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Previously on This Is Us...
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TOBY:
Uh, he's here.
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It's a boy.
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He's really, really small.
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ANNOUNCER:
Ladies and gentlemen,
Jack Damon.
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(cheering, applause, whistling)
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I'm pregnant.
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(laughs):
Lucy, oh, my God.
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I'm not gonna do
that trial, Randall.
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Well, Mom, whatever you want
to do, that's what we'll do.
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RANDALL (over phone):
I'm gonna ask you
for something now.
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Mom, you have to do
this clinical trial.
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*
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Okay.
(shudders)
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Anything?
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Nothing.
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They'll want to induce soon.
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You're only a few days late.
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What can I do?
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I'm good, baby.
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This one, however,
has another request.
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(both chuckle softly)
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(sighs)
Anything in particular?
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Hmm...
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Everyone always wants
to hear the hits.
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-Mm-hmm.
-(strums chord)
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* Can one wrong turn *
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* Give me new direction? *
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* Can one false move *
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* Bring me one true friend? *
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* Could a stranger ever end up *
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-* Being you? *
-Whoa.
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(neighing)
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-Whoa...
-* We took it back *
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Whoa, son.
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* In all directions... *
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Whoa! Whoa!
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How much you pay for that thing?
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He was free.
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Paid too much, you ask me.
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(neighing)
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* Is there a message *
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* A pathway, something more? *
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...incredible
distribution of light.
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But I'll give you a moment
to think about it.
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* Oh, in the quiet way *
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* You caught my eye *
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* Oh *
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* I got enough... *
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Why, hello, Hailey.
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I was just wondering
if you've given
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any thought to the question
I posed to you yesterday.
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Zach, you're a really great guy.
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I mean, you're probably my...
best friend.
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Can you get the pencils
out of your nose, please?
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But I think...
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that us going on a date
right now
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would be a really bad idea.
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You're hung up on that guy,
aren't you?
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Your famous big shot
one-night stand?
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At least tell me who it is.
Is it a movie star?
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Not someone too old for you.
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Oh, my God.
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-Is it Leo?
-Zach...
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Welcome to the Kohn Gallery.
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(whispers):
It's a movie star.
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LUCY:
Jack?
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That song is so good.
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Aw, thanks, boo.
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That's sweet of you to say
after all this time.
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Like, it's so good,
I think you just made me
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start having contractions.
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(Lucy sighing, groaning)
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(dog whines)
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-(dog whines, barks)
-Jack?
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Yep, I'm coming.
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-(barking)
-(Jack exhales)
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(Jack and Lucy whispering
indistinctly)
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(Lucy exhales)
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REBECCA:
Suit's on?
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(sighs):
Yes, ma'am.
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Your birthday suit.
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-Only one I've got.
-All right.
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That is
an incredibly bulky bathrobe.
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If you think that I'm gonna
stand in front of you naked
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in the daylight
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a year after giving birth
to multiple children...
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Them is the rules.
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Well, the rules have changed.
Have a cupcake.
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Yeah, but I don't want
a cupcake.
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I want... (muttering)
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-(laughing)
-(babies crying)
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-Oh, God.
-(sighs)
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Well, maybe next year, slugger,
'cause it's their birthday, too,
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and... they can't
really be ignored. Sorry.
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All right, one-year-olds,
Mommy's comin'.
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(babies continue crying)
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*
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Okay, Bug,
so now that the cake has set,
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we are gonna lay in
the second layer
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-of frosting.
-All right.
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We really need a full-on
three-layer birthday cake
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for this guy, huh?
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I'm pretty sure
Jack would be happy
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mainlining sugar
right off the counter.
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-Yeah, it's tradition, Toby.
-KATE: Yeah.
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Okay? It's the Big Three.
There's three layers.
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REBECCA:
Uh-huh.
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TOBY:
Well, Jacky Boy, it looks like
it's three times
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the sugar rush for you.
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-Oh, that looks amazing, hon.
-Da-da-da, no.
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Jack, it's Mommy. Hi.
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MIGUEL:
Hey, when do, uh,
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Randall and the girls get in?
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I don't know.
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KATE:
Um, later today.
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But we probably won't see them
till the party tomorrow, so...
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And remember, we're doing cake
and presents early tomorrow,
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'cause, uh, in the afternoon...
I'm not gonna say what it is.
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-Right. -But it's a...
kind of a special...
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Well, it's a secret thing
just for the three of us.
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-Yeah.
-(Rebecca laughs)
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REBECCA: I thought that
you were intermittent fasting.
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What happened to that?
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MIGUEL:
Well, Miguel needs frosting.
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Oh, they don't care
about our secret thing.
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No, they most certainly do not.
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-Okay.
-But Jack does.
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Don't you?
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It's exciting!
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(Jack laughs)
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*
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NICKY:
What?
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Or, "Hey, nephew.
Good morning.
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Glad to hear from you."
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What?
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Look, I was just calling to say
that I got your gift for Jack.
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Well, least I could do.
You did, after all,
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get me a luxury mobile home.
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I mean, I got him a...
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I got him those dopey
white sneakers you always wear,
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you know,
with the green backs on them.
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Only, you know, in baby size.
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Yeah, the Stan Smiths.
Very thoughtful.
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Which, by the way,
you can just return
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and get something better,
if you want.
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I mean, it's no skin off my ass.
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Nicky, they are perfect.
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Yeah, I thought
they were kind of cute, too.
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You know, for...
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-a baby, not a grown man.
-Okay.
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Oh, you know,
there are billboards of you
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all over town.
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I think it's an ad
for your nipple?
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Uh, it's a cologne ad, okay?
And people love it.
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Hmm. Well,
it always makes me laugh.
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I think 'cause I know you.
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All right, listen,
I got to get into this meeting.
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But, hey, tomorrow is my,
uh, one-year sober.
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My one-year is
also Jack's birthday.
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Oh?
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Thought you might want
to congratulate me.
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I'll congratulate you tomorrow.
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Okay. Well, I do miss
your gentle touch.
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Have a good meeting.
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Thank you.
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Gonna miss you so much.
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I think you're just scared
to take your first plane flight.
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-Also that, yeah.
-(both laugh)
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Impressionable children
coming through.
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Keep it clean, people.
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(Randall chuckles)
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Hey, Beth!
Come on, let's go!
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Okay!
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Sorry, sorry.
You know black don't pack.
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Is that a thing?
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I don't know,
I just came up with it.
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-(Randall chuckles)
-Are the doors locked?
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-Gonna set the alarm.
-Yep.
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Got Mom some travel books
about Saint Louis.
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She's gonna be there
for nine months.
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-She can get her barbecue on.
-Mm-hmm.
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What'd you say?
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I said, "Mm-hmm."
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(chuckles):
It's... it's a noise.
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Yeah, it's a noise that you make
any time I bring up my mom
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going to Saint Louis.
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-Set the alarm.
-(buttons beeping)
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All right, we got 30 seconds
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before this place
self-destructs.
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-Let's hit it!
-Hey, Beth, do you not think
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the clinical trial is
a good idea?
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I think that your mom
made her decision.
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I think the tactics you used
to get her to change her mind
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are... "mmm."
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I mean, did she
even tell your brother
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that she changed her mind?
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Because that's...
that's gonna be something.
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I think she's planning
on telling all of us
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once we get out there.
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(beeping)
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Don't say, "Mmm."
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Look, I just hope
you know what you're doing.
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-But you usually do, so...
-Mm.
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-(beeping continues)
-All right?
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-Let's go!
-(groans): Ah...
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Just 'cause you're cute.
That's all it is.
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AUTOMATED VOICE:
Alarm set.
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-"Abigail" for a girl?
-Hmm.
