All language subtitles for When.the.Camellia.Blooms.2019.S01E37E38.7.Years.and.3.Months.of.Motherhood.1080p.NF.WEB-DL.AAC.x264-deeplife

BEST OUTFIELDER
KANG JONG-RYEOL

Golden Glove winner? MVP?

I was chosen as the youngest player
to win those awards.

You see,

having the world in the palm of my hands
so easily

made life seem too easy.

I thought that life
just went by easily like that.

Is one bill a day
enough allowance for an eight-year-old?

I'm not up to date on the market price.

I thought that kids
basically raised themselves.

How am I going to introduce you?

It'll be too troublesome
if a scandal breaks out.

I figured

that people would always
stay by your side.

It's the same with marriage.

I didn't think marriage needed any work.

But getting punched in the face

woke me up.

Did you just punch my nose?

So you'd better be prepared next time.

It turns out that

I've never fought for something

with everything I have.

It must be why

your dad's being punished.

He must be happy to be home, too.

After polishing off two portions,
he conked out.

He asked me

to wake him up at 6 a.m.
so that he can go to Jun-gi's.

Did he brush his teeth?

Of course. I can help him do that,

so you can stay out longer if you like.

What's this?

Gosh, you've become
a shopaholic these days.

Dongbaek, you can always stay the night

at sauna's if you want.

Joker was caught,

so you two can enjoy
some time alone as a reward.

Mom, Yong-sik and I broke up,

so enough with the nonsense.

Wait.

Did he break up with you?

Were you dumped?

I dumped him.

Why? Who are you to do that?

You two idiots
just broke it off like that?

Yes, just like that.

You know, it was simple.

There was no fuss.

We just quietly broke it off.

Well,

I know we broke up,

but I still couldn't

let you walk home alone.

There's no need to keep being a gentleman.

You should get going.

Right, then...

I'll get going.

I'm going.

What? Why are you back?

Dongbaek,

you see...

Well...

Call me if there's any trouble.

I'm always on your side.

Why would you say that?

Why would you be on my side anyway?

Joker was caught now,

so you...

You know,

live your life like you used to.

Shouldn't you tell me to be happy?

Why would I tell you that?

Even though I don't wish you happiness,

I know for a fact

that you'll be happy

since you are

cool and beautiful.

Whatever you used to tell me

felt like

a good luck charm to me.

Because you encouraged me,

my life...

changed for real.

Thank you so much for everything.

Well,

you know...

It's...

really over, right?

I never had an amicable ending
with you and Jong-ryeol,

so I never knew that a goodbye existed.

Truth be told, it's more annoying.

He's too much of a catch.

Are you planning to stay single
your whole life then?

You know, once in the past...

Maybe I was possessed or something.

Anyway, life was so exhausting

that I looked up how painful suicide

-by carbon monoxide poisoning was.
-What on earth?

I only looked it up.

Just then, Pil-gu suddenly

called for me.

It was the first time he said "Mom".

Oddly enough,

that single word took me from hell
and placed me in heaven.

He is a deity to me.

So I'm fine giving him my all
in this life.

Dongbaek,

you'll get lonely.

And loneliness can kill you.

As if I have the time for that.

CAMELLIA

Who gets over a breakup by making kimchi?

I may be crying inside,
but my hands are busy.

Mom, can you bring the radishes now?

Stay busy to confuse your mind.

Just like people do in TV series,
I'd like to let sadness take over me.

ONGSAN WATER AUTHORITY

Fictional breakups you see on TV?

Mister. Sir!

It's only a fantasy.

Where do you live, sir?

One stir-fried pork coming up!

The heartbreak might pull me down,

but my rent makes me get back up.

My ruthless and repetitive daily routine

keeps me sane.

You know, Joker
could very well be shorter than me.

I'm sure you're aware of the type.

He's just like a man
you'd see on the street.

Just an ordinary man.

Why did you insist on
going on the delivery run?

Why did you?

I can easily ride the scooter, too.

CAMELLIA

Gosh, this is awesome!

