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Lashauwn Beyond: This is not
RuPaul's Best Friend Race.

Laganja Estranja:
I feel very attacked!

Vanjie: I was trying
to reach closure with you!

Silky: If I would've lip synced
for my life today, bitch,

I was ready to do so!

RuPaul: This is Untucked,
backstage at the competition

to become America's
next drag superstar.

Girl, if you're not
watching Untucked,

you're only getting
half the story.

Director: That's a break
on the main stage

All cameras re-po.

RuPaul: Thank you, ladies.

While you untuck backstage,

the judges and I
will deliberate.

You may leave the stage.

It was a weird feeling,

getting negative critiques
for the very first time.

I haven't really
been getting anything

but positive critiques
up until now,

but I'm gonna use these
critiques to my advantage

and apply them
to the next challenge,

and make sure that
I'm coming out on top.

I'm devastated.

I'm also defeated, because
somewhere in this competition

I think I've lost the spark
of having fun.

I got into my head

because I don't want to be seen
as someone who's safe,

someone
who just coasts through.

And I haven't been in the top
since the first week.graphic

-Speeding.
-Marker.

Definitely
need one of these.

It's gonna be somber
in here today, honey.

Child.

Whoo, child.

Ru asked us
who should go home today.

How did y'all feel
having to make that decision?

Who should go home tonight?

I laughed the least at Widow's.

I would have to say Widow
as well.

I would also have to say Widow.

I agree with my sisters.

I would have to say Widow.

She's one of
my best friends here,

and it's tearing me up
to say this.

I would have to say Widow.

I felt so great
the first day here,

and then it just feels like

it's just going
straight downhill from there.

Like, I hold myself so high

in everything that I've done
for the last 13 years in drag,

and I've conquered every demon

that ever, like,
stepped in the way,

because I knew
I was Widow Von'Du.

I don't know.

It's something about this beast
called RuPaul's Drag Race.

I can't seem to conquer it.

I can't grasp it.

This is a hard-ass experience,
and, ooh, child.

What are you thinking, Widow?

I wanted to meet Chaka Khan,

and unfortunately, it's under
these circumstances, so...

If you have to lip-sync
this song

and Chaka Khan sees you
bring this song to life...

You got a fan.

You're also the biggest
Chaka Khan fan out of all of us.

So I wish there was something
I could say

to make this better for you.

I'm frustrated.

I'm extremely frustrated.

Because I don't like hearing
that I've done wrong,

and I'm just so angry,

not at the judges
for telling the truth,

I'm angry at myself.

I'm ashamed of what I've done,

and I feel like
I'm squandering this moment.

Gigi, how are you?

I'm, um, kind of just,
like, mad at myself.

This is the first time
I've gotten negative feedback

from the judges,
and it just kind of

brings you down
a little bit, huh?

-Yeah.
-It does.

But I mean, honestly,
what's done is done.

I might be in the bottom.

I'm just gonna know my words
and that's the most I can do.

That's all you can do.

Bitch, you had
a really good week.

And they loved your fashion!

-They loved this look.
-I'm so happy for you.

I looked pretty on the runway.

Oh, she can stay happy.

How did you feel?

It felt like Heidi's arrived,
you know?

Like she's here,
and it's like,

girl, you showed up
a little late,

but as long as you showed up,
that's really what matters.

I think Heidi's been here.

I just don't think
you realized it

until you heard them say it.

-Yeah, you deserve it.
-Thank you.

I mean, you definitely
use this as motivation

for future challenges.

Oh, it feels so good.

And it's just fueling the fire
that I have inside

to really keep pushing.

For a long time
in this competition,

it was just a back-and-forth

with Gigi and Sherry
winning everything.

So I'm really excited

to be getting such good feedback
from the judges.

Bitch, it's about time.

You know, I'm feeling like
I actually have a shot at this.

I could go all the way.

How do you feel, Jan?

I feel terrible.

I've been trying to show them,

like, who I am
and show them what I can do.

It's just a manifestation

of everything that I've tried
to do in this competition.

I've literally
tried to throw everything

but the kitchen sink
at the judges

to hopefully impress them
and show them what I can do,

and that's how the video
came across.

It was too over-the-top,

it wasn't refined,
it wasn't detailed.

I think that I tried to just
throw my personality out there

instead of focus
on the refinement

of what the challenge
needed to be.

And, like, in hindsight now,
of course I see it.

And I don't want to cry.

But I definitely think

that it's gonna be me and Widow
in the bottom.

And having Chaka Khan here,

having Widow being
such a big Chaka Khan fan,

like, I would be lying if I
didn't say that I was nervous.

