All language subtitles for The Bold Type s04e14_Engish

- Previously
on "The Bold Type"...

- I saw that the Belle
is hiring bartenders.

You could work here.

- You could even do
like a podcast.

- How about you record
one episode?

And if I don't like it, then--
- I won't bring it up again.

- Eva--I think you knew that
since you got my father fired

from his own company
after 25 years.

- How am I gonna do this job
and have a baby?

- There's no heartbeat.

- I think I feel relieved
that I'm not having this baby.

- Whatever you're feeling
right now,

it's okay.

- I got a double mastectomy
three months ago.

- When Kevin
tried to touch me there,

I just--I freaked out.

I just--I'm not comfortable
with them.

I wrote a piece about it
to see if maybe

I could find people like me.
We'll see if people show up.

- I think they will.

[punchy music]

- No, no, no, I need you
to go right now.

Yes, I have a first date,
but you gotta go.

- Jane, this is huge.
- Yeah.

- This is really big.
- Mm-hmm.

- I mean, two weeks ago,
you said you weren't ready.

- I know, but my support group
thinks it'll help, so...

- Yeah, and, seriously,
I'm so proud of you.

- Thank you.

- What's he like?
What does he do?

- He's geographically desirable
and a twin.

That's all I know.

So you have to go,
- A twin.

- Can you go?
I have to finish getting ready.

- Yes, no, no, no,
I'm gonna get

out of your hair ASAP.
- Okay.

- But, hey,
I'm so proud of you.

- Thank you.
- I love you.

Call me if you need
anything at all.

- Nope, you have fun
with Marissa.

Tell her I said hi.
- Okay.

♪

- ♪ You're a house on fire

♪ The match and the lighter

- This is nice...

just sitting here with you,
getting to know each other.

[laughs]

I mean, i-it's a little weird
staring at you on my computer,

but, uh, maybe we should, uh,
talk about our hobbies.

I'll go first, um...

I love to write,
except I do that for a living,

so I guess that doesn't
really count as a hobby.

I love lists,
and I like to check things off

after I've completed them.

Huh, I've always said that I
was gonna run a marathon,

but I haven't done that yet.

[door opens]
- I think I left it over here.

Oh, my God.
What's happening?

Is that your--your date
on the computer?

Why are you naked?
And why isn't he here?

- My date is here.
[chuckles]

I-I'm dating my boobs, Kat.

♪

- ♪ Make you my man,
and I'll be your woman ♪

♪

♪ We can make it
unless I make it one moment ♪

[phone chimes]

♪ More champagne for us

♪ Let's get drunk
and make loving ♪

- ♪ I know you're in love...
- Really?

- You look
so handsome right now.

And it's been two weeks.

I'm ready.
- Mm.

- Great.
- Mm-hmm.

- Let's do this.

God, I missed this.

- Mm, me too.

♪

- Actually, I read somewhere

that, if I'm on top,
our chances are better.

- Um, chances better
for what?

- Conceiving.

Apparently position
makes a difference.

- Oh, um, I...

I-I was saying I'm ready

for regular sex not...
not baby sex.

- Right, of course.
I'm sorry.

- No, it's--
I should've been clearer.

- I read into it.

I guess...I'm just ready
to try again.

Ever since we got pregnant,
it's all I can think about--

starting a family with you,
being a dad,

having a little baby you or me.
- [chuckles]

- Okay, not right now,

but when you're ready,

I'm ready to try again.

[tender music]

- Okay.

♪

- Hello.

I see your date
spent the night.

Must have gone well, hey.
- Ah, funny.

Thank you.
- Oh, okay.

Hey, look, I know
I don't really know much

about this stuff,
and maybe you don't want

to talk about it,
but if you do...

- My support group gave me

a how to love your body
post-mastectomy guide.

First step is getting
to know your boobs

as if you're dating them.

- Hm.
- It was awkward and silly

and weird, and if I could,
I'd never ask 'em out again.

Plus they're kind of clingy.