This is so much fun!

-Wait, how should I go back?
-Dongbaek!

Dongbaek!

-Dongbaek.
-Hyang-mi?

I see you can ride it now.

Are you aware that
you passed two bus stops?

I saw you from the intersection up there,

but you kept on riding this.

So did you follow me
all the way here on foot?

You're not so much of a klutz
like you think you are.

I can't believe you followed me, though.
You should've just stayed there.

I was worried you'd fall.

Why did you have to
go on the delivery run that day?

How am I supposed to live without you?

You should've rather stolen my money
and lived happily ever after somewhere.

Why did you come back?

LOVE MEMORIAL HALL

Mom, for some reason,

I feel like Hyang-mi's still alive.

You have to let her go
so that she can rest in peace.

Here.

Don't you even dream about
resting in peace in heaven.

If you die too,
I'll be grieving back to back.

You'll be killing me.

My head hurts more than my kidney
these days because of you.

Hyang-mi's gone now

and I even broke up with Yong-sik.

So can't you please stay by my side?

Let me tell you this again.
You're not giving me your kidney.

And let me tell you this.
You're not dying.

Live and pay off your debt.

How's that paying it off?
I'll just be in your debt forever.

Mom.

7 YEARS AND 3 MONTHS OF MOTHERHOOD

Mom.

I'm only asking because I'm upset,
but can we hold hands?

Did we never do this before?

You're a weird one, you know.

How can you even be fond of me?

I don't know. I just like calling you Mom.

So stop fighting me on this
and stay by my side.

Ms. Hong?

CAMELLIA

Aren't you open today?

I only ordered stir-fried pork.

Everyone thinks that customers rule,

but this is actually my kingdom.

I serve whatever I want.

That's why you never gave Gyu-tae
any peanuts?

Not even once.

I never gave him any.

How do you even laugh like that?

That smile you have...

is quite intimidating.

Do I intimidate you?

Some think that you can never be happy.

They find comfort in
saying how bad they feel for you.

But you smile quite easily.

And it's a pretty smile, too.

No wonder it's annoying.

Of course I'm intimidated.

Anyway, you should keep laughing.

Show everyone how happy you are.

Well,

I gave up on being openly happy
a long time ago.

Why is that?

What people think of me is their problem.

I used to think of happiness
as something like a test score.

I used to look up
at the scoreboard others made

and thought about where I stand.

No matter how hard I looked up though,

I couldn't find an answer.

So why would I stick around
looking for one?

I dismissed their scoreboard
as their own game

and scored my own life
based on my standards.

Being happy by my own standards
is all I need in life, right?

It seems like your heart
has its own flowerbed.

Meanwhile, I aced the SAT,
went to a prestigious law school,

but no flowers bloomed within me.

Could I bring a glass of my own?

Dongbaek,

is there any hard liquor
that Gyu-tae keeps here?

What was the brand again?

Ja-yeong, gosh.

How am I supposed to carry her home?

I've never been able to do that.

What should I have done then?
I couldn't let Ja-yeong stay here.

You're using her name?

It only took you a night
to become friends with her

when you're still formal to me
after all this time?

This is inverse discrimination.

It's reverse discrimination.

Anyway, enough with the nonsense.

Just so you know,
I told Ja-yeong everything.

About what?

About me? You put in a good word for me?

Not that.

I told her about Hyang-mi.

I said that Hyang-mi
isn't some man-eater or a slut.

Darn.

Isn't there

an adjustment period
for couples going through a divorce?

She hasn't dumped you yet.

Come by with Ja-yeong sometime

and I will

serve the peanut dish

for free

in your name.

Dongbaek...

What now?

Are you crying? Gosh.

How about a yearly rent from now on?

Do you have the money? Want a loan, too?

Let's go.

What?

What do you mean?

Online? What about it?

Jessica...

topped Joker.

POPULAR REAL-TIME KEYWORDS

KANG JONG-RYEOL'S WIFE WAS MARRIED BEFORE?

WHY DID JESSICA LIE?

