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evenings always disappoint like this

taxi are we coming Catrin its Melia

we're on our way

I'm really sorry we're late um something

came up just as we were going out

normally she can't bear being late for

anything anything private everybody this

is a richard anemia who don't you know i

don't know you've met Sarah magnet for

or Eddie especially no ran of course and

this is Sylvie and they want to

apologize for Pete Oh terribly late but

they did have some very urgent sex that

they had to attend to I mean when I was

21 I said to myself if I haven't

published my first novel by the time I'm

30 then I should just I should pack it

in I'm still stuck on chapter six later

40 is the new 30 anyway was to read the

thought of an adolescence how do you

know anyway you know that same as you 35

the perfect age just the time to start

what writing or living but anything

everything seize the moment like you

already have the perfect relationship

there that's your subject happiness

I was barely aware of her that first

night she was just a blur a slick of

gray

nothing

beware of mice playoffs on the Koran go

no no if you wanted some you should have

got some of your own oh I want yours now

you know I feel as if there's someone

watching me mister huh

would you like that to be no no we're

going to the nude okay

hello hello it's heavy I'm at last night

oh yes yeah yes of course I'm sorry oh I

was so wrecked last night you're okay

guard interesting I thought I just

thought I would say head out well hello

so um do you live around here or no I

just like to come here sometimes all

right right okay so look um after gonna

have this book to finish reading by

tomorrow

let's go to meet you

I was frightened or passion spent until

there was a hollow burn of class I will

my calico she means pulsing blue in

secret beneath my petticoats were porous

as canvas blood would seep into the

minute I was very precise Lilia look for

this

my head you sent it no idea to eat it

okay

that's 1200 words by Friday

excellent now will you call them for it

or shall I bike it round

okay okay see you later

folk pages

adhara yeah no yeah I can do that

there's this woman and it's doing my

head in

what are you talking about what woman

trying to tell you having this thing

with this with this woman no no not

sagging not quite yeah yeah okay does

clattering no we don't bloody know Matt

I almost thought you two were fine we

are farmers greedy look I know the rule

is that no matter shag everything that

moves until you're 30 and then settle

down with one them had never looked at

another woman with rusty laughter that

is absurd isn't it ridiculous it's also

bloody impossible you can never get it

all for just one person can you I don't

know I rather hope you could Lydia and

you still believe in father Christmas

seriously though what am I gonna do it's

driving me crazy

seems like you've already made up your

mind mmm-hmm no no I'll scrub my

marriage well you've got to break it off

I can't Mac break it off or I'll tell

Katherine I wouldn't I wouldn't bet on

that if I were you I'm very fond of

Katherine

Oh No I still can't fuck a me we call

the red dogs Iran's our runaway success

hello oh hi dickon's I love these things

no no not really we're just here because

of Ren so uh what do you what do you do

do you have a job I'm finishing her PhD

oh oh and trying to write I like your

writing in the paper

oh that's just journalism that's good

yeah you see things clearly you tell the

truth

I'd love to do what you do

look take take my heart and give me a

call sometime

you know I don't know you could come

into the office we could have a coffee

maybe you could take some books away

really yes yes of course really thank

you I'm so tired I don't know what's the

matter with me already pendulum do it

you know that girls there again Ren's

girlfriend if she is his girlfriend no

you know I forgot her name again it's

mortifying

Sylvie I had to be always on my own

walking I mean to people I was wondering

maybe I could to come and see you

sometime

at work maybe but I suppose you're very

busy

no I'd like that I'm actually quite

isolated it work it's an awful thing to

say but I'm I think I've got a single

friend there you're exhausted now I

think I know what it is don't you mean I

won't tell you now it's all right

there's nothing bad oh wow and I felt

even then she knew me even better than I

knew myself

Haley doctoring transfer it's okay

so

I hadn't had that dream for years I was

on this French exchange I was 14 I was a

bit fragile my dad he just died um Sofia

lend me the girl that was staying with

she if she wasn't very nice to me she

was having this thing with a boy next

door

she was obsessed with him I used to have

to trail around after them you knew what

they were saying my French wasn't good

enough was I I don't they were laughing

at me the house next door where Mazarin

did was very horrible all bare in the

dirty and neglecting his the mother was

