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Don't worry about me, Mum.

Don't. Um...

I'm leaving this just so you can hear me saying it.

Um...

I'm fine.

(CHATTERS)

It's like I tripped a year and a half ago

and I've been falling ever since.

I found you...

..and that means I can find her.

'Scared to close my eyes longer than a blink.'

I wake...

..like I've dreamt this.

# THE SPECIALS: Stereotype

# He's just a stereotype

# He drinks his age in pints

# He has girls every night

# But he doesn't really exist... #

(INDISTINCT CHATTER)

Oh, here you go.There he is. Nelly!

Jesus H!Mate.

(CHEERING AND WHISTLING) Thank you.Nelly!

(WHOOPING)

Ohh!

Who told you?Claire called.

Bloody hell, mate.Just turned around and she was there, Stace.

Jesus H Christ.(CHUCKLES)

MAN: # Nah-nah nah nah

ALL: # Nah-nah nah nah

# Hey-ey-ey

# Nelly Rowe # Nelly Rowe!

# Nah-nah nah nah

# Nah-nah nah nah

Cheers, Mel. # Hey-ey-ey

# Nelly Rowe #

(CHEERING)Nelly Rowe!

(CHEERING AND WHOOPING DISTORTS AND ECHOES)

So, so, so, so, so chuffed.

Cheers, mate.Thanks.

You proved me wrong and I just wanted to say so.

I never thought you'd find her like you did.

Glad to be wrong. Very much am.

And I'm really sorry for doubting. Oh, you don't have to say that.

No, I really am.There's no sorry needed, darling.

Ooh!(CHUCKLES)

All right? You want four again?Yes, please.

(CHATTING AND LAUGHTER)So, the whole village clan will be out.

Where is this?North of bloody outer Scotland where my dad's from.

All the Jimmies will be sat around.

The whiskies are poured.

The fires are burning.

And with hairy-bollock voices

they would sing the Legend of Nelly Rowe!(CHEERING) Yeah, all right.

They would. Cos that's what they'd have made of you already.

I'm gonna come and get her now.She said tomorrow.

I ain't sure about leaving Grace. She's fine with Heather.

Well, they're about the same age. Ha, ha, ha(!)(LAUGHS)

(INDISTINCT SPEECH)

It's ginormous.

Hm!Listen, it's not lost on me. What's that?

Well, you never gave up, did you?

Eh? No matter what anyone said, what they done, you never did.

You know, and look what you get.

You know, you stay true

and look.

I need a favour, Mel, right?

I got this off the bitch who had Jody. Can you pull everything off of it you can?Oh, come on.

And where's Bernie?That'll sort itself out.Will it?Yeah, yeah.

No, I'm on about you.Do you want me to speak to her?No, no.

I want you to tell me that you realise how ginormous...

It's the best thing you've ever done, ever will do.

You know, what you've done here,

for your Jody,

no-one'd do that. You did it.

You. It's you, Nell. What you've done.

MAN: Oi-oi!2ND MAN: Go on, Nelly!

# Nah-nah nah nah... STACE: Please. Um...

# Nah-nah nah nah... Shut up for a sec.(CHEERING)

# Hey-ey-ey - #Oi!

Attention, please. MAN: Hold your row.

So, I bought this for my mate, him, for his birthday.

Oi-oi!Exactly.

Yeah, and his majesty said he didn't want it.

He said some bollocks about the old and stinky one that he's got on,

um, being lucky.

Zita, smell it.

Do I lie?Eugh! Smells to high heaven, yeah.

Yes.I told you.

So he said he's gonna stick with the old stinky one

till he found his kiddie. And guess what?

He only went and done it.

He only bloody did!

(CHEERING AND APPLAUSE DISTORTS)

I don't know what the fuck is going on with me here.

(MUFFLED AND ECHOEY VOICES)

(MUFFLED VOICE) Nelson Philip Rowe,

it is time for you to keep your promise.(SOBS)

(MUFFLED AND DISTORTED VOICES)

(MUFFLED VOICE) What's wrong?