The police promised
to reveal every crime he committed,

but they're just waiting for a confession.

Yes, that's the reality of it.

What still seems to be the issue

is the psychological evaluation
the defense

-handed in.
-Are you kidding me?

Unbelievable. Not that defense again.

This feels wrong.

Why?

Are you worried that he'll get a lesser
sentence due to his mental illness?

No, that's not it.

Is Heung-sik really moving?

POLICE

Are you really moving?

Who will ask me over
to repair anything anymore?

Your father's to blame, not you.

Still,

I'm just as guilty.

I knew his legs were better

and I knew

he was poisoning the cat food.

Aren't you an avid cat-lover?

Why did you let him do that?

My dad hates loud noises.

He took it out on the cats

when they cried at night.

He just couldn't control himself.

Damn it.

You lived here your whole life,
so where will you go?

My dad even forgot to take his glasses.

Is this really the time
to worry about that?

I hate him, too.

But what can I do?

He's still my dad.

He may be a killer,

but he's still my dad.

Damn it.

Here. Stop fidgeting with it
and hand it over.

Damn it.

Why do you keep following me?

You see your doctor on
Tuesdays, Thursdays, and Saturdays.

-I'm not blind, you know.
-So what?

You're going to watch me get my dialysis?

I'm allowed to have privacy, you know.

I have the right
to keep certain things hidden.

I heard that dialysis can be tough.

A transplant is the best.

Dongbaek, whether I die or not,

I have the right to choose my own fate!
Don't be like this!

No, you don't have the right to die.

Why not?

You've been my mom
for only seven years and three months.

What?

Do you even know
how long we've lived together?

Seven years when I was young
and three months just this year.

That's it.

That's not how mothers should be.

You were a short-term mom and now

you want me to just
live off your insurance money?

Mom,

have you ever been an orphan?

You've been constantly in my life.

Every day, your presence hurt me.

I'm too annoyed and pissed off to let you
off the hook with the insurance money.

I must live with you for 20 more years.

So stay alive

and pay off your debt.

Be a mother!

Darn her.

She won't even let me die
on my own accord.

She needs to keep her appointments.

You know how dangerous it can be
to skip dialysis.

What happens if she misses a session?

Being late for a dialysis
is considered as suicide.

The nurse's aunt
was a day late for her dialysis

and she died while playing golf.

Are you gambling on your life?

Do you not care about living?

You have no idea how much this hurts.

My blood is drained from my body
and swapped with clean blood.

Scary, isn't it?

Does it hurt?

It's not that I just feel weak.
I'm in a terrible mood as well.

Do you have any idea how sad it is

to know that a machine
is keeping you alive?

I'm going to schedule
the surgery with your doctor,

so just know that.

Are you scared? Should I stay with you?

So...

how was the seven years
and three months for you?

Was it all right?

Was it?

You really are the weirdest. Unbelievable.

Be strong and hang in there.

If you can't live for yourself,
then live for me. Okay?

Go ahead. You like rice with toppings.

I'm only asking because I'm curious.

What are you calling a joke?

We can't stop joking around
unless you tell us what you mean by it.

Get me some water.

Why can't I meet the suspect
that I caught myself?

Call it a visitation if you want,
I have rights.

Actually, you don't.
Mere officers don't get that right.

Your job is to keep order on the streets.

I'm not here just for kicks.
I have something for him.

-I have a reason to see him.
-And what may that be?

Why can't his son visit him?

You're violating his rights

by depriving a man
to wear his own glasses.

We have the right to decide
who gets to visit the suspect.

Right, then I'll also
take the liberty to report this

to the National Human Rights Commission.

I'm sure

you're aware that murderers' rights
are more important than yours.

You.

None of the cameras should be on
during my visit.

It all boils down to his human rights.

Human rights, sure.
Anyway, you have ten minutes.

Heung-sik's leaving Ongsan.

Why does he have to suffer

when you're the killer?

You're the last person I want to see,

but I'm here

as a favor to Heung-sik.

I'll get going then.