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They call her Abby,
rhymes with "scabby,"
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and she has a terrible life.
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We should have
just learned the sex.
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It would have eliminated half
the awful options.
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-No, it'll come.
-(long exhale)
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We both wanted it to be
a surprise, remember?
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You're right.
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Jack.
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We're having a baby today.
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We're having a baby today.
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WOMAN:
Okay, how we doing?
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You ready to get this
little girl out into the world?
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*
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(chuckling):
Yeah.
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-* They say that these
are not the best of times *
-(indistinct, excited chatter)
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* But they're the only times
I've ever known *
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* And I believe
there is a time *
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* For meditation *
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* In cathedrals of our own *
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* Now, I have seen
that sad surrender *
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* In my lover's eyes *
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* And I can only stand apart *
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* And sympathize *
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* For we are always
what our situations hand us *
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* It's either sadness *
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* Or euphoria *
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*
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* So we'll argue
and we'll compromise *
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* And realize *
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* That nothing's ever changed *
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* For all
our mutual experience *
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* Our separate conclusions
are the same *
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* Now we are forced to recognize
our inhumanity *
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* A reason coexists
with our insanity *
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* Though we choose
between reality and madness *
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-* It's either sadness
or euphoria *
-(chatter, babies crying)
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JACK:
Oh, hey, bud.
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Hey, it's okay.
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Check out this cake
that Mom made, huh?
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You okay?
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-(crying continues)
-I'm fine.
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Go. And he is...
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-He's in. Look at him.
-(gasps)
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-Look at your shoes.
-That's quite handsome.
254
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All right, go show 'em off.
Go show off your kicks.
255
00:11:37,464 --> 00:11:39,900
-(exhales)
-(Beth chuckles softly)
256
00:11:39,933 --> 00:11:42,269
Excuse me, ma'am,
but your husband here
257
00:11:42,302 --> 00:11:44,437
has been "oogling" me all day.
258
00:11:44,471 --> 00:11:47,007
Is it "oogling" or "ogling,"
by the way?
259
00:11:47,040 --> 00:11:48,508
-Ogling.
-You sure?
260
00:11:48,541 --> 00:11:49,509
-No.
-Huh.
261
00:11:49,542 --> 00:11:51,745
All right.
262
00:11:51,779 --> 00:11:53,947
Okay, that's my cue.
263
00:11:53,981 --> 00:11:56,183
I'm gonna go house some cake.
264
00:11:56,216 --> 00:11:57,284
All right.
265
00:12:00,053 --> 00:12:01,188
(inhales deeply)
266
00:12:01,221 --> 00:12:02,555
(exhales)
267
00:12:05,292 --> 00:12:07,861
We haven't really got a chance
to talk since New York.
268
00:12:07,895 --> 00:12:09,396
So...
269
00:12:09,429 --> 00:12:11,298
(sighs)
270
00:12:11,331 --> 00:12:14,768
Randall, I know that you
just wanted what's best for Mom.
271
00:12:14,802 --> 00:12:16,536
And I also know
that you wouldn't have asked her
272
00:12:16,569 --> 00:12:18,205
to do that trial
if you hadn't done
273
00:12:18,238 --> 00:12:19,606
an insane amount of research.
274
00:12:19,639 --> 00:12:21,474
I mean, like,
Claire Danes in Homeland
275
00:12:21,508 --> 00:12:22,810
insane research.
276
00:12:22,843 --> 00:12:24,644
I get that, but...
277
00:12:24,677 --> 00:12:26,880
I want you to know
where I'm coming from.
278
00:12:26,914 --> 00:12:28,481
You know? I just...
279
00:12:28,515 --> 00:12:31,651
Mom is in a really good place
right now.
280
00:12:31,684 --> 00:12:34,054
She's here with her family.
281
00:12:34,087 --> 00:12:36,056
It's what she wants.
282
00:12:36,089 --> 00:12:39,092
It's what's best for her.
283
00:12:40,460 --> 00:12:42,595
(pats leg)
284
00:12:44,097 --> 00:12:45,465
Congrats, by the way.
285
00:12:45,498 --> 00:12:46,967
What?
286
00:12:47,000 --> 00:12:49,169
One year.
287
00:12:51,104 --> 00:12:54,141
Thank you.
288
00:12:54,174 --> 00:12:56,676
TOBY:
Does Baby Jack have
an adorable outfit change,
289
00:12:56,709 --> 00:12:57,677
-you ask?
-(laughs)
290
00:12:57,710 --> 00:12:59,246
-Uh, do skunks smell?
-(chuckling)
291
00:12:59,279 --> 00:13:00,247
Hmm?
(kissing)
292
00:13:00,280 --> 00:13:02,850
Ladies, shall we?
293
00:13:02,883 --> 00:13:03,951
(chuckling)
294
00:13:03,984 --> 00:13:05,352
KATE:
Thanks, girls.
295
00:13:09,556 --> 00:13:10,523
Um...
(clears throat)
296
00:13:10,557 --> 00:13:13,126
Guys, so I have, um...
297
00:13:13,160 --> 00:13:15,462
I have a little bit
of an announcement.
298
00:13:15,495 --> 00:13:18,131
Uh...
299
00:13:18,165 --> 00:13:19,332
Oh, damn.
300
00:13:19,366 --> 00:13:22,635
I think I left my thing
in the... That's odd.
301
00:13:23,904 --> 00:13:26,840
Um...
302
00:13:26,874 --> 00:13:29,442
I know in New York
I told you boys
303
00:13:29,476 --> 00:13:33,446
that I was looking forward
to enjoying
304
00:13:33,480 --> 00:13:36,283
however much time I have left.
305
00:13:36,316 --> 00:13:39,619
But Miguel and I
have been doing the research,
306
00:13:39,652 --> 00:13:41,121
and...
307
00:13:41,154 --> 00:13:43,723
I have decided to do
308
00:13:43,756 --> 00:13:45,926
the clinical trial.
309
00:13:49,429 --> 00:13:51,631
So, three weeks from now,
310
00:13:51,664 --> 00:13:54,868
Miguel and I are moving
to Saint Louis.
311
00:13:54,902 --> 00:13:57,004
For how long?
312
00:13:57,037 --> 00:13:58,671
It's nine months.
313
00:13:58,705 --> 00:14:02,709
But-but then we're gonna be
back here with all of you.
314
00:14:02,742 --> 00:14:04,978
RANDALL:
We will come visit you
as much as we can, Mom.
315
00:14:05,012 --> 00:14:06,546
-Yeah?
-Whatever it takes.
316
00:14:06,579 --> 00:14:08,048
-Right, guys?
-Thank you.
317
00:14:08,081 --> 00:14:10,383
-Thank you, sweetheart.
-Yeah.
318
00:14:10,417 --> 00:14:11,784
Appreciate that.
319
00:14:15,923 --> 00:14:17,657
This is what you want?
320
00:14:17,690 --> 00:14:19,492
Mm-hmm. Yep.
321
00:14:19,526 --> 00:14:21,929
It is.
322
00:14:25,532 --> 00:14:27,000
Well, then yeah.
323
00:14:27,034 --> 00:14:28,535
You know? Yeah, of course.
Whatever you want.
324
00:14:29,903 --> 00:14:31,671
REBECCA:
Thanks for understanding.
325
00:14:31,704 --> 00:14:34,074
Of course.
326
00:14:34,107 --> 00:14:36,809
Ooh.
(exhales)
327
00:14:41,614 --> 00:14:44,251
Whoa! Whoa. Whoa, whoa.
328
00:14:46,954 --> 00:14:49,189
Didn't know 7:00 a.m.
was amateur hour.