I'm gonna go out there
and slay the house,

because I want to show them
that I want to be here.

But I don't wanna lip sync
against you

really loving this song

and just, like, you being
a sickening entertainer.

You wanna be here, too.

And I'm just, like...

The Jan-tasy is not being felt
right now.

If you look at my track record
so far in this competition,

I've been safe or top.

I have not had that moment

where I've done so poorly
that I've been in the bottom.

And it sucks,

but I am not going to let this
deter me from my goal,

even if
it's all odds against me.

So I know
we all had to say on stage

who we thought should go home,

but I'm kind of interested
in hearing

who you all think is, like,
your biggest competition.

You, bitch.
You done won 12 challenges.

[all laugh]

I think Jaida
is very stiff competition.

For sure.

I say Sherry and Gigi,

because they are both
so different.

And although
you've had a lot of wins

and Sherry, you have not won
as many challenges

or as many challenges
as she's won,

I still feel like
there's a lot more to you.

But then, like,
for the rest of us,

I feel like
we get in our head a lot,

and that's the one thing
that can, like--

Take you out of it.

Yeah, like, so it's like
you can be a strong competitor,

but if that bitch slip up
that week and get in her head,

bitch, then
that's it's gonna be...

You know what? I think
if I was gonna pick a top four,

other than myself

it would be Sherry, Gigi,
and you, Miss Jaida.

Really?

I mean, I think
everybody's really talented.

Bitch, just because
I'm in the bottom,

it's not gonna change
my feelings in this competition.

I can see myself in the top four
very clearly.

I have such drive
and passion for this.

I am not a quitter.

I deserve to be
in that top four.

Widow, who do you think?

What was the question?
I wasn't paying attention.

Sorry, I'm not all here
right now.

-It's okay.
-That's okay.

Oh, but you better be.

Oh, my God!

Hello, my ladies.

Hi, sweetie.

Baby.

I was so hoping
I was going to be in the top.

Because as much
as I wanted to meet Chaka Khan,

I didn't wanna have to
lip sync a Chaka Khan song

in front of the judges
on the main stage.

But, hey, it's Chaka Khan.

Like, you might as well
dump the dirt over the coffin,

because the bitch is dead.

Ahh.

I can't sit next to the queen
without hair.

Fabulous.

Oh, my God, I feel like
we should have mopped the floor

if we knew she was coming over.

No, no, no, no.
I'm no different than y'all.

Oh!

I want to wish you all
good luck.

Thank you.
Oh, my God.

It's tough, what you're doing.

I know a little bit of it,

because I do
a little drag, too.

Girl, you got the heels on,

you got the sparkle,
you got it all.

Feel like we're kindred spirits.

So I know how hard it is.

But it can be very rewarding,

because you're following
your calling.

That's what's important

that you're following
what you love to do.

Yeah.

I always say, like,
anybody who does drag,

in whatever form of drag
you do it,

like every woman is, to me,
like one of those drag anthems.

And no matter who you are,
like, it will speak to you.

It does speak to people
in such a way.

I mean, everywhere I go,
all over the world,

everybody knows that song.

Rightfully so.

I can't believe I'm sitting here
with Chaka Khan.

Yeah, this crazy.

I know I'm sitting here, I'm
real quiet because I'm just...

I've talked about you
all day today in the workroom,

and...
♪ Aah! ♪

Yes, that's right.

This is, like--
it's been, like, this--

like, we were all just,
like, having a conversation

about, like,
how this is so hard.

But the hardest part about it

is, like, making sure that we
overcome the demons in our minds

that, like, tell us, like, we
are not good enough to do it--

Amen, and there are lots
of those around us.

And there are as many good ones
as there are bad ones.

It sounds like I'm cuckoo.

-No, uh-uh.
-It might.

But I'm telling you,

negative thoughts and feelings
and entities

can enter you when
you're at you're weakest,

when you feel like
you're a loser.

But you are smarter
than they are,

and you could whup it all.

Anything negative,
you could whup its ass.

-All right.
-You have that power.

I mean, I do wanna really
thank you for Through the Fire.

Like, it's really
pulled me through

a lot of difficult times.

And seeing you on stage,

and I'm just like
I hope I kill this challenge.

I don't wanna cry
in front of Chaka Khan.

And I was crying,
and just thinking of your song

just is what's keeping me
standing right now.

Good. Well, stand on that.

-Stand on that.
-Yeah.

Because I meant that song.

Every time I sing it, I mean it.

Okay?

