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Previously, on "Dirty John"...

Rocket-propelled grenade.

The guy who was next to me in the Humvee died.

You're saying he wasn't there?

I'm just saying he wasn't in Iraq

when you keep saying he was.

Who the hell's "TS"?

"Can't wait for tomorrow night."

- Who is it? - Toby, my nephew.

- Toby Sellars? - Excuse me.

- Be right back. - Who's that?

- Is that... - Yeah, it's my brother-in-law.

- Ex-brother... - Your brother-in-law?

You should be glad your dad killed your mom

so she didn't have to be around to see this.

Did you open my mail? How dare you!

It's a felony to open someone's mail.

In California and Ohio he's been in prison.

- So then what should I do? - If you have a will

and he's in it, take him out.

- Call someone, Deb! - Oh, my God!

- What's going on? - I don't know.

He was fine, and then he just collapsed.

Could you help me understand his history with narcotics?

If you were me, what would you do?

- Would you leave? - Stay in hotels

or places you've never stayed before.

Dye your hair, probably.

Make yourself a difficult target.

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You just have to give it time.

- I can't. - You... you just have

to give it a chance to work.

I know, I know, I do, but it just feels wrong.

It feels wrong.

But they said it would, remember?

They... they said that it would feel counterintuitive.

That's what Mr.... um, your counselor said.

That to make a marriage work

that, you know, it seems like

we should hang on much tighter

and stay even closer, but that sometimes

a, um... a separation

can bring a new perspective.

Said it would only work

if we both had the same goals, if we were both honest...

- Right. - About wanting it to work

but Cindi isn't.

She's pretending she does but she doesn't.

Why do you say that?

It was the only way left to show him

that we really tried hard enough.

Hard enough to what?

To save the marriage.

So he can accept that it can't be saved.

Well, that's not what he thought was happening.

He went there in good faith.

Of course he did.

I mean, the whole thing was his idea.

Years of not listening to me, of trying to control

everything that I do, I finally say that I want

to leave, that I am leaving,

and then he wants to go to counseling.

- Cindi... - So someone can tell me

to try harder. Tell me to be happy

my whole life not being allowed to wear a bikini on the beach.

Not being allowed to go grocery shopping alone

or do anything alone.

I always encouraged her to be

whatever she wanted to be.

Said I never gave her room to grow.

I asked, "Grow into what?"

She won't ever tell me.

I've known her my whole life.

I can't remember a time when I didn't love her.

I'm the love of his life because I've just been there

his whole life.

We were babies. We didn't know any better.

You were right.

You told me that we were too young to get married

and I didn't listen.

Debbie listened and I didn't and you were right,

like you always are.

- And now here we are. - Don't be so dramatic.

And I say that as someone who's on your side.

But you don't want me to be happy.

I want to stop you

from making a mistake that you won't be able to fix.

And you're almost there.

You've been together so long.

You were both so young.

When Cindi thinks about what she thinks she's missed

it's easier for her to just blame you.

It's easier for her to say

that you're in her way and that she wants a new start

rather than make the life she has

into the life that she wants.

When we choose what we want,

what we feel right now,

over what we promised...

what we swore to somebody...

That can haunt us the rest of our lives.

Well, I would choose whatever comes next

to be free right now.

I would choose being haunted my whole life, Mom.

She wants a divorce.

She's not saying it yet but she will.

And what am I gonna do?

She's... she's confused.

She's just confused.

Can you just tell me that you at least understand

what I'm saying?

Trust in the Lord with all your heart

and lean not on your own understandings.

In all your ways acknowledge Him

and He will direct your path.

- You love that one. - Mm.

You love the whole Book of Proverbs,

but you really love that one.

Because it's true.

He directs our paths.

Bobby, hey!

Uh, Frank left for work already.

Did he tell you he was gonna be here?

No, I... I figured he wouldn't.

Said he wouldn't need to be.

Said I could come by any time and you could help me out.

- Yeah, sure. - The loading dock's

right next to where we park.

It's always lit, but still.

Three muggings in the last five weeks.

I'm a manager now, so I gotta lock up at nights, too, so...

Wow, I had no idea it had gotten so dangerous.

Poor Cindi must wait up all night worrying about you.

I know I would.

Oh, finally.

Here.

Now, don't you go holding up a liquor store or anything.

Pretty sure I'm not gonna be doing that.

- Good looking out, though. - Mm-hmm.

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He steals drugs from hospitals...

which he's been to prison for, by the way...

and for the stalking.

I saw all that stuff in there.

