All language subtitles for Toul Omry (2008) - All My Life Toute Ma Vie-en

ALL MY LIFE

Cairo, 2001

Good morning.

Good morning.

Rami ...

I have to go.

Why? it's the weekend.

I mean ...

I'm not going to see you again.

You're not going to be able to see me?

What do you mean?

It's a joke, right?

I ...

Look, Rami ...

Things have changed for me.

We can not continue as before.

What has changed? I changed?

I ...

There is another man?

No! It's nothing like that. Anyway ...

Well, it is!

But there is another!

I mean, there is no other man.

Today I go with mom to meet
Manal's parents.

Manal, my office co-worker.

Dalia!
- Yes, Rami.

Where were you?

I spent the morning
trying to find you!

Meet me and I will tell you.

I'll be in the café in ten minutes.

Okay, I'll go right away.

Well, what happened?

Sherif and I have broken!

Dalia, sorry. Are you ok?

I do not know, but it's better that way.

Anything else, miss Dalia?
- No, thanks, Attef.

I also think it's better that way.
It was not good enough for you.

And you will find a new prince.

You sound like my mother. - It seems that
we all agree on that.

You're right. It was a good decision.

And I also made another one.

Rami ...

I am leaving.
- You want to sit somewhere else?

No.

I mean I'm going to leave this country.

I'll emigrate.

Are you crazy or what?

You don't emigrate after
a failed love affair!

Why do not you want to understand?

It has nothing to do with Sherif!

You know I just got a scholarship.

I will teach and finish my doctorate.

I want to get away from all this shit
I have to face.

I want to be myself.

I do not want to feel like
a stranger all the time.

Don't you feel like a stranger

when you leave your country and you dive
in a culture different from ours?

You call this culture?

I leave my home as if
there will be war here.

Here there are just frustration,
harassment and fundamentalism.

Forget all our problems and
summarize our lives in just two words:

Covered women!

This has never been our
culture. And you know it.

I feel like they
confiscated what I am.

I don't want that all my life.

We are in the same boat.
- No, not in the same boat, baby.

You can not imagine how it feels.

You do not face what
I face every day

simply because I am a woman.

I face it too ... for being gay.

But you're a man.
With all their privileges -

as long as you keep up appearances.

The solution is not to flee. You should fight!

What do you say, dear?
When did you fight?

They have stopped me in demonstrations
and I have spent nights in jail.

While you were at home
singing, "I'm free ... I am Egyptian!"

I'm tired of fighting. I can not anymore.

No more fighting, it's just
fighting windmills.

Are you going to leave me alone with
windmills?

You have Walid. Fight
against what you want.

No one will stop you.

Walid?

Walid left me this morning.

Calm down... I'm coming!

It's time for you to wake up,
sleeping beauty

Come in. You'll wake up the neighbors.

What neighbors?

Oh, you mean Ahmad? Man ...

He wakes up every day
for the morning prayer.

Right? You should already be awake!

How come you're up so early?
- It's just not so early, your majesty!

You did not say hello? Did not welcome me?
Is there no "reception" by my arrival?

Sorry, my queen.

Are not you ashamed?

Treating me like a stranger.
I'm the last to know.

What is it? 'Secret divorce', ha?

I could not fulfill my social obligations!

Social obligations?
What social obligations?

I would have shown
in front of everyone

that he was playing with
the girl's feelings!

Taking away the best years of your life!

Are you here so early
to say that?

No, of course not!

I made a substitution tonight
at the hospital. I just left.

I thought we could
go out for breakfast.

Come on, let's go.

By the way ...

How do you know that
Walid has left me?

A little bird told me.

Have you seen the dress of Salma?

What?

She is wearing a tight white skirt.

You can see through her red panties.

Look! Do you see?

What a shame. She is wearing a hijab.

Do women in hijab have no desire?

My God, help me.

Are you going home? Take me.

No, I'm going to practice.

I do not understand those shows that you do.

Would not it be better to try to dance
on television,

where you get paid, instead of
these amateurs dance companies.

Okay, Mr. Hatem!

By the way, I have a date tonight

with a gorgeous woman.
I'll connect you with her sister.

A real beauty, to die for.

I'll ask her to bring her sister and ...

No, I have a commitment.
Maybe some other time.

Some other time? Again!
You're always busy.

Wait! Rami, Rami.

1, 2, 3 ... and turn.

1, 2, 3 ... and turn.

1, 2, 3 ... and turn.

Well everyone!

Why do not you come with me?

It would change you
and we will be together.

No thanks. I like my life here.

It's me who is to convince you to stay.

Do not try to turn the tables!

Miss Sabrina! Can I
talk to you for a minute?

How do you know my name?
I do not talk to strangers.

I'm not a stranger, Miss Sabrina.
I'm here in front of your school

only to see you for an instant.

Since I saw you near the mosque,

I can not sleep.

