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Now sissy that walk.

[cheering]

A trend alert.

I'm new to a lot of things.

I ain't new to stunt.

I always joked about running away

and joining the circus and I basically have. [laughs]

Category is New Jersey, Atlanta housewives.

♪ She's a super queen ♪

Naomi's such a whore. I love it.

I don't need a lot of communication.

I just need, like, there to be a plan.

Vanessa Vanjie Mateo.

Thank God.

Oh, send me home!

♪ And if I fly ♪

♪ Or if I fall ♪

♪ Least I can say... ♪

I recycle.

[laughs]

What do you want?

There's no content here.

[laughs]

I want one of those boring girl episodes.

You want one of those boring girl episodes?

Ooh, yeah.

Why do you wanna be the boring girl?

It'd be a nice change of pace. [laughs]

America's reigning drag superstar,

Yvie Oddly, good to see you.

Howdy, howdy. Good to see you, too, baby.

Yvie, what has your year been like

since becoming America's next drag superstar?

Well, whirlwindy.

That's, like, the most PG-13 word I could use.

At least this first year

is just gonna be a whirlwind of things I've never done,

and I'm going to be like a baby again.

The winner of RuPaul's Drag Race is Yvie Oddly!

[cheering]

I feel like I've been rebirthed, like, a thousand times over.

Wow. I never knew I needed this duo.

Ooh!

The winner's room.

I'm gonna net one, too.

Damn, I fucked that whole winner thing up,

but I guess you can't have two wi--

-Well... -[laughs]

Of course.

I'll be the robbed runner-up today.

So many other people who have won

have known, like, exactly what they wanted to do,

and I just worry

that I might be moving, like, a little too glacially

with trying to, like, get my bearings.

So I do feel pressure to, like, figure it out.

Oh, Yvie, I love this hair.

Thank you.

[laughs]

-I love. -I am obsessed.

Like, honestly, broccoli, favorite vegetable.

[laughs]

It's so nice to meet you.

I'm just here to remind all the children in the audience

to eat their vegetables and stay away from crack cocaine.

[all laugh]

Aquaria, Monet, what advice do you have for Yvie,

the latest winner?

Just soak it up.

Wow, very on-brand.

[all laugh]

[all laugh]

Just remember, you're not required to do the European leg.

[laughs]

[cheers and applause]

Yvie Oddly? Winner.

I love Yvie.

You know what? Yvie is the easiest girl to tour with.

Always turns it out no matter what.

I have a tiny crush on Yvie Oddly.

We've shared a dressing room a lot during this tour,

and I've seen a lot more of Yvie Oddly

than I was expecting to see,

which makes me have even a bigger crush on her. [laughs]

Very professional.

She's been a pleasure to work with.

She is definitely not like a diva or any of that shit,

which I can appreciate.

I love, love, love working with Yvie.

She's dope.

It's nice having Yvie on here.

She's just as much of a star as the rest of us,

and her number's just ridiculous.

From start to finish,

a whole list of things that I will never be able to do.

It's always great

having the current reigning drag queen on tour.

[cheering]

I wake up in a little black box,

and I'm so groggy and, like, disoriented,

and have to try and figure out where in the world we're at,

where we are, like, in terms of the venue.

You're up and skippy.

I definitely have, like, vertigo for the first few hours.

I'm excited to do some unpleasantries here tonight.

[laughs]

But overall, I'm pretty chipper.

I had my coffee.

We're ready for a killer show...

metaphorically.

What's up, baby?

You wanna see the best stage we've had yet?

Oh, look at this beauty.

Oh, God, it's so amazing.

Morgan is our new stage manager this year,

but he also happens to be

my old assistant/partner/ also my roommate/lover.

[laughs]

Yvie and I met over five years ago.

We actually were roommates, and that's how we met.

And she wasn't Yvie at the time.

She had done drag before under the alias Avon Eve,

and I like to think that Yvie and I created Yvie together.

He was, like, the first ever superfan I had of my drag,

when we were in Denver going through gay puberty.

We moved in, and I was, like,

I had to come out to him as a drag queen after a few months.

I was, like, "Hey, I'm a drag queen."

He was, like,

"Oh, I've seen lots of, like, terrible, shitty drag queens.

Who cares?"

And then I started this competition back in Denver,

and in competition mode I feel like people get to see, like,

really the best I have to offer.

And he fell in love, and we've been partners ever since.

Like, he's literally one half of Yvie.

We just have had so much fun creating drag together.

And I never in a million years

would have expected it to take us here.