strange there was a baby there I don't

think she looked after it properly

I didn't like it in that house Mazarin

says oops Pookie and I don't like to

remember it now at a crap to me one

morning that I had been born for

suffering my task was to receive my

mother's displeasure even if I was

abused dismissed

despised I possessed the power of a

hatred the pictures out of focus I've

been late

book pages oh hi

have you uh have you done it yet someone

packed it in with your mystery woman

no doesn't come away with me weibull's

what you told Katherine oh you know

management bonding bollocks

anyway I get spent two whole nights with

her she's gonna let me make free with

her body and mate I have never wanted

anything more in my whole life it's my

heart is pounding you're a sick man Matt

the herehow can't believe you're going

through with it

it's beyond my control

you could oh sorry I've gotta go all

right we'll listen I'll give you a shout

when I get back all right I know rage

Thanks where what was before giving me

permission I

hello it is alright I um I said I was a

friend she said come up oh okay yes yes

absolutely

fine yes um well this is it all these

books

what a lovely job um yes I suppose it is

but it keeps you from your real work

yes no this is my real work and that's

what I get paid for I know your book

that's your your wax you mustn't his

face which is I know sometimes I feel a

bit inauthentic you know I'm sorry phony

fake yes I know what they know something

means but you're not and your book will

not be yeah that's bit of a strange

conversation he says I don't think so

mad look at the books now yes um well

you're you're welcome to any of these

may I take these to you what yes yes um

of course yes you can no I'm sorry no

sorry February 16th though there's still

time to review it so Oh sod it

sod it take it and we don't need to

review her anyway she's extraordinary

you think so I know so well you could do

me a little review if you like really

yeah I had 300 words I mean we don't pay

very much thank you

it would be a Nana bye

hey hey oh you smell good

I'm pregnant but really Oh God

oh no I mean I mean excellent brilliant

well done up Kathy Lee what can I say I

am so pleased no you're not I am

I am really I I was just taking it back

that's all why he's not as if we've been

careful lately is it remember the night

of my daughter's party was that one it

was yeah I'm sure it was I think I knew

that night did feel special come to

think of it maybe how I really am

pleased I'm gonna be parents

that's awesome isn't it yes

sylvie listen thanks for getting that

time have you done so quickly it's very

good not it it's brilliant in fact

anyway um are you busy right now well I

thought we could have a coffee talk

about what you might do next for us

great great um shall we say rubies on

Marchman Street 15 minutes excellent

yeah Richard that's tricks not bad not

bad

and I think I may have discovered a new

writer for the book pages fast clever

and cheap who what's his name earning

silver Levine she's French mm-hmm that's

good we're all the French so arrogantly

because they're better educated than we

are and they know it

speak for yourself Carter that was the

novel by the way Oh simmering simmering

maybe you need to live a little more you

may be right I guess they know me thank

you for asking me so what's your

pressing business Oh things I really

don't know anything about you do I why

would you like to know why I don't know

I just you just seemed a bit lonely are

you on your own

hmm and exactly so you're with Ren Ren

no I'm not with random your friends

someone else then sort of

I'm very mysterious am i I don't think

so

and of course it's none of my business I

don't mind you can ask me anything but

some things I like to keep private yes

of course I like it that you're

interested in me well I just have this

feeling like I like like I want to look

after you

is that what it is but you have Lilia to

look after true she's pregnant isn't she

yeah yes she she is how did you know I

feel I have a connection to Lilia Wow

clearly do you do

it is complicated isn't it yes

I'm not sure I know what's happening

Richard

I think you Joe

I have to go now uh no hang hang on wait

wait oh I'll come with you no I should

bid for good line wait wait wait um what

what happens next we'll see

he's alright not busy not busy at all

I bet to something was a baby oh thank

you oh that's lovely it's my first baby

present you knew didn't you

I wasn't sure it's exciting isn't it yes

it's not excited though he's a man

how could he understand oh I think he

understands a bit he's just frightened

you can tell I'm in love with my baby

already and he's afraid he's getting the

push and is he no he's not number one

anymore so why did you come and live in

England I always knew I'd come one day

even when I was a kid but why here I was

looking for someone did you find them

I'm not sure yet and you have you loved

someone anyone

well Richard of course and before him oh

