Original subtitles

♪I'm hesitant to say it♪

♪I still have something to tell you♪

♪And what are you laughing at♪

♪ Do you already know what I want to say ♪

♪I pretend to not care about it♪

♪and get rid of your sadness♪

♪But I don't want you to know what I want to say♪

♪I suddenly become speechless♪

♪You're talking about your dream♪

♪and crying so hard♪

♪Missing you is like bird migration♪

♪Birds who fly for so long but never notice each other♪

♪You're like the summer sky♪

♪and I'm the stars♪

♪With you can I only shine♪

♪and be important♪

♪ I hit your shoulder on purpose ♪

♪Listening to your reprimand♪

♪It's really sweet to care about you♪

[The Best of You in My Mind]

[Episode 19]

Hello, Xu Fang.

Hello.

How are you recently?

Haven't heard from you for a while.

You're back?

Yes.

Let's meet up.

Alright.

Sure.

Have you eaten?

Why don't we have something nice?

Sure. See you at the entrance.

Wait for me.

I'm coming.

You're finally back.

I miss you.

I have so many words...

Do you feel better?

Chi Chi.

I have something to tell you.

Go ahead.

I'm planning to

train abroad for a while.

Go abroad?

Why?

Am I annoying to you?

You hid in the mountains.

Now you want to go abroad after you came back.

You wanted to avoid me so bad?

No, actually

it's because

this is an opportunity,

which is very important for me.

I understand

that everyone is planning

for their future after graduation.

But

I didn't think that

you will leave me out of your plans.

You're just like my mother,

always thinking about yourself and leave me as you want!

That's not true.

Why did you

leave me when I needed you most then?

You can leave.

I don't need your pity.

I don't mind breaking up.

Have you made a decision?

Coach.

I decided not to go.

Why not?

It's the only way for you to compete again.

Is it because of Lin Xi Chi?

Her mother left when she was a child.

It left a huge impact on her.

She can't believe that

someone who left will return to her.

We'll definitely break up

if I insist on leaving.

So

I don't think I'll be going.

Xu Fang.

I understand what you are saying,

but you need to think about yourself.

If you give up the archery

for this

and let an obstacle defeat you,

your hard work for years will be wasted.

You can't disappoint yourself,

even though you don't want to disappoint Lin Xi Chi.

Coach.

I've made my decision.

Sorry.

I was so stupid.

I shouldn't have

turned a blind eye.

Why did I let you date her?

Another quarrel with Brother Fang?

It's not just another quarrel.

We might break up.

Is that necessary?

Only because he is going abroad?

It is.

I was never part of his plans.

You can't only look at his current plans.

You need to look further into the future.

I don't have to.

If he won't be with me now,

he won't be with me later.

I realized something

after her accident.

As long as she's safe,

whether she wants to be with me

or where she is,

it's not important.

As long as she can live healthily and happily,

I'll be satisfied.

Love is about fulfilling another

and not possession.

If his dreams are somewhere far away,

let him go and fulfil his dreams.

I can't do it.

I want Xu Fang by my side

even if he is sick.

I'll take care of him.

I don't want us to be separated!

Sister.

I can't talk with you.

I didn't think that Lin Xi Geng

has matured so much after all these years.

Although I was stubborn just now,

I need to admit that what he said was right.

How could I want Xu Fang to stay by my side

even if he is sick?

Chi Chi.

I finally found you.

Someone wants to see you.

Who is it?

Just follow me.

Let's go.

Coach.

Look at his target.

What's wrong with him?

Target panic.

Target panic?

He has it for some time.

No one knows except for me.

Once an archery athlete

suffers from the target panic,

his career is as good as over.

How?

He has never told me before.

He hasn't told anyone.

It caused him

to underperform at the team event

and fall out with his teammates days ago.

I think his pride doesn't allow him

to be a loser

in front of everyone.

Why is he such a fool?

I told him to go abroad

to go through recovery training two days ago.

That is his only chance,

but he rejected it.

He told me that

he doesn't want to leave you here alone.

I...

It's my fault.

It's my fault.

Don't be sad.

I am too selfish.

You didn't know his situation either.

Right?

I thought he wanted to go abroad,

because he wanted to break up with me

after graduation.

I doubted him when he needed me the most.

Why am I so selfish?

That's enough.

Tell me why I am so selfish?

Don't cry.

Do you know?

You're the only one who can motivate Xu Fang.

You heard me?

Don't cry.

You look silly.

How do I look?

It's an A-line dress.

Now my waist looks small, right?

Give me a spin.

Much better.

I'm leaving.

Good luck!

Good luck.