In every prayer, I pray
the Lord in his glory

to make us live
together in a three-piece.

What do you say, Miss Sabrina?

I have no say in those things.
Talk to my dad.

What the hell? This is
today's role model!

And you want me to stay?

In all sincerity:

Would you marry a girl who says:

"I have no say in those things"?

The truth?

Even if she said she had a say

I would not marry her.

Did you forget that
I don't like girls?

You think I'd let you go then?

It's getting late.

I have to meet my family,
before going to the airport.

You see, my daughter! That's
what happens to the girls

who do not listen to their parents
and think for themselves ...

It is shameful!

Hello Karim. Who is this hot guy?

Will you introduce me?
- You are caught, baby.

This is Mark, my boyfriend.

This is Ashraf, a friend.
- Nice to meet you.

He is cute.

I wish I could speak English like you.

You beautiful.

How lucky some are.

Oh yes, ma'am?
- Yes, my mother.

Nothing, dear.
- Or something happens, honey?

Shut up, doll!

Seriously, girl. You are very lucky.

Who was that guy with you in the café?

Rami? He's just a friend.
- A friend? I understand.

You don't.

"You don't". Why?
I'm not good enough, or what?

Or what?

No, honey, it's not you. It is
he who has problems.

Obsessions.

Mercy! Protect us of all evil!

Charms and amulets. Obsessions?
As if I needed more!

Until then, dear.

Who was that?

A friend of a friend.

A friend, huh?

Let's call Rami and ask
him to join us.

He said he doesn't want to
come. He is an adult.

I know, but I do not want him
to be alone.

Hello, Rami

Yes Karim, what do you want?

Maybe you've changed your mind.
You still don't want to come?

No thanks.

Tell him he is missing
all kinds of cute guys.

Tell yourself.

Hi Rami,

Yes, it's wonderful here.

Lots of cute guys,
all in one place,

available, single and waiting for you.

Thanks Mark. I'll pass.

Say hi to Karim ... and tell
him to stop stalking me.

Ok. Thanks. Bye.

What were you doing, Mina?

Nothing, just studying.
- In the dark?

I met Father Tadros today.

He said that you have not been
in the church lately.

Do not forget our Lord, Mina.

Go to church tomorrow
after school.

Ok.

Put on your shirt, you'll catch cold.

Good morning friend!

Good morning.

Have you read the papers?

And now what?

Wait, it's huge. I have
to sit down and tell you.

They have arrested a new satanic cult!

Not again! They had already put an end to
all this ... Do you still believe those things, Hatem?

No, this time it's completely different.

They caught a bunch of queers in
a nightclub called "Queen Boat".

When was that?
- Last Thursday.

Well, here it is:

"55 perverts arrested"

"The homosexual perversion
is the ultimate satanic ritual."

"The suspects include
physicians and university students."

I have to pee.

Wait, I just started reading!
Anyway, do not be too long.

I will read you the whole article.

"The number you are calling is
temporarily unavailable.

Please call later."
- Shit!

The phone that you called
is temporarily unavailable.

Damn! Shit! Shit!

I swear! It's true!

Dr. Karim was in the "Queen Boat"
when they arrested those perverts.

All the hospital is talking about it.

He jumped into the Nile and swam
to the other side.

That makes no sense!

Were they in the boat with him?

And how did they see him swim?

It's true.

"For indeed the suspicion is
a sin" as Islam says ...

It's for the sermon.

If Dr. Karim is so
innocent, how did he leave?

Did you see that he was unshaven?

I bet he was about to shit his pants.

It is horrible.

Dr. Karim, good morning ... we were...

Do not you have work to do?

We are bringing the instruments.
What else you expect us to do?

Go do something useful then

rather than stand there gossiping.

Dr. Karim, Safaa has a
large mouth but also a good heart.

Okay, Latifa. Back to work.

Do not apologize more for me, please.

Good afternoon.

I am a friend of Dr. Karim, Karim El-Said.

And what do you want from him?

Welcome, sir. Dr. Karim is
inside. - Thanks. - Follow me please.

Unbelievable.

Dr. Karim, there's someone here named
Rami El-Masri. He says he is your friend.

Let him in.

Karim,

I worried about you.
Why you have disconnected the phone?

Do not you have work to do?

Have you read the paper today?

And what they have written
on the "Queen Boat"?

Were you there? yes or no?

I know since Thursday.

Mark was at the club
when the police arrived.

They arrested the Egyptians,
let the foreigners go.

And you?
- I left just before the raid.

I told you not to go
to such places!

This is not the time.

That night, you wanted me
out there.

Good thing you did not go. You were
right. You're always right.

I told you not to deal with those people.

"These people" who? Kinky? Fags?

Wake up! Do you think
you're not one of them?

Calling yourself "gay" makes you better?

Do not you also open the ass
in bed as "those people"?

