All language subtitles for Paragraph 175 Hitler DVD EN SUB

We have to
see this romantically,

because in such drastic times
one tends to be romantic.

When bombs fall...

...and explode nearby...

...one looks
to others for closeness...

...and one forgets the bombs,
the war and the stalled train.

One is just close to others.

One does what everyone does
when they are close.

That's what one does.

You're not going to tell me
that while the bombs were falling...

...you made love on the train?

But of course I did!

But of course!

You didn't get that?
You are slow, darling.

You are slow.

Hello! Karl, greetings,
it's Klaus!

Today is not convenient?

Should I just stop by so we can
see each other again?

Then I'll be there around three.

If you want to get rid of me,
just kick me out, that's fine.

I'm excited! Till later!

Oh, I've already talked so much
about the concentration camps.

You know,
it's more than fifty years ago.

There have been so many
other, better impressions...

...than such shitty shameful deeds.

Look, with time they've all
been torn out.

Why do you tear them out?

lthrowthem away.

Those are uncomfortable memories.

I've spoken about it before,

I don't want to anymore.

That's in the past for me.

I don't have much time
for this movie.

More than half a day,
I refuse.

I'm here
but let's make it short.

Very short.

Otherwise, I can't.

Okay,
let me, let me.

I'm not dead yet!

I swore never to shake hands
with a German again.

And here you are.

lt's terrible.

You can't understand this,

because you're not from
the same generation.

This is the difficulty
between us today.

You're trying hard
to understand me.

And I'm trying not to hurt you.

Because it's difficult to talk
about that time.

This is the Schwanenburg.

It was a dance club.

A normal bar...

...but on certain days
it was rented by homosexuals.

Then there was much joy,

and even more screaming.

There was homosexual dancing,

and once in a while,
just to get the queens going,

someone would shout,
"The police are coming!"

Everyone would hike up
their skirts and run.

But the police
never really came.

Today, it's hard to imagine...

...how wild it was in Berlin...

...afterthe 1914 to 1918 war.

Everything went topsy-turvy.

Men danced together
and so did women.

In Berlin, those were
the golden years.

lthink in all of Berlin
you were free,

you could do
what you wanted.

We had three
very well known clubs.

One was in the north...

...where proletarian girls came.

Usually in their
Sunday best costume...

...their smoking costume.

lwas a bit scared, I must say.

If you have never seen...

...boyish and
masculine lesbians...

...and such a heap of them.

l was surprised,
I had to get used to it.

And funnily enough,

I saw one woman...

...which looked a little bit
like Marlene Dietrich.

Anyway, I wanted
to get to know her.

But she didn't
care for me, of course.

l was a silly little girl.

But she is the one...

...I saw occasionally later on...

...who saved my life,

because she was the one
who sent me this permit.

She went to England before.

Sports became the center
of my life.

I had an athletics teacher...

...a blond Jewish teacher.

Oh, my!

So slim and strong and beautiful.

One day we were
showering together...

...and ljumped on him.

Exactly the opposite of the
pederastic teacher...

...I jumped on him!

I ran home to my mother
and said,

"Mother, today
I had my first man!"

You were born here?

Born here.

But not in this apartment?

No. One floor below.

Have you forgotten
the boys, Heinz?

- I haven't forgotten.
- You haven't forgotten.

Back in here, off to the side,

was the couch.

Now it's hidden
under the boxes.

- This was your room, right?
- Yes.

It was all done up with
boy scout souvenirs and photos,

with the guitar
hanging on the wall.

l was the regional leader...

...at the end.

Arrest.

My group and I
could only exist...

...for another six months.

Then the Hitler Youth
moved in on us,

with brass knuckles...

...and other weapons.

There was a lot of resistance.

But they were stronger...

...and in numbers...

...they were superior.

My mother came
from a Christian family,

my father is Jewish.

My mother converted.

When Hitler came,
things began to change.

German boys in the Hitler Youth
had to have uniforms.