[Boys' Dorm]

Let's go and eat.

Why are you here?

I'm hungry.

Let's go and have something delicious.

Go alone.

Didn't you want to break up?

Did I?

Did I say that?

I can't remember.

Maybe I have amnesia.

But you still remember that I'm your dad.

Dad.

Dad.

Let's go, dad.

I want something nice.

Treat me to something delicious.

Treat me since you're my dad.

Here it is.

Your juice.

What's wrong with you?

Who let such a person work here?

I'm sorry.

Jiang Zheng Xu works here?

Since when?

After the winter break.

Jiang Zheng Xu stopped practising

when you quit the team.

He stopped?

Why?

Ask him yourself.

Hello.

I want a waffle and strawberry juice.

And a latte.

Alright.

Is latte fine?

For Table 5.

Jiang Zheng Xu, we came here specially

because Xu Fang wanted to eat the waffles here.

Oh, no.

How could I forget

about my morning classes?

I'm leaving.

You can have my strawberry juice.

What's wrong?

Why did you stop?

None of your business.

Let's talk.

Sure.

But that's only because Lin Xi Chi begged me.

Lin Xi Chi?

I don't want her

to see you in a weak state.

Why did you come here?

Why didn't

I hear about any of these?

It's not important.

It's a family problem.

It will only get me

some pity and words of comfort if I told you.

There's no point.

My dad fell sick

during the New Year.

His business partner took

all his money.

My mom was too afraid to go out

because of debt collectors.

Paint was splashed on the door and glass was shattered.

She had no choice

and we had to move.

I realized my situation

is not how it used to be.

I can't afford to spend

any more money on the archery.

I'm a man.

I need to do something.

So I thought that

my graduation is a nice end

after competing in the National College Archery Invitational

Perfect.

But I...

I never thought that

my perfectly planned ending of my college life

was ruined by you.

You're laughing? You dare to laugh?

Laugh?

Xu Fang, you're great.

You're really my best brother.

Well, you can still train

as an amateur player while working.

I'm not you.

I know that

I've already reached my full potential in the archery.

I can never be the individual event's champion.

Right?

♪We've had our chaotic youths♪

♪But we still remember how our hearts beat♪

Can you tell me

what Ding Yi told you that day?

Congratulations.

Thank you.

I'm sorry.

I accidentally overheard

your conversation with your girlfriend.

♪In this darkest world♪

♪we're each other's light♪

We are actually alike.

Many people have high hopes for us.

Our parents.

Our coach.

Our teammates.

Our girlfriend.

We can't disappoint them.

But I still lost in the end.

♪And now we know♪

♪what to appreciate♪

It's no big deal.

It's just another match.

♪Let our youths not go to waste♪

That's not true.

This is our final year.

We can never take part in this competition anymore.

♪All those years♪

♪all the good things we missed♪

Keep it up.

We've prepared for this for three years.

Don't disappoint me.

♪Who is the one who helps you♪

Xu Fang.

You are actually the genius archer

in my heart.

♪We've had our chaotic youths♪

When we were young,

I've always lost to you in the archery.

I've always lost.

How could I not be angry?

But you know what?

I'm not jealous of you at all.

I'm happy for you.

♪In this darkest world♪

♪we're each other's light♪

I like archery.

I love archery.

But what I hope to see

is the moment when you become a champion on television.

How awesome that would be.

♪And they're beautiful and fragrant than ever♪

♪We've had the huge crowd♪

♪We've had the quiet moonlight♪

♪And now we know♪

♪what to appreciate♪

How awesome that would be.

♪Let our youths not go to waste♪

♪By letting go the wrong ones♪

♪could we reach the eternal faraway land♪

♪All those years♪

♪all the good things we missed♪

♪have now become this happiness♪

♪And we deserve it♪

Xu Fang.

Kick mu butt.

Why should I do that?

Just do it. Kick me.

I need power.

You...

Stand still.

Where?

Here.

One.

Two.

Wait.

Wait.

Are you alright?

I'm fine.

I pretended to be an arrow,

but I still can't hit the gold ring.

Do you know what my biggest dream is

everyday

at this archery range?

It's definitely not getting the champion.

That's right.

My dream is never to become a champion.

I know I won't make it.

My biggest dream

is to join every competition available.

It's tough.

Every competition.

If I get the chance

to be greedy.

The World Championships,

World Cup,

and even the Olympics.

I want to join them all.

It's alright if I'm not in the finals.

Rankings are not important.

As long as I'm able to participate,

it means Jiang Zheng Xu,

it means that

I am awesome.

It's true.

This is the dream that supports me.