Are people pointing fingers at him

for being a murderer's son?

Heung-sik...

still considers you as a dad
despite all that.

The father tried to frame his son
as an accomplice,

but he wants you to have your glasses.

He's not my accomplice.

While you sit in here in silence,

Heung-sik's personal details
were all made known,

and he's already shunned.

You should think of him

and pay for your crimes

like a father.

They were being a joke!

They all died because they joked around.

You know what?

They're all edited.

They're all edited,
and my mom will sue everyone.

We'll find a law firm...

What?

Give me your phone.

Stop looking at it for a while.

Don't turn on your computer
or log into your social media.

Don't read the comments of news articles.

You must find me hilarious.

You were dying to divorce me,

and you have your reason now.

I won't abandon someone who fell down.

Even if I divorce you, it's not now.

You're Ji-seon's mom,

and I won't let you look ridiculous.

I'll take care of everything,

so stop worrying
and don't browse the internet.

To be frank,
you two weren't living together anyway.

And it really doesn't concern you.

So I shouldn't be concerned?

Since we'll be strangers
after the divorce?

But to be frank,
don't you think we're complete strangers?

I'm not concerned about you
making money with me.

Hey.

I mean, sir.

Please remove
all the articles about my wife.

If you do that for me,

I'll renew the contract

and do everything
from loan shark ads to any events.

But...

if you don't do this for me,

I'll just retire.

POWER OFF

But you're at fault, too.

I just told some lies,

but I don't have any kids.

Yes, you're right. I'm at fault.

But let's make one thing clear.

Let's say I knew.

I knew that you were once married.

And everyone who needed to know
already knew that.

That means you didn't lie,

and you don't have to feel small.

Do you understand?

A person shows their true self
at the very last moment.

Their true warm self
that was hidden behind their aloofness.

His true cold self
he hid behind his aloofness began to show

without a doubt.

They're a joke
who can't even unclog their own john.

Some idiots look for us
even when their gas is cut off.

But they show off like they're a big deal,
so I couldn't help it.

If it looks like I can kill them,
I need to do that.

Is that why you started to kill them?

It's only tough to get started.

All of you could do it if you wanted to.

Is that why you killed

Ms. Kim Song-hwa?

That mad bitch

joked around with me
when she should be grateful.

That mad bitch
always got stuff delivered to her

with the money she got
working as an escort.

KIM SONG-HWA

But she always got them
delivered to our store.

The delivery guy took 2,500 won from me
saying it's cash on delivery.

And that bitch wouldn't take my change.

She wouldn't take it.

500 WON

And the look on her face.

-Keep the change.
-The look on her face...

I always hear this noise
whenever I lose it.

I can't live with that noise, can I?

I can't even bear
to listen to the sound of a clock.

VICTIM KIM SEON-SUK, FEMALE IN 50S

That bitch, the co-up head,
was a clean freak.

But her toilet always got clogged.

I went to unclog her john,

but she didn't stop following me around.

What? I already paid you.

It's not New York. It's Washington D.C.

It's New York.

-Then should we ask him?
-Sure.

What would he know?

Later on,

I couldn't bear to live
because of that noise.

Is that why you killed
Ms. Han Geum-ok, too?

If he doesn't like me,
why would he lend me his umbrella?

I don't get why I always
end up with jerks.

That crazy bitch.

She treated me like a jerk
only because I let her use my umbrella.

QUICK DELIVERY

That Chinese restaurant delivery guy?

I give them business,
and what does he say?

You should've made instant noodles.
Why did you order in this weather?

And you only ordered one bowl.

Joker was

a monster created
because of his sense of inferiority.

Those ignorant idiots

keep behaving like a joke.

What about Hyang-mi?

Why did you kill Ms. Choi Hyang-mi?

That's because

I thought she was the other bitch.

Dongbaek.

FISHING FESTIVAL

So why did she have to deliver it?

She was even wearing Dongbaek's bracelet.

Did you kill her at the fishing hole
and take her to the lake after that?