- I get it, I do. - Okay, so how many

restraining orders do there have to be

from how many different people before you do your job?

Well, right now I am seeing which law

I can actually enforce

in this particular situation that we have right here.

Okay, "John Meehan."

Parole officer has Bay Front Avenue

on Balboa as his current address.

Nice. You live there too, miss?

- Yes. - Okay.

He's not on the lease, though, is that right?

"John Meehan"?

No.

Does it... how do you know that?

Well, it says PO asked for a copy of the lease

to confirm, but Meehan told her he couldn't give her one

- 'cause it wasn't in his name. - Given his history

of conning women, she didn't maybe think that

- that was a red flag? - She did, actually.

File says she was planning to make an unannounced

site visit to check his story out.

Okay, except how about she did not do that?

He's not the only parolee she's gotta keep tabs on.

And he gave her the address in mid-December,

so she probably just hasn't had time to get there.

You two were pen pals when he was in the joint?

No.

So it just all happened pretty fast, then,

once he got out.

You guys meeting, getting together I guess.

Is that what you guess?

Do you think you're being subtle?

- Look, I... - Because you are not.

Do you not think that my mother

is already upset enough over this?

You think she wants to come here

so you can make her feel worse?

Think that's why she pays her taxes?

So she can come into your office

and you can shame her?

- Is that what you think? - Look, that's not

- what I think. - Good.

I'm sorry.

But what I do think is there's not a whole lot I can do.

Right.

So that means you can do nothing, right?

What I mean is, since he's paid his recent debt

to society, what I have is a bad guy

with a bad history who, so far as we know,

hasn't actually broken a law in Newport Beach.

I can't even pick him up for failure to report

to his PO.

Whatever this is he's up to, he's good at it.

But he's on our radar now... my radar...

- and if he makes a move... - When.

When he makes a move.

We'll be on him like a ton of bricks.

You have my word on that.

Right now that's all I got.

Oh, what about this place?

I designed the club at that place.

John might remember.

Anyway, you know, I'm pretending I'm going

- on a spa vacation. - This place looks good.

I don't want to hemorrhage money.

That place is so expensive, Ronnie.

So where, then? Huh?

Don't get frustrated with me in addition

- to everything else right now. - We can't go to Grandma's,

and you can't go to Trey's 'cause he knows

where both of them live, and I'm out

of the penthouse already.

Although, technically that is still paid for

through the end of the month, but that's like ground zero

for this whole stupid situation.

What about one of those places, you know,

over by the Spectrum?

You know those places?

Like, one of the corporate suites?

- Yeah. - With the shower curtains?

They have self-parking, Mom.

I know, but I have to go

to a place that I wouldn't normally go, you know?

I don't want to stand out.

I don't want to do my normal routine.

I don't want John to find me.

We should pay for the room in cash.

Maybe you would know if he was monitoring

your credit cards, but maybe you wouldn't, you know?

Let's go find an ATM.

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I got it.

Oh, my God.

It's not so bad.

I mean, at least you're not here forever, right?

- Right. - It's dark and musty.

You know there's no room service here, right?

That's all right. I... I'm not...

I'm not really hungry anyway.

Did you call the hospital?

I did, and, you know, I... I talked to the nurse

who was sitting right in front of John.

He's not going anywhere.

She says his fever is very high

and they're watching his immune system.

Post-surgery or something.

Let's hope they forget to sanitize, huh?

- But I should go. - Oh, okay.

Are you gonna be okay here on your own?

- Yes. - You sure?

- Mm-hmm. - Okay.

- You call me if you need me. - Okay.

Thank you, hun.

I've figured it out now, I guess.

I don't understand where you are, Deb.

I don't understand what's happening.

Maybe I do. I just...

don't want to believe you're a coward.

You promised me this was forever.

We promised that to each other.

Well, I guess you didn't mean it.

But I did.

The choices we make show who we are.

I know who you are now, Deb.

Pray for me, at least.

Okay?

- _ - 'Cause I'm praying for you.

Try it again.

♪ Two... one, two, three ♪

Tuck that...

Coming back down.

Okay, keep going.

I'll be right back.

- Hello? - Hi, Mom, it's Cindi.

Hi!

- Are you teaching all day? - Yes... uh, yeah.

- Most of the day, yeah. - Think you can take a break?

Um, about noon.

Uh, I could maybe move one of my students.

No, noon is good.

I just want to tell you what's happening.

Okay, well... well, come hungry.

- I'll make us a special lunch. - I'll see you at 12:00.

- I love you. - Okay.

You, too. Bye.

Oh, Cindi, Cindi, Cindi.

