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♪The body temperature I once owned.♪

♪Who will hug her tightly?♪

♪Waves of memory erode the soul.♪

♪I can only lick the scar alone.♪

♪Previous burning expression in her eyes.♪

♪Who will she look at with deep feelings?♪

♪Waves of memory push me to darkness.♪

♪I try hard but can't reach the opposite bank.♪

♪All the memories are like sand.♪

♪I can't struggle.♪

♪I sink deeper and deeper.♪

♪The more I love you, the more I hurt,♪

♪but I'm loath to give up.♪

♪All the time is like sand.♪

♪I can no longer struggle.♪

♪I can't stop missing her♪

♪until the moment of death.♪

♪All the memories are like sand.♪

♪I can't struggle.♪

♪I sink deeper and deeper.♪

♪The more I love you, the more I hurt,♪

♪but I'm loath to give up.♪

♪All the time is like sand.♪

♪I can no longer struggle.♪

♪I can't stop missing her♪

♪until the moment of death.♪

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I have not only put my trust in you,

but also fallen in love with you.

Lin Heping,

I'm going to pretend

that you never said that.

We are just friends,

good friends.

I have something to do.

I'm going to hang up first

Lin Heping,

why can't you stop thinking about her?

Heping.

Nan Sheng has left.

Left?

She left you this.

Heping,

when you see this letter,

I'm on my way

to a place where I belong in this world.

This is probably

the last time I've spoken to you.

I remember so many beautiful things.

For example,

I sat in the backseat of your bike,

and you laughed facing the wind.

For another example,

I remember the little tent

that sheltered us from the whole world.

But now,

these things

all seem to have lost their meanings

at some point,

like the rainbow

whose colors vanish in a second.

Like the star

that I've always been looking up at since I was young

suddenly falls to the ground.

The joy

that the city has brought to me

will all be

shattered in my heart.

I just want to leave here.

This diary keeps

all of our beautiful memories.

Didn't you always want to read it?

Now I'm giving it to you.

Put our memories

in a safe place.

I'm sorry.

Please tell Aunt Lan I'm sorry.

I don't have the courage

to say goodbye to her in person.

You don't have to look for me.

You once came into my life.

You were kept in my heart,

and I will always love you.

Nan Sheng,

come back!

Here,

this is the 50,000 yuan I owed you.

Count it.

You are fast.

Has your company gained profits yet?

You don't need to worry about that.

Anyway,

I've earned the money fair and square.

What? You don't want it?

I'll take it if you don't want it.

I'll take any money.

However, I'd rather work with you

than take the money.

Look at yourself.

Just because I owed you some money,

you kept pressing for it.

Now you want to work with me?

Take the money and go away.

We don't owe each other anything anymore.

-Think about it. -Sis.

Sis, something's wrong.

What?

Nan Sheng has left.

Left? Where?

I don't know.

Probably some place far away.

She just left a letter

and a diary.

What diary?

It says

"Diary of the Other World" on the cover.

Nan Sheng had this habit

of writing diaries before.

It's maybe because

Heping rejected her,

and then she left with sorrow.

How's Heping now?

He's been looking all over for Nan Sheng.

He must feel remorseful.

No. I have to go and see him.

Ali.

Think twice about the offer, Ali.

Why did you leave without saying goodbye?

I didn't even get to see you.

Promises were meaningless,

and I was the one who broke them.

Nan Sheng must hate me so much.

Waiter, two bowls of beef noodles.

Yes.

Still feeling cold?

Sit.

It's beautiful.

Nan Sheng,

which city do you like?

The southern cities?

The northern ones?

I don't know.

I haven't gone to many places.

How about

I take you to travel in the future?

Yes.

Eat. It's warm.

Enjoy your meal.

Thank you.

Eat. It'll make you warm.

Here.

You have some more. Don't give me anymore.

I have enough.

When you're upset,

you should eat more food.

Have some more.

You'll feel better when you have enough food,

and you won't miss your home.

Is the food bad?

What is it?

I don't have a home.

When I was very little,

my mom left me.

There were only me and my dad.

♪We used to hug each other.♪

I didn't expect

♪We thought we could forget the deserted world.♪

my dad would also leave me so early.

When I was little,

I lived at my aunt's house.

