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SLEEP AWAKE

I am lacking the slightest bit of courage...

I won't show you anything..

I can do so much, though I'll show you nothing

When I fuck, it's like another body fucks

and I move around just so he knows I'm alive

but I feel everything and I pant mechanically

I want to enjoy it

To feel his hard cock inside me,

on me,

his hands, his saliva

bursting in my mouth

to...

I want to stroke his skin, ass...

to...

all over..

I want to live.

I want to let go...

I'm so far away

It's from fear

from this comfort that hiding gives me

that I've come to do so much nonsense for this world

I have so many friends

I do so much shit for you

I'm nothing.

You make me fell all the shittier with all your "thank you"-s

I hate you all.

I only want to suck cock, not save your animals

I shit on your stupid shit, on your wellbeing

I shit on all of you,

on all.

You're ugly,

your're stupid and I hope you fucking die!

What?

Do you think I'm lying?

Ugh?

Am I lying to you?

Am I hungry? Am I having my period?

I only know you're lying

You lie

You lie

Yes, hello, I saw you called earlier.

Are you a weirdo or something?

What?

Are you a weirdo or something?

Yeah

With what?

Do you want to have sex?

Yes

Now?

No

You look very...

good... in this light.

Why did you write to me?

I wanted to...

I wanted too...

but, first, let's talk a little

Talk about what?

We get undressed,

then,

I caress you,

we kiss,

then I touch you,

between your legs,

and you get a little wet,

and...

I get inside you

and that's it.

Yeah,

where to?

You're a boy...

right?

And being a boy is easy

I mean you have a dick

and having a dick is like having a bat

for the other it's more difficult,

she must be confident that you know what to do with it,

or at least you could tell her you do, I don't know...

to build a dream for her... an illusion

Do you want me to lie to you?

I think I do.

Do you want to go out for a coffee?

I was with a guy once and I was feeling so good

and I told him: you can do anything with me

and he turned me on the other side and he shoved it in my ass.

Cool

Not that cool...

Ah... Okay

Let's talk about something.

Silence scares me.

What?

Isn't it weird?

Every time someone says...

'let's talk'

about something, anything,

it's like you become stupid suddenly and won't know what to say

So we have to talk about something...

It must be trivial, not something simple.

Yeah

Like what?

I don't know...

about your day

and I'll be looking at you and scanning you

for cool things and for shitty things

following your face, your hands...

I don't know...stuff.

You don't really get out much, do you?

You know what,

I don't want to do anything anymore.

You do!

Any man who knows he is desired, attaches himself

and to get rid of you I would have to stick a pen into your neck

or anyhow, something painful

even more so, since I'm beautiful

and anxious

and that, you know, shrouds me in some mystery.

what would you want more?

You don't really have that beauty...

the fashion magazine type, you know?

More likely

a kind of

a beauty, like

a nerd all locked up in her house

that creeps me out somehow.

Really?

Listen, uhm...

are you by any chance

a feminist lesbian?

No, I like simple things.

Women are a nuissance and awful, anyway

and I wouldn't want to lick any pussy

But

you want to suck cock.

I do it

but I don't like it.

Oh, come on...

why are you giving my this shit?

Why not?

Because

if we go to my place and...

You suck it...

By the way, how big is it?

I don't know

Ok, bye.

You never put a ruler on it?

Wait a second,

take my number.

Hello?

Hi

It's Ilie

Yeah, from the park,

from the internet,

I was wondering if you wouldn't want to meet

Ok

Ok, bye

Don't

I smell of cat

and of cigarette smoke.

May I take a shower at your place?

Yeah

May I stay at your place without us doing anything?

Why would you stay?

Please

I want to hide somewhere

Do you still want to take a shower?

Yes

What's this?

I don't know

I just came to me one day.

It's very beautiful

It's not beautiful...

The water is running in the bathroom

That's ok

No

No, not in the bed

I was dreaming I was on the side of the road

and

passed out

and that you brought me flowers

and you kissed me to get well

And did you get well?

Are you asleep?

Wake up

What time is it?

Five

Leave me a bit longer

THE END

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