well before him I am I chose very badly

I think yes I can take a long time to

find what I really want yes

and I'm says I think I suppose a what

for exactly yes

something I lost

a long time ago

Richard and I tell each other everything

that is the official view in fact I

think he does tell me everything but

there are things that I hold back from

him Mazarin for example I never told him

the whole story about Mazarin and that

house in France

partly because I could never explain it

to him and partly because of shame

sophie alone decided to lend me mahzarin

for the day so that i could have a go

with him as it were I could have said no

of course but I didn't I think my will

was paralyzed I didn't know anything

about sex then I was young for my age in

that way

I had to take my clothes off he kept his

clothes on he didn't want me to touch

him it was all him

touching me all over with his fingers

his tongue his eyelashes even I didn't

know what an orgasm was I was so

innocent I thought I was having a fit

the first half he made me have one after

another helpless utterly helpless from

that day on he would take turns with us

I knew it was wrong and felt terrible

shame

and yet the shame was part of the thrill

of it and that's still not all

hello silly it's Richard um can we meet

are you so cold

I like the cold you know I was so

pleased when you're from sometimes when

I've been a man for days

that's speaking to anyone it starts a

few 35-knot treaties there you know I

feel like a coast I can say this thanks

dude

you're not a ghost your real facility I

haven't been able to stop thinking about

I've thought about you two

this is going to snow isn't it yes yes I

think it is

oh look I I just

Katrin hi

hey Lily Lily okay um look look look III

there was something very stupid silly

something real stupid stupid it was just

it was hopeless

looks matter okay look um let's get

married

all right sing next week tomorrow

what's poodle this huh

I don't know I've just been thinking

that I should make an honest woman of

you what I really want is for us to stop

being all cool and modern and and commit

ourselves to each other absolutely but I

thought we already had yes yes yes but I

I want to be old-fashioned about it I

want to make solemn vows in the church

with you yes of course I will what do

you mean what about your whales we can

cancel the last minute and now you

disappeared phoned her email - I won't

matter I placed it on the bloody

pavement hard like a dog nothing you

vanished off the face of the earth well

that's it then you're free

I'm not I'll never be free now no she

always gave me just enough to keep me

desperate for more you know what women

like anyway I think one person want to

mess with our hair that's what I want to

do mmm Lily it's not like that

no no I'll catch her thank God you just

straitly come we are both are very lucky

really uh-huh

I know so what is it that makes us

ravenous at the scent of strange pussy

what is it Carter biology they say to

capitalism well I know it's crazy but I

can't help myself I've cared if I found

out she'd kill me

well if she kicked me out anyway they

strip down that line of that sort of

thing is she yeah I'm a loathing and

contempt for married men even with their

dicks and their trousers really

well maybe I can't kick him out he's

gone

maybe I will I will kick it rich pray

God can never find out

least we never actually did the deed but

is that the important thing though yeah

pretty by the important thing rich know

but isn't it the one thing too well

that's just as much of a betrayal

doesn't it one may as well come all the

way

Rini what you you tell me I should kick

it in you told me I should hunter down

pin it down in just bloody well give a

one no no come on and after all this

brought you nothing but grief and

anxiety and there'd be more of that to

come no doubt God risk your marriage for

that no I am right I'll tell you what

you should do if you take catcher in

away for a bit with the kids get some

quality time yeah you're right

I should do that very thing you got a

pencil

well Katrin one when I don't know

how do you mean Riordan otm phoned when

I was out and left a message asking me

to bring her back and then I ran back

she wasn't there I've gotta way up there

oh yeah yeah I think I have here was it

uh was it you she wanted to speak to or

me

I'm sorry I can't take your orders now

please give me a massage

hi Peter

Oh Sylvie how are you actually Richard

we're having a conversation itself could

you give us a few minutes

unless it's desperately urgent no no

Matt hurry

hello pasta sauce

nothing nothing wasn't take 20 minutes

we talked about needing a piece for the

review it probably won't happen is but I

could I don't care about him that's what

you worried that actually repels me he's

like a retina suit Retton

as I get to in trouble I don't not yet

my shirts live each other I know but I

can't all right it's you isn't it

the the fragments of story in my inbox

you don't mind I don't mind I've come to

