All language subtitles for If.Youre.Gone

[gentle music]

- [Young Woman Voiceover]
I had that dream again.

The one where I'm
back at graduation,

wearing an oversized hourglass
on a chain around my neck.

[somber music]

Colorful grains of
sand rush through it,

representing the remaining
time we have together.

As the final grains fall,

I'm standing at my bedroom
window, watching you disappear.

Your body fades away as though

you are evaporating
into thin air.

It's the type of dream I should
probably relay to a shrink,

if only I weren't too proud
to admit how losing you

has affected every
aspect of my life.

[somber music]

Whoever started the rumor

that teenagers haven't lived
long enough to understand

what true love is
didn't know us.

[dramatic music]

Anyway,

what I wanted to say
is that I miss you

and I think about you every day.

I wonder where you are,
and what you are doing,

and hope you sometimes
think of me too.

I try not to regret
the decision I made

but often question how
different my life might be

if I hadn't left
you there that day.

I ask myself,

"If I could,

"would I go back and stop
everything from changing?"

Probably.

I would go back for you.

You were my world.

[somber music]

- [Girl] Lillian, Anna!

- [Young Woman] Hey!

- Hey, there you guys are.

Where were you sitting?

- Front row.

Some one wanted a good seat.

[giggling]

- Well, they should have had
you sing at this shindig, Lil.

Two hours with no
music was brutal.

- Maybe next year.

I got accepted
into Honors Choir.

- Miss you.

- Hey.

I missed you.

- You have vision.

[laughing]

I am so glad that's over.

- Hey, best walking
I've seen in awhile.

- Yeah, the dress suits you too.

- Jason's grad party?

See you there?

- Lizard, don't you
actually have to graduate

to go to a grad party?

- Watch it, pretty boy.

- [Pretty Boy] Whoa.
[laughing]

- What?

Oh, you think that's funny?

- It's a joke, man.

- Hey, I'm not gonna make
it tonight, all right?

We have plans.

- I got some information
you're gonna want.

- Well can it wait?

- I hope she's worth it.

- Hey, watch it.

- Whatever, man.

Don't you dare come crawling
back to me when you get sick

of these Sunday
School friends, huh.

[ominous music]

- [Anna] Always a
pleasure, that one.

- I am so sorry about that.

Hey.

[chuckling]

Mom and dad ready for pictures?

- Yeah, they're ready.

- Hey.

- We'll be at Thomas' later
if you guys you wanna come by.

- Okay, sounds good.

- Thanks for coming, guys.

I mean it.

- See you later, man.

- So, now that schools over

and I can pick up a few more
shifts at the restaurant,

I'm thinking about taking
you on a nice, fancy date.

- Oh, really?

Fancy date, huh?

- I might even where khakis.

- Right.

I won't count on it.

[crickets chirping]

[somber music]

- You saved my life, Lillian.

- I didn't do anything.

- No.

I mean it.

You have no idea.

Without you,

I'd be at some crazy
graduation party with Lizard.

Just wasting another
night of my life.

Before you,

before us,

I wasted so much time on
things that didn't even matter.

But instead...

I'm here.

With you.

And it's perfect.

- It is perfect, isn't it?

- Just think how
different things would be

if you hadn't busted
in the snow that day.

[laughing]

- I would've gotten along just
fine, thank you very much.

- You would have
been a Popsicle.

- I'm sure.

[pleasant piano music]

[laughing]

Brad!

[somber radio music]

- I hope riding around
in your dad's SUV

doesn't ruin you for my truck.

- Nope.

I love your truck.

- Well, I hope I hear you
through the speakers one day.

You're a better singer than
half these people they play.

- Only half, huh?

- Hey,

you know what I mean.

I'm your biggest fan.

You're going to be late if
we go to my house first.

I'm gonna drop you off
and then walk from there.

- Are you sure?

It's so dark out.

[chuckling]

- You worry about me too much.

♪ This is the way I belong

[crickets chirping]

I had a great time
with you tonight.

- Me too.

With you.

Will you text me and let
me know you got home okay?

- You're doing it again.

- What?

- My phone's dead.

Don't worry.

I'll look both ways
before I cross the street.

- Okay.

- I'll call you tomorrow.

Pick you up at
seven for the movie.

- Sounds great.

I might even let you
decide what we see.

[chuckling]

- Don't tease me.

- I'm serious.

There are several romantic
comedies you can choose from.

[giggling]

- You're lucky you're so cute.

I'll get the truck
cleaned up in the morning.

Thanks for the perfect night.

- My pleasure.

[somber music]

- Lillian?

- Yeah?

- Nevermind.

- Are you okay?

- Never been better.

Good night.

- Good night.

[pleasant piano music]

[phone chiming]

[rustling]

[somber music]

Dad?

[door creaking]

[crickets chirping]

Hello?

[gasping]

[shushing]

You scared me.

- Someone will hear you.

- Hey, what are you doing here?

- I'm sorry but I need
to tell you something.

It's important.

- Brad, what is it?

- You don't need to say anything

but I need you to know.

Lillian,

I love you.

[somber music]

I love you so much.

Good night.

- Hey, hey.

I love you.

- See you soon, Lil.

Good night.

- Good night.

- Love you.

[somber music]

[phone chiming]

[knocking]

- Lillian?

Lillian?

Wake up, Lillian.

Lillian.

- Huh?

I'm awake, what's up?

- Mrs. Lee has been trying
to get a hold of you.

She said Brad never
came home last night.

She wanted to know if
you know where he is.

- What?

No.

I don't know where he would be.

What time is it?

- Where did he say
he was heading to

after he dropped you off?

- Home.

He was going home.

No, Mrs. Lee must be confused,
just let me call him.

- Okay.

I'll let her know.

- Thanks.

[somber music]

- [Brad Voicemail] Hi,
you've reached Brad Lee.

Leave a message.

[phone beeping]

- Hey, babe, it's me.

Are you all right?

Your mom has been calling
here trying to find you.

Just let me know that
you're okay, all right?

[somber music]

[dial tone buzzing]

Hey, can you come over?

- [Anna] So, apart from the
obvious "best night ever" thing,

how was your date?

- [Lillian] It was great.

Really great.

- You wake me up at 8AM
and I get no details.

- Well,

he told me

that he loves me.

- Shut up!

What did you say?

Did you tell him
you love him, too?

- I just said, "I love you too."

[giggling]

It was kinda magical.

- You realize you've
come completely full
circle now, right?

- What?

- From completely despising
him in middle school,

coming home crying
because he teased you

to falling in love.

- Oh my gosh, you are so weird.

So weird.

- Whatever.

I'll forgive you for waking
me up at the crack of dawn

and I'm sorry for doubting
you had huge news.

[giggling]

- Well, honestly
that's not really

why I called you
over here, though.

- Don't tell me, did
you get engaged too?

- No.

Nothing like that.

- I'm sorry.

Go ahead.

- So,

Mrs. Lee called and said

that Brad didn't
come home last night.

She doesn't know where he is.

- What do you mean?

Where could he be?

- I don't know.

I've called his
phone like 20 times.

- Well,

is there any way that
he went to Jason's party

and just ended up
crashing there?

- No.

No, you know as well as I
do that Brad doesn't party.

Let alone crash somewhere.

It just doesn't sound like
something he would do.

- Well it's not like you and
Lizard are exactly friends.

Maybe he wanted to go
to the party with him

but didn't want to upset you.