Their parents had to rush off
and buythem.

Within four months
the entire class turned brown.

With little black shorts
and brown shirts.

After four months of Hitler...

...someone would
raise their hand:

"Can I sit somewhere else?"

"But why?"

"It smells like garlic here!"

I didn't even know
what garlic was.

We never ate it at home.

Nowthat lam older,
I knowthe advantages of garlic.

That was the first insinuation
about the Jews.

Jews are garlic-eaters.

"Can I sit in the back?

"lt stinks of
sweaty Jewish feet here!"

That was pretty obvious.

And within two months,

lwas sitting alone
in the first row.

They had all
withdrawn from me.

In the truest sense
of the word.

We call it the
Yom Kippur Jews.

They were not very religious,
my family.

But we did hold
the holy holidays.

That's why
we call ourselves...

the Yom Kippur Jews.

The time was very bad...

...people couldn't get work.

And the inflation
was a horrible thing.

At first we didn't believe it.

We laughed about him.

That such a person
like Hitler...

...that the people would
stay behind him.

Promises, promises.

They believed it.

We began to talk about
Hitler in Alsace.

But only in whispers...

...we knewthat preparations
were being made.

My older brothers were drafted
into the French army.

We lived in fear of war.

I remember
one speech I heard...

...on the radio:

"Do you want
butter or guns?"

And the people cried,
"GUNS!"

And at that,
my father became afraid.

Turn a little.

No, turn the camera this way.

But then I can't see you.

That's not necessary,
I want a photo of you.

C'm
on'

Someone took me
to a gay bar.

He wanted to show me
how it was for Christian gays.

So he dragged me to a bar.

There was an incredible
atmosphere of fear.

They kept looking to see
who's coming in now.

Some of them had told me...

...things used to be
happy and carefree,

but now they
were being persecuted.

It didn't seem like
persecution to me,

since the bar was still open.

But they said this bar is
only open to round us up.

They did this again later
with the Jews...

...they'd let them keep
their meeting places...

...so they could
snatch them up.

In this picture,
you can see my father.

This is my grandfather's house.

We lived on the first floor,

and my grandparents lived
on the second floor.

I didn't fully understand
the situation...

...it didn't register.

But I also
didn't take it seriously.

And then there
were my parents,

I couldn't abandon them.

This is me.

Always adorable,
with a sweet smile.

What's interesting
in this picture is...

...there is absolutely nothing
Jewish about this face.

He's a little Christian.

No? Absolutely Christian.

My mother's family was Prussian.
Devout Christians. Evangelicals.

For my aunts and for my
family it was terrible...

...they said, "Oh my God, he's
Jewish and he's gay!"

"Either way,
he'll be persecuted!"

"This cannot end well."

We once had a plan
to go to Shanghai.

It cost $1,000 each.

Where would
we have gotten $4,000?

The family was sure
they could take care of us.

No one knew
what was coming.

l have a very good intuition.

And I had a feeling...

...something horrible
is going to happen.

I made a decision,
I go off in the country.

And ldid.

When lwas on the farm,
what did we do?

We were singing.

Hebrew.
Hebrew songs.

We were invaded by the Nazis...

...and brought to prison.

But not all Germans were...

...aggressive and nasty.

The wife of the policeman...

...left the doors open on purpose.

And we all escaped.

The farm was partly burned down.

lwent in and, a miracle,

I found my passport...

...in this muddle and glass...

...without hurting myself.

lwent on the bicycle...

...and off I tried to go to Berlin.

And this is where it happens...

...that the postman came on the
bicycle from the other side...

...and said, "Fraulein,
l have a love letter for you."

I opened it,
and there was the...

...English papers which let me
come over to England.

I could hardly believe it.

Had I ever missed this letter,

then lwould have gone...

...with my parents
to Auschwitz.

One morning the police called.

What could this
have to do with me?

Nothing.

I told them I couldn't come,

lwas too busy working.