look forward to the mature

well is it a novel or hopefully one day

I did I said hopefully is bad English so

did a house I have no idea why the

papers a style book discourages it they

don't like hope I think I think I'm

falling in love with you

I mustn't

my head's a cart oh poor little pause

this one in my pocket

should we sit down

would you like to get your other hand

Oh g-good

I cut off up

I can't you must stop I walk away not

here

my girl you found her Sylvie Levine what

a what about her be bright very bright

yeah I thought so you do know she's

writing for The Times as well just

snippets but still she's curiously

shaggable don't you think fun coming bit

mousy it wispy so what you think you're

not very perceptive are you about that

novel of yours is a pile of shite thank

you for sharing that insight with me

that's all

actually I'm taking mousy with speed out

to dinner tonight

thought I'd explore her in a little more

I want to tell you how it went

not particularly okay

it was my last week before I went back

home it was supposed to be my turn with

Nazarene but Sophie Elaine have claimed

her

I felt lonely betrayed

why is he wearing a dress

body falls out busy pourquoi Hawk came

down to go papa where's Amy - no fee

it's a girl

no he isn't Prem Oh Cara

how is the baby she's lovely

you know she's I see

just feel it yeah I feel do you mind

it's nice

yes sir lovely for you

you know I was looking for your vessel

are you

you don't now do you have an idea what

yes I do

I recognized you the minute I saw you

how could I don't know

Oh mah sorry

I was in love my head and heart were

full of her I could recall every time

I'd seen her every moment we'd spent

together I loved her to read to me in

that foggy little voice of hers I

couldn't get enough of it

I loved her gentleness that sad wistful

look she had I loved everything about

her every button on her prim little

schoolgirl ish cardigan and I stopped

remembering

I once Silvie had been Mazarin I was

capable of anything

what is it do you think you think no not

very not really this is nothing to do

with Richard anyway

what of the time lately it's like he's

not there you know maybe you're seeing

someone else

hey I don't know you know I often have

dreams about that house in front and

what would eat there

yes of course I'm often frightened until

dreams don't get them yes that too

but you don't feel guilty now well me

about me now

and frightened there's nothing to be

frightened about what's going to happen

my god

what would you like to happen

I don't want Richard three hat no reason

why he should be I don't want to take it

from him but we have

doesn't need to know anything about it

and I've been a bit preoccupied lately

with work and stuff and the book and

stuff but I I really do think it's

wonderful that we're having a baby and I

think you're wonderful too and I'm so

lucky I've got you I shouldn't take you

for granted

it's really gone look at you you are

getting lovelier by the day you want me

okay take this this smell of yukata can

I make love to old woman certainly not

obsolete lovely listen Kota upstairs

drinks in the kitchen thank you all

right I think I think she just do that

hey what do you like Kathryn told come

on come on all wrong have I you tell me

oh man man you've got to believe me I'm

up there was nothing going on with me

and Sylvie I don't know what Catrin

thought she saw one little peck for

God's sake

anyway I haven't seen her lately no no I

don't believe you

well suit yourself and come to that what

are you being such and sorry us about

you're no angel I was straight with you

you are lying devious conniving little

twat that is the issue in its purest

form I would contend oh alright I'll

ignore the gratuitous insult seeing as

it's your birthday and I'm supposed to

be a best friend

come on Mack come on we can argue about

this

look hand on heart I am not having an

affair oh no baby's head on my baby's

head

okay

I apologize let's get ratted

so rs5

Vito and I'm good are you - oh yeah

really well that last article photos

from Al I'm realisation better you

enjoyed it Yamini what can I do to catch

up with you later

yeah yeah of course Catrin Catrin hi

great party

thank you Catrin can't commit or not now

Catherine what do you want me to say

Richard

I haven't told Lelia yet I don't know

whether I will there you go

Catherine it's not what you think isn't

it not it it was nothing and many way

it's over I've come nothing be over look

better though there really is nothing

going on between me and Silvie truly

good Lilly is the best thing in my life

you don't deserve her I know but you can

try I will I am you're gonna have a

child you're gonna be a father

that's the only reason I didn't tell

Lydia you've got to sort yourself out

Richard I know I well honest

hello

I thought I might find you here what are

you doing here I came to see you my

parent catcher don't even know I'm here

yet so he have to go

if Ketchum sees us together and what