- Trust me, Brad doesn't want
to go anywhere with Lizard.

- Well, maybe he
wanted to go out

but knew you couldn't
because of your curfew.

- He would've told me though.

- Well does he tell
you everything?

- He tells me he loves me.

- Look,

I'm sure everything is fine.

In this town, you can't go far
without someone seeing you.

I'm sure he's around and had
a perfectly good explanation.

- I know, you're right.

I almost forgot,

we're going to the
drive-in tonight at seven.

Except, I hope I don't
have to wait that long

for him to give me an answer.

[giggling]

What is so funny?

- You do love him.

- Yes!

What, you didn't
believe me before?

[giggling]

I said, "I love you."
[laughing]

[somber music]

- [Brad's Voicemail] Hi,
you've reach Brad Lee.

Leave a message.

- Brad, it's me again.

Please call me.

Your parents are worried
about you and so am I.

I love you.

Bye.

[somber music]

Hey Kara, did you see Brad
at Jason's party last night?

Yeah, I called Kara
but she didn't see him

so I was wondering
if maybe you knew.

[somber music]

[phone buzzing]

Brad?

- Lillian?

Sweetie, it's Janice Lee.

- I'll pass it along
to the detective

but I don't think you have
any reason to be alarmed.

Some kids, they just have too
much fun on graduation night.

- Thank you, appreciate it.

- Mrs. Lee, are you there?

Did Brad come home?

- Sorry.

The deputy was just leaving.

We haven't heard from him yet

but they are convinced
there's no need to worry.

- Do you think there is?

- I'd feel better if
his truck wasn't here,

but I know it's easy
enough to get around

this little town on foot.

- Well I called Jason and Kara

and a bunch of other
people from school

but no one remembers
seeing him at that party

after he left here, so.

- We've called the
hospital, the jail.

Part of me thinks
we're overreacting

but this just isn't like him.

Not anymore, anyway.

Let's not get
ahead of ourselves.

If you hear from him, have
him call me right away.

- Yeah, of course.

Please do the same.

We're supposed to
go out tonight.

He's supposed to
pick me up at seven.

- Well if I know him at all,

he wouldn't dare be
late picking you up.

- Yeah.

Well, I'll keep making
calls until then.

There's one number I don't have.

[dial tone buzzing]

- [Operator] I'm sorry but
the person you called has a--

- So that's how we're
gonna play this, huh?

[phone chiming]

Brad, where are you?

[sighing]

God, please let him be okay.

Please let us be okay.

[dramatic music]

[entry bell ringing]

- Can I help you?

- No, I was just
looking for someone.

- If he's thinking that
just 'cause he's graduated

that the rules don't
apply anymore--

- I know but this
isn't like him.

I'm worried.

- This is literally the
longest day of my life.

- Just breathe and get
ready for your date, okay?

He'll be there.

- He's way too in love
to stand you up, Lil.

- I hope you're right.

[dramatic music]

- [Brad Voicemail] Hi,
you've reached Brad Lee.

Leave a message.

[dramatic music]

- He isn't here.

- [Woman] Hey, what's going on?

- [Man] Small groups are going

to search different
areas downtown.

- [Woman] Are you okay?

- Any news, Lillian?

- No.

- I've asked everybody
I could think of.

No one remembers him
at my party last night,

including me.

- Yeah, well, he
said he wasn't going.

So I guess that much was true.

- [Woman] Jason, let's
get your group going.

[somber music]

[dial tone buzzing]

- [Operator] I'm sorry
but the person you called

has a voicemail box
that has not been--

[dial tone buzzing]

- Stop calling me.

- Lizard?

Lizard, don't hang up.

Listen, everyone is
looking for Brad.

I just need you to tell
me if you've seen him

or you know where he might be.

- Well, I already told
you I ain't seen him.

- Well the least you
could do is come over

and help us find him.

- Why would I do that?

It sounds like you can't
keep tabs on your man.

[laughing]

- This isn't a joke, Michael.

I swear, if there's something
you aren't telling me.

- Yeah, okay, well the only
thing I'm gonna to tell you

is stop calling me.

And you can tell
Brad's mommy and daddy

to stop bugging me too.

This is harassment.

[crickets chirping]

- Lil, are you okay?

Let's go find Brad.

Come on, I'll drive.

[dramatic music]

[gasping]

- Stop!

Stop the car!

It's him, I saw him!

Brad!

[dramatic music]

- We should hang the
rest of these posters up

before we head back.

Is that okay with you?

- Of course it's okay.

- One of us should
stay here with her.

- No.

I wanna be alone.

- Okay, Lil.

Well, we'll be right outside
the car if you need us, okay?

Lock the doors.

[ominous music]

- [Brad Voiceover]
Lillian, are you okay?

You're hurt, just
let me help you.

- [Lillian] I just
need to find my key.

- [Brad] I can get you inside.

Just trust me.

[wind howling]

- How did you know
you could do that?

- Do what?

- The lock with the door.

- There's always a worn
out lock or loose window.

- Oh, I guess I wasn't
giving you enough credit.

Now you've progressed
from playground bully

to common criminal.

- I wouldn't go that far.

Although,

I guess the bully part's true.

Hey,

we did some pretty stupid
stuff when we were kids.

Me, Lizard, Jones.

- Like?

- Well,

broke into a few houses.

But we never stole anything.

Well, not anything valuable.

We just take people's food

and throw little parties if
we knew they were out of town.

Stuff like that.

It's stupid, I know.

It was a long time ago.

- That's interesting.

Wasn't it just last month
that the Grant's came home

from Christmas vacation
to find an empty fridge

and a trashed kitchen?

- You sure find it impossible
to trust me, don't you?

Yeah, it happened but
I wasn't even there.

Lizard and Jones
still do their thing

but I don't hang around
them much anymore.

Especially since Lizard
dropped out of high school,

I only really see him when

I'm working on my
truck in his shop.

Things have changed, you know.

- Yeah.

I guess you could say that.

- You don't have to believe me.

I'll show you.

Maybe not today or tomorrow,

but I will.

You'll see.

- Why?

Why do you care so much
what I think about you?

[somber music]

[fire crackling]

This is perfect, Brad.

Thank you.

- You're just lucky your parents
keep the cabinets stocked.

How're you doing?

- I'm fine.

My ankle's a little
frozen from the ice

but it doesn't hurt any more.

[somber music]

I was actually just thinking
about middle school.

- You...

You don't have to say it.

I was such a jerk.

- You tormented me.

I used to lay awake at
night thinking up excuses

not to go to school
the next day.

- Look at us now,

chatting like old chums.

[laughing]

I'm so sorry, Lillian.

I was just a stupid kid.

I'd give anything
to take it back.

There's...

There's something I've
been meaning to tell you.

- Yeah?

- I saw you sing at
church a few weeks ago.

The Sunday night service.

- You did?

You're never at church.

I don't remember
seeing you there.

- I was.

And you were incredible.

[pleasant music]

- Incredible, huh?

Pretty big word.

- Not big enough.

It's...

It's getting pretty late.

I should probably go.

You gonna be okay until
your parents get back?

- Yeah.

I'll be fine.

Thank you.

For everything.

- You asked why it matters
what you think about me.

Because I already wasted
too much time not caring.

[fire crackling]

- Lillian?

Lillian, are you all right?

The detective's waiting inside.

He'd like to speak with you.

- Miss White?

- Lillian.

- Lillian, I'm Detective Padron.

I'd like to ask you some
questions if you don't mind.