During every Spring Festival,

I always looked forward to his return.

When the Spring Festival was near,

the excitement

kept me from sleeping for days.

But when the holiday was over,

I felt too scared to see him leave.

I was scared to see the sight of his back.

I thought that

♪Just like blooming flowers of the other world...♪

when I met Aunt Lan,

I could have a new home.

♪I'm willing to give out all my love♪

♪to get your memory back.♪

Nan Sheng,

look at me.

Nan Sheng,

although your father is gone,

I'll be here for you.

As long as I'm here,

I won't let anyone hurt you.

I also won't leave

and let you see the sight of my back.

I will offer you my shoulder

to give you support.

I will never leave you.

If you want to see me,

I will show up immediately.

♪Your uniform is bright. Oh, how beautiful youth is!♪

Alright.

♪The silhouette of you is in my heart,♪

♪and it will never fade.♪

♪I miss your heart and your sweetness.♪

♪I love your naivete and your beauty.♪

♪Just like blooming flowers of the other world...♪

In the future,

I will plant our yard

with flowers.

Heping,

I'm so lucky to have met you in my life.

I don't want to part with you.

♪Just like blooming flowers of the other world,♪

♪when flowers bloom, the leaves wither, and I can't meet you.♪

♪I'm willing to give out all my love♪

♪to get your memory back.♪

♪Get your memory back.♪

♪Get your memory back.♪

Stop drinking, Heping.

I know you're upset.

But it is not your fault.

I feel

I really hurt her.

I was so stupid

that I said all those things to her

in front of the whole school.

Heping,

don't think of it

in this way.

Even if you hadn't rejected her,

she would have left anyway.

She has grown up.

She is no longer the Nan Sheng she once was.

She doesn't need your care.

You need to snap out of it.

One day

Nan Sheng will understand.

You did it for her own good.

For her own good? Not at all.

I thought I did it for her sake.

But look what happened?

I realize

that I'm just a mindless fool.

I clearly knew

that I was the only one Nan Sheng got.

I was the only one she relied on.

I clearly knew

I was the most important person to her.

But I still pushed her into embarrassing situations,

thinking I was so clever.

I don't know

where she is now.

I can't find her.

(Diary of the Other World)

If you want to drink,

I'll drink with you.

Here.

I think I should keep looking for her.

Yes. I have to look for her.

Mom.

You're back.

I've got you something.

Why are you alone?

I've told you

to bring Qiao Man with you.

Mom,

I've told you on the phone

that Nan Sheng

and Qiao Man are different people.

Don't

get them mixed up again,

otherwise it would be

very awkward for me.

I did

admit to you that

it was wrong of me to

stop you from

being together with Nan Sheng.

Now Qiao Man finally showed up,

who looks exactly

like Nan Sheng.

If you like her as well,

I must help

to bring you two together.

Why bother?

She's married.

You say Qiao Man's married?

So don't get any ideas.

I like her but so what?

We can't be together.

It's such a shame.

What a good thing

it would be if Qiao Man

could become part of our family?

But I must remind you

that even though you

and Qiao Man can't be together,

you can't let

that Xu Ali

take the chance.

I'm telling you.

I will not let her

step into our home.

Mom, what are you talking about?

Ali and I

are just business partners.

You'd better be.

Let me tell you.

Losing money

is nothing.

You should stop the partnership with her

and get rid of her.

Both she and her brother

are up to no good.

Mom, does this have anything

to do with Zhensheng?

Zhensheng and I are good buddies.

He's been studying abroad,

living a free life as a painter.

Speaking of this,

we haven't talked for years.

Mom, why are you speaking ill of him?

No, I was wrong.

I just want to remind you

that you can't trust anyone.

Mom, is there something wrong?

You...

You just can't understand

anything I was saying, can you?

You stupid boy.

Come.

Clean up these things.

Hurry up and clean up.

Make sure they're tidied up.

Okay.

Now,

please welcome the author of the book

Qiao Man

and let her tell us

how she enriched

the romantic plots

in the creation.

Opinions and comments are welcome.

Okay?

Qiao Man,

the director is talking to you.

Meeting Barcelona

consists of

the daily reflections I had during the stay in Barcelona.

It also consists of

many local customs.

I would put it this way.