I thought we were just doing it for fun.

He's kind of like a security blanket for me.

He's very, like, emotionally comforting

despite how crazy he is.

All of the sudden there was a shift,

and people just started, like, worshipping you,

admiring you, like, fawning over you.

Speaking of worshipping and admiring me,

can I use your phone to find my phone?

Yeah. [both laugh]

I just kind of, like, mostly keep to myself,

come and do my job, smoke pot, and leave.

I have trouble making new friends,

and so I do chill, like, with the other girls and stuff,

but I always feel weird.

Oh, she's green!

I'm just taking my makeup off for the show.

Oh, yeah, your true self?

-[laughs] -Shut up in here!

Hey! Where were you hiding?

I tried to come find you. What were you doing?

I don't dress with the peasants. Sorry.

Aah! Oh!

O'Hara's alive.

I always feel like either I'm not, like, loud enough

or I'm not, like, cool enough,

or I'm not prissy enough, or, like, literally whatever.

That's something I'm still definitely working on,

is I always feel-- I always feel odd.

[cheers and applause]

I think we all still have our demons we work past,

no matter how many nice things

have happened to you in your life.

Myself, always.

Always fighting, like, being the worst critic.

I'm afraid of being annoying.

I'm afraid of being too weird.

I'm afraid of not having anything to say.

I just feel like I don't always have a lot to contribute.

Now that my drag is my public persona,

I feel like I'm struggling with finding a way

to feel, like, confident in myself.

Put your hands together for Yvie Oddly!

[cheers and applause]

And you just beat yourself up.

You're weird, you're smelly, you're uncool, you're not funny.

[laughs]

I love the stage for that reason.

It's just so good at, like, blocking everything out.

[cheers and applause]

Then I get off and I'm still myself

and I still have to, like, walk around in the world.

[elevator bell dings]

Coming with me to do my laundry?

I mean, we probably could if we want to.

A lot of the other girls are a lot bossier than I am.

I don't mean that in, like, a bad way.

That's actually, like, a skill I need to for sure work on.

But I'm also super independent. [laughs]

Some might say fiercely so.

I don't think I can tour forever, unfortunately.

My body is not set up that way.

But this year specifically, like, that's a part of reigning,

is you're supposed to go around,

you're supposed to see all these places,

all the people who, like, either supported you or didn't.

Essentially your kingdom, your queendom.

So whether or not it's too much,

it's, like, kind of what I signed up for,

and it's also what I was excited about

when I even, like, thought about auditioning,

is I was frustrated because I was in Colorado

and nobody was booking me anywhere out of state.

And so I was, like,

either I have to pay my own way everywhere

and, like, beg for tip spots, which I did for a while.

Or you can, like, shoot for bigger.

All right, the rest is on you.

[laughs]

I was always a really artsy, know-it-all, brainy kid.

I did get called weird a lot as a kid.

I just remember trying so hard

to be friends with, like, a few kids or whatever,

and every time I'd, like, get close to them,

they made it apparent that I was just, like, some add-on friend.

Like, it's cool if he's here, I guess.

I feel like that really set me up

in terms of, like,

how I deal with my interpersonal relationships in general.

Like, it takes a long time

for me to feel okay being myself with other people.

Like, you still will always have something

you have to work past on your own.

It's nice, though, because I do see the kind of people

that I get to touch because of what I represented on the show

or what I represent in the Drag Race spectrum.

I see so many people who also feel like outsiders,

and it's, like, the oldest fucking story

in the book of, like, oh, yeah,

I feel like I castaway and no one understands me.

But I get what it feels like to be that way,

even if it is literally just you isolating yourself.

Thanks for coming decked out to the show tonight.

I drove an hour here without eyelashes.

Then I plopped them on.

-You're like, "Okay, okay." -You sound like us.

Yeah, you sound like us getting ready.

Yvie, do you-- Yvie, you want one?

-Yvie! -You have to say it in alien,

because she doesn't speak English.

-Y'all doing shots? -Yes, come on.

-Do you want one? -We're celebrating.

We'll drink like drag queens.

You can have half of mine,

because I already had one, so I don't need two.

And then you're gonna get the other half of mine.

I'm a vegan now, so I can only have diet vegan.

Okay, well, this is organic.

This one--and I done blessed it and everything.

Okay, babe. Yeah.

-Cheers. -Cheers!

[laughs]

I love Yvie, and I love that she has chosen

to paint herself green for the entirety of the tour.