Now, I understand that
you were with Brad Lee

on the evening of May
16th, is that correct?

- Yes, he dropped me off
at my front door at 10.

- And that's the last
time you saw Brad?

- Yes.

- Did he give you any indication
of where he was going?

- Home.

He said he was going home.

- And you don't think
that he was going

to any other graduation
parties, other festivities?

- No.

He was invited to
a graduation party

at Jason Hamilton's house
but he didn't want to go.

- Lillian, do you have
any reason to believe

that Brad might harm himself?

- What?

No.

No, not at all.

- And to your knowledge, Brad
was not recently involved

in any drugs or narcotics?

- No.

No, Detective,
Brad is a good guy.

He wasn't involved in
anything like that.

That's why I just know that
something is really wrong.

- Miss White, while I
appreciate your desire

to defend his character,

his criminal record is telling
us a very different story.

- His criminal record?

- Brad?

No.

I know he was involved in a few

harmless, childish pranks

but he never said
anything about--

- I'm not at liberty to
give you any of the details

but his juvenile record
includes many crimes for

which he was tried
and convicted.

The most recent of which...

was December--

- The snow.

- I beg your pardon?

- Lillian?

Do you know
something about that?

- No.

No, that was a long time ago.

Detective, you have
Brad all wrong.

The person that you need
to speak to is Lizard.

- I'm sorry, did you say Lizard?

Is that a classmate of Brad's?

- Yes.

Well, no, he dropped
out earlier in the year

and now he has some
car repair shop

in an old barn off Highway 41.

But, Michael Lizardo,
that's his real name.

He was Brad's friend
before we were together.

He was upset with Brad
the night of graduation.

I'm sure if you
just talk to him--

- Yeah, yeah, Michael Lizardo.

I've already spoken with him.

In fact, he called
the station to report

that you have been
harassing him.

- What?

- Have you been repeatedly
contacting Mr. Lizardo

in an attempt to
get more information

about Brad's whereabouts?

- No.

I mean, yes, I've
called him a few times

but I've called everyone.

I'm just trying to find Brad.

- Miss White,

I need to ask you to refrain

from contacting
Mr. Lizardo again.

You need to let me do my job.

If Michael has more
information about Brad,

it needs to come through me.

I'm sure you understand.

- Yes, sir.

- All right.

Is there anything else of
significance from that night?

Anything he might have said?

- No.

Well, except he told
me that he loved me.

- Is that the first
time he told you that?

- Yes.

- So to clarify,

the first time Brad Lee
told you he loved you

was on your front porch
the night he went missing.

- Well, yes.

- Yet, you don't believe
that he was planning

on leaving town that night.

Even though this is the
first time he told you that.

- Lillian, it does sound
like he may have had

other intentions
behind what he said.

Are you sure nothing
seemed strange?

You didn't get the feeling

he was trying to
tell you anything?

- No.

No, we had a perfect picnic
on the lake after graduation.

It was a really great
night, that's all.

He wasn't telling me he
loved me as a goodbye.

I am positive.

- Okay.

I think that's all I
need from you, Lillian,

if that's the whole story.

- So what happens next?

- Next, we keep an eye out.

There's been speculation
that Brad has stolen a car,

that he's on the run,

and if that is the case
then we'll track him down.

- Stolen a car?

- As I said, it's speculation.

Brad's 18, if he
desires to leave town,

he has every right.

- But he didn't
desire to leave town.

He was supposed to be
here with me tonight!

- Lillian, calm down.

I think that's all for now.

- Thank you for your time.

[somber music]

- As we close, I'd like
us to take a moment

and pray for one of our
young members, Brad Lee.

For reasons that
we do not yet know,

he has not contacted
his friends or family

since Friday evening.

If anyone has come
in contact with Brad,

please urge him to
reach out to his family.

We pray that this young
man is in no danger

and that he will
make smart decisions.

And we pray for our local
law enforcement team

who is overseeing this case.

We believe that
Brad is out there

and that he will
return to his family

and those who love him.

[somber music]

[phone buzzing]

[phone chiming]

[ominous music]

- [Mother] Lillian, breakfast!

[somber music]

- Please God,

please help me find him.

Please do something.

[somber piano music]

Forget it.

- Good morning, senior.

- Morning.

- Have a seat, I'll
whip you up some toast.

- Thanks but I'm
really not hungry.

- Lillian, you need
to eat something.

You look terrible.

- Thanks.

- I didn't mean it like that.

Have you finished working on
that application to Meredith?

- Please, Mom, we already
talked about this.

I don't even know if I gonna
go to college next year.

- Your future
doesn't have to stop

just because--
[car honking]

- That's Anna, gotta go.

- Come straight home
after school today.

We're not finished
talking about this.

[upbeat music]

♪ And I said

♪ Hey, hi, hello,
nice to meet ya ♪

♪ He said, I don't
think I've seen ya ♪

♪ I don't think I've seen ya

♪ Before

- Good morning, darling.

Sorry, it took me forever
to figure out what to wear.

- It's fine.

You got here just in time.

- I feel like I haven't
seen you in weeks.

You ready to go back to school?

- Can I say no?

- Yeah.

I get it.

I miss him too.

Even though he graduated,
it's still gonna be weird.

Without him, I mean.

Look, I know today is
probably going to be rough.

But I'm here for you, okay?

We all are.

- Thanks.

[upbeat music]

♪ Hey, hi, hello

♪ I learned how to feel alive

♪ Driving down the 95

♪ All before the sunrise

♪ I let the sun lick

- Day one.

Only 163 more to go.

Yes, I counted.

Oh.

- First day!
[giggling]

- Hey.

[giggling]

Hey.

Lil, you okay?

So come on.

Everything's gonna be fine.

You got this.

[bell ringing]

[hallway commotion]

- [Girl] I can't believe
she's actually here.

- You know, they still don't
know what happened to that guy.

- [Girl] Lillian's really nice

but there was always something
a little off about him.

Poor thing.

[bell ringing]

- [Teacher] I expect
you all completed

your summer course work and
you're prepared for a pop quiz?

We'll do a quick review
of chapters one and two

before we get started.

- Lillian.

[dramatic music]

- Lillian, are you
paying attention?

Did you hear what I said?

- What?

- Are you okay?

- I think I need some air.

[dramatic music]

[phone chiming]

[people chattering]

- [Waitress] Decaff coffee?

All right.

- [Woman] Hi there,
sweetie, how can I help you?

- I'd just like to use
your phone if that's okay.

- Of course.

As long as it's a local call.

My boss gets real annoyed
if we call long distance.

- Yes, ma'am.

[phone beeping]

- I bet you gotta call
your sweetheart, don't ya?

- No, ma'am.

[dial tone buzzing]

- [Woman On Phone] Morris
County Police Department.

- Yes, Detective Padron, please.

It's Lillian White.

I was calling regarding
Brad Lee's case.

- [Woman On Phone] Hold, please.

[entry bell ringing]

- [Padron] Miss White?

- Hello, Detective Padron.

I just I wanted to check in

and see if there is
any new information.

About Brad, I mean.

Anything you can tell me?

- No, there are no new leads.

Few and far between, in fact.

- Please don't give
up on Brad, Detective.

I need him to be found.

- Lillian, no one's giving up

but I just hope
that you understand

that some people just
don't want to be found.

If we get a break,

you'll be one of the
first informed, okay?

Head on back to class.

[dial tone buzzing]

[ominous music]

- What are you doing?

