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Close Your Eyes And Hold Me

Good morning.

Amane!

What are you doing for lunch?

I've got outside work.

I see...

Can I phone you tonight?

Sure.

What time will you be home?

It's hard to say.

Instead of calling, maybe I could come over...?

Well...

Say, do you wanna go home with me for the New Year?

To your hometown?

Yeah.

Really? Are you sure?

I'm sure.

Great!!

Oh, here.

What's this?

Lunch.

Whoa.

I made it myself.

You're embarrassing me.

Going to your home town...

Does it mean I can start thinking about...?

Right?

What's this?

Wow, good going. From Juri?

Yup.

Aren't you a happy couple.

You call this happiness?

You'd better believe it.

Oh, I've gotta run. Bye!

I brought you to the hospital.

I did it because I'm the one that ran you over.

The people at the hospital think I was only passing by.

I didn't dare tell them what I did.

I'll pay for your treatment and such.

Would you leave it at that?

I will personally take full responsibility for the accident.

I have caused you great pain.

I am so sorry.

I will do anything.

Whatever you need, just tell me.

Run me over again.

But that's...

I wish you had finished me off.

The patient was discharged this morning.

What about the bill?

It's been paid.

I see...

Do you know where I can find her?

Just a moment.

The number you dialed has been disconnected.

Please check the number and try again...

The certainty of this moment right now...

...is all we have to hold on to.

Welcome!

This way please.

It's the only proof of our existence.

I adore your gentle touch.

Please have a seat.

I cherish your warmth.

These little pleasures help me survive.

First time here?

Yes.

What would you like?

Scotch and tonic.

Your coat...

I'll be right back.

Ever so earnestly... with a singular purpose...

...we go on with our lives.

- Can I ask you a question? - Yes?

What kind of place is this?

A transsexual club, silly.

You're all men?!

Honey, you came in blind?

Yes.

Fancy that. You picked this club by chance?

No... I do know someone...

Please leave it be.

Please don't stop the rain...

Hanabusa, you're fabulous!

Do you remember me?

The one who will do anything for me?

You suddenly disappeared from the hospital. I was worried.

I didn't want to bother you, so I left, just like that.

You all look... beautiful.

Your skin seems so smooth.

Takes a lot of work, y'know.

Are you... a man, too?

I certainly am.

Did I shock you?

A little.

Can I...

Can I come here again?

I thought you were going to say "never again."

"Homosexual"?

The men who like men.

What about "gay"?

The homosexuals without drag.

"Transsexual"?

The homosexuals who want to become women.

What's the breast situation?

Could be boosted with hormone injections or implants.

Down there?

Cut off, probably. They do it abroad or something.

Which means some guys don't cut it off?

You're weird. What's with you, man?

Actually...

I went to a transsexual club the other day.

I got curious 'cause I never knew about these things.

Oh, really...

What?

I never knew you had an interest.

It's not what you think.

I just happened to walk into the joint by chance.

Why don't we go there together sometime?

It's kinda fun.

Nah, not for me.

Why not?

I'd rather see women for the same amount of money.

I appreciate your coming to see me...

But this is not a cheap hangout. Can you afford it?

No problem.

I'm here because I want to.

How are you feeling?

Any after-effects from the accident?

I'm fine.

I'm glad.

Tell me, do you like...?

Do you like me?

I like you.

Wait till I get off.

We can go together.

You don't pull back.

Because...

We'd better split tonight.

Hello.

It's me.

What's up?

Nothing really. It's just that I haven't seen you lately.

I'm real busy.

What do you do everyday?

What do you mean?

Overtime?

Yeah... that's it.

Oh, I get it. You're working hard for our future, right?

What?

I'll try and save money as well.

I'm going to bed. Let me go.

Make some time for me soon?

Okay. Bye.

What are you doing here?

I'm a little short on cash but I wanted to see you.

You should have called me.

I will, from now on.

Shall we?

Your heart is thumping.

Are you scared?

Look at that.

It makes me happy.

Touch mine, too...

I'll do something nice.

Hanabusa...

How do you do it?

It feels just like I'm doing it with a woman.

Close your eyes...

Don't try to look...

Let your mind go and feel me with your body...

Aren't you gonna do it to me?

You can, you know.

Have you ever done it the back way?

No, but I came mentally prepared.

Maybe I will, then.

Or, not. Maybe next time.

Why?

Stay there...

You want to break up?

I don't believe it!

No way!

You found someone else...

Who is it?

All those promises... Why, you just played me like a fool!

I won't let you get away. You are going to marry me!!

Men's nipples are just as sensitive.

I don't know why, but a lot of men won't admit to it.

Can I put on the light?

Why? Wanna look at me?

It's impolite to look when you have sex with a transsexual.

Is that right?

Sure.

Such a bad boy.