Yong-sik, if you throw a dead body
in a fishing hole,

it'll rise up in just two days.

You know you can get scratched
when you throw a net, right?

I got scratched throwing her in there.

I should have
pulled out her nails, darn it.

Dongbaek...

Why did you

try to kill Dongbaek?

She keeps on messing with me.

She keeps getting on my nerves.

We got him.

He's good.

We should use him as a hired hand.

Just let me see him, will you?

Hey, man. Do you know
why detectives get a leeway?

-There are reasons...
-Hey, wait.

Were you good friends
with Park Seok-yong's son?

It's called establishing rapport.

It's a way of making them confess

by earning their trust and friendship.

But you've known him as a kid.

I mean, he's your friend's father,
so you have a ground already.

On top of that, even murderers get
quite attached to their own kids.

That's what you're after.

So try to make him tell you
the stories in the order.

That's how we'll find his other crimes.

Okay, I clearly understand.

All right, let me put this together.

The keyword is his son. It's his son.

Stay on top of everything
and be on stand-by. Got it?

Mr. Park Seok-yong, the suspect.

You made a confession about all of them,
every single one of the six crimes.

And these glasses?

You might use these
to hurt yourself or others,

so we're taking these after inspection.

I used the glasses as an excuse.

I came because I wanted to see you.

I always go the full distance.

I'm going to make sure
that you're punished for everything.

Do you really think

that will happen?

Mr. Park.

My grandma was

a truly feeble-minded person.

And she fainted
when she saw a cow butchered.

I don't understand how the feeble-minded
can ever kill a person.

What people do on impulse
is kicking the tires of someone's car.

People don't kill a person on impulse.

I don't care how feeble-minded you are

or how you claim
to have murdered them on impulse.

Don't make any excuses
to cut down your sentence.

I'm taking this to the end until Joker

gladly takes his punishment.

Until the end.

The problem is finding a donor.

She can receive it from others, too.

But you're her daughter, so...

Can we just set up a date, then?

Do I really need my mom's consent?

We need your consent.

INTERNIST JEONG CHAN-GEOL

She told you about the situation, right?

She doesn't even need to get a checkup.

She's my daughter,
so it'll be a perfect match, right?

Isn't that right?

Getting a transplant is your only way,

so come with her to get a checkup.

But

what about the donor?

Does this

affect the donor?

Kidney transplant is
a rather safe procedure

for the donor and the beneficiary.

I see.

Goodness, I'm so brazen.

I'm starting to wish I could live longer.

But in your daughter's case,

she has to get a checkup first.

This is a hereditary disease.

What?

Ms. Jo, your kidney condition is called

autosomal dominant
polycystic kidney disease.

If a mother has renal failure
due to polycystic kidney,

there's a high possibility
it'll happen for her daughter.

Does this mean she'll end up like me?

Not 100 percent, though. About 50.

What? 50 percent?

Wait, no. My daughter
is completely healthy right now.

She's fine. Why would it happen?

Ms. Jo, your symptoms

also appeared at the age of 48, too.

-Yes.
-Polycystic kidney

doesn't become obvious
before the age of 35.

Then will my daughter

end up getting dialysis as I do?

That means

she'll have to go through this pain, too.

Does she know about this?
Did she hear about it?

Goodness, I am a huge disaster
in my daughter's life.

The numbers show that
you won't be able to survive

unless you get a transplant surgery.

If you look for another donor,
you'll have to wait at least five years.

-Go talk to your daughter...
-No.

I won't do it.

That just means

I'm taking advantage

of my perfectly healthy daughter's life
to live a couple more years.

I don't want to do it.

But I'll

just do it.

I'll win against
a possibility of 50 percent.

Pardon?

Thankfully, I just can't be that unlucky.

I'm not sure if I should be thankful

for using up my unluckiness to this day.

DIALYSIS CENTER

It was finally my turn to get lucky.

ONGSAN UNIVERSITY HOSPITAL

Goodness. You are

always very harsh to me.

Getting in?

I should, shouldn't I?