Why are you crying? I can't stop, Stace.

Christ, I feel like I'm falling.

Sh...sh...should we get him upstairs?What the fuck is going on here?

He really don't want that new yellow, Stace.

It's like a come-down, guys. It's been hard getting Jody back.

Four different kinds, apparently, I read. Shock.

All of us have got a touch of that.

We feel for you.

I wouldn't mind, girls, but it's put me right off my beer.

(ALL CHUCKLE)BERNIE: Fuck me. No wonder you're blubbing.

It's you, Bern.

Mega day. Like to say congrats.

Cheers.

Actually...What?

Give me a sec.

Stay there.Yeah.

MAN: Yay! Go on.

Oh. Right. Oh, yeah.

MAN: Go on, Nell.

Bin that.What burn it, did you say?

(LAUGHTER)I will do.

(CHEERING)

# Nah-nah nah nah

ALL: # Nah-nah nah nah

# Hey-ey-ey

# Nelly Rowe

# Nah-nah nah nah

# Nah-nah nah nah

# Hey-ey-ey

# Nelly Rowe #

Not even a day old.

Barely even a half.

It was the morning of the day you arrived.

Picked you up out of your cot.

I was proper, look.

You were all wrapped up, swaddled they call it.

Tiny.

Beautiful.

And hairy.

(LAUGHS) Oh, my God.

You were.

All over your face. Hairy.

Scared me at first.

NELLY: 'I weren't even looking back for her.'

And if... Two seconds.

If I'd glanced back a tick-tock later...

..I'd have missed her, Zita.

Right there in front of me and I would have missed her.

Don't matter...Hm.

..two seconds one way or not...

..you found her.By fucking luck.

Yes, by luck. So what?

It's yours. Believe it.

I can't.

I think that's what this is, you know. I just...

I can't.

CLAIRE: 'Had your smile though.'

Already you.

Phew. You just slayed me.

Couldn't take my eyes off.

I showed myself up doing my nut down there, didn't I?

Did a bit.

Bollocks. Really?The toll of it.

Cos it's come out. Yeah.

You showed that.

And that's all it was.

Christ, Nelly. You're still shaking.

Can you hold onto me until it stops?

Can you, please?

CLAIRE: 'We were like that for ages.'

Just staring at each other.

Until I had to pee.

I didn't know how to put you down. Which way up, which way round.

Not a clue.

I was petrified of breaking you, getting it wrong.

Frantic.

Tears, flooding, pee running down my leg.

I had to press the buzzer for the nurse in the end.

I'm not even sure she came but...

..by the time she did, I had worked it out.

I don't know how, but I did.

So he found her?It's the only noise the estate's been making all night.

It's all right.Couldn't not say why.Yeah, he found Jody.

Can you call him for me? They're on this phone looking for me. So can you for me to talk to him?

It was a messy night. The best thing is that we sleep.

You sleep and, come tomorrow, he's here.

You were the luck he needed to find her.Stop, for real.

To find Jody. You were. It was, it was you.

No. Look, come here.

It's all right.

She's home.

You're good, yeah?

Chips, feels like.

Are you back home now, Bern?

Chips, Melon. I want that to be the next thing that happens.

Tons of vinegar, no salt.

Just that.

I don't know after.

(SHUTTER CLICKS)

(SHUTTER CLICKS)

(SHUTTER CLICKS)

I'm scared like that again, Jodes.

And I don't know what to do for you or with you.

But we'll work it out, baby.

We will.

However long it takes.

I just want you to know...

..that you're safe now.

God's honest, Jodes, you are.

Safe enough to come all the way back to me.

(INDISTINCT CONVERSATION)

(INDISTINCT CONVERSATION CONTINUES)

Come on, darling. You need to do this.

We wanted to welcome you home, introduce ourselves.

We wanted to reassure you and your parents we will do everything in our power

to find and punish the people,

or person, who kept you away from your mum and dad as long as they did.

Is that something you think you could help us with, Jody?

Could you remember anything about where you were being kept?

Any names, places?

Anything that stuck in your mind.

