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Lashauwn Beyond: This is not RuPaul's Best Friend Race.

Laganja Estranja: I feel very attacked!

Vanjie: I was trying to reach closure with you!

Silky: If I would've lip synced for my life today, bitch,

I was ready to do so!

RuPaul: This is Untucked, backstage at the competition

to become America's next drag superstar.

Girl, if you're not watching Untucked,

you're only getting half the story.

Director: That's a break on the main stage

All cameras re-po.

RuPaul: Thank you, ladies.

While you untuck backstage,

the judges and I will deliberate.

You may leave the stage.

It was a weird feeling,

getting negative critiques for the very first time.

I haven't really been getting anything

but positive critiques up until now,

but I'm gonna use these critiques to my advantage

and apply them to the next challenge,

and make sure that I'm coming out on top.

I'm devastated.

I'm also defeated, because somewhere in this competition

I think I've lost the spark of having fun.

I got into my head

because I don't want to be seen as someone who's safe,

someone who just coasts through.

And I haven't been in the top since the first week.graphic

-Speeding. -Marker.

Definitely need one of these.

It's gonna be somber in here today, honey.

Child.

Whoo, child.

Ru asked us who should go home today.

How did y'all feel having to make that decision?

Who should go home tonight?

I laughed the least at Widow's.

I would have to say Widow as well.

I would also have to say Widow.

I agree with my sisters.

I would have to say Widow.

She's one of my best friends here,

and it's tearing me up to say this.

I would have to say Widow.

I felt so great the first day here,

and then it just feels like

it's just going straight downhill from there.

Like, I hold myself so high

in everything that I've done for the last 13 years in drag,

and I've conquered every demon

that ever, like, stepped in the way,

because I knew I was Widow Von'Du.

I don't know.

It's something about this beast called RuPaul's Drag Race.

I can't seem to conquer it.

I can't grasp it.

This is a hard-ass experience, and, ooh, child.

What are you thinking, Widow?

I wanted to meet Chaka Khan,

and unfortunately, it's under these circumstances, so...

If you have to lip-sync this song

and Chaka Khan sees you bring this song to life...

You got a fan.

You're also the biggest Chaka Khan fan out of all of us.

So I wish there was something I could say

to make this better for you.

I'm frustrated.

I'm extremely frustrated.

Because I don't like hearing that I've done wrong,

and I'm just so angry,

not at the judges for telling the truth,

I'm angry at myself.

I'm ashamed of what I've done,

and I feel like I'm squandering this moment.

Gigi, how are you?

I'm, um, kind of just, like, mad at myself.

This is the first time I've gotten negative feedback

from the judges, and it just kind of

brings you down a little bit, huh?

-Yeah. -It does.

But I mean, honestly, what's done is done.

I might be in the bottom.

I'm just gonna know my words and that's the most I can do.

That's all you can do.

Bitch, you had a really good week.

And they loved your fashion!

-They loved this look. -I'm so happy for you.

I looked pretty on the runway.

Oh, she can stay happy.

How did you feel?

It felt like Heidi's arrived, you know?

Like she's here, and it's like,

girl, you showed up a little late,

but as long as you showed up, that's really what matters.

I think Heidi's been here.

I just don't think you realized it

until you heard them say it.

-Yeah, you deserve it. -Thank you.

I mean, you definitely use this as motivation

for future challenges.

Oh, it feels so good.

And it's just fueling the fire that I have inside

to really keep pushing.

For a long time in this competition,

it was just a back-and-forth

with Gigi and Sherry winning everything.

So I'm really excited

to be getting such good feedback from the judges.

Bitch, it's about time.

You know, I'm feeling like I actually have a shot at this.

I could go all the way.

How do you feel, Jan?

I feel terrible.

I've been trying to show them,

like, who I am and show them what I can do.

It's just a manifestation

of everything that I've tried to do in this competition.

I've literally tried to throw everything

but the kitchen sink at the judges

to hopefully impress them and show them what I can do,

and that's how the video came across.

It was too over-the-top,

it wasn't refined, it wasn't detailed.

I think that I tried to just throw my personality out there

instead of focus on the refinement

of what the challenge needed to be.

And, like, in hindsight now, of course I see it.

And I don't want to cry.

But I definitely think

that it's gonna be me and Widow in the bottom.

And having Chaka Khan here,

having Widow being such a big Chaka Khan fan,

like, I would be lying if I didn't say that I was nervous.