- Well, first dates
are the worst, am I right?

But you know what
makes 'em better?

Activities--you should
take them out.

Body painting,
a seaweed spa wrap.

- It's a good idea.

- Hopefully not the only one
I have today.

- Oh, right,
tonight's the podcast trial

with Penny, the woman who runs
the domestic violence shelter.

- She actually had to bail
for a conference in Boston,

but it's all good.

I got this woman
who invented a device

that cleans plastic
out of the ocean,

so hopefully it goes well,
and once Darby gives me

the green light, then Penny
can be my next guest.

- That's awesome.
- Thank you.

I just--I hope
I can pull it off, you know?

Make a difference.
- You will.

You always do.
- Thanks.

And, look, I know maybe it
wasn't love at first sight,

but I do think you're gonna
have your happily ever after.

- [chuckles]
- All three of you.

You're perfect for each other.

♪

[knock on door]

- Jacqueline,
we have a pitch meeting.

- Oh.

How does that look?

- Good, good, very good.
- Mm.

Ian took it,
and I've kind of forgotten

how...talented he is.

- Well, he has, like,
the perfect subject, so...

- Thank you, Andrew.

- I mean, of course,
yeah, my p-pleas--

There's a pitch meeting.
Pitch meeting.

♪

- Good morning,
beautiful people.

- Morning.

- Who's feeling alive today?

- Whoo!
- Yes!

- Good!

And who feels sexy
and confident?

- Me.
- Good for you, Andrew.

- Thank you.

- We are all very powerful,
sexual creatures,

and we deserve
to feel that way.

Now, that all comes,
of course, from the inside,

but, clothes do help,

which is why I want
to celebrate

the power of fashion.

Pitches.

- Sexy lingerie--
does wearing it to the office

make you feel more
or less in charge?

- Love it.
What else?

- I can do a piece
for "The Failing Feminist"--

power dressing
outside the office.

My mom had this DVF wrap dress,

and she didn't work
or anything,

but I could just tell
from photos that she felt

really powerful and important
when wearing it.

- Well, I would love
if you could find that photo

to include it in your piece.
- Yeah, I think I can.

- Fashion people.
[phone buzzes]

- Okay, sorry, Jasper's here.
- What?

- You got this, Red.

- Uh--
- Sutton?

- Okay.
[clears throat]

Well, we could do
a photo spread

of the female business uniform
through the decades.

What kind of clothing
does make women feel

powerful and sexual
and independent?

I feel like society
would really like for us

to believe that women dress
to impress men,

but the truth is iconic pieces
like the Chanel tweed suit

Diane von Furstenberg's
wrap dress were created

so that women could feel sexy
for themselves.

So maybe some female designers,
you know?

And how their fashion
empowers women

to own their sexuality.

- That is exactly the kind
of thing I'm looking for.

How would you like
to run point

on that fashion spread?
- I would really love that.

- Great.
What else we got?

♪

- I vaguely remember
that picture.

- I'm wearing yellow rainboots,

and Mom's
in a brown, patterned dress?

- Oh, I remember that dress.

She loved how easy it was
to take on and off.

- Yeah, the photo
is on the wall by the stairs

in a silver frame.
- You okay?

'Cause you didn't say gross
when I alluded

to your mom and me,
you know...doing it.

- Yeah, uh, gross, okay?
Um...I'm fine.

I just have a lot
on my mind, but I'm good.

- Okay.

I'll, uh, scan the photo
and send it as soon as I can.

- Okay, thanks.
Love you, Dad.

Bye.
- Yeah.

[soft dramatic music]

[punchy music]

♪

- He wants to get pregnant,
like, now.

- No pressure.
- I know.

And he doesn't even know
how relieved I felt

when I found out
I wasn't having a baby.

Honestly, I didn't think
I was gonna have

to talk to him about it.

- Well, I mean, you have
to tell him how you feel.

- And disappoint him?
I can't do that.

- Yeah, but, Sutton,
getting accidentally pregnant

and planning for a baby
are two very different things,

and you're allowed
to want to wait.