You could write it down, Shola said,

if you don't wanna say.Yeah, you can. Absolutely.

Would you prefer to do that?

You haven't done anything wrong, Jody.

Whatever they might have told you,

however they might have threatened you.

you're not in any trouble.

Can I ask you about the library, Jody?

Can I ask who picked you up there...

..when you expected your biological father?

Who was in the car?

Jodes.

It's OK, Claire, it's um...Early days.

It's...a long road.

Just follow us will be easiest.

(TYRES SCREECH SOFTLY)

(LOCK CLICKS)

MOBILE RINGTONE: "You what? You what? You what, you..."

NELLY ON VOICEMAIL: This is me. You know what to do.

Here you are. Let me know if it's too hot.

Is this porridge?Yeah.

Bit of fresh fruit - banana cut in and that.

Recommended best.

Best for who?

Someone as far along as you are.

Good carbs and that.

Good start to your day.

I'm not sure, Melon.

Well, you don't have to.Sorry.

Sorry for what?

Well, cos I...sort of really hate porridge.

(INDISTINCT SPEECH)

..going to move on to the physical examination...

(GENTLE MUSIC)

(BEEPS)

Well done, Jodes.

I'm going to swab around inside your lips.

That's it.

Everything's OK, baby.

You're so brave.

Brave girl.

This is one day's worth of pain medication.

If Jody has been exposed to HIV, this will help to prevent infection.

(CONTINUES INDISTINCTLY)

..this one twice a day.

(CONTINUES INDISTINCTLY)

This is an antibiotic. It is for gonorrhoea and chlamydia.

So the instructions are on here.

It's to be taken twice a day.

Put your legs up.

(INDISTINCT SPEECH)

Just lean yourself back at bit.

So, let's pop one leg up here.

Put your leg up.That's it.

Good girl. There we go.

We can move it if it's uncomfortable.

Like we said, we can stop at any point, Jody.OK.

I'm going to be as quick as I can

and I'll try and cause as little discomfort as I can.

Yeah?

Is it OK if I continue, Jody?

I'm right here, OK?

If you need me, I'm right here.

Yeah. Yeah, you can continue.

OK.

OK, deep breaths, baby. Deep breaths.

It's OK, baby.

Nearly done.

My brave girl.

Well done, baby.

39,193,259.9778, roughly.

Feels longer.You can have it in milliseconds as well, nearly.

(CHUCKLES)

What do you mean by "old"?

What she looks like to me?

39-odd million seconds will do that to you, won't it?

Not older.

There's something old in her now.

Can you not see it?

You be honest with her, will you?

Dylan?

Cos she's gonna need you to be.

OK.Yeah, you say... how much you missed her.

What are you bloody shrugging for?

You missed your mate, didn't you?

Did you?Yes.

Well, then that's what you tell her.

You chat to her like you always used to.

Yeah? (RINGTONE) "You what? You what? You what, you what, you what?"

Oh.

Hey. I need you to call me as soon as you get this.

Cos Grace is asking when you're coming for her cos she's waiting.

So, as soon as you get this, please.

Straight to voicemail like he let it ring out or like his phone's off?

It's early. The state of him last night, I'd say it's probably off.

I wanna hear how it goes to voicemail.He'll be here.

Can you ring him again, please? Can you ring him again, please?

Or I will on mine. It's fine.All right, wait. I'm calling.

Claire. Hey.

Watcha.

Can we come and see her maybe? I...

MOBILE RINGTONE: "You what? You what? You what, you what, you what?"

"You what? You what? You what, you what, you what?"

"You what? You what?"Answer your phone, Nelly.Yeah.

(MOBILE OFF)

Literally 30 minutes, that's it. That's all we get.

30 minutes for a lunch hour now. I can't do any of my clubs and stuff

unless I packed-lunch it.

You'd hate it. Be kicking off louder than anyone.

No-one sits next to me in English.

Or sociology. Or computer studies.

I won't let anyone and everyone knows they can't.

Saved for you, ever since...

Nelly said to say how much I missed you.