329
00:14:49,222 --> 00:14:50,457
(chuckles)
330
00:14:50,490 --> 00:14:52,459
Cute. 'Cause I have
a faint memory
331
00:14:52,492 --> 00:14:55,528
of teaching you
everything you know.
332
00:14:55,562 --> 00:14:56,529
Morning, baby.
333
00:14:56,563 --> 00:14:58,198
Morning, Dad.
334
00:14:58,231 --> 00:15:01,434
This new bay may be a lemon.
335
00:15:01,468 --> 00:15:04,771
-(horse jerks)
-Whoa.
336
00:15:04,804 --> 00:15:06,406
-(sputters)
-Whoa, whoa, whoa.
-Whoa.
337
00:15:06,439 --> 00:15:08,075
Sadie. Sadie.
338
00:15:08,108 --> 00:15:09,242
SADIE:
It's okay.
339
00:15:09,276 --> 00:15:11,378
Hi. You're okay.
340
00:15:11,411 --> 00:15:14,047
It's okay. Hey.
It's okay.
341
00:15:14,081 --> 00:15:15,448
Hey.
342
00:15:15,482 --> 00:15:16,916
Let me take him.
343
00:15:19,686 --> 00:15:21,421
Come on.
344
00:15:24,024 --> 00:15:25,658
(chuckles softly)
345
00:15:25,692 --> 00:15:29,997
I love the way he uses color
to challenge the eye.
346
00:15:30,030 --> 00:15:32,665
You see? The juxtaposition
of opposing colors.
347
00:15:32,699 --> 00:15:35,102
It's just... it's so compelling.
348
00:15:35,135 --> 00:15:36,703
(watch buzzes)
349
00:15:39,039 --> 00:15:41,041
-If you'll excuse me.
-Yeah.
350
00:15:42,375 --> 00:15:44,011
(exhaling)
351
00:15:44,044 --> 00:15:46,513
-Hey, will you cover for me?
-Yeah, of course.
352
00:15:46,546 --> 00:15:49,116
-Okay.
-Wait, where are you going?
353
00:15:49,149 --> 00:15:50,850
Is it him?
354
00:15:50,883 --> 00:15:53,053
It's him, isn't it?
355
00:15:54,988 --> 00:15:56,523
I just don't get it.
356
00:15:56,556 --> 00:15:58,691
I mean,
Mom was so sure last week.
357
00:15:58,725 --> 00:16:00,127
I know.
358
00:16:00,160 --> 00:16:02,362
We had this whole talk when
she came back from New York,
359
00:16:02,395 --> 00:16:05,265
and she said she was excited
to spend time with Jack,
360
00:16:05,298 --> 00:16:06,333
to travel.
361
00:16:06,366 --> 00:16:07,534
She said "carpe diem," like,
362
00:16:07,567 --> 00:16:09,369
-12 times. It was like...
-Mm.
363
00:16:09,402 --> 00:16:11,538
She didn't say anything to you,
Randall?
364
00:16:11,571 --> 00:16:14,207
No, she probably just sees
the clinical trial
365
00:16:14,241 --> 00:16:16,676
as an investment in her future.
366
00:16:16,709 --> 00:16:18,278
Oh...
367
00:16:18,311 --> 00:16:19,646
-(snorts)
-A what?
368
00:16:19,679 --> 00:16:21,148
-An investment in her future?
-Yeah.
369
00:16:21,181 --> 00:16:23,116
-Yeah.
-(clears throat)
-Question for you.
370
00:16:23,150 --> 00:16:26,053
-Yeah.
-Do you get progressively
weirder as you get older?
371
00:16:26,086 --> 00:16:27,654
-Is that what happened?
-Of course.
Yes, that's what's happening.
372
00:16:27,687 --> 00:16:29,122
-He gets weirder
as he gets older.
-Okay. So then when does it end?
373
00:16:29,156 --> 00:16:31,024
-Course that's what's going on.
-Is it like you're gonna wake up
374
00:16:31,058 --> 00:16:32,525
one day and, like,
you're Steve Buscemi?
375
00:16:32,559 --> 00:16:33,893
-(laughs)
-He's... That's...
Steve Buscemi is, like...
376
00:16:33,926 --> 00:16:35,728
-That's his baseline.
-(laughs)
-Okay.
377
00:16:35,762 --> 00:16:37,530
-When-when it comes to Randall.
-His baseline.
-Coming from you two pillars
378
00:16:37,564 --> 00:16:39,332
-of normalcy over here.
-KEVIN: What are you talking
about? We're normal.
379
00:16:39,366 --> 00:16:42,069
-RANDALL: You guys are freaks.
-(Kate laughs)
-You hear that, Jack?
380
00:16:42,102 --> 00:16:46,406
That's the sound of the Big
Three just teasing and laughing.
381
00:16:46,439 --> 00:16:49,376
It's pretty much the most
beautiful sound in all the land.
382
00:16:49,409 --> 00:16:51,178
(speaking indistinctly)
383
00:16:51,211 --> 00:16:52,345
Hey, Kate.
384
00:16:52,379 --> 00:16:53,546
Hi. Sorry. Kate.
385
00:16:53,580 --> 00:16:55,382
-Kate. Hi.
-Yes? Hi.
386
00:16:55,415 --> 00:16:58,017
Is it time to go see that guy
about that thing?
387
00:16:58,051 --> 00:17:01,654
Yes, it is time to see that guy
about our...
388
00:17:01,688 --> 00:17:03,890
secret, special thing.
389
00:17:03,923 --> 00:17:05,692
-Cool.
-Okay.
390
00:17:05,725 --> 00:17:07,860
It's a special, secret thing
just for the three of us,
391
00:17:07,894 --> 00:17:09,229
-so...
-Yeah.
392
00:17:09,262 --> 00:17:10,430
Have fun with it.
393
00:17:10,463 --> 00:17:13,100
(exhales)
Enjoy it.
394
00:17:13,133 --> 00:17:14,534
Nobody cares
about our secret, special thing.
395
00:17:14,567 --> 00:17:16,103
I know, babe.
396
00:17:19,472 --> 00:17:22,041
I wonder what happened
to change Mom's mind.
397
00:17:23,076 --> 00:17:25,078
Hmm.
398
00:17:31,584 --> 00:17:34,287
Kids are all down.
399
00:17:34,321 --> 00:17:36,123
Took a while,
400
00:17:36,156 --> 00:17:40,026
with all that sugar
coursing through their veins.
401
00:17:40,059 --> 00:17:42,762
Thank you, babe.
402
00:17:42,795 --> 00:17:44,431
I'm sorry.
403
00:17:44,464 --> 00:17:47,367
It's okay.
404
00:17:47,400 --> 00:17:51,404
I've just been thinking a lot
about their first year, Jack.
405
00:17:52,672 --> 00:17:55,908
Kate's first tooth and...
406
00:17:55,942 --> 00:17:58,945
Randall's first words.
407
00:17:59,946 --> 00:18:03,183
Kevin's first steps.
408
00:18:07,620 --> 00:18:11,090
But then I've been thinking
a lot about what his firsts
409
00:18:11,124 --> 00:18:13,526
would have been, too.
410
00:18:15,295 --> 00:18:17,297
Kyle.
411
00:18:18,331 --> 00:18:20,567
(sniffles)
412
00:18:20,600 --> 00:18:24,671
We never even say his name.
413
00:18:26,139 --> 00:18:28,107
It's like I can't...
414
00:18:28,141 --> 00:18:31,444
allow my brain to go there.
415
00:18:31,478 --> 00:18:34,113
I mean, I can't even bear
to watch the home movies of me
416
00:18:34,147 --> 00:18:36,983
-when I was pregnant, because
that's the only image I have...
-Yeah. No, I know.
417
00:18:37,016 --> 00:18:38,985
I think about him, too.