Ten minutes later,
the police called again.

l repeated that
I'd come by soon.

But they said it was very urgent.

lthought,
"What could they want?"

So lwent to the police...

...and they showed me a letter.

"Here, read this," they said.

"Bavarian Political Police."

What did that
have to do with me?

"You are suspected
of being homosexual."

"You are hereby under arrest."

What could I do?

Off I went to Dachau...

...without a trial...

...directly to Dachau.

I spent a year and a half
in Dachau...

...without really knowing why.

The Germans came to Alsace
in 1940.

I don't say the Nazis,
the Germans!

And the Germans found
the police files.

They saw our names
on these lists...

...lists of homosexuals.

They were probably
watching us...

...how we live, where we go,
what we do.

And one day I had to go
to the Gestapo,

with 12 friends.

I ended up at the camp
in Schirmeck.

At the time, it was the
Schirmeck lnternment Camp,

a "protective custody" camp.

If, for example,
someone got drunk,

and sang the French
national anthem in the street...

...this is during the
German occupation...

...he'd be sent to Schirmeck.

There were also communists,
resistance fighters,

and my 12 friends...

...who were arrested
in a round-up...

...in May 1941.

After I was released
from Dachau,

I think l was being watched...

...this woman was
always behind me.

I left my hotel
to go eat...

...and a hustler
came up to me.

I realized
lwas being followed.

He pulled me
into some bushes.

I said,
"Someone is following us."

"No," he said.
"No one is there."

And that's when it happened.

"You are under arrest."

lwas taken somewhere,
to some prison, for trial.

I didn't understand anything.

While I was there...

...almost all the
homosexuals...

...were transported
to Mauthausen...

...and nearly all of them...

...were killed.

Again, I came to a
concentration camp.

This time it was Buchenwald.

At first it was "homo"...

...or rather "Paragraph 175”...

...written in big letters...

...on the back of the jacket.

As I remember.

Later, it was...

...a pink triangle.

At that time,
the transports began.

Every day
we said goodbye to someone.

That's when I encountered...

...the Jewish
Zionist underground,

that existed in this
great capital, Berlin.

Those who remained,
joined together...

...they understood,
soon it would be their turn.

I found them shelter.

I even let them
stay in my attic.

I met this beautiful
blond Jew.

He invited me
to spend the night.

He said,
"Let's play chess."

We sat on his bed...

...and we played chess.

We did the other thing too,
of course. We had to.

Then we slept
for a few hours.

In the morning,
the Gestapo came.

...he and his mother
were on the list.

lshowed my ID...

...not on the list.

They could have taken me.

They took him and his mother...

...to the train station...

...and sent them to Auschwitz.

It had a different value then,

a night of love.

There was a hierarchy...

...from strongest to weakest.

There was no doubt...

...that the weakest
in the camps...

...were the homosexuals.

All the way on the bottom.

lwasn't even eighteen.

Arrested, tortured, beaten.

Without any defense,

without a trial.

Nothing.
lwas all alone.

I don't even mention being
sodomized, being raped.

It happened in front of me...

...and 300 prisoners, 300.

The death of Jo. My friend.

He was condemned to die,
eaten by dogs,

German dogs,
German shepherds.

- Where?
- ln Schirmeck.

And that, I can never forget.

l was just glad that
I landed in a regular prison.

That was a gift,
so to speak.

lt prolonged my life.

Had I been taken to
a concentration camp,

l'd no longer be alive.

lwanted to be with men!

I took photos of everyone,

and right away
I had lots of friends.

Military was honor,
dignity and justice.

What the Nazis would
change it into,

you didn't know before.

You were always
a little proud...

...of this militarism,

even if you were
a homosexual.

This is my father's
Jewish family in Vienna.

Which of them survived?

This one survived,
and this one.

All the others were killed.

Auschwitz.

During that time
I found my first big love...

...Manfred.

It was like a dramatic love.

Then one time, lwent to
spend the night at his house.

His brother was there.