deserves those things come on it must

have been the maid's room

look I wonder what he was like the boy

she left yeah well I'd better go back

down not yet

is it just for a moment

you know we're going to have to stop all

this

no no look please don't make me come

Tommy CJ oh come on I told you you have

to stay still right back on my back

Oh God sleeping with me I just sleep

with someone else

what you want is to fuck me one day

No

you can

this is a great wedding party and are

you happy because I'm happy

I'm yes yes I'm epic love you so much

I'm gonna make a speech so please don't

we said no speeches can't I proclaim to

the world you my my my love for you and

our wedding David can I say my wife and

I just once just say naturally um okay

well then then may i kiss you okay

later hmm

okay

hell are you doing inviting her here but

I smacked you in the face

he's talking about her oh yeah BC Levine

of course

yeah audacity to invite her to your

wedding party

Sylvane Sylvane alright I didn't I

didn't maybe Lelia invited Aaron require

mind such as have you not worked it out

idiot

what

was it her all this time was it you

entire bloody moron what the hell was

that about

yeah that's just boy stuff so sorry

so sorry so sorry oh look your flowers

coming John enough already

sweetheart just leave me alone

Illya

you

all right all right I'm sorry

I was as much at fault as you well I'll

say fairer than that

and I didn't tell you the whole truth

about Sylvie

even though you swore on your baby's

head you were lying bastard I couldn't

risk Lilia finding out so what are you

telling me we're actually having it off

with her were you no no we weren't

having it off she was messing with my

head the same as she was with yours was

always next time next time Wow she is a

dangerous woman you know where I first

saw her either

eivol who is this poor little wispy

thing why she felt sorry for her

ah I'm feeling sorry for the creature

Borgia which has been acting like a

crazy mad but he loves you very much yes

I think he does thing is do I love him I

used to love him so much I could hardly

bear it

but now you love me yes yes I did

he just married pregnant and lovely

woman you remember all that long time

ago that we were together yes

I put it on flares I'm so glad I found

you again

we are two very lucky man two lovely

women Lily is a bit pissed off with me

hmm

that's alright

I'm just gonna have to sort of woo her

all over again

mmm that's okay it's actually actually

something to look forward to

yeah yeah Rach so

duty and virtue now on

yep yep

don't see my pimple eating better isn't

it when you think about it the thought

of never actually show you a bit of

strange ever again that's never ever

okay

perhaps we should take it one day at a

time yeah yeah that I'll drink okay

Oh

yeah

yum glaze and chance me she cries for

her dead papa

and she sings no one sees fuck off crazy

bitch

I

okay here's an idea let's go on

honeymoon now

tonight that's a terrible idea

why oh well okay uh Bobby what about

tomorrow

hmm get away from it all take some time

for ourselves just the two of us one

want to make it up to you make water Oh

all my crappiness you're taking you for

granted not paying your proper attention

for getting your pregnant getting into

fights at my own wedding

what do you say so we just go away for a

bit a month maybe two look at Richard to

be honest I don't feel like going

anywhere with you just now I'm sorry

Lelia tell me what I can do to make

things right I don't think there's

anything you can do but this will pass

this will pass Romney I don't know

Jesus what about him or her I don't know

it's not just your fault it's me as well

what tell me what it is come on Lelia

we're going to be parents this kid is

gonna need a mom and a dad and I want to

be a good dad I feel sick

when I think of us not being together

tell me what it is

tell me what I can do to make things

better I don't think there's anything

you can do I'm sorry

how could I tell him

I'd fall in love with a woman

everything she had I wanted to take I

wanted her life

No Ania

baby

you

you

you'd be in another world

we are in another world we always were

it still feels weird

you think I'm crazy don't you

yes hmm

do you want to go back to him

you can if you like

we don't need him do we

my back hats

come inside

to me in service CP measure well let me

do it

mazey

I thought she would come after me I

thought you would find me again after

all that I thought you might wild I

didn't I discovered too late as it

turned out that it was lelia I really

cared about and now now she's gone did

you know she'd left me oh yes

I'm so sorry Richard

you know have you seen her yes I've seen

her you know where she is

yes I know tell me I can't do that

Richard tell me you are hurting me

sorry who's she with you just don't get

it to you

I can't think you ruin my life no I

think you could do that all by yourself

when I see her next if I see her

shall I tell the heart that you are

