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Would you like to inspect the original subtitles? These are the user uploaded subtitles that are being translated: 1 00:04:32,629 --> 00:04:34,000 I have to ask. 2 00:04:34,339 --> 00:04:37,589 I promise it won't happen again the rest of the night. 3 00:04:38,170 --> 00:04:39,540 What? 4 00:04:41,610 --> 00:04:42,810 What's your name? 5 00:04:45,250 --> 00:04:46,620 It's Clara. 6 00:04:48,149 --> 00:04:49,519 Clara. 7 00:04:54,889 --> 00:04:56,060 Mine's Nikolai. 8 00:04:56,360 --> 00:04:57,730 I know. 9 00:05:48,180 --> 00:05:49,759 I�m happy you're here. 10 00:05:50,110 --> 00:05:51,480 Yeah? 11 00:07:19,800 --> 00:07:21,230 I want you to fuck me. 12 00:07:22,899 --> 00:07:25,089 - What? - Fuck me. 13 00:07:29,040 --> 00:07:31,410 - Do you have condoms? - Yeah. 14 00:07:35,779 --> 00:07:36,980 Hang on... 15 00:09:07,070 --> 00:09:09,500 Wait... 16 00:09:12,250 --> 00:09:14,120 I have to go to the bathroom. 17 00:09:15,250 --> 00:09:17,740 That's all right. I�ll show you where it is. 18 00:09:33,629 --> 00:09:34,860 Hurry. 19 00:13:26,100 --> 00:13:27,299 Did you come? 20 00:13:29,100 --> 00:13:31,710 No. But it's all right. 21 00:13:33,539 --> 00:13:37,019 No, it's not all right. 22 00:15:43,269 --> 00:15:47,629 NIGHT #1 23 00:20:56,849 --> 00:20:58,049 Clara? 24 00:20:59,619 --> 00:21:01,759 - What are you doing? - Going home. 25 00:21:02,759 --> 00:21:03,869 OK... 26 00:21:04,160 --> 00:21:05,529 I couldn�t sleep. 27 00:21:06,960 --> 00:21:08,329 Come back up, OK? 28 00:21:23,880 --> 00:21:25,079 I don't understand. 29 00:21:27,250 --> 00:21:28,619 Please, come in. 30 00:21:40,890 --> 00:21:42,789 I would've woken up at noon... 31 00:21:45,000 --> 00:21:46,369 the sun burning bright. 32 00:21:48,839 --> 00:21:50,359 I�d have opened my eyes 33 00:21:51,910 --> 00:21:53,609 and remembered the night before. 34 00:21:55,279 --> 00:21:57,829 I would've looked for you, but never found you. 35 00:21:59,680 --> 00:22:01,380 You'd disappear, just like that? 36 00:22:12,160 --> 00:22:13,529 You're a stranger. 37 00:22:15,160 --> 00:22:17,029 Leave, if that's what you want. 38 00:22:22,269 --> 00:22:23,819 Your hair is wet. 39 00:22:26,740 --> 00:22:28,930 You�ll catch a cold but I don't care. 40 00:22:30,910 --> 00:22:32,109 I don't know you. 41 00:22:35,220 --> 00:22:36,589 You're nothing to me. 42 00:22:39,319 --> 00:22:40,220 Go ahead. 43 00:22:41,019 --> 00:22:43,329 Go freeze to death if that's what you want. 44 00:22:44,319 --> 00:22:45,839 That's not what I want. 45 00:22:53,670 --> 00:22:54,869 Obviously. 46 00:23:06,180 --> 00:23:09,019 Modern life makes me sick. Modern love makes me sick. 47 00:23:10,079 --> 00:23:12,799 Modern women make me sick. It's like they're men. 48 00:23:23,859 --> 00:23:25,589 Did you forget anything here... 49 00:23:26,470 --> 00:23:27,839 on purpose? 50 00:23:29,240 --> 00:23:30,670 Earrings? 51 00:23:31,269 --> 00:23:34,519 Just as proof, as incriminating evidence. 52 00:23:36,779 --> 00:23:39,000 I would�ve woken up, alone and confused. 53 00:23:41,720 --> 00:23:44,910 I would�ve seen two shiny things, new and unknown to me. 54 00:23:46,990 --> 00:23:49,569 I would�ve said to myself� ''All right. 55 00:23:51,019 --> 00:23:52,920 ''That night really did happen ? 56 00:23:57,099 --> 00:24:00,349 It was nothing, nothing at all, of course. 57 00:24:02,099 --> 00:24:03,619 We both know it. 58 00:24:07,740 --> 00:24:08,880 But it happened. 59 00:24:26,289 --> 00:24:28,950 This kind of situation makes me sick to my stomach. 60 00:24:31,160 --> 00:24:32,529 It burns... 61 00:24:34,470 --> 00:24:37,369 as though acid were spreading through my body. 62 00:24:42,240 --> 00:24:43,670 We're better off alone. 63 00:24:50,079 --> 00:24:51,279 I�ve got to piss. 64 00:24:52,049 --> 00:24:54,769 It�ll give you a chance to take off, if that's what you want. 65 00:25:02,529 --> 00:25:04,079 There should be a law. 66 00:25:05,869 --> 00:25:07,680 Two people who have seen each other naked 67 00:25:08,069 --> 00:25:10,240 owe each other a proper goodbye at the very least. 68 00:25:11,069 --> 00:25:12,269 Seriously. 69 00:25:17,079 --> 00:25:18,279 I�ve seen you naked. 70 00:25:20,180 --> 00:25:21,960 I bit your neck and your breasts. 71 00:25:24,220 --> 00:25:26,119 I put my tongue in your mouth. 72 00:25:28,960 --> 00:25:30,160 I tasted your pussy. 73 00:25:34,460 --> 00:25:37,589 I know exactly what you taste like. 74 00:25:40,599 --> 00:25:42,559 I think I saw you come. 75 00:25:47,210 --> 00:25:49,700 I know that you shave your pussy, 76 00:25:50,380 --> 00:25:52,750 and that you get little red dots from it. 77 00:25:55,549 --> 00:25:57,690 I know you have beauty marks on your back. 78 00:25:58,119 --> 00:26:00,960 I don't remember how many or where they are. 79 00:26:02,859 --> 00:26:05,730 I�m sure some asshole has told, you it looks like a constellation 80 00:26:06,259 --> 00:26:07,839 or something like that. 81 00:26:10,029 --> 00:26:12,079 I know that you don't get very wet. 82 00:26:13,170 --> 00:26:16,390 I don't know if it was my fault or if it's always that way. 83 00:26:17,569 --> 00:26:19,680 I know how you give a blowjob. 84 00:26:21,509 --> 00:26:24,789 You're good at it. Well, not bad. 85 00:26:31,220 --> 00:26:35,059 I imagine you'd eventually want to put a finger in my ass. 86 00:26:39,930 --> 00:26:43,089 I think you'd want to have anal sex, at some point. 87 00:26:45,000 --> 00:26:46,430 I know that you fuck well. 88 00:26:48,970 --> 00:26:50,400 I like the way you breathe. 89 00:26:52,569 --> 00:26:54,319 You breathe with your whole body. 90 00:26:58,579 --> 00:27:00,599 I like the way you move. 91 00:27:03,980 --> 00:27:05,180 There you have it. 92 00:27:08,250 --> 00:27:10,240 That's what I know about you, Clara. 93 00:27:12,259 --> 00:27:14,099 Clara who? I don't know. 94 00:27:15,460 --> 00:27:17,190 I don't know your last name. 95 00:27:18,130 --> 00:27:19,180 It's Clara... 96 00:27:19,470 --> 00:27:21,279 I�ve seen you in every position. 97 00:27:21,670 --> 00:27:25,829 I�ve seen all that but I�ve never seen you! eat... 98 00:27:28,210 --> 00:27:30,289 just eating something simple... 99 00:27:32,150 --> 00:27:33,349 like a piece of bread. 