that?

Was he able to get...

all the pieces?

- I-I don't know.

And what, what--

so then what should I do?

Look.

This man has sued every lawyer

who's ever filed against him.

Tied them up with complaints.

He's sued his own lawyers

after they've won
judgements for him

so they couldn't collect
their fees, I-I--

I-I just can't deal with
somebody like that.

I'm sorry.

Debra?

- I'm--
okay, so that's it, then?

- The annulment.

You should file on that
right away.

And if you have a will
and he's in it,

take him out.

If you don't have one,

you need to make one
right away

that does not mention him.

And you need to make sure

he knows it doesn't.

Because if he thinks he would

be getting your money,

I don't know what he might do.

- The palpitations?
Shortness of breath?

Dizziness?
You were totally right

to come here, okay?

But it's not your heart.

I'm gonna give you
some lorazepam.

Anybody waiting?

Do you need me to go out front,

bring anyone back here for you?

Husband? Partner?

- No.

- Well, then,

you just rest here for a bit,

and when I come back
with your script,

we'll get you out of here.

Okay?

- Thank you.

Jeff.

- Can you explain to us
a little bit about John?

Shush.

Someday, I'll be president,
and I will exile this man.

Okay,
let me start by saying

that John Meehan--
John Meehan's nickname

is Filthy John Meehan.

- And can you remember when

you first created
that nickname and why?

- Yes, yes, I can.

But it cannot be divulged
on camera.

- I just want to say,

I take showers now.

And baths, okay?

I'm a fan of being clean.

All right?

- I mean, coke, yeah.

We were in grad school.

There was studying

that some of us even
took seriously.

But so a few of the guys
did coke.

John did it, yeah.

Keep-you-awake kind of stuff.

We were young. Ish.

Also, all of us in the house
thought you were great.

Honestly, we kind of wondered

why you would be with him.

- Why?

Why--why wouldn't I?

About you being
nice and smart,

a nurse.

And just like...

Just being, like,
a dog with women.

- Is that why the name?

He never told me.
- Dirty? Filthy?

Yeah, I guess.
- Dirty John.

- Yeah. Hello, hi.

Second time asking for coffee.

Whenever you get a chance.

Um, but it was also about

the other kinds of stuff
he was up to.

You know, the credit cards,
the yard work thing.

- Um, what are you
talking about?

- He had...
God.

He had business cards made up.

Like for roofing, yard work.

And he'd give them out
to older people

and say he'd throw them
a break on--thank you--

shingling or a chimney rebuild.

Just--
that's enough, thanks.

Give them an advance
for materials.

And then he'd take the money
and not go back.

- And what about
the credit cards?

They'd come in the mail
to the house.

All different names.

At first we thought it was
a delivery mistake, but...

It wasn't.

Also, some of the guys saw him

run into the street
at stop signs

and throw himself onto the hood
of a car slowing down.

And tell the driver,
"Give me 300 bucks

and your premium won't go up."

And they did.

- Um...

how was he keeping
all these scams straight

and going to classes too?

- Last semester, second year,
he was definitely gone.

But he might have bailed
before that.

We weren't in the same classes.

Sorry.

- For what?
- I lived with him that year.

And we had good times
or whatever.

But he never talked about
things and I never asked.

I don't know why.

So...

I don't know... why.

There's just...

a blank space
where the story should be.

Are you okay?

- Yeah? Come on.

- What are you doing here?

- If I ask you a question,

will you answer me honestly?

- John, I am the most
honest person you know.

- Okay.

Who called
the state Nursing Board?

- I'm not telling you.

Why would I?

- If you won't tell me
who it was,

it means it was you.

My God.

This is what you care about.

Not the patients
whose meds you stole?

People relying on you
who you could have killed?

Either because
you're so out of it,

you miss something,

or because their hearts
could have stopped

from the shock.

Do you know we could have lost
the girls over this?

- I have it
on excellent authority

that you're the one who called.

- Well, I didn't.

You really sound like
you're going

off the deep end,
you know that?

- How would you know
what I sound like?

You don't even know who I am.

- Well, if you were me,
what would you do?

Would you leave?

- I'm not you.

- Well...
Supposing that you were.

- I can't make
this decision for you.

Only you can.

Because only you will know

if you're really ready
for what might happen

when you do.

- Wait, what, what do you mean,

"what might happen?"

- His plan is ruined.

Whatever it was,
you got the jump on him.

Took him by surprise.

- He's not gonna like that.

- Probably not.