Karim, what is that?
You never told me that.

I never thought that
you would say what you just said!

Judge people,
Like others!

Karim, I am not judging anyone.

But if they had not challenged
the government and society

this would not have happened.

What? Do you blame them?

Do you believe what the newspapers say?

You know very well that
they are inventing.

Listen:

"Imitating the West"
and "Emulating Abu Nuwas".

In the same sentence!

"New Religion"
"Espionage with Israel"

"Foreign funding".

It's a detailed list of
all possible charges!

Directly extracted
from a book titled

"Running a dictatorship for Dummies"

It is as if we are
back in the Middle Ages,

only instead of Inquisition, we
have state security courts.

But there is no smoke without fire.

If these people ...
- Again! "These people" again!

I am part of "that
people" as you say ...

queers.

If I had not left then,

now I would be one of them.

That's why I told you not to go,
and that's why I did not go.

Those people are always oppressed.

They are living with fear and guilt

for something they never chose.

That was the only place where they could be themselves,
without having to wear a mask,

with people who understand them.

I'm in the same situation
but I respected myself

and I have never given any chance to ...

Give us your blessing, Saint Rami!

And where did you meet Walid, eh?

You introduced us! He was your friend.

I picked up him in Harry's Pub!
- I would not do it.

You will see ...

Sooner or later I'll meet
someone in a respectable manner.

Are you going to use a matchmaker?

I do not know yet!

But you'll see.

How are you doing, Rami?

It was sad to know that you have not
talked to Karim since more than a month ago.

I obviously do not understand why.

I will not ask
anything, let me know if you want.

But no matter what
happened between you two,

you'll never find a friend like Karim.

I'm fine.

I began my studies in the university
and life is beautiful.

I live my life as I want,
without complications.

I feel like I'm
back to childhood:

Time of innocence and recklessness.

I do not really want to go back.

But I miss the
relationships between people.

Simplicity, friends and
family and other good things.

But there are so many things
I would miss here.

Like freedom.

The freedom to say what
I think without fear of oppression.

The freedom to speak against the government

They are protected and not
repressed by the police.

Oh Rami,

Freedom of expression and
protest at the highest levels

because it is my right.

Without me being qualified as a
"threat to national security"

The freedom to write what I want

without being fired from the university.

Rami, you do not know what
it is to feel safe

knowing that you will not be
arrested without a reason,

that you will not be falsely accused
just because they do not like your looks

or because you have no contacts.

I walk down the street with my head high.

You will be surprised to know that I used
to walk down the street with my head down

to prevent any kind of harassment.

From "Hey sweetie"

to "I want to fuck!"

I found how I remember Cairo.

I found my way by the
cracks in the sidewalks.

I remember Cairo
not by the places and houses

but by the wrinkles on its face.

Just as a woman

you have to fight
morning to night.

And even in dreams.

Yet I can not forget Egypt.

Maybe it's because I
I miss you all.

I feel terribly lonely here.

Write me. Dalia.

Have you seen what's happening
in the case of homosexuals?

Not again.

First they published their
names and addresses.

Now they print photos
of their family members.

Is not that unfair?

It is unfair.

Those poor men, is not
their fault to be that way.

It is that what you think of it?

Well, let me explain.

They were abused as boys.
And when a man is fucked

a worm is put in
the ass that keeps itching

until he is fucked again.

They should cure those poor ones
instead of locking them.

Where did you get that?

It is a well known fact.
- Well-known?

That's it, I'm going home.

Hello Egy-Guy

Hello

ASL?

What?

Age / sex / location?

26 / male / Cairo

26 yummy!

And you?

26 / male / Cairo

Good

Status?
- Single

lol

How big is your dick?

Goodbye
- Wait

Goodbye

I've waited

I've waited

During years

I've waited

During years

I've waited

I've waited

Hello Egy-Guy

Hello

You were upset with me last time

No, I’m just not into cyber sex.
- Me too.

I was just trying to make a conversation.
- Cool.

I actually want to find
someone to fall in love with

Me too, but it seems impossible

Who knows ... It may be someone
very close, but you can't tell

Good afternoon.

Good afternoon.

Do not you remember me?

Sorry, you look familiar ...

I am Attef.

Miss Dalia, Mr.
Karim and you used to go

to the coffeehouse where I work.

Ah, yes, now I remember.

Miss Dalia sent me
a postcard from San Francisco.

Oh yeah?

Yes, Miss Dalia and I are friends.

We used to talk a lot in the café.

She describes the people and the city.

I can show it to you if you want.

God willing.

I come here often, I like it here.

I see the ancient citadel and
the city from up here.

And you?

Sometimes, when I want to be alone.

I do not understand why
people want to be alone,

but there are so many things I do not understand.

I do not want to bother you.
- I did not say that.

I will leave you now, but I
would like to see you again.

I'll be here tomorrow at the same time.