Queens, sorry,
I gotta take Chaka Khan now.

Goodbye!

-Okay, goodbye.
-Thank you, mwah, mwah, mwah.

Bye.

Mwah, mwah, mwah, mwah.

God bless you all.

Be strong.
Stay beautiful in here.

-I love you.
-Ooh, I love you, thank you.

All right, bye-bye, sweetie.

We love you!

-Bye!
-Bye!

Can't stop smiling.
Look at her.

I don't know, Widow,
what's going on?

Let it out, honey.

I need to go listen
to my lip sync song.

No, you gotta tell us
what's going on!

I cannot disappoint Chaka Khan
on her song.

There is a new fire
that has been lit into my soul

deep in my spirit.

And ladies, I bid you adieu.

-I'm going over there.
-Go get it. Go get it, girl.

Tear it up if you have to,
honey.

Tear it up.

I'm gonna listen to my tunes.

Me, as well.

Chaka Khan is one of Widow's
biggest idols,

so not only do I know that
I'm gonna be going up against

the best dancer
in this entire competition,

but she has so much
going for her right now.

I need a miracle to happen.

Ah, what a life.

You're kind of like
where I was last week,

-where it's like--
-Yeah.

I don't think you did bad
in this challenge.

Mm, I didn't do well, though.

I definitely think
it's gonna be me,

and I'm gonna turn it.

I know you can turn it.

You're gonna be
disappointing me mostly

if you don't
fucking mop down the house.

-You can turn it.
-Yeah.

America's gonna see
what you can really do.

If that happens,
then they'll get this chance

to see the, like, the force that
you are to be reckoned with.

If I have to lip sync,
I'm gonna go out there,end act

and do the thing
that I love to do the most,

which is entertain and have fun
and just live in it.

Good. I can't lose another
New York girl this week, okay?

-It's not gonna happen.
-Okay.

She's gonna turn it.

Queens, five minutes
to the runway.

Thank you.

-Slay. Slay.
-I'm gonna, girl.

She's gonna, through the fire.

Good.

-I love you. Thank you.
-I love you.

I'm having fun
in this competition,

and I don't want it to end.

And if I'm in the bottom two
next to Widow,

who is the biggest
Chaka Khan fan

and an amazing performer,

I know she's gonna turn it.

But, bitch,
I'm gonna turn it, too.

I was in my head
in the challenge,

and I knew that
this was what was coming.

It's game time,

and I got my pep talks
from my icon Chaka Khan.

Like, I am not
going the fuck home.

All right, queens, runway time.

Oh, my God, here we go.

If it's us, kill it out there.

Make Chaka proud.

If it's us, bitch,

let's give them the reason
to keep us both.

And let's prove to them

that we can come back
from the fuck-up that we did.

-And let's do this for Chaka.
-Let's go do this.

I don't wanna cry no more today.

I can't cry
no more tonight, bitch.

-I can't cry no more tonight.
-No more tears.

We got to do this, bitch.

Let's go.

Pray to the gay gods today.

RuPaul: Welcome back, ladies.

I've made some decisions.

Widow Von'Du.

Jan.

The time has come
for you to lip sync

for your life.

Widow Von'Du, shantay you stay.

Jan, you are simply fabulous,

and never forget that.

Now sashay away.

[cries]

I put everything
into this competition.

I don't know how I could
have done any better

than what I did.

I'm crushed,
because this was my dream.

Oh, hello.

Oh, God.

All right,
this one's from Widow.

Oh.

"I'm so sad that
it came down to you and me.

"I love your soul and spirit,

"always bringing joy
to the workroom.

"I'm gonna miss you so much.

"You are a fierce queen.

Keep on keeping on."

Oh. She was the one person

I was like I don't
wanna go up against.

I'm leaving with a heavy heart,
just wanting more.

But I have big plans
for the future.

I know that I want to do
so much with drag.

And you know,
I might have lost the set,

but I still have
a whole match to play,

and that match
is the rest of my life.

So I'm excited to see
where the future takes me.

Ugh! Okay.

Oh, God.

Here we go.

Bye, y'all.

I gave Widow
the best fight that I could.

But it wasn't even
about staying.

It was about proving
that I could hold my own.

I'm not just a singer.
I'm not just a pretty girl.

I'm a fierce entertainer,
and I proved that.

All right, everybody, thank you
so much for loving me.

I hope that I made you
feel the Jan-tasy.

Everybody,
be kind to one another

and believe in yourselves.

Never give up on your dreams,
and chase them fiercely.

Mwah!

Bye. Bye.

Bye! Whoo!

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