ONGSAN UNIVERSITY HOSPITAL

Mom.

She hasn't had the dialysis yet.

Her numbers say
she's a ticking bomb right now.

Bring her immediately. Immediately.

Yong-sik, I'm sorry I called.

But can you find my mom?

She might go home,

so go home for now, okay?

COARSE SALT

FINE SALT

I could finally see
what she had been doing for three months.

It'll be too salty.

Why are the pickled radishes so small?

Have you even seasoned the rice?

I thought she was
just concerned about her own health.

Do not eat these. Don't eat salt.
Don't eat soy sauce either.

If it tastes salty and delicious,
don't eat it.

Why did she put this up here?

-Mom.
-Pil-gu, give me a hug.

Even after I became a mom,
I can't be a match for my mom.

No matter where

and when I die,

I can't be found anonymous.

Why do I keep swelling up?

It's scary.

No matter when I die,

I hope that half-wit definitely sees this.

KBC LIFE INSURANCE

KBC LIFE INSURANCE

Then let me leave my will with you.

No, I don't want to hear it.
I don't want to!

I want you to listen to me.

My gosh, but...

I already feel uncomfortable about
listening to a living person's will.

But if you must, at least say something
that will teach me a lesson.

Stop giving me instructions
on how to receive your insurance.

Lessons won't give her any money.

Do you think I came this far

and endured all those hardships
just so I could teach her a lesson?

You should try to live.
That's what you should do.

That darn money isn't
what's important right now.

That darn money is important.

And don't look down on that money.

It's the least I can do

for having abandoned my own child.

It's a symbol of my regret.

My gosh, I don't understand
why I need to listen to this.

I figured it'd be better
to tell you than her.

You're a cop, so I'm sure

you won't get scammed or anything.

Okay, fine. I get it.

Let's just say I understand.

No, wait. I'm not done.

-There are two more.
-"Two more"?

Are you determined
to tell me everything today?

My second request is for you to make sure
she gets a medical checkup every year.

And here's my third one.

Even if Dongbaek becomes sick

and asks you to break up,

don't ever break up with her.

Pil-gu will be an obstacle,

and so will your family.

But that's nothing.

If you two stay strong,
things will eventually work out.

Even if Dongbaek asks you to break up,

you should stay strong

and wait for her until she's ready.

Ms. Jo, you see,

I'm already destined to do that.

Yong-sik.

My daughter, Dongbaek,

has lived a lonely life

for a long time.

Don't leave her alone.

Don't let her

be alone anymore.

What a life.

I shouldn't have come.

I shouldn't have come seen her.

But now that I have,
I'm starting to want to live.

I keep wanting to stay alive.
How am I supposed to die like this?

-Mom!
-Dongbaek.

Mom, Aunt Jang-mi's dog, Poppy,
just gave birth to five puppies.

-Really?
-Yes.

Poppy must be happy.

No, I bet it's the puppies that are happy.

Let's go.

I bet the puppies are happy to be born.

Are you happy to be born as well?

Yes, I'm very happy.

I was also

very happy

to have you, Dongbaek.

Where's my mom?

Dongbaek, the thing is...

I need to find my mom.

KBC LIFE INSURANCE

We found her

in a downtown motel.

I'm sorry.

I was too late.

I HAD BAD TASTE IN MEN

I had bad taste in men.

Your father got drunk
and threw a soju glass at me,

but it hit your head and left a scar.

And that's when I went crazy.

So I hit his head with a bottle of soju
and just left the house.

You kept getting bigger,

but I couldn't work
and take care of you at the same time.

Then I was offered a job as a cook
at a nightclub kitchen,

and they let us live in a small room.

Hey, that's dirty.
Don't eat leftover food.

It's what my sweetheart was eating.

Then I noticed that you started
calling people "sweetheart."

I told you it hurts!

Say that again

and I'll kill myself.

Why? What's wrong with "sweetheart"?

If you say that one more time,
we'll no longer be able to live together.

I'll sell you off to the briquette vendor.

Do you understand?