418
00:18:39,018 --> 00:18:40,420
-Yeah?
-Yeah.
419
00:18:40,453 --> 00:18:41,954
A lot.
420
00:18:42,989 --> 00:18:44,924
I just...
421
00:18:44,957 --> 00:18:47,594
I didn't know
if there was something
422
00:18:47,627 --> 00:18:49,162
we were supposed to do.
423
00:18:49,196 --> 00:18:50,597
Yeah.
424
00:18:50,630 --> 00:18:55,001
I just knew that...
425
00:18:55,034 --> 00:18:57,804
thinking about him
made me feel sad,
426
00:18:57,837 --> 00:18:59,972
and...
427
00:19:00,006 --> 00:19:03,676
I-I didn't know
what to do with that.
428
00:19:05,578 --> 00:19:07,113
Me, too.
(exhales)
429
00:19:07,146 --> 00:19:10,016
(sniffles)
430
00:19:10,049 --> 00:19:12,419
(sighs)
431
00:19:18,991 --> 00:19:23,062
Hey, you up... for a ride?
432
00:19:24,597 --> 00:19:27,066
Yeah?
433
00:19:27,099 --> 00:19:28,601
(knocking)
434
00:19:32,605 --> 00:19:35,074
(chuckles):
Well, isn't this a surprise?
435
00:19:35,107 --> 00:19:37,244
-Come on in.
-(Rebecca laughs)
-Yeah, well,
436
00:19:37,277 --> 00:19:40,880
it's their birthday,
and, uh, they wanted to see you.
437
00:19:40,913 --> 00:19:43,383
They couldn't shut up about it,
honestly.
438
00:19:43,416 --> 00:19:45,184
Well, I do leave an impression.
439
00:19:45,218 --> 00:19:46,886
-(chuckles)
-Gracious, they're getting big.
-Yeah.
440
00:19:46,919 --> 00:19:48,421
-You want out of here.
-(Rebecca laughs)
441
00:19:48,455 --> 00:19:49,822
-She does.
-JACK: Mm-hmm.
-Come here.
442
00:19:49,856 --> 00:19:52,759
I remember you, Kate.
I've known you all your life.
443
00:19:59,399 --> 00:20:01,568
(groaning, breathing deeply)
444
00:20:03,202 --> 00:20:04,704
*
445
00:20:07,574 --> 00:20:09,576
Okay, Jack.
446
00:20:11,444 --> 00:20:13,413
Wow, do you remember this place?
447
00:20:13,446 --> 00:20:15,382
Huh?
448
00:20:17,750 --> 00:20:19,018
This is where you...
449
00:20:19,051 --> 00:20:22,255
It's where you started.
It's where it all started.
450
00:20:22,289 --> 00:20:23,256
Yeah.
451
00:20:23,290 --> 00:20:25,024
Ready?
452
00:20:25,057 --> 00:20:26,359
-Yeah.
-Okay.
453
00:20:26,393 --> 00:20:28,027
-Okay.
-(Toby makes whooshing sound)
454
00:20:28,060 --> 00:20:30,530
-Here we go.
-You made it, buddy.
455
00:20:30,563 --> 00:20:31,698
-The Wall of Fame.
-(exhales)
456
00:20:31,731 --> 00:20:33,933
-"Yay!"
-(chuckles)
457
00:20:33,966 --> 00:20:35,768
Here we go.
458
00:20:36,969 --> 00:20:38,938
(chuckles)
459
00:20:38,971 --> 00:20:40,607
Ready?
460
00:20:40,640 --> 00:20:42,208
Okay.
461
00:20:42,241 --> 00:20:44,277
That's the picture.
462
00:20:44,311 --> 00:20:46,379
Yeah.
463
00:20:46,413 --> 00:20:48,415
(chuckles):
Yeah. Yeah.
464
00:20:50,483 --> 00:20:53,553
It's really strange,
being back.
465
00:20:53,586 --> 00:20:54,954
TOBY:
Yeah.
466
00:20:54,987 --> 00:20:57,957
Hey, do you remember
467
00:20:57,990 --> 00:21:00,293
right after you woke up?
468
00:21:00,327 --> 00:21:01,894
It was just...
469
00:21:01,928 --> 00:21:05,598
It was just me and you
right after the C-section.
470
00:21:05,632 --> 00:21:07,867
Foggy. Not really.
471
00:21:10,837 --> 00:21:12,839
(monitor beeping steadily)
472
00:21:14,641 --> 00:21:15,775
Hi.
473
00:21:20,046 --> 00:21:21,448
It's a boy.
474
00:21:21,481 --> 00:21:23,015
How big?
475
00:21:23,049 --> 00:21:25,452
He's... small,
476
00:21:25,485 --> 00:21:27,354
but he has really good color
and...
477
00:21:27,387 --> 00:21:30,122
How big?
478
00:21:30,156 --> 00:21:32,525
Two and a half.
479
00:21:34,694 --> 00:21:37,096
-Two...
-He's small, Kate,
480
00:21:37,129 --> 00:21:39,366
and he's... and he's
not breathing on his own yet.
481
00:21:39,399 --> 00:21:41,468
But he is here.
482
00:21:41,501 --> 00:21:43,302
Okay?
483
00:21:43,336 --> 00:21:45,838
And I'm here.
484
00:21:48,074 --> 00:21:49,542
And we're gonna get
through this together.
485
00:21:49,576 --> 00:21:51,544
All right? The three of us.
486
00:21:52,979 --> 00:21:57,283
I haven't been the best version
of myself this year, Kate.
487
00:21:57,316 --> 00:21:59,118
And I'm sorry.
488
00:21:59,151 --> 00:22:01,320
But I am still here.
489
00:22:02,422 --> 00:22:05,425
The three of us... are here.
490
00:22:06,859 --> 00:22:08,995
(whispering):
Yes, we are.
491
00:22:14,000 --> 00:22:16,836
But I don't know, you know?
492
00:22:16,869 --> 00:22:20,440
Your whole life has been
defined by family.
493
00:22:21,674 --> 00:22:23,543
And I love that.
494
00:22:23,576 --> 00:22:25,412
I-I love watching you
all together.
495
00:22:25,445 --> 00:22:27,847
-(chuckles softly)
-And today, I was watching
496
00:22:27,880 --> 00:22:29,248
Randall and his daughters,
497
00:22:29,281 --> 00:22:30,917
I was watching you
with your brothers,
498
00:22:30,950 --> 00:22:33,853
I was watching all of you,
and I was thinking,
499
00:22:33,886 --> 00:22:35,888
"Doesn't Jack deserve that?"
500
00:22:37,590 --> 00:22:42,429
Doesn't he deserve someone
to spend his childhood with?
501
00:22:42,462 --> 00:22:46,132
To lean on
long after you and I are gone?
502
00:22:48,267 --> 00:22:50,870
Toby, what are you saying?
503
00:22:50,903 --> 00:22:53,105
I'm saying, don't you think
504
00:22:53,139 --> 00:22:55,542
-our amazing little man...
-(Jack babbles)
505
00:22:55,575 --> 00:22:58,077
...deserves a sibling?
506
00:23:09,121 --> 00:23:11,090
KATE:
Toby, I...
507
00:23:11,123 --> 00:23:13,693
I can't get pregnant again.
508
00:23:13,726 --> 00:23:17,430
I mean, not with all
the complications and...
509
00:23:17,464 --> 00:23:19,098
-I know.
-...the risks.
510
00:23:19,131 --> 00:23:20,733
No. I know. I know.
511
00:23:20,767 --> 00:23:22,635
(distant baby crying)
512
00:23:22,669 --> 00:23:26,773
But the Pearsons have a pretty
good track record with adoption,
513
00:23:26,806 --> 00:23:28,741
don't they?
