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Justin: The first time I smoked weed was in my backyard here.

I got super stoned,

and then I realized I liked weed a lot.

That's when my desire to smoke weed started,

and then I started smoking weed for a while.

And then I started getting really dependent on it,

and that's when I realized that I had to stop.

I don't think it's bad.

I just think for me, it can be a dependency.

But, yeah, first time I smoked weed, I was--

I don't suggest this, but I was 13.

Yeah, 13. 12 or 13.

♪ Not sure what I was doing before you ♪

♪ I quit trying to figure it out ♪

Was there anything that really concerned me?

Um...

Yeah, I think maybe, like--

maybe the lean,

when he was drinking that.

Can I say that?

There was a time where I was sipping lean.

I was popping pills, I was doing molly,

um, you know, shrooms, everything.

And it was just an escape for me.

I was just young, you know, like everybody in the industry

and people in the world who experiment and do, you know,

just normal growing up things.

But my experience was in front of cameras,

and I had a different level of exposure and people.

And, like, I had a lot of money and a lot of things,

so then you have all these people around me

just kind of hanging on, wanting stuff from me,

knowing that, like, I was living this lifestyle

that they also wanted to live--

drinking, smoking.

I think when you take somebody very, very young

and they start to get horrible, crazy, crippling anxiety,

and it goes undiagnosed

and you don't know what it is that you're feeling,

you start to self-medicate

because it makes you feel better,

just helping you not to feel anything.

With all the success that we've had,

we've also had some really turbulent times.

( crowd cheering )

When he turned 18, it started bubbling a little bit.

19 to, what was it, 21?

That was probably that dark period.

Ryan: We didn't speak a lot

during some of the times where he was running amok.

You know, there were a few times where I saw him, uh,

and it just kind of hurt my heart seeing him the way he was, you know?

So I think I just kind of put a little distance

with that for my own sake.

It would just go without saying

that my position on the path he was going down--

but at the same time, just letting him

live his life and learn and,

I don't know, just do his thing.

I know that Justin knows a good person from a--

I don't even know if anyone was a bad person.

It was just kids mostly.

But, like, knows good from bad and knows right from wrong.

And he's making some wrong decisions,

but I never really believed that that person

that the whole world hated so much was who he is.

Woman: Last week, the singer was arrested in Miami

for allegedly drag racing, driving under the influence,

and resisting arrest-- all misdemeanors.

Bieber's attorneys pleaded not guilty on Wednesday.

Justin: I started valuing the wrong things in this business

because there was things dangling in front of me.

"If I get this, I'll be happy.

If I do this, I'll be happy."

He's gone through a lot in a very short life.

You don't always agree with someone's decisions in that moment.

They're young people making very big decisions that affect a lot of people.

And sometimes in those scenarios, you're gonna make the right decisions.

Sometimes you're gonna make wrong.

Justin: And these are things

that I think a lot of people

with secure households

learn at a young age.

I never had that security in a family.

I never had that consistency.

I never had the reliability and the accountability

and all these things that make you understand

the way the world works.

I was a good kid,

but I was still, like, a shithead.

I was bad in school.

I was always a class clown.

I never really respected authority like that.

I was, like, a nice kid,

but, like, coaches didn't really like me

because I was a bad team player.

You know, looking back, those things kind of shape

why you feel the way you feel about yourself.

Like, I would feel like I'm a bad person.

His mother was a child when she raised him.

And she was in a very conflicted

relationship with his dad.

And so there was chronic stress.

The truth is is I never had the tools.

My parents never gave me those tools

to be a good team player.

When you're able to take responsibility-- I know I did that

and I know that did hurt people because I did that,

but I can look at that and not have shame over it.

Hailey: Justin and I were never

really in each other's lives

until he chose to get sober

and was trying to come off of the drugs

almost kind of himself.

I decided to stop...

because I felt like I was, like--

like, brah, I was, like, dying.

My security and stuff were coming into the room

at night to check my pulse.

People don't know how serious it got.

It was legit crazy scary.

I was waking up in the morning and the first thing I was doing

is popping pills and smoking a blunt

and starting my day, you know?

So it just got scary.

I basically said to myself,

I'm like, "God, if you're real,

you get me through this season

of stopping these pills and stuff,

and if you do, I'll do the rest of the work."

And then I did that, and then I was good from there,

but I never did the actual work.

I got off the pills, but I never went to the root of everything.

So then I just, like, kind of circled back around, which most people do.

So I first met Justin in September, 2014.

He was a wreck.

He had recently stopped using drugs.

He was anxious, overwhelmed, not sleeping.

Yeah.

Mental health is so important to get on top of.

If you have ADHD, if you have something that, uh,

you don't want to take medicine, I strongly believe in it.

It's not the only answer, but it can really help you,

so that's my advice to you.

Anyways, this is the chamber.

So what it does is it fills up with oxygen and, um--

I really-- I've been struggling with a lot of anxiety.

And what it does is it actually--

you get more oxygen to your brain,

and so it-- it, um,

decreases your-- your stress levels.