100 00:27:35,319 --> 00:27:36,960 I�ve never seen you cry... 101 00:27:39,490 --> 00:27:41,630 never seen you ride a bike. 102 00:27:45,390 --> 00:27:46,759 I�ve never seen you swim. 103 00:27:47,089 --> 00:27:49,700 I don't know if you're good or if you suck. 104 00:27:52,569 --> 00:27:55,000 I�ve never seen you in a public space... 105 00:27:57,640 --> 00:27:59,309 during office hours... 106 00:28:01,680 --> 00:28:03,109 on a workday. 107 00:28:04,440 --> 00:28:06,869 ''I�ve never seen you on a workday ? 108 00:28:07,579 --> 00:28:09,130 What an odd thing to say! 109 00:28:12,289 --> 00:28:14,430 You'll be young forever in my mind. 110 00:28:15,990 --> 00:28:17,720 We'll never age. 111 00:28:21,390 --> 00:28:24,700 We'll never speak softly in a funeral home. 112 00:28:29,269 --> 00:28:31,759 I�ll never discover your biggest faults. 113 00:28:34,710 --> 00:28:37,900 You'll never hate me for my lies and slip-ups. 114 00:28:40,009 --> 00:28:42,180 We'll never get a phone call with bad news 115 00:28:42,619 --> 00:28:44,930 that wakes us up in the middle of the night. 116 00:28:45,549 --> 00:28:47,799 I�ll never pat your back as you throw up, crying, 117 00:28:48,250 --> 00:28:50,000 when you've had too much to drink. 118 00:28:55,359 --> 00:28:56,970 See? It's very sad. 119 00:28:59,400 --> 00:29:01,980 I�ve started getting to know how you smell, how you feel, 120 00:29:02,470 --> 00:29:04,170 and vice versa. 121 00:29:06,369 --> 00:29:08,829 The secrets we share are purely physical. 122 00:29:56,190 --> 00:29:59,289 To be honest, I would've wanted you to beg me to stay... 123 00:30:01,630 --> 00:30:05,529 to ask me to stay in bed here, next to you, forever. 124 00:30:09,339 --> 00:30:11,039 I would've wanted you to say... 125 00:30:12,640 --> 00:30:16,240 ''Clara, I don't know you, but I know enough. 126 00:30:17,410 --> 00:30:18,609 ''You're magical. 127 00:30:20,210 --> 00:30:23,109 ''I don't want you to ever disappear from my life. 128 00:30:24,619 --> 00:30:26,019 ''I�ve been... 129 00:30:27,890 --> 00:30:29,910 ''waiting for you for 29 years. 130 00:30:32,460 --> 00:30:34,859 ''You're finally here. Please stay. 131 00:30:35,529 --> 00:30:36,900 I�m 31. 132 00:30:39,400 --> 00:30:41,329 ''I�ve been waiting for you for 31 years. 133 00:30:41,730 --> 00:30:45,630 ''You're here tonight, and I refuse to let you leave. 134 00:30:50,710 --> 00:30:53,079 That's what I would've wanted you to say, 135 00:30:53,549 --> 00:30:55,279 but you fell asleep. 136 00:30:58,619 --> 00:31:02,049 I would've wanted you to admit that this had never happened to you, 137 00:31:03,819 --> 00:31:07,160 that you felt connected to me by some strange force, 138 00:31:07,759 --> 00:31:09,430 by something electrifying... 139 00:31:11,500 --> 00:31:12,960 that letting this pass you by 140 00:31:13,299 --> 00:31:15,380 would be like letting your life pass you by. 141 00:31:17,869 --> 00:31:20,059 Clara or death. 142 00:31:23,910 --> 00:31:25,869 I would've wanted you to see things in me 143 00:31:26,279 --> 00:31:28,009 that I can't see myself. 144 00:31:28,750 --> 00:31:30,589 I would've wanted an incredible story 145 00:31:31,180 --> 00:31:33,140 to begin for us tonight. 146 00:31:36,720 --> 00:31:40,000 But you fell asleep, and I didn't. 147 00:31:43,259 --> 00:31:45,450 Insomnia's a problem for me. 148 00:31:45,900 --> 00:31:47,650 If I slept eight hours a night, 149 00:31:48,230 --> 00:31:51,160 I�d have a lot less time to do stupid things, but... 150 00:31:53,609 --> 00:31:56,539 instead, I had time to think. 151 00:31:57,609 --> 00:31:59,539 I realized that you would've woken up 152 00:31:59,950 --> 00:32:02,230 next to a stranger with no clothes on. 153 00:32:04,480 --> 00:32:06,529 You would've searched your mind for my name. 154 00:32:07,450 --> 00:32:10,000 I�d see it written all over your face. 155 00:32:11,619 --> 00:32:13,170 The fuzzy morning after. 156 00:32:15,359 --> 00:32:16,500 You'd ask yourself.. 157 00:32:16,799 --> 00:32:20,809 ''Should I fuck her again or not? 158 00:32:23,599 --> 00:32:26,210 You might have asked me for my phone number. 159 00:32:26,769 --> 00:32:28,259 You'd say.. ''I�ll call you, Clara. 160 00:32:28,609 --> 00:32:30,509 ''We can get together again if you want. 161 00:32:31,480 --> 00:32:34,519 And then we would've slept together again because... 162 00:32:36,019 --> 00:32:37,420 why not? 163 00:32:38,450 --> 00:32:41,170 Why not sleep together in the light of day? 164 00:32:44,619 --> 00:32:47,579 I would've walked back home at dawn 165 00:32:48,660 --> 00:32:50,910 and passed by joggers, saying to myself.. 166 00:32:51,359 --> 00:32:52,730 ''I�m not like you. 167 00:32:53,269 --> 00:32:54,789 ''I fucked a stranger last night 168 00:32:55,339 --> 00:32:57,359 ''in his crappy little apartment. 169 00:32:58,670 --> 00:33:01,099 ''I�m obviously not living life the way you are. 170 00:33:01,569 --> 00:33:03,089 ''I just go with it. 171 00:33:04,480 --> 00:33:06,289 ''I live with intensity. 172 00:33:38,710 --> 00:33:42,170 ''For years, I�ve lived flattened with fury. 173 00:33:43,450 --> 00:33:45,700 ''I�ve accustomed my friends to an intolerable voltage, 174 00:33:46,349 --> 00:33:49,250 ''to a waste of sparks and short circuits. 175 00:33:50,619 --> 00:33:54,720 ''To spit fire, to cheat death, to be resurrected a hundred times 176 00:33:56,029 --> 00:33:58,519 ''to run a mile in less than four minutes 177 00:33:59,029 --> 00:34:01,279 ''to introduce a flamethrower into the dialectic 178 00:34:01,730 --> 00:34:03,980 ''and suicidal behaviour into politics 179 00:34:04,599 --> 00:34:06,680 ''that's how I�ve established my style. 180 00:34:09,409 --> 00:34:11,960 You bring novels to after-parties? 181 00:34:13,480 --> 00:34:16,380 He's the greatest Quebecois writer of all time. 182 00:34:16,920 --> 00:34:19,260 - Who? - Hubert Aquin. 183 00:34:21,349 --> 00:34:22,550 Never heard of him. 184 00:34:24,019 --> 00:34:26,239 All my secrets are in this book. 185 00:34:30,829 --> 00:34:34,869 ''Entwined, dazzled in a tormented country, 186 00:34:35,769 --> 00:34:37,699 ''we've tumbled united inside a single! kiss, 187 00:34:38,099 --> 00:34:40,940 ''from one end to the other of our snowy bed. 188 00:34:44,380 --> 00:34:46,219 - ''Tormented country? - Yes. 189 00:34:48,150 --> 00:34:49,550 It's beautiful. 190 00:34:52,949 --> 00:34:55,730 If you like, I�ll read you all my favourite passages. 