I'm gonna go out there and slay the house,

because I want to show them that I want to be here.

But I don't wanna lip sync against you

really loving this song

and just, like, you being a sickening entertainer.

You wanna be here, too.

And I'm just, like...

The Jan-tasy is not being felt right now.

If you look at my track record so far in this competition,

I've been safe or top.

I have not had that moment

where I've done so poorly that I've been in the bottom.

And it sucks,

but I am not going to let this deter me from my goal,

even if it's all odds against me.

So I know we all had to say on stage

who we thought should go home,

but I'm kind of interested in hearing

who you all think is, like, your biggest competition.

You, bitch. You done won 12 challenges.

[all laugh]

I think Jaida is very stiff competition.

For sure.

I say Sherry and Gigi,

because they are both so different.

And although you've had a lot of wins

and Sherry, you have not won as many challenges

or as many challenges as she's won,

I still feel like there's a lot more to you.

But then, like, for the rest of us,

I feel like we get in our head a lot,

and that's the one thing that can, like--

Take you out of it.

Yeah, like, so it's like you can be a strong competitor,

but if that bitch slip up that week and get in her head,

bitch, then that's it's gonna be...

You know what? I think if I was gonna pick a top four,

other than myself

it would be Sherry, Gigi, and you, Miss Jaida.

Really?

I mean, I think everybody's really talented.

Bitch, just because I'm in the bottom,

it's not gonna change my feelings in this competition.

I can see myself in the top four very clearly.

I have such drive and passion for this.

I am not a quitter.

I deserve to be in that top four.

Widow, who do you think?

What was the question? I wasn't paying attention.

Sorry, I'm not all here right now.

-It's okay. -That's okay.

Oh, but you better be.

Oh, my God!

Hello, my ladies.

Hi, sweetie.

Baby.

I was so hoping I was going to be in the top.

Because as much as I wanted to meet Chaka Khan,

I didn't wanna have to lip sync a Chaka Khan song

in front of the judges on the main stage.

But, hey, it's Chaka Khan.

Like, you might as well dump the dirt over the coffin,

because the bitch is dead.

Ahh.

I can't sit next to the queen without hair.

Fabulous.

Oh, my God, I feel like we should have mopped the floor

if we knew she was coming over.

No, no, no, no. I'm no different than y'all.

Oh!

I want to wish you all good luck.

Thank you. Oh, my God.

It's tough, what you're doing.

I know a little bit of it,

because I do a little drag, too.

Girl, you got the heels on,

you got the sparkle, you got it all.

Feel like we're kindred spirits.

So I know how hard it is.

But it can be very rewarding,

because you're following your calling.

That's what's important

that you're following what you love to do.

Yeah.

I always say, like, anybody who does drag,

in whatever form of drag you do it,

like every woman is, to me, like one of those drag anthems.

And no matter who you are, like, it will speak to you.

It does speak to people in such a way.

I mean, everywhere I go, all over the world,

everybody knows that song.

Rightfully so.

I can't believe I'm sitting here with Chaka Khan.

Yeah, this crazy.

I know I'm sitting here, I'm real quiet because I'm just...

I've talked about you all day today in the workroom,

and... ♪ Aah! ♪

Yes, that's right.

This is, like-- it's been, like, this--

like, we were all just, like, having a conversation

about, like, how this is so hard.

But the hardest part about it

is, like, making sure that we overcome the demons in our minds

that, like, tell us, like, we are not good enough to do it--

Amen, and there are lots of those around us.

And there are as many good ones as there are bad ones.

It sounds like I'm cuckoo.

-No, uh-uh. -It might.

But I'm telling you,

negative thoughts and feelings and entities

can enter you when you're at you're weakest,

when you feel like you're a loser.

But you are smarter than they are,

and you could whup it all.

Anything negative, you could whup its ass.

-All right. -You have that power.

I mean, I do wanna really thank you for Through the Fire.

Like, it's really pulled me through

a lot of difficult times.

And seeing you on stage,

and I'm just like I hope I kill this challenge.

I don't wanna cry in front of Chaka Khan.

And I was crying, and just thinking of your song

just is what's keeping me standing right now.

Good. Well, stand on that.

-Stand on that. -Yeah.

Because I meant that song.

Every time I sing it, I mean it.

Okay?

Queens, sorry, I gotta take Chaka Khan now.