God willing.

Have a good day.

Have you heard the latest on
the fags?

Why are you so interested?

What the newspaper published interests me

because I am an intellectual,

and it is in all the papers
in this days. Listen:

"Satanist perverts
examined by forensic ... "

Meaning that they could not prove
anything. Now they want to make everything fit.

Listen to this:

"The 52 defendants were examined

by forensic specialists
to detect the AIDS virus

and evidence of perverse practices
in their group."

Do gays only get AIDS?

Listen to this!

"After the medical examination

it has been found that the accused
were used sexually

with irrefutable evidence.

It showed no
doubts that 17 of them

had been repeatedly
penetrated and ... "

Enough! They lie when they say
people "will not catch AIDS".

Wait!

What?

You have not said how you can
contract AIDS if it is normal.

Why do you always run?

How are you, Ahmad?

Hello, Khadra.
How are you, Mr. Rami?

I'm ok.

Rami, for every ten emails
that I send

you respond to me with a line.

I need to talk to you or to Karim.

Lately, I've been
asking many questions.

What has happened to us,

a society that has surrendered?

"The modern feminist movement
in Egypt...

"Dates back to the 19th century.

"Thus, the high point of the movement

"Was the shift from social to
political activism in the 20th century

"Huda Sharawi and Siza Nabarawi

"They were the driving force behind the
1919 Revolution

"Which ended the British colonial rule."

Today I gave my students a course

about feminism in Egypt.
I felt so insignificant ...

How is it possible that our
mothers succeed in all this

and we ourselves have
let it collapse?

They fought for
us and paved the way

and we have left the
reactionaries destroy their images.

We just watched or fled like rats.

When I talk to my students
about our role in life

I have the impression of talking
about things that I failed.

I feel like a hypocrite.

When I see that they did everything
they could to combat the backwardness of society

I feel like I would have given
up too soon.

Rami, and do not know what
I'm doing here.

The only thing I see at this time

is I have to do my part
in the fight against backwardness.

I do not know what I can do here.

My desire to return to
Egypt is getting bigger.

Tell me what you think.

International campaign of
perverts against Egypt

Are you married?

No.

But you have a girlfriend?

No, I'm gay.

Gay?

You're the first gay Egyptian
I've ever met.

There's plenty of us

You just need to look...
harder

How long have you been here?

A few days.

But I've been coming here
twice a year. For six years.

I love bisexual oriental
cultures like this.

What do you mean, "bisexual"?

I mean all men here
have sex with other men.

You know!

No, I do not know and do not think so.

I'm going to call for drinks.

Can I have two beers
sent up please?

The local brand is fine.

No that's it.

Thanks.

Look, you understand,

men they just experiment with each other

and then they get married.

And then find each other
and experiment again.

Anything else, sir?

What's your name?

Hani, sir.

Heyne?

Hani.

Honey.
- Yes sir

Have you been working here long, Hani?

About three years, sir.

Are you happy here?
- Yes sir.

Are you married, Honey?

No sir. But I'm engaged.

That's nice.

Are you getting married soon?

Soon sir, I'm saving.
We both are.

You should be making a
fortune in this big hotel.

I wish, sir.

Let me ask you ...

... How much do you make?

Around two hundred pounds,
sir. But I make much more from my tips.

Two hundred pounds,
that's like ... $ 50?

Anything else, sir?

What else would you be willing to
do to make some more money?

I wish I could do
something else, sir.

So ... what if I ...?

... What if I offered you this?
- Thank you sir!

But you have to do something for me first.
- Anything, sir!

What if I ask you to suck me off?

Sorry, sir, I can't.

Well ...

if you can't ...

What if I suck you?

Sir, I ...

I ...

I'll do it, sir.

Rami? I can't believe!

How are you, Karim?

It depends ...

Do you really care about it or
you're just being nice?

Sorry, I did not call before going.

Do not say that!

You just called me ...
oh ... two months ago!

I know I was wrong.

I do not know what to say.

There is nothing to say.

When I look in the mirror and
I do not recognize the person I see.

I feel my life is falling apart.

I feel miserable,
dirty, a filthy worm.

I've done things that
I never thought I would.

Karim, I am lost.

I do not know what came over me.

All my life, I've had
an image of myself.

It may not be a true picture,

but it's the only picture I have of me.

All my life I thought
I was strong.

Instead I've noticed
I'm just a straw in a heap.

My strength came from my friends,

but now I'm alone.

Everyone has abandoned me.

You can not blame anyone but yourself.

It is you who has
forgotten your friends.

You're right

but I do not want to hear it now.

Rami, Rami ...

Rami, wait!

What's wrong?

Nothing ...

Nothing?

Like I don't know you
inside and out.

You're not yourself.

I don't know,
I'm just a little distracted

You don't love me anymore?

It's not that. I'm just stressed out

Work, home and stuff.