- Sorry to scare you.

You dropped your bag.

- Oh.

Thanks.

- Chris.

- Chris.

Do I know you?

- Lillian?

- How do you know my name?

I asked you a question.

- Everyone knows your name.

I mean because of Brad.

Sorry, that came out wrong.

- Now I know.

You came to the first search.

- Yeah.

I didn't think you saw me.

Can I buy you lunch?

- Look, I have a boyfriend.

- It's not a date,
it's just lunch.

- Okay.

- She sure is a pretty one.

Smart boy.

What'll it be, kids?

- Cheeseburger, onion
rings and a soda.

Please.

- I'll have the same.

- Coming right up.

- You come here often?

- Yeah.

Well, I used to.

So what's your story?

Why don't I know
you from school?

- Well, you don't
know me from school

because I'm not from here.

I come into town
every now and then

to help out with my Grandma.

- If you're not from here,
why did you come that night?

To the search, I mean.

- I guess it was the
right thing to do.

[somber music]

Where do you think he is?

- I look in every

ditch, creek bed,

dark alley...

but I don't think he's dead.

I mean, maybe he's

being held somewhere or
in some sort of trouble.

Honestly, I wonder where
he is 24 hours a day

and I can never come up
with a good enough answer.

- Here you go, sugars.

Your burgers should
be right out.

I'm guessing you two young
things should be in school.

[chuckling]

But I sure am glad you're here.

You know you're getting old

when you can't even read
your own handwritin'.

- Let me take a stab at it.

Looks like two eggs
over easy, no salt,

and a double order of bacon.

Seems a little
counterproductive,
don't you think?

[laughing]

- That's exactly it.

Quite a keeper you have here.

- You got so nervous.

- Sorry, I've never
skipped school before.

Like, ever.

- And look at you
now, such a rebel.

[chuckling]

♪ If I say I'm leaving

♪ Would you carry on
without me when I'm gone ♪

♪ Oh say that you'll
come with me ♪

♪ We can both be lost together

♪ Together, not alone

♪ We can both be lost together

♪ Together, not alone

- Thanks for lunch
and everything.

Today was really tough and this,

just talking and laughing,

it was what I needed.

- Me too.

I should go.

- Okay.

- I'll be heading back
to Gladeville soon.

Maybe I'll see you around.

[entry bell ringing]

- I waited for you after school.

- I'm sorry.

I had to get out of there.

- First, I waited by the car.

Then I looked around
inside the hallways

and checked the guidance office.

I even checked the bathrooms
to make sure you were okay.

- Anna, I wasn't thinking.

- I even skipped tennis practice
so I could look for you!

You couldn't send me a message?

- My phone died.

- Ever hear of the
good old fashioned way?

Write a note and
stick it in my locker?

- Anna, I'm really sorry.

- No, it's fine.

Just, let me know next
time you don't need a ride.

I was worried about you.

Anyway,

the main reason I came over here

is to tell you that
Thomas and I were talking

about the Fall Social today

and he told me that Caleb,

you know Caleb Marino,

wants to ask you.

- Ask me what?

- To the dance.

- What?

What did you tell him?

- I said I thought
that sounds great.

Caleb is such a fun guy.

- What?

No.

No, I can't do that.

- You can go as friends,

I didn't mean it
had to be like that.

- No, Anna, I have a boyfriend.

- I know you have
a boyfriend, Lil!

Thomas knows, Caleb
knows, everyone knows!

- What's your point?

- My point is that no
one, including you,
knows where he is.

- Anna!

- No, I mean it.

What if six months from now
there's still no sign of him?

What about two years?

He's gone, and it's
a terrible feeling

but you could ruin your
life waiting on him.

- Stop!

You sound like my mom.

You mean in all the time

that you could have
been helping me find him

you've been waiting
to tell me to move on?

- I spent half my summer
looking for him, Lil!

I got ten thousand
mosquito bites

from traipsing through
every field in Morris County

looking for him!

We looked everywhere and
we didn't find anything.

- So is that why you
decided to give up?

Decided you'd rather spend
your time working on your tan

than finding one
of your friends?

- No!

I stopped looking
for him because

I couldn't stand
seeing you like that.

- Like what?

- Like this!

[sighing]

Do you know what people
are saying about you?

They ask me, "How do keep
spending time with Lillian?

"It's like she's not even there.

[somber music]

"She's consumed with
her own misery."

And I can't even defend you
anymore because it's true!

It's enough to miss Brad

but I'm also missing you.

- Anna.

- You and Brad were
together for six months.

But you and me, we've been best
friends for over ten years.

[somber music]

- I'm sorry.

- I'm not asking
you to be sorry.

So,

where were you today anyway?

- I just went into town.

I just had something to
eat and ran into Chris.

- Chris?

Chris, who?

- Chris...

Um...

You don't know him.

He's just a new friend of mine.

- So, you're going to
sit here and throw a fit

when I try to tell you
to come to the dance

with me and our little
group of friends

but you're off skipping school

to hang out with some
guy that you just met?

Are you listening to yourself?

You're unbelievable.

I have nothing
left to say to you.

Except, find another
ride to school.

- She's right.

What am I doing?

[dramatic music]

God, please help me.

Please bring him home,
I can't go on like this.

[thunder rumbling]

[rain trickling]

- [Anna Voiceover] It's
enough to miss Brad

but I'm also missing you.

- [Padron Voiceover] Some people
just don't wanna be found.

[dramatic music]

- [Brad Voiceover] You
saved my life, Lillian.

You saved my life.

[thunder crackling]

- [Anna Voiceover]
We looked everywhere.

We didn't find anything.

- We didn't look everywhere.

[beat rock music]

Hello?

♪ Watch out, something's
coming this way ♪

♪ It's coming in to town

Hello?

[engine rumbling]

♪ Ride, ride, there's
nothing there ♪

- What're you doing here?

Didn't that cop tell
you to leave me alone?

- Hi, Lizard.

- Answer the question.

I said, what are you doing here?

- I'm here to find Brad.

- I don't see him, do you?

- Cut it out, Lizard,
listen, we need to talk.

This has gone on long enough.

- Why don't you
step into my office?

[somber rock music]

[sighing]

- No.

- Tryin' to be polite.

You having car trouble?

- No.

- What would bring you out here?

You never made that trek before.

- I just need to know.

Do you have any information
that might help me find him?

Anything at all.

Lizard, you're his best friend.

- No, that punk's
no friend of mine.

- What're you talking about?

- You should know.

You're the one that
got him thinking

he was better than everybody.

He was dating this
little church thing.

- That's not true.

Lizard, listen,

whatever resentment
you're harboring

against Brad because of
me, it has to stop, okay?

Our best friend is missing

and no one is doing
anything about it.

- If you're so smart,

how come you haven't
you found him yet?

Hmmm?

You couldn't pray him back?

[chuckling]

- Trust me,

you are the last
person in the world

I wanted to ask for help.

Why do think it took
me all this time?

I wouldn't be here if
I had any other option.

Okay, so you can
report me, threaten me,

change your number,
I don't care.

But I can't take this anymore.

Okay, I have to find him.

So, please,

if there's anything that
you haven't told me.

[somber music]

- A man came looking for Brad.

- Wait, what do you mean?

When?

- The day before he...

The day before the graduation.

- Who was it?

- I don't know.

It was some old guy, all right?

I'd never seen him before
and I'd never seen him since.

- What did he look like?

- The way old guys look.