It keeps me going to improve myself.

I believe that as long as I work hard,

I'll be able

to represent the country and participate in these competitions.

Wearing the national team's jersey.

The one in red.

Rankings are not important.

Winning a champion is not important.

I win if I get to participate in those competitions.

I win if I don't give up!

But my dream will never come true.

Xu Fang.

You are the only one who can make my dream come true.

But you...

You wanted to quit the team.

Do you know

how much I love to see you shoot an arrow?

Fast, accurate and resolute.

You're a natural-born athlete,

you know that?

Alright.

I promise.

I'll help you

fulfil your dream.

You promised.

I'll leave him to you.

Why are you here?

I'll always be by your side.

How was your chat with Jiang Zheng Xu?

Let's talk.

Sure.

Don't say anything.

Let me listen.

I'm sorry.

I didn't even know that you are sick.

Do you remember what you told me when we were young?

We need to take an injection if we are sick.

It's alright to scream if it's painful.

Don't pretend to be strong.

We'll recover after the pain.

Go abroad,

and cure your target panic.

I'll be waiting here for you to return.

You've decided to go abroad?

Coach, I'll leave

after the convocation if possible.

I'll improve my technique while recovering.

Great.

I'm eager to see you return and dominate the archery scene.

After you finish packing at home,

you are leaving

when the convocation is over.

I'm talking to you.

I heard you.

Remember to eat

and rest well over there.

You can come back at any time

if you miss us.

The weather is chilly.

You can bring more clothes over.

Don't stay up late to play games.

It's bad for your eyes.

We wanted you to have a hobby

and keep your body fit by letting you

learn archery.

Didn't think that you end up making us proud.

It's done.

You're leaving soon.

Dad.

Dad.

What is this?

Fang Fang. I hope this letter finds you well.

Both our children missed you

ever since you left for Rong City.

They are obedient.

Although Chi Chi is still naughty,

she is starting to take care of her brother.

Don't worry.

I hope everything is well for you at Rong City.

May you find success in your work and treat more patients.

Chang Ge. I hope this letter finds you well.

It's been a year since I left.

It's so busy over here

that I've not written to you for some time.

I remember that Geng Geng was so thin

when I saw him the last time.

Please make sure that

they eat well.

I've been thinking recently.

If I don't want to become a surgeon

or if you don't insist to stay in your hometown,

will we be able to live together?

Fang Fang, I hope this letter finds you well.

Chi Chi has grown up.

She is a girl after all.

There are some things that I don't know

how to handle.

I wish you were here.

I think she needs you more than I do.

You can be a doctor anywhere.

I don't know why you would leave your family to become one.

I'm sure that we'll be able

to solve our problems

as long as we are together.

But now that

the mother left the naive kids,

the kids miss her mother easily.

Are you sure that this is the best way?

Chang Ge. I hope this letter finds you well.

We were apart more than we were together.

I'm sorry, you have to take care

of our children alone.

I'm neither a qualified wife

nor a qualified mother.

But I think

the kids will understand me one day.

Right?

Chi Chi?

When did you come back?

This...

Dad.

I read them all.

I'm not hiding them from you.

I wanted to find a right time

to show you when you grow up.

Chi Chi.

I never intended to hide anything.

Although I agreed to a divorce with your mom,

I still care about

the both of you.

I understand

that you must hate me

for lying to you after all these years.

Dad.

I'm sorry.

You took on the role

of a father and a mother

for all these years.

Yet I still blame you.

I'm sorry.

Chi Chi, you've grown up.

Oh.

Chi Chi, did you come back with Xu Fang?

I heard that he is going abroad?

Xu Fang is a good kid.

But no one is good enough

to deserve you in my opinion.

I think so.

♪It's not that hard♪

♪It's not hard to make a choice♪

♪It's all warm♪

♪and scattered anticipation♪

♪It's not that hard♪

♪It's not hard to make a choice♪

♪It's all endless♪

♪yet ordinary courage♪

♪Many have lost their loved ones due to their hesitations♪

♪They're always helpless and in a hurry♪

♪They're upset all the time♪

♪Actually, it's not that hard♪

♪It's not hard to smile♪

♪Without noticing it♪

♪We always wipe our tears♪

♪It's not that hard♪

♪It's not hard to give a promise♪

♪The regret from the past♪

♪isn't the present♪

♪It's not that hard♪

♪It's not hard to give a hug♪

♪Our times♪

♪shouldn't struggle with loneliness♪

♪It's not that hard♪

♪It's not hard to love someone♪

♪Even though we get hurt and separated♪

♪they're all the best parts♪

♪in our lives♪