- Yeah, and Richard,
he'll understand.

- I don't know.
I just--

Let's talk
about something else.

How's the podcast?

- It was kind of boring.

For someone who's
so interesting and impressive,

she just didn't really,
like, bring anything.

I don't think it's exciting
enough to impress Darby.

- Well, if you're looking
for exciting,

take me for a cruise.
- Really?

- Yeah, 'cause I am...

styling a very exciting shoot

about fashion and empowerment.

- But the podcast
is members only,

and, uh...
[clicks tongue]

you're still my guest, kid.

- I spend so much time
at this bar,

I keep forgetting that.
- [chuckles]

- You could do Jane's boobs.

- No, sorry,
they're booked and busy--

body plastering.
- What?

- Kat took this class
where you make a cast

of a body part.

- [whispers] Vagina.

- Bet no one's
done boobs before.

- It's a pretty decent
second date.

But a better idea, though,
would be for you to come

and be a part of my shoot.

- Honestly, I'm not really
ready to be photographed yet.

- Okay.

- Could I get
a gin martini please?

- Yeah.

[pop music]

Straight?
- Dirty.

- Interesting.
- You think I don't have taste?

- Oh, you read minds now?
- Sometimes.

- Hmm, really?
Well, that is impressive.

A telepathic NRA
card-carrying Republican.

- Not as impressive as
a feminist socialist activist

who finally knows
how to make a good drink.

[stirring utensil clinking]

- Enjoy.

- Thank you.

- You're welcome.

- I really don't like her.

- She is so lucky that she's
on the board at Safford.

I mean, did you see?

She defended
hardline immigration

last night on ABC news.

- Yeah,
like a heartless monster.

- Yeah, and I couldn't
change the channel.

- Neither could I.

♪

- Oh, no.
- What?

- I know who I need to get
on the podcast.

both: Who?
- Her.

- ♪ 'Cause we're boring people
boring lives ♪

♪ Dubba dub bom

♪ Dubba dubba dub bom

[soft dramatic music]

♪

- Wow, what is going on?
This smells amazing.

- Just a little
celebratory breakfast

for my wife who's been kicking
so much ass at work lately.

You want eggs.
I can make eggs.

- No, no, no, it's not that.
- Okay, what is it?

- I have to...

tell you something.

- Okay.

- Yesterday,
when we were talking

about trying for a baby...
- Right.

- Just--work is so great,
and we just got married,

and I just really want
to enjoy this moment, you know?

26, newly married stylist.

- Okay.

- I-I didn't know how
to tell you in the moment,

but I...

I'm not close
to being ready.

Are you mad?

- Mad?
No, no, of course not.

A little disappointed,
maybe,

but this is gonna happen
when we are both ready.

- Yeah.

I love you.
- Love you.

- Thank you for being
understanding.

♪

- Now, grab some syrup
and some cakes.

Let's eat.

[soft music]

♪

- Oh--

- Do you need something?

- Uh, me?

I, um, was actually
just wondering

if I could get your help
with something.

- What's up?

- So I have this idea
for a podcast,

and the Belle has agreed
to listen to an episode,

and if it's good,
then they'll let me do it here.

- Okay.
- It's conversations

across the bar kind of thing

where I interview members about
their passions and projects.

- Okay.

- And I think that you
would be a great guest.

- You want me
to do your podcast?

- Yes, I think you
would be interesting.

- Really?
- Yes, really.

We could debate the issues.
- [chuckles]

- That...is unexpected
on so many levels.

I'm going to politely decline.

- Why?

- Because you don't strike me
as someone

who can fairly engage
with conservatives, Kat.

- Okay, I can
rein it in for a podcast.

- Well, I look forward
to seeing that,

but not with me.

Good luck though.
That's a really good idea.

- It is a great idea.

- Okay, this guy.
- Yep.

- And this guy too--straight--
- To the studio, got it, yep.

- You're the best.
- Yep.