I wait for you every morning still. See if you're coming to walk to school.

(AS YODA) "Do or do not. There is no try."

RINGTONE: "You what? You what? You what, you what, you what?"

"You what? You what? You what, you what, you what?"

(SIGHS) Shouldn't you answer it?

Call 'em back.

RINGTONE: "You what? You what?" Nelly.Yeah.

I'll um...

I'll tell 'em to piss off and then I'll turn it off, yeah?

What the fuck, Tam?

What the fuck what? We've been calling you all morning. Where are you?

Why wouldn't you answer and call back?

Here's Grace.No. No, Tam, wait - You're not coming for me?No, I am.

We're not gonna go after Paul any more, no?No, we...we are.

100% we're going after Paul. We...

Scrape me off now you've got your daughter back.That's not even close.

I just... It's just that I had to come and see Jody and check in

and then I'm on my way over.OK, so, when are you coming cos I'm nearly fucking done.

So when?

Nelly.

Nelly!Jody?

(HANGS UP)

Where is she?Where is she?

What's going on?Jesus Christ!She just went in.Jesus Christ.

Get her out!How did that happen?I was just talking like you said to. Barry.

Jody? (FRANTIC MUFFLED VOICES)

Get her out!

How did she end up in...

I c... I can't swim.

Jody. Nelly.

Jesus.Get her out, get her out!

(MUFFLED VOICES)

I've got her. Yeah. I've got her.

(MUFFLED VOICES)

Nelly! Grab her.

Pull her in.

Is she breathing?

Jodes.Hey, Jody!

Jody?Jody!

Jody!

Jodes. Oh, my God.

OK.Oh, my God!

NELLY ON VOICEMAIL: This is me. You know what to do.I ain't leaving a message. I done that fucking twice.

Just calling to say don't bother. Yeah? Be good.

I see what this is. I knew it would be.

So...

(INDISTINCT CHATTER)

Claire's a tea. Are you a coffee?

Milk and three, if you're buying.

Go in and keep my seat warm.Nah, you're good.

You're scared of something, Nelly.I am not.

No. Why would I?I mean, we got her out.I know we did.

She just doesn't know about herself at the minute, that's all that was.

Yeah.And why would she?

Probably right.

I just don't think she should wake up to my mush.

Fuck knows what that would do. (CHUCKLES)

Should be who she knows.

Coffee and three?

Cheers.

(MACHINE BEEPS RHYTHMICALLY)

I know you love me.

I do, yeah, with all my heart.I know you do.

And you'll tell me that.

On at me to ask you. Ask you, but that's all you'll say,

some version of "I love you, Bernie", so what's the point?

No, ask me.

We're having a girl.Yeah, I know we are.That's why this is burning me.

I've got to protect her because...

you were 22

and I was 13, Melon.

I was 13, Melon!No, ask me!

Is that what you saw in me?

I did, yeah. Yeah, I did see that

but...not in that way.Oh, shit.

No, no. Bernie, wait, please. Just list- No, just listen.

Yeah, I saw the age of you but I wasn't after you for that.

And I wasn't lying what I said to Nelly.

No, it repulsed me. That's why I went nowhere near you.

And whatever I was thinking, I never let you know about it, did I?

Eh? Did I ever?No, you buried it.

Yeah, down deep. Cos you were 13, Bernie!

And that wasn't me.You said it was hard though.Yeah.

Had to fight with yourself, urges were that strong.

What are you on about, urges? There were no fucking urges!

Look, I saw you...

and something went bump in me. Turned me on my head.

And that bump, whatever it was, was the same as when you come after me

a couple of years later on Longtail Hill.

Same as when you married me.

Remember?

And every other day since and every fucking day to come cos I don't...

I don't know, Bern. It's you.

From day one.

No. No, wait. No. No, Wait. Bernie. No, listen. No.

Bernie, no. I've made this mistake before. I should have trusted what goes on

between you and me but I bottled it. What does that mean?

You know what I'm like when I get scared. I...I thought you'd go.

If I sent you away, I thought you'd go and never come back.