I think they're pretty cool.

Hailey: It help bring more oxygen to your brain,

to your organs.

We have one in our house.

As you can see in the doc,

there was one in the studio.

People are gonna think he's a crazy person.

People are gonna be like,

"What is this contraption machine?"

That's some, like, rich people shit."

I don't know.

- How are you? - I'm tired. I'm good.

- Let me look at you. - Can I, um, just address the camera real quick?

- Please. Go ahead. - Okay, um, so I am here in the doctor's office.

And what we are about to do is, uh,

the nurse is gonna put in an IV, and it's called NAD.

Um, and basically what it does is

it is going to flush out some of the toxins.

Um, I've, uh-- I've abused my body in the past.

And now I'm just in recovery process

trying to make sure I'm taking care of my body

and taking care of, uh, the vessel that God's given me.

So here we go. You ready?

This is Jose. He's the best.

Such a good guy.

For people who used to have a drug problem,

when they get sober, the pleasure centers

of their brain don't work the same.

So what NAD does is it actually helps to repair

that part of the brain and helps to repair

your pleasure centers to balance them back out.

So I've been struggling with my, um,

energy for quite some time now

and I just haven't known why.

Uh, and it's just--

I realized, uh, after a series of tests

that I have what's called Lyme disease,

which is a super silent disease

that's not really, um, very well-known.

Um, doctors-- it's very hard for doctors to test for it.

Lyme disease is the fastest growing bacterial infection

in the United States right now.

And we know that it can cause a whole spectrum

of neuropsychiatric symptoms.

Mood changes, irritability,

depression, anxiety.

Justin fits the picture of these symptoms.

Epstein-Barr, which is mono, uh, I have that, too.

That in itself, mono makes you really sick

and it makes you feel really tired.

And some people can't get out of bed because of it.

He saw a psychiatrist in Los Angeles

who diagnosed him with bipolar disorder

and gave him lithium without ever looking at his brain.

When I looked at his brain, he wasn't bipolar.

Basically infections have, uh, played a big part in my acne,

um, and my, uh, overall toxins in my body,

which just creates all this stuff.

So it feels good now to know

why I feel so crappy all the time.

He just felt so sick

and there was no explanation for what was going on.

So now that we have all the answers,

and we know what it is, and we know how to, um,

alleviate it and fix it,

you know, I think he's honestly

not only healthier than he's ever been,

but on the road to maintaining

a healthier life than he's ever had, which is awesome.

How are you feeling today? Better? Much better?

I do. I feel-- Yeah, I feel a lot better. Thank you for asking.

Having got to know Justin,

I know he's got a really good heart.

And when he's balanced,

he does really amazing things for other people.

But it's hard to do amazing things for other people when your brain's not right.

Justin: Honestly, I'm committed to getting better

and committed to doing whatever I have to do

whether it's inconvenient or not,

because I know ultimately it's not only for me,

but being the best me is gonna help me the best husband,

the best father, the best friend I can possibly be.

And for all the fans that want to enjoy the music that I make and stuff,

I can't do it if I'm not healthy,

and I haven't been healthy for a long time.

Thank you. You're the best. Thank you so much.

You've helped me so much. Thank you.

- Hey. - ( laughing )

- Hello. - Hey! Hey!

- See how that revitalizes you? - Yep.

Hey, let's go!

There's so many people that have gifts

and an opportunity to make a change,

and they end up either losing it or,

you know, um, using their gifts for...

selfish reasons.

And, you know,

I see so many talented people just--

almost like it feels like

they're wasting something so precious.

It's up to us as individuals

to use the gifts that we've been given,

you know, whatever it may be, to contribute.

In the song "Changes," it actually talks about, um,

how some days we want to push further,

and some days we feel like doing nothing.

And that often comes with our mood

and our attitude towards life, you know?

And sometimes when life throws you things that you can't control,

you know, naturally your attitude is to be upset

or to be disappointed or discouraged.

But, you know, when you fight through those feelings that are--

that are just feelings at the end of the day,

and choose to put your effort into your work

or into your-- you know, into your passion or into--

you know, you find that drive.

But just being here and forcing myself to get out of bed,

you know, it might not seem that hard to some people

to just get out of bed in the morning,

but it's been really hard for me to just get out of my bed.

And I know a lot of people feel that same way,

so I just also want to say

that you're not alone in that, you know?

There's people that are going through it with you.

Life is worth living.

And if you're not gonna give up,

then the only thing to do is to push forward.

♪ Sometimes I'll go to sleep early ♪

♪ Sometimes I can't close my eyes ♪

♪ Sometimes I smile like it's all good ♪

It feels good to share, man, to be honest.

It feels good.

I haven't, no. I haven't talked about any of this.

Not like this, 'cause I-- I don't think I was ready.

I don't think I was mature enough

to even take responsibility

and, like, really mean it.

♪ I be going through changes ♪

♪ I'm going through changes ♪

♪ I've been going through ♪

♪ I'm going through ♪