191 00:34:57,519 --> 00:35:00,510 I�ll even read you the whole book. 192 00:35:01,059 --> 00:35:05,190 It would take a few hours what's left of the night. 193 00:35:08,670 --> 00:35:11,920 You'd lie down and listen to the sound of my voice. 194 00:35:12,809 --> 00:35:14,449 You'd close your eyes. 195 00:35:17,440 --> 00:35:19,519 Then you'd read me your favourite book. 196 00:35:21,650 --> 00:35:24,170 You'd show me pictures from your childhood, 197 00:35:24,650 --> 00:35:25,909 from a foreign country. 198 00:35:28,820 --> 00:35:31,630 Afterward we'd go for breakfast. 199 00:35:34,489 --> 00:35:35,690 If you like, 200 00:35:36,500 --> 00:35:39,570 we can get married in the Ukraine and start a new life. 201 00:35:40,130 --> 00:35:43,469 Ask me to leave everything behind and we'll leave together. 202 00:35:45,099 --> 00:35:46,469 You're a little crazy. 203 00:35:48,710 --> 00:35:50,670 It's not uninteresting, mind you. 204 00:35:52,579 --> 00:35:54,420 But I�m kind of tired now. 205 00:36:58,179 --> 00:36:59,550 No... 206 00:37:01,179 --> 00:37:03,760 Stop. 207 00:37:15,190 --> 00:37:17,679 - Why aren't you getting hard? - I don't know. 208 00:37:18,659 --> 00:37:21,179 I�m sorry. It's too fast, stop. 209 00:37:22,940 --> 00:37:24,309 I�m sorry. 210 00:37:29,610 --> 00:37:30,809 I�ll go. 211 00:37:33,150 --> 00:37:34,639 If that's what you want. 212 00:40:14,369 --> 00:40:15,739 It's Clara. 213 00:40:17,380 --> 00:40:18,750 Are you sleeping? 214 00:40:24,380 --> 00:40:25,750 No. 215 00:40:30,019 --> 00:40:31,219 Come in. 216 00:40:59,320 --> 00:41:01,869 I don't have any women's clothing, but this should do. 217 00:41:02,349 --> 00:41:03,719 Thanks. 218 00:41:07,929 --> 00:41:09,130 Do you want to be alone? 219 00:41:56,210 --> 00:41:57,579 Now I�m hard. 220 00:41:58,579 --> 00:41:59,949 Because of you. 221 00:42:59,909 --> 00:43:01,929 I don't have a clothes dryer. 222 00:43:09,250 --> 00:43:10,860 Do you have one at your place? 223 00:43:12,050 --> 00:43:13,250 Yeah! 224 00:43:20,190 --> 00:43:21,389 I have nothing. 225 00:43:23,199 --> 00:43:24,400 I�m 31. 226 00:43:25,329 --> 00:43:27,230 I studied fine arts but I didn't graduate. 227 00:43:27,630 --> 00:43:30,880 Well, I graduated, but I don't have a degree. 228 00:43:31,469 --> 00:43:32,840 Why not? 229 00:43:33,340 --> 00:43:35,590 I still owe the library $100. 230 00:43:36,039 --> 00:43:37,239 I lost a book... 231 00:43:38,480 --> 00:43:41,610 a glossy edition with shiny paper. 232 00:43:43,650 --> 00:43:45,019 Why don't you pay them back? 233 00:43:46,219 --> 00:43:47,679 I don't have $100! 234 00:43:48,190 --> 00:43:50,849 I don't really need a fine-arts degree anyway. 235 00:43:56,230 --> 00:43:57,460 Which book was it? 236 00:43:59,699 --> 00:44:01,889 The Art of Francis Bacon. 237 00:44:03,500 --> 00:44:04,869 Pathetic. 238 00:44:05,500 --> 00:44:08,929 Painting pieces of meat when your name is Bacon, pathetic. 239 00:44:09,980 --> 00:44:12,559 I don't know I feel like it's in bad! taste. 240 00:44:13,380 --> 00:44:14,750 I lost the book. 241 00:44:17,119 --> 00:44:19,199 I was angry. I think I threw it away. 242 00:44:20,519 --> 00:44:21,889 Who were you angry at? 243 00:44:23,619 --> 00:44:24,989 I don't know. 244 00:44:27,989 --> 00:44:29,829 I�ve got this frustration inside me. 245 00:44:30,460 --> 00:44:31,920 You know what I mean? 246 00:44:33,099 --> 00:44:34,300 Not exactly. 247 00:44:35,630 --> 00:44:37,969 If you were a guy, I�d try and get you to fight me. 248 00:44:38,739 --> 00:44:40,380 I�d want us to be brutal. 249 00:44:40,739 --> 00:44:43,780 I�d want us to throw stuff at the walls 250 00:44:44,480 --> 00:44:46,119 and yell out insane things. 251 00:44:47,579 --> 00:44:49,159 But I�ll stay calm. 252 00:44:51,380 --> 00:44:53,019 Have you ever hit a girl? 253 00:44:54,019 --> 00:44:55,070 No. 254 00:44:57,219 --> 00:44:59,389 But I�ve fucked girls carelessly. 255 00:45:00,030 --> 00:45:01,230 Violently. 256 00:45:02,260 --> 00:45:05,769 I probably hurt them, but not physically. 257 00:45:07,269 --> 00:45:08,500 Tell me about it. 258 00:45:09,070 --> 00:45:10,119 No. 259 00:45:11,440 --> 00:45:12,929 I�ll imagine the worst. 260 00:45:13,670 --> 00:45:15,039 You'd be right. 261 00:45:18,010 --> 00:45:19,940 But I don't fuck that often anymore. 262 00:45:23,449 --> 00:45:25,940 How long had it been before tonight? 263 00:45:29,050 --> 00:45:30,250 Six months. 264 00:45:31,260 --> 00:45:32,550 Sex is overrated. 265 00:45:36,730 --> 00:45:38,340 Then why tonight? 266 00:45:41,070 --> 00:45:43,090 Some of my friends dragged me out. 267 00:45:43,500 --> 00:45:44,869 Literally. 268 00:45:45,199 --> 00:45:47,920 They came up here. I was reading. 269 00:45:48,739 --> 00:45:50,789 They threw some clean clothes at me 270 00:45:51,210 --> 00:45:53,349 and used some pretty convincing arguments.. 271 00:45:53,780 --> 00:45:57,239 ''our youth, ''overindulging, ''living for the moment, 272 00:45:58,280 --> 00:46:00,739 ''the call of the night and ''the fire within. 273 00:46:01,219 --> 00:46:02,449 I bought into it. 274 00:46:05,690 --> 00:46:08,269 I spotted you pretty quickly on the dance floor. 275 00:46:08,760 --> 00:46:10,130 Why's that? 276 00:46:12,460 --> 00:46:14,829 You looked free and pure. 277 00:46:18,239 --> 00:46:20,199 - And you were dancing badly. - Thanks. 278 00:46:20,610 --> 00:46:24,829 Well, not necessarily badly, just off-beat. 279 00:46:25,539 --> 00:46:27,469 Yeah, I think that's what it was. 280 00:46:29,619 --> 00:46:31,489 When the crowd's feet were on the ground, 281 00:46:32,079 --> 00:46:34,190 your entire body was up in the air. 282 00:46:35,489 --> 00:46:37,829 You were doing the exact opposite of everyone else, 283 00:46:38,289 --> 00:46:41,010 as though you weren't listening to the same music they were. 284 00:46:43,530 --> 00:46:46,250 I�ll notice a pretty girl dancing badly, 285 00:46:46,769 --> 00:46:49,260 or an ugly girl dancing really well. 286 00:46:50,300 --> 00:46:52,440 I don't give a shit if a pretty girl dances well. 287 00:46:52,869 --> 00:46:54,269 So unoriginal. 288 00:46:56,280 --> 00:46:57,480 You... 289 00:46:59,750 --> 00:47:02,710 You're a rather pretty girl who dances rather badly. 290 00:47:03,449 --> 00:47:04,679 That works for me. 291 00:47:07,250 --> 00:47:09,860 All that beauty must make your life easier. 