missing her I think she already knows

that come by the way as a retail today

really how did you look like a mess I

just thought of your part Paul Richard

doesn't deserve that I see that reminds

me um I need to go back to the flat to

pick up the post I could do that for you

no no it really needs to be me I go to

see him no I'll them I'll go during the

day when he's out at work okay

Richard your foreskin we're going on we

missed you

Wow that rings misty anyway boys lunch

what do you say no I'll phone your work

listen keep your pecker up okay it'll

work out a promise right

well it won't blow speak soon bye

I've been thinking what about Richard

what about him

well he's behaved pretty badly lately

and then so have I

maybe worse

and maybe it's about time we both grew

up and well and got back together again

I mean I do still love him deep down

he's my man and so on and what about us

Sophie's my husband he's the father of

my baby I can't bear to think of him

falling apart like that I miss him I

think I need him

you don't meet

I call him Sylvie don't be silly about

this

you look so lovely and well not feeling

quite right look special breakfast Oh a

superfood you know when the baby's born

let's see oh the Africa and blueberries

I fed you and her pink fingernails and

you have bright brown eyes I hope so

I know so drink your juice

listen Sophie this has all been getting

I'm getting a bit too intense I don't

like it I love it that was unforgivable

what you did last night

throw my phone away I could it was just

a phone now I get you a new one

you said if we still have mine don't go

home de Mer yes until the baby's born

don't leave me please don't leave me I

won't be leaving you

we'll still see each other you owe me to

stay here I owe you

you don't remember do you what was their

night together in France of course I do

you remember what we did yes of course

remember what happened to the baby my

little brother

you don't remember oh no no I'm gonna

call a chick that's come on relax my dad

you know my mother never loved me not

one tiny bit was always my baby brother

yeah

do you remember him I'm not sure do but

then my mother left us to look after him

I shouldn't come to you remember only

pretending so never really do anything

like that

with me you remember now we left he

moved we went upstairs for hours and it

when we came down he was dead

caught death they call it now well what

happened you weren't there Oh breathe I

woke up and you weren't there

stop holding him - you didn't stop you

did stop by eventually I did and then we

went back to bed and you are there what

did we do you are there just as much as

me I just squeezed in a bit and then we

went back to bed it's all that happens

we're going back to her I thought you

loved me

nobody ever loved her like I loved you

that was it love that was just sex don't

say that to me how can you say that to

me listen we can still be friends

I thought you loved me it's all right I

don't know what are you doing why do you

care huh you'll be fine

Sylvie you can't I made such a mistake

with you hello I have to see you

hello gorgeous

get that life out of me all right what's

this all about

please don't talk to me like I was a

stranger I came to say goodbye

you mentioned Lelia have you seen her

again yes I've seen how much it doesn't

need me anymore listen I have to go in a

moment I wanted to give you something

what I don't know what would you like

for me it can have anything you want

that I can give you don't you know I've

always loved you

sylvie West Livia it's all sad I hoped

we could all love each other but it

didn't work out

good you're looking a bit don't you can

have me now if you want hmm it doesn't

matter anymore

I'm all yours now Sophie we could run

away too short I can't see why not

I have to stay here what about me I

belong with her Sylvie you and I were

we're never going to happen

alright you wanna sit in yeah come on

then I can show you

she's just over there you see the high

one the pullout building flat two to one

she's been with you of course she's been

with you all this time

Leslie understands we were lovers yes it

was what about her really

and now it's all about you know she

wants to go back to you you should go to

her go she has started her labor

Richard

what about me don't you care what

happens to me

our baby girl perfect healthy despite

everything I guess you're thinking he

doesn't deserve such luck

yeah I think that too

and that yes a book has won prizes on

both sides of the channel and doing very

well in the states too

maybe to succeed like that you need that

little extra edge of craziness

we'll never get away from her people

keep asking about oh yeah you you knew

her really well didn't you I always say

not that well actually

which when you think about it is not

aligned

Isak sometimes I wonder if there was

anything we could have done to assuage

that terrible need that Sylvie had one

thing I know she has spread through our

lives and like a stain should always be

there

me