- Mm-hmm, how's it going?
- So great.

Do you ever get that feeling
that you're just

doing exactly
what you're meant to do?

- The first day
I walked into "Scarlet."

[laughter]

- You know, my mom never had
a Chanel tweed suit

or a DVF wrap dress,
and I always wanted her

to be the kind of woman
that did,

but she was a waitress.

Well, I guess
her waitress uniform

was her own version
of powerful.

- She must be so proud of you.

- She is.

She knows how much
I love styling.

There was a minute there
where I didn't know

if it was gonna happen.
You know?

Watching Kat and Jane
rise the ranks,

and I just felt
like I was idling.

- You were an assistant longer
than you wanted to be.

- Mm-hmm.

- But you were never idling.

You were preparing
for your moment

so that
when the time was right,

you would soar.

Everyone has
their own timeline.

- Yeah, we do, don't we?

- Unbelievable.

[door clanks]

- Wow, that "honey I'm home"
greeting was very short-lived.

- Yeah, well...

Eva doesn't think
I can talk to Republicans

and have
a productive conversation,

so she said no
to being in my podcast.

- Mm, ta-da.

- Nice boobs.
- Thanks.

- Great job.
How was your plastering class?

- Oh, it was a nightmare.
I hated every minute of it.

- Oh.
- But thank you for trying.

These sunflower nipples
are making me very happy.

- They're beautiful.
- Thanks.

- Have you given
any more thought

to being in Sutton's shoot?
It might help.

- It just kind of feels
like a lot,

but, I mean, maybe.

Wait, so you really think
that Eva can help you

get that podcast?
- Yeah, I know she can.

- Well, then show her
that she's wrong.

Go to one
of her Republican mixers.

[punchy music]

♪

- I have an idea,

and I think it's gonna
make both of us happy.

Okay, just because we're not
on the same timeline

doesn't mean that we
shouldn't be prepared

for when we're both ready,
so I did some research.

- A sperm bank.

I didn't know that older sperm
can have an effect on children.

- Same way older eggs can.

- I gotta be honest.
This is a little weird.

- I know.

- But I do love
that you're thinking about us,

about our future.
- Mm-hmm.

So...

does this mean--

- We're gonna put
our future children on ice?

Yeah.
- Yeah?

- Yeah.
- [laughs]

[tender music]

[soft music]

- So we swing by
the sperm bank,

and then I drop you off
at work.

- How modern are we?

Oh, wow, listen to this.

With sperm freezing,
58-year-old Hank Tier

"was able to get
his wife pregnant

15 years after he
froze his sperm."

- 15 years?
- 15 years.

That's crazy.
- Yeah, it is.

- I mean, I knew
that it was "forever."

I just wasn't thinking
about what that means

practically, you know?

Buys us so much time.

- [sighs]

- I'm so happy
you agreed to be in the shoot.

Can I come see?

[gasps]
Jane, you look so pretty.

- Thanks.
It's a little big here though.

- Oh, let me just take it in
a little bit.

Ooh, I'm so sorry!
Are you okay?

- What?

- Uh, I just pricked you
with a pin.

You didn't feel it?

[soft dramatic music]

- No, no,
I didn't feel anything.

- Um...okay, I'm gonna go grab
the first-aid kit.

- Okay.

[clatters]

[phone buzzes]

[sighs]

[knocking]

- I didn't order anything.
Go next door.

[phone buzzes]

Dad?

What?
How?

- Miles and an empty seat.

- [chuckles]

Uh, but why?

- Oh, I don't know.

'Cause I wanted to give you
the photo of your mom,

and when I found the dress,

I thought you might
like that too.

Also I didn't feel great
about how you sounded

on the phone, thought maybe
you could use a hug.

[tender music]

♪

- [sobs]

♪

[sobs]

- Hey.
- Hey!

- Hey.

- What do you want
for lunch?

I could do salad
or Thai if you have time.

- Mm, maybe we
should do the salad place.