292 00:47:11,420 --> 00:47:13,230 Your sunny face... 293 00:47:16,599 --> 00:47:18,500 I was hesitant about approaching you. 294 00:47:20,369 --> 00:47:22,480 I always end up breaking pretty things. 295 00:47:30,840 --> 00:47:34,320 I feel like I�m a destructive person, in general. 296 00:47:37,920 --> 00:47:40,409 It's as though I�m always sinking 297 00:47:41,449 --> 00:47:43,530 and bringing good people down with me. 298 00:47:44,920 --> 00:47:46,380 It really bothers me. 299 00:47:47,789 --> 00:47:51,250 ''Cuba is sinking in flames in the middle of lac ljman 300 00:47:51,860 --> 00:47:54,469 ''while I descend to the bottom of things. 301 00:47:56,599 --> 00:47:59,880 That's the first sentence of the book I didn't read you. 302 00:48:01,610 --> 00:48:03,980 I�m interested in getting to the bottom of things. 303 00:48:04,610 --> 00:48:06,980 I don't see the connection at all. 304 00:48:08,380 --> 00:48:10,869 Sinking and getting to the bottom of things 305 00:48:11,349 --> 00:48:13,130 have nothing to do with each other. 306 00:48:14,619 --> 00:48:16,050 I need a cigarette. 307 00:48:34,409 --> 00:48:36,960 I have trouble paying the rent every month. 308 00:48:37,539 --> 00:48:41,050 I should find a cheaper place, but I�m not sure there is one. 309 00:48:43,280 --> 00:48:47,179 Or get roommates, but I can't bring myself to do that... 310 00:48:49,489 --> 00:48:51,239 to live with other people. 311 00:48:52,960 --> 00:48:54,659 To live with anyone else. 312 00:48:57,800 --> 00:48:59,170 I never have money. 313 00:49:00,630 --> 00:49:02,179 I owe all my friends. 314 00:49:02,630 --> 00:49:04,880 Money, smokes, 315 00:49:05,599 --> 00:49:07,909 drugs, alcohol, 316 00:49:08,809 --> 00:49:10,179 restaurants... 317 00:49:10,780 --> 00:49:13,269 I owe all that to all my friends. 318 00:49:14,650 --> 00:49:16,699 I wonder why they still like me. 319 00:49:33,269 --> 00:49:34,469 I read a lot. 320 00:49:35,969 --> 00:49:37,369 The major works. 321 00:49:39,570 --> 00:49:42,820 But a lot of the time I don't finish the books I 'start. 322 00:49:43,909 --> 00:49:47,099 Right when I�m about to finish something, I lose interest. 323 00:49:49,719 --> 00:49:51,679 I get drunk in the afternoon pretty often. 324 00:49:52,519 --> 00:49:55,829 One time, I threw up next to the toilet. 325 00:49:57,420 --> 00:49:59,409 I didn't clean it up for a few days. 326 00:50:04,460 --> 00:50:07,300 I don't eat. I almost never eat. 327 00:50:09,530 --> 00:50:11,309 There's no way I�m in good health. 328 00:50:12,869 --> 00:50:14,389 I�ll probably die young. 329 00:50:16,610 --> 00:50:17,809 Are you hungry? 330 00:50:18,880 --> 00:50:20,110 No. 331 00:50:24,019 --> 00:50:25,570 I don't have a phone anymore. 332 00:50:27,420 --> 00:50:31,340 Last winter, they cut off the electricity for two weeks, 333 00:50:32,019 --> 00:50:33,389 and I was cold. 334 00:50:35,690 --> 00:50:38,409 It's been at least five years since I�ve gone to the dentist. 335 00:50:38,929 --> 00:50:40,570 I have a broken tooth. 336 00:50:43,639 --> 00:50:46,389 It's like I�m not able to take care of myself. 337 00:50:46,909 --> 00:50:48,550 Just the bare minimum. 338 00:50:50,440 --> 00:50:52,219 It gets annoying after a while. 339 00:50:57,519 --> 00:50:59,300 The worst part is 340 00:50:59,789 --> 00:51:02,159 l have no one to blame but myself. 341 00:51:03,690 --> 00:51:05,739 I can't fault society, 342 00:51:06,829 --> 00:51:08,469 or my adoptive country. 343 00:51:09,800 --> 00:51:11,380 Things are pretty good here. 344 00:51:14,530 --> 00:51:16,400 I�m unable to work. 345 00:51:18,400 --> 00:51:20,710 Not in the same place for very long, anyway. 346 00:51:22,809 --> 00:51:24,269 I get fired very quickly. 347 00:51:25,409 --> 00:51:26,719 I show up late. 348 00:51:28,110 --> 00:51:29,539 I show up drunk. 349 00:51:30,420 --> 00:51:31,650 I show up dirty. 350 00:51:31,980 --> 00:51:34,289 I stink, literally. 351 00:51:34,750 --> 00:51:37,650 I suspect that I�ve been fired because I stank. 352 00:51:39,489 --> 00:51:41,480 You smell fine tonight. 353 00:51:47,699 --> 00:51:50,659 I worked at an old-folks home for a few months. 354 00:51:53,539 --> 00:51:56,320 People usually go there to die. 355 00:51:57,579 --> 00:51:58,889 I liked it well enough. 356 00:52:01,449 --> 00:52:02,739 I was a sous-chef. 357 00:52:05,449 --> 00:52:06,760 I made the soup. 358 00:52:08,150 --> 00:52:11,429 Old people eat a lot of soup, every day. 359 00:52:13,860 --> 00:52:16,409 They liked me because my soup was thick. 360 00:52:16,900 --> 00:52:18,510 Why didn't you stay there? 361 00:52:20,469 --> 00:52:22,199 They have a thing there called 362 00:52:22,570 --> 00:52:24,679 an unjustified-absence policy. 363 00:52:25,099 --> 00:52:27,320 After my third unjustified absence, 364 00:52:27,769 --> 00:52:30,260 the manager called me into her office. 365 00:52:31,179 --> 00:52:35,050 She asked me what was wrong with an understanding look. 366 00:52:36,010 --> 00:52:38,230 Then asked how we could understand each other 367 00:52:38,679 --> 00:52:40,320 and come to an agreement. 368 00:52:41,820 --> 00:52:43,019 I got angry. 369 00:52:46,019 --> 00:52:48,449 That's me.. absent and unjustified. 370 00:52:52,559 --> 00:52:55,460 There's always that morning when the alarm goes off 371 00:52:56,000 --> 00:52:59,630 and I wake up and say.. ''No, not today. 372 00:53:00,869 --> 00:53:04,059 ''I�m too intelligent for this. I�m not going. I deserve better. 373 00:53:06,010 --> 00:53:08,760 I tell myself that this can't be my life. 374 00:53:11,019 --> 00:53:13,829 I feel inspired, 375 00:53:15,019 --> 00:53:17,739 alive, full of energy. 376 00:53:19,059 --> 00:53:23,190 I tell myself that I won't go to work because I have big plans. 377 00:53:24,960 --> 00:53:27,829 I tell myself that I�ll spend the day drawing, 378 00:53:28,929 --> 00:53:31,650 writing, making music. 379 00:53:34,070 --> 00:53:36,559 Creating masterpieces that will change the world. 380 00:53:38,579 --> 00:53:41,599 On those days, I call in sick. 381 00:53:43,079 --> 00:53:44,860 When they ask what I�ve got... 382 00:53:46,690 --> 00:53:48,500 I can't say what everyone else would say.. 383 00:53:48,889 --> 00:53:50,500 a cold, indigestion. 