514
00:23:30,009 --> 00:23:32,411
What?
515
00:23:40,119 --> 00:23:41,788
DR. K.:
So, you're having trouble
516
00:23:41,821 --> 00:23:44,290
thinking about the child
that you lost,
517
00:23:44,323 --> 00:23:48,795
and you thought that the old man
might have some words of wisdom.
518
00:23:48,828 --> 00:23:52,465
Yeah, that's, uh... that's it
in a nutshell. (chuckles)
519
00:23:52,499 --> 00:23:54,501
Hmm.
520
00:23:56,102 --> 00:23:58,505
I did the thing
about the lemons already, right?
521
00:23:58,538 --> 00:24:00,940
-You did. You did. Uh...
-(babbles)
522
00:24:00,973 --> 00:24:03,175
-A year ago today.
-Hmm. Damn.
523
00:24:03,209 --> 00:24:04,577
'Cause that was a good one.
524
00:24:04,611 --> 00:24:06,946
-(chuckling)
-Yeah. It had a...
525
00:24:06,979 --> 00:24:10,149
-sizable impact on our lives.
-JACK: Mm-hmm.
526
00:24:10,182 --> 00:24:11,951
(Rebecca laughs)
527
00:24:11,984 --> 00:24:14,787
(Rebecca sighs)
528
00:24:14,821 --> 00:24:17,156
I-I think I told you
last year, Jack,
529
00:24:17,189 --> 00:24:19,659
that my wife and I
lost our first child.
530
00:24:19,692 --> 00:24:22,294
Yeah, mm-hmm.
531
00:24:22,328 --> 00:24:25,998
Well, imagine me
way back then, if you can,
532
00:24:26,032 --> 00:24:28,200
full of hope,
533
00:24:28,234 --> 00:24:31,170
-full head of hair,
-(Jack and Rebecca chuckle)
534
00:24:31,203 --> 00:24:33,640
expecting my first child.
535
00:24:37,209 --> 00:24:39,045
(laughs)
536
00:24:39,078 --> 00:24:42,148
I used to sing
to my wife's pregnant belly.
537
00:24:42,181 --> 00:24:45,718
Never had much of a voice,
but that didn't stop me.
538
00:24:45,752 --> 00:24:48,120
My go-to was, uh, "Blue Skies."
539
00:24:48,154 --> 00:24:49,522
You know that one?
540
00:24:49,556 --> 00:24:51,023
Uh...
541
00:24:52,258 --> 00:24:55,361
* Blue skies smilin' at me *
542
00:24:55,394 --> 00:24:58,531
* Nothin' but blue skies *
543
00:24:58,565 --> 00:25:02,301
* Do I see *
544
00:25:02,334 --> 00:25:05,504
* Bluebird singin' a song *
545
00:25:06,739 --> 00:25:10,476
* Nothin' but blue skies *
546
00:25:10,509 --> 00:25:13,112
* From now on. *
547
00:25:17,283 --> 00:25:20,419
I sang that song every day
to my unborn child.
548
00:25:23,289 --> 00:25:25,291
And then we lost that child.
549
00:25:30,062 --> 00:25:32,064
For the first month after that,
550
00:25:32,098 --> 00:25:35,501
my wife and I would...
sit in our den
551
00:25:35,534 --> 00:25:38,671
and listen to that song on
our scratchy old record player
552
00:25:38,705 --> 00:25:40,873
over and over and over again.
553
00:25:42,775 --> 00:25:44,777
It made us so sad.
554
00:25:48,781 --> 00:25:51,117
It was like
we were punishing ourselves.
555
00:25:52,652 --> 00:25:54,654
Yeah.
556
00:25:56,288 --> 00:25:58,257
But then one day,
557
00:25:58,290 --> 00:26:01,460
my wife got pregnant again.
558
00:26:01,493 --> 00:26:03,596
And to my great surprise,
559
00:26:03,630 --> 00:26:06,966
I found myself singing
that very same song
560
00:26:06,999 --> 00:26:09,435
to that very same belly.
561
00:26:12,739 --> 00:26:15,775
And then, 25 years later,
562
00:26:15,808 --> 00:26:19,145
I'd dance with my daughter
to that song at her wedding.
563
00:26:22,348 --> 00:26:25,251
That song. Ah.
564
00:26:25,284 --> 00:26:27,319
It made us happy,
it made us sad,
565
00:26:27,353 --> 00:26:29,088
it made us happy again.
566
00:26:29,121 --> 00:26:32,391
The whole human experience
just wrapped up in that one...
567
00:26:32,424 --> 00:26:34,426
song.
568
00:26:36,763 --> 00:26:39,531
Hospitals are kind of like that,
you know.
569
00:26:41,200 --> 00:26:43,803
These bizarre buildings
where people experience
570
00:26:43,836 --> 00:26:47,573
some of their greatest joys
and...
571
00:26:47,606 --> 00:26:52,111
some of their most awful
tragedies.
572
00:26:53,545 --> 00:26:56,649
All under one roof.
573
00:26:58,851 --> 00:27:02,121
I think the trick is...
574
00:27:02,154 --> 00:27:04,590
not trying to keep...
575
00:27:04,623 --> 00:27:07,660
the joys
and the tragedies apart.
576
00:27:07,694 --> 00:27:10,429
But you kind of got to let 'em
577
00:27:10,462 --> 00:27:13,199
cozy up to one another.
You know,
578
00:27:13,232 --> 00:27:15,501
let 'em coexist.
579
00:27:15,534 --> 00:27:18,838
Hey, Toby, our marriage
barely survived the year.
580
00:27:18,871 --> 00:27:20,840
We have a son
with special needs,
581
00:27:20,873 --> 00:27:24,510
we have a crazy mortgage,
and adoption comes with risks.
582
00:27:24,543 --> 00:27:26,378
You know? I just think
we're setting ourselves up
583
00:27:26,412 --> 00:27:28,114
for a major body blow here.
584
00:27:28,147 --> 00:27:30,116
Yeah, maybe being in the NICU
585
00:27:30,149 --> 00:27:33,686
just made us emotionally high.
586
00:27:35,587 --> 00:27:37,456
I mean, will we even
really want this
587
00:27:37,489 --> 00:27:39,458
once we've left the parking lot?
588
00:27:39,491 --> 00:27:41,027
Probably not.
589
00:27:41,060 --> 00:27:43,229
-Yeah.
-(engine starts)
590
00:27:51,670 --> 00:27:54,573
DR. K.:
And I think that if
you can do that, if you can
591
00:27:54,606 --> 00:27:56,508
manage to forge ahead
592
00:27:56,542 --> 00:28:01,714
with all that joy and heartache
mixed up together inside of you,
593
00:28:01,748 --> 00:28:05,017
never knowing which one's
gonna get the upper hand...
594
00:28:05,051 --> 00:28:07,186
All right,
we're out of the parking lot.
595
00:28:07,219 --> 00:28:09,055
Yeah.
596
00:28:10,256 --> 00:28:12,258
I still want it.
597
00:28:13,559 --> 00:28:15,427
Me, too.
598
00:28:16,695 --> 00:28:18,530
Well, there you have it.
599
00:28:18,564 --> 00:28:20,266
(laughs)
600
00:28:23,635 --> 00:28:25,938
Boy or girl? Boy or girl?
601
00:28:25,972 --> 00:28:27,439
-Ma'am?
-It's okay.
602
00:28:27,473 --> 00:28:29,508
-She's my sister.
-It's a girl.
603
00:28:29,541 --> 00:28:31,410
-Oh, thank God.
-(laughing)
604
00:28:31,443 --> 00:28:34,080
Let me see my niece.
605
00:28:34,113 --> 00:28:36,082
Oh. (laughs) Yes!