- Oh, Megan. - Sorry I'm early.

My mom had to drop me off...

Oh, that's fine, honey.

- That's fine, I was just... - Is Mom here?

No, Toby, honey, I'm sorry.

No, I... I must have heard her wrong.

Um, I'll send her right in to you

when she gets here, okay?

Did I make it worse for you?

Because I liked him so much?

Did I make it harder for you to see who he really was?

No.

Mom, I... I don't think I...

ever saw who he really was.

What the kids told me...

what they found out is... is just unbelievable.

- Mm-hmm. - I... I can't wrap my mind around it.

You know...

there was something that I felt around him.

I don't know, something...

missing in him, you know?

Yeah.

Honesty.

That was it.

Oh, we're laughing about it.

Oh, my goodness.

But you know, that thing that I felt...

I... it never was about you, Debbie.

Always thought he loved you.

I did too.

I still... I still kinda do.

Is that crazy?

No, 'cause you're wonderful.

How could he not love you?

Oh, I don't know.

Is it worse or better to know that...

he did this to women before you?

You know, he didn't...

he didn't do anything to me, really, except lie.

But to lie...

about being in prison?

- I know. - Stalking women and... and...

Oh, my goodness, he's not even a doctor.

I mean, what... what kind of a person does that?

What... what must be, you know,

inside him to do something like that?

- I don't know. - Well...

how could you know?

How could you?

But I do wonder, you know, 'cause...

nobody's without sin.

And...

everybody can be saved.

You say it all the time.

You know, nobody's perfect.

Everybody has something.

But, Debbie, you... you didn't do anything

to deserve this.

What did you do to... to deserve for...

for him to hurt you like that?

To betray you.

- I don't know. - You did nothing.

You did nothing.

I know.

Are you Mrs. Hart?

- Arlane Hart? - Yes.

Could we come in?

O... of course.

You did nothing wrong.

Thank God you found out now.

Thank God that you're away from him.

'Cause I couldn't lose

another daughter.

I can't, I can't.

Are you home alone, Mrs. Hart?

N... no, no.

My grandson, he's... he's watching TV.

He's... he's 11.

What... what is it?

Ma'am...

there's been a shooting.

What, is it... is it Bobby?

Is it Bobby who's been... who's been shot?

Ma'am, your daughter, Cindi Sellars, has been shot.

Oh...

uh, how... how bad is she?

I'm sorry. She...

She didn't make it.

Your son-in-law shot your daughter...

And then he shot himself.

O-oh...

Is... is he dead?

No, he shot himself in the chest area.

He's at the hospital in custody.

I... I...

I... I have...

Oh, please, help me.

Oh, please. Oh, please.

I... I can do this.

I'm not alone.

I can do this.

Could it be Mr. Rogers?

You're in the neighborhood.

Have a seat.

Toby?

Hi, sweetie.

- You are the first lad... - Something's happened.

Something terrible has happened.

- Why are policemen here? - Um...

well, they... they came to tell me...

that your father has shot

and killed your mother.

That she is dead.

Y... your Daddy's okay.

He... he shot himself, too, but he's okay.

He's not dead.

He's in the hospital right now.

It's okay. We can do this.

But we have to be strong.

So strong.

It's gonna be so, so hard...

but Jesus will help us.

And we have each other, and we have Him,

and we will get through this together.

All of us.

And, um... okay.

I... I have to...

I have to go...

make some phone... some phone calls,

and so you watch a little more TV, okay?

And I will come back in a bit and get you.

Okay, love bug?

I can be strong with you, Grandma.

Mm. I know you can, my sweet boy.

The good news is, you're free of him now.

You know, you're here, you're safe.

That's all I care about.

Thank you.

Some of the stuff me and Ronnie found out

about this guy?

He's a con man, you know?

He wanted money for drugs and all that stuff

but he was more than that.

What he really wants is for people

to remember him.

He wanted these women

to live in fear of him, which is crazy.

That'd be like the one thing that I would ask him about

if I ever saw him again, you know?

"Why?"

Not that'd ever explain himself to me.

I don't know.

He might.

Mm.

He said this one woman was like his project.

Did you feel that way?

No.

No, I just...

felt like he loved me.

I mean, he's one heck of a liar, right?

I'm sure part of it's true, you know.

He must have felt that way a little bit

to convince people like that.

Like you.

I could never really understand...

what happened to Mom, you know.

Why, uh...

why Dad did that thing to her.

Because he loved her too much?

Sometimes I still don't understand, you know?

- Mm. - But...

this thing with John...

why he does these things...

it almost makes that seem simple.