Okay, he was bald, fat, old.

He just came in, said he
wanted to talk to Brad.

I told him he wasn't there.

- Did he say anything else?

- No.

- Did you say anything else?

- I told him where
he might find him.

- As in, you told
him where Brad lived?

- Yeah.

- So, some guy just
randomly shows up here

and you tell him
where Brad lives,

the day before he goes missing?

Please tell me you
told the police.

- I tried to tell
him at graduation.

Remember that?

'Cause he brushed me
off because of you.

- That's not what I asked.

Did you tell the police?

Lizard, did you tell the police?

- All right, look Lillian,

this business that I run aint
exactly legit, all right?

I can't have cops just
crawling up in here.

They start asking questions

about where I get my equipment,

they probably
would've shut me down.

- You selfish pig.

- Give me a break.

Oh you really do think you're
so much better than me,

don't you?

You would have done
the same thing.

- I would give everything
if it meant finding Brad!

I swear, if I find out
something has happened to him

because you lied to the
police to protect yourself.

- I just told you I didn't
tell the police for a reason.

Okay?

So what do you think
you're gonna do about it?

- I'm not afraid of you.

And Brad wasn't either.

That's why you're so ticked off.

He was tired of
playing your head games

and doing your dirty work.

Oh and if you ever needed
any further affirmation

of why Brad chose me over you,

I think you just
got your answer.

[dramatic music]

I need to speak with
Detective Padron.

[knocking]

[somber music]

- Hello, Lillian.

Is this gonna be a
daily thing, now?

- I don't know.

Well, I mean, no.

I guess it just depends on my--

- What have you got for me?

- I have information

that an older man was
asking around about

where to find Brad the
day before he disappeared.

- Okay.

Who's your source?

- Well it's Michael Lizardo.

The man came by his shop
on Thursday, May 15th

and Lizard gave
him Brad's address.

He told him where he lived.

- So you spoke with Mr. Lizardo?

- I sort of ran into him.

- All right.

Did he give you a
description of this man?

- Yeah.

Overweight.

I don't know, he said
he was an older guy.

- Well, you just
gave me a description

of about half the
officers in the precinct.

That's not much to go on.

Did he give you a
description of the vehicle?

A license plate?

- No.

- Maybe his name?

- No, I don't know.

Lizard said he
didn't know the guy.

- Okay.

You never actually saw
this man with Brad, right?

Can Mr. Lizardo place him
at the graduation ceremony?

- Lizard didn't really
want to talk to me

and he doesn't want to
talk to the police either.

But that just means he
is hiding something.

- Okay, I'll give him a call.

But without any
further information,
I hope you understand

that this doesn't give
me much to work with.

I can't exactly
put out a BOLO on

a nondescript, fat old
man who may or may not

have wanted to talk with
Brad before he went missing.

And Lillian, no one reported
any suspicious activity

outside the Lee
household that night,

which means we have
no reason to believe

that this man got Brad's address

and then waited for
him outside his house.

- Okay, but what if
he intercepted Brad

before he ever got home?

Maybe on that stretch of
road right past my house

enclosed by trees
on either side.

- We searched that
area extensively.

No signs of foul play.

So, if someone did stop
Brad on the way home,

maybe he got in
the car willingly.

- But Brad wouldn't
have gotten in the car

with some random guy.

- If this man

knew to go to Mr. Lizardo's
shop to look for Brad,

then it stands to reason
that he wasn't a stranger.

Given Brad's past dealings,

it's not surprising that
someone came looking for him.

- Brad doesn't deal drugs.

- I will give Mr.
Lizardo a call.

But I need you to understand

that this information
is unlikely to change

anything in Brad's case.

- But Detective.

- Kids nowadays, they see
an episode of "CSI: Atlanta"

or "Law and Whatever"
and they get the idea

that law enforcement is
supposed to be super human

like these hokey cops on TV

and it's just not the case.

Sorry.

- Are those your
kids, Detective?

- Yeah, those are my girls.

Becca and Julie.

Six and nine.

- Mhmm.

And what would you do if
one of them went missing?

- I don't know what I'd
do if they went missing.

But I'll tell you this.

I'll be doing extensive
background searches

on any prospective
boyfriends who come calling,

so they're not
running around town

with juvenile delinquents.

- Okay.

Well, I'm sorry if you feel
like I've wasted your time.

- Lillian.

Lillian.

You're not wasting my time.

I just don't wanna
see you wasting yours.

[dramatic music]

[sobbing]

- [Brad] Lillian.

- Hey, Lillian.

[sobbing]

Hey, it's okay.

Come on, let's get out of here.

Know any place we could go?

- Yeah.

I know the perfect place.

[birds chirping]

- This place is incredible.

I had no idea this town
had something this cool.

- This is where we
had our last date.

The night--

- Oh, you didn't have
to bring me here.

- No, no, I wanted to.

I needed to come here.

Honestly, I've been
avoiding it all summer.

- I came to town
today to find you.

- You did?

- Yeah, I guess I've
just been thinking a lot.

- About what?

- About you.

Ever since I saw you
that first night,

I've wanted to meet you.

That's why I was at
the party last month

and the diner yesterday.

Because of you.

- I don't understand.

- I saw the expression
on your face.

The look in your eyes
and I recognized it.

Hurt.

Lillian, I've lost someone too.

I know what it's like
to not have any answers

and feel like you've
been betrayed.

We don't deserve to be
hurt by the ones we love.

I spent a long time
falling into a depression

because of everything that
happened with my family.

I wanted everything to be
back the way it used to be.

Then one day I realized that
no matter what happened,

my life would never be
the way it was before.

Too much damage had
already happened.

My point is, you never
have to stop loving Brad.

But please don't
let this break you.

It's not too late.

I promise.

- I just need answers.

I need to know where he is

and why he kept so
many things from me.

And I want to know
who this man is

that stopped him the
night before graduation.

- Man?

- Yes.

He came to Lizard's the night
before Brad disappeared.

That's why I went
to the police today

but they not going to
do anything about it.

But Lizard said he gave
him Brad's address.

He told him where lived.

The detective said it
might not be related

but I don't know how
it couldn't be related.

I mean...

What do you think?

- I...

I don't know.

I'm sorry, Lillian.

- I don't know either.

Story of my life, lately.

- I should go.

- What?

Really?

- I'm sorry, I have to get
back to Gladeville tonight.

- Well, when will you be back?

- I'm not sure.

Can I walk you into town?

- No.

I'm gonna stay here
a little longer.

[somber music]

What's this?

- Just something I
wanted you to have.

It's about coping with grief.

I found it in a used
bookstore years ago.

I don't know if it
will help you, but,

I found sometimes it's
good to mourn someone.

Even if they haven't died.

- Thanks, Chris.

Really.

- Goodbye, Lillian.

I'm sorry.

- For what?

♪ If I could see
through your eyes ♪

♪ And all the beauty I'd find

♪ And just seeing the world

♪ For the first time

- Where were you today?

- Mom, I was at school.

- Lillian, do not lie to me.

- I--

- Principal Carver called
me at the store today

to ask if you were all right.

I find out not only
have you not set foot

inside the school doors today,

but you left class early
yesterday and didn't go back.

What's going on
with you, Lillian?

- Mom, I'm sorry
I skipped school.

I just, I can't go
anywhere in that school

without thinking about Brad.

- Lillian, you've known
going back to school

was going to be hard.

But it's not optional.

And you need to figure
out how to deal with it.