Stressed out about work?

We both know that's bullshit.
I've heard that line before.

Next is going to be...

"We seem to have lost that little spark," or

"We need to be more
creative in bed ... "

And then it's going to be ...

"I think we need to
see other people ... "

Why is my baby so insecure?

I told you there is
nothing to worry about.

Then level with me.

Since when do you think about work
when we are together?

It is not just work.

It's everything.
It's everything in my life.

That's not all ...

What happened?

Rami paid me a visit last night.

He was a mess, and
I was not very supportive.

Well ...

Don't be too hard on yourself.

He wasn't very supportive of you either.

Isn't he the one who walked out on you

and wouldn't return
your phone calls?

He was always supportive to me.

I'm the one who was hard on him.
I'm the one who pushed him away.

I have to go home
before sunset.

Karim,

I can't live like this anymore.

I can't just watch you
collapsing every day.

I can't live in
fear of you being arrested,

you or anyone of our friends.

I want to leave,

and I want you to come with me.

I can't just leave.

This is my home. I love it, and ...

And what?

And I can't let those bigoted
right-wing closed-minded people win.

They want us out of here,

and if we abandon the
country, the ship will sink.

Maybe ...

you can do more good away from here.

Where you're not all tied up and muted.

You can't speak out, you can't act

If you do, you'll be thrown in prison.
And then what good you'll be able to do?

It's late.

I have to go and check on my mom.
She's expecting me

Well, then I'll drive you home.

It's okay, I'll take a taxi.

No, please. I want to drive you home.

Good night.

Wait.

Mark, I'm really sorry about tonight.

So am I...

But I have to talk to you about something.

What?

You know my contract
is ending in two months.

Yes, you told me they want you
to renew the contract.

I have to let them know
by the end of next week.

So?

I'm not staying here any longer.

I want you to come with me.

I can't
- Yes, you can!

There are several ways
that you can come with me.

Yes, as your spouse.

You know I don't have that right.

But at least we don't have to
be afraid anymore.

Did you forget how you were treated
back home because of being gay?

Do not tell me there is less
homophobia there than here.

Alright, I won't say that.

But at least you'll have some rights.

We could go to San
Francisco. It's different there.

And your friend Dalia is there.

Mark, I can't just escape from
being a minority here

to be a minority inside another
minority. Come on.

But we'll be together!
- We can still be together here.

It's not safe here.

Nothing is going to happen to you!
You are a foreigner.

Yes. They let me go because I'm white.

You think I can live with that?

You think I can take that guilt?

Do you know how I've been feeling

since that night I saw them
arrested at the "Queen Boat"?

I can't sleep.

They were arrested because they were gay!
I am gay too!

The only reason I was not arrested
is because I carry a foreign passport.

I do not want to live with nightmares
and guilt.

I do not want to see you arrested.

Mark, I can't just leave. I can't.

At least think about it.

Promise me.

Good night, Mark.

What were you doing with
that faggot in the car?

He's a friend. He has brought me.

Just a friend?
- What do you mean?

You had a suspicious behavior.

We were talking like normal people.

Talking about what?
And how do you know him?

He is working in a school with a friend of mine.

And he fucks you from time to time?

What are you talking about?
- Change the tone, boy.

Or we will take you to the
police station, motherfucker.

Show me the card
identity, queer.

A doctor!

God bless us!

So you're a respectable man ...

So why do you take it up the ass?

We can take a look at the station.

Mahrous wait there for a moment. I will
check if he has drugs.

Look, buddy. You are a doctor,

respectable with good money,
and you have a bright future.

Although people of your type disgust me,

I do not want to hurt you.

That is worth something, right?

This is all that I have.
- Okay, okay.

Disappear now, before I change my mind.

Good morning, Mr. Karim,
Good morning, Mr. Rami.

Attef, good morning, how are you?
One coffee please. I need my dose.

And hot chocolate for Mr. Rami?
- Yes please.

Here's the postcard
Miss Dalia sent me.

I have it in my pocket,
since I told you about it.

I waited in the same
place, but you did not come.

I never said I would.

I know. It's just that I wanted
to see you

Anything else?

No thanks.

You naughty boy! What's between you two?

Nothing.

As if I would believe.

Have you slept with him?

Of course not.

Why "of course"? He's gorgeous.

If I was not with
Mark I would hunt the fly.

I swear, there's nothing.

He seems interested. Think about it.

So what do you think? Shall we meet?

I do not know.

Why not? We have many things in
common. And we both are looking for love.

I have to go ... see you.

Need more?
It will end my turn.

No, Attef, I've been waiting for you.

Do you want a ride home?
We could talk on the way.

Really?

Are we going to sit somewhere?

Where?
- Wait, I'll show you.

It is not prohibited to be down here?

Nothing is allowed!

That does not mean that
we can't do it, right?