So, I'm...I'm not gonna grab hold of you like I did.

No, I'm gonna do like Nelly.

I'm gonna stay true. And whatever the fuck you or anyone else says,

I know who I am.

And you know who I am. And you know who I'll be for our little girl.

So I'm gonna trust that.

No, we're forever.

It's what you're always telling me, isn't it?

(SOBS)So I'm gonna trust...

..that you remember that.

(OPENS DOOR)

Something with Jody held him up. That's what it sounds like.

Do you a croque madame, shall I?

You know, I always thought that it was the er...the egg

that made it a madame - you know, egg and wombs - but apparently not.

Someone said that it looked like a woman's hat from above.

You know, the fried egg.

Personally, I prefer my version.

(FRONT DOOR CLOSES)

Grace?

I'm not chasing after you.Good!

How did you get here?Bus.

It's not your fault, D.

Nelly. Excuse us a minute, Dylan.

Are you sure?It's OK.Yeah.

Here he is. This is Nelly.

It's good to see you on the mend, Jody.

This should have happened a long time ago.

All the times you've asked... Jody...

It was my fault, mostly.He should have met you.Most of that was.

I made it hard for your mum to trust me.

Maybe you'll sit with Jody for a minute, Nelly.

Let us stretch our legs...Yeah? ..get Claire to eat something.

We won't be long.OK.

You don't have to come all the way in. I'll meet you wherever.

Yeah. Anywhere. I'll meet you anywhere.

CHILD: Grace!Please, Cerys, I wouldn't ask you if I weren't sure.

I wouldn't ask you - Jesus, Samson.

I'll text you, please.JJ's been sick.No, I won't. I'm ready. I'm ready.

Thank you. Thank you, thank you, thank you.

JJ's been sick again in the car.Has he? Yeah?Yeah.

Ooh, yeah. No, I don't wanna see that, thanks, Son.

Good to see you though.

Come with me, yeah? Come on.

Samson?(COUGHS)

Shit.

Son?

Samson?

Son!JJ: Mum!

Mum!

I'm not sure now's the right time but I might not get a next chance.

And I swore to myself...

If luck let me meet you again, I swore to God that I would beg your pardon, so...

I never should have signed myself out of your life without saying hello first.

And I should have knocked on your door after you wrote me that letter you wrote.

I told myself I weren't ready, but...

Darling, it should have been me told you about your grandmother's saltfish dumplings.

It should have.

And how...stupid pretty you are like your Auntie Ruth

because, Jesus, you so are. You are. You're...

I'm just so sorry it's me.

Cos you were better off without me. You were.

I weren't wrong about that.

In fact, I took comfort thinking about that.

But the thing is...

you were better off without me...

..but I weren't...

not without you. (DOOR OPENS)

Tam's called, and Stace, looking for you.What's going on?

Been calling nonstop. Something urgent.Just... I...

Hey, Jodes.

Look, I'm sorry but um...I gotta duck out for a minute.

It's um... It is something urgent.

Yeah, go.But I'll come right back, if that's OK.Go. I'll call you, tell you where we are.

I'll see you in a bit, darlin'.

Sorry.It's OK.Later.

Right.

Got you something, baby.

I'm so sorry. I'm sorry.

Zita! I'm sorry, Zita!

Son. Son, are you here?

Son. Son.

Son. (SOBS) Son!

NELLY ON VOICEMAIL: "This is me. You know what to do."

I don't know what she thinks she's playing at, but I want him back.

You know how I can forget myself where my son is concerned.

I don't care what she thinks is going on. I want him back

or I will mash her the fuck up!

Hey, Grace, what's going on? I'm on my way back

but I heard that you and Samson had gone for a bit of a run-around

and you got everybody a bit worried.

So I'm on my way. You let me know where you are.

I'll come and see you, yeah?

Zita.(WHIMPERS)

(SOBS)OK. Where haven't you looked?

(SOBS)Where haven't you gone, darlin'?

(SOBS)OK. Tam?

Can you make your way that way and check?TAM: OK.Where is he?

See that there? Look. There.

It's like a big piece of glass.

They say it's that but, to me, it's like an alien spaceship landing

and then it got caught and that's the only bit left sticking out.

Have you been up there?Yeah, I have. High up as you can get.

I ate in the restaurant too. Cost hundreds.

See all the big city, the side and that of the river.

Could you see me?

Yeah, I was high up enough to, yeah.

Felt like I could see everyone.

Armand de Brignac. Whole bottle to myself.

225 quid.

Can I go up there?

(GASPS)(LAUGHS)

(LAUGHS)

(CONTINUES LAUGHING)

Please can I get down, Grace?

(TYRES SCREECH)

I'm here. I'm here.Have you heard from her?

No, she's not answering.I told you where she should be. Didn't I fucking tell you?!

She's not gonna do nothing.How is this not already something?

(SIREN WAILS) I just mean she's not gonna hurt him. She's messing.

Who called these lot? The fuck are these lot doing here now?

You wanna piss off, Nelly, you really do.

I told you already, she might be messing but I ain't.

Grace. You need to speak to me.

Remember me?

I do. From that Richard's bar, weren't it?

Where'd you come from?

Meant to be picking up Grace.

She's not gonna hurt him. She just doesn't know what to do now.

She said that?

Could you call her for me, please?

She needs to speak to me. Could you... Could you call her?

(RINGING TONE)

(MOBILE BUZZES)

Hello?

I'm with him now, G.

Tell him to fuck off. She says fuck off.

Best chance she has of getting out of here, with me.

Tell her she needs to speak to me now.Don't care what he's saying.

I want her to get out of here and go with you. That's all I want.

Where are you?Give a shit about me now, do you?

Yeah? Now I've got something you need?

Just tell me where you are.I waited and waited for you.

I thought we were going after Paul.

I'm sorry I kept you waiting, I'm sorry I've let you down

but, please, Grace, where are you?

I just took him to remind myself where we are.

Stay there and wait for me.

Please.

I'm on my way.

VOICEMAIL: "You what? You what?" That's me.

Will you stay here until I call?

(SCOFFS) I don't know about that. Then...I don't wanna...on your way out, that way, is a KFC.

It's about a mile if you stay on this road. Just give us an hour

or we're not coming.I...Please.

I won't be there a minute more. Thank you.

Any joy, Nelly?

Are you all right?I am, yeah.

Come with me, Tam.Where?Just come with me, can you?

DYLAN ON RECORDING: "I swear to God it was you laughing, Jode. It woke me up.

I weren't dreaming. It was you.

And you climbed up into my room again

and was laughing your arse off about it.

It didn't feel like dreaming."

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Your mum wants you indoors, Son.

Tea's getting cold.

See ya!See ya, don't wanna be ya! (CHUCKLES)

Here, listen. Tam's gonna take you down because I need to help Grace with something, yeah?

But I won't be long.

Thanks, Tam.

Tell Heather I said bye, yeah?

Yeah, I will. Take care.

Just give 'em a minute to get down.

Then we'll take the long way, shall we?

I weren't gonna do nothing to him. I know.

I got Cerys waiting.Think I was gonna do something to him?I don't.

I don't. I think you're pissed off with me and you had good reason.

You did.

And this is the way you proved it.

I wouldn't hurt him.I know, Grace.

I wouldn't.

I'm sorry.

Come here.

Nelly. Nelly.Ah, shit.

No.Please stay.You fucking bastard!No.

Go easy with her.Fuck you!Come on. Just go easy with her.You did this!

Fuck. Fuck! Fuckin' hate you!

Stop struggling! (SCREAMS) I fuckin' hate you!

Calm down.(SCREAMS AND YELLS)

Thanks, Stace(!) Could have done without your help.

I'll be in to see you

soon as I can.Don't bother.

(KNOCKS SOFTLY) I will though.

(SOFTLY) I want my dad.

Jody, what is it?Jody, what is it?

Is something hurting?What did you say?

Where is he?

(KIDS YELL INDISTINCTLY)

JODY: 'I want my dad.'

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