Today, the bad boy gets it in the back...

I thought you'd end up marrying her for sure.

I mean, you've been going with Juri for such a long time.

What a waste... She's pretty and all.

I thought so, too.

So, what's your new girl like?

C'mon, you can tell me.

It's not a woman.

A guy?!

From that transsexual joint...?

To be honest, I'm madly in love.

I want to see him and get laid whenever I can.

That's all I can think about.

Amane...

What are you doing here?

Waiting for you.

You've been avoiding me.

It's too late.

Aren't you letting me in?

Just say it.

What did I do wrong?

Tell me. I'll apologize.

I have to get up early. Take a cab home.

Are you Hanabusa?

Yes?

First time in this type of place?

I need to speak to you...

You know Amane?

I do.

I'm his girlfriend.

We were getting along great.

But since he started coming here he's suddenly lost himself.

You're a man, aren't you?

You may be beautiful, but you can never marry him.

It's a dead-end relationship.

It won't do him any good.

He broke up with you?

What did he tell you?

"I can't see you any more."

Men are so arrogant. They give you no alternative.

It's true.

I don't know what's going on.

Amane doesn't tell me anything.

He just avoids me.

Okay, so he's fallen in love with you.

But what am I to do with my own feelings for him?

You're so sweet...

Don't go yet.

Wait a while.

Drink this.

Drink up.

Feel calmer?

Yes.

You can cry all you want. Nobody can hear you here.

What am I doing?

You came to cry.

Unless you get it all out, your chest will explode.

No.

Why not?

Stop.

Why else did you come along?

You're falling in love with me, am I wrong?

I know how good this feels.

You're very sensitive, aren't you?

You're so wet...

I'll teach you a few things, sweet heart...

Hanabusa...

Why are you doing this to me?

It's better when you're bound.

This allows you to be more open to your sensations.

Who's that?

He's a friend I wanted you to meet.

What do you think?

She's nice.

Be nice to her, then.

Good morning.

Hey.

What are you doing with a dead computer?

Oh.

Here.

Hanabusa? It's me.

Sleeping? I'm sorry.

You were out last night. I missed you.

What?

I feel rather feminine today.

You sound feminine, too.

I know...

What would you like me to do?

Hanabusa...

It feels like I'm really doing it with a woman.

Here...

I'm a woman right now.

How?

Why is it...

...you feel wet?

This can't be lotion...

...can it?

So good...

Sorry, I came too soon.

I got excited.

Me, too.

My body felt different, like, almost pregnant.

You'd better go home now.

Let's stay till morning.

Don't you have to go to work?

I don't care.

Laziness won't make for a good relationship.

I saw Hanabusa.

He's nice.

He says I'm sweet...

Can Hanabusa have relations with women?

Women? Well, he's got a man's body, after all.

I suppose it's possible to have sex.

Why do you ask?

Juri says she saw Hanabusa.

I'm sorry. I told her. She was crying and all...

Something might have happened between Juri and Hanabusa.

You think Juri's sleeping with Hanabusa?

If it's true, I'll get dumped.

Hanabusa was a bit cold the other day.

That night, I made love to him as a woman...

It was real wet and...

Ass holes don't get wet, idiot.

I know, but it felt as if he had been a woman.

It felt so real.

How is he fixed down there?

I don't know.

Why?

He doesn't let me see his body.

He would only do it in the dark and doesn't let me touch him.

I just don't know.

My body feels different since that time.

How so?

My skin seems moist and the make-up goes on smooth.

My body feels tighter, y'know?

You've grown as a woman.

Have you ever done it in the back?

No... I'm scared.

You're scared?

It's all right... I'm only touching the front.

I'm going to the back now.

No.

It's all right... Relax.

Soon, you'll be begging for more.

See?

Juri! I wanna talk to you.

I'm busy right now.

What were you doing last night?

What do you mean?

Where were you?

None of your business.

Why did you go see Hanabusa in the first place?

I wanted to talk to him about you.

You saw him just once?

You've been seeing him since then, haven't you?

Know what?

You wanna know about Hanabusa?

If you sleep with me, you might find out something about him.

How's that?

If you do it with me, you can learn many things...

Not even a kiss?

Not yet.

Not there...

Not like that... Do me proper.

What was I supposed to find out?

Why can't you see?

Are you sleeping with Hanabusa?

I was raped by Hanabusa.

I was tied up.

Hanabusa and another man forced themselves on me...

They threatened to tell people if I wouldn't do what they said.

I couldn't fight back.

Why do you tell such lies?

You don't believe me?

How could I?

If your story is true, you've been gang-raped.

You should go to the police, not me.

Should I? You don't care if Hanabusa gets charged?

I believe his innocence.

If you bring up charges, I'll protect him.

Amane...

Get out.

I heard.

Heard what?