- Okay, great.
I love salad, big fan.

Big...salad fan.

Hey, are you okay, baby?

- I mean, I don't really
have that much time...

not 15 years anyway.

- We're not talking
about lunch anymore are we?

- [sighs]

I'm sorry, it's just--

that thing you said
this morning

about freezing sperm
for 15 years...

You seemed really happy
about that.

I don't wanna be an old dad.

I wanna be there
for our kids' graduations,

for their weddings,
and for their kids.

I can't wait 15 years.

- Hey...

I don't need
to wait 15 years.

- How long do you think
you need?

Okay, how about this?

We promise
that within five years,

we try for a baby again.

You'll be in your early 30s.
I'll be mid-40s.

What do you say?

- Pinkie promise?
- Yeah, pinkie promise.

♪

- And then I took
this plastering class.

It was supposed to make me feel
"one" with my body,

but instead it just
made me feel fake--

like I'm trying
to convince my brain

to be over something
that it's not.

- Did you try writing about it?
- Yeah.

- That didn't help?
- Not really.

I mean,
nothing's really helped.

My friends have been amazing,

but they don't
really understand

how this feels,
and the support group,

they help a little,
but you know what?

Maybe this is just
the way it is now.

Maybe I'm just supposed
to muddle through.

- Come on,
let's get out of here.

- Hm?

- Come on, maybe
a little fresh air will help.

- Okay.

[upbeat music]

♪

[indistinct chatter]

- But, let's face it,
the infighting

amongst the Democratic Party
makes them vulnerable

to criticism.

I mean, I still know people
who are arguing

about Bernie and Hillary.
- I know.

The myopic attitude
consistently

holds the party back
as a whole.

- You know, I actually agree.

Both parties could use
a better direction.

I think mission statements
would be helpful.

- Yes, but Dems are famous

for being aimless
and wandering.

- Well,
they're also passionate.

- And emotional, which makes
their message confusing,

- Yes, yes, you know,

I actually think that
that's true.

Emotion does get
in the way sometimes.

As long as they stick
to the plan

and have a clear goal...

- I thought
we were going to eat.

- I just wanted to stop here
for old time's sake.

You remember when
you used to spend hours

searching
for that perfect planner

before a school year?

- Yeah, well, it wasn't
just the planner.

It was the pens and the tabs.
It was kind of a whole thing.

I actually didn't get
a planner for next year.

- Oh, well, you should.

Here, pick one, my treat.

- [laughs]

[gasps]

Wow,
there are seven colors.

Do you think they did that
for every day of the week?

- Maybe.
- Hm.

- Why do I love this so much?

- Because you like
to plan things

in an organized manner.
- Yeah, I do.

[chuckles]

What do you think of this one?

Plenty of room for lists
and a special place for goals.

- Goals are good.

Come on, grab those pens
you've been eyeing,

and let's check out.

- Hey.
- He's paying.

- Yep, I'm Dad.
- [laughs]

- She's a writer.

- I didn't expect
to see you here.

- Yeah, well,
I didn't expect to be here,

but I wanted to prove to you
that I can have

a healthy debate
with the other side,

and the only way to do that
is to show you, so...

- That's impressive.
- Hm.

- It's gonna take more
than one conversation.

- I know.

- Identity politics
is so touchy.

- Shall we?

- Everything is politically
incorrect these days.

- I know.

I am terrified
of saying the wrong thing.

- [sighs]

- Yeah, I mean, I think
that that's a fear

a lot of people share,

especially in the age
of social media.

- What am I supposed to say
to my 13-year-old daughter

when she thinks
it's fashionable to be gay?

- Uh, I don't know
about fashionable.

- No, she's right.

Just look at these
queer celebrities--

Kristen Stewart,
and what's the other one?

- Oh, Cara Delevingne.

It's like kids are being
bullied if they're straight.

- Bullied, really?

- I know it's hard to believe,
but it is happening,

and it is a problem.

- I actually think
that the real problem

is what's happening right here.