(Meeting Barcelona)

I hope the audience...

Stop, stop, stop.

Did you understand

what I just said?

Sorry, Director.

You are hiding here and having a meeting about the script.

The issue of copyright has even not been solved.

How do you still have the nerve to do this?

Luo Chen, this is my company.

And this is my conference room.

The way you always show up uninvited

has really pushed the limit of my patience.

Don't ruin my appreciation for you.

The copyright

belongs to us.

Jin Ke,

don't you think

you have made some movies

and you can do whatever you want?

Stop arguing, guys.

This whole thing happened

because of me.

If there is any problem,

you can just talk to me directly.

They look so alike.

Why are they so alike?

If only Nan Sheng was still alive.

I would never

let anything hurt you.

Never.

Luo Chen,

if you'd like to

work with Director Jin Ke,

I will spare no effort

to perfect the work,

and the sales volume of the book

will be boosted by the popular adaptation.

So both parties

will not lose much.

Is this okay?

I can guarantee you

that if you are still worried,

I will report to you every move we make in the process

every single day.

Okay. I accept this.

I will let them off the hook today.

For the sake

of Qiao Man,

I won't argue with you anymore.

Hope you can

cooperate with her.

I'm leaving now.

Director, please sit.

Who started the trouble should also end it.

You only uttered a few words

and this pain in the ass

is gone.

I don't know how I did it.

But don't get cocky yet.

We should hurry up

and map out the outline

of the script as fast as we can.

Now you should

have a discussion with everyone.

Okay?

Okay.

Luo Chen,

why do you want to see me on such short notice?

Did your negotiation

with Director Jin Ke fall through?

Xiaoxi, sit down first.

Put business aside today.

Then what do we talk about?

Didn't you go to see

Director Jin Ke today?

You know what?

I was thinking of something

before you came here.

When we were in college

and I was courting Nan Sheng,

you and Xu Zhensheng

ganged up against me.

I dared to love and hate at that time

unlike who I am now,

thinking twice about

everything I do.

I was so foolish back then.

What's up with you today?

Why are you suddenly

reminiscing about the past?

These words

usually come from my mouth.

You always said I was foolish for this.

Xiaoxi,

I suddenly understood something today.

I've lost my myself in the last few years,

and my mind has been twisted by hate.

If Nan Sheng was still here,

she would not like the person

that I've become now.

Haven't I already told you all these?

Yes. I was so stupid.

I didn't understand them until today.

Uncle Nan, I'm out of prison now.

I finally have the chance

to pay my respect to you.

However,

do not forgive me.

I will always be

an unforgivable sinner to your family.

Zhensheng,

you're here again.

Aunt Lan, you're back.

Here, let me carry it.

What a good boy.

You're more filial than my son.

Don't say that.

Actually, Heping

is taking care of the company by himself lately.

My sister is not with him.

So you shouldn't blame him.

I came here

just to look after you

on behalf of Heping and Nan Sheng.

Is your sister still

at the overseas exhibition?

She'll be back in a few days.

Fine.

I won't talk about Heping's business now.

But the thought of Nan Sheng

just makes me so angry. You know?

This young girl

is so childish.

She's been gone so long,

and she hasn't even sent us a letter

to let us know if she's safe.

It was reasonable for me

to stop them

being together, right?

Wasn't she too fragile to take any criticism?

Aunt Lan,

actually,

Nan Sheng did care about you.

Didn't she buy you

a foot basin a few days ago?

It can help you invigorate the blood circulation.

That is not rare.

All I've got for raising her these years

is just a foot basin?

Let me tell you.

Right now,

I hope she can come back safely.

And then I can find her a good family

to marry into.

This way,

I can also

fulfill what her father expected me to do.

But it will be good

if Nan Sheng and Heping are together.

Nan Sheng will be happy for the rest of her life.

It won't be good.

It is not normal at all.

Have you ever seen

such a family in which

the brother and the sister are in a relationship?

If the word gets out,

the neighbors

will condemn them forever.

Don't you understand?

If they still

want to be together,

I won't be

their mother anymore.

I'm telling you.

I won't accept this

until I die.

I, I'm telling you.

The thought of them

gives me such a headache.

I'm going to cook.

Zhensheng,

I'm going to make some delicious dishes.