Goodbye!

-Okay, goodbye. -Thank you, mwah, mwah, mwah.

Bye.

Mwah, mwah, mwah, mwah.

God bless you all.

Be strong. Stay beautiful in here.

-I love you. -Ooh, I love you, thank you.

All right, bye-bye, sweetie.

We love you!

-Bye! -Bye!

Can't stop smiling. Look at her.

I don't know, Widow, what's going on?

Let it out, honey.

I need to go listen to my lip sync song.

No, you gotta tell us what's going on!

I cannot disappoint Chaka Khan on her song.

There is a new fire that has been lit into my soul

deep in my spirit.

And ladies, I bid you adieu.

-I'm going over there. -Go get it. Go get it, girl.

Tear it up if you have to, honey.

Tear it up.

I'm gonna listen to my tunes.

Me, as well.

Chaka Khan is one of Widow's biggest idols,

so not only do I know that I'm gonna be going up against

the best dancer in this entire competition,

but she has so much going for her right now.

I need a miracle to happen.

Ah, what a life.

You're kind of like where I was last week,

-where it's like-- -Yeah.

I don't think you did bad in this challenge.

Mm, I didn't do well, though.

I definitely think it's gonna be me,

and I'm gonna turn it.

I know you can turn it.

You're gonna be disappointing me mostly

if you don't fucking mop down the house.

-You can turn it. -Yeah.

America's gonna see what you can really do.

If that happens, then they'll get this chance

to see the, like, the force that you are to be reckoned with.

If I have to lip sync, I'm gonna go out there,end act

and do the thing that I love to do the most,

which is entertain and have fun and just live in it.

Good. I can't lose another New York girl this week, okay?

-It's not gonna happen. -Okay.

She's gonna turn it.

Queens, five minutes to the runway.

Thank you.

-Slay. Slay. -I'm gonna, girl.

She's gonna, through the fire.

Good.

-I love you. Thank you. -I love you.

I'm having fun in this competition,

and I don't want it to end.

And if I'm in the bottom two next to Widow,

who is the biggest Chaka Khan fan

and an amazing performer,

I know she's gonna turn it.

But, bitch, I'm gonna turn it, too.

I was in my head in the challenge,

and I knew that this was what was coming.

It's game time,

and I got my pep talks from my icon Chaka Khan.

Like, I am not going the fuck home.

All right, queens, runway time.

Oh, my God, here we go.

If it's us, kill it out there.

Make Chaka proud.

If it's us, bitch,

let's give them the reason to keep us both.

And let's prove to them

that we can come back from the fuck-up that we did.

-And let's do this for Chaka. -Let's go do this.

I don't wanna cry no more today.

I can't cry no more tonight, bitch.

-I can't cry no more tonight. -No more tears.

We got to do this, bitch.

Let's go.

Pray to the gay gods today.

RuPaul: Welcome back, ladies.

I've made some decisions.

Widow Von'Du.

Jan.

The time has come for you to lip sync

for your life.

Widow Von'Du, shantay you stay.

Jan, you are simply fabulous,

and never forget that.

Now sashay away.

[cries]

I put everything into this competition.

I don't know how I could have done any better

than what I did.

I'm crushed, because this was my dream.

Oh, hello.

Oh, God.

All right, this one's from Widow.

Oh.

"I'm so sad that it came down to you and me.

"I love your soul and spirit,

"always bringing joy to the workroom.

"I'm gonna miss you so much.

"You are a fierce queen.

Keep on keeping on."

Oh. She was the one person

I was like I don't wanna go up against.

I'm leaving with a heavy heart, just wanting more.

But I have big plans for the future.

I know that I want to do so much with drag.

And you know, I might have lost the set,

but I still have a whole match to play,

and that match is the rest of my life.

So I'm excited to see where the future takes me.

Ugh! Okay.

Oh, God.

Here we go.

Bye, y'all.

I gave Widow the best fight that I could.

But it wasn't even about staying.

It was about proving that I could hold my own.

I'm not just a singer. I'm not just a pretty girl.

I'm a fierce entertainer, and I proved that.

All right, everybody, thank you so much for loving me.

I hope that I made you feel the Jan-tasy.

Everybody, be kind to one another

and believe in yourselves.

Never give up on your dreams, and chase them fiercely.

Mwah!

Bye. Bye.

Bye! Whoo!

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