Over here. You got ten minutes.

I'm so sorry.

I am so, so sorry.

When... when you would come and...

and talk to me about...

Did you already know you were gonna do it?

Yes.

To myself, um...

I wanted to do it to myself.

Not to her.

I mean, not her. Not ever.

How are you?

You're wearing...

It doesn't matter.

Do you still want to die?

Yes, but...

I don't deserve to.

I should live every day

of a long life in here thinking about her.

How's Toby?

Scared.

For you. For...

where you are and what might be happening to you.

You tell him not to be.

You just tell him, "Don't be scared."

You killed my daughter, Bobby.

I hate what you've done.

More than I've ever hated anything in this whole world.

But you loved her.

I know that.

God has given us all of this love

we have for each other.

Long ago, he showed us who you are.

So we love you.

Still.

We all do.

Still.

How... how can you say that?

Can any hide himself in secret places

that I shall not see him?

In the Lord we have redemption through His blood.

The forgiveness of our trespasses...

According to the riches of His grace.

Deb, I'm sorry.

I am so...

- so sorry. - No.

I don't want to hear anything...

from you except...

I want to know.

What do you want to know?

What do you want to know?

Why'd you do all that?

You heard what I told...

the Sergeant.

About the drugs.

The pain management program.

There's no...

I'm the program.

I'm an addict.

I'm in pain all the time.

- Oh, yeah, from shrapnel. - No one ever helped me.

- You said from shrapnel... - I know.

That hit the Jeep and took out guys

- you were working with in Iraq. - I know.

- I know. - You said... you said

you had a nursing degree and a...

a structure PhD that made you an MD.

You're not a doctor, John.

I don't know. It was easier, lazier.

My ego, whatever.

To say "doctor," I just...

you're so successful, and I wanted...

- I just wanted... - So it's my fault?

- ... to be great for you. - So now this is my fault

- that you... that you lied to me? - I wanted to be great for you.

You're not a nurse, you're not a doctor.

- You don't have any... - No, that's not true.

- Any license. - That's not true.

I had an appeal with the California medical board

last October, and they granted me

a conditional license... just... only in this state...

so I could keep working until things got cleared up.

So whoever told you that, they...

- they do not have the latest result... - You know what...

- ... from the medical appeals board. - I don't even care about that.

You know, I wanna know about

all the other things way back before that.

What other things?

"What other things?"

You tell me, John.

Those papers in the drawer?

You went in the office.

You saw what was in the office.

- Oh, God. - Yeah.

I saw that stuff. What was that stuff?

My ex, Tonia.

She was having an affair.

She got the divorce to be with him.

He got bored, so she pretended

to be scared of me.

She filed a restraining order just to show him.

- Just to keep him interested. - There's so many

- restraining orders. - They are not me!

They're people with, like, a similar name...

Well, then how come cops and lawyers

and people that, you know,

get paid to find these things out, they...

- they say they are you. - I have asked myself

that question so many times.

I don't know the answer.

I mean, maybe the people that, you know,

put the information in do it wrong.

I don't know, but you do a database search

and they all come up.

I tried to get a lawyer to, like, separate me

from them, expunge them.

You can do that if you can afford a lawyer,

but I couldn't.

I found so many other things, John.

What about the cops in Laguna?

They said you... you tried to kill them.

Come on.

No charges were ever filed.

Just because someone files a report doesn't mean

that's what happened.

It's nothing.

Once you're in the system, the cops, they just keep

pulling your chain.

You're the bad guy.

It's so easy for them, and, you know...

No one stops them

or checks on them.

Did you build a gun?

The police say they found knives,

they found cyanide.

Why would you have cyanide?

I wasn't gonna tell you this stuff because...

So much of what I thought

I had done to myself...

with the drugs... the numbness,

the tingling, the...

the balance, everything...

It turns out it was MS.

Which is impossible to treat,

so I told myself...

That if it ever got too much

that the cyanide would help me.

And it did help me just knowing that I had it.

But I'd have done that I would never have met you.

After Tonia got me arrested...

when I was awaiting trial,

I went to a motel...

With my med bag...

And a bottle of vodka...

But I didn't have the right sized syringe,

so I didn't die.

I passed out and I fell off the bed

and I woke up...

Covered in blood from the bottle

waiting for someone to find me.

I told you it was shrapnel...

but I'm the shrapnel.

The drugs...

They explode me.

They make me lie,

they make me steal...

and they make me hurt the people

that I love the most.

Especially you.

Can I just say one thing before you go?

All those times that I said that you deserve the best?