And she is an alien every day,

and she's a really awesome new addition to the show.

Really a good person to have on tour,

because she's, like, if you need something, she's there.

She'll give you tape, whatever.

Yvie Oddly, I call her Yvie Normal,

because Yvie has not done one odd thing on this tour.

Like, I expected Yvie to be, you know, eating live snakes

and sleeping hanging from her feet

with her wings wrapped around her like a vampire bat,

and there has been none of that.

I always joked about running away and joining the circus,

and I basically have. [laughs]

I don't know what else I would rather be doing

while I can do everything in the world.

It's literally making my dreams come true.

[cheers and applause]

Yvie is lit. She's so fearless.

She's an Area 51 alien.

Her planet is Earth.

The boys and me are the doctors,

and we're, like, operating on her.

[cheers and applause]

And then we go off, and Morgan is born on-stage.

I'm born and have a duet with my mom.

After I give birth to my alien daughter,

and she, like, grows up and leaves the nest

and I get really lonely.

So then I go through that, like,

that thing that, like, parents do

when their kids move out of the house,

where they, like, cut their hair.

Because, like, it's a new me.

And then you realize it's the same bitch after all.

[cheers and applause]

So only at, like, one of the biggest shows that we had,

when everything should have been, like, decent and perfect,

I had to make a new closing outfit.

So I tried to, like, whip it up,

and I, like, tested it backstage.

It worked.

I felt so bad, just because we were in L.A.,

so all of our friends and family were there.

[cheers and applause]

And then in the magic of the theater,

like, when we got onstage, I couldn't get my reveal off,

so I just started ripping it.

And that didn't work, so I ran offstage,

and I guess a lot of tulle was still left onstage.

Yvie's fucking green tulle dress,

that was just, like,

like, common sense not to wear that.

Yeah, she clearly didn't dress-rehearse in it.

She just, like, went off the stage,

but then, like, left all the yards of tulle,

like, on the floor.

So I initially stopped Naomi.

[cheers and applause]

Oops. Kim, like, fell,

and then was, like, on the ground,

and, like, oh, my God, my wig.

And then there I was in the front, just, like...

It was bad.

You know, if there is anything on that stage,

Kim is gonna find it, and she's gonna go down.

Oh, poor Kim.

My instinct was to try and, like, hold her hand, stabilize,

because that's my best friend, that's my bitch.

And get rid of that green tulle thing as fast as possible.

♪ She's a super queen ♪

[cheers and applause]

I mean, let's face it.

if you're gonna just, like, wrap, like, shit around you,

you should have, like, rehearsed it.

So then it threw off the whole closing,

and everybody's like, oh, there's Kim Chi falling again.

So then I look bad when it wasn't even my fault.

I didn't know she fell until later that night.

Like, I got a text from Plastique

being, like, "Have you apologized to Kim?"

And I was like, "What?" [laughs]

Four other girls skipped falling on my tulle, too,

so shit happens.

She probably hates me forever now.

I mean, it's her fault

for, like, not rehearsing in that outfit,

but I'm sure, like, it's not her intention

to, like, sabotage anyone, you know?

I'm sure she's beating herself over it

much as, you know, I'm mad about it.

[laughs]

Not even a little. [laughs]

So right now I'm, like, multitasking,

packing, and trying to think of, like,

what ballads I can get away with doing

that won't make people not wanna give me a dollar.

It gets hard right after the show is over

because all you wanna do is just, like, wipe this off

and then go take a nap, go chill.

But I really-- I also like performing a lot,

so I'm excited to hopefully make some people's nights,

just in case they didn't get to see me here.

And if they did, then doubly so.

See what I can do in the same outfit with different shit.

I don't know how I'm getting there, though.

[laughs]

I've gotten a lot of backlash

for my overall performance as a drag queen since the show,

because people expected that with a title

that I would suddenly throw away

everything that I really enjoyed about drag before this

and become, like, some weird, polished, like, super beast

that is smiling and never has any wrong opinions.

No, bitch, that's, like,

not what got me here in the first place. [laughs]

I think there's a lot of pressure for me to do well,

and for me to, like, live up to the standards

that not only RuPaul has and not only the show has,

but also everyone else who's won.

I didn't actually expect to win,

so I wasn't, like-- not even I didn't expect to win.

I never thought about what it would be like to actually win.

Winning. A winner.

Obviously I was trying to win. That's why I signed up.

But I had never pictured the repercussions of winning,

both good and bad.

It's just something that once again,

my ego was like, oh, yeah, you have to win.