- I think what Kat means
to say is that there's no way--

- Eva, maybe let someone
from the queer community

field this one.
- Oh.

Oh, I'm sorry.

I didn't realize
that you were--

- Oh, queer?
Yeah...

[chuckles]

I am, yeah,
and I can assure you,

there is no liberal agenda
to turn straight people gay,

promise.

We just want equal rights
and opportunities--

the same ones you have.

- And I just want my daughter
to grow up happy and normal.

- Normal...uh, as in straight?

- As in the way God intended.
That is how I feel.

- Okay, I think coming here
was a really bad idea.

- Kat, Kat, wait.

- You were right.
I can't do it.

Talking to people like that--
it was a mistake.

- No, it wasn't.

I'll do your podcast.
- Why?

I just proved that I couldn't
engage in a healthy debate.

- Kat, do you want me
to do your podcast?

- Yes.
- Okay.

Well, then I would shut up
and accept the offer.

- Okay.

♪

[upbeat music]

- Okay, so when the issue
of identity politics

comes up in your circles,
how do you combat the stigma

that the conservative party
is overall homophobic?

- I don't combat it at all

because
it's none of my business.

I don't think
that it should be brought up

nor should that fire be fanned

because sexuality whether homo,
hetero, pan, A, or other,

it doesn't define a person.

- Okay, sure,
it doesn't define a person,

but it certainly adds
to why they might be put

into the category of other,
and therefore oppressed

under the system we're all in.

- The system being--
- Capitalism and patriarchy.

- Right.

- Okay, I see you laughing,
and I mean,

you can go ahead and laugh
if you want,

but you are also
a victim of the system.

You're a woman living
in the world,

and you can't be immune
to the effects of that.

- Well, in the LGBTQ community,
it just feels like--

- Okay, Eva, you have to stop
speaking for a community

that you're not involved in.
It's not your place.

- I can speak
for that community--

my community--
because I'm a lesbian.

I am a Republican woman
who is not defined

by my sexuality
because sexuality

is not a personality trait.

Just because
I don't wear it on my sleeve

doesn't mean that I don't
get to claim my space.

- Absolutely, yes.

I mean, you should be able
to claim your space.

And identity politics
are...very tricky.

♪

- I always knew
you'd be a writer.

- [chuckles]

- You were constantly jotting
things down in your notebook,

coming up with stories,
setting your own deadlines.

- I did do that, didn't I?

[laughter]

- You never gave yourself
much time.

- Yeah, well,
I kind of liked the rush

of not knowing
if I could finish.

- But you always did.

It's not always a race.

- I know.

- Some things take time,
but you have that now.

You get to fill all those days.

Every one of them, Jane.

You know why?

Because you did
something brave.

Not just for you but for me

and your brothers
and your friends.

- Dad.
[sniffles]

- When you told me
that you tested positive

for the same gene
that took your mom, I...

[voice breaks]

I thought,
"I can't lose you too."

But I couldn't tell you
what to do.

- [chuckles]

- It was your body,
your decision.

- And I don't regret
making that decision,

I just--

I don't know.

I didn't think
it would be this hard.

- I get that.

But that part of your body,
it's not the enemy.

It's the part
that saved your life.

It's not about
muddling through.

It's about embracing
and enjoying your life

as much as you can--
every moment of it.

Huh?

You got a second chance
at life.

Your mother never had that.

- I know.

♪

[punchy music]

- ♪ Fade in the morning
waking up with a big head ♪

♪

♪ I live down the block
do it up for me she said ♪

♪

♪ I hear 'em whisper

♪ I hear 'em whispering

♪

♪ People taking notice

♪ Can't help but
focus on this ♪

♪

♪ I am the people
that you meet... ♪

- Hey.
- Hi!

- Thought you might need this.
- Oh, thanks T.

You're the best.
- No problem.

And do you
need anything else?

- Yeah, I do actually.

Next time, can I get
your creative input?

- Seriously?
- Yeah.

I know you have some.