- But Mom--

- You only get one shot
at your senior year

and if you mess up
graduation by slacking off

and skipping school,
you're gonna regret it

for the rest of your life.

You've already let the
entire summer go by

without so much
as a college tour.

And if you had any
hopes of being awarded

a vocal scholarship--

- I know all this, Mom.

- Do you?

You can not throw
your future away

because of a boy, Lillian.

You're grounded

for the rest of the week.

I'll drive you to school
and you'll go to class,

every single one of them.

You need to think long and hard

about what your
future looks like

with or without Brad in it.

[scoffing]

[sighing]

[dramatic piano music]

♪ Lonely bird

♪ I'll keep you company

♪ If I can only hear you sing

♪ Battered heart

♪ Lifts your head to see

♪ If you'd only
spread your wings ♪

♪ You could fly away with me

[entry bell ringing]

- Can I help you, sweetie?

- Sorry, I was just
looking for someone.

- You're welcome
to put up a poster

if you can't find your friend.

- That won't be necessary.

[dramatic piano music]

[choir singing warmup tune]

[knocking]

- [Anna] I need Lillian
White, it's an emergency.

- I'll be right back.

What's up?

- They...

They found a body.

- Wait, what?

- They found a body

of an adult male.

- Anna, what are you saying?

If you're making this up, it's--

- No.

Of course not, Lil.

I'm so sorry.

I'm so sorry, it's true.

- Where did you hear that?

- Mrs. Lee was having
lunch with my mom

when she got the call.

My mom said that Mrs. Lee's
going down to the police station

to talk with the detective.

- I feel sick, I
gotta get out of here.

- Here, just take my car keys.

I'm gonna grab my stuff
and meet you at the car.

[dramatic piano music]

Okay.

I think I have all my stuff.

- Anna?

I'm really sorry about
everything before--

- Don't even worry
about it, Lil.

It's not important.

- I'm having a really hard
time with all of this.

- I know.

I am too.

I guess I thought
if I ignored it,

it wouldn't feel real.

But it's so real.

I'm so scared.

- Me too.

[ominous music]

- The time of his disappearance.

The body was found here,

in this isolated wooded
area, over a mile and a half

from any main roads.

The decomposition is advanced,

leaving investigators
to speculate

that the body has been
here for some time.

[dramatic music]

- Listen, I'm sorry you
had to come down here

under these circumstances.

We'll run some tests
but it will take time.

- Thank you.

We thank all of you for
continuing to support us

and pray for Brad's safe return.

While we pray that the
young man who was discovered

is not our son,

he is someone's son.

We have to have
faith in God's plan

and trust that the truth
will be revealed in His time.

- I wish you would
have agreed to sing.

- No.

I couldn't.

- I get it.

You okay?

- [Female Reporter] I'm live
from downtown Lions Port

as hundreds have turned out
for a candlelight vigil--

- They never covered
Brad's story before.

I guess it isn't good news
until death is involved.

- [Female Reporter] Citizens
have gathered here to pray--

- Looks like they
are finishing up.

I'm gonna go say hi
to Mr. and Mrs. Lee.

- [Female Reporter] The
identity of the deceased

is hoped to be known
in the coming weeks.

- [Brad's Father]
Yeah, that's okay,

you can go talk to
her, just stay close.

- [Girl] Hi, Lillian.

- Hey.

Hey, sweetie.

How're you doing?

- [Girl] I'm okay.

- Yeah.

Me too.

- The candles are pretty.

- They are, aren't they?

I bet Brad would think they're
a little too girly though,

don't you think?

- I really miss him.

- I know.

I do too.

- Still feels like a
real brother to me.

[somber music]

- What did you say?

- What?

- I thought you said--

- Montana, come say
goodbye to Pastor Allen.

- Gotta go.

- Come on.

- Bye, Lillian.

- Yeah, I better get home too.

You want a ride?

- Yeah, let me just
go tell my parents.

- Mhmm.

[somber music]

- [Lizard] Hey.

- Chris?

- What?

No, it's me, Lizard.

- What are you doing here?

- I saw the news.

You know, about the body.

- You didn't see the news.

You found out when the detective
came pounding on your door.

- They know I had
nothing to do with it.

- You missed the vigil tonight.

- Yeah.

I know, I think the church
people don't want me

coming around now that this
stuff came out about me.

- You don't know that.

- I messed up.

Not tellin' the
police about that guy

that came lookin' for Brad.

I wasn't taking this
seriously, okay.

I thought you people were making

a huge deal out of nothing

and then Brad would just
come showing back up.

But if this...

but if this guy they
found behind my place

is Brad and he's just been
there this whole time.

[sighing]

[somber music]

You're right.

I know why Brad
chose you over me.

You know I didn't have
anything to do with this.

Right?

- Yeah.

I know.

- Brad's a good guy

and he does not deserve this.

- None of us deserve this.

[somber music]

- I'm sorry, Lillian.

Hope it ain't him.

- Thanks, Lizard.

[somber music]

[television audience laughing]

- [Man On TV] I
really don't care.

[television audience laughing]

[phone buzzing]

- [Silly Man On
TV] Come on mister.

I found him out
behind your house--

- Hello?

- [Man On TV] No, really.

- Yes, this is she.

Hey guys, turn that down.

- [Silly Man On TV] Aw, shucks.

- [Padron] Lillian, this
is Detective Padron.

Janice Lee requested I call you.

- Yes?

Has the body been identified?

- [Padron] Yes,

we were able to
confirm the identity

based on the dental records.

- Is it him?

- [Padron] Lillian,

it's not him.

[somber music]

- It's not him?

- [Padron] No, it's not Brad.

The body is of another young man

who ran away from home.

There were drugs
found in his system,

in fact we're thinking it
was a boy from outside.

- Thank you, Detective.

Thank you for calling.

[dramatic music]

[crying]

- Why're you crying?

Aren't you glad?

- Yeah, that's good, isn't it?

- Yeah.

[sobbing]

- We must continue to pray

and believe that our
prayers can be answered.

There is no pain
the Lord can't heal,

no need He can't fill.

[dramatic music]

Let us pray.

- I thought I might
find you here.

- This was our spot.

- I remember.

I always knew where to find
you two after the service.

Are you all right, sweetie?

- I just can't
listen to promises

about prayers being answered
and pain being healed.

I've been saying the same prayer
for four and a half months.

What am I doing wrong?

- You're not doing
anything wrong.

You just have to keep believing.

- What if I can't anymore?

You know,

getting Brad to set foot in
this church used to be a fight.

As he got older, I
just stopped trying.

Then he started
spending time with you

and something changed.

He was ready to leave his
past behind him and start new.

Because of you.

- His past.

Mrs. Lee,

was Brad adopted?

- He didn't tell you?

I'm so sorry, Lillian.

It was always a very
sensitive subject for him.

He was ten when he came
to our church in Missouri

and he just broke our hearts.

We were told his
mother was an addict

and that she had given
him up willingly.

She chose her habit
over her child.

We moved here soon after
the adoption was finalized.

Brad needed a new start

and we chose not to disclose
the adoption unless necessary.

- But what about his mom?

Is there a chance that
that's where he is?

- The last record of her

is from a Missouri
jail three years ago.

She's practically a
missing person too.

- Oh.

- We still have no idea
what Brad went through

before he came to live with us.

But he was holding
onto a lot of anger.

And that anger needed outlets,

and those outlets came in the
form of theft and vandalism.

And then he found you.