384 00:53:50,860 --> 00:53:52,090 No, instead, I say... 385 00:53:53,230 --> 00:53:56,360 ''I feel a dire need to live and it's now or never. 386 00:53:58,199 --> 00:53:59,570 That perplexes them. 387 00:54:01,969 --> 00:54:03,579 Then I hang up the phone. 388 00:54:04,239 --> 00:54:07,670 And most of the time I close my eyes, 389 00:54:09,110 --> 00:54:12,539 just for a few seconds, and I fall back asleep. 390 00:54:15,550 --> 00:54:16,980 I end up waking up at noon 391 00:54:17,320 --> 00:54:19,599 and don't follow through with my plans. 392 00:54:22,590 --> 00:54:24,780 I read bits of articles on Wikipedia... 393 00:54:26,690 --> 00:54:30,409 about nanorobots artificial intelligence! , 394 00:54:31,059 --> 00:54:32,489 all kinds of topics. 395 00:54:34,670 --> 00:54:38,449 I whack off to porn of debatable quality. 396 00:54:44,780 --> 00:54:46,829 It's like everything loses its meaning, 397 00:54:47,880 --> 00:54:50,780 mysteriously, at some point in the morning. 398 00:54:53,789 --> 00:54:56,400 I don't really remember the important message 399 00:54:56,889 --> 00:55:00,260 that I�d first set out to convey through my art that day. 400 00:55:24,679 --> 00:55:26,429 Do you read the paper? 401 00:55:27,690 --> 00:55:28,889 Sometimes. 402 00:55:29,190 --> 00:55:31,059 I don't anymore. I stopped. 403 00:55:31,659 --> 00:55:35,500 It made me feel weak powerless and paralyzed. 404 00:55:37,329 --> 00:55:39,579 I prefer not knowing what's going on. 405 00:55:45,099 --> 00:55:46,650 But it's awful 406 00:55:47,010 --> 00:55:49,820 because my indifference isn't aimed at anything in particular. 407 00:55:50,940 --> 00:55:52,429 What do you mean? 408 00:55:54,809 --> 00:55:58,150 I know nothing, for instance, about Canadian politics. 409 00:56:00,250 --> 00:56:02,360 But you know a bit about 410 00:56:02,789 --> 00:56:04,780 Quebec's relationship with the rest of Canada? 411 00:56:05,190 --> 00:56:07,530 Yeah, vaguely, but I don't have an opinion. 412 00:56:08,429 --> 00:56:10,599 I don't know anything about Ukrainian politics. 413 00:56:11,030 --> 00:56:13,809 The world doesn't interest me in general. 414 00:56:15,699 --> 00:56:19,239 I don't speak Ukrainian. I barely speak Russian. 415 00:56:21,369 --> 00:56:23,829 What language do you speak with your parents? 416 00:56:24,440 --> 00:56:25,809 Russian. 417 00:56:26,980 --> 00:56:28,619 Say something in Russian. 418 00:56:28,980 --> 00:56:29,940 Why? 419 00:56:30,219 --> 00:56:33,500 To hear what it sounds like. 420 00:56:34,090 --> 00:56:35,460 It sounds nice, doesn't it? 421 00:56:36,150 --> 00:56:37,519 Whatever. 422 00:56:39,059 --> 00:56:42,429 It's a bad line from a bad love song. 423 00:56:43,760 --> 00:56:44,719 There's no love song. 424 00:56:45,000 --> 00:56:47,139 I�m just asking you to say a sentence. 425 00:56:49,170 --> 00:56:51,389 Say that the television is on the ground. 426 00:57:06,750 --> 00:57:08,619 I�m not really Ukrainian. 427 00:57:09,019 --> 00:57:11,010 I don't know what it's like over there. 428 00:57:11,420 --> 00:57:13,559 That country's not a part of me. 429 00:57:14,090 --> 00:57:16,519 - That's sad. - It really doesn't matter. 430 00:57:19,429 --> 00:57:21,449 Sometimes I get an uncontrollable craving 431 00:57:21,869 --> 00:57:23,210 for varenyky. 432 00:57:23,739 --> 00:57:25,960 - What's that? - They're like big ravioli. 433 00:57:26,809 --> 00:57:29,000 Meat and potatoes. It's heavy. 434 00:57:29,909 --> 00:57:31,809 You can get sweet ones, too. 435 00:57:34,480 --> 00:57:37,760 There's a tradition when you eat varenyky. 436 00:57:38,349 --> 00:57:40,809 You always have to leave one on your plate. 437 00:57:41,289 --> 00:57:43,219 - Why? - For the vultures. 438 00:57:43,820 --> 00:57:47,250 But when I can afford to buy myself varenyky, I eat them all. 439 00:57:47,860 --> 00:57:49,289 Too bad for the vultures! 440 00:57:51,059 --> 00:57:53,079 Vultures are fascinating animals. 441 00:57:56,300 --> 00:57:57,789 They're scavengers. 442 00:57:58,469 --> 00:57:59,869 They eat carcasses 443 00:58:00,210 --> 00:58:02,869 after the predators have taken all the good stuff. 444 00:58:03,940 --> 00:58:05,690 They can't hunt their prey. 445 00:58:06,309 --> 00:58:08,530 But they're not lazy. It's physiological. 446 00:58:09,210 --> 00:58:10,579 What's wrong with them? 447 00:58:10,949 --> 00:58:14,050 Their beaks are too soft or too long, I can't remember. 448 00:58:14,820 --> 00:58:17,659 But they aren't able 449 00:58:18,190 --> 00:58:20,090 to tear through mammals' skin. 450 00:58:20,489 --> 00:58:23,119 They can't fight other birds of prey, either. 451 00:58:23,829 --> 00:58:25,000 Humiliating. 452 00:58:25,300 --> 00:58:26,670 Maybe. 453 00:58:27,800 --> 00:58:30,639 But they still have a life expectancy of 35 years. 454 00:58:31,170 --> 00:58:32,900 That's a long time for a bird. 455 00:58:35,340 --> 00:58:37,769 In fact, you look a little like a vulture. 456 00:58:41,010 --> 00:58:42,210 Whatever. 457 00:58:44,519 --> 00:58:47,800 The sunken cheeks, your dark eyes with dark circles under them... 458 00:58:49,590 --> 00:58:51,050 You've got it all. 459 00:58:53,590 --> 00:58:55,929 I got a girl pregnant once. 460 00:58:57,559 --> 00:58:59,289 It was a girl I met one night, 461 00:59:00,099 --> 00:59:01,590 just like you. 462 00:59:03,869 --> 00:59:05,739 I acted like a real bastard. 463 00:59:06,469 --> 00:59:09,570 She came here to tell me she was pregnant. 464 00:59:10,139 --> 00:59:11,869 Fortunately, she didn't want it. 465 00:59:12,239 --> 00:59:15,110 I promised I�d help, but I didn't let her in the door again. 466 00:59:16,110 --> 00:59:17,309 I was harsh. 467 00:59:19,019 --> 00:59:20,599 She cried nonstop. 468 00:59:21,420 --> 00:59:22,849 She was fragile. 469 00:59:28,590 --> 00:59:30,199 She came here one day 470 00:59:31,500 --> 00:59:34,570 and asked me to look her in the eye... 471 00:59:36,199 --> 00:59:37,630 and say.. 472 00:59:37,969 --> 00:59:40,659 ''It's a sad situation but we're doing the right thing. 473 00:59:41,170 --> 00:59:43,039 ''One day, a man will give you a child 474 00:59:43,440 --> 00:59:45,190 ''because you're a good woman. 475 00:59:45,579 --> 00:59:47,190 ''You'll be a good mother. 476 00:59:48,050 --> 00:59:51,559 ''But not us not now, that's all. 477 00:59:53,119 --> 00:59:54,639 Did you tell her that? 478 00:59:55,650 --> 00:59:56,909 No. 479 00:59:59,519 --> 01:00:03,650 I said I�d go to the clinic with her, but then I disappeared. 