Well, we have to respect the law.

Who made the laws? No
man like you and me, right?

When you are entitled to vote on legislation

then I will respect it.

How did you know I was gay?

What does "gay" mean?

It means:

This.

Would you like some tea?

Wait!

It's my first time.

We do not have to, if you want.

I want to, but be careful.

Can I ask you an embarrassing question?

Embarrassing? After what we have done?

It's about what we've done.
- Go.

Don't you have a problem
with what we've done?

Is there a problem?

No, I'm just confused.

It took me years to accept myself.

You do not even know gay people.
You not even know what that "gay" means,

But you're okay with these things.

How do you want me to feel?

I'm happy for the "stuff"
between us.

Maybe I did not know
the word "gay"

but it is not the first
time I feel that way.

My friend Makram was the
dearest in the world to me.

I never gave a name to my
feelings for him,

and even when we did
things together in secret,

we never discussed it.

Where is Makram now?

In a monastery

When we grew up, we kept doing it

but he always felt
guilty and scared.

And you?

A little, but I loved him,

and I never thought that what I had
among us was wrong,

We were not doing anyone any harm.

Why love is an abomination

but hurting people is ok
for everyone?

And then what happened?

Then he left.

I waited for his return.

He went back ... and
I waited again.

Until he joined a monastery

and I moved to Cairo.

So what did you mean
when you said it was your first time?

It is the first time I let
someone enter me.

Why me?

Because you were already inside me.

Because I love you.
- Beware ... they'll see us.

I do not care about people.

You're crazy ... Come on, come on.

"Inside the Queen Boat courtroom"

"Morality on trial"...

"The international angle" ...

Hello, at this time I can not
assist you. Leave me a message. Goodbye.

Karim ...

I am glad that I got your voice mail.

It would be too hard to face you and ...

say what I want to say.

I'm gonna say it anyway.

Karim, I don't think that
we should see each other anymore.

Ashraf?

I want to get used to not
seeing you before I go home.

I ...

Weren't you in the
"Queen Boat" that night?

I left a few minutes before the raid.

Thank God.

I wish you all the best.

I'm going to San Francisco for good.

I'm leaving after the exams,

I've already told the school
that I'm not renewing my contract.

Karim ...

Karim, I'm not breaking up with you
because I stopped loving you.

I'm doing it because I do love you,

and it hurts that you don't know.

It hurts that you prefer to stay here

while it's not an option for me anymore.

Karim, I still wish you change
your mind and come with me.

I still love you.

I love you.

Goodbye.

I have to go.

Where?

I ...

Sorry.

Hello, Mark.

Hello.

I do not think it's a good idea.

I mean it would be better if ...

Mark, I love you.

I love you.

I love you too.

What are you doing, Mina?

- Mina!
- Yes!

- Mina!
- Yes!

Good evening.

Tonight I'll take you to the opera.

To the opera?

Yes. But first put this on.

A suit? With this heat?

What about my clothes?

Bring your suit and tie
to attend the opera.

Agreed.

I've also brought something.

It is a Ramadan lantern.
Happy Ramadan!

Same to you.

Rami!

I can't believe!

Hello Walid.

Manal,

Meet Rami, one
of my dearest friends.

Manal, my wife.
- Nice to meet you.

Nice to meet you.

This is Attef, a friend of mine.
- Nice to meet you.

Same to you.
- Excuse me, I'm going to powder my nose.

What do you think of the opera tonight?
- It's very good.

What about you? What do you think?

Sorry, I do not understand.

I asked what
you thought of the opera.

I did not understand a word!

But it is obvious that their
lungs are good!

Interesting.

By the way ... Your suit
looks better on you.

Do not be rude.

The second act begins.

Excuse us.

Come on. The opera will begin.

Ah, I feel that the happiness of love
has faded forever.

Never again will you return,
happy hours in my heart.

To my heart.

Never again will you go back to my heart.

See, Tamino,

You see these tears flow

just for you.

just for you.

If you do not feel the call of love ...

I find peace in death.

If you do not feel the call of love ...

If you do not feel the call of love ...

I find peace in death.

I find peace in death.

In death.

In death.

Have I done something to upset you?

No, why do you say that?

You have not said a single
word the whole way home.

I was just concentrating on driving.

You were ashamed of me
before your friend, is that it?

Why do you say that?

Since we met him,
you are no longer the same.

No, that's not true.

Look, Rami.

I may not speak English or French,

and I have never been to the opera,

but I can still hear and see
clearly. And tonight ...

Attef, not now.

As you like.

Do you want to come to my place?
- No.

I have to work tomorrow.

It's okay.

Before I leave, I want to tell you something ...

Go on.

No matter,

... Next time.

Hallelujah!

Ashraf ...

Pretend you do not know me.

The police are watching me.

See you at seven
in the El-Kheima café

Oranges, Mr. Ahmad?