606
00:28:36,115 --> 00:28:38,250
(drumming steering wheel
rhythmically)
607
00:28:38,284 --> 00:28:39,919
-(laughs)
-DR. K.: And,
608
00:28:39,952 --> 00:28:42,288
well, life does have a way
609
00:28:42,321 --> 00:28:44,256
of shaking out
to be more beautiful
610
00:28:44,290 --> 00:28:47,093
than tragic.
611
00:28:49,295 --> 00:28:51,030
Not as good as the lemon thing,
612
00:28:51,063 --> 00:28:53,399
but it's the best I can do
at short notice.
613
00:28:53,432 --> 00:28:55,401
(Rebecca and Jack laugh)
614
00:28:55,434 --> 00:28:56,936
-It's pretty good.
-Yeah.
615
00:29:04,010 --> 00:29:06,112
(clicks tongue)
Come on, George. Come on.
616
00:29:06,145 --> 00:29:07,780
(clicks tongue) Come on.
617
00:29:07,814 --> 00:29:10,149
(clicks tongue) He was
cooped up in a small pasture
618
00:29:10,182 --> 00:29:12,484
with three other horses
before we found him.
619
00:29:12,518 --> 00:29:15,487
You're asking him to be still
when all he wants to do is run.
620
00:29:16,755 --> 00:29:18,590
Come on, George.
621
00:29:18,624 --> 00:29:21,593
Little early to give up on him,
don't you think?
622
00:29:21,627 --> 00:29:24,730
You haven't even given him
a chance to be himself yet.
623
00:29:24,763 --> 00:29:27,666
Whoa. Come on. There you go.
624
00:29:27,699 --> 00:29:29,802
You're getting too tall
and too smart.
625
00:29:31,103 --> 00:29:33,239
I got to shower
and head to the office.
626
00:29:33,272 --> 00:29:34,606
Okay.
627
00:29:34,640 --> 00:29:37,343
-I love you, honey.
-Love you.
628
00:29:48,654 --> 00:29:51,390
(sighs)
629
00:29:57,363 --> 00:29:59,832
Okay.
630
00:29:59,866 --> 00:30:02,468
And how are we feeling today?
631
00:30:02,501 --> 00:30:04,603
Same... really.
632
00:30:04,636 --> 00:30:07,339
I'll take "same" every day.
633
00:30:09,909 --> 00:30:12,611
Oh, blood work looks good.
634
00:30:12,644 --> 00:30:15,514
Everything seems...
635
00:30:16,582 --> 00:30:19,385
Sorry. (sighs)
636
00:30:19,418 --> 00:30:22,321
I just still can't believe
I'm here.
637
00:30:22,354 --> 00:30:25,357
Uh, bulimia.
638
00:30:25,391 --> 00:30:28,961
I didn't have my period
for years.
639
00:30:28,995 --> 00:30:31,763
They told me I'd probably
never have children.
640
00:30:32,932 --> 00:30:35,001
Well...
641
00:30:35,034 --> 00:30:37,403
you definitely
proved them wrong.
642
00:30:41,874 --> 00:30:44,143
Madison, this is your...
643
00:30:44,176 --> 00:30:46,879
third appointment alone.
644
00:30:46,913 --> 00:30:49,181
Is there anyone you can...?
645
00:30:50,917 --> 00:30:53,419
I haven't told anyone.
646
00:30:53,452 --> 00:30:55,387
I'm, um...
647
00:30:55,421 --> 00:30:59,525
I'm not close with my family,
and, um,
648
00:30:59,558 --> 00:31:02,361
I only have one good friend,
and I can't tell her.
649
00:31:04,063 --> 00:31:07,166
I told a barista at Starbucks.
650
00:31:07,199 --> 00:31:09,301
He was not invested.
651
00:31:11,737 --> 00:31:15,507
And the father...?
652
00:31:15,541 --> 00:31:19,178
We barely know each other.
653
00:31:19,211 --> 00:31:22,248
Actually, the only thing
I definitively know about him
654
00:31:22,281 --> 00:31:24,216
is that he...
655
00:31:24,250 --> 00:31:27,119
comes from a long line
of great love stories.
656
00:31:29,455 --> 00:31:31,857
And this...
657
00:31:31,890 --> 00:31:34,426
This would not be what he wants.
658
00:31:37,263 --> 00:31:39,331
There's no way he'd...
659
00:31:40,666 --> 00:31:42,668
There's no way he'd want this.
660
00:31:46,772 --> 00:31:48,907
Little early to give up on him.
661
00:31:50,276 --> 00:31:52,311
No?
662
00:31:52,344 --> 00:31:55,681
You haven't even given him
a chance to be himself yet.
663
00:32:02,921 --> 00:32:04,523
Hey, Mom.
664
00:32:05,791 --> 00:32:08,460
Hey, sweetheart.
665
00:32:08,494 --> 00:32:10,596
We were just about to, uh,
666
00:32:10,629 --> 00:32:13,299
show Beth and the girls
Hollywood Boulevard
667
00:32:13,332 --> 00:32:15,601
and the, um...
668
00:32:15,634 --> 00:32:17,003
the... the footprints.
669
00:32:17,036 --> 00:32:18,437
-Footprints, yeah.
-Yeah.
670
00:32:18,470 --> 00:32:20,739
Did you get enough to eat?
671
00:32:20,772 --> 00:32:23,642
Uh, no. Movie stars never
get enough to eat, Mom.
672
00:32:23,675 --> 00:32:25,277
-Have I taught you nothing?
-(laughs)
673
00:32:25,311 --> 00:32:27,313
Silly.
674
00:32:30,782 --> 00:32:32,484
Mom, you know,
I was really surprised
675
00:32:32,518 --> 00:32:35,021
about your announcement earlier.
I just...
676
00:32:35,054 --> 00:32:39,158
You-you seemed so adamant
in New York, you know.
677
00:32:39,191 --> 00:32:41,693
No, I-I-I know. I, um...
678
00:32:41,727 --> 00:32:44,363
I guess when I really started
to think about it, I...
679
00:32:44,396 --> 00:32:48,167
Mm, I just had
a change of heart, that's all.
680
00:32:49,368 --> 00:32:51,337
It's a big
change of heart, though.
681
00:32:52,838 --> 00:32:55,341
I think I just came to...
682
00:32:55,374 --> 00:32:58,510
view it as...
a-an investment in my future.
683
00:33:03,215 --> 00:33:04,883
What did you say?
684
00:33:04,916 --> 00:33:07,753
REBECCA:
Hmm? What?
685
00:33:09,155 --> 00:33:10,789
That's what Randall said.
686
00:33:10,822 --> 00:33:12,424
Oh.
687
00:33:22,101 --> 00:33:23,635
Hey, Kevin?
688
00:33:23,669 --> 00:33:25,537
Hey, Rebecca, what do you say
we get out of here
689
00:33:25,571 --> 00:33:26,572
and go see those Hamptons?
690
00:33:26,605 --> 00:33:28,040
-No, I...
-Rebecca.
691
00:33:28,074 --> 00:33:31,543
Let's get Miguel and the girls
and just clear out. Okay?
692
00:33:33,245 --> 00:33:35,747
-Hey, Miguel? Girls?
-Okay.
693
00:33:41,053 --> 00:33:42,854
What'd you say to her?
694
00:33:42,888 --> 00:33:44,590
-Sorry?
-Oh, no. Like hell you are.
695
00:33:44,623 --> 00:33:45,924
What did you say to Mom
696
00:33:45,957 --> 00:33:47,826
to convince her to go
to Saint Louis?
697
00:33:47,859 --> 00:33:50,629
-I have no idea
what you're talking...
-Don't do that.