480 01:00:04,360 --> 01:00:06,000 I didn't see her again after that. 481 01:00:06,360 --> 01:00:08,110 You should've gone with her. 482 01:00:09,630 --> 01:00:11,210 The same kind of thing... 483 01:00:12,500 --> 01:00:14,250 happened to me once. 484 01:00:15,909 --> 01:00:17,780 You really are easy, aren't you? 485 01:00:19,179 --> 01:00:20,289 What? 486 01:00:21,409 --> 01:00:22,780 What? 487 01:00:24,619 --> 01:00:27,199 You don't like getting to the bottom of things? 488 01:00:28,590 --> 01:00:31,250 You don't know what it means to get to the bottom of things. 489 01:00:31,960 --> 01:00:34,239 You quote passages you don't even understand. 490 01:00:38,230 --> 01:00:39,750 Your tormented country! 491 01:00:40,530 --> 01:00:42,139 What tormented country? 492 01:00:43,639 --> 01:00:46,130 What are you doing for your tormented country? 493 01:00:46,599 --> 01:00:49,909 You dance at after-parties to music with no lyrics 494 01:00:50,510 --> 01:00:53,550 written specifically for robots who speak no language. 495 01:00:54,949 --> 01:00:58,230 Androgynous guys who all look a bit faggy, 496 01:00:59,420 --> 01:01:02,170 girls with boyish figure, s and heads like dolls 497 01:01:02,690 --> 01:01:04,969 looking strung out, and proud of it. 498 01:01:05,420 --> 01:01:06,820 Proud to be on drugs, 499 01:01:07,159 --> 01:01:09,739 lost, aimless... 500 01:01:12,260 --> 01:01:14,099 even proud to be an aborter, in your case. 501 01:01:27,380 --> 01:01:29,280 We have nothing in common anyway! 502 01:01:29,679 --> 01:01:31,050 Nothing! 503 01:01:46,500 --> 01:01:48,340 Clara, please don't go. 504 01:01:49,530 --> 01:01:50,900 Fuck you! 505 01:02:01,349 --> 01:02:02,550 Fuck you! 506 01:02:05,519 --> 01:02:06,889 Fucking coward! 507 01:02:07,219 --> 01:02:09,059 I fucked a loser! 508 01:02:09,719 --> 01:02:11,500 You'll never do anything with your life! 509 01:02:13,119 --> 01:02:15,699 You could die and it wouldn't change a thing! 510 01:02:16,190 --> 01:02:18,710 You're useless! 511 01:02:29,269 --> 01:02:32,780 You think you're the only one who gets that this shit sucks? 512 01:02:33,579 --> 01:02:35,309 I hate it as much as you do! 513 01:02:37,050 --> 01:02:38,570 You poor pathetic idiot! 514 01:02:39,119 --> 01:02:40,789 You fucking pathetic idiot! 515 01:02:45,090 --> 01:02:46,289 let go of me! 516 01:05:21,750 --> 01:05:24,360 Why do you know so much about vultures? 517 01:05:24,849 --> 01:05:27,920 One of my students did his term project on vultures. 518 01:05:28,750 --> 01:05:30,500 It was a lot of work. 519 01:05:31,559 --> 01:05:32,760 You're a teacher? 520 01:05:33,260 --> 01:05:34,429 Yes. 521 01:05:34,989 --> 01:05:36,630 Third grade. 522 01:05:37,960 --> 01:05:39,539 How old are they in the third grade? 523 01:05:39,900 --> 01:05:41,269 8, 9. 524 01:05:45,400 --> 01:05:47,949 You aren't the typical third-grade teacher. 525 01:05:48,639 --> 01:05:50,010 I know. 526 01:05:51,940 --> 01:05:54,159 I don't think I�m very good, either. 527 01:05:56,309 --> 01:06:00,000 If we weren't unionized I�d have been fired a long time ago. 528 01:06:02,989 --> 01:06:06,090 I�ve gotten warnings, just like you did at the old-folks home. 529 01:06:06,659 --> 01:06:08,030 How come? 530 01:06:09,829 --> 01:06:12,550 Well, I�m absent a lot. 531 01:06:13,730 --> 01:06:16,190 I don't respect the dress code. 532 01:06:17,969 --> 01:06:20,460 I sometimes tell the kids the truth. 533 01:06:21,309 --> 01:06:23,039 The administration doesn't like that. 534 01:06:23,409 --> 01:06:24,610 The truth? 535 01:06:26,280 --> 01:06:27,510 Nothing too serious. 536 01:06:28,710 --> 01:06:30,170 I censor myself a lot. 537 01:06:31,619 --> 01:06:33,730 That's better, I would think. 538 01:06:37,019 --> 01:06:38,389 Yeah. 539 01:06:40,960 --> 01:06:43,619 I have a job... and a dryer. 540 01:06:47,369 --> 01:06:49,650 But none of that means a thing. 541 01:06:53,900 --> 01:06:57,239 Weekends start on Thursday and end Sunday night. 542 01:06:57,840 --> 01:06:59,210 I never miss one. 543 01:07:00,909 --> 01:07:02,280 I get drunk. 544 01:07:05,780 --> 01:07:09,150 I drink vodka shots at the bar till I have to go and puke. 545 01:07:11,590 --> 01:07:13,489 I do a lot of drugs, too. 546 01:07:14,059 --> 01:07:17,369 Coke, MDMA, ecstasy, speed. 547 01:07:17,960 --> 01:07:20,179 Just stuff that gives you energy, 548 01:07:21,329 --> 01:07:23,079 or makes you want to fuck. 549 01:07:25,570 --> 01:07:26,860 I combine them all. 550 01:07:32,010 --> 01:07:33,380 It's always the same. 551 01:07:34,880 --> 01:07:37,219 When the sun starts to come up, I panic. 552 01:07:37,679 --> 01:07:39,260 Real life catches up to me. 553 01:07:44,760 --> 01:07:46,460 I feel completely empty. 554 01:07:47,059 --> 01:07:48,809 I�m nothing at all... 555 01:07:50,460 --> 01:07:51,829 nothing but a body. 556 01:07:53,429 --> 01:07:57,500 A body that dances, has sex, reflects the light. 557 01:08:00,500 --> 01:08:02,519 I�m nothing but sweat, 558 01:08:03,139 --> 01:08:06,099 mine and other people's mixed on my skin, 559 01:08:07,510 --> 01:08:09,349 nothing but hair flying all over the place 560 01:08:09,750 --> 01:08:13,119 every time I jump in the air on the dance floor. 561 01:08:16,520 --> 01:08:17,720 You know? 562 01:08:20,760 --> 01:08:24,510 I have a body, but there's nothing living inside it. 563 01:08:25,930 --> 01:08:29,470 I�m a surface an empty shell. 564 01:08:32,439 --> 01:08:34,140 I don't know if you understand. 565 01:08:41,109 --> 01:08:42,890 I get scared when the sun comes up. 566 01:08:43,909 --> 01:08:46,460 I can't let the euphoria end. 567 01:08:51,760 --> 01:08:54,720 I want to cry, but there are no tears in me. 568 01:08:56,489 --> 01:08:58,479 I don't want anything at all. 569 01:08:58,899 --> 01:09:01,560 I can't eat anything, not even fresh fruit. 570 01:09:02,899 --> 01:09:05,329 There's nowhere in the world I want to be. 571 01:09:07,439 --> 01:09:10,250 And there's no music for moments like that. 572 01:09:15,510 --> 01:09:17,289 Being alone is unbearable, 573 01:09:17,979 --> 01:09:20,560 but there's no one I want to be with either. 574 01:09:21,590 --> 01:09:24,140 I�m far from everything, far from everyone. 