Oranges, Mr. Ahmad?

I'm late.
- No problem. What happened?

I was detained for two
weeks in Tahrir Square.

What were you doing?
- Nothing!

They had a reporter
who told them that I'm gay.

And then what happened?

They beat me and insulted me
for three days,

I was given an ultimatum:

go to prison with a false accusation,

or become an informant.

And you agreed to become an informant?

What would you have done in my place?

Refuse, of course.

Wait.

Look at this. I always carry it with me.

"A thief fell from the roof
of the police station "

How is it related to
what we are talking about?

The thief called
Sultan was my friend.

He was arrested for being gay like us.

Sultan tried to protect his boyfriend,

he refused to confess.

He was tortured to death
before five of his friends.

Police threw him off the roof and
they claimed that it was a suicide.

Do you think any of your
friends could do anything?

If you become an informant, do you really think
they are going to leave you alone?

I know. In a couple of weeks
there will be rumours that I am informer

and when I am no longer useful to them
they will put me in jail with a charge.

Well, if you already know ...
- Being that?

My only chance is to go out of
the country before it happens.

And the people on which you have
informed, what is their crime?

And what is mine?

Sultan wanted to be a hero and got
three lines in the newspaper.

I do not know what to say.

I came to you for help.
- What?

I want to go abroad.

If you need money, of course, I can ...

No. I need a visa.
- A visa?

I can not help you with that!

Why not? Your boyfriend is American.

Yes, but he can't do it.
It depends on the embassy.

So you do not want to help.

I want to, but is not in my hands.

Ashraf.

If you see me again,
watch yourself ...

Damn you, bitch.

You've tempted me, bitch.

Help me, Mr. Rami!
This crazy man is going to kill me.

Whore!

In the name of God,
Most Powerful and Most Merciful

I seek shelter with the Lord of the mankind

King of mankind, God of mankind

From the mischief of the whisperer who hides away

who whispers into the hearts of mankind

Among the jinns and the men.

If you are from two different classes

of course it won't work.
- But I feel sorry for him.

What am I going to tell him?
- Just avoid him.

Do not call him.
Eventually, he'll figure it out

I wish you a great day!

Thanks, I have to go now.

And now that?

Did you hear about Sanaa and Shawqi?

No, and I don't want to know.

Go tell Ms. Camellia or Ms. Effat.

No, women are just gossiping.

Sorry.

Well, goodbye.

Hey! So, out of sight, out of mind?

Dalia! I miss you.
Sorry, I was busy.

Have you seen those online videos
about police brutality in Egypt?

The one who posted them was wrong.

They damage the image of Egypt.

Damage the image of Egypt?

How long do you want
people to suffer and be silent?

Egypt is not the government.

Being against the government's position
will save the image of Egypt.

Learn about what they did instead of judging so quickly.

Am I who judges too quickly?

Whatever his crime, no one
deserves to be humiliated like that.

Do such things never happen in the US?

They do. But in secret.

Because they know they would pay
a price if they are discovered.

But in our country,
nobody cares

because they know the government
is aware, approves of it

and even encourages it.

Rami has left the chat.

At last you are gonna meet me.

Yes.
- You won't regret it, you know!

We'll see.
- When and where?

At El-Kheima at 4:00 o'clock

Ok.

See you.
- Wait ...

How am I gonna know you?

I'll be wearing a white shirt
and blue jeans.

Rami,

It's Walid.

If you're home, answer me.
I have something important to tell you.

Hello, Walid. What?
- I miss you.

That's what was so important?

Rami,

I'm still in love with you.
When I saw you with that guy at the opera,

I was very jealous.

I want us to be together.

And your wife?

Do not compare it with my wife.

You know very well that this marriage
is merely a social convenience.

But it's you who I love.

Walid, you just lost the
respect I felt for you.

Rami, wait!

Manal?

Rami,

I don't know how to begin.

I don't know what I've done
to deserve this treatment.

I'm still the same, I'm still me.

I'm not writing to apologize

or promise that I will change.

All I want to say is ...

I love you.

That's all I can offer.

I wish you accepted me as I am ...

Since that night at the opera,

I have the impression that
the whole city rejects me

because you reject me.

That's why I'm leaving.

I'll take the train tomorrow at 4:15,

that will be the last time you see me.

If you want.

Attef.

Hi, Rami? Where are you?

Call me ...

I want you to talk to Mark and me.

I'll go with him.
I left the hospital.

I'll tell the details
when you call. Bye.

Rami? Rami?

Where are you? Pick up the phone.

I've been trying to find you.

I rejected the offer
of the University.

Anyway, I've already purchased
the ticket home.

I arrive on Friday at
5:30 Cairo time.

Goodbye, Rami!

Manal!

Rami El-Masri?

Yes.

Join us!

Start a new statement, Ramadan.

Name?

Be friendly, Said.