And I don't know if
your daughter told you, but...

two of the restraining orders
against him

were taken out by...

cops.

Irvine PD. Women.

A detective and a uni, I think?

But still.

Active duty cops.

- So it's not dumb
to be scared.

- No.

Or to want to leave.

And if you do leave,

it's good to have a plan.

- What kind of a plan?

- Stay in hotels

or places you've never
stayed before

but not the same place
for too long.

We should get
a new car. Right?

- And different clothes.

Ones that blend in more.

Her clothes do blend in
in Orange County.

It's yours that stand out.

- Snap.

Dye your hair, probably.

- Or wigs.

There are great wigs today.

- When you come
into a crowded place,

really study the room.

Try to notice if someone's
following you.

Make yourself
a difficult target.

- I have to go.

Because he's picking
me up from work, and...

I don't know...

what he would do
if I wasn't there.

So I need to, um--
I'm gonna go.

Thank you.

Bye, hon.

- Look, Debra.

Just get yourself out.

That's what I'd do.

- Okay. Thank you.

I'll talk to you later, Ronnie.

Hi.
- Hey.

I know you're in there,
Tonia. I can hear you.

You changed the locks on me?

- I changed them all
so you know

your keys don't work anymore.

- You think I can't
get in there if I want to?

- Why would you want to, John?

There's nothing for you
in here.

- You know what!
- Just the kids and me.

What, your drugs?

I got rid of them.

To protect my children.

Let me in!

Get me my shit!

Give me my shit, Tonia!

- Mommy?
- Mommy!

- Hello?

Yes.

I'm sorry to call so late.

Maybe you're having dinner.

California's
three hours behind,

so I thought it would be okay.

- Who is this?

- I-I, um... I...
- Tonia?

Is this Tonia?

- Is this Delores?

Meehan?

My God.

I knew you would call.
I knew it.

And I wanted you to,
and I didn't.

Because that means

it's all gone wrong,
hasn't it?

John warned me so many times,

don't ever call you
or the kids,

don't even try.

Don't even think about it.

Is he still doing drugs?

- John?

- John?

Can you call someone?
-My God!

- Deb...
- What's going on?

- I don't know.
- Okay.

My God.
My God.

- With the nonmechanical
obstruction

in your intestines,
I worry about infection.

Which, we're okay, but we need
to move quickly.

- What about the pain?

- You'll be going into surgery

hopefully tonight, Mr. Meehan.

- I don't understand.

He was fine and then
he just collapsed.

- Is the surgery now?

Like right goddamn now,
because if it isn't--

- We're giving you 2 milligrams
of Dilaudid.

- I need Dilaudid-HP.
Four milligrams.

- How long have you been
on opioids, Mr. Meehan?

- Deb, this is insane.
Come on.

- Can you tell me, Mrs. Meehan?

- Tell you--
- How long has your husband

been taking opioids,
or which ones?

- Because that's something

to do with
his intestines, or...

- He has a paralytic ileus.

His blood work...

could you help me understand

his history with narcotics?

- I don't--I don't know it.

I don't know.

- I'm on a pain management
program.

I injured--fractured
my right ankle.

I also have
a spinal compression.

So ever since,
I've been dealing with

a cervical radiculopathy.

- How did you injure yourself?

- Iraq.

Well, I'm not sure,
who was helping you here,

but they shouldn't have let
this blockage develop.

Pretty bad?

But right now my tolerance
is so high.

- I'm giving you 4 milligrams
of Dilaudid-HP

every two hours.

- I, um...

I don't think I'm gonna stay
here for the consult.

It's not a problem.

- I don't want them
to have to dumb it down

for John,
and I'm not very good at

thinking about blood, and...

I'm gonna go to the chapel.

And pray.

- Okay.

- I love you.

You'll be just fine.

- Yes?

- You know why I have

this big smile on my face?

- Why, John?

- 'Cause trust me.

Just trust me.
That's why.

- Trust you what?
You're not making any sense.

- You'll understand
when it happens.

You'll understand it all.

I won't be anywhere near it.

I'll be in Bermuda
or wherever,

having a drink
with a 22-year-old,

smiling like I am right now.

You should enjoy
your time left, Tonia.

Your time left on this earth.

That's what it's gonna
come down to.

Just, when it happens?

When you see it in your eyes

and you know,

promise you'll remember
it was me.

- Come here.
Come here, okay?

- Do you have any words to say

to the wedding couple?

- Just keep your eyes
on him, Tonia.

Don't let him
out of your sight.

- Run!