575 01:09:30,560 --> 01:09:33,399 Sometimes, I take another pill at around 6:OO in the morning. 576 01:09:33,930 --> 01:09:35,659 It wakes me up for eight more hours, 577 01:09:36,029 --> 01:09:37,810 and I go find another after-party. 578 01:09:39,939 --> 01:09:43,069 At this point, normal people have been home for ages. 579 01:09:44,609 --> 01:09:45,810 They're right. 580 01:09:48,680 --> 01:09:51,720 The ones out right now haven't found what they're looking for, 581 01:09:52,479 --> 01:09:55,500 or don't even know what they're looking for anymore. 582 01:10:01,590 --> 01:10:02,989 I have a lot of sex, too. 583 01:10:04,800 --> 01:10:07,460 I fuck strangers I�ve just met. 584 01:10:07,970 --> 01:10:09,340 I go home with them. 585 01:10:11,840 --> 01:10:14,680 I know a lot of apartments like yours, 586 01:10:15,210 --> 01:10:16,819 all over the city. 587 01:10:20,710 --> 01:10:24,079 I�ve lost track of how many guys I�ve slept with. 588 01:10:25,779 --> 01:10:28,329 I have sex in alleys, in parking lots. 589 01:10:29,819 --> 01:10:31,600 I make up a name sometimes. 590 01:10:32,989 --> 01:10:34,770 I let men fuck me in the ass. 591 01:10:35,890 --> 01:10:37,880 A lot of the time I ask them to. 592 01:10:41,270 --> 01:10:42,789 I like feeling pain. 593 01:10:43,600 --> 01:10:46,409 I like seeing in their eyes that they think I�m a slut. 594 01:10:50,739 --> 01:10:51,699 I want to be desired. 595 01:10:51,979 --> 01:10:53,649 I like entering a room 596 01:10:54,010 --> 01:10:56,409 and feeling as though all the men desire me 597 01:10:56,880 --> 01:10:59,340 want me are driven crazy' by me. 598 01:11:05,289 --> 01:11:07,920 Where were you at this time last night? 599 01:11:08,930 --> 01:11:11,420 Here, asleep. 600 01:11:13,329 --> 01:11:17,250 I was in an apartment in Saint-Henri with two other guys and a girl. 601 01:11:23,170 --> 01:11:25,359 The four of us slept together. 602 01:11:27,180 --> 01:11:28,729 Who were they? 603 01:11:30,310 --> 01:11:33,439 A couple I met at a bar 604 01:11:34,350 --> 01:11:35,930 and one of their friends. 605 01:11:37,789 --> 01:11:38,989 Nice people. 606 01:11:41,760 --> 01:11:44,250 The girl�s clit was pierced. 607 01:11:45,100 --> 01:11:47,350 I didn't really know what to do with that. 608 01:11:50,729 --> 01:11:53,569 I dive headlong into situations like that. 609 01:11:54,340 --> 01:11:57,819 Sometimes, I snap out of it and have a moment of clarity. 610 01:12:00,739 --> 01:12:02,930 Last night, I started thinking. 611 01:12:05,619 --> 01:12:07,810 I was holding both of the guys' penises, 612 01:12:08,250 --> 01:12:09,739 one in each hand. 613 01:12:12,760 --> 01:12:13,989 More than enough... 614 01:12:16,659 --> 01:12:18,409 I wasn't really there. 615 01:12:18,930 --> 01:12:21,710 But I wasn't really somewhere else, either. 616 01:12:22,399 --> 01:12:26,710 I was watching myself from above, from a distance. 617 01:12:29,369 --> 01:12:30,829 I was nowhere. 618 01:12:39,680 --> 01:12:41,699 I feel ashamed Monday morning at school. 619 01:12:42,750 --> 01:12:45,329 I can't look my students in the eye. 620 01:12:46,060 --> 01:12:48,079 Then, as the week goes on, 621 01:12:48,859 --> 01:12:51,350 the images from the weekend disappear. 622 01:12:51,960 --> 01:12:53,739 I become a good person again. 623 01:12:56,130 --> 01:12:57,880 It really is a double life. 624 01:12:59,899 --> 01:13:03,439 If my colleagues knew, they'd find it pretty disturbing. 625 01:13:04,340 --> 01:13:06,680 Most of them are girls my age. 626 01:13:07,750 --> 01:13:09,590 They have no idea. 627 01:13:12,850 --> 01:13:14,140 Nor does my mother. 628 01:13:16,850 --> 01:13:18,050 Well... 629 01:13:20,689 --> 01:13:22,710 do we have AIDS or something now? 630 01:13:23,130 --> 01:13:24,500 No. 631 01:13:26,159 --> 01:13:27,800 I just got tested. 632 01:13:30,270 --> 01:13:33,729 I got chlamydia six months ago, but it's been gone for a long time. 633 01:13:34,340 --> 01:13:35,710 Don't worry. 634 01:13:39,310 --> 01:13:41,770 Do you know who gave it to you? 635 01:13:42,909 --> 01:13:44,109 No. 636 01:13:45,779 --> 01:13:46,979 It's disgusting, huh? 637 01:13:48,789 --> 01:13:49,869 A little. 638 01:13:58,800 --> 01:14:00,229 I don't really care about anything. 639 01:14:05,840 --> 01:14:09,500 There's always this fog between me and the world. 640 01:14:10,939 --> 01:14:12,989 It's like nothing is real. 641 01:14:15,810 --> 01:14:17,039 It's a game. 642 01:14:18,279 --> 01:14:20,180 I�m giving a performance... 643 01:14:24,050 --> 01:14:25,659 a long show. 644 01:14:30,060 --> 01:14:31,319 When I started sleeping around, 645 01:14:31,829 --> 01:14:34,670 I�d have a new heartache every weekend, 646 01:14:35,770 --> 01:14:37,260 a new disappointment. 647 01:14:39,939 --> 01:14:42,109 I thought I�d been close... 648 01:14:44,069 --> 01:14:45,880 to someone or something, 649 01:14:46,279 --> 01:14:48,710 but it always disappeared. 650 01:14:51,779 --> 01:14:53,149 It hardened me. 651 01:14:54,050 --> 01:14:55,720 After a while, I understood. 652 01:14:56,420 --> 01:15:00,399 I sleep with all these men, but I don't belong to any of them. 653 01:15:02,029 --> 01:15:04,840 I take advantage of them as much as they take advantage of me. 654 01:15:07,529 --> 01:15:09,020 I�m a feminist. 655 01:15:15,539 --> 01:15:17,529 Fucking is so simple. 656 01:15:18,539 --> 01:15:20,649 Women have vaginas, and men have penises. 657 01:15:21,079 --> 01:15:22,779 We're designed for it. 658 01:15:24,050 --> 01:15:26,979 That's all that unites us you and I, 659 01:15:27,989 --> 01:15:30,539 you, and a thousand versions of you, 660 01:15:32,020 --> 01:15:34,649 me, and a thousand versions of me. 661 01:15:36,890 --> 01:15:38,729 Random couples 662 01:15:39,460 --> 01:15:43,819 based on the simple geometry of internal and external organs. 663 01:15:51,170 --> 01:15:52,949 I�m restless all the time 664 01:15:54,239 --> 01:15:55,699 in every way. 665 01:15:57,479 --> 01:16:00,409 I never feel like things are in order. 666 01:16:05,159 --> 01:16:07,680 The older I get, the less insight I have 667 01:16:08,159 --> 01:16:10,909 into what life is. 668 01:16:16,069 --> 01:16:17,270 I don't believe in anything. 669 01:16:17,569 --> 01:16:20,090 I honestly think I have no ideals. 670 01:16:21,069 --> 01:16:22,939 It's asking for too much of a commitment. 