Do you think you are
dealing with a man?

What's your name, faggot?

Why have you arrested me?

Are you playing the fool?

Don't you know why you're here?

For a friendly talk, you bastard!

Ramadan, write this:

Today, November 24, 2001,

the suspect has been questioned.

To the question "What is your
name?" he responded ...

Name?

Rami El-Masri.

Age?
- 26 Years.

How do you practice this activity?
- What activity?

What have I told you, Said?

Be nice.

It is a lady, after all.

You do not know what activity?

Prostitution, motherfucker.

What did you say?

Playing an innocent person
will not work with me!

Aren't you the one with the nickname
"Egy_guy" on the internet?

On the internet?
- Yes darling.

Stop!

Surely you have not forgotten Raoul.

Is this Raoul? I have not done anything wrong.

Raoul and I are just friends.

You have not done anything wrong? Motherfucker!

You advertise your services on the
Internet to commit debauchery!

And yet you say: "I have not done anything wrong."

I do not advertise my services,
this is individual freedom.

Individual freedom?

Now I've heard everything! The people of your
kind are destroying the country.

Have ...

Have you arrested Raoul too?

Not only are you a faggot,

but also an idiot.

You still don't get it, asshole?

"Nothing in common

between him and me, except sex.

I want someone who is
more cultured, like you,

who will understand me. "

Are you Raoul? You were ...

At last!

You've got it. Poor thing.

You were hoping he would fuck you?

Not a chance, faggot. You and
your kind disgust me.

Hopefully your species disappear
from the face of the earth.

I have not done anything wrong.

Cut the crap, ladybug.

It makes me sick to be in
the same room with you.

Ramadan.

I'll let you finish and close.

Just copy the statement of
the guy we caught yesterday

and let him sign.

I will not sign anything without a lawyer.

Said, do not get your hands dirty.

A lawyer ... in your dreams, fag.

What you are doing is illegal!
Beating is prohibited by law!

What law, sodomite? Here, I am the law.

Listen, kid ...

you will sign it, like it or not.

Well ...

Do not complicate life.

I have hard copies of your emails
and photos on the Internet.

We will send you to the coroner,

and the report saying
you've been penetrated is ready.

The doctor only has to sign it.

I know my rights!
- What rights?

Here, you are dust beneath our shoes.

Sure your "rights" are coming to help you.

Take care of him, Said

and do a good job. I want
that signature as soon as possible.

Look look. Isn't it the photo of Rami?

It can't be.
- What's going on?

Let me see.

"An accountant is arrested for prostitution

and advertising his services on the internet. "

It has to be a lie.

"Police arrested Rami el-Masri,

an accountant for a large company,
advertising his services on the Internet

in a place for perverts.

He was arrested wandering
near a café in Tahrir Square.

Given the evidence

the suspect confessed practicing
homosexual acts for years

finding customers in chat rooms,

and charging men with perverted desires

20 pounds per hour "

Oh, beautiful and slender maiden

dishonoring her
family with a scandal

Oh, beautiful and slender maiden

dishonoring her
family with a scandal

Is not that the friend of Dr. Karim ...

for which you have been advocating?

Oh, beautiful and slender maiden

dishonoring her
family with a scandal

"In his confession, 26-year-old
Rami el-Masri said

that during his years
in a private school

he started practicing debauchery.

Forensic experts stated that

he had clearly been used and showed
signs of repeated homosexual acts.

The prosecutor said he has violated the
public morals and decency

and he made fun of
principles and traditions,

and according to
articles 9C and 16

of the Criminal Code 10/1961
on prostitution,

prosecutor asked that it
be punished by a fine

and up to three years in prison.

The end

The beginning

Hi, my name is Raoul.

See you?

All My Life

A film by Maher Sabry

Rami was sentenced in absentia to
three years in prison,

but emigrated to France before sentencing
and managed to get political asylum there.

Dalia returned to Egypt and political activism.

Her fight for equality, justice
and freedom continues.

Kareem moved to San Francisco with Mark.

They were married in the 'Spring of Love' in 2004.
Their marriage was recognized in May 2008.

Ahmad is still blaming women
... and is still masturbating

Atef went home to his village.

His trips to the city and casual encounters
cannot satisfy his craving for love.

Ashraf is still trying unsuccessfully
to obtain an exit visa.

Hatem is still reading the newspapers.
But now, instead of believing everything they say,

he goes online and compares them
to the writings of Egyptian bloggers.

Mina never did meet Raoul.
He eventually joined an Egyptian gay Internet forum

focusing on self-acceptance, communication
and rejecting suicide as an untenable solution.

All my life...

I dreamed of someone who would
love me and whom I would love...

All my life...

I dreamed of walking
with my head high...

All my life...

I dreamed of being myself without
being judged or condemned

All my life...

I dreamed of being myself...

Myself...

To be myself...

Myself...