Hanabusa tied her up...

...and threatened to gang-rape her with another guy.

They told Juri to cut you loose, or else...

She says you're not much help.

Really.

She told me they raped her already.

I guess she had to be innocent to buy your sympathy.

How could you be so callous?

Juri's in a lot of trouble.

What are you, her advocate?

I'm Hanabusa.

Is something wrong?

Juri tells me...

You know a woman named Juri?

You are...?

I'm Takayanagi, a friend of Amane's.

I wanted to talk to you about his girlfriend, Juri.

She told me that you and another guy held her hostage and...

nearly violated her.

You're threatening to rape her, unless she leaves Amane.

I won't let you do that.

If you keep bothering Juri, I'd have to inform the authorities.

Sorry I'm late.

She was a willing participant.

This should give you a better idea of what happened.

This is not for our entertainment...

...merely a defense system against trouble.

Sometimes...

Women say things that betray their heart and body.

Thanks for the tip. You got me out of a jam.

Are you mad at me about Juri?

Not any more. Forget it.

Are you sure?

I love you.

I missed you...

Stop.

Stop. Stop it!

You don't love me.

You all are the same... just so damn curious.

Darn me... l'm only a plaything that God created out of a whim.

Hanabusa.

You saw, didn't you?

Not exactly.

Really?

Really.

I'm sorry. Forgive me, Amane.

We are all God's playthings.

Takayanagi... what happened?

Well...

I was waiting for you to call.

I went to see Hanabusa.

You did...

You mind?

I thought you...

What?

This will tell you.

Bye.

Wait.

I don't want people in the office to get the wrong idea.

What do you mean?

Takayanagi!

I guess not.

Not that time yet...

Could I be late?

It's embarrassing.

Say it softer.

It's embarrassing...

Did you do Juri like this, too?

That's right.

Tired?

A little.

You were real masculine.

You made me.

You pushed the right button to bring out the man in me.

I did?

Yes, you did.

Love changes its form with different partners.

Do you want to get away somewhere? Alone?

What's wrong?

It's not happening somehow.

I see.

Takayanagi.

About that video...

Please don't tell anyone.

Why would I?

Good.

Is that why you seduced me?

Y'know...

I might get married next year.

Is that true?

So, I won't be able to keep this up with you.

Damn. I wanna get married, too.

Where are we going?

Something's on your mind.

Where are you taking me?

I thought we'd see my family.

I grew up around here.

I didn't want to tell you because I knew you'd say no.

Pull over.

Pull over!

I'm going back.

Hanabusa, wait!

I wanted to show you where I grew up - my family, my past.

How I came to be who I am...

I wanted you to know everything.

I need more than the nights in hotel rooms.

Why don't you get back together with Juri?

You two make a nice couple.

How could you say that?

The more you like someone, the more you want to know about her.

...and the more you want her to know about yourself...

I'm fed up...

I'm fed up!

With what?

Everything!

Just because you know a person, you think you understand them?

But... I can't go on like this.

I just can't!

I'm going back.

What will you go back to?

You're a man and a woman.

There's no returning for you any more!

That's me all right.

Amane... will you run over me one more time?

I'm so lonesome.

Why do I feel so lonesome when I'm in love?

Let's call it quits.

I... slept with Juri.

We only went half-way...

I did screw her all the same.

I wanted to tell you before you hear it from Juri.

I see...

This might sound strange coming from me...

...but can't you guys start over again?

Well...

I guess not.

I haven't seen Juri.

Nor Hanabusa for that matter.

I feel kinda at peace...

- I'll see you. - Good night.

Aren't you cold?

You lost this...

Take it back.

Bye.

Will people think of us as lovers?

They should... because we are lovers.

Amane, I know you're in there.

You're in there with Hanabusa.

Please open the door.

Go home.

Amane, I'm not getting my period.

It's your baby, you know?

You're talking nonsense.

It's definitely yours.

Are you pregnant?

Yes... well, I haven't been to the hospital yet...

And you barge in here first?

Because you're all I have left.

If we get married, you can come to the wedding.

Who the hell says?!

It's your baby.

What about Takayanagi?

So you know...

But we didn't go all the way.

You should be more concerned.

Why can't you share my suffering?

You hate me that much?

Or, is it because of Hanabusa?

Juri...

She must have been desperate without anybody to talk to.

It's just all in her head.

You're cruel...

I'm pregnant, too.

Just kidding.

I took some pills.

Amane... where are you?

Are you with Hanabusa?

If you don't come right away, I'll take more pills and die.

I'm serious.

I'll even cut my wrist.

It's your fault.

It's all your fault...

I want to go back to being a regular girl...

To be a regular girl again...

Am I not good enough for you?

Won't you love me, too?

What can I do now?

I am finished. It's all over.

No, that's not true.

It's all just beginning...