You're gonna be so good, you're gonna win it, bitch.

But, like, never pieced together how it would feel to be there.

And I kind of overlooked the fact

that a winner does have

a lot of responsibility on their shoulders,

whether or not it's real or tangible.

Ooh-ooh-ooh, bitch.

I'm popping it.

Your artistic face.

This is what we call a costume reveal.

-Oh. -Mm-hmm.

Shocking.

Pull a wig off, pull a mask off,

there's a whole 'nother wig underneath it.

I pull that off, it's just my brain. [laughs]

They're ready for a treat.

Yeah, exactly.

And then I gave them so much life, I slayed myself.

Then I get shipped to the next city, where I repeat.

Rinse and repeat.

No rinse. Just repeat.

[laughs]

People in general are just never gonna be satisfied.

I'm not probably ever gonna be satisfied

with what I'm doing as an artist.

[cheers and applause]

There are always going to be people out in the world

who don't like what you're doing.

But I also wanna make sure that at the end of the day,

I'm still doing the drag that makes me happy,

even if other people might not get it.

-I'll treat you. -You think?

So unfortunately, a part of my reality is

there's always something in the back of my head

that's asking me, like, what are you gonna be able to do next

when you can't do your flips, when you can't do your tricks,

when you can't even walk around in heels?

What are you gonna do?

Right now, I feel exhausted,

and all of my bones are hurting super bad.

[sighs]

I have a disease called Ehlers-Danlos syndrome,

so my body doesn't produce or retain collagen

at normal levels.

It gives me, like, stretchy skin,

it gives me stretchy joints,

and it means I'm, like, in a lot of pain very often.

Oof.

I can feel all of my joints,

and every step hurts.

[gasps, exhales]

Even sitting still hurts.

I just feel really heavy.

Um, my body is always, always hurting,

but it's not always this bad.

Um...

Yeah. Can I have a drink, please?

Thank you.

Oh, I'm never gonna finish my makeup. [laughs]

I do just push through a lot of it on the daily,

but some days it gets really bad.

[groans]

It just pisses me off,

because I don't like feeling, like, handicapped

or like I can't do anything.

I still really love drag.

I love performing.

I like--I love everything about this life

except for how it feels.

[knock on door]

Tell them I said I'm never rehearsing again.

Okay.

No, I'll be there.

No, it does not.

I know this sounds super cynical,

because I really am grateful

for everything that this opportunity has given me,

but, girl, I cannot wait until they crown some other ho.

[laughs]

And then I get to focus, at least a little bit more,

not necessarily a bunch,

but at least a little bit more on my future

and less of the whirlwind.

You think a massage would help?

Especially at the meet-and-greets,

we've seen--I've seen quite a few people

wheel up to the meet-and-greet

and, you know, none of them are super old.

All of them say, "Hey, I have the same thing,

"and your story inspires me so much.

It meant everything to me to be able to come support you."

Seeing that face-to-face,

I don't know how it affects Yvie,

but to me, it's like a constant reminder

that this is the inevitable future.

I mean, I feel like a writer with writer's block,

just sitting there, like, trying to map out some sort of future,

and I just don't know what it is.

And eventually, I'm gonna have to, like, pay those bills.

Eventually I'm gonna have to feed myself,

and I don't know what I'm gonna do yet.

That won't necessarily mean, like, you know,

that Yvie won't perform anymore, or won't have, like, you know,

that same vibrant, creative excellence

that she's always had.

I think we'll just channel it in a different way.

Are those more comfortable than these?

-Those are really heavy. -Oh, gotcha.

All right, here, let me carry these.

And I think she'll kind of come into sort of a mentorship role,

be like this wise, old drag queen in a wheelchair

with, like, really, really good advice

and, like, a really good heart

to, like, help people, like, on their own journeys.

She brings out the best in people.

And, like, no matter what happens,

I'm gonna support her, so...

[cheers and applause]

I'm not done yet, I'm not defeated yet,

but... [laughs]

it is frustrating.

I feel like I'm so good at changing everything else,

I don't know how to change, like, the works underneath,

how I'm wired.

You just kind of have to go with it.

You have to, like, wake up a different person every day,

whoever you need to be to get through it.

That's what I liked about drag in the first place,

is I used to use it as this escape to be somebody else.

And now I use it as, like, a tool of survival.

Maybe that's the issue is I don't need an escape,

I need, like, to just figure out how to get past

whatever is holding me back.

I'm still trying to figure it out,

so I'm gonna keep experimenting.