It's not that long ago
that I was you,

and I wouldn't be here
if somebody wasn't asking me

what my opinion is,
so I can count on you?

- You bet.
- Thank you.

[chuckles]

Jane.

You look so beautiful.

- Thanks.
- Does this mean--

- That I am participating in
your shoot if you will have me.

- Duh.
- [chuckles]

- And this dress.

- It's my mom's.

My dad brought it for me
along with

some much needed
advice and perspective.

I'm gonna stop
feeling sorry for myself

and start living my life.

You know, that's why
I got the surgery--

to give me more time to live,
so I'm gonna do that.

I'm gonna run a marathon.
- Oh.

- I am going to do
all of the things

that I've always wanted to do
but have been putting off.

- Jane, that is amazing.

You deserve everything
that you've ever wanted.

- So do you.
- Thanks.

Honestly, I kind of feel
like I have it.

Like, right here, right now,
nothing is missing, you know?

I-I'm living my life

exactly the way
that I want to.

♪

- Isn't that a good thing?

- Not if the person
you're living it with

feels differently.

Jane, I'm asking Richard
to wait....

for me, but...

He's waiting for something
that I can't give him.

- What do you mean?

- I love my life
the way it is.

I don't want kids.

- [sighs]

But you might change your mind
in, like, five years, you know?

- I don't think I'm going to.

I don't want kids, Jane.
I just don't.

[sighs]
How am I gonna tell Richard?

It's gonna break his heart.

♪

[Woodes' "This is My Year"]

[soft pop music]

♪

- ♪ I said I'd be there

♪ Forgot to remember

♪ I said I would call

♪ But I wrote you a letter

♪ It's inside my head

♪ Return to sender

♪ I said I would change

♪ This is my year

♪ So worth the wait

♪ Everything starts
going my way ♪

♪ This is my year

♪ That's what they say

♪ Till we wake up
on New Year's Day ♪

♪ This is my year

- Congratulations.

The way that
you handled that woman was hot.

- Mm, well, you know, I could
handle you the same way.

- Mm, oh, yeah?

♪

Only if you use
your podcast voice.

- ♪ I'll cherish my mom,
I'll get motivation ♪

♪ I'll learn to forgive

♪ I'll try to be patient

- What would you say
are the biggest issues

facing our country today?

[chuckles]

♪

- Gun violence.
- Mm-hmm.

♪

- Divisive language.

♪

Also climate change?

♪

Do you agree?

- Yes.
- Yes, what?

- Yes, Eva.

- Are you serious?

[huffs]

Good-bye.

- ♪ I said I'd be there

♪ Forgot to remember

♪ I said I would call...

- Hey, babe.
In here.

- ♪ It sits in my head

♪ Return to sender

♪ I said I would change,
but now it's December ♪

♪ I keep my hopes

♪ On the shelf

- Hey, how was the shoot?

- I love you so much.

- What's wrong?

- More than I thought possible.

- [chuckles]
You're starting to scare me.

- You have to let me
get through this

because this is really hard,
and I have to tell you

before a month
becomes six months

becomes a year and then we're
five years in, and I--I...

And I can't give you
what you want.

- ♪ So worth the wait,
everything starts ♪

♪ Going my way

- So...

the same way
that the miscarriage...

made you realize
how much you want a baby...

- ♪ I'll be so strong

- [whispers] It made me realize
that I don't.

- ♪ I'll get some sleep,
look after myself ♪

- I love our life.
I love us.

I don't want anything else.

You're enough for me.

♪

And I don't want that
to change.

- ♪ This is my year

♪ So worth the wait

♪ Everything starts
going my way ♪

♪ This is my year

- I don't want children...

and I can't promise you
I ever will.

♪ I'll be so strong,
I'll eat so well ♪

♪ I'll get some sleep,
look after myself ♪

♪ Yeah, that's what
they say ♪

- I love you.

♪ Till we wake up
on New Year's Day ♪

♪ This is my year

♪

[phone clatters]

♪ This is my year