I hated that you started
calling people "sweetheart"

when you never even
got to say the word "Dad".

Then I even started working as a maid
for the ladies who worked there.

My gosh, Jeong-suk always
takes ages to pay me back.

-She's so annoying.
-That darn bitch, Jeong-suk.

You're overdue on my interest as well.

I was only 30 and was working so hard
that even my fingerprints had worn out.

But it was still so difficult
to raise a child.

Hey, Dongbaek.

You should grow up
and pay off your mom's debt.

I'll get you a nice job once you turn 20.

It'd be quicker to have you pay me back.
I really can't trust Jeong-suk.

My goodness, look at these cards.

-You bitch.
-My gosh!

How dare you say that to my daughter?

You damn bitch.

My gosh, what's wrong with her?

Gosh, that hurts.

I kept running away,
but there was nowhere to go.

And because you never got enough to eat,

you'd always tell me that you're hungry.

-Mom.
-Yes?

I also want ice cream.

My heart broke,
but there was nothing I could do

because we never had

enough money.

Stop drinking this.

Even now, just seeing it
makes me want to barf.

JOEUN BANK

Mom, I also want to try riding a taxi.

I get carsick easily,
so we can't ride a taxi.

I'm sorry.

Here. Take this.

And don't come back tomorrow, okay?

We moved from inn to inn. But one night...

I'm hungry, Mom.

Will you please

stop feeling hungry? Please stop.

It was just one night.

We had to sleep at Seoul Station.

PRACTICE WASHING YOUR HANDS

And that's when I decided

-Please stop feeling so hungry.
-to abandon you.

You need to start going to school.

If you go to school there,
the school food is going to be free,

and you'll even get clothes
and a school bag.

So when you get there,
tell them you're seven years old

and that you'd like to go to school
starting from next year.

If they ask you your name,

tell them it's Dongbaek.

Just tell them your name and age.

And if they ask you your mom's name,

tell them you don't know.

You have to do as I say, okay?

You fool.

You should've remembered
what I asked you to do.

That's how you'll be able to live here.

I'll come back with a lot of money.

So just wait here for one year, okay?

Wait for me.

You understand what I mean, right?

I was a mother who had left her daughter
at an orphanage,

and there was nothing I couldn't do.

Hey, get out of here
if you're going to stay quiet.

Just leave!

If you sit there with your mouth zipped
and looking all sad,

who would come here to drink?

At least smile or sing.

Hey, get out of here.
Just leave, you bitch!

My gosh, how did I end up
with a girl like you?

Don't forget to give me the payment
I gave you in advance, okay?

My gosh, what an annoying bitch.

I saw the pink dress

Fluttering in the spring wind

Today, like any other day

I chew on my coat string

And head to the Village Shrine
Where the swallows visit

When the flowers bloom, I smile with them

The moment I left you at the orphanage

and picked up that chopstick at that bar,

-And I cry with them
-I was no longer the same Jo Jeong-suk.

As we make a promise to each other

The spring day slowly leaves

That bitch ran away
as soon as she gathered all our money.

All I ever wanted to do was get you back.

What's with her?

My gosh, she really is a tough one.

-My gosh.
-There's nothing to take.

Little girls' clothes
aren't even worth that much money.

Why would you take them?

-My goodness.
-She's unbelievable.

But poverty was like a monkfish.

The more I wanted to get rid of it,
the more it clung onto me.

I could've just ended it
by killing myself,

but I couldn't stand not seeing you,
so I went to get you back.

Dongbaek went to L.A.

"L.A."?

Why would she go to L.A.?

Her foster father is a professor
in theology.

And he emigrated to the States with her.

He and his wife are both good people
who care a lot about people's welfare.

Dongbaek got really lucky--

How can you call that lucky?

Why...

Why...

Why would you send my daughter away
without asking for my permission?

-I'm sorry, ma'am.
-Why...

But,

how could we ask you for permission?
We don't even know you.

You're the one

who left her here.

This isn't a day-care center, you know.

You should think of your daughter
rather than yourself.