671 01:16:24,210 --> 01:16:27,460 If I believe in something, I�m scared I�ll change my mind, 672 01:16:28,050 --> 01:16:29,390 or stop believing. 673 01:16:31,449 --> 01:16:34,439 It's as though I�m unable to exist in the world 674 01:16:35,350 --> 01:16:37,220 to really be a part of it. 675 01:16:47,399 --> 01:16:50,970 It's true that I quote passages from a book that I don't understand. 676 01:16:52,970 --> 01:16:56,430 I have no idea what needs to be done for my tormented country. 677 01:16:58,479 --> 01:17:02,109 I don't think I even give a shit, when it comes down to it. 678 01:17:11,689 --> 01:17:15,609 The people I really like seem to be part of another world. 679 01:17:18,399 --> 01:17:22,760 They don't really have a goal as individuals or as a group. 680 01:17:27,399 --> 01:17:30,180 They go through life like little white ghosts. 681 01:17:32,479 --> 01:17:34,880 They leave no footprints on the ground. 682 01:17:36,409 --> 01:17:38,250 And they don't make a sound. 683 01:17:40,180 --> 01:17:41,880 They're almost invisible. 684 01:17:46,560 --> 01:17:49,930 If they disappeared altogether, it would hardly change a thing. 685 01:17:51,229 --> 01:17:53,720 Odds are that no one would even notice. 686 01:17:57,029 --> 01:17:58,229 I�m like them. 687 01:18:03,609 --> 01:18:07,039 I just want things to unfold more or less the way they're supposed to. 688 01:18:07,710 --> 01:18:10,640 Birth, life, death. 689 01:18:13,319 --> 01:18:17,449 Maybe find one or two truths to hold on to... 690 01:18:19,720 --> 01:18:22,090 some force that would keep me with the living 691 01:18:22,560 --> 01:18:24,170 in the here and now... 692 01:18:27,560 --> 01:18:30,930 that would stop me from flying towards darkness all the time. 693 01:18:36,270 --> 01:18:39,640 It feels like I�m struggling with everything, all the time. 694 01:18:41,449 --> 01:18:43,199 I�m a little tired. 695 01:18:46,149 --> 01:18:49,020 I don't mind fighting. I have the stamina. 696 01:18:49,550 --> 01:18:50,920 It's just that... 697 01:18:53,060 --> 01:18:55,140 It's such an absurd fight. 698 01:18:56,729 --> 01:18:58,220 It's a constant battle. 699 01:18:59,600 --> 01:19:01,970 It's like treading water. 700 01:19:04,229 --> 01:19:06,449 I�m doing what it takes to stay on the surface, 701 01:19:07,100 --> 01:19:09,060 just enough not to drown. 702 01:19:10,640 --> 01:19:12,510 But fuck, I�m swallowing water... 703 01:19:14,640 --> 01:19:16,189 big mouthfuls. 704 01:19:18,680 --> 01:19:20,109 It's brutal. 705 01:19:22,250 --> 01:19:23,590 It hurts. 706 01:19:35,270 --> 01:19:37,380 I think I�m really tired. 707 01:20:00,560 --> 01:20:02,930 I don't think I�d mind dying. 708 01:20:06,630 --> 01:20:08,409 That's what I really think. 709 01:20:31,659 --> 01:20:33,909 Someone needs to take care of me. 710 01:20:40,529 --> 01:20:42,079 Someone strong, 711 01:20:43,430 --> 01:20:45,829 who can pick me up and carry me... 712 01:20:47,869 --> 01:20:49,359 to I don't know where. 713 01:20:51,470 --> 01:20:53,310 Wherever I have to be. 714 01:21:24,270 --> 01:21:25,670 Then put me down.... 715 01:21:29,880 --> 01:21:31,489 And everything would get calm. 716 01:21:35,720 --> 01:21:37,909 And I could breathe easy... 717 01:21:40,520 --> 01:21:43,130 just breathe easy. 718 01:24:57,050 --> 01:24:59,739 ''This lovely language with its beautiful words 719 01:25:00,460 --> 01:25:03,069 ''Carries its history through its many accents 720 01:25:03,560 --> 01:25:05,640 ''Filled with music and the scent of herbs 721 01:25:06,060 --> 01:25:08,640 ''Goat cheese and fresh bread 722 01:25:09,130 --> 01:25:11,350 ''From Mont Saint-Michel to the Contrescarpe 723 01:25:11,800 --> 01:25:13,819 ''listening to the people of this country speak 724 01:25:14,439 --> 01:25:16,460 ''Is like a warm breeze caught in a harp 725 01:25:16,869 --> 01:25:18,680 ''Where the harmonies resonate forever 726 01:25:19,079 --> 01:25:21,449 ''The colours of this lovely language are of Provence 727 01:25:21,909 --> 01:25:23,810 ''And its heartbeat is found within the words 728 01:25:24,409 --> 01:25:26,399 ''Conversation gives birth to a celebration 729 01:25:26,819 --> 01:25:29,430 ''And words flow as freely as a river 730 01:25:30,149 --> 01:25:32,779 ''You'll get up early Put on your cap 731 01:25:33,760 --> 01:25:34,689 ''Go outside 732 01:25:34,960 --> 01:25:38,060 ''The tree down the street The fellow at the docks 733 01:25:38,630 --> 01:25:41,119 ''The young girls' eyes The sleeping baby 734 01:25:41,600 --> 01:25:43,180 ''All of this is yours 735 01:25:43,930 --> 01:25:46,590 ''You'll touch the ground, the sea and its islands 736 01:25:47,100 --> 01:25:49,760 ''You'll see the ships, the gate and the friar 737 01:25:50,470 --> 01:25:53,130 ''The castle and the bridge and all the oat fields 738 01:25:53,640 --> 01:25:54,899 ''This is your country 739 01:25:55,510 --> 01:25:59,430 ''You'll return home heavy after taking in all that is yours 740 01:26:00,119 --> 01:26:03,020 ''And you'll tell your mother that the horizon is clear 741 01:26:03,550 --> 01:26:05,859 ''And she will be proud to be from that country 742 01:26:06,619 --> 01:26:08,640 ''For a moment I forgot my name 743 01:26:09,060 --> 01:26:11,489 ''It allowed me to write this song 744 01:26:15,130 --> 01:26:16,500 Well done, Mika. 745 01:26:18,899 --> 01:26:20,510 Juliette, it's your turn. 746 01:26:34,520 --> 01:26:35,810 ''Tomorrow I will vanquish 747 01:26:36,119 --> 01:26:37,489 ''The night and the rain 748 01:26:38,819 --> 01:26:40,020 ''For death... 749 01:26:41,220 --> 01:26:43,409 ''For death is no more... 750 01:26:46,930 --> 01:26:49,359 ''No more than a cold little thing 751 01:26:51,100 --> 01:26:52,560 ''Tomorrow I will vanquish 752 01:26:52,899 --> 01:26:54,270 ''The night and the rain 753 01:26:54,899 --> 01:26:57,590 ''For death is no more than a cold little thing 754 01:26:58,109 --> 01:27:00,250 ''Of no importance at all 755 01:27:00,810 --> 01:27:02,329 ''I will reach out to it tomorrow 756 01:27:02,680 --> 01:27:04,260 ''But only tomorrow 757 01:27:04,609 --> 01:27:05,479 ''Tomorrow 758 01:27:05,750 --> 01:27:08,409 ''I will reach out my hands with great sweetness 759 01:31:10,460 --> 01:31:12,189 Translation by Joshua Beitel 760 01:31:12,760 --> 01:31:14,489 Subtitles by Vision Globale 54669

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