- What do you mean?

- All these things Brad didn't
tell you about his past,

don't see them as a reflection
of how he felt about you.

When you came into his life

you rescued him from
a very troubled path.

I just think he didn't
want to burden you

with the truth about his past.

What if it changed how you felt
about him, how you saw him?

- But it doesn't.

- I know that and you know that

but maybe it wasn't a risk
he was willing to take.

You changed his life,

and you can do that for
so many other people.

You continue to see the good
when all you hear is bad.

No matter what the
outcome of this is,

please, don't let it
break your spirit.

Don't lose the faith
that brought Brad to you

in the first place.

[dramatic music]

- "Even if it's difficult,

"you must try to normalize
your life as much as you can.

"Even if you can't do something
as well as you once could,

"you have to keep trying."

[pleasant music]

♪ Sun comes

♪ Over mountains

♪ And valleys turn to gold

♪ Forests shed their winter

♪ And birds sing

♪ Songs of hope

♪ Lovely

♪ When you're right
here beside me ♪

♪ Every story that you make

♪ Spring awake in my soul

♪ I can hear the
earth sing out ♪

♪ Rhythm of our hearts

♪ Feel a part of something

♪ So un-tameable

♪ Magic in the atmosphere

♪ Ringing out strong and clear

♪ Playing on, it's
so wonderful ♪

♪ Wonderful

- Who are you and what have
you done with my best friend?

- Just something
new I'm trying out.

- Well let me tell
you something.

It is working for you.

[chuckling]

- Okay, so I was
wondering something.

- Yes, what?

- Does Caleb Marino have
a date to the Fall Social?

[gasping]

- I'm sorry, it sounded
like you just asked

if Caleb Marino has a
date to the Fall Social

but I must have misheard you.

- Yeah, yeah, come on.

Does he?

- He, in fact, does not to
the best of my knowledge.

Why do you wanna know?

Asking for a friend, I assume?

- No comment.
[giggling]

But, in return, I need a favor.

- I knew it was too
good to be true.

- Get the group
together tonight.

- Sure.

What did you have in mind?

- I don't wanna say just yet

but I wanna go to the lake.

- That sounds perfect.

- Come on.

[bell ringing]
[Anna giggling]

[fire crackling]

Thanks for coming tonight, guys.

I guess I just wanted
to tell you all

how much it meant to me the
way you instantly accepted

Brad into our group of friends.

I'll admit, I was afraid

that you would freak out
and think I was crazy

the first time I asked
him to have lunch with us,

but you didn't.

You welcomed him to our table

and in no time, it was
like he had always been

a part of our little group.

Like he belonged.

And I am sorry

that I acted like
none of you understood

what I was going through
when Brad disappeared.

I guess I just thought
it was just easier

to throw myself a pity party

and pretend like I was
going through it all alone.

But this...

Brad, I mean,

it's affected all of us.

I'm ready

to stop mourning him

and start celebrating his life.

[pleasant music]

Wherever he is.

- I must admit,

the first day you called me
and told me you kissed Brad,

I thought you were crazy.

[laughing]

But then I met him,

like really met him,

not just saw him in the halls or

heard the rumors
about him and...

it was obvious what
you saw in him.

Knowing his reputation
around school,

I'll be honest, I wasn't
sure if it would last.

But then he gave you this.

What was it, less than a month

after you guys started dating?

[laughing]

- Three weeks.

- Three weeks!

[pleasant music]

And there was no denying
that he was crazy about you.

There's something
special about Brad.

- Brad, he's...

He's cool

and not in the way that
we all think we are.

[girls giggling]

But genuinely cool.

And he's pretty hot too.

No offense, Thomas.

- None taken.

The first time I met Brad,

he completely intimidated me.

I can't even lie.

I mean, we all
heard stories about

his shenanigans with
Lizard and Jones.

[laughing]

I had no idea what
he was capable of.

And I think at one
point he may have been

in that group that
broke into my house

and stole food out
of our refrigerator

while my family was on vacation.

[laughing]

- Yep, that was confirmed.

- I knew it.

But despite everything I
had heard about the guy,

I realized within seconds

of talking to him that I
wanted to be his friend.

- I hope Brad knows how
much we all cared about him.

[somber music]

- [Lillian] He does.

He would have loved to
be here with us tonight.

[upbeat guitar music]

♪ Life is but a moment

♪ Here before it's gone

♪ It passes by

♪ Not sure where it's going

♪ Fear of the unknown

♪ Consumes

♪ My mind

♪ Keeps on moving

♪ All we have

- [Anna] Are you sure you don't
want to stay for breakfast?

- Thanks.

There's something I gotta do.

- Okay.

- Bye.

♪ Always dreaming from afar

♪ Life is but a dream

♪ Yeah

[upbeat guitar music]

[insects buzzing]

[ominous music]

- So to clarify,

the first time Brad Lee
told you he loved you

was on your front porch
the night he went missing.

- [Lillian Voiceover] Well, yes.

- No.

No, no.

[dramatic music]

Anna!

- What, do you miss me already?

- Look, it's from him!

It's from Brad, from the
night he disappeared.

It's been under my
window this whole time

but it looks likes he
taped it to the glass

but it must have fallen.

- But Lillian, how do you
know it's from that night?

- Because look.

It says, "I love you."

- So what do we do?

Do we need to take
it to the police?

- No, we can't take it there.

It'll end up in a
drawer somewhere.

Besides, if I had told the truth

about where I last saw him

we would have found
this months ago.

- But Lil, I'm not sure
there's much you can do with it

if we can't even
read what it says.

- I know someone who can.

- Who?

- I don't have time to
explain but need your keys.

- [Anna] Okay.

[dramatic music]

- [GPS] In 400 feet, turn left.

You have arrived at
your destination.

[knocking]

[metal clinking]

[metal clinking]

- Chris?

Chris?

Chris?

[dramatic music]

Brad?

[dramatic music]

What?

What is going on?

Chris?

- How do you know him?

- How do you know him?

- Chris, he's my brother.

- [Lillian] I need to sit down.

- Of course.

Chris, go inside, check on mom.

- What does this say?

Please tell me that this
note explains everything

and that you didn't
just take off

and leave me and everyone else.

- It explains some things.

Yeah.

- Then tell me, please.

Where are we?

What is going on and
why are you and Chris...

Why did Chris--

- This house
belongs to my uncle.

My mom's brother.

My biological mom.

I never told you but--

- You were adopted.

I know.

Montana told me in
one way or another.

There's a lot of things
you didn't tell me

that I had to find
out from other people

or from the police.

- I'm so sorry.

- So what does it all mean?

- Mom's sick, Lil.

Like,

really sick.

She's been trying to find me

and my uncle found my
graduation announcement online.

That night,

after I was at your house,

he stopped me on the road and

he asked me if I
wanted to see my mom.

- So then what?

You got in the car
and never looked back?

- No, no, I...

I never intended to
leave the way I did.

It was never supposed to be
for more than a day or two.

- Well then what happened?

- I panicked.

Seeing my mom, talking to her,
getting to know her again.

I didn't know how
I could leave her.

She's not the same person
she was when I was a kid.

Mom's liver is failing, Lil.

She's dying.

She's been looking
for me because

she needed me to forgive her

for giving me up.

She needed to find me
before it was too late.

And deep down,

I knew I needed to find
her to forgive her, too.

Despite everything
that's happened,

everything she's put me through,

I still love her.

You know what that's like?