698
00:33:54,200 --> 00:33:56,168
I did whatever I needed to do
699
00:33:56,202 --> 00:33:58,570
to give our mother
the best possible chance.
700
00:33:59,938 --> 00:34:01,540
You couldn't do it, huh?
701
00:34:01,573 --> 00:34:03,375
You just... you couldn't let her
side with me, Randall.
702
00:34:03,409 --> 00:34:04,876
(chuckles)
703
00:34:04,910 --> 00:34:08,013
Did you just say
I couldn't let her side with...
704
00:34:08,046 --> 00:34:10,916
-You know what, man?
We're not doing this. Yeah.
-No, like hell we're not.
705
00:34:10,949 --> 00:34:12,551
She was clear
about what she wanted.
706
00:34:12,584 --> 00:34:14,553
She was clear, Randall,
that whatever good time
707
00:34:14,586 --> 00:34:16,922
she had left, she wanted
to spend with her family.
708
00:34:16,955 --> 00:34:18,957
And whenever that good time
inevitably comes to an end,
709
00:34:18,990 --> 00:34:20,426
Kevin, every one of you
will regret
710
00:34:20,459 --> 00:34:21,893
not having fought
for more of it.
711
00:34:21,927 --> 00:34:23,295
Don't do it.
Don't walk away.
712
00:34:23,329 --> 00:34:25,264
Randall.
713
00:34:26,298 --> 00:34:28,134
Randall.
714
00:34:29,401 --> 00:34:31,270
-Randall. Hey, hey.
-What, man?
715
00:34:31,303 --> 00:34:33,572
-Man, take your hand off me.
-Oh, what are you gonna do, huh?
716
00:34:33,605 --> 00:34:34,806
What are you gonna do, Randall?
717
00:34:34,840 --> 00:34:36,074
I'm not some out-of-shape
purse snatcher.
718
00:34:36,108 --> 00:34:37,243
You gonna sucker punch me?
719
00:34:37,276 --> 00:34:39,077
(doorbell rings)
720
00:34:39,111 --> 00:34:41,413
I did what I needed to do
to help our mother.
721
00:34:41,447 --> 00:34:43,282
-Okay?
-Yeah. Regardless
of what she wanted, right?
722
00:34:43,315 --> 00:34:45,284
Regardless of what she needed.
723
00:34:45,317 --> 00:34:46,818
-(doorbell rings)
-(exhales, mutters)
724
00:34:46,852 --> 00:34:48,754
Who the hell is it?
725
00:34:48,787 --> 00:34:50,589
-What?
-Hey.
726
00:34:50,622 --> 00:34:52,791
Sorry I'm late for the party.
727
00:34:52,824 --> 00:34:54,793
This is really not a good time,
Madison.
728
00:34:54,826 --> 00:34:56,995
Actually, it's a perfect time.
I'm taking a walk.
729
00:34:57,028 --> 00:34:58,964
Randall.
730
00:35:01,133 --> 00:35:02,934
What's going on?
731
00:35:02,968 --> 00:35:04,503
-Where is everyone?
-This is literally
732
00:35:04,536 --> 00:35:08,174
the exact definition
of "not a good time."
733
00:35:08,207 --> 00:35:09,775
Kevin...
(exhales)
734
00:35:09,808 --> 00:35:12,511
we need to talk, and...
735
00:35:12,544 --> 00:35:14,513
we need to do it now,
before I lose my nerve.
736
00:35:14,546 --> 00:35:17,015
Look. (exhales)
Just, I'm...
737
00:35:17,048 --> 00:35:19,951
I'm not sure what we need
to talk about, honestly, okay?
738
00:35:19,985 --> 00:35:21,620
Uh, look, you were lonely.
739
00:35:21,653 --> 00:35:24,423
I get that.
I was, uh, heartbroken.
740
00:35:24,456 --> 00:35:25,824
And I don't know
why we have to relitigate
741
00:35:25,857 --> 00:35:27,293
the whole stupid thing.
I just...
742
00:35:27,326 --> 00:35:29,361
-You know, we made a mistake...
-I'm pregnant, Kevin.
743
00:35:31,997 --> 00:35:34,333
You're the father.
744
00:35:36,235 --> 00:35:38,204
It's the question I would ask.
745
00:35:38,237 --> 00:35:41,840
And... you are.
746
00:35:45,010 --> 00:35:47,246
I'm sorry.
747
00:35:48,314 --> 00:35:49,715
(exhales)
748
00:35:51,149 --> 00:35:53,319
I know I am
a complete stranger to you.
749
00:35:53,352 --> 00:35:55,721
I am just your sister's friend.
750
00:35:55,754 --> 00:35:59,725
And... I honestly know nothing
about you,
751
00:35:59,758 --> 00:36:03,695
other than how much you love
your high school girlfriend.
752
00:36:09,268 --> 00:36:12,504
I've decided
I'm gonna go through with this.
753
00:36:15,274 --> 00:36:17,409
You don't know
my medical history,
754
00:36:17,443 --> 00:36:20,679
but this is kind of
a miracle for me.
755
00:36:23,114 --> 00:36:28,153
But I need you to know
I will not ask anything of you.
756
00:36:28,186 --> 00:36:30,589
Emotionally, financially--
757
00:36:30,622 --> 00:36:33,559
all of it.
758
00:36:33,592 --> 00:36:35,994
You can still find the great
love story you deserve.
759
00:36:36,027 --> 00:36:37,095
Madison.
760
00:36:43,635 --> 00:36:45,704
I think I might pass out.
761
00:36:45,737 --> 00:36:47,539
I'm just... I'm gonna...
I'm not walking away
762
00:36:47,573 --> 00:36:49,541
from this conversation, okay?
763
00:36:49,575 --> 00:36:52,177
-I just... I need a minute to...
-Yeah. No.
764
00:36:52,210 --> 00:36:53,345
I'm sorry.
765
00:36:53,379 --> 00:36:54,746
Just...
766
00:36:54,780 --> 00:36:56,682
One second.
767
00:36:56,715 --> 00:36:57,916
(sniffs)
768
00:37:04,423 --> 00:37:06,292
(exhales)
769
00:37:06,325 --> 00:37:08,760
(breathing heavily)
770
00:37:14,766 --> 00:37:16,768
You know what, Kev, I'm not
gonna walk away from this.
771
00:37:16,802 --> 00:37:19,070
-Randall, please,
I can't do this right now.
-You think you know what's best
772
00:37:19,104 --> 00:37:20,572
for her because you spent
a day with her?
773
00:37:20,606 --> 00:37:22,308
Because you took her
to a movie premiere?
774
00:37:22,341 --> 00:37:24,410
I think I know what's best
for her because she told us,
775
00:37:24,443 --> 00:37:26,077
-Randall,
and you took that from her.
-How dare you, man?
776
00:37:26,111 --> 00:37:27,813
How dare you waltz in here
after 40 years?
777
00:37:27,846 --> 00:37:29,981
-How dare... (groaning)
-No, no, no. How dare I what?
778
00:37:30,015 --> 00:37:31,917
How dare you pretend
that you give a rat's ass
779
00:37:31,950 --> 00:37:34,085
about what anybody else wants
other than you?
780
00:37:34,119 --> 00:37:36,221
You want Mom to spend more time
with the family
781
00:37:36,254 --> 00:37:38,290
because you want
to spend more time with her.
782
00:37:38,324 --> 00:37:40,426
You want Mom to decide with you.
783
00:37:40,459 --> 00:37:42,494
-You, you, you.
-Are you kidding me right now?
784
00:37:42,528 --> 00:37:44,430
-This is about me?
-Huh.
785
00:37:44,463 --> 00:37:46,765
This isn't about me, Randall.
This is about you.