I meant it.

You're incredible.

I lied. I lied about me,

about my past, about my job...

But not about you.

I never lied about how much I love you, Deb.

Hey, uh, we don't have

a receptionist right at the moment.

She, um... who is your appointment with?

I'm here to see Gregory Reedus.

Oh, that's me. Hi.

- Hi. - Greg.

I'm Arlane Hart.

I'm Cindi Sellars' mother.

Yeah, I know who you, um...

I can't, uh, talk to you.

- Mr. Reedus... - I'm really sorry, but I...

- I can't. - Mr. Reedus, you have

- to let me... - Maybe you're confused,

which is normal and it's fine,

but, uh, Lisa Usher at the DA's office, she, uh...

she would be the one who you should, uh, talk to.

I... I know whose lawyer you are.

Okay, so...

then why are you here?

- Mom, it's me. - Uh, hi, hun.

- Hi! - Hi.

- I got you a chai latte. - Thank you.

My God, this room is even uglier in daylight.

- What were you doing? - Oh, you know,

I'm trying to get some work done.

- Nice. - What's that?

Oh, it's a GPS tracker.

I put it on your car at Christmas.

- You put it on my car? - Yeah.

- To follow John, remember? - Oh.

- No, I did not remember. - Yeah, I said that one of us

should put one on there, and you said if it would

make me happy I should do it...

So I did.

Well, I... I don't think I was serious, Ronnie.

Well, okay.

I mean, it didn't show anything that weird, so...

Anyway, I forgot to take it off your car so I did that

this morning.

Thank you.

Mm-hmm.

- Did you get the annulment? - Yep.

Yeah, I did. I... I, you know, signed all

the paperwork, and...

- Good. - Mm-hmm.

What about the will?

I changed the will

and had it notarized, so...

God damn, who is texting you so much?

Oh.

Well, I mean, I'm not in the office so, you know,

they're just trying to track me down.

Yep. Speaking of which...

I should go.

Thanks for coming by, sweetie.

- Of course. - Mm.

It's nice.

Oh.

I love you so much.

I love you, too. So much.

Okay, but you're squishing me now.

Oh.

God, that was quite the squeeze.

Well, I love you.

Yeah. I'll see you later.

Remember, we're FaceTiming with Terra at 3:00.

- Oh, yes. - So I'll see you then, right?

Okay.

Thank you for this... for the chai.

- Bye. - Bye.

- Ma'am. - Thank you.

When was the last time you spoke to Bobby

prior to the incident?

That morning, actually, at our house.

He and Toby were staying at our house.

When was the last time that you spoke to Bobby

about the state of his and Cindi's marriage?

Um, that was Wednesday the fourth.

Three days before.

What's he like in that conversation?

What's his demeanor?

Oh, he was so upset

and... and crying so hard.

He just felt that things were over between them

and he was so lost.

How long had you been aware,

uh, that the marriage was in trouble?

By the time Cindi spoke to us

it seemed as if things were already very bad.

But when Bobby spoke to me...

um, he seemed completely

taken by surprise.

Completely surprised,

and he wanted to save it.

Because he loved her.

Oh, so much.

He loved her so much.

Did he tell you any of the things

that he had done to try

and save the marriage?

He, um, had changed some of his behavior.

Um, he went to see

our pastor with her.

They went to counseling... months of counseling.

Um, he agreed to a separation,

agreed to sell their house.

You know, to live separately for perspective

and for...

absence to make her heart

grow fonder.

And, um...

and he spoke to me.

You can imagine, a man having to come

to his mother-in-law for help...

and to cry in front of her.

And did any of the things that he tried work?

No.

Um, he was doing it thinking that he could...

if he did, he could keep Cindi with him, but...

you know, I... I don't think he ever had a chance,

and when he came to realize that...

Prior to the incident,

how did you feel about Bobby?

Oh, I... I loved him.

Loved him very much.

He had such a pure heart.

I mean, his... his whole life was Cindi and Toby.

Um, working for their family, their life together

as a... as a family.

How do you feel about him now?

I still love him.

You love him.

- I do. - Even after everything

that happened?

Bobby asked me the same question.

Because it's very difficult to understand,

if not impossible.

Bobby did a... a terrible thing.

The worst thing.

I hate what he did.

And I told him that, I... I did.

But if he had been in his right mind

he could never have done that.

So what he did doesn't...

doesn't change what I believe about him.

I can still love Bobby,

and I forgive him...

because I want to forgive him.

Because of what I know.

I know...

his heart was full of love.

He just...

he just lost his way.

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