[dramatic music]

- What about your family?

The family that raised you.

Why didn't you just
pick up the phone

and explain to them
what was happening?

- I wanted to tell my family
but what would they think?

What was I supposed to say?

They had lined up a
perfect future for me,

with a great job and I was
supposed to start school

in the fall with all the money
they saved me for so long.

I know it sounds like excuses

but what was I
supposed to tell them?

That I was willing to
give all of that up

for a woman that abandoned
me when I was ten years old?

- And what was your
excuse for not telling me?

- I tried.

I taped this to your window,

I thought you'd see
it in the morning.

It says, "I have to go
away for a little while.

"I'm sorry, but
please don't worry.

"I hope you know how
much I love you."

- Five months

is not a little while, Brad.

That's a long,

long time.

- I know, I'm sorry.

I didn't think this through.

It all just kinda happened.

It's like I couldn't just leave

and tell you where I was going

without telling you
everything about me.

- Why not just
tell me the truth?

- I was afraid.

I was afraid of what
you'd think about me

if you knew the truth.

- I was afraid!

I was afraid you were
dead or kidnapped!

- I know, Lillian,
everything's gonna be okay.

- No, nothing is okay.

I'm not okay.

I haven't been okay
since the morning

I found out you were gone.

No, not gone, missing.

They found a body

that was checked against
your dental records, Brad.

They pulled DNA off
your toothbrush.

- I had no idea.

- What did you
think was happening?

Did you think everyone
just accepted the fact

that you were gone and moved on?

I spent five months searching
for your corpse in ditches

and dumpsters,
attending prayer vigils,

and questioning
everything I believe in,

practically yelling at God
because I didn't understand

how He could ever let
that happen to me.

And all because you couldn't
just tell me the truth.

- I'm so, so sorry, Lillian.

I don't know what else to say.

- It wouldn't have mattered.

I didn't care about
who you were before me.

All I cared about was who you
were when we were together.

[somber piano music]

Come back with me.

- I can't, Lil.

- What do you mean, you can't?

- My mom, she doesn't
have much time left.

But you can visit me anytime

and we'll still be together.

- This isn't just
about me, Brad.

Your family,

they need to see you too.

Wait.

You're not asking me to pretend

like you're still
missing, are you?

Is that what you're
asking me to do?

I have to go.

- [Brad] Don't go.

Lil.

- No.

- [Brad] Lillian,
please. I love you.

I've loved you this entire time.

- Stop!

Stop saying you love me if
that's how you're gonna show it.

I can't lie to my
friends and family

and pretend like I don't
know where you are.

If you really loved me, you
wouldn't ask me to do that.

- You just don't understand,
I can't leave her now.

- You're right, I
don't understand.

Brad, I have been defending
you to the police,

my parents, our friends,
practically the entire town,

from the very first
day you disappeared

and I swore to myself

that you would never
have just left me,

even after I found out
everything about your past.

And I was willing to look
like a fool for not knowing

so many things about you
because I loved you despite--

- I love you too,
I never stopped.

- I'm not finished.

How can I keep loving
you when I feel like

I don't even know you anymore?

The truth is that
everyone else was right.

You chose to leave.

You chose to leave me.

- It's not like that,
you know it's not.

- I'm not gonna
lie to everybody.

They deserve the
truth just like I do

and if you're not gonna
tell them, I will.

- Just please give me some
time to think about this.

- What is there to think about?

- My mom abandoned me when
I needed her most, Lil.

I'm not gonna do
the same to her.

- What do you think
you did to me?

[dramatic music]

- No.

- [Lillian] Goodbye, Brad.

- Don't!

Lil, please!

Lil, don't go!

Lil!

[sniffling]

[somber guitar music]

- I forgive you.

♪ What are you running from

♪ What are you running towards

♪ What has your life become

♪ What are you searching for

♪ Life can have such
sad distraction ♪

♪ Why can we be still in

♪ Slow

♪ Down

♪ Catch your breath

♪ And breathe now

- [Janice] He called
and told us everything.

♪ See the ending

♪ Ask the question

♪ Will this matter then

♪ What am I doing

[somber guitar music]

♪ Consider your state of mind

♪ Is this where
you saw yourself ♪

♪ Is your heart content

♪ Or do you need
something else ♪

♪ Peace will find
you in the quiet ♪

♪ Everything else can wait so

♪ Slow

♪ Down

- Lillian, hi.

- Hey.

What are you doing here?

- I owe you an explanation.

- Come on.

- I really did know what
you were going through.

When we were kids and Mom
couldn't take care of us,

she sent me to
live with my uncle.

But he didn't have
enough room for Brad

and before I knew it she had
given him up and he was gone.

I spent the last eight years

wondering what where
my brother was,

never knowing if he
was safe or even alive.

I hadn't seen him until
Uncle Jack showed up

that night with
him at our house.

- The night of graduation.

- My mom got out of
jail three years ago

and decided she
wanted to be sober.

Been looking for him ever since.

- How did you find out about me?

- Are you kidding me?

Brad couldn't stop
talking about you,

telling Mom all about
how incredible you were

and how you were the best thing
that ever happened to him.

Everything that's been
going on with our mom

has put him in a
really tough spot.

He didn't mean for things
to happen the way they did.

- I know.

- I didn't either.

- Chris, I don't blame
you for anything.

Really.

Honestly, I probably
wouldn't have believed you

even if you told me the truth.

And anyway, I should
be thanking you.

- For what?

[pleasant music]

- See?

You did tell me about Brad
in one way or another.

Does he know you're here?

- No way.

He probably thinks I took off

to avoid him kicking my
butt once he found out

I had been sneaking
down here to see you.

That's the other reason I left.

[chuckling]

Are you gonna be okay?

- Yeah.

Once I redefine the
meaning of okay.

[pleasant music]

[ominous music]

[dramatic music]

- [Lillian Voiceover] Dear Brad,

I thought your
disappearance had broken me.

But now I realize that you
were broken long before I was.

While I saw you as my rock,

you were the one who was
crumbling beneath me.

It hurts me that
I didn't see it.

But I think what hurts
me more than anything

is that you didn't want me

to know the truth
about your past.

There is nothing that you could
have told me about yourself

that would have made
me love you less.

Knowing the truth would
have only made me love

the person that you
have become even more.

I naiïvely thought
that who we were

before we were
together didn't matter

but I was wrong.

I lost part of myself
while I was looking for you

and now I have to re-discover
who I was before you

to figure out who
I am without you.

[dramatic music]

But I will never
stop praying for you.

I'll always remember you
and I'll always love you.

[dramatic music]

Even if you're gone.

[pleasant piano music]

♪ When you see the last star

♪ Burn out in the sky

♪ And every river, every ocean

♪ Is empty and dry

♪ That's when I'll go

♪ That's when I'll go

♪ When the sun has shriveled
and we're left in the cold ♪

♪ And when the
world is nothing ♪

♪ The stories we told

♪ That's when I'll go

♪ That's when I'll go

[pleasant piano music]

♪ Here

♪ I'll be right here

♪ Till the end

♪ Till the end

♪ That's when I'll go

♪ When we are close

♪ And shaking off the
dust of this place ♪

♪ I'll look at you,
you look at me ♪

♪ And we fly away

♪ That's when I'll go

♪ That's when I'll go

♪ Here

♪ I'll be right here

♪ Till the end

♪ Till the end

♪ That's when I'll go

♪ Go

♪ That's when I'll go

[somber piano music]