786
00:37:46,798 --> 00:37:49,067
It's not about Mom. It's about
you wanting to save Mom.
787
00:37:49,100 --> 00:37:50,836
-You have no idea.
-That's what this is about.
788
00:37:50,869 --> 00:37:52,671
You have no idea what
you're talking about, Kevin.
789
00:37:52,704 --> 00:37:54,906
You have no idea what it means
to actually take care of people.
790
00:37:54,940 --> 00:37:56,608
Oh, yes. Oh, exactly.
Because I left, right?
791
00:37:56,642 --> 00:37:58,276
Because I left and you stayed
and played martyr.
792
00:37:58,310 --> 00:38:00,178
I stayed, and I took care
of our family, man.
793
00:38:00,211 --> 00:38:02,147
Well, you did a good job
taking care of Dad, didn't you?
794
00:38:02,180 --> 00:38:04,350
-What the hell
is that supposed to mean?
-You want to do this now?
795
00:38:04,383 --> 00:38:06,818
-Please. By all means.
-You want to do this now,
finally, after all these years?
796
00:38:06,852 --> 00:38:08,487
Let's do it.
You know, this whole narrative
797
00:38:08,520 --> 00:38:09,821
that you keep spinning,
this narrative
798
00:38:09,855 --> 00:38:11,357
that you took care
of the family,
799
00:38:11,390 --> 00:38:13,124
where the hell
did that come from? Huh?
800
00:38:13,158 --> 00:38:15,361
-'Cause all I know is,
if I had been there,
-Mm-hmm.
801
00:38:15,394 --> 00:38:16,695
I would've walked
through literal fire,
802
00:38:16,728 --> 00:38:18,296
and I would've pulled
that man out.
803
00:38:18,330 --> 00:38:20,131
Mm.
804
00:38:20,165 --> 00:38:21,800
Well, Kev,
I guess we'll never know,
805
00:38:21,833 --> 00:38:23,535
because you weren't there.
806
00:38:23,569 --> 00:38:26,705
And he died ashamed of you.
807
00:38:26,738 --> 00:38:29,307
And I think...
I think that's the part
808
00:38:29,341 --> 00:38:30,976
that really gets you, isn't it?
809
00:38:31,009 --> 00:38:32,711
The shame that he felt for you
810
00:38:32,744 --> 00:38:34,780
and the pride
that he felt for me.
811
00:38:34,813 --> 00:38:37,215
I mean, you're not even chasing
Dad's shadow, Kevin.
812
00:38:37,248 --> 00:38:38,884
You're chasing mine.
813
00:38:38,917 --> 00:38:41,052
But you'll never be him
and you'll never be me,
814
00:38:41,086 --> 00:38:43,221
because you'll never know what
it's like to devote yourself
815
00:38:43,254 --> 00:38:46,057
to anyone other than yourself.
816
00:38:46,091 --> 00:38:48,394
You'll pretend,
817
00:38:48,427 --> 00:38:51,029
but it'll just be a performance.
818
00:38:51,062 --> 00:38:54,500
A tired, stale performance.
819
00:38:54,533 --> 00:38:57,603
Like all of your performances.
820
00:39:03,041 --> 00:39:05,744
You know, I used to think the
worst thing that happened to me
821
00:39:05,777 --> 00:39:07,779
was the day that Dad died.
822
00:39:12,851 --> 00:39:16,354
It's the day
they brought you home.
823
00:39:16,388 --> 00:39:18,890
Hand to God, Randall, the worst
thing that ever happened to me
824
00:39:18,924 --> 00:39:21,059
was the day
they brought you home.
825
00:39:35,607 --> 00:39:37,876
(car door opens)
826
00:39:39,878 --> 00:39:41,513
(car door closes)
827
00:39:41,547 --> 00:39:43,949
(engine starts)
828
00:39:46,918 --> 00:39:49,555
DR. K:
* Blue skies *
829
00:39:49,588 --> 00:39:52,223
* Smilin' at me *
830
00:39:53,425 --> 00:39:57,796
* Nothin' but blue skies *
831
00:39:57,829 --> 00:40:00,699
* Do I see *
832
00:40:00,732 --> 00:40:02,601
(phone buzzes)
833
00:40:02,634 --> 00:40:05,437
* Bluebirds *
834
00:40:05,471 --> 00:40:08,940
* Singin' a song *
835
00:40:08,974 --> 00:40:13,144
* Nothin' but blue skies *
836
00:40:13,178 --> 00:40:16,782
* From now on *
837
00:40:17,849 --> 00:40:19,951
(knocking)
838
00:40:19,985 --> 00:40:21,787
Hey, old man.
839
00:40:21,820 --> 00:40:23,589
We got a meeting to hit.
840
00:40:23,622 --> 00:40:25,290
Kevin.
841
00:40:27,325 --> 00:40:29,628
* Never saw the sun *
842
00:40:29,661 --> 00:40:31,963
* Shinin' so bright *
843
00:40:31,997 --> 00:40:34,399
* Never saw things goin' *
844
00:40:34,432 --> 00:40:36,267
* So right *
845
00:40:37,936 --> 00:40:40,972
* Noticing the days
hurrying by *
846
00:40:42,674 --> 00:40:44,776
* When you're in love *
847
00:40:46,277 --> 00:40:50,248
* My, how they fly *
848
00:40:50,281 --> 00:40:52,551
* Blue days *
849
00:40:54,019 --> 00:40:55,854
* All of them gone *
850
00:40:57,523 --> 00:41:01,993
* Nothin' but blue skies *
851
00:41:02,027 --> 00:41:05,631
* From now on. *
852
00:41:05,664 --> 00:41:08,399
*
853
00:41:09,701 --> 00:41:11,703
(sighs)
854
00:41:18,176 --> 00:41:21,547
I'm so sick of chasing ghosts.
855
00:41:21,580 --> 00:41:24,583
I'm tired of doubting myself.
856
00:41:27,519 --> 00:41:30,822
I'm all in, Madison.
857
00:41:30,856 --> 00:41:33,659
Whatever you need, I am all in.
858
00:41:37,262 --> 00:41:39,765
*
859
00:41:49,107 --> 00:41:50,441
How are you?
860
00:41:57,048 --> 00:41:59,217
KEVIN:
I want this.
861
00:41:59,250 --> 00:42:01,052
And maybe I-I didn't think
it would...
862
00:42:01,086 --> 00:42:02,754
(exhales)
863
00:42:05,123 --> 00:42:07,125
I want to be a father.
864
00:42:10,528 --> 00:42:12,430
I think I'd be great at it.
865
00:42:14,532 --> 00:42:16,635
(whispers):
Hi, Mom.
866
00:42:18,637 --> 00:42:21,840
The love of my life
will be my child.
867
00:42:21,873 --> 00:42:23,609
Hey, Dad.
868
00:42:25,376 --> 00:42:27,145
Hey, kiddo. How are you?
869
00:42:30,649 --> 00:42:32,150
Children.
870
00:42:34,485 --> 00:42:37,088
It's twins, Kevin.
871
00:42:38,757 --> 00:42:40,759
Hey, baby.
872
00:42:42,393 --> 00:42:44,029
Are you okay?
873
00:42:44,062 --> 00:42:45,263
Yeah.
874
00:42:45,296 --> 00:42:47,198
Yeah, I'm okay.
875
00:42:47,232 --> 00:42:49,467
*
876
00:42:51,837 --> 00:42:53,705
What's her name?
877
00:42:53,739 --> 00:42:57,108
*
878
00:43:26,872 --> 00:43:28,640
JACK JR.:
Hope.
879
00:43:28,674 --> 00:43:30,441
Her name is Hope.
880
00:44:13,318 --> 00:44:15,320
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