How did she look when she left?

Was she happy that she was
getting adopted by a rich family?

She asked me something.

-I have a question.
-Yes?

Can people ride airplanes

even though they can't ride taxis?

My gosh, your food is the best.

What motivated you
to do something like that?

-Let's watch something else.
-No, just leave it.

I saw a little girl
at an orphanage one day,

and I couldn't stop thinking of her.

And is she really...

Yes, she's become an attorney
and a human rights activist

who works and travels
all around the world.

It's like a miracle to us.

Back then,

I thought I had made the right choice
of having abandoned you.

I must've startled you.

I bought this for 420,000 won
at a department store.

I noticed that you like hats.

Here.

I'm not here to ask you for anything.

I just feel really grateful.

And I thought I should do something
to show you my gratitude.

If I could have things my way,

I'd even give you ten years of my life.

But there's not much I can give you.

Would you like to meet her?

My daughter wishes to see you.

Dongbaek.

Dongbaek.

How could you forget your own name?

Ma'am.

Are you going to look for your daughter?

I feel too shameless to do that
at this point.

Are you just going to hope
that she's doing well somewhere?

I really don't know what to say.

Even if she was lucky and got adopted,

every day would've
felt like a test for her.

Other people are loved by their parents
like it's a natural thing,

but girls like me
need to work hard for it.

The fact that I was abandoned
by my own mother

always made me lose my confidence
and feel insecure.

I tried so hard to be loved
every single day.

Because if I didn't,

I knew I'd get sent back
just like your daughter.

I couldn't help but wonder
why an adorable girl like you

got sent back to the orphanage.

Please don't ask me that.

I'm trying to find my daughter,

so I can't help but wonder why.

Why did you send back
the first girl you adopted?

It just happened.

She had a dark side to her,
so I asked her some questions.

And it turns out
that she was raised at a nightclub.

I think her mom used to work there.

It just made me feel uneasy.

They say girls end up
just like their mothers.

Our daughter, Mi-yeon,
is a very smart girl.

So I'm guessing her parents were
also pretty smart.

But she was different.

The apple really doesn't fall
far from the tree.

My goodness!

That damn bitch.

Why would Dongbaek end up like me?

Why?

Why would that happen?

But when I finally found you,

-There you go.
-you were...

We're here!

-You were really running a bar
-Let's go.

as a single mother.

It really seemed as though
you had ended up just like me.

And that really broke my heart.

Aren't you going to talk to me?

Come on.

Seriously?

-But once I took a close look...
-Do you like Pil-gu that much?

You'll know once you have a kid.

You were smiling.

-Sing louder.
-I saw you smiling.

You weren't like me.

I wanted to cook all the meals
I never got to cook for you.

And I wanted to console and comfort you.

But you were the one who embraced me.

You gave me

so much warmth.

The reason I'm telling you all this

isn't because I want to be forgiven.

It's because I want you to know something.

ONGSAN UNIVERSITY HOSPITAL

Dongbaek.

Don't you want to see her?

Dongbaek.

There was not a single person
who didn't love you.

Forget the seven-year-old
who once got abandoned.

Don't think you lack confidence,
and don't feel intimidated.

Live your life to the fullest.

It wasn't just seven years
and three months.

Throughout the past 34 years...

LIVE YOUR LIFE TO THE FULLEST

I loved you every single day.

I LOVED YOU EVERY SINGLE DAY

Mom.

Mom.

Mom.

Mom.

She needs to stop telling me
she'll give me her kidney

so I can stay for longer.

Then how about you?

How was your seven years
and three months with me?

Me?

How was it?

It felt like I was

getting my installment savings back.

"Installment savings"?

I've lived

a very difficult life.

It was so tiring.

Life felt like

a punishment to me.

But after I got to spend
three more months with you,

I realized that I had stayed alive

just so I could finally see you again.

It made up for all the difficult days
I had to go through.

It wasn't good enough for me.

But I guess it was for you.

I guess it was only good enough for me.

Subtitle translation by Hye-lim Park