"Where is Manfred?"

He said, "Our whole family
was arrested today."

So lwent to Manfred's boss.

I say,
"They've picked up Manfred.

"His whole family
is being held...

"...in my old school building!"

"Do you have courage?"
he says,

this great big German guy.

"Yes, l have courage."

He says,
"My son is your size,

"he has a
Hitler Youth uniform.

"Put it on and
get Manfred out."

lwent in and said,
"Heil Hitler!

"I must see
the officer in charge."

So this Gestapo guy says,
"You'll bring him back, right?"

I say,
"What else? He's a Jew!"

And lwalk with Manfred,
out of my school building.

After 20 or 30 meters...

...I still remember
the exact spot...

I give him 20 marks.
"Go to my uncle's place.

"I'll call him and
meet you there later."

He stops...

and he says, very calmly,

"I can't come with you, Gad.

"If I leave my
sick family now,

"I'll never be free again.

"l have to go with them.

"I'm the only strong one."

Without saying goodbye,

he turns around,

and walks back,
into my school building.

I walked in the other direction.

I wasn't able to think,

but I knew
that something was...

...forever broken.

The singing forest.

That gave us all...

...goosebumps.

What was the singing forest?

In the ground, there were holes.

Concrete holes.

Everyone...

...who was sentenced...

...would be lifted up...

...onto the hook.

In the Jewish barracks...

...it was similar.

But they were twisted...

...in addition to the hanging.

That's what was prepared
for the Jews.

The howling and screaming...

...were inhuman.

The singing forest.

lnexplicable.

Beyond human comprehension.

And much remains untold.

"On this site was the first
Nazi camp in occupied Alsace."

Here where | now live was
barrack number thirteen.

During the war.

All this was the camp.

Right here.

What sorts of
prisoners were there?

It was mostly
political prisoners.

You had homosexuals,
unemployed...

...I don't know
who all was in there.

These days, do people
talk about the camp?

Oh, the young people
don't even know.

They didn't see it.

By the time they arrived,

there was nothing,
it was all torn down.

Only us old folks sawthings,
when we were kids.

Was it known then that
homosexuals went to the camps?

It was known,
but how...l don't know.

Maybe through the newspapers.

Anything can be talked around.

Was it known that Jews were
exterminated there?

The big concentration camps
in Austria.

Wasn't that frightening?

Yes and no.

lthink people
become indifferent very fast.

When things go on for years...

In the beginning
they were just camps.

That these camps
became death camps...

...wasn't known
in the beginning.

So now you see...

...why I did not speak
for 40 years?

lam 90% disabled
from the war.

My ass still bleeds.
Even today.

The Nazis stuck 25 centimeters
of wood up my ass.

Do you think I can talk
about that?

That it is good for me?

This is too much
for my nerves, Klaus!

I can't do this anymore.

lam ashamed for humanity.

Ashamed.

How long were you
in concentration camps?

Altogether?

I added it up once.

lthink eight and a quarter years.

What did you do
when you got back?

When I came home?

lworked in
the family store...

...that my brother
was running.

My father
had already died.

Did you tell your brother
or mother...

...what happened in
the camps?

I never spoke
with my mother about it.

I could have talked
to my father, but...

Why not?

Shame.

My mother
never said anything.

...patiently carrying
one's burden.

Shame, about what?

You mean my mother?

Maybe it was
from compassion,

so she wouldn't offend me,

or make it even harder on me.

Not even one word from her.

Today, it is hard to imagine,

that you survived
these horrible years,

and came back and--

Couldn't talk to
anybody about it?

Yes, I never spoke
to anyone about it.

Would you have liked
to talk to someone?

Maybe,
maybe with my father.

And later,
could you speak with others?

Neven

Nobody wanted
to hear about it.

If you would just mention
one of those words...

"Leave me alone
with this stuff.

"It's over now
and done with."

Now for me too...

...it's all over.

In September,
I'll be 93.

Thick skin, no?