Stay and have some with me.

Okay.

Nan Sheng,

when are you coming back?

Ali, you're back.

How is the exhibition?

What's wrong, Ali?

Heping,

don't blame me.

Don't blame me.

What's wrong?

Nan Sheng,

Nan Sheng's gone.

You're lying to me, right?

Who told you?

I ran into her

at the exhibition in Barcelona.

We were supposed to meet up with each other,

but she didn't show up

at the appointed time.

I became very worried,

so I asked about her at the place she worked,

only to find that she had an accident at the beach.

A lot of policemen were sent to look for her.

But

they didn't find her.

Ali,

you are lying to me, right?

Aren't you?

It is true, Heping.

Why didn't you tell me this earlier?

I dared not tell you.

I didn't know

how to

tell you this.

Nan Sheng.

Why did you leave?

Why did you go far away from home?

Didn't you know how much I had been missing you?

Who knew that

it would end up like this,

and we would never see each other again?

I'm sorry.

Nan Sheng, I am sorry.

If I had known things would end like this,

I would never have

kept you and Nan Sheng from being together.

Sorry.

I'm so sorry, Nan Sheng.

You were so young.

How can I fulfill

your father's expectations? I am sorry.

Aunt Lan.

Don't be so sad.

You should look after your health.

I am so sorry.

-Nan Sheng. -I'm sorry.

Punish me.

If it hadn't been me,

you wouldn't have died.

I shouldn't have

rejected you on the graduation ceremony.

If so,

you wouldn't have gone far from home.

You've been gone.

This is a mistake

I will never be able to fix.

Luo Chen, what are you doing?

Who are you? Why are you hitting my son?

None of your business!

Luo Chen.

Lin Heping,

you clearly knew that

you couldn't give Nan Sheng happiness.

Why did you still stick to her?

Why did you let her fall in love with you?

Luo Chen, don't act like this.

Nobody wants

this to happen.

If he had given up earlier

and Nan Sheng had been with me,

this wouldn't have happened to her!

What's up?

Don't stop him.

Let him beat me.

I did all this to Nan Sheng.

I am so sorry.

That's it? Just saying sorry?

I'm telling you,

Lin Heping.

Since we are at Nan Sheng's funeral,

I won't argue with you.

But this will never be over.

I will not let you off.

Luo Chen.

Luo Chen.

I was neither a good brother,

nor a good lover.

I couldn't bring you happiness.

Why did we fall in love with each other?

I was the one

who broke the promise and abandoned you.

Do not forgive me.

Nan Sheng, never forgive me.

Why did you leave?

Nan Sheng.

Unknowingly,

we have reached this place again.

Xiaoxi, let's go back.

No.

Luo Chen.

We can't shun away

from the fact

that Nan Sheng is not with us anymore.

With Nan Sheng's passing,

my college years

have also vanished.

What's the point of staying in the college anymore?

Luo Chen,

I am also extremely sad

about Nan Sheng's passing.

But don't forget that

to me, there aren't just memories

of you and Nan Sheng

in this college.

There are also memories of us.

Luo Chen, do you remember?

You redrew

the oil painting of Nan Sheng

at this exact place.

That day,

you said that the studio was stuffy,

so you wanted to go for a walk.

We drew the painting here.

What are you doing?

You were very weird.

Why did you act so strangely?

You kept hitting yourself.

You seemed more upset than Heping.

I did harm to Nan Sheng

and Aunt Lan.

Why should you feel sorry?

Sis,

if I said I had something

to do with Nan Sheng's father's death,

would you believe me?

Stupid boy, stop talking nonsense.

What nonsense are you talking about?

You must take responsibilities for what you say.

This is a matter of life and death.

I'm willing to take all the consequences.

I did

crash into Nan Sheng's father and kill him.

Over the years,

I've spent everyday

on struggling in pain.

I really...

Zhensheng.

Aunt Lan, Aunt Lan.

Zhensheng, did you really do it?

Say it again.

Sorry.

Sorry, Aunt Lan.

I didn't mean to do it.

Aunt Lan, Aunt Lan.

Aunt Lan, Aunt Lan.

Aunt Lan, hear me out. Hear me out.

There is nothing to talk about.

I will not

forgive you two.

Get away from me.

Hear me out. Hear me out.

Hear me out, Aunt Lan.

Zhensheng is the only brother I have.

As his older sister,

I didn't raise him well.

I will take all the blame for him.

I am willing to do anything

to pay for the sins

that Zhensheng has done.

You will pay?

What can you pay?

Nan Jianming is dead.

Now Nan Sheng is also gone.

Can you pay for their lives?

Do you know how miserable I am inside?

Aunt Lan,

I will definitely try to persuade Zhensheng

to turn himself in.

However,

there's one thing I want to beg of you.

Don't tell this

to Heping.

Zhensheng

values their friendship as they grew up together.

I beg of you. I beg of you.

I beg of you, Aunt Lan.

I beg of you.

I beg of you, Aunt Lan.

Leave.

Do not let me see you again.

Get out of my sight for good.

Zhensheng.

Zhensheng.

Aunt Lan has agreed

not to tell anyone.

Where is he?

(Sis, I'm going to turn myself in. I hit Nan Sheng's dad when I was driving our van the other day. )

(I tried to make it up to Nan Sheng. But now she's dead, I can't take it any more.)

This was how you said goodbye?

You just left a letter and went away?

Raise your head and look at me.

Tell me

that it is not true.

You lied to me.

Sis,

I did kill Nan Sheng's father.

I don't believe you.

I don't believe you.

That day,

I was driving the car in our store

to make a delivery.

I swear

I really didn't notice

the person in front of the car.

After I hit him,

I was dumbfounded.

I was really scared.

I didn't know what to do.

So I just ran.

When you talked about

Nan Sheng's father the other day,

I finally realized that

I had committed a hit-and-run.

How am I supposed to

live on my own from now on?

You were suddenly locked up like this.

Why didn't you

talk to me before turning yourself in?

I am your family.

Sis,

I thought that

Nan Sheng's father was dead,

but Nan Sheng was still alive.

As long as I treated her well,

I could redeem myself.

But Nan Sheng passed away as well.

The only chance of my redemption

was gone.

So I had to turn myself in,

to punish myself.

You wanted to protect Nan Sheng,

so

you went out of your way

to keep me away from Heping, right?

Yes.

If you were closer to Heping,

Nan Sheng would be in pain.

So I spared no effort

to help Nan Sheng to get Heping back.

Only in this way could I be relieved.

But Nan Sheng passed away.

Nothing I do will matter anymore.

You were so foolish.

Why didn't you tell me?

You should have told me in the first place.

Sis, I'm sorry.

All these years, you've worked

so hard to get my tuition for college,

but it has all went down the drain.

But there is one thing I need to

beg of you. Can you promise me?

Just tell me.

I don't want Heping

to know this,

so please don't tell him about this.

Can you promise me?

Yes, I promise.

I won't let him know.

Thank you, sis.

Then I can

work on my rehabilitation in peace.

Zhensheng.

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♪Where do I go♪

♪when I've got no way to hide?♪

♪When will I feel♪

♪like I'm truly live in life?♪

♪I'm waiting around,♪

♪trying to find my time.♪

♪I've gone out of the bounds,♪

♪hoping to see a side.♪

♪When I wake up,♪

♪and I start a whole new day,♪

♪I realize♪

♪that the world is all a stage.♪

♪It's a moment like this that makes me feel so♪

♪alive.♪

♪Here I am a star.♪

♪I will go so far.♪

♪Whenever♪

♪life got me down and I fell to the ground,♪

♪I picked myself back up.♪

♪Whenever hope isn't felt,♪

♪I won't be crying now.♪

♪I know I can be tough.♪

♪Every morning I wake up,♪

♪and I know that I'll be tough.♪

♪I am rising up there.♪

♪This is show time.♪

♪Life is my hill to climb.♪

♪Whenever♪

♪life got me down and I fell to the ground,♪

♪I picked myself back up.♪

♪Whenever hope isn't felt,♪

♪I won't be crying now.♪

♪I know I can be tough.♪

♪Every morning I wake up,♪

♪and I know that I'll be tough.♪

♪I am rising up there.♪

♪This is show time.♪

♪Life is my hill to climb.♪

♪I am rising up there.♪

